May God bless you and your family in this time of sorrow.

Happy 38th Birthday Bud...it does this mother’s heart so much good to know, and see, how you are still so remembered...even after 17 years you still have friends, and family wishing you a Happy Birthday! I suspect (one of your favorite phases when you were little) that your memory is strong because of the guiding light you continue to be to so many!

I lovely thing happened yesterday for your birthday, as you know, Ryker’s birthday is in July, but since he’s not in school (you know all about having a Summer birthdays and not being able to celebrate with your school friends) he didn’t have a class party...his teacher chose yesterday for his class to wish him a Happy Birthday and to sing to him. Of course with COVID-19 this was all done thru a Zoom meeting (I’m including a picture of Rykie in his birthday crown)...I can still remember when you celebrated your fifth birthday!!

I have no doubt birthdays with the Angels are so much more festive then here, so I’m so happy that your dancing and singing with all the Light that Heaven gives.

I love you so much and wish I could give you a huge birthday hug...but I’m sure grandma did that for me already.

Mom

Happy birthday, Craig.

Well Buddy its been almost 17 years...the part of my heart, that didnt go with you, is still broken and hurts like it was day one. Often times I cant remember what I did yesterday, but when it comes to you, and the end of your time with us, I can remember day upon day that led up to and then the day when you left to return to your eternal home...almost each moment is crystal clear in my minds eye. What I choose to focus on is the moment I saw you last as you headed out the door, stopped before going down the outside stairs you turned to me and said, I love you mom....that one moment stays in the forefront of my memory. All the times you told me you loved me are permanently planted in my mind...regardless of all the things that slip thru my brain, you and your last moments with me will never be forgotten.

Happy 33rd Birthday Buddy! I'm sure there were a lot of Angels dancing with you today to celebrate. In honor of your day, I spend a couple of hours holding your newborn nephew Ryker...who knew I'd be holding a newborn again on this day, 33 years later!

Love you Sweetie, keep dancing with the Angels, enjoying your birthday,
Mom

Hey Bud...here we are again, 12 years later and nothing feels different. You're still gone, and I still miss you so much it hurts. I can definitely say, without a doubt that those idiots who say "...it gets better with time." DO NOT know what the heck they are talking about. I don't know what they'd consider better, but this is not it.

I still think of you as my True North...just knowing how loved and happy you are right now guides me through each and every day. Your family and friends will never stop thinking about you, how you touched all our lives, so differently, yet in the same way...with so much love and giving of yourself...that your memory continues to live on so strongly in each of us.

I'll always carry you in my heart sweetheart, and my minds eye will never forget your beautiful smile!

I love you,
Mom

Hey Craig...
It's been a while, but I wanted to say hello. I definitely think of you from time to time and just wanted to drop a line.

You're always in my heart my friend. I'll never forget you.

Love you!
-Mic

Hey Buddy...I know it's been awhile, but I wanted to add Timme to your photos because I know you'd being have so much fun with her.

Even though I don't write here as often as I used to, I still think of you every minute of every day...and miss more than ever.

I love you Sweetie,
Mom

Happy 32nd Birthday Buddy...I'm sure you're dancing with the Angels in celebration. You're always on my mind and forever in my heart...I miss you more than anyone could know. I love you tons!

Mom

Hey Craig... I still say hello to you in my head from time to time, not sure whether or not you'd listen in on me but just know that I'll never forget you. I posted something on facebook the other day, after having been introduced to YTCracker.. the hacker turned rapper, you'll remember him from the AOL days. He was like an internet God, even back then, lol. Anyway, the post ended up with like 540 comments of reminiscing and of course I can't discuss that kind of stuff without remembering & mentioning you. All your internet buddies love and miss you. I'm fortunate to have had the opportunity to meet you. Much love.

Happy Birthday Buddy! There is so much I want to say, so much in my heart, but it's hard to put it all down. You know it anyway, you always seemed to know what I was feeling and what I needed the most...majority of the time it was just a hug.

Reading Natalie's message has really made my heart and pride for you swell. You were always such a caring person, taking care of everyone else first, before yourself. Your heart was so big, and generous...except for when it came to your sisters...just kidding...you may have faught like all siblings do, but push came to shove, no one said a bad word about them to you...you were always about family and friends.

I know there is no sense of time in Heaven, but I believe that birthdays are still special. I'm sure you are having quite the celebration with Grandma leading all the festivities.

I love you Sweetie and miss you so very much, enjoy your birthday party,
Mom

Craig
Sorry it has taken me so long to write to you. I can't believe it's been ten years, just saying ten years blows my mind. I was so deeply sadden to hear the news of your loss. It was like someone was playing a sick game with me, that I wish wasn't true. I never thought about not always having you apart of my life. I know sometimes we would not talk but I always knew if I needed a friend or a good laugh you were only a phone call away. I always felt like we would be apart of each others lives no matter what. I'm glad that at least I have all the CRAZY and FUN times we shared together and I know that will last me a life time ( I will even cherish the arguments we had together...lol). I still remember the last time we talked when I moved out to California and you were trying to convince me to come live with you because where I was staying wasn't working out. It was just like you to always fix things for me. At the end of the conversation you said "Natalie I love you like the sister I never wanted!" Lol I always loved your sense of humor:). I'm so glad that I was apart of your life and that I got to witness the love that you and your Mom shared and the bond that you had. It makes me so happy that you still live on....and TRUST me you will never be forgotten.

I miss you and think about you always

Natalie Ruiz-Talley

Craig!

Happy New Year man!

So over christmas my mom, sister, and I were watching Pitch Perfect and they did a rendition of "No Diggity." My mom was super quick to point out that that song ALWAYS makes her think of you and we all and a nice moment of remembering all the good times of you coming over to our house, and of course singing and dancing to that song.

I miss you man and think about you often. I'm glad this page still exists to see that others still think of you too.

Love you Craig!

-- Mic

Merry Christmas Bud! I am sure you and Grandma had the best seat in the Lord's house while celebrating the birth of His Son. We all missed you both today and were remembering other Christmases with all of the cousins together.

As always babe I miss you. I love you Sweetie...hug Grandma for me and please wish her a Merry Christmas for me.

Mom

Hi Buddy...Yesterday was a hard day, sending Harley off to be with you. He can once again paw at your eye lashes and chew on your hair. I wish I could have sent his spinners with him so that you two could play fetch, but I'm sure you'll come up with something else to use.

I know he's in good hands now, no longer suffering from diabetes, and able to run and play again like he used to before he became ill. I'm so glad the two of you are back together again, I know you always had so much fun together.

I love you sweetie,
Mom

I still think about you often. Love you Craig & family.

Happy 30th Birthday Buddy!! I know that you are celebrating this milestone while you are dancing with the Angels.

I love and miss you baby,
Mom

Hey Buddy,

I so wish that this was not the only way I could share my thoughts about and with you, I so wish I could do so in person.

Another year has passed, nine years and yet I can still remember every minute of the day you left us...can't remember what I did yesterday, but I sure can remember that day. There is a phrase from a song I listen to that is so true: "...We are all one phone call from our knees". I remember that one call and so wish that it had never happened.

I am so touched by Sarah B's entry into your guest book; it warms my mother's heart to see how much you continue to touch the lives of those who knew you, even if only in cyber space. Your legacy continues on, through those that you touched personally as well as online.

Your are missed each and every day, but so much more today as the pain of your loss is brought to the forefront through the strong reminder of the large void left in all our lives.

There is so much more that I could put down here, but it would come off as ramblings of a mother's broken heart. Just know that you are loved and missed, by so many, even outside of your family.

I love you babe,
Mom

Craig & I met online many, many years ago - he was friends with several of my friends so we naturally became quick friends. Life came along & we lost contact over the years. I will never forget hearing from a mutal friend a few months after that he had passed. I think of Craig every year & come on here to read the messages from his loved ones. I still pray for everyone that was touched by Craig and for his family's comfort.

May you continue to rest in peace Craig. Your legacy lives on through all of those that knew you.

God Bless

Hey Babe...I'm sorry that I'm late to wish you a Happy Birthday here. I hope you liked your balloons...that's the only thing I can still do for you on your birthday, bring you balloons.

I hope you had a great party dancing with the Angels, I'm sure that your humor was a party favorite!

I love you Craiger,
Mom

Hey Bud...another year has passed without you. Sometimes it feels like a lifetime, sometimes if feels like yesterday when you left us.

I will never stop missing you and wishing that you were still with us. In my minds eye I can still see your wonderful smile and laughing eyes, in my heart I can still feel your love.

I still miss you son, and will until the day we are reunited in the presence of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

I love you Craiger,
Mom

Dear Becky,
I know you have been through so much. For what it is worth, I never forgot our friendship and kept you in my prayers. You have lost precious loved ones and support is so important. You may remember me from Bella Vista days.
With love, Mark Johnson

Hey babe...can you believe it, Chris married? Sometimes it saddens me thinking of all the things you are missing, but then I remember how happy and loved you are right now and that brings me a greater joy. I love you babe and miss you so much every moment of every day. Mom

Craig,

Chris' wedding was last night. Can you believe it? He tied the knot!

I was his Best Man and Steve and Fred were groomsmen as well. I know you would've been a groomsman if you were still here with us.

We talked about old stories looked back in the past about all of the crazy things we did!

Just wanted to tell you that I miss you buddy! I'm sure you were looking down on us.

Happy New Year Bud! Another year down and a new one to look forward to. Keep watch over all of us...especially me when I'm driving the Jeep...I can hear you in my ear say, "No you cannot go over stuff just because you can!" I love you babe, Mom

I still find myself thinking about you from time to time, and just wanted to let you know you'll always be in my thoughts. Miss you cre / Craig.

Hey babe...I know you are welcoming Nitro with opened arms. He, Turbo and Riley have now joined together for you to take care of and play with. Remember, Nitro is fast in the straight away, but slows for the corners...it's the only way to catch him when he makes a break for it!

I love you,
Mom

Happy 28th Birthday Buddy...I know you are dancing with the Angels in celebration!! I miss you sweetheart.

Love, Mom

Craig! Happy Birthday, man... I miss you

Well here we are again sweetie, seven years later and yet it just doesn't feel like it's been that long. The pain of your loss is still present, but it is now shadowed more by the joy of the memories each of carries with us.

Your memory lives on in each of our hearts, you will never fade away, but will always remain a part of the lives of everyone who knew you...especially those of us who were lucky enough to have been loved by you and loved you in return.

With more love than than ever,
Mom

"If I give the very best of me, that becomes my legacy." -MercyMe

Your legacy lives on babe...this is so evident by seeing your friends who still visit your site here even after seven years. What an impact you made on their lives, on all our lives.

If it is even at all possible, I am more proud to be your mom than ever before. I've got to say I raised a GOOD son. Thank you Lord for the gift of Graig.

I love you,
Mom

Craig.... Man it's been a while since I visited this page, but I wanted you to know that you were on my mind. I've never forgotten you, and I never will.

I genuinely miss you and often wish you were still here... for so many reasons... we had a lot of fun together, and you were one of my best guy friends... you were so easy to be myself around. It doesn't seem like it's been that long... but I can still remember when your mom told me of your passing and how surprised/shocked/saddened I was, and honestly, still am.

I know you're in a much better place and I hope you're enjoying it. If you see Maxx up there, give him a hug for me. He left us last year and it was incredibly devastating for our entire family. I know how much you missed him biting you... or running away, scared of your cats, lol. Maybe now your encounters will be more peaceful!!

In any event, I don't really want to ramble. I just wanted you to know you were on my mind and that I miss you. While I may not come by this page often, you're always in my heart.

I love you, man!

-Mic

You know what bud...it's just a few days away, seven years and it just isn't getting any less painful. You would think that like any chronic pain, you'd get used to it and carry on, feeling normal. Nope, it just isn't happening...each day since the 4th, I have been reliving this week seven years ago...why is it I usually can't remember what I did last week, but I can't block out the painful memories of the day we lost you? Everything is just so vivid...Dear Lord, I wish I had some relief, if only for a moment.

I'm trying to remember you in all the good ways sweetie, I'm really trying, but I sure could use a bit of help. I don't want to live the pain, I want the joy.

You are never far from my thoughts, I can still hear your voice and that I don't ever want to loose.

If it's possible, I love you more as time continues to pass.

Love,
Mom

i miss you buddy!
Ronnie

Merry Christmas! Thankful that you're looking over us from up above. Wish you were here man!

Merry Christmas Buddy. So wish you were here with us to celebrate this most wondrous day. I love babe, Mom

Happy 27th Birthday Buddy!!

Sorry, but I do have to leave you balloons today...what would a birthday be without balloons? The bigger and brighter the better; I guess you can call three feet high, silver numbers 2 and 7 balloons big and bright!!

I always loved you and your sisters' birthdays. It was the one day of the year where you got to do anything you wanted...and no one else had input. :-> It was so much fun making you feel special...OK so maybe the confetti all over you and your bedroom at midnight was a bit much, but boy was it fun! Even though you would trail it everywhere you went for days afterward.

Well Craiger, I'm sure you are partying with the Angels and have them laughing constantly. I wish we could be together for your birthday, but I know you are having a much better celebration where you are now then if you were here with us. I imagine the confetti in Heaven is really special!!

I love you Sweetie,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

Well Bud, another year has come and gone...six years, just not possible. I can still remember every minute, all the pain, the confusion...the loss. All this time, I have been caught up in the missing, just hurting, not focusing on your joy and peace. No more, Sweetie, I will miss you with ever breath I take, but now it's time that I begin to celebrate you. And in doing so, know that you'd want me to live, not wallow.

Bryan hit me with a bucket of cold water yesterday when he said that you wouldn't want me to live like this. Not to just mourn you, but to celebrate your life. Of all people, I should know how much you disliked me being alone and keeping myself away from everyone. You were the one who would pull me out on a Friday night to dinner, or a movie just to get me out. Well, as Bryan so aptly put it, celebrating you and living my life like you'd want me to would be the best tribute to you.

So, tomorrow I celebrate you and remember all our times...that wonderful smile of yours and how it kept you out of trouble so many times. The times you'd frustrate me so much, and would say, "I love you mom, do you love me?" I'd reply, "Not right now, maybe tomorrow, just not right now." You'd laugh and give me a big hug, smile and just go on your way. Thank you Bud, for those hugs and that smile, I still see you in my mind, that is the picture I will always have of you.

I love you son, you can let me go, I'm OK now, but I will always miss that piece of my heart that is you.

Love,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

Thank you babe for keeping watch over your sister and new nephew. I know that you will always be there when we need you the most. Love, Mom

Hey Sweetie...here's your notice to start your vigilant watch over Ren and Logan. He is scheduled to make his entrance into this world tomorrow morning at 8:00 AM. Watch over them please and keep them safe. Please ask God to hold them close and protect them both.

I'm sure you gave Logan all the in's and out's of driving your sister crazy...it really worked with Hunter so I have all confidence that you did the same for your new nephew. Way to go Bud! :->

I love you son and still miss you like crazy!

Mom
xoxoxo

Well Bud...you're nephew and namesake turned five today. I can't believe how quickly the time has passed. Please continue to watch over him, and remind his Angels not to let their guard down for a minute.

I love you babe,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

Hi Bud...I've been thinking about you A LOT lately and I'm not sure why. I think about what you would be like if you were still here with us. It saddens me to think about all the things you have missed out on in life.

Would you have met the one woman you could spend your life by now?
What would your children,my grandchildren be like?
Would you have a daughter that would have you wound around her little finger?
Would you have a son who would be as captivated by cyber space has you were?

There are so many questions that I will never know the answers to. But, I look to the Lord to provide me with the comfort I need with the reassurance that you are happier and more loved then you ever were here.

Not a minute of any day goes by without thougts about you. I love you sweetie and I so look forward to the time when we are together again. Not only to be with you, but to be able to experience the love and happiness you have now.

Love,
Mummy

Hey Babe...What do you think of your new niece Wrennie? Well of course you knew her long before we didn't you? And I'm sure you're filling your soon to be nephew in on all the secrets about his mom, just like you did Hunter.

Now you can add Wren to your loved ones to watch over and to make sure her Angels never drop their guard!

I love you son and continue to miss you with every breath I take.

Mom
xoxoxo

I still miss you. I don't think the pain ever goes away when I think about you. I'm so fortunate to have known you, always,

Kitra

Hey Buddy...I'm sorry for not writing more often or sooner to wish you a Merry Christmas. We had tons of fun this year with Hunter...he was so excited about every part of Christmas. He still takes down your trains and cars from my tree and plays with them. I put them back up when he leaves and he takes them down again!

Would you please watch over your sisters Sweetie and ask God to keep their babies safe until they are born and are handed over to their mama's? Imagine, you are an Uncle again...I wonder what thoughts you placed in your Niece and Niece or Nephew this time!!

I love you Son and miss you so much. Keep watch babe, I still need you so badly just to get through every day.

XOXOXO,
Mom

Happy B-Day Young man!!! Go wild, you don't have to worry about getting into any trouble, and there's no limit. =)

Hey Sweetie...Hunter called me today and asked me to make sure and say to you, "Happy Birthday Uncle Craigie!" Those are his exact words, not mine. Lauren can attest to this, she was there too.

The little man knows you and loves you as if you have been with him all along...which I'm sure you have. We adults just can't see the same miracles that the young uncluttered, non-cynical minds can.

So Happy Birthday again babe.

Luv,
Hunter and Mom
xoxoxoxo

HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY

I Love you son,
Mom
xoxoxoxoxo

Well Bud, what do you think about becoming an Uncle again! Did you already give Kristi's baby the low down on how to push her buttons just like you've done for Hunter?

Please watch over your niece/nephew, keep her/him safe until the day she/he comes bursting into life and than we all can take over.

I've thanked the Lord countless times for this little miracle, but could you follow up on that for me with the big Guy and give him a personal thank you for this little being and keeping it safe.

I love you Sweetheart,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

Hi Craig,

I've been thinking about you constantly this past week. It's so hard to believe that five years have past since I last saw you smile, heard you laugh... Every time I burn a pot of rice, I still think of you! (I still can't cook to save my life, lol.)

We were so lucky to have you with us for the time that we did. You--pure of heart and full of love--changed and touched all of our lives forever. Your kindness of character continues to give me hope and strength, and serves as a paradigm for how to approach life in a world that is sometimes painful and confusing with the most upbeat of attitudes.

Thank you for always looking out for me.

I love you and I miss you,

Allegra

craig...five years. it's so hard to believe. i dread this day every single year, and i still feel the same as i did the day i heard the news, or maybe even worse. it's been so long since i've heard your voice or had one of your famous hugs, but i still remember everything about you. i know you are still with me though because you always give me little signs, like when you pop into my head and then all of a sudden i'll hear one of "our songs" on the radio. i miss all the good times we had, and i would give anything to go back to those days when life was easy and you were still here. i promise i will never ever forget you...how could i? miss you always and love you forever.

Time flies doesn't it. Hope you enjoyed your toast today. Nice to see that you still have game. Showing your picture around to the ladies, you got more compliments than I have all trip... =) Your still getting love from the senioritas and the Austrailia girls.

Thanks for continuing to teach me lessons and watchin over us, from above. I wish you had more time, but I guess things happen for a reason. I would have gladly donated my time, lord knows I'm wreckless with it. I tried to visited some churches today, but I couldn't figure out when they were open.

The fireworks shows here are awesome, right up your alley. Miss ya and love ya. Buenos noches mi hermano.

My dearest son,

It has been five years and as it was then, it is now...the pain is unbearable. Without strength from the Lord, love from family and friends, I truly believed I would have ceased to exist long before now. Your loss brought such a drastic change to all our lives.

What keeps me going is my joy in your happiness with Christ, not to mention my mind's view of your tormenting Angels with your pranks.

I love you babe and not a minute goes by when I don't wish to see your smile and feel your hugs. I know I speak for all those who love you, in that we continue to miss you today as much, if not more, than five years ago. I know you are at peace and that is a salve to a broken heart.

I'll be spending the day with the little man and his mom and dad...Kung Fu Panda is on the agenda. Hunter is the light in my life that gives me the purpose to live each day God provides until I am with you again and in His glorious presence.

Love,
Mom

Hey bud, it's getting to be that time of year where every where I look I see your face or you lighting something on fire. The firework stands poppin up everywhere remind me of what time of year it is.

I had a dream about you and the forth of July last night, not so random I guess. Well I hope you are ready for our toast in Spain. I know I'm not ready, and it just around the corner. I'm sure you will have fun watching me and if anyone would go with I know you would have. Make it a point to join me and we'll do it together. Besides I'm sure you'll love hearing those rockets go off! Times fly, but some memories only seem newer and more vivid. Thanks for the visit. =) This year will be a different tradition, but hopefully a better one.

Hey Babe...I know we'd thought we'd never see this day, but tomorrow your sister is graduating from Sac State. Yah, no, I don't think the earth has changed its rotation on its axis...but stranger things have happened!

I'm so proud of her for her dedication and drive.

I know that you'll be celebrating with all of us throughout the day tomorrow. I just wish you could be there because I'm sure you'd take great pleasure in rattling Rennie's cage!

I love you son,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

you know what bud...i keep saying that you left me with such a great group of additional sons and daughters to take care of me. i am so truly blessed to have so many fine young people in my life...and it was all because of your love for me and for your friends that this is now possible.

thank you sweetheart for continuing to take care of me...you set so many things into motion and left so many things in place for this to happen.

i love you son,
mom
xoxoxo

craig!!!!!! hey old man. i helped your mama move and as always i had a great time. the new place is awesome and i think your mom may be asking for binoculars for xmas. ahahahha. well i have been thinking about you a lot and i hope you are hearing my prayers. please put in a good word for me up there. i need it. well tty in my prayers and i'll watch out for your mama here and make sure there aren't too many fireman over there. hahahahh. love you man.

Hey Sweetie,

I know it's been awhile, but I've been so caught up in my sadness, that I have found it hard to sit down to write to you. Things have been up and down, as I'm sure you know, but I really think I have a whole new chapter opening up here, that I've no doubt you've somehow had a hand it making happen.

I'm back into the Technology world, and in all honesty, pretty darn glad...I've been gone from it for too very long.

You know Bud, that I've really been trying to get back into speaking on behalf of MADD, but just couldn't do so for the longest time. I finally did on Friday at Folsom H.S. I thought it most beneficial there because of the proximity to your accident site. I did three Health and Safety classes, in the morning, in hindsight, too many all at once. Next up is the E15M next month, on the 16th of all days. I'll be doing both the Students' and Parents' retreat. I could really use your help here buddy...sometimes I just want to lay down and close out everything around me, but I know I've got to get outside my comfort zone to help others. I really believe that if anything good is to come from this tragedy, it would be to help just one young person from making the same mistake you did. I'm really hoping one of those kids I stood in front of, will remember back to the day I spoke to them about the pain I live with everyday because you are gone, and that will give them pause to think before either driving or driving with someone else under the influence; then what I have to do is worth it. I know this all has to be part of God's plan for someone out there to hear me speak about you.

We'll sweetie, another good thing is I'm moving closer to where you are, and I'll be able to spend more time taking care of your spot...I've neglected of late and really want to make up for that.

Stick with me close these next few weeks babe, I really need you, so very much.

Luv ya buddy,
Mom
xoxoxo

Hi Craig, i know it's been awhile, but while I was working today I started to think of you and miss you! I hope you are keeping an eye on your wonderful family and I always find comfort in knowing that I will always have a special guardian angel! Love ya Craig! Love Cat

Guess what Bud! When we went to P.F. Chang's for your birthday, not only did I have a place set for you (forgot to order you the their Passion fruit Ice Tea though...sorry) but when the fortunate cookies came and I opened yours, what was inside was so perfect..."Your warmth radiates to all those around you." How cool was that? And so true...even to this day, your memory is kept alive by how so many remember you and how you made everyone feel so special. I know your sisters may not agree with that, but it's true!

I love Bud,
Mom
xoxoxo

Happy Belated Birthday Cable! Still miss you tons.

Happy 25th Birthday Sweetie...Really wish you were here with us to celebrate your quarter century birthday. Do you have balloons and confetti in Heaven? I hope so, because what would a birthday be without those two? Of course I'll take you both balloons and confetti later today!!

I still remember holding you in my arms seconds after you were born and looking into your eyes, while you looked into mine...the memory is so vivid that it seems like it was just yesterday. I wish I could hold you in my arms again, just one more time. I actually felt you giving me a hug a few days ago...perhaps it was a dream, perhaps not...

I love you son and continue to think and miss you every passing moment, awake or asleep...you invade my every dream. They are so real, it's like having you with me again.

Enjoy you day Babe...P.F. Chang's tonight...can't wait. Of course there will the seat left open for you...I'll imagine that you are there with us!

Love,
Mom
xoxoxoxoxo

Happy Birthday Week Buddy!! For your birthday, the group, Scott, Jen, Veneta, Mark, myself and hopefully Rennie, Dan and Hunter, will be making our yearly trek to P.F. Chang's. And yes, the Mongolian Beef and Kung Pao Chicken will be in abundance! I will also make sure that the sauce will have to come from the kitchen, because we all know, based on your desire, they just can not make it hot enough at the table. :)

I love you Sweetie and really wish you could be with us, I know you will be in your way, but if you could have really been here to celebrate your 25th birthday, nothing would be better than that.

Mom
xoxoxoxoxo

Craigie...How can it be four years? I thought I couldn't live, or breath for even a moment in time four years ago. My heart continues to ache for you, my soul is forever broken, but I know you are with our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ...therefore I live each day in memory of you and with the strength that God provides me until we are all together again one day.

So I know I speak for Kristin, Tommy, Lauren, Dan and Hunter as well as myself when I say, we love you Buddy and not a second goes by each day that you are not in our hearts and on our minds. Life has not and never will be the same without you, but we all wait until that one glorious day when we are all reunited!

Peace out Bud...I love you,
Mom
xoxoxoxoxo

Another 4th passes without you to set stuff on fire and blow stuff up.... Miss you, your randomness, excitement, and the life you brought to the circle. Bottle rockets, fire crackers, bull dozers, and Crown Royal shots.... all in memory of you. I know you enjoy our toasts, we miss you and all ways remember you.

Craiger...I am so sorry that I didn't remember to write to you on the 4th of July. I kept thinking about doing so the days leading up to it, but went into space cadet mode on the 4th. I know that you created quite a display for all the believers with you. And no doubt God and Jesus were impressed!!

I'm really having a difficult time leading up to next Wednesday Bud...I'm not sure why this year is so bad. Please put an extra word into our Lord about providing comfort for my broken heart. I've prayed like crazy and I feel a bit better, but if you would intervene on my behalf, I could really use it.

Guess what...of course I know you are already aware of this, but I just had to point it out...there was an electrical storm up the hill this morning. Brought back the memories of you and I standing in the front yard in GA watching the storms there. I chose to believe you had a hand in putting on that show for my benefit.

Stick extra close Sweetie, I really need to feel you with me more now that ever.

Love ya Bud,
Mom
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Hey Sweetie...Tomorrow is Robert's 21st birthday and Mark will be taking him to L.V. next week to celebrate. I just keeping going back to how you missed your 21 birthday by just shy of a month. You had your own L.V. trip planned as well...it makes me so sad to think of all the nice things in life you missed out on, but then I remind myself how far greater your Joy is now then if you were still here with us.

Will the sadness ever lessen though? Sometimes it is just so overwhelming. Especially when I see a young man hugging his mom...then I realize just how much I am missing too because you are gone.

Tomorrow is Veneta's first birthday party...she'll be one on the 31st. It should be a lot of fun, Hunter is going with me, grandma and grandpa will be there (grandpa with his own special brand of humor), Tom and Sue...so much joy and happiness to remind me what is still left to enjoy.

Btw...both Ronnie and Chris would have made you so proud babe...they both wished my a happy mom's day, and Ronnie even stopped by to give me a "Craig" hug. Did you put him up to it? Keep him safe on his new bike...please!!!

I love you son, my broken heart still needs you so badly,

Mom
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Hey Sweetie...You'd be pretty proud of your old mom...not only did I learn how to completely reconfigure, from scratch at that, a MAC G5 hard drive and OS, but I just figured out how to add more pictures into myspace page and create an album. Which means now I can add even more pictures. Mark finally made it back into my pictures, for the time being anyway. He and Rennie had a run in at Raley's last week...pretty uncomfortable, but I have to give your sister credit, she did me so proud, she was quite the lady, considering the circumstances. I knew about the encounter, Mark had already told me that he was headed out that way and why, he's been great about the honesty factor, but it took a lot for Lauren to tell me. She thought she was taking care of her crazy old mom!!

Well Babe, it's another one of those, "I can't sleep nights"...but gotta go try, for work's sake at least! :)

I love you Son,
Mom
XOXOXOXO

Couldn't sleep Bud, so I'd thought putting some thoughts to you down might help. Mark and I went to the new Ruby Tuesday's on Sunday evening...the minute I walked in the front door, it was a throw back to GA. I had the sudden feeling that I was there and you should be too. An overwhelming sadness came over me for the lost past...and you. Mark offered for us to leave, but I said no, I needed to face that demon...I knew that's what you would have wanted for me to do...not to back down.

You Nephew turned three last week...the little man is such a delight...I truly can feel your presence whenever he and I are together. Sometimes he says some pretty crazy things that can only come from a prompting from you!! We had a great party for him on Saturday...he was so overwhelmed with all the gifts and people that he was bouncing off the walls. I think he really had a great time though...he kept thanking everyone for being there...all on his own, with no prompting from his parents or myself.

Well Sweetness...I'm finally going to have the MB tri-star tattoo finished here pretty quickly. I've found an artist that can complete the shooting stars...that'll always remind me that you are my true North!

I love you babe and can still feel your love all around me every moment...it's amazing to me how you have managed to continue to take care of me and make sure I am happy even now. I am truly happy and content for the first time in nearly four years. With my new home and job, all seems right, except not having you here. Now THAT would be true contentment! :)

XOXOXOXO,
Mom

Beautiful sunrise this morning Sweetie!!

You know how I love change, well again change has come upon me and you know what, I am actually glad about this one. With you as my North star to guide me and with the Lord's strength to keep me going, I can't loose this time around.

Just keeping me headed in the right direction and all will be well!

I love you Babe,
Mom
XOXOXOXO

Hey Buddy...Tomorrow is going to be a tough day for Troy's funeral service. Stay with me Bud, cause I'm not sure how things are going to go. It's also Grandpa's 84th birthday, some sad with the happy.

I know the two of you are together swapping older sister horror stories, but his family is hurting so badly with his loss. Their deep faith in the Lord is sustaining them through this difficult time.

I spoke about you at length yesterday with an Elder from Lakeside...your life and death has brought me so much closer to Christ and I know that is one of the many legacys you left for me.

I love you Babe and miss you so much right now...Troy's death has opened up a world of hurt I keep deep in side...I know what his mom is feeling right now and I hurt for her too.

Stay close...

Love,
Mom
xoxoxo

Happy Valentine's Day Sweetie. I love you.

XOXOXOXO,
Mom

It's moving day Bud...Ronnie will be here to move me yet again. It's almost like having you here, his hugs are so similar to yours...especially when he picks me up while hugging me!!

Keep things light for me today Sweetie, while I close down this chapter of my life with a heavy heart. Closing one chapter, but opening up a whole new one which Lord willing is filled with many opportunities for laughter, joy and contentment.

Not too many pranks today, OK???? But be with me nonetheless. Thanks Babe.

I love you,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

Hey Buddy...Just wanted to let you know, as if you didn't already, that the "wet willy" you gave Mark the other day was perfect. I told him it was your equivalent to a slap up side the head!!

Moving day is the 20th...this ought to be fun...AGAIN. I'm beginning to wonder if the Lord ever has it in His plan for me to be able to stay put in one place for more than a couple of years! I would sure like to settle down and make my permanent home some place here pretty soon.

Well Sweetness, watch over us all and don't laugh too hard when I place Riley out with you in the next few days! I know you're already having a blast together.

Love ya Babe,
Mom

Happy New Year Craig! I've been thinking about you a lot lately! I'm so sorry that we lost touch after you moved to California. Chris Walker and I emailed back and forth a little while back talking about all of the fun we used to have in high school. Remember new years 2001?? We were all at Chris' house...in the basement as usual..that was a great night of many memorable nights we all had at Chris. I moved a few months ago and found a bunch of our pictures from homecoming. Gosh, time flys! I still keep in touch with Chris, Michael, Hannah, Megan and Steve. Steve just got back from Iraq, I'm sure you were watching out for him over there! Looks like you've been doing a great job watching out for your mom. You and your family are in my prayers. You are missed Craig. Your memory is still alive and well among all of us(the old "crew"). :-)

Happy New Year Babe! Staying in tonight, probably hit bed early...had the little man all day, after church this morning, so your old mom is wiped out! Just sent and received back a text message from Michael...I really miss him and the rest of the guys from GA. I know that they still think of you and that I'm their mom on the west coast...what a feeling, knowing that I have sons spread throughout the U.S.!! All because of you Sweetie...always taken care of me. It still amazes me how well you continue to do that!

The new year promises to be a better one then last year, a new job and hopefully new opportunities to better serve the Lord. Now if you would help me find a new place then all is set. What do you think? Closer to you or Lauren? I'm still torn as to which way to go...I'm listening to your suggestions though, I've gotten quite good at noticing the signs now!! It's only taken me what three years...OK so I'm slow at a few things. I should have known your language and how you'd get through to me.

Watch out and continue to take care of us...we all need your presence...I really feel you with me at times, watching and guiding. Thanks Babe, I really miss having you here with me and wish events could have been different, but I know the Lord has a plan and I'm banking on it being a terrific one. It has to be, when it involves you.

I love you son,
Mom
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Merry Christams Sweetheart!!

I know that this is a truly wonderous time in the heavens, celebrating the birth of Christ. I am so sure you are in the midst of all the celebration as well! I miss you babe, probably most this time of year. Even the grumpy you when you stayed up way to late on Christmas Eve and I got you up way too early on Christmas morning!

I hope you enjoy the small celebration I set up for you at the cemetary...I wish I could do more, but I know you don't like the fuss, so I kept it to a low roar. :)

I love you Son and still miss you with every breath I take.

Mom
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Hey Sweetie...Now that Riley is with you, I am so very sure that he is finally happy. He has not been the same since you died. He has been in so much pain and just not right up stairs (more so then when you were with us) that it was time to give him the comfort and peace he needed. I know he is happy now that he is with you. Perhaps now you can use starlight for him to chase in stead of the laser pointer. He has missed you so that I know in my heart he is purring up a storm as he is draped over your shoulder!

Take good care of him Buddy, he loves you so much...just as much as you love him.

I miss you Babe,
Mom
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Hi Buddy,

Went to the MercyMe concert with Mark when they played here in Sacramento weekend before last. Listening to their music makes me both sad and joyous at the same time. Sad because of loosing you, but joyous because I know how happy you are with the Lord. "Homesick" still is the best song that speaks so eloquently about my pain. But, like another of their other songs says, "I can only imagine what it will be like...", but you are experiencing that right now!! I can't wait to experience it too and to be with you again...I miss you so much Bud that I hurt all the time. No matter how much I try, all the books I read, grief recovery classes I take, it just doesn't get easier. I am such a blessed mom to have had you as my son for as long as I did...You were such a large part of my life that the hole you left just cannot be filled. Hunter makes a gigantic effort though, and I thank Christ every day for that little man, but you Sweetie, there just isn't anything that can replace the joy you brought to me and so many others, especially Krist, Ren and Scott.

I will continue to work with MADD so that hopefully the young people I speak to will witness the love I have for you and the pain I live with each day now that you are gone. I really believe that doing so is part of your legacy...that and the memories you left us all with!

I continue to pray for strength each day, sometimes numerous times throughout the day...without the Lord's love and strength in my life, I would cease to exist. I just wait for the time when we are together again...until then, the Lord will keep me going.

I miss you Babe...

Love,
Mom
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Hey Babe...Today was the MADD's Strides for Change 5k walk. Krist and Tommy came up to walk with me...so far I have raised $450.00. The love and generousity from everyone has been overwhelming. I have said this so many times in the last three years, but I continue to be amazed at how truly blessed I am! The Lord continues to demonstrate his unfailing love for me and provides the strength I need to get thru each and every day.

I know deep in my heart that you were with us today as we walked to raise $$ to help bring more awareness of the dangers of drinking and driving. I only ask that you are with me on Tuesday when I talk in the evening at the Safety Center. It's been awhile since I've done so, but MADD asked if I was ready to do so again and I felt compelled to try. I have prayed for strength, now all I need is to feel your presence. Help me to know just what to say to these young people...you would know what will capture their attention so that they leave with you and our love for you on their minds. If only one person remembers your story and makes the choice not to drink and drive, then the pain I feel while speaking publicly of your loss will not be in vain.

I love you Sweetie,
Mom
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Hey Buddy...Need your help here! When I was at the cemetary yesterday, the father of a young lady, who is laid to rest just a few down from you, stopped to speak to me. Saturday was her 18th birthday and she died about a year ago. Even though I was hurting myself, I know how he felt because his pain is still so raw. Anyway, he stopped and offered me his condolences and mentioned several times what a handsome young man you are. Perhaps you can touch him in such a way, or pass on to his daughter that he needs some comfort. I'm sure I wasn't too much help to him, but I'm positive that you can come up with a way to bring him comfort. You have been so good at providing me with what I need just when I need it most, so I know you can make things happen for him.

I love you Babe and thanks for always looking out for me and always being with me.

xoxoxoxo,
Mom

Got a hurting heart today Sweetie. Spent some time consolidating boxes in the garage and going thru some of your stuff. Makes me sad and laugh at the same time to find some of your things...letters from girls included.

Had a party at B.J.'s last night for old E*Traders...spent lots of time talking about you with Garris. Finally asked him the questions about the "Guys" knocking at the door and what to do with the Hard drive!! :)

I miss you so much sweetie, just to be able to talk to you, have a conversation, feel a hug...what I would do just for those moments again.

I love you Son,
Mom
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Hey Buddy...Looks like half my last entry didn't post. Reading it as it is now makes it sound like I had a "hit my head" moment and didn't finish the message!!

Anyway, I was just saying that Kristi and Tommy have a beautiful home and that you would have enjoyed visiting.

Love ya Sweetie,
Mom
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Your headstone is finally so clean. An Angel in the form of the Head Groundskeeper helped me out with providing the proper tool to make the job so much easier. I think he took pity upon me after seeing me fight with the cleaner for over an hour!! Now I know how, after all this time, to keep it so it won't get as bad has it has been for so long!

I'm at Krist's place right now...came to see hers and Tommy's new place. I'm am so proud of her...she has created such a loving home and is a very gracious hostess! I know you'd love to come her to visit...you and Tommy could talk as that crazy

Happy 24th BD Craiger!! I know you are celebrating with the best...Michael, Gabriel and a whole host of party Angels!! I so wish you were here with us, but I know that celebrating with the Heavens is so much better then here on Earth. I miss you son, and still think of you here with us as each day passes.

Hunter and I will be meeting Ronnie at the cemetary early...of course I will be bringing balloons and Hunter can tie them on to your wind chimes. Krist and Tommy are coming in for the day, so we all will be having our own celebration in your memory.

Yup...still vividly remember the exact moment you were born, @ 10:20am on Aug 19th, 1982, and when you were placed in my arms and then looked into my eyes. Your dark eyes were so bright and wide opened...I kissed your soft cheeks and forehead...I don't think I had ever fallen so hard and fast in love as I did in that one instant. You held my heart captive all those years Bud, and still do. My heart will always have that one place belonging to only you that no one will ever be able to get to.

Happy Birthday Sweetie...you are greatly missed each moment of each day.

I love you Son,
Mom
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Happy Birthday Week Buddy...Not sure what your big day has in store yet!! Got Hunter for the week, so he and I have some planning to do. :)

Luv ya Babe,
Mom
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Well Sweetie...it's your birthday month. What I would give to have you here to bug about it! To wake you up @ midnight on your birthday, to cover you with confetti in your sleep, to lots of balloons and presents...I would give anything to be able to experience that with you again.

Sorry Buddy, just feeling really sad and missing you so much. I still cannot just get that you are "gone". It just doesn't make sense for me...the empty feeling, the hollowness that's with me all the time. It stills feels like a really bad nightmare that I'm waiting to wake up from. Oh dear Lord, I so wish this was not happening.

I go back and forth from being so happy for you because I know you are in a much better place than here with us, but the missing you part just makes the selfish part of me take over and I want you here so badly.

I love you Buddy and my heart aches for you every moment of every day...I only look forward to the time when we are together again.

Mom
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Morning Buddy...As Krist says, "I'm a blogger now" on My Space. Getting pretty good at this, but yah, there are some wierdos out there, already attracting a few. Gotta make mine Private 'cept for Friends.

Well Sweetie, let's talk about Mark. You can go easy on him now, he's really been a big support to me this month. From the 4th of July in Tahoe to making sure I was OK on the 11th and the days leading up to it, he does have his merits at times. So now is one of those times that he could use a bit of your help. You know what I'm talking about so I don't need to spell it out here...just take care of it for your ol' mommy, 'K?

I love you Babe...

Mom
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Hey Babe...I'm just sitting here perusing monster.com, has is my daily habit now, and becoming very well aquainted with "My Space". I'm having tons of fun with the site...I can only imagine what your space would have looked like on there. I know it would have been just as crazy as you.

I love you Sweetie and keep think'n of you constantly.

Mom,
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Hey Craig,
at first i didnt realize what today was but it's weird cause i was thinking about you this morning and 3 years ago. I remember everything i was doing today 3 years ago exactly but not really any other days. I miss you a bunch but it feels good looking at hunter and seeing your eyes and to know your up there watching. I just like to say a miss you a whole lot and i drive by you almost every day and say a prayer(so i hope you can hear it up there). and you have really made a difference in my life and the choices i make today, And its helped. I love you and miss you xo.

I'll never forget you Craig. I'm fortunate to have met you, even for the brief amount of time that I knew you. My heart goes out to your family today.
With love and prayers,

Hey love, i know what you are thinking, i havent wrote to you in a while but i have NOT forgot about you. I could never. I saw Abbey's message and it just brought back all the memories. I cant believe its been 3 years. It feels like just yesterday I got the phone call from your mom. I was expecting you to call me to make plans for that night since you were going to make me dinner. When I saw your house number appear on my phone i knew something was wrong. I still cant believe what happened. I never had the change to say goodbye but i am thankful for our last conversation the night before. (you still better be waiting for me up in heaven, cause when i come, you are all mine!)
Like Abbey, I havent kept in contact with your mom. I hope she is doing okay and you are looking out for her. She needs you around, like everyone else. You touched everyone so deeply and for that you will always be missed.
I wish I could make it up to Folsom sometime soon to see you. Its been forever. I was thinking of driving last night, and meeting your mom at 3:33. Hopefully I will be there soon to see you. Until then, know that I love and miss you daily. Keep watching over all of us craig.
Love always
Cortney

Craiggy...I can't believe it's been three years already. It really does feel like yesterday. I still think about you every single day, and missing you never gets easier. I drove by your old house in Alpharetta when I was in town a few weeks ago, and it still cracks me up to remember all the ridiculous times we had over there. You are still the most amazing person I have ever known...keep on taking care of your mom and looking out for me. I LOVE YOU and i'll always be thinking of you...

Catherine

Hi Craig!
Well I know I haven't been the best at writting on this thing, but I thought I would give it another try. It's been three years now and I still miss you so much. I really wish you were here with us, ecspecially with your twin Hunter. He is a real handful at times, maybe because he is so much like you......thanks a lot. Do me a favor and watch over mom because she is getting pretty senile in her old age (just kidding mom). We love you and miss you more everyday.

The sunrise was so beautiful this morning. I always feel so much peace when I am with you at the cemetery. The full moon shone so brightly earlier when I laid one rose for you at the crash site. How amazing to be able to experience that much beauty in the span of just a few hours and all because I was up and about to pay tribute to you.

I will continue to mourn our loss of you for the rest of my life Buddy...even now this still seems so surreal. For three years now I have wondered in my heart if I am living a nightmare and hope to wake from it at any moment...but in my mind I know that just isn't true. You are lost to us while we are still here on earth. I long for the day when we will be together again...I know I sound like a broken record when I say that, but it is so true.

Well Sweetie, I expect to again be blessed with the company of all my loved ones, including the ones you brought into my life just three short years ago. Keep a protective watch over us all, we sure need to feel your presence today, now more than ever.

I love you Son,
Mom
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This just can't be Babe...three years tomorrow??? It still hurts like yesterday and yet there has been so much that has happened since the day our lives changed forever.

I was thinking of you on the 4th of July...watched the fireworks in Tahoe on the Lake. You would have really thought they were cool...but then you'd rather try to dis-member yourself while concocting your own creations!!

How can it be that time passes so quickly, while at the same time it seems to be going no where? Well, again getting through tomorrow will be tough, but with all the love and support I have from our family, friends and the church, I will not be alone.

Reading Abby's message to you just serves as a reminder of how much you are still so missed and loved by all that knew you. You touched so many lives in your short life...you were bigger than life itself. Just knowing that you are with the Lord and far happier and loved then you ever were here is really the comfort that keeps me going. That and the "Little Man" your nephew. Hunter is so much like you were at the same age...that little mind of his is constantly going a million miles a minute. And now with Venetta joining the family...my life is more richly blessed.

Well, remember to pay Ashley a visit to wish her Happy Birthday tomorrow...that way her day will be even more special...she'll know you are there with her...and Chris!

I'll be at the site @ 3:33am and then out to watch the sunrise with you...you are never out of my mind and heart Sweetie...please continue to be my North star and give me the guidance that only you and Christ can provide!

I love you Son,
Mom
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I know it has been a while since I've written, but I just wanted to know that I haven't forgotten about you. I could never.

My friend Sarah fell out of her third floor bedroom window last night and died. She lived on the same floor as me, only 6 doors down. I wasn't there, I was housesitting for a family who's daughter I teach gymnastics to, so I don't really know what happened. We weren't all that close yet, but we were getting to be good friends. It was so surreal, I came back to my apartments today and I was just laying out by the pool like I always do, and wondering where she was and why I didn't hear her (you can always hear her a mile away) and everyone was acting totally normal, no one acted any different. I think everyone is just numb. It's just weird, I came home today and was totally expecting to party with her tonight like I do almost every night. It brought back a lot of the same emotions, especially since this is around the same time of year that I got that infamous phone call from Cort 3 years ago.

I have really been thinking about you a lot lately because this family who I am house sitting for is a military family and they spent some time near Alpharetta. That always makes me think of you. I was thinking about people from Folsom that I have and haven't kept in touch with since I moved to San Diego and I know in my heart that you and I would have most definitely kept in touch. You were always there for me for EVERYTHING, and even now when something goes really really wrong, I think about you and try to think of what you might would say to me.

I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch with your mom either! I've really meant to but I'm bad at those things.

Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you. And please help Sarah and her family right now.

I still love you, and miss you, and not a day goes by where I don't think of you.
Abbey

Good Morning Sweetness! Well I finally played my first full round of golf. Played at Rancho Murieta and really had a great time. Don't know if I'll ever get to be very good at the game, but I sure have fun playing it! Played with Jack and his business partner, Dave...that was Jack's way of fixing the two of us up. Both Jack and Dave were so patient when it came to bearing with my numerous attempts at one time or another...but I was persistent and didn't give up.

Well, Bud...back to work it is for me...thinking of you more lately than normal. Must be because of the 11th of July is creeping up so quickly. I miss you so much and just so wish you could be with us all here right now. Keep watch Babe...we all need it and you.

I love you,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

What's it feel like to be an Uncle again...and to think that you knew your Niece long before any of us!! I'm a Gamma again, now I have a granddaughter to make into a girlie girl!! And Hunter has a cousin...Wow!

Michael's in town...he's all over the state this weekend, but Monday and Tuesday he and I should be able to spend some time together. When I saw the 678 area code on my cell, when he called, I just got so sad for GA. The times we all had...well sometimes I really miss that...you were happy at times...when you and I were there together anyway.

Well Buddy, just got done IM'n Michael...we are going to get together on Tuesday. I'll bring him out and show him around. Let him know you are with him while he's down in So. CA...I know he really misses you.

I love you Sweetie,
Mom
xoxoxoxo

Good morning Sweetie! It's 6:30am on Saturday and I'm getting ready to leave to come up your way to play golf at Bass Lake with Denise. Have a 7:10am tee time. I know it's really beautiful up there early, so I'm so looking forward to the peacefulness of the place and being near you. Ronnie was so sweet when he and I were up with you on Thursday...he was quizzing me just like you would about Mark and how things are going. Thank you for bringing another son into my life to watch out for me in this world just because you knew you wouldn't be able to. I love him like he was my own...he is so much like you. I don't have to tell you here what he was up to while we were there, but I know that you were laughing at him and at me for sitting there at the time!!

Well Babe, thanks for being with us yesterday during Rennie's birthday dinner here at home. I'm so glad I got a chance to cook a full Mexican dinner again...especially for Cinco da Mio. And thank you for Mark being there for me yesterday...it was such a good feeling to know he cared that much.

I love you baby,
Mom
xoxoxoxo