There are no adequate words to express my feelings about your grief, pain and loss over beautiful, beautiful Alison. She did not chose to have the illness of addiction. Nor did you do anything to cause it. Family suffers as much as the addict; actually more.
Just like nobody chooses cancer or Alzheimer's, nobody is jumping rope at age 6 saying I think I would like to be an addict when I grow up. Society needs to stop shaming addicts. Shame is lethal.
Shame and the stigma surrounding the disease of addiction hampers people from getting help sometimes.
Your honesty and unbelievable courage took some of the power away from unfortunate stigma that so often accompanies this devastating illness.
You honored Alisson's life by doing that.
My heart goes out to you. I am 8 years sober and my life if hard due to my past and living in a society that won't let me ever forget that I was once in active addiction. That is our next frontier to face; when an addict gets sober, let's let go of what can be a troubled past and let them live in peace assuming they have made amends for all harm done.