Seth Robert McEwan

16 years...16! Looking back, its hard to imagine that it’s been so long (and yet the wrinkles I am beginning to see on my face everyday is proof enough for me to believe it). Soon, you will have been gone the same amount of time as you were here. Know that day isn’t any easier. Some years are more bearable than others but there’s a hole just the same. Because of time, there are things that I have forgotten that only pictures or a recording helps bring them back to my remembrance.one thing...

Dear Seth:
Just want you to know, as always, that I am thinking of you. I was talking about you to a friend the other day. I said it had been 8 1/2 years and after I was done talking with her I sat there are thought "WOW" I remember those first months were the darkest moments in my life at that time and I thought "how will I make it this first year". And now look how long it has been. Sometimes I just start crying when I think of you. I miss you so much and like I've said to you...

I've missed you quite a lot lately. No different than any other time I guess cause I think of you every day but you've been on my mind and in my heart quite heavily lately. I wish I could grab you out of my thoughts and give you a BIG hug. Love you lots and lots!

Thinking about you and your family today. Miss you friend.

Seth-I tried sending a birthday wish but i guess it didn't go through. But I just wanted to wish you a belated happy birthday. It definitely was a hectic day this year but I don't know if i was just imagining it or if you were really there but there were moments that day that I felt that I was not alone! I miss you--sometimes it is deeper than i ever thought it could be. I love you!

Happy birthday Seth!

It is Acura Legend week. I haven't seen any for a long time and have seen 3 this week. But it dosen't matter whether I see a car like yours or not, I still think of you every day. You know what I am going thru right now, and even though I struggle with understanding it all, I know that whatever happens and when it happens, that you will be right there waiting for me. I love you......always and forever.

Seth-
I went with dad to visit your grave on Memorial Day and it was bittersweet--as it always is. I saw a friend from high school there and we talked about you for a little bit. She couldn't believe that is has been just over 7 years since you left. When I think about it, there are still random moments where it feels weird that you are gone. Dad mentioned that he wonders what you would look like and what you would be doing. I too think about that every day. Oh how I would give...

Dear Seth:
I think of you EVERY DAY. When the tears fall each day they might be from sadness because of our loss. They might be from laughter because of the memories. No matter the reason the tears still fall.
RHMILY.......Always and forever!!!

MOM