yesterday was your special day:"Father's Day", wish you could have been here for your son to get in contact with you.
You were loved, cherished, respected and now very much missed.
In another week you would be sixty four.
Gone for eight years, left one month short of your fifty sixth birthday. It is still a very young age for a healthy men o body and mind, but then we never know what had expired in your mind to have taken your own life.
I truly believe that people , who leave voluntarily have a heavy burden they carry, and cannot see any positive conclusion for their troubled existence.
I wish you had confided in one of your family members or friends.
You were always laughing, showing happiness, never any concern to any of us, that there might have been sadness, worries of any kind in your life.
You were an actor, and it came as a shock to us, that your life had ended, a day before we spoke, laughed, telling each other to call soon, staying in contact, missing and loving the presence of being together.
I miss you, Tom, wish I was there to soothe your troubled mind, help you with whatever had brought you sadness.
I was your Mom, the one you could have talked to about anything. I would have never criticized you ,no matter what had burdened your tender heart, your sensitive soul.
Happy Father's Day in Heaven.
" Days are filled with many blessings,
some we cannot comprehend,
since they come quiet unexpected
in a form too hard to understand.
We might see a light through darkness,
find a path obscured before,
as we thought we had lost connections,
from a presence of it's core.
Yes, we search what lies beyond
our future, presence, past,
knowledge is not comprehensive
of God's blessings he will cast.
We must thank him, even though,
we are unable to understand,
why and when things turn out badly,
as if sinking in quicksand.
Faith, I think is what we most need,
in the times when things go wrong.
When we lose the precious loved ones,
as we feel we can't any longer go on.
May the strength that keeps us moving,
stays with us through thick and thin.
Lends the power of mind and body,
so that, dear God, we never cave-in."