Hi Jennifahhhh dahling, I miss you and I cannot wait to see you again. I miss your smile and the way you used to make me laugh. I miss your cooking and everything about you. Anyways, watch over me and all your loved ones. I love you my sweet best friend.

Hi baby girl. I'm now in a nursing home. I can't walk and Julie needs to work so here I am. Poor papa and nanny. I know how they felt. It is what it is. I need 24/7 care.im ready when God is to come on home to heaven. No one has forgotten you or your brother...i love you. See you soon

Hello baby girl. I can't believe I have not written in here in 2 years. I. Think of you every day and I love you and miss you every minute. Im
72 now and have ALS and can't speak. My body losing more muscle every day and can hardly walk. I ended up like papa and nanny . You have been gone from this earth 15 years now. Crazy. Lots happening. Holli has another baby named Jett. He is the cutest. He's just 3 months old. I'm living in Oklahoma with your sister. Shelbi comes once a week and showers me washes my hair and cleans my little room out behind julies house. Jason also lives in Oklahoma. We have lost nanny in 2008, Jeff in 2012, Pam last year, Phillip a few months ago . Grandpa is in hospital with cancer and my time is nearly over. Hope to be with you again soon. You will never be forgotten . I love you so much. See you soon on the other side

Happy Thanksgiving baby girl. I love you so much....

I seen a photo of you today and instantly started crying. And someone had commented on the photo how they remember like it was yesterday. I swear I must've dramatized how I cried that day but it was the most devastating feeling hearing it was you. But time moves on...I've now had my second child, and what a sweet blessing he is. Labor took no time at all. Ro'vel was born blue because of his cord which had a 'true knot' in it was also wrapped around his neck, but he managed to slip out of it as I pushed him out. Something tried to take him out of this world he was meant to be in and he stayed strong until he made it out. They say not all babies make it through that without complications or even live to see another day. But he is strong and healthy with no complications or deformities. He is a real blessing. And my first born, Luna, really loves and adores her brother. She calls him her baby. When I was pregnant she would kiss and cuddle my tummy saying "I love you brother" "good night brother" and give him hugs and high fives...the other day she said the sweetest thing; I knew she had a heart of gold and was capable of so much love but this melted me to the core...she told her brother to say "don't leave me" as she was pretending to be a superhero. She said "ok I won't leave you". Mind you she doesn't know much about superheroes but she is one in my book, and his too. The way he looks at her and how she loves and cares for him. They have such a good bond already. I hope they keep it like this. But that's wishful thinking until they grow up together and learn to get past things together.
I love you and miss you so much it hurts. I know I'm not the only one either. But man I wish you were here to hold me once more as you always have.

Hi there my sweet girl... I been thinking about you and Jeff a lot lately. I hope you are together...it is in Between your 45th birthday and the 13th year since you have been gone from us. I just can't believe my two youngest children are gone...maybe you have nanny and papa taking special care of you. I love you so much and I miss you every day...
I'm going to CA on June 10 and will visit your resting place.
Vincent is so sweet. He wished me a happy mother's day because you can't...he is such a wonderful guy...i know how proud of him you are.... see you on the other side....im.70 now so in 20 years or so ill.see you again...xo.

I missed your birthday yesterday although I thought about you all day and how much I miss you. So many things have happened that I will wish you could have been here for. I think about you all the time and I wanted to say Happy Birthday Jen!! I know you're looking down smiling your beautiful smile

Until next time.... You're forever in my heart ❤
I love you

Hey my friend!!!!
I just wanted you to know that you are missed dearly!!! I was looking at some old photos and it brought back so many memories. I am thinking about you!! - Til we meet again.

-S

Hi baby girl... 12 years without you today. Wow how awful. I miss you like it was yesterday.. So much has happened and so much you have missed.. Breaks my heart all over again every day. I hope you know how much you are loved by all your family and friends. Life not the same for any of us. With Jeff gone too my life is for sure changed. I need my babies.. I love you so much

It's been 2 years to this day since I've said anything to you last...I got married weeks after my last post and just last year I had my baby girl Luna Renee Belle. Tino got married and had his baby 3 months later after mine was born. I wish you could've been here to witness all these life changing events. My daughter reminds me of how full of life you were and always smiling. The brightest light in the darkest room. Missing you tons Jen, my heart still hurts that you're not here. Love you!

RIP Jen, until we meet again. Heaven Has A Beautiful Angel

Happy birthday Jennifer, I so wish you were here to celebrate with your family!! I know how much your Mother misses you and your brother...she is a very brave Mama!! Love, Hazel

11 years today without you here with us. It is a constant pain in my heart that never goes away. I wondered that day how I would ever go on without you, but here I am 11 years later still wondering how I will go on without you. I miss you more than words can ever express and my heart hurts and my mind can never forget what a joy you were. I celebrate the 32 years I had you with me, yet long for more. I love you and miss you every single day. I hope you know that...❤

Happy Birthday my sweet girl..it is almost midnight the night before your birthday.. I can't imagine you at 43. You were so full of life at 32, I'm sure you would still be shaking and moving.... But, there was a new plan made for all our lives and living the rest of my life without you ...... and 8 years later, your brother..... is just almost more than a mama can take. I miss you every day Jen, and your birthday is just very hard to take without you...But we do have lots of great memories. I cherish the 32 years I had you with me ... best of times when you all were little...
Just wanted to say hi to you and tell you my heart on your birthday. I love you baby girl.....

Good morning my sweet girl. Just thinking about you a lot these days and missing you as always. Life just not the same anymore. I love you. Mom

I hurt to bad to say anything I loved u from the time we met till the day I die . Please let me know u r with them. Love u moop.

Happy Birthday my sweet baby girl. Nothing I can say that I have not already said a million times. You were taken too soon and not a day goes by that I don't think lovingly of the wonderful daughter, mother, sister, aunt, and friend you were. All that knew you loved you... Me the most. I love you so much and I can't even express how much I miss you every day. Sending hugs and kisses your way today on your 42 birthday. Love you beyond words....

~Hi Jennifer, I wanted to stop by and wish you a Happy Birthday.... I so wish you were here to celebrate. I'm trying to be good, but today is official cake batter w/ almonds day at Coldstone in your honor, so Ill just get a like it. ;-) I can't believe it's been almost ten years since you went away. God I miss you so much. If I ever needed your strong will behind me it's definitely now. I have had a lot of changes, and I'm not always in the best of spirits. I'm trying so hard to get through everything, but it's just not easy. Nothing ever is though I guess. Things have never been the same for me since you left. I really wish I could call you at 10. Anyways, I love you gurlie! Bring me luck. I have an English final today.... This is the last week of the first semester to my new beginnings. ~I love and miss you dearly~ ...tell Jeff Hi!
Love, MiMi

Happy Mothers Day my sweet girl... You were a great mother and VINCENT is living proof of that. I always miss your message to me on Mother's Day. You and Jeff were always the first to tell me. It has been my greatest joy to be a mom to Julie, Jeff, and you... I love you all so much.... You are truly missed each and every day sweetie.... Xo

Hi sweetie ... It's Halloween and I know how much you loved that holiday. I always remember you and Michelle as Star Trek girls and Jeff as Dracula and Scott as Grim Reaper. I look at that picture a lot ... Now that Jeff is gone too it has a double meaning. He always went along with what ever you had planned. I miss you so much and all your high energy and zest for life ... Just know you are greatly missed and not a day goes by you are not in my thoughts ...I love you my sweet baby girl....

I drove down that road yesterday and cried. I love and miss you so much. I even made chicken n dumplings for u. Come back please!

Rest in peace

I cant believe that time has passed so quickly. I miss you so much and your wonderful smile. I think of you all the time.

Hello to my sweet baby girl. I miss you so very much and I woke up this morning with a lump in my throat seeing this horrible date you were taken from us 9 years ago...
Why does it seem like yesterday? The pain and emptiness in my heart is the same as it was then ...
I wake up many days thinking this was a bad dream and then realize it was real. It hurts so much to be without you here in our lives.
I have so many beautiful memories of the 32 years you were here and I'm so very grateful for those .... Most of them make me smile thinking of your perky smile and wonderful personality. You were and always will be loved and remembered by all that knew you....
I LOVE YOU my little moop...
Mom

I recently felt you in my heart and i had to stop by n say hi. I miss you so much from your comforting smiles to your warm loving hugs. Theres not a day that goes by that i dont think of you. Im getting married soon n when i do i could just picture u in the front row next to my mom smiling n just wish u could be there. I imagined u were at my graduation last year screaming n yelling with the rest of my family that was there. I know your proud of me. You never gave up on me. If its possible to return to earth could you please do that so we could all have a hug from u one last time? I love you so much! Wrap your angel wings around me, i cant deal with too much and need some comfort and i just wish u were here for me to talk to. In four days it will be nine years since you were taken. I cant help but cry a river for days n days. Give me a sign on my wedding day that tells me your there with me please. A little assurance for a peace of mind...n visit me in my dreams. ??? XOXO i love and miss you terribly

Happy birthday my sweet friend! I miss you lots! I love you!

Happy Birthday baby girl. Woke up thinking about this special day when you were born 41 years ago. Seems like yesterday sometimes. What a very special and lovable little girl you were., Always !! So thoughtful and independent and beautiful as you grew up. I can not express in words how much I miss you. I wish I could hug You real tight so bad. I love you so very much moop.... Mommy

Today is Mothers Day and I missed so much getting a text from Jeff and a call from you sweetie. I had a really nice day with Julie and family. Shelbi went to her Senior Prom last night and we heard all about it today. She looked absolutely beautiful and I wish you could have seen her. Everyone wrote on Facebook how she looked like a combination of you and Julie. She has her hair blonde and I can't believe she is 18 already. I just missed you and Jeff so much today, as I do every day... I know you loved me as I love you and I treasure the many memories of your special life. I love you ...Mom

Merry Christmas baby girl.... Here it is Christmas Eve and it has been 8 years since you were taken from me. It still hurts every day ... I miss you so very much. This is the first Christmas without Jeff also and I pray God is blessing you both and you are eternally together... Julie and family are all in VA celebrating Christmas at Holli's house. She has the most adorable son Lane and daughter Katelynn that you would have just loved so much.... We never know whate life brings us or how our life will progress. I never dreamed I would lose my two youngest children in my lifetime... It breaks my heart in two and never a day passes that I don't thank God for the years I had you both but mourn the years without you here with me. I Love You so very much moop and you and Jeff are in my heart every minute of every day... I Love You ...mom

Hi my sweet girl... I'm having a rough time without you and Jeff here with me... I pray you are holding each other tight.... Julie is working in Ohio, Jason is in AK, Holli and Shelbi and Hollis beautiful kids are in Norfolk VA. I'm terribly alone out here in the country. Retirement is not good. I'm trying to find work to get me out of the house. So much has happened and brought me to tears on a daily basis. Max is here and getting old. He has gray hair. As I do as well.... I miss you so much ... It just does not get easier with time. After 8 years without you I am still with pain in my heart for you....
Losing Jeff 3 months ago was just too much ... I'm afraid I might never recover... Not suppose to be like this .. I miss and love you soo much.... I hope Julie finds work closer soon because I need her so much...
I pray you know how much you are loved.....moop ...forever and ever...mom

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEAUTIFUL GIRL... WOW ... You would have been 40 today... Shelbi and I went to have ice cream and sang Happy Birthday.. then we went to see a movie set in 1972... Incredible that is the year you were born. Dark Shadows with Johnny Depp. You would have loved it.... I miss you so very much sweetheart and Jeff is up there with you also far to soon.... I'm sure he is celebrating your birthday and hugging you lots.... I miss you both like no one can imagine.... Take care of each other like you always have... I Love You.!!!! Happy 40th xoxoxoxo

~Today is the 17th... ~~Happy Happy Birthday Jennifer~~. You would have been 40 today. WOOWWWW! What a party that would have been! Crazy! Only the good die young and you were one of them. You and now Jeff were taken from us much to soon. I miss you both dearly. I think about you everyday. My life has taken such a huge turn. I believe you are guiding me in some sort of direction, (although right now I'm pretty lost and I'm not sure which way I'm supposed to be headed). I just take each day by day and try to trust that I'm doing things for the right reasons. I'm just trying to get back to me and find happiness... whatever that is. Life changed so much after you left, and I lost who I once was for many different reasons. I miss you sooooo much. I miss the 10 spot conversations, and I miss your strong willed attitude that always kept me strong. Stay with me, and please come see me in a dream. Tonight I will go celebrate with a cake batter ice cream at Coldstone in your honor. I miss you and love you dearly. Happy Birthday Guuuuurrrrlll! Love ya forever! MiMi

Hi baby girl... Jeff has gone to be with you.... Never thought in a million years I would lose you both at such young ages...please take care of each other and know how much I love you both... My heart is broken right now with sadness and pain...so many people miss and love you... You will both remain in my heart and mind forever..... I love you my babies..... Mom

hi jen i know you might not know me but ive heared a ton about you, your brother always talked about how amazing you are. me and your brother me on june 14 2011 we always said that it was your well wishes that brought us together. he is with you now and i hope you both are at peace. you bothe are very loved and missed. jeff is an great guy but i know you already know that tho. i would have loved to know you better and have met you. jeff and i wanted you at our wedding when it would have happend. thats all for now - Himani

another year has past without hugs n kisses from you. im sorry for not visiting you at your grave but you are always in my heart. i miss you and your love all the time, to this day i still cry for you. just when i want you to talk to and comfort me your 6ft away but i always hold you in my heart. i wish you were here to meet brandon, he is too good for words. i wish he met you to see what a wonderful joyful person you always were. i wish you could be there to see the day i walk down the aisle. well i at least hope you will be with me when i pick out my dress. i want you to pick it for me. until then im focusing on medical school maintaining a 4.0! i know your proud :) its so much fun and ill be like you (happy to help)...i extern in april and graduate in june! i wish you could be there cheering me on across the stage. i can only imagine haha...well happy new year jennifer! im the first to post for 2012 :) im going to bed now since i have a big day ahead of me. i love you n miss you so much! goodnight and hope to see you in my dreams.

hello my beautiful baby girl. i miss you so much my heart aches every day to see you and hug you and tell you i love you just one more time. it hurts so much to know the joys you have missed. vinny turned 21 last week and is such a great young man. holli is expecting her second baby in 3 weeks. it is a girl (katelynn ann) and she already has lane who will be 3 in november. he has red hair like julie and is adorable. it just does not seem fair that you had to miss all this. jeff is planning to have surgery to regain his hearing soon and i know you would be so happy for him. he is nervous and i know he wishes you were here to share. jason is in ar doing well and little shelbi has her permit and is driving. wish i could see you in a dream baby. i will be 65 in jan. seems weird you and my parents are gone. leaves an empty space in my heart. i love you sweetheart...mom

good morning my beautiful girl. as i looked at my phone and
saw the 6/14 date i felt a stab in my heart remembering as it was yesterday of the fateful horrible phone call 6 years ago today telling me that my precious baby girl was gone. nothing in my entire life prepared me for that and nothing will ever be the same since. you were the sunshine in my life and will remain in my heart forever.
i miss you so very much and the ache in my heart will never go away. on your 39 birthday a few weeks ago i watched your wedding and reception video with holli and her little one lane. she misses you so much also and is expecting baby #2 in november. how you would have loved them. just wanted to start my day telling you i love you. mom

Happy Birthday Jennifah dahling... I miss you so much. I think about you a lot. I named my baby Nina after you. Her middle name is Jennifer. You would absolutely love her. I'll talk to you later. I love you! Rhonda

Happy Birthday my sweetheart! Wow you would have been 39 today. I know you would have been anticipating a party.
I love you and miss you so very much. Still think of sending you an email all the time; or getting ready to call you. I pray you are at peace and basking in the glow of all Heavenly things. Just wanted to say hi and let you know you will NEVER be forgotten. Xo love you; Mom

hey mom, this is my first time seeing this site, i teared up when reading just the first page.

well here it goes:

so im getting ready to start my fourth year at sac state, im getting my bachelors degree of science in mechanical enginneering, and possibly minoring in physics or chemistry.

i either want to pursuit a carrer in future nano technology in medicine or engineer/designing energy efficient vehicles(you know how much i love to draw). or maybe something not even close to either of those haha ill figure it out, either way im gunna do something big mom.

much has changed my life since your leaving, after my 8th grade graduation, i went to rosemont highschool where i was the second graduating class, graduating with honors! (3.69 cumulative gpa!) and i was also the second person to ever be awarded the award of excellence in the automotive and skilled trades small learning community.

had a girlfriend for about a year an a half, her name was JENNIFER. wiieeeeeeeerd haha. she was my first love haha you woulda loved her, dad sure did :) they were lil buddys. we were both 16 when we met and both new to the love life thing. we grew closer and closer everyday and taught eachother about love and relationships. we have now been broken up for about 2 years. she went to fill her dreams of living with her dad in oregon. since then ive focused alot on myself, and in creating the perfect "me."

lol then off to college: well the most significant thing in collge would be me joining the fraternity my first year at sac state, Tau Kappa Epsilon. man was that an experience, i moved into the house and partied pretty much everyday for a year and a half!! haha, (you woulda done the samething though mom) hey! but i still got my school work done and i still hold a 3.1 gpa!

i moved out of the tke house last year and got a small place downtown but im starting to miss being close to school so i think im going to move by to our old apartment complex on newman court or somewhere close(haha how crazy would that be!) irene and roy right? but its all still up in the air, money is a little tight because im not working right now.

but i know your not worried because luckly we know how to survive on a budget right! you taught me some valuable survival skills :)

im currently getting help from dad grandma jackie and grandpa and grandma mary, they have blessed me with enough money and food per month that i can afford a stabble life. i have everything i need, and as far as im concerned im living the dream!

to describe myself as of today, im 6'4" about 225lbs i play rugby for sacramento state and train/workout between 5-10 times per week. im getting pretty muscular too! i play baskeball every day and i have a intermural basketball team on the side that keeps me in tip top shape. trying to build my self into the best man i can be because i know that thats all you ever dreamed of, and since your not here to help im going to do it the best way i can on my own.

but i know im not telling you anything you dont already know,

keep watchin over me mama, and ill be the best man i can be, i love you and miss you.

Hi Jen... I haven't written in here in ages, but I talk to you all the time, and I believe that you are beside me. I miss you everyday that you are not here physically, but I embrace the little things that remind me of you and our past. I believe that those times, and those moments were for a purpose. Certain things suddenly come to light that remind me of a place or a time or a memory of something you may have said or done. This tells me that I was there with you in that moment for a reason... this reason was to teach me something in the future. As you know I have good days and bad, for I will never be able to get over you being gone. This is probably the hardest thing I have ever had to endure. I just wanted to say that I love you and I miss you... always. Talk to you again soon. I will look for you in a dream. Love Mimi

Hi my precious baby girl. Saw the messages from your nieces. They are wonderful girls and you would be proud of them and Jason and also your great son Vin. He is a joy and has your zest for life. It's so hard to get by each day without you. I'm glad I have Julie next door and keep in constant touch with Jeff. We all miss you more than words can ever say. Our love for you is endless. I love you!!!! Mom

well..
Hey Aunt Jen..
i'm sitting here at school googled my name and a picture of you showed up..
i miss you alot..
i love you.

Hey Aunt Jenn....its been such a long time. i think about you a lot and i miss you terribly. i wish you could see the greatest part of my life...my sweet baby boy Lane...he will be 2 in one more month. and you will be so proud of me...i start school back up in january! you were so beautiful and so independent, i hope one day people can look back on me and hopefully see some of you in me. i love you very much!

Hey my love... I miss you so much these days! Had a dream of you the other night so I know your watching out for me. Thanks honey!!! I love you

Another of your birthdays has come and gone without you. I had you in my thoughts with me all day yesterday, as I do every day. I love you my darling daughter and my heart is heavy missing you and your beautiful smile and your wonderful wit. Not a day goes by that I don't remember some little special memory. Always in my heart and mind... your mom

My mom lynn gave me this pic after jen passed, soo sweet of her/son vinnie.
I'm so glad i had time w/her at my dad alberts funeral in Nov. 2000. She was a sweetheart. Love, Joy

Happy Birthday Jen. I love you as always

Another new year without you in our lives. My heart still aches to hear your voice and your jokes and how you always made us laugh. Your Great Nephew Lane was born in November to Holli and what a joy he is. We are all getting older as you remain ageless in our hearts and minds. I miss you and love you my sweet daughter. I will see you soon.

hey jen been a while things are going well had some dreams of you the other night. Trinity says she sees you alot in her dreams. I love you and miss you soo much. I have accomplished so much since you have been gone wish you were here to celebrate with me. I know I will have fun with you again someday. Love you Karen(Godfrey)Green

The air is chilly, the leaves are falling and my soul still feels just as cold as the day you left us and as the tears fall down my face are warm so are my thoughts of you. My only comfort I try to tell myself is that someday it will all be over and I will hopefully get to be with you again smiling, laughing, and sharing simular thoughts even though we have not said a word. I love you my sister.

Hi Jennifer... just wanted to say that I miss you. Nanny is with you now. I know you loved her so much . Please come see me in a dream. It has been a long time. I miss you so much.

Hi my sweetheart. I miss you so much honey. Nanny is in a coma and coming soon to be with you and papa. Things are just not the same without you. There is not a day that passes that I don't long for you to be here with us. My heart is heavy without you but comforted you are in a better place. We will be together again. I love you, Mom

Hey Girl, I always think of you, but you have been so heavy on my mind these past few days. Love you, always and forever your Madame

Aunt Jen,
Words can't describe how much I miss you. I'm going crazy without you here. I still can't believe that your gone. You'd be so proud of Vinny. He's everything that was good in you. I don't know what else to say, the words escape me. I miss you so much and i hope you are at peace wherever you are. I love you.

Miss you.... recently found Vinny on Myspace! Man has he grown up! I think he thought I was just some random girl wanting to be his friend... hahahha but We've caught up! He is doing well... His GF is BeAuTiFuL.. You would be so proud!!! Well I Miss you honey! Love you

Hey Aunt Jen. Just wanted to fill you in on some of the things thats been up. I got braces about 2 months ago, you would've liked em'. I got i boyfriend. His name is Devin Ballard. He is really sweet. You would've liked him too.lol..Moms(Julie)40th birthday was a hit. She had 3 different birthday parties. We had one at our house, it was a surprise, well to her. I made a sigh that said"lordy lordy look whos 40"!!! She got a hoot out of that. Then we had one at Olive Garden so that friends could come. That was fun too. We got her a bunch of funny gifts. Its to imbarresing to tell you now.lol..then Uncle Jeff through her one at his place with a bunch of his friends. He had a huge banner that said"happy 40th birthday Julie".It was sweet. Vin did great at his graduation, so i heard.i didn't get to go. but it's all good. You should be real proud. He's come a long way.lol.well i think this is long enough and everything else is to misdemeaner. so i'll talk to you later..I Love You Aunt Jen,shelbi

hey blonde its memorial day and oh so over cast and windy !!! i miss you so much love doreen

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOBLE...........I LOVE AND MISS YA. YOU'D BE 36 WHICH IS HOW OLD I WAS WHEN YOU WERE TAKEN FROM US. TRIP! THE MEMORIES YOU LEFT US WILL LAST A LIFETIME (SINCE THEIR WERE SO MANY).....LOVE YOU, JOLLY

Happy Birthday my darling Jen. Julie, Shelbi, Liz and I went camping this weekend. Just the four of us and we had so much fun. We rode jet skis and rode bikes and talked at length around the campfire on your birthday Sat night about old times. We miss you so much and life will just never be the same without you. You are loved deeply and will be missed throughout the rest of our lives....I love you, MOM

Happy Birthday, love and miss you. Celebrating your bday with Lynn and Amy and Alina

Hi Jennifer, I watched your 25th Birthday video and was reminded of such good times. I think about you all of the time. I miss you... I love you... I just wish you were here. Happy Birthday.
Luv, MiMi

Hi Jennifer, I watched your 25th Birthday video and was reminded of such good times. I think about you all of the time. I miss you... I love you... I just wish you were here. Happy Birthday.
Luv, MiMi

hey aunt jen...we miss you..
I LOVE YOU

Hi baby girl. Just saw the new entry from one of your many friends and I had to read and remember all the little things. Me, Julie and Holli got our plane tickets for Vincent's graduation from high school in June and we can hardly wait to see him and cheer for him when he walks across that stage. You and Scott did a wonderful job raising him. He is a delight. I am a very lucky mom to have 3 beautiful children and a lucky grandma to have 4 equally beautiful grandchildren. Now I sit and wait for great grandchildren. eeekkk. Just wanted to say I love you... mom

I just learned how to use this guest book today (technology scares me), so I wanted to take a moment to say hello to Jen's family and friends. For some reason I have been thinking of Vinnie and Jen and Julie alot lately. I love the new photo of Vinnie, Michelle! I ran into him several times recently because he was hanging out with my nephew Josh. I haven't seen him in several months, but it was really great to see him! I used to babysit him and change his diapers, and now he's all grown up and doing really well, I might add. Good for you, Vinnie. Call me any time for any reason (and I know you have my phone # because you put it in your cell phone). I still want to hit an amusement park with you. Brandon and I love the huge roller coasters.

I first met Jennifer when she was probably about 9 years old. At that time she was just Julie's pesky little sister. Fast forward to about 2 years before Vinnie was born...Jen and I discovered we had several things in common. But the best one was our love for all things edible! Every time we would plan to get together we had our meal planned before we got off the phone. I really miss you Jen. I always think of you when I make our yummy skillet breakfasts!

I'd like to share a story that says alot about the kind of person Jen was. It was about 10 years ago and Jen was bringing Vinnie up to my place to spend the night. I had been running errands all day and came home with my 3 small children to find that my house had been broken into. And it was very likely the robbers were in the house when I got home. So, Jen and Vinnie show up about 1/2 hour after that and I was pretty freaked out. I had called the police and Jen waited with me while they did their thing. Jen had plans that night and was going to cancel them to hang with me, but I told her to go have fun and I'd see her in the morning. So I was home alone that night with 4 kids and a broken window on my back door and still kind of spooked when the phone rings. It was the officer that had come out to the house earlier. So I'm thinking, "What a nice guy! He is calling just to be sure I'm OK" That's when he says, "I wanted to check on your friend Jennifer. She seemed to be pretty shaken up earlier and I wanted to be sure she was OK." I had to laugh after I hung up, because that is just how it was with Jen...people were drawn to her. I will always remember the charming, funny girl who was full of personality and NEVER afraid to say what was on her mind. I think I loved that most about her - the openness and honesty. I am so glad we were friends, girl!

P.S. Julie, if you see this, I would love it if you'd send me an email. I don't know why I'm so nostalgic lately (unless it's the big '40' coming right up.) I have been thinking about you and Michelle Stangle. I heard a Journey song on the radio yesterday and it took me back. I hope you and your family are doing great. Hope to talk to you soon!

Hi my darling daughter... Lots happening since I wrote last.. I am living in Texas...can you believe it? I drove here on Thanksgiving night. He came home to me on 12/21/06 and on 12/21/07 I was on a plane back to Texas alone after putting all my stuff into storage out there. (Rocky is going to go get it for me in spring). I have had a hard time with it all but needed to be near Julie and family. We had a wonderful christmas and it was the first one in 10 years with Julie.. I miss you so much and wish I would have had you to talk to in all this drama. I love being close to the kids. Jason is also back in Texas. Actually Holli and I live in an apartment together.. roomies.. Shelbi is staying here this week for christmas vacation. I start a new job on Wed 1/2/08 and have grown to like Cleburne TX.. ha. We all keep in touch with Vin and he is amazing... we will all be there for his graduation in late May or early June. I love you so much and continue to miss you so much every day. It is the last day of 2007 today and I know you would have had some special plans for New Years Eve.. Shelbi and I are having a movie marathon and then plan to watch the ball drop in New York...She misses you too and said for me to say hi & love you from her too. Julie and Rocky are going to a friends tonight and Holli is working... Jason will probably be with some of his friends too... He is living next door to Julie... Our family is good... Jeff seems to be doing good.. He is upset for me but says he is staying in Sacramento to be near you.... we all love you so much... and my heart is with you always. mom

Hi Sweetheart... today is Vincent's 17th birthday.. I saw Michelle posted his graduation photo.. You did such a good job girl.. He is a very handsome and wonderful son. I know how proud you are and I so wish you could be here to watch him walk across the stage in May and graduate from high school. You were there for his 8th grade and now he is finished with high school. How fast time passes and I miss you as much today as when you were first taken. You will always be my little baby girl and I love you with all that I am. You are missed more than anyone could imagine... not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you horribly. Julie and I went to see Nanny. We had a great trip and I enjoyed spending 4 days with her. I got my hair cut off and it looks really good. Nanny said you came to see her last week. She has trouble remembering things and had me and Julie laughing. She thought I was Jennifer and I said no I am Jeanette and she asked Julie if she was Jennifer and she said, no, I am Julie.. then she asked us who she was.. :-) she is so cute.. You were always there to see her every weekend in Elk Grove and she does remember. Love you so much, Mom and Scott

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone. So much we didn't say, but doesn't change how much I love you. We should be starting our Christmas ornaments by now (that I have to finish cause your bored) Not to mention making tamales and chicken and dumplings! Another season has past and a new one is here and they all remind me of you.

Hi Jennifer, I am posting this picture of your son so that all of your friends and loved ones can see what a spectacular young man he has become. I cannot believe that he is already a senior and getting ready to graduate this spring. That is so crazy! I know that you are so very proud of him. He is such a good kid. I love him dearly and I am really glad that he is still a part of my life.
I think about you all of the time, and I miss you very much. I hope that you will visit me in a dream soon. Until then......

MiMi

Hello my darling daughter. I miss you so much sweetheart. Julie and I are going to Seattle a week from tomorrow to see Nanny. She is not doing well and we wanted to see her. I wish you could go with us but I am sure you are with us in spirit. A friend of mine talked to a psycic the other day and she said that you were always with me.. not sure if I believe all that but it did make me feel good. Things at home are hectic and Scott works 24/7 with hardly any rest. I worry about him but he is building our financial future he says.. I am looking forward to retirement and kicking back in a few years... My heart is heavy with missing you but happy that I had you in my life for 32 years.. I miss and love you with all my heart... mom

Thinking of you and all of the many awesome 4th's we had together. I am so thankful for those tiimes. We all miss you and the fun that you brought to the party. Luv You Jen.
MiMi

Hi Sweetie. I just can't believe it has been 3 years today since you were sent to Heaven. I miss you as much today as I did the day I lost you. Life goes on here and a day does not go by that I don't feel the pain of losing you. I miss you so much and miss emailing you and talking to you on the phone and hugging you.. Jeff and Julie are doing well and so are all the kids. Holli graduated from high school last month and it was sad that you weren't there with us. I don't talk to Vincent much but all I hear is good things. Will see him at his graduation next year. They grow up so fast. I remember him as a little guy with the adorable smile. I know we will all be together one day, but it hurts to be without you right now. Nanny is not doing well and I am trying to prepare for losing her at any time. She will be 87 this year. I love you so much my darling daughter.. MOM

HI JENNIFER, THIS IS CUZIN JOY. WE MET BRIEFLY IN SACTO WHEN MY DAD HAD PASSED ON. I KNOW U MISS UR FAMILY AS MUCH AS THEY DO YOU. I HAVE FOUND HOLLI ON MYSPACE, SHES SUCH A SWEET, LOVING YOUNG LADY.
I AM SHARING FAMILY STORIES W/HER, SHE APPRECIATES THEM. :) I AM SO HAPPY TO BE CONNECTED W/FAMILY.
SHE GRADUATES SAT,I KNOW U R PROUD OF HER.
LOVE CUZIN JOYBOB :*

Hey, Baby ! It's your brother, and there's only one ! I think about you on a daily basis, and I know you know that... I counted your birthday down, and when it came, I had you all day with me, as I was working, you wouldn't want me to take the day off, so I didn't ! But my heart was heavy, cuz I didn't have you..... But I'm alright. I am a tough son of a gun, thank you baby, I hold you so strong, you'd be proud ! I am gonna make it ! Thank You for your unending support and Love. You Will Be With Me Every Moment Until I Can Join You, I Look So Forward To That ! In Time ! I Can Say Goodbye Now, Cuz I'll See Ya Soon! Love You, Jennifer...... Jeff

Happy Birthday Jen, I love you and miss you

Happy Birthday Sissy.......Its heartbreaking to think that you have been gone 3 years from our lives. I keep you and the memories fresh in the kids' minds. You will always be a strong influence in our lives. I Love You and miss you ......

Hi Jynnnnaaey... Happy Birthday! I love you and think of you every day. I miss you so much. Today is Coldstone day, so everyone who reads this needs to go out and celebrate Jennifer and all of the awesome memories she left you with.
BFF
MiMi

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIFER... I love you so much. You would have been 35 today... We are going to Coldstone's this afternoon in your honor.. I miss and love you more than you can imagine.. I feel you with me somehow but need to hug you so bad... You will always remain in my heart and mind.. Love you always, Mom

Jennifah dahling,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you! we all miss you! i think of you all the time and i miss seeing you and talking to you. we're gonna come by and see you today. luv ya always, rhonda

My darling baby girl. Here is is nearly three years without you. Yesterday was Mothers Day and I missed you so much honey.. Jeff and Julie called me and I really miss talking to you so much. Thursday is your birthday and it is so odd that 3 years ago on your birthday we picked you up at the airport in Dallas to make our historic road trip to Arkansas for Jasons graduation..3 weeks later you were gone. Ironically, I am flying to Texas next week for Holli's graduation and it seems very strange that you won't be there to celebrate with us.. It just does not seem fair... It just does not get easier sweetie.. I pray you are looking down on us and will be there with us as we watch little Holli graduate. Next year we will be going to Vincent's graduation. Life goes on somehow.. I just grieve that you are not here with us. Scott and I bought a home in Santa Maria and just moved in this weekend.. all is well here... but wish you were here to come visit us and go to the beach. Michelle is due to have yet another little one any day now. She said she thinks you are sending them to her to keep her out of trouble. haha Just wanted to tell you I love and miss you sweetie.. mom

Jen....Man I miss you so much...I wish I could still just call and chat and tell you everything I need to vent about.....my family is falling apart....I wish you were still here....It doesnt ever get easier! I love you and miss you everyday!

Vinny...I found you on Myspace....I hope your doing good. I miss you alot...Need to catch up....Hope all is well

Jenn....I know your looking out for him....Can you look out for me too! Love you!!!!!

I miss you

Heyyy girl, I just was thinking of you and i wanted to wish you a merry christmas from all of us. we miss you baby! love, rhonda

Hi my darling girl. I miss you so much. This is the first christmas I have decorated since the last one with you. I have all your christmas things up and Scott is home finally and we just put your angel on top of the tree. Jeff is due here today and Jason is back in Texas with Julie and family. My life is good except for missing you and wishing you were here with all of us for Christmas. I love you sweetie so much and life will never be the same without you. Hope you are looking down on us and see us and sharing our christmas. I LOve YOU MOM

Hi Jen,
Another year and another Christmas with out your shining smile. You have been on my mind sooo much lately that I thought it only right that I should tell you. The last time I saw you at Christmas time I was in a total FUNK with 10 loads of laundry to be done. What did you do? Came over to my house, made my sad self get up and we dragged every last dirty sock to the laundromat and ate pizza while we waited for them to wash & dry. God, how I miss not being able to call you....I bet you are up in heaven planning the craziest Christmas party ever!! You are forever in my thoughts.

Hey Sis ~~Im still hangin in there. I have been thinking of ya alot. Theres nights lately that I can not get to sleep and just have to listen to Rocky snore for hours you remember that I know. Just crazy things that have no ryme or reason. Here it is Christmas again.... Mom is sending me some of your christmas stuff. Mom was telling me she found dirty christmas socks in your stuff. I had to smile it was so "YOU" to worry about that the next year instead. You didnt make time for normal things. Which makes me happy and sad. I want you to know that days are never the same without you. Love you soooo

Hey, baby ! It's Your Bro, Jeff. Missing you terribly and having a hard time with words, but this life right now for me and many of us who loved you so much , it is really hard living.... I am having a really hard time with life right now, but I promise I will pull through. Somehow..... You are always on my mind.... I Love You, Forevermore.... It's just me, I'll see you sooner than later ! It will be all good..... Look over me baby, please. I can use it ! Angel You Are !!!!!

Hi Baby girl... It just never stops hurting.. I miss you so much and still can't believe I can't email you or call you and hear your cute little phone message. I know you are in Heaven and taking care of Papa and just waiting for the rest of us one day; but here on Earth it still hurts. You were a joy as a child and I constantly remember the little girl who combed my hair and rubbed my hand when I had a headache. I will never get over this loss. You would be so proud of Vinny. He is a wonderful boy and right now is with his Aunt Julie and the girls in Texas. I hope you know how much you are loved and always will be... I love you.. Mommy

I MISSSS YOUUUU!!!

Jennifer....I think you were working your magic this weekend....I went to Arco to watch a show on friday and was thinking of Jeff...I went home and looked in my email for his email address, and I couldnt find it...Then Monday I came to work and guess who I had an email from??? JEFF!!!! I was so super excited I had to tell you! I know that you made this happen! Thanks for keeping us all intouch somehow....even through thoughts! Your always in mine! I miss you so much...I wish I could share all the wonderful stories with you! I love you and miss you so much! I need to get together with Jeff soon....Im not sure where he lives these days?? But we will make something happen?? Well Love you Love You Love You!!!!!!

Jenn you were so rich with good friends because you were everything that people wanted and needed. I know... I miss your view on life and your unique way of doing things. You truly are "one of a kind". WE ALL are suffering without you in our lives. Not any one of us will ever get over the loss of you not being physically with us. I will never understand WHY you. You shared so much LOVE, Care, and respect with all of us. Its all loss no gain.... After these two years I still feel so empty. Life doesnt seem as fun or exciting without you. The impact of it all is just so overhelming & I dont think decades will help me get over the devil taking you or the Lord not saving you. I LOVE YOU FOR ETERNITY. I want to thank Jeremy again for this blessed gift of getting to write down my feelings and reading others. I also want to thank your friends michelle and rhonda and all the others who love you and are willing take the time to let you know. LoVe YoUr BiG SiS!!!!

Time has turned to years now since the news of you came in.
A shattered voice that morning to say…
“You’ve lost your dearest friend.”
My soul shattered in that instant, all was washed away so fast.
So much was happening with you, so quickly laid to rest.
I still don’t believe it, the time was so surreal.
I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. You were my best friend. That was the deal.
We talked at night on the ten spot to tell us about our days. I could always count on laughing. You made things all “OK”…
You always had my back, you were the someone on my side, without you here to talk to, a piece of me has died.

I miss you more than words or tears could ever quite express. It’s the feeling of loss within me to you this I confess.
Nobody else will ever be what you were in my life. The energy and confidence that made my soul shine bright.

My life has changed so much now, I have a new baby to hold at heart.
He’s someone to keep me going while we are now apart.
He will never know his Mom’s best friend or the person that I once was,
But he will always be told the story of how he was sent to me from Jennifer,
my star above.

I love you and think of you every day. Until we talk again…

I wish you were here. I miss you so much. Things are not the same and my life is so empty. I miss having a best friend to help me through hard times. You were always there for me to vent to and give me advice. I wish so bad that you were still here. I love you and I miss you everyday.

There is one who is not like others she who is sweet and funny unlike others she who cares she who gives she who made us smile she who is different and she who likes it she who is willing to do anything to help she who is in the hearts of people who knew her she who was an Angel from the start she is the one that gave me hope for life for who is she she is the Angel of our lifes

I was just thinking about you!!! I love you and miss you so so much!!!!!! Happy late bday!!!! LOVE YOU JENNIFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jennifah dahling,
hey girl, happy birthday, i sent you one yesterday but i guess it didn't go through. anyways, thanks for the dream. i thought it was ironic how i dreamed about you and it was your birthday and i thought that was really cool. i miss you girl. i think about you every day. love, rhonda

Happy Birthday Moop... I had Coldstone Ice Cream for you. Your fav-Cake Batter with Almonds. I Love You Always. Ju

Happy Birthday Jen. I miss you dearly and think of you everyday. Today was always such a big deal so I hope everyone who reads this will celebrate your life today and go to Coldstone for a Cake Batter and Almonds ice cream. (your favorite) We all love you so much and I miss you in my life. I am so greatful for Savannah. Great times and great stories of the things you used to do that I had forgotten about she quickly reminds me of. Remember when... You went to pet the horse and it tried to get your beer, but instead it bit your finger? Your finger was green and bruised for weeks. Yes Savannah remembered your bruised finger. Too funny.
I love you always and will never forget you.
Love MiMi