Hey Nicole,
It's been about 9 years since i lost my best friend. I miss you girl so much! Every time I hear our song (Pon de replay) I think of all the times we would dance and run around in circles at Nan and Pops. I remember all the times at the pool you would stand on one side of the diving board and I'd stand on the other and we would count to 3, jump off and have Drew jump in the middle of us. I remember when you first taught me cheerleading. You taught me how to do a cartwheel and handstands. Then, I became a cheerleader for awhile. I still can hear your voice calling my name asking me to play or sing with you. I love you beautiful, forever and always <3

Hey Nicole,
I wanted to tell you that I have a baby brother now. He is turning 1 years old. he is so cute. I wish you were here with me right know. I love you so much.

Nicole,
Our family will never ever in their life stop talking or thinking about you. You are our little angel.

I'm Breanna Engle, Kayla's best friend in her new school. Ever since i read your moms story, i thought about you and I'm so sorry. You seem like a sweet girl! love breTTYLXOX

Hey Nicole,
I miss you so much. I switched schools from Quakertown. But I'm getting better there so that's a great sign right? I love you miss you tons.TTYLXOX

Hey Nicole,
I know Christmas is over but I just wanted to say Merry Christmas and a Happy New year.Love you tons ttyl >3

Heyy I'm sorry I missed your b-day but I just wanted to say I miss u so much. Wish u were here. Love u tons ttyl <3

Happy Birthday Sweetie. Miss you tons!

Hello Nicole.

Hello Nicole,
I miss you to pieces. Right now I just wish you were right next to me. And right now in my heart and soul you are right next to me. I love you so much love you.

Dear Nicole,
me,Bella and Brielle were talking about you. And when Brielle was talking I saw you put your hands and your feet down on the ground.

I love you with all my heart. Love your cousin Kayla.

Dear Nicole, I love you so much. Your the best cousin.


Love Kayla

Thinking of you and your family often Nicole. They are truly blessed yo have had you in there lives. I hope you know how loved you are!!!

To everyone who is missing you everyday the warmth of my heart goes out to you. As spring approaches I am imagine-ing Nicole racing down the driveway at echo so totally happy to shed the coat and get her bike out and just run in the sun..great memories of such a happy girl.....i am sure you are all to.....love to all of you and peaceful happy thoughts are coming your way.....

Dear Nicole,
I miss you so so so much.

Hey Nicole I love you so much.

Hey Nichole today at school we made a letter to go to someone we really love i wish u were alive so i could give u one. Love You

HAPPY 11th BIRTHDAY Nicole

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE! Nan brought in birthday cup cakes for all the children at Premier today to celebrate and honor your day! The children and teachers sang "Happy Birthday" to you and took some pictures of the children enjoying the cupcakes.(Maybe Nan or mommy can send me their email address so I can send the pictures to them)
I think of you very often Nicole and pray for your family. I am sure you are watching over them.
Thank you for letting us celebrate you today.
Love, Miss Rose

Happy Birthday Nicole.
May all who remember you today, remember the joy you brought to us, the laughter, the hugs and the dancing.
Remember the joy of the Lord is my strength. One of your favorite songs you sang. If we only had known that you were the joy the Lord sent to us for a brief time.
Miss you all the time, until we see each other again, sing, dance and laugh for Jesus. He will enjoy that.
Nan

Happy birthday baby girl

Happy 11th Birthday Nicole! We love you & we miss you dearly little cousin! R.I.P! ~ Alecia ~

Hey Nicole Nan's bestfreind died I don't think you remember her.Her name is Virginina Petku.
love
kayla

Hey Nicole today I was crying because I relly missed you.you were the best cousin I fellt like you were my sister but your not your still like my sister

Isaiah 41:10

Hi girlfriend it's your big cousin Kayla we all miss even your mom we all love you i do to

In Remembrance of our Nicole. Her light shown brightly.

Nicole was nothing short of a blessing. Thank you God for allowing me to call Your angel, my daughter.

Thinking of you today Nicole!!..Rest in Peace little angel....

I knew Nicole for such a short time...yet she left such a lasting impression on me and all those around her...She was a vibrant child, full of life and goodness. I truly miss seeing her beautiful smile and seeing her love of life...may she rest in peace! And may all that knew her remember all the beautiful things about this young and amazing child....

Abby (Reppert) Monahan

Thinking of you and your family Niclole.

Not a day goes by, not a day... love you and miss you Nicole.

-Ashlie

just stopping by to say i love you and miss you i've been thinking about you all day today god bless you sweetheart, love your cousin Ryan

I will always remember your laugh and the fun we had together at day care. Bless you , sweetie.

aww she so cute im sorry for your lost:(

You are in heaven now, but your beautiful smile and personality will always remain among all those whos lives you touched. We miss you alot but we know you are in Gods arms.

Love always,
anonymous

All our love are with Nicole and it's comforting knowing that she is looking over us and bringing us peace and love.

Love,
Greg and Jo

Your birthday came and went, I did observe it by helping other children in the hospital. But the balloons I bought to let go for you, of course green & purple, got mixed up in the one's for the hospital and I did not notice until I got into my car again. So I hope they floated away as I was going into the hospital or some child received them.
It does help the pain ease as we help others in their suffering.
Still not a day goes by I do not think of you for some reason. I see another child, I think of something you would of liked, I hear a song you sang and of course Mikayla and Bella dance all the time. Now Mikayla is the one doing the cartwheels and Bella is watching and trying to copy her. You started something that will always be in our family and always a reminder of your smiling face and the joy in your laughter.
Nicole I love you.
Love, Nan

As a father of a very active 6 year old I am saddend at your loss. I do not believe I could cope if I lost my lil helper

Happy Birthday Nicole. You are missed by so many people.You have touched so many lives in your short life. Your mom should be so proud that she raised such a sweet little girl.

nicole you need to come back my life changed i need you we all need you .

I am sorry to read of your family's loss but am greatly encouraged to see how you and others have turned this tragedy into a calling of educating others. God bless you and your outreach ministry.

dear nicole i can do handstands and cartweels i learned from you.
love you and miss you.

love mikayla reppert

i love you and miss you nicole




from bella and kayla

Thinking of you always.
-Rose Eschner

nicole thank you for helping me with a hand stand and cartwheel i love you


to nicole
from kayla
age 6,7

Can't believe two years has gone by. We are comforted to know Nicole is with Jesus, but still miss her here! Mel, you are an incredible mother! You have faith that can move mountains and God is truly living in your heart! We may never understand why things happen, but God doesn't ask us to. He asks only that we trust in him and lean not on our own understanding. You and Juan are an incredible example to all of those who know you. Your faith shines through. May God continue to comfort, bless and find favor with you and your family. We love you!

It feels like its been a long time. I can still remember your smile and your laugh but my memories of you growing up seem to be fading. I know I will never forget you. I cannot, because you have left a lasting impression on me.

Always with love. Your Uncle Darin

What a day March 26, 2009 was. The memories of this beautiful little girl with her wide smile and uncontrollable energy stirred in my heart. 2 years, seems like yesterday. I started out at church at 6:30 in the morning and ended with Thanksgiving on my lips for the generosity of a loving God.
His ways are not our ways, and that is a understatement. The way the day played out would astonish all who hear it. It could of not been planned by anyone but a loving God, with all his mercies attached.
I miss you dearly, and ask God to give you a hug and kiss from me everyday. I dreaded this day, it is always a sad time and of course I relive all that happened over again. But God in his mercy spared some of that this year and helped me to see the future and appreciate more acutely the time we had together and the blessing you were and still are to our family.
Bella even started to call me nanny, Nicole you did that also and it actually was comforting to hear her say that, since I knew you were teasing me, just like Bella is now.
May peace be with all who read this, because our God is amazing and he brings you through any trial with love and grace to the other side. And we are stronger for it. Nan

I want to send my love to everyone and let you all know I am thinking of you. I cannot believe it has been two years now since Nicole has gone home with our Lord. She was and always will be such a blessing to everyone. I celebrate her life with you!
Love, Robin McGullam

What a truly sad day for everyone who knew Nicole. This day has been filled with more emotion than can be put into words. We don't always understand why things happen but we have to believe that God has a plan. His work is awesome and I am truly amazed and inspired by the events of today. I am unbelievably blessed to have known Nicole for her short time on earth and I am also unbelievably blessed to have experienced God's work this close up and personal. I know that Nicole is smiling ear to ear today and so happy to see the changes taking place. Nicole, we miss you terribly and love you more than words can say.
Love, Jeff, Jessica and Bella

Life goes on and great memories of lives lost not only guide the lifes left here but enhance them. I also cannot believe it has been 2 years already but so many awesome things have happened to the lives left behind. Melanie you are just sunshine, embracing each day as it comes and you have passed that on to your great son. And our newest family member, juan in his own radiance is just beaming with love.....thoughts of you all and those strong enough to be like you, brighten my day and keep me plugging ahead......thank you. love dave and amy

Mel, Andrew and Family,
It is so hard to believe that it has been 2 years since Nicole left us. I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and Nicole. I keep her picture up on my wall at work, so she is always on my mind. I want to remember that beautiful smile and the twinkle in her eyes. We were all so lucky to have had her in our lives!

Rose Eschner
Premier Child Care

Hello to all,
dave and i are cleaning out our home in hopes to move and we have been coming across some really comical pictures of nicole and the rest of the family and it reminded me of this avenue for us all to remember nicole and what she meant to us. My day today in cleaning out all my moments was full of laughter and tears all at the same time because of knowing her. Thank you Melanie and family for sharing her with us.
amy

to nicole i am sad because you died i was crying

to nicole i love you nicole from mikayla and ric

Hi Nicole,
It's me, Maddi. On your birthday I brought you pretty flowers, I hope you liked them. We love you like family and miss you very much. School is not the same without you. Every morning when I walk into our old classroom in second grade I remember you giving me papers,notes and drawings. You are always in my heart.
Love Ya, Maddi

I know you dont now me well,but i am your cousin. I love you so much but i wish i knew you more now. You were a wonderful person so sweet and loving. I miss you more than anyone could. We all wish you could come back to us. We wish you had another chance...To live and be with us. I love you.

Your loving cousin.

mikayla and ric want you to come back because you are pretty when you could come back i want you to show me how to cartwheel and cheer i forget some of your cheers mikayla and ric love you from mikayla and ric

I pray for your family often and I know that God is in control even under the most unfair circumstances my wish is that you will lead others to heaven.

Nicole, we love you and miss you during our visits back there. We pray for your mom and family that they still has the strength to keep going on , and with the help of Juan and new additions to the family they can and will, but NEVER to forget you our loving ANGEL. We love all of yous back there and only hope the best for yous.

I love you I wish you were down here. How are my doggys? Are they keeping you company? Your garden at school is so pretty.
Love, Madison

THE BROKEN CHAIN

We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name,

In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone,

For part of us went with you, the day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide,

And though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same,

But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.

--Author Unknown

I just wanted to take a minute and wish the family well today and know that as you look out at that blue sky,that I believe that is Nicole's way of letting everyone know that she is in a better place than us and that she is okay!! Bless all of her family and keep your heads high!!
Jennifer, Morgan, Dennis Jr.

In Loving Memory of Nicole:

I think I was an angel, God put me on your road,
To help you find direction and help to ease your load.
I was not a destination and not a stopping place,
But just and indicator to point you to "His Place."
I loved being your angel! A privilege to be,
To have you glad to find me here and have you loving me.
I'm thankful I could be here - please don't misunderstand,
I was just a simple tool within the Master's hand.
You can't cling to an angel, your progress it would slow,
For there is now a special place you know I had to go.
I must stay where He put me, no longer on the ground,
To join me would be silly - it would only weigh others down.
Please trust that I have shown you the proper way to go,
For He who gently placed me here your life does fully know.
And when along your journey He takes your doubt and fear,
You'll know within your heart that I'm cheering for you here.
Still praying that you love Him, as He always loved you,
And let Him wipe away your tears to make you over new.
For that's the only lasting thing that matters in the end,
You see, I am your angel, your daughter and your friend.

We are thinking of all of you today and always.
Love and God Bless.

Hard to believe that a year is here. Life has been so emotional without you. We have all laughed and cried a lot, but mostly thought of you and your wonderful smile. The memories are still so strong, I don't think they will ever fade. I really hope they never do. I watch you on video and it makes me happy to hear your voice and see you happy but it also makes me sad to think of what we have lost. Bella loves to watch the video Ric made of you. She tries to do cartwheels and says "like Nicole". We talk to her every night and tell her the story of Nicole. She now sometimes tells me the story of Nicole. She will come out and say I want to be with Jesus now and see Nicole. It makes me happy that we are continuing to remind her of who you are and how much you loved her. We all miss you terribly and think of you constantly. So many things make us think of you. The smallest things pop up at the most unexpected times. We have all been so blessed to have spent 7 wonderful years with you and you have impacted so many others lives. I see more and more every day what a blessing your life has been and how we are all a lot better having known you and loved you. We miss you very much and love you even more everyday.

as a year comes on and all the memories the family talk about with there loving little angel,i just have to say i know shes looking down from heaven and smiling,Everytime i read one of the postings tears just shed down my face, you all miss her dearly. RIP baby girl and we know you already know that your family and friends will never let your memeory go,make the family strong tomorrow,i know they will need you. xoxo

The flowers are popping up our of the ground and soon will bloom and it reminded me how much nicole loved all seasons.....summer, winter, spring and fall and how one spring we were doing something at Rick and Dianna's and we were outside and I mentioned how pretty the blueish purple flowers were that pop out of the grass every now and then and she said, "my nan put it there" and it warmed my heart how confident she was in her nan and how great I will feel when my innocent grands feel the same way about me...... The scent of flowers and springtime bring us closer to the hope of seeing Nicole once again.

hey angel,

i have been really thinking about you lately, b/c its almost a year since everything. also there has been a something that has happened just in the past week w/4 children that lost there lives in a fire. when i read about it i cry and then i look up at your picture @ my desk and it makes me smilejust to see your beautiful smile . today is palm sunday and i will be going to see you and place a palm on your grave, know you loved easter

ok sweetie i love you and miss seeing you smile but i know that you are up there smiling down on all your love ones xoxoxoxox

Nicole,
I was thinking about you last night, about the last time you spent the weekend at our house (which was 1 year ago). How you wanted to go on the swing in the snow and tried to make a snowman even though the snow would not cooperate. Everytime I open a new milk at home, I think of you and that I should not remove the ring surrounding the cap since thats what your mom does. How much you warmed up to Ruby and kept hugging her. I SO wish there would be more of those weekends. We all miss you SO much and think about you all the time. I know that you are watching us and please keep an eye on Matt (since he will be driving). It will soon be spring and the flowering tree we planted for you will be blooming with beautiful flowers, reminding us of you. We are always thinking of you and love you very much.

Christmas came and went, I was glad to see it go. A New Year is here for 2008, may God send his peace, which is never to late.

Nicole I miss you and kiss your picture each morn, and ask God to tell you "I love You". Tomorrow is a new day that God has in mind, may his blessings go with us as we spend our time.

Andrew's birthday is coming, he will soon be a teen. Oh how you would love to tease him with things you have seen.

Everyday is brand new, I need a new start, God's strength I need, to keep a loving heart.

Spend your time in peace sweetie, it is a precious commodity. For your time with us was so special, I wish we had known, God gives and takes with all of his own.

Now time will go on with each passing day, memories will fill our minds, when we are still. If we had a choice, would we want to stay?

God's blessings on all, for time is very short. Tell everyone you love them, for tomorrow may not be.
Regrets are hard to handle, so speak up now. God send them your mercy and show them how.

Jesus tell her I Love Her and give her a kiss for me.

Nan

The love and at the same time pain that is expressed in this guest book shows the impact a human life can have on another. Each of us can try to be that loving impact on the life of others. Our husbands, wives, children, grandchildren, mothers and fathers......everyone...maybe our neighbors, friends and yes the mailman........happiness and joy is what Nicole brought our family and she was not stingy or cheap with it...please let each and everyone of us not let the anxieties of life and the fast pace of each day steal the time we have right now with eachother....linger in your kisses and hugs and play with the joy and laughter Nicole would have enjoyed.
Full moons and spring flowers and another great year is on its way.
love to you all,
amy

I just wanted to take the time and send a special prayer to the parents at this holiday season! Just always keep in mind that God doesn't make any mistakes and that he had a purpose for Nicole. Also, that she is always with everyone,in our heart, minds, and souls. God Bless both families at this holiday season.

Was just thinking about you and your family today as I was decorating for Christmas. I am so sad when I think of the void that will be there this Christmas and all of the ones to come. I think of you often and pray especially for your mom and brother! Your mom is a Wonderful Inspiration to many people and I can't help but think of the testimony that she is giving to people she doesn't even know! I think that you did that too. I have heard of your love for God and how you asked questions and really wanted to know more about him. What an incredible and insightful child. You had more knowledge and love for him than people who have had a lifetime to learn about him. You are thought of often, as you and Bryce are the same age. You make me realize that life is unpredictable, but that we need to show our love daily!! - Justine

love you muah me and melanie and the whole family miss you

Be still and know I am God.

That is what keeps me from being angry, resentful & venegful for the taking of this innocent child.

I think of the pain you must of went through, and as always God speaks to my heart and lets me know he was right there all the time. Never did he leave your side to let you walk this path alone.
I know everyone says you are an angel watching over us, but I believe you are with God and you do not see the sorrow and pain we are going through. Because if you did, you would be so so sad for us and I cannot believe God would want you to see the heartache. You are in a better place than any of us can fathom.
I often ask Jesus to tell you I love you & give you a hug for me. I miss you so much, I just had to write to tell you, it always makes me feel better.
Today Matt and Zach went to church with me and Gram, I thought of the times you went with me, we went to a couple of different churches, just because you wanted me to take you to church. How blessed I am to have had that time with you and to know you were making your choice to love your God. You were much wiser than many of us, you choose early in life to follow and love Jesus. Thank God you did, because we are assured you are with God now, we don't have to wonder if you are going to be there waiting for us, we know you will be. And that Nicole keeps me going, knowing you will be there and run to me when I come home.

This is going to be a hard Christmas for all of us, you will be in our thoughts all the time. Knowing how excited you would be, waiting for Christmas to come, giving and getting surprises and presents. I want to go out and buy you something, just because I feel you need to know we did not forget you. I think I will buy something I think you would like and find another little girl your age to give it to. Let it be a blessing to another child, I believe you would like that.
Well enough, I miss you and wanted to write to get it off my mind and into God's heart.
Love,
Nan

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE! After visiting yesterday, we went to Applebees. We talked about the time that we had the surprise birthday party there for you. We all miss and love you deeply and thank God every day for the time that we had with you. You touched us all in so many ways.

Happy Birthday Nicole. We all miss you and love you so much. Know that we are always thinking of you. Life just isn't the same without your added energy around. Kayla tells me all the time how much she misses you and she can always be caught staring at your picture. She always looked up to you. Thank you for being part of our lives.

Nicole,
All the days leading up to this special day were always filled with lots of excitement for you. You were always so anxious for your birthday to come and for everyone to share in your excitement. We remember your birthday party last year and how much fun you had with your school friends and family. It didn't matter to you that it was so cold and windy. It was your special day! This year we feel a huge void on this day. Lots of sadness over what should be a happy occasion. Bella was so happy to be able to bring you some balloons and say happy birthday to you. She was thrilled to tell you of our plans for the day and how she misses you very much. Happy Birthday Sweetie! We miss you everyday.

Today, Nicole, is your birthday. How do I explain the feelings. This is 8 years ago I helped and watch you being born into our family. You were beautiful, as you would be all your life here with us. I have been thanking God for letting us have you, even though losing you is one of hardest things to go through. What we would of missed if you had not been here to smile and laugh.
I sat at the pool and remembered how you loved to swim and dive off the diving board, you were so happy when you could do what the boys could do.
I always write in my cards to others to "keep the memories, for they will help you through", maybe down the road, right now it still hurts so bad when I remember.
Kayla always ask to listen to "your songs", so she can dance how you showed her to dance. She misses you so much.
Jesus tell Nicole Happy Birthday for me and as always tell her I love her and miss her.
Happy Birthday sweetie.
Nan

happy birthday nicole! i miss you and think about you a lot.

love,
athena

I get an email notice when any of you post. It is so nice that you still write to this precious child. Colleen, Ric and others.......I am so sorry this happened to such a beautiful innocent child. I lost my brother in a very horrific way. Not quite the same as losing a child but pretty darn painful.

Ric-my brother "takes" things from my home also. I have had many strange things happen and signs that tell me that my beloved brother is with me. Nicole is with all of you also.

God Bless

nicole,

hey sweetie, i come back to your guest book every once in a while and i read all the in puts still some times it gives me joy but then sometimes it makes me cry it depends on the day. somes i ask god why he had to take such a wonderful, beautiful and full of life little girl, who had so many people who loves her. of course i dont get a direct answer but he answers me in other ways. you were always a shining star and i think that somes god wanted you up in the sky to brighten up the sky at night to guide us all in are ways because i know at night i look up at the stars and know that they are brighter because of you. nicole honey we all miss you very much and hate the fact that you are gone, i know that travon misses you very much. i hope all of this that i said makes since i wrote what i felt inside at the time .. love you sweetie

Nicole,

Yesterday I came into my office and was doing my work and noticed there were a bunch of colored pencils gone. Right away I thought of you. I thought, she must of came during the night and grabbed them. Them missing has Nicole written all over it! Just thought I would share that. Kayla and I miss you a lot and she always tells me. I hope you are watching over her and seeing her enjoying school. She wishes so much to be able to tell you about what she is doing in school and everything new she is learning, but I am sure you are seeing it all. Just remember we love you.

It's been awhile, but believe me you have not been out of my thoughts. Everyday I think of you and wish I could hold you and tell you I love you.
If I could turn back the hands of time, I would hold you more, tell you how much I love you, tell you how special you are. I'd speak to you more about God's love and sing more songs to God.
If I could have one request from God, it would be to see you and hold you and tell you I will see you again. What is hard is not having the chance to say good bye.
God has been showing me how blessed we are to have you in our lives. And to be patient, for all of this is to his Glory.
Someone who lost a child told me the heartache does not subside it just gets softer. I'm looking forward to soft.
Love ya sweetie, always in my thoughts.
Nan

Nicole,
Today I looked at your guest book and am still amazed people are writung. The world is filled with wonderful & caring people.
I still see you dancing in the basement when I look down the stairs. I seem to see you everywhere lately. I cannot pray without seeing you stand beside Jesus and smiling at me. The song you liked came into my heart the other night "The joy of the Lord is my strength" How we sang that song as loud as we could.
I miss you terribly, I know I will see you again when I come home also.
I love you dearly.
Nan

hi nicole
my husband harvey works with your family i have a big favor to ask i just lost me grandfather on the 9th of july can you please watch out for him you are one of the them who really can touch the heart of many people thank you very much nicole

I read this somewhere and had to come back to Nicole's page to post it... hope it brings some comfort.

When God calls little children to dwell with him above, We mortals sometime question the wisdom of His love.For no heartache compares with the death of one small child Who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild. Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold, So He picks a rosebud before it can grow old. God knows how much we need them, and so He takes but a few To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view. Believing this is difficult still somehow we must try, The saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye". So when a little child departs, we who are left behind must realize God loves children, Angels are hard to find

Nicole,
You were so very lucky to have a wonderful family that loved you so very much! :) Randi Josh and I went to your Fund Raiser a few weeks ago, it seemed to have a great turn out. You would be so proud of how many lives you have touched in your short stay here with us. God Bless the Reppert family and stay strong!
Love,
Jenn

Nicole,

I just wanted to leave a message and tell you how much I miss you. I see your pictures everyday both at home, my office, on my phone, and everywhere else I have it. It is hard to still grasp the fact of what happened. Just know we all miss you dearly.

i love you
you are so beautiful

My deepest Sympathies to the Reppert Family,

God took her through the gates, to a beautiful place and now she will watch down upon us. Nicole will never be forgotten. She will always be in my thoughts. I will continue to pray for your family.

Nicole, Thanks for watching my back on May 29th. After the accident I sat on the bank of I-80 looking back at skid marks. I kept wondering how I missed the guard rail and the sign posts.It could have been alot worse had something not told me to put my seat belt on when I left the job site that afternoon. It happened so fast and was over so fast. And others could have been hurt. But nothing more than a flat tire and some body damage.Thanks for reminding me about the seat belt.

Hello Nicole!
Tiana and I came to visit you last week...I noticed your spot right away with the beautiful butterfly and chimes :) It's been a couple months and I must say little one, that I have thought of you EACH and EVERY day! After we visit with Trevon, we'll visit you again and tell you all about it!
We miss you,
Shari and Tiana xo

As I watch this family who shared this life my heart grieves for them. Yes they are all different, their eyes seem hollow as they struggle with the "whys". Everyone related to Nicole will miss this ray of sunshine each day but no one more than her uncles, aunts, cousins, grandparents and of course brother and her adoring mom. My hope is for peace of heart for each of them. And some sort of contentment. I pray to God for each of them each night for some sense of calmness in their hearts. As we approach the day of the scholorship festival for Nicole I am awe struck by the love all these immediate family members have for one another and how proud Nicole is to have a family like yours

Dear God,
It has been a little over two months since Nicole came home to you. Please give her this message from me and Pop, we love you sweetie, we miss you terribly. We talk about you, but not long, since we both start to cry and it is hard to go on. I think of you all the time, but mostly on Thursdays after the other kids are asleep, then I imagine what you would of done this night and how you would of played with everyone and teased whoever you could to get a laugh from. I also wish I could have you lay beside me again until you fall asleep. We never realize how precious those moments are until they are gone.
Again and again I beg God to just let us say goodby and hug you one more time, to see you wonderful smile, so we all can say "it will be ok and we will see you again".
Only God knows why this happened, only he has the knowledge of the future and how this will change everyone to the core that are involved in your life here.
Life goes on, which is so hard, we just want it to stand still to try and get a grasp and understand the gravity of the moment, but things move so fast and before you know it, it is over two months down the road of life already.
Dear God, tell her the grass is green, the trees have beautiful leaves and the flowers are blooming. And every spring this is the thoughts we will have of her, she has begun a new life with you, where she is blooming and sunshine is reflected from you onto her face. You say "after a long night of weeping and sorrow, there will be sunshine and joy in the morning". I am holding you to that!

I still see you running up the driveway shouting Nan, Pop! Or coming in and sitting with us at night and falling asleep on my lap. How precious are our memories now, they are bittersweet, glad to have them, but hard to see them without feeling the pain.
God tell her I will be there!!!!

Nicole,
I can not believe that it has been 2 months since you have gone. I'm still grappling with that fact daily. Everything seems to remind me of you. I am so glad for the weekend that you & Drew stayed with us in February and for the family vacation that we took to Washington. We are grateful that Nan took the time to have all the grandkids every Thursday night and Friday so that they are more than cousins, they are friends. There will always be something missing from this family but you will always be talked about, remembered and loved. You may not be here to share with us in body but we know that you are with us always. I would do anything to bring you back even just for a day or two so we could say our goodbyes and tell you how much we love you. Please watch over our family and we all look forward to being with you again. You are in our hearts and minds everyday and loved and missed deeply.

Dear my precious Nicole,

Everyday I think of you, I wish you were here, I just pray you could be with us. It has been 2 months now and it's hard to know that I will not see you get any older than 7, I will not see you drive, I will not see you graduate, I will not see you get married, those things run through my mind all the time and it brings tears to my eyes. Like I said before, there is a huge emptiness since you have been gone. The day I got the phone call, my heart dropped, when I got to the hospital and found out you only had a slim chance of surviving, my life took a total dive. To even begin to think that you will not be around, made my cry so hard. The two days in the hospital were so hard for me, I just kept praying either you would pull through, or I would wake up. Because I swore it was just a nightmare. I still think it is sometimes and you will just come in my office like nothing happened and life will be back to normal again. But I have to face facts, and that is that it will not happen. For the rest of my life on this earth, I will have a huge spot in my heart and life that has nothing in it anymore, that spot will ALWAYS be saved for you. The way you touched so many lives in your short time with us, is amazing. I know I never said this to you before, but I LOVE YOU. And I MISS YOU. Rest in Peace my princess.