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Mommy
June 5, 2024
Wow my love, 41 years old today! I remember the day you were born, it was a beautiful day; It was the best day of my life. I miss you so very much; I miss every thing about you....your smile, your beautiful soft skin, your soulful eyes, your amazing hugs, brushing your hair, holding your hand, the way you smelled. You always smelled like a beautiful breeze with a hint of sweetness. From the day you were born to the day you left, the way you always held my hand; Your soft silky hands. I think that´s one of the moments I miss the most. We will be coming to see you today, my birthday baby. I do believe the happy birthday tune is to be sung!!! Funny thing, JonnaMonet made a chocolate cake at 3am this morning, a birthday cake? I think she unconsciously made you one of your favorite cakes and yes I had a piece with her, it was crazy delicious!!! So my darling, this is a bitter sweet day, Happy Birthday with all my heart and unconditional love. Visit when you can, I´ll forever see you in my dreams.
Mommy
January 19, 2024
Good evening my Princess CheeChee Bean, We´ve had our second snow fall for the year so far. Unfortunately not really amounting to anything. It´s supposed to snow again tomorrow, possibly 2-3 inches.
I miss you so much, I was in Johanna´s bedroom yesterday and we were talking about you. When Johanna and I looked down at some wires that were near her vanity, there was a wine in the shape of a heart on a piece of equipment. We both know that´s your calling card. We were so excited, we really love knowing your here looking in on us.
I can´t believe it´s 17 years since you´ve been gone, my heart tells me it was just yesterday. I can hear your voice almost crystal clear, I miss holding your hand, so soft, so baby like. That beautiful smile that will forever squeeze my heart. JonnaMonet has your hands, your smile, your crazy soft skin. She´s not the snuggler you are, but she is very much your spirit.
I love you my darling baby girl, unconditionally and forever, your forever on my mind. Whenever you have time, please visit!!! Until we are together again my Honey
Kimberly A Vecchione
June 5, 2023
Hey my darling, happy 40th! Are Poppie, Nonnie, PopPop, Grandma, Grandpa, cousin Lyn, Ember and Johnny celebrating with you? I wish we could spend today and everyday together. Still so hard without you; your here but your not here. Jonna is out for the summer in another week, packing for her first plane ride/trip away without us. She´s so excited; yes, I´m a nervous wreck. Mitch is on summer break from graduate school, Johanna still attending MDAC, painting and creating. She is still at dance, competing and even taking country western dancing. Grandma is still here with me, THANK GOD! Daddy working his butt off, and I´m back to writing and performing. Nothing different, yet, everything is different without you here beside me. I love you my darling more and more each moment of every day. Happy Birthday Princess, forever my unconditional eternal love!
JonnaMonet
January 26, 2023
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January 19, 2023
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Mommy
January 19, 2023
Good morning my darling, how are you? I´ve sent you a picture of your baby girl; she´s a beauty, just like her Mommy. She´s artistically and musically talented as well....she´s you! Mitch is in his 2nd year of grad school. Such an amazing illustrator and artist. Johanna is now attending a more challenging art program, check out her artwork as well. As I´m sure you know, we´ve done an incredible amount of refurbishing on the house, included in that is an "Artist wall" for each of you, your artwork will join theirs.
Grandma is here, she´s so done with Florida. She´s looking for a place near us, isn´t that awesome? We shall see, I´m hopeful, however I´m not pressuring her because I want this move to be what she truly wants without outside influences.
Our baby girl Bean, is 16 months old now, still such a pup, still chewing everything!
I miss you so much my darling. I pray for you, for all of us. Losing you is the hardest part of our lives. The hurt, sorrow, tears are forever! I know your still with us and always will be, but, I miss holding your hand as we were driving or walking, as we often did. An advertisement came on television the other day for "Disney on Ice", that was the last event we (you, me, Jonna and Johanna) went to. It makes me smile remembering you watching Jonna watch the show but it also rips my heart out because your not physically here sharing now. I still get angry your not here, I`ll burst into tears, my baby, my Princess I love you so much. My love for you is forever, unconditional and I will carry with me straight through to Heaven. You will have to show me how to get to rainbow bridge, we have lots of babies waiting there for us. I pray your surrounded by Nonnie, PopPop, Lynne, Grandma and Granda V, Apples, PePa and Aunt Lolly and all of this e that love and adore you. I know God holds you tight, I know your so very special to him, I can feel it, that my baby girl, makes me smile. Have a great day honey bunny. I love you CheeChee Bean. Visit me soon
Aunt Alicia
January 18, 2023
Miss you every day beautiful angel. Praying for you and those who love you.
TerriAnn Albrecht
June 6, 2022
Happy Heavenly Birthday
You are so missed..
Mommy
June 4, 2022
My darling Princess Cas, at midnight you´ll be another year older; you´ll be 39 years old this year. Honey bunny I miss you so very very much. I would love to take you out for dinner tomorrow with JonnaMonet and Johanna. Just us girls. Wouldn´t that be awesome?!? Just to hold you and kiss that beautiful face, I do miss your visits.
I hope you, Nonnie, PopPop, Poppie, Grandma and Grandpa, Caryn, Donald, my Cousin Lynne, and all the other Angels are giving you an amazing birthday bash!
Happy Birthday Princes CheeChee Bean, all my unconditional love forever! Your favorite flowers for you baby girl
Mommy
May 26, 2022
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May 26, 2022
Hey Baby, I´m just sitting here thinking about your upcoming birthday and missing you so very much. Thirty nine, wow, when I see you in my mind your still my baby of 23. Smiling, happy, busy, in jeans and a tee shirt, your hair crazy curly and covering your shoulders. So beautiful, so free. Your Jonna is so you! Sometimes I look at her and want to cry because you two have the same mannerisms. I can still feel the softness of your skin, your delicate hands, your angelic face. I miss you so much it hurts, all these people that say how it gets better over time are so wrong. It hurts, it´s like a huge hole in my heart every day. I´m sad for me, for Daddy, for Mitch and Johanna and for our Jonna, but mostly for you because all that your missing. I wish you would come and visit me, come anytime, whisper in my ear and wake me if I´m sleeping. I love you with all of my heart my darling, unconditionally and forever.
TerriAnn Albrecht
January 22, 2022
Thinking about you today..
Mommy
January 21, 2022
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January 21, 2022
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January 21, 2022
My darling Princess CheeChee Bean,
It´s 15 years and it´s like it was yesterday. 15 years ago I was up early, getting your Jonna and myself dressed and ready for our brunch. We went to Vazzys´s around 11:30, you had chicken and you ordered 2 cups of black coffee. You kept complaining of being cold. So many signs I didn´t see but should have. You had been in the car accident the day before, hit your face/head, you weren´t on Coumadin as you should have been. Why was I so blind to your symptoms? I will forever remember you telling me, "Mommy you will be fine if something ever happens to me, your a great Mom, you will have the three babes to keep you busy! Thank you for always being there for me through the tough times, you love me unconditionally and I love you, thank you." My darling baby, those words are what keeps me going every day. But, why did you say that to me that day? Did you know? How could you know? If you did know, why didn´t you tell me so I could do something to save you? I miss you so much, the sadness and pain is there everywhere, every moment of every day. Are you watching me? Are you watching your Jonna, Mitch, Johanna? Can you feel our love and our pain? I bet your making Heaven an even brighter more exciting place to be. All the love with our Lord and all of those wonderful people and Angels your surrounded by must be wonderful. I´m quite envious. Did you meet my Ember at Rainbow Bridge? I hope so, I pray you´ve found one another, I now have Bean, she´s so much like Ember, I keep thinking/hoping perhaps that it´s Embers soul in this little girl. Have a wonderful day my darling baby, never ever forget I will always love you unconditionally eternally!
Mommy, Daddy, Johanna, Mitch and your JonnaMonet
June 5, 2021
Happy 38th Birthday our Princess, we love you unconditionally to Heaven and back forever
Kimberly Vecchione
June 5, 2021
Happy 38th birthday my beautiful Princess. I miss you so much. There’s a picture next to my bed of you, Daddy, me and Johanna. We are at Disney having a fantasy dinner. Your face has a parrot painted on it. The happiness and love pouring out of that picture is amazing. It puts a huge smile on my face but rips my heart out because your so missed and our love was/is so intense. It was an awesome time in our lives. So much has happened, good and bad. One thing I have learned is you, me, Daddy, Johanna, Mitchie and your JonnaMonet will always be our own islandstrong, fierce and so much love. Not many are allowed on our island we protect one another with unconditional love. This love I know has followed you to heaven and back to us. I treasure the day we will all be together again. Until then, we will keep celebrating your birthday here for you! All my unconditional love forever Princess Chee Chee Bean
Mommy
February 1, 2021
It’s snowing like crazy! Our kind of storm, so we are all shut in the house together, fireplace working over time, me cooking and baking. All is as it should be except your not here and as of yesterday, neither us Ember. I know you never got to actually meet her, you looked in from up above. She was Mitchs replacement fir you! Remember the television show you would watch with him every day (sometimes twice a day) entitled, “Wishbone”? Ever since you been gone he has asked to get a Beagle. Finally 9 years ago, we rescued Ember from a puppy mill. She was a champion beagle, so sweet, so loving, so wonderful! Unfortunately she had cancer and passed last night, and again for the second time in all our lives ripped our hearts out. Mitch said for us not to worry, she definitely made it to you in Heaven. I hope so, if she hasn’t gotten there yet please locate her. She’s a tiny 9 year old two perfectly round black spots on either sides head, located directly on temples. Of course she answers to Ember. Her tail has a crook near the tip where the door caught her. She is amazing and the two of you will be wonderful together. Honey I miss you so much, always remember I love you unconditionally forever.
Mommy
January 22, 2021
Hi my Princess, Yesterday I couldn’t do anything right, all wasn’t right in the Universe. Then I remembered, although I chat with you and about you to God on a daily basis, I tend to forget what the actual dates are, especially since I started working. Then I realized and of course started to cry. My Princess, your being gone is as fresh as yesterday. I’m constantly reminded how much better, easier, carefree life would be if you were still here. To say I miss you is an understatement, just as it is to say I remember everything about you and can picture all in my mind. The touch of your hands holding mine, your laugh, your tears, your crazy infectious smile, your body scent, your beautiful soft skin, your hair...so soft, your beautiful caring eyes, your courage to take on anything and everything. Your beautiful voice, your snuggle ability at anytime. I really miss snuggling, sleeping in, late breakfasts, shopping with you. My beautiful sunshine, I miss you. Jonna is doing well, 15, as you know, is a tough age. She’s so sports oriented, of course musical and artistic. She has your kindness and your compassion, especially with small children and all animals. Mitch and Sofia still dating, over 5 years now. They both graduated college, Mitch 3.7 and Sofia 4.1. Sofia is now finishing her Masters program at Sacred Heart. Mitch’s artwork is amazing and the jobs he’s been commissioned for would really make you proud, he too has your love and compassion for all living. Johanna still dances and has sold four pieces for artwork. I know she has long chat sessions with you on a daily basis. Daddy is forever tired and I have to admit sad, spoiling Jonna constantly. We all just miss u so much. Forever all my unconditional love Mommy
TerriAnn Albrecht
January 18, 2021
Dear Cassie,
I think about you often as I watch my children grow. I miss hugging & seeing them since the pandemic and feel your mothers pain & grief of the years without you..
Thinking about you again today---this memory of your mother bringing you wrapped (tight) in a blanket while I was working at a convince store in Pawling is eched in my thoughts. The (Getty Mart) is long gone but a Mobile Mart stands there. I pass the Moblie Mart everyday heading to work in Westchester and check in with you everyday on my way to work. Just- a few seconds to say hello as I start my day. Please hug Uncle Rudy - who I know is with you now...
I think about your mom often and how she held herself together after you left earth. You're missed and always thought about..
Love Aunt/Cuz Terri
Teressa
January 19, 2020
Cassie and I went to high school together. We really didn't know one another well - we chatted a little here and there in various classes, mostly in passing, but that was about it. When she passed away, it really stuck with me; particularly in seeing the posts to this website. I followed along for years - checking in here and there as a notification popped up in my inbox. We were the same age and she was the first person my own age that had passed away. She'd always been nice to me in school and the idea that someone I'd graduated with wasn't here anymore really shocked me. Just prior to her passing, I'd worked at a daycare. One of the little girls I cared for lost her mother to cancer while she was in my care. Reading that Cassie had a little girl who would grow up with her mama really hit home. So I checked in now and then, reading little bits about her family and her baby girl and her mother's grief. It's been a very long time since I've checked in and doing so tonight came with an entirely different perspective. Since the last time, I've become a mother - my firstborn was actually born on July 29, 2008 (I just saw that Cassie's daughter was born July 30th) and was named for the little girl i cared for at that daycare. I've also lost a dear friend of mine and watched her mother struggle horribly with her own grief and guilt before ultimately taking her own life. Being a mother now myself, I have a new understanding of what a mothers love really is. Just imagining the depths of despair losing one of my children would thrust me into knocks the air out of me. I felt it was imperative to leave a little note here; in part because I've felt like a spy peeking at someone's diary by reading these entries, in part because i want to extend my continued condolences, and in part to thank you - when I lost my friend in 2015, I found a lot of comfort in writing to her on her legacy guestbook. I don't know that I would've thought to do it if it hadn't been for your continued messages to Cassie all these years. I still write to my friend there, and though the grief never seems to lift, there's something therapeutic in putting my heart into words and sending it into the universe; it somehow feels like she sees it. I have you to thank for that - sincerely, thank you. It has truly been a gift these past five years, when there have been moments the pain has seemed unbearable, to know I could go somewhere to talk to her. Though nothing I can say will ever, EVER ease the pain of your loss, I hope you find peaceful moments in remembering your baby girl. Especially today. All my love to you and your family.
Your JonnaMonet going to school, now 14
January 18, 2020
Mitch and Johanna, Mitch leaving for Italu
January 18, 2020
Smiling at my baby...I love you Cas
Mommy
January 18, 2020
My darling Princess, not a day goes by that I don't think of you. Your smile, your angelic face, how soft your skin was, everytime I was driving, you would hold my hand, your hands were so soft. Your JonnaMonet has the same soft hands, the same dimples in her fingers. Your beautiful face is mirrored on JonnaMonet. I sometimes stare at her when she's sleeping and remember you at her age, that same beautiful face. I miss you so much my Princess! Someday we will be together again...until then I shall stumble and crawl through each day without you prentending life is ok, knowing your one of God's special Angels. All my love unconditionally forever.
Johanna Vecchione
June 6, 2018
Happy Birthday to my darling Cassie.
Mommy Vecchione
June 5, 2018
Happy 35th Birthday my Angel Cas...I will love you unconditionally for all eternity my darling Princess!
Mommy Vecchione
June 5, 2018
"Good morning my darling...look at you...ur not even a day old and so beautiful". That's the way I felt on this day 35 years ago. Can you believe it, your 35? I miss you so very much. If you were here with me right now we would be snuggling in my bed planning your day. Perhaps a fancy luncheon, perhaps we would already be on a trip, after all, 35 is pretty special. But...you know, you were so very special from the day you were born. All your firsts....nursing you, first bottle, rolling over, crawling, first step, "momma", walking holding my hand. You always held my hand, from the moment you were born. First preschool, our adventures together really started to take off when you were two. Remember that first big trip? Yours/our adventures continued right up until the the night you left with the Angels. I love the life we shared, the ups the downs, always exciting, never a dull moment. How many amusement parks did we visit? How many wonderful trips did you/we go on...You helped me through the births of Johanna and Joseph Mitchell, you were their second Mom! The admiration wow! The adventures we took with them. The birth of JonnaMonet...i will never forget that one...20 minutes, out she came. Then not to long after the Angels came and you went home. I know your at peace and keeping watch from Heaven, but it doesn't stop my tears or my pain. On this 35th birthday just know Mommy is always here, missing you, loving you unconditionally. I can still smell your skin, feel the softness of you hand, see your beautiful face and smile, see your long beautiful ringlets. I remember the way you used to make your eyes vibrate.....Have a most awesome birthday up in Heaven my most beautiful and treasured first born Princess, my Chee Chee Bean. Forever in my heart..I love you. I will stop in with your birthday flowers...red, purple, yellow, blue, orchids. Happy Birthday darling and remember...Dance little girl dance!!❤
Mommy
January 21, 2018
my unconditional love infinity squared
Mommy
January 21, 2018
Good morning my beautiful Princess.
It has been 11 years today you left me, the emptiness still rattles in my chest and stomach. My brain screams in echoed silence why, please please come back to me. Its 3:35 in the morning, we should be going for brunch today...you, JonnaMonet and I. instead I lay here hating the world, but mostly myself. I should have prayed as I had been doing for years. I remember how tired I was that night but that shouldnt have stopped me from praying. Now I cry in silence reliving every moment. The pain never stops, the tears never dry. You will always be my heart, my love, my reason to smile, my world has become such a sad place without you. The loneliness is like quicksand sucking me down. its a constant battle to catch my breath and move on. I do it for Daddy, Mitch, Johanna and your beautiful reflection JonnaMonet. Its twice as exhausting, so much harder than anything I have ever done. Simetimes I consider just stopping, taking what would be the easy way out, but I worry about how your Dad and the babes would do. Would it leave them feeling as I do? That guilt would haunt me to hell and I would never see you again. So instead I ride the tortured fence, pretending life is amazing and tomorrow will be brighter...I miss you my darling, I just pray we will be together when GOD knows it's right for Dad, Mitch, Johanna and JonnaMonet to be safe and happy without me. So until then my Princess I shall write you telling you my love for you remains as fierce today as the day you were born and its what keeps me going. Forever to you my darling my unconditional love. Sweet dreams.
Mommy
October 9, 2017
Hey Baby, I know it's been awhile since I've written, but know there isn't a day passing that ur not on my mind. I remember the day you died you told me I would be fine without you, the babes would be fine. Wrong, you were so wrong, I'm not fine, I still cry, hell I'm crying now! I miss you. JonnaMonet misses the very thought of you and is so very angry that she missed a life time without you and she's only 12. Johanna cries almost daily over missing you. Mitch, as usual, keeps it all in, as does your Daddy, instead they work themselves crazy. Now that I've whined and cried. Daddy is working like crazy, Mitch is doing well in college, a bit overwhelming, but he's getting it done. He will be spending the summer in Greece with his illustration teacher and the following semester he will be in Tuscany Italy studying painting! Johanna just finished with another broken foot; This time the left one. She has been studying ballroom dancing and was supposed to dance the Waltz in a Showcase. However she hasn't danced in over a month now so we shall see. She loves MDAC, her special ed. Art School. One of her pictures, a charcoal was framed and in a gallary; We bought it of course, quite pricy, but an original hehe. JonnaMonet has changed schools, she now attends The Hope School in Milford and absolutely loves it. She has progressed quickly and has very nice friends. She is still playing LaCrosse, this will be her 3rd year as Goalie, she continues with Cheerleading. She and Johanna have continued with Special Olympics Bowling and Swimming. Me, I'm presently in bed nursing my 3rd concussion in 3 years. Man what a headache!!! Sandy is still always looking out for me, thank God for her from me! Grandma is redoing her place downstairs. I think it's good, gives her something to do now that Poppie is with you. She has a friend Janice she has almost all her meals with, they are the best of friends, it's good, they go on wonderful adventures together. I'm still performing with Timster and recording of course. Daddy, Andy and I are all in a band together called Frantic Pulse. I finally closed the Barnaba Institute, after Frank passed I lost the will to fight. Well my darling, my head is killing me and I've caught you up on everything. Take good care of Nonnie
and PopPop, Grandma and Grandpa Vecchione, Poppie and all the other beautiful angels up in Heaven with you. Visit when you can. Know that you are forever in my heart and I shall love you forever unconditionally throughout eternity. Hugs and kisses
Mommy
October 11, 2016
Hey my darling.....I think about you every moment of every day...usually.... it's funny happy thoughts of all our adventurers; we had many. But then it reminds me that you are no longer here and that rips my heart out and I must cry a thousand tears. I find the pain is never ending and my love is forever ......eternally...infinity squared. It's Grandma's 77th birthday and just she and I are out. We chatted about you all night. Grams said stop opening the cabinets. Johanna said you visited last night. I love you my darling Princess...visit me....I could use that. Forever all my love unconditionally and eternally....Mommy
Mommy
February 19, 2015
Hello my Darling Princess.... JonnaMonet just came running in from the Media Room where she and Johanna were playing on the Wii to tell me you were visiting with them. She said she could feel you and that suddenly the song stopped and your favorite song started playing. She was so excited. I hope it was you and I pray you visit often. I took the girls to an upscale burger place "Plan B" for lunch today. I never got to take u there....it opened after you left. Your kind of place though.....all organic meat of course, portabello fries...burgers in the grass...no bun. Yummy and over 100 types of beers and bourbon. They make a funnybone for 4 to eat. That is what we picked up for Mitch's birthday cake. Grams and Poppie will be joining us of course tomorrow night.
Girls are doing great...getting ready for dance recital in June. Mitch won two medals at FCIAC and made States. He has decided he wants to attend Old Lyme Art School to perfect his skills and work as an illustrator. While working he wants to get his masters and hopefully be hired to teach art at Old Lyme Art Institute. He impresses the hell out of me. He runs 8 - 10 miles a day everyday. He is so focused on his future. When I look into his face, I see you. His eyes, cheekbones and hair are all you. He has your talent and patience, never boasting...very humble. If I look at JonnaMonet I relive you at 9. Your everywhere. Your so loved and missed.
Have a wonderful day my darling Princess....always know that you are loved unconditionally and eternally my baby girl.
Johanna Vecchione
January 24, 2015
I love you and I miss so much I Wish you are here with us
Mommy Vecchione
January 20, 2015
Good Morning my darling Princess,
Its almost 8 years you are gone and still my heart is so heavy. As I watch Johanna, Mitch and especially JonnaMonet grow up I hate that ur not here to experience their lives with them. Mitch is just amazing but is so quiet when he talks about you, he internalizes everuthing and misses you so much.Johanna poor baby walks around still one step away from tears. She keeps reminding me its the anniversary of ur leaving. I always smile and tell her I know and that you are keeping tabs on us. In reality I want to scream and demand you come home. Poor little JonnaMonet asks about you all the time and compares herself to you. She is so precious and beautiful. Did I tell you she is taking trumpet lessons and Daddy brought her a purple trumpet....it is quite cool. Mitch ran 9:41 in the 3000 meter, making States. He has made his choice on college and career, you should be proud his GPA is 3:57. Johanna is in the Elite program which puts her at Fairfield University two days and working as a teachers helper at the preschool; Sound familiar? Both girls are still studying dance with Miss Colleen, taking Jazz, HipHop, and Lyrical. Mitch and JonnaMonet are also studying archery and now own their own bows. JonnaMonet's is a junior compound, Mitchs is a stronger professional/hunting bow. Daddy got them targets to practice with. Ok...so now ur up-to-date with the babes. They keep me hopping but nothing can keep me busy enough where not not constantly on my mind. I miss you so much my darling and pray your at peace and hope you come visit me soon. You shall always be my Angel....my reason to be. Forever all of my unconditional love my darling Casadeach. xxoo times infinity
Mommy Vecchione
December 4, 2014
Hey Baby,
How are you? How's my baby doing? I miss you terribly and invision you here with me. Thanksgiving was very busy, but quiet, just Daddy, Johanna, Mitch, JonnaMonet, Grams, Poppie, Guillermo and me. Made all your favorites. Your food choices still seem to run my menus. Did you enjoy the flowers I left for you? I thought you would really love that particular Orchid; it was very different. Christmas is just around the corner. I know it isn't your favorite holiday as an adult...too much pressure purchasing gifts you always say. However, you do love the family getting together, yummy foods, the fireplace going and our tree cutting/decorating tradition. You and Daddy started that tradition 20 years ago...we will always keep it up, we still use your Communion Angel for the tree topper as well.
I have to admit....still missing your and NO its not getting easier with time. Who ever said that...never lost their baby! Gets different...I still cry and collect guilt of how I could have kept you safe, the "what ifs". You will always be my Darling Baby Princess; you made me who I am. I pray you come visit soon.
All my unconditional love forever my darling. Have an awesome day...Mommy
Mommy
October 23, 2014
My darling baby...im so sad today. Mitch just found out that his friend Jessi R. Hanna passed away 10/14/14. Evidently she was very depressed. He cried all last night and told me the last time he cried like that was when you left us. My poor babies and what you have endured in your young lives. I LOVE you so much my Cas...my darling...my Angel. Help Jessi my sweet darling..seek her out....come visit me, I am forever missing you. All my eternal and unconditional love Princess. Love Mommy
Mommy
June 4, 2014
My darling Cas...in less than 2 hours you will be another year older, 31 years old. I have to tell you my honey, it still hurts so bad. I miss you every day. So many things have changed. ..people come, people go but my love for u remains the strongest feeling I will ever have. I remember eating way to many hotdogs and thinking, "wow, do I have indigestion". Next thing I know you and I are in the hospital for days. Mommy went in on a Friday night and you were born early early Monday morning..all. natural...just took your time. You had so much patience, you always did. I wish you could share some with me. Tomorrow Grams, Sandy and I are suppose to go to Biagio's for lunch to celebrate your birthday...stop by your glass of wine will be waiting. Visit me more, thats what I wish for your birthday this year. I also pray you know how much you are loved unconditionally and eternally. I am waiting intil we are together again so I can hold your beautiful face in my hands and kiss every inch of your face. I will never let you go again my baby girl. Happy Birthday my Angel.....I love you!
Mommy
January 22, 2014
Hey Baby...I can't believe its been 7 years today (well really last night @ 11:30 pm, but who's counting besides me) and the pain is just as bad. The ache in my heart is larger and the tears still flow. My darling baby girl I miss you so much. I can hear your voice as clear as day. I can see your beautiful sweet smile. The forever sparkle in your eyes. We r all well and the babes are growing strong. Your baby is now a third grader, can u believe it? Thank you for the amazing hugs this morning, I always know when I need you. Did you love the flowers Grams and I brought to you? Did u notice the ones from two weeks ago were still so fresh? I think they were frozen. Well my precious baby girl have a wonderful day and know I love you unconditionally and forever.
Love, hugs and kisses. Mommy
This the of me with my midtles
Johanna Vecchione
September 7, 2013
Dear Cassie Lee Vecchione,
I miss you so mush I wish you are 're here Cassie.
Mommy
September 1, 2013
Good morning my Beauty! How r u today? I miss u so much. As always...I think of you every day..every time I look into JonnaMonet's sweet baby face I see you. She, JoJo and Mitch started school last week. Jonna is also a Rangers cheerleader hehe isn't that cute. Mitch has the Labor Day New Haven Road Race tomorrow. JoJo is planning her 19th Birthday Party..big splash according to her. Daddy is crazy busy with football high school and pop warner. You know me...plate never 1/2 full...more like overloaded.
Come visit more often I miss ur touch. When I am sad and feeling the need to be comforted, I watch either Armageddon or The American President and I feel u there. Silly but true. My darling Princess you are forever on my mind, Held forever in my heart and forever in my prayers. All of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses.
Kimberly Vecchione
July 30, 2013
Good morning my precious Princess. Can u believe its JonnaMonet's 8th birthday today. I remember the day she was born. I was so amazed and proud of you. The two of you never looked more beautiful to me then you did that morning. Its days like this that makes me miss you even more. We are having a family party today. Gui, Grams, Poppie, Brian and Nikki will be joining us. Her kiddie party is on Saturday...nails, hair, make-up...Princess Party. Typical or what?!? I sure you will be here for both parties. Even the weather is complying. Today is going to be one of the most perfect weather days of the year according to the news. I remember this day 8 years ago...weather was perfect that day too. Perfect Mommy, perfect birth, perfect baby, perfect family u two are. I just wish u could be here to hug her in person everyday...but especially today. I know u look in on her but...she really misses you and it breaks my heart that I can't give her....YOU. My darling Cas..my baby girl, I miss you so much. Forever all my unconditional love, hugs and kisses to you. Happy Birthday to you and your baby!
Mommy
June 18, 2013
Dance little girl dance the time that you wanted is yours today....
We had recitals this past week. Were you watching? They were both so great. I don't think I will have them return here though. They didn't learn any new moves and it was almost twice the price of their last school. We only left their old school so they could dance in Trumbull. JoJo had solo's in her other school. Here they stuffed her in the back row. JonnaMonet as well. JoJo took a $1, 000 acting class and in the end was given 7 lines to read off of a piece of paper?!? She learned more in high school drama class. I am going to have her take private lessons with my friend who is an acting coach for tv and its less expensive!
Mitch received his first Varsity letter this year for running the 2 mile. He was the only Freshman to recieve a letter. Isn't that amazing. His Coach pointed out his amazing speed and endurance.
JoJo won the Gold Medal at State competition in the Special Olympics for swimming the 25m backstroke.
JonnaMonet is doing wonderfully @her new program.
Grams and Poppie are happy here and wow the job they are doing redecorating.
Nonnie is well and Aunt Ronni is visiting with her for awhile.
I miss you my most precious baby girl. Time makes it hurt more and more every day. I love when you visit and I love calling your phone and hearing your voice. I called you today and left a message. You are forever on my mind. Forever in my heart and forever loved unconditionally. Have a wonderful day my darling.
May 13, 2013
Hey Baby! I am crying tears of happiness...I get to write to you again. My computer blew up with storm Sandy and my hard drive was fried. I tried over and over to get to this site but it would tell me you didn't exist. I am home again sick with bronchitis again...I decided to check out JoJo's IPad and bingo she has the site bookmarked. Oh happy days!!!
Well lets see my darling, first things first...did you like your flowers yesterday? I always miss holidays more without you. Every Mothers Day was always made special because of you. Remember the year we went to the dogwood festival and you took me to lunch; just the two of us? That is where you bought me my rings..remember? That was such a wonderful day. Your JonnaMonet made me the most awesome card and gave me two lovely flowering plants she purchased on her own. Then she was my kitchen helper creating dinner. She beat the veal for Marsala, she sliced onions, stirred cooking veggies. Such a little you!
I have her PPT tomorrow morning...I am a bit concerned, her school doesn't like to drop a dime for their students. Mitch and Johanna's PPT/504 meetings were actually great this year. They are receiving all the services they need and are really doing well. We set up everything for next year and it will be reflective of this year; that works for everybody concerned.
Please keep me strong my darling. I miss you so much and I have been really down. I have been praying a bit more than usual, although I'm sure u hear me; you always listen to me. Never ever forget how much you mean to me my darling. I love you unconditionally and forever. REMEMBER THAT ALWAYS!
Did I tell you Mitch is on the track team at school? Today is his final race, if he gets 8 points today he will get his Varsity letter, being a Freshman, that's a pretty big deal?!? He runs the 2 mile race. He looked so cute when he went to school, he had to dress for the opponents school. He wore a black shirt with a gold and black striped tie (THS colors). So cute hehehe!
JoJo has her acting class at PAC tonight. She is performing in the play Mulan...she's Mulan. She was dressed in all black and declared this morning..."I'm in character Mom,". I am going a 7pm to see her performance.
JonnaMonet has Awana tonight, that is her church/bible group. She loves it and Mrs Edwards plays chauffeur for me because she also teaches one of the classes there.
Oh baby girl it is so awesome to be able to write to you again. I was hoping daddy was going to purchase a new computer for me or Mother's Day, but we have a lot of new expenses so...
Pool pump went ugh, time to open pool...so...gas necessary for heating, chemicals for cleaning, new cover needed thanks to storm Sandy. Front steps and chimney work being done...thanks to shoddy work done first time. Supposedly getting kitchen done in few weeks...serious cash so....I guess priorities dictate...computer last on list. My smart phone works, but its tough typing on that!
So my Princess Chee Chee Bean, I guess I got you all caught up on things here at home. I must admit I miss you every moment of every day. You made me who I am and always gave me the courage to be what I needed to be. Thank you my darling for my life and for loving me the way you do. I will cherish you forever and always. Have a great day sweetheart.
All my unconditional love, hugs and kisses, eternally yours Mommy
Mommy
January 22, 2013
Hey baby girl, its six years you have been gone and its not getting any easier. I am sitting here in bed and I am crying all over JoJo's iPad. U are missing so many important moments in JonnaMonets life. Mitch and JoJo are just growing up and your not here to help me guide them; here to help me make the "right" decisions. I have always needed you so much. I feel so lonely my darling Princess.
Daddy and I went to your cousin Christophers wedding this weekend in GA. He is a Major in the Airforce now, a Pilot with his name on a plane he flys. I missed seeing you dance with him and your cousin Kim. It was a wonderful wedding, all the miltary in their "Blues". They did this cool thing with their swords after the ceremony you would have loved. On the way home from the airport, Daddy and I stopped at the Cheese Cake Factory for dinner. The entire evening, the entire weekend all I kept thinking was how you would have loved to be here for all of it. How you should have been here. How much I miss you all the time. Remember I would sing your lullaby to you, "Dance Little Giirl Dance". You did dance, just not long enough.
Lots of people tell me the pain will subside, how it will get better, how I should just remember the wonderful times. But they don't get it. I do remember the wonderful times, there were never bad times! I cry because of all your missing, of all your not here to share and teach your precious daughter, brother and sister. That my bestfriend in the world, the most precious love of my life isn't here to help me get it all right. You were my strength, my courage, my life!
Please visit me more often, help me be strong for JoJo, Mitch and JonnaMonet. I shall love you forever and unconditionally and cherish you through eternity. Sweet dreams my darling baby girl. Love, hugs and kisses Mommy
December 6, 2012
Hey Beautiful
I hope you heard me this morning. I love you my darling Princess.
Did you notice the new entrance hall floor? Daddy has been working so hard on the house. We have so many people coming for the holidays. Do you like the new paint job in the Media room? cool huh?? I actually picked out the colors, aren't you proud!
Mitch and JonnaMonet have been making out their Christmas lists. Mitch has a very short but expensive list, where as JonnaMonet's is...ooh everything on television. Thank goodness she is in school during the day, or her list would really be crazy.
My beautiful baby girl, I miss you so much every single moment of my life, but during holidays I miss you so much more. I miss our shopping together. You holding my hand and dragging me to stores to pick out gifts; you're always so excited!
Come and visit me soon my baby, hold me close so I know you are there. Please, please visit JoJo, she is have a really hard time lately. I discovered a lump under her left arm and we had all the necessary tests done, and it has robe surgically removed. We see the surgeon today. She is very scared, no matter how hard I try to promise everything will be alright. She told Mitch she was really scared and wished you were here to be with her. It's nice she has her brother to confide in.
Speaking of Mitch, he is doing great running, and his first report card was fabulous (3.0 average) however, work is getting harder and he is starting to panic and his grades are beginning to slide. Check on him for me!?!
Well my Princess, I guess I better get going, JoJo's doctor appointment is at 10:30 and. I have to get the vitamin order into Swansons.
Forever all my unconditional love, hugs and kisses. Have a wonderful day my darling, xoxoxo Mommy
Johanna Vecchione
November 20, 2012
Dear Cassie
I miss you so much, I love you. I always loved the great things you did just for me, plike making me the spider web dip for my Hollween Birthday party. thank you so much, that was so much fun, I had a great time while you we're here for me. I know you are still watching over me, but its different now. I miss being able to snuggle with you. I have to go brush my teeth and get to school now, so I wll sign off til later. All my love Johanna
Johanna Vecchione
November 19, 2012
I miss you Cassie place come come visit me
Johanna Vecchione
November 19, 2012
Hi Cas, I miss you, and wish you were here. My favorite memory is you making Mitchie and me ice cream sundaes. I miss you so much, please can you come and visit me every night before I go to bed? I love you.
November 19, 2012
I love you my princess, it is almost Thanksgiving. Everyone is coming to our house, Nonnie, Grams, Poppie,, Teetah, and us....I hope you will be here. I miss you so much my darling baby girl. Forever in my heart, nothing but unconditional love for you forever and always- Mommy
October 11, 2012
Good Morning Princess Chee Chee Bean!
It is such a cold windy morning. You have been with me all morning, from the moment I pulled on your Maine sweatshirt to putting on my glasses. I have seen you right there looking back at me. You would always put this sweatshirt on, with your hair up in a bun, glasses on, funky pj bottoms and either bare feet, or Daddy's slippers. I can see your face right now with a big smile on it. It's moments like these that make me smile, and then make me sad that I can't hold you. Yes, I can feel you, but it's not the same, you know!
Well the results are in report card wise. Mitch scored 5 B's, 1 A and 1 C (third year spanish). I am so proud of him, this is the best report card he has ever gotten. The 504 plan is paying off, I am so glad I pushed and pushed until the school agreed to put him on the 504. He is doing well with track too, his last race he came in 2nd place. His coach is really pleased with him, more importantly, Mitch is pleased with Mitch.
JoJo received all passing grades (she is on the pass or fail system), and is happy with her dance and riding classes. She is counting down the days to her 18th birthday. She wants an IPad and a ring to match her necklace (blue sapphires and diamonds in white gold). I actually found a matching ring in L&T. We shall see, do I hear payment plan????
JonnaMonet is home sick, unfortunately. She is sleeping in my bed as we speak. It's just a bad cold, but coupled with her asthma, it wears her down, so, I am having her take a few days off. However, she too is enjoying her riding and dance classes.
Daddy just came back from a shoot in NYC last night and is off again today to work with the editor on what he shot the last two days.
The voice overs are finished for Mitchie's Amazing Adventures, Book I & II, they have gone to Apple for final approval, and if they sign off (I have already signed off), they will hopefully be ready for Christmas release. YEAH!
Grams, Poppie, Nonnie, Aunt Mimi,Uncle Jon, Aunt Marilyn, Rebecca, Eric and Andy will be joining us for Christmas at OUR HOUSE this year, isn't that great. We don't have to go anywhere!!! You better be here to enjoy the festivities.
My darling baby girl, I know you hear me and what I have to say to you each and every day. The pain of missing you will never go away. Personally, I think it gets worse as time goes on. Every action, every thought, reminds me of you. You were the reason I am here. You are my better half, the love of my life, my will to be. Without you, I am only half...tired, alone, sad. Visit me often my darling. I love you always and forever, unconditionally through out eternity.
Mommy xxoo
September 25, 2012
Good Morning Princess, its just 6am, and the house is so dark and quiet. It seems Erin and I are both thinking about you at the same moment. I just received an email from her. Did you know she has a little boy? His name is Ashton, he is cutting teeth. Cute as a button.
JonnaMonet is doing very well, she is dancing and riding again this year. She bowled this past Sunday and really liked it. Her scores were pretty nice, she wants to continue each week with JoJo and the Special Olympics, but, I told her you have to be 8, so...next year.
Mitch is running his butt off, he is now on the Trumbull High School team, he ran for Varsity last week, and unfortunately couldn't run this week due to sinus infection. But once he is healthy again, he will be out there.
JoJo is turning 18 this year, I wasn't sure if you would remember, so hint, hint.
Daddy is away in CA for the week, shooting??? He is due back on Friday.
Grams and Poppie are planning to move up by December, I am so excited that they will be around all the time.
My heart aches for you every moment of every day. Everything I do reminds me of you, sometimes it makes me smile, but then I get very sad that we will never do "whatever" again, and it still hurts so bad.
I went to my high school reunion, so many people asked about you and how you were. When I told them that you were gone, they were so sad too! I feel you with me quite a bit, but I can't really reach out and hug or kiss you and that makes me crazy. Uncle Jon always tells me, "she kisses you each time a breeze blows by, or the hugs she gives is in the warm sun shine". Such a poet, and the thought is wonderful, but I miss holding your beautiful hands. Oh baby, I love and miss you so much. You are forever the love of my life.
Daddy, Mitch, Eric and of course JonnaMonet made it out to Great Adventure in MA. They had a wonderful time. I decided to stay home and let JonnaMonet and Daddy do their thing together. JoJo didn't want to go, she gets really blue and I know it revolves around you and her personal pain with you being gone, so I didn't force her to go. JoJo and I are going to see Mary Sullivan today, she helps us try and deal with the loss of you; although doesn't seem to work so well!
Hey our books are out in the stores, and have become ebooks/ereaders as well. Mitchie's Amazing Adventures: "The Trip to Saturn" and "Good Bye to Pluto" are also being made into Applications via Apple. I signed a three year exclusive contract with them. The proceeds are split between, DonnaMarie (illustrator), Me, JonnaMonet and Mitch. You were the originator of Zing remember? So, your share goes to JonnaMonet. I never let DonnaMarie or anyone else touch Zing's look; he is photo shopped into each screen/page as is, and then they change his positions without altering the picture, cool huh?!?
Well my darling, please continue to visit me, know that you are forever on my mind and I that I love you with all of my heart, forever.
Have a great day Princess. All my love, hugs and kisses....forever....Mommy
August 1, 2012
Good Morning My Sunshine!
It is a beautiful Wednesday morning. Your little beauty woke me up at 6am by coming in my room wanting to climb in bed. She also felt the need to wake up Ember to go for a walk. So....of course we got up. JonnaMonet and I walked Ember and then fed her. We got back into my bed, watched some Olympic highlights, JonnaMonet fell fast asleep. Me??? I then had to get up, make Daddy breakfast, walk Ember again and it's time to start my day.
Have you been watching the Olympics??? Did you see Michael win his 19th medal? The girls gymnastic team won Gold!!
Grams, Poppie and Aunt Mimi are due to arrive for an overnight tomorrow. Right now they are at Aunt Marilyn's house; they visited Uncle Jon's house for dinner last night.
We go to Great Adventure on Saturday, the one in Mass., JonnaMonet is so excited. I wanted to go for two days, one day at the park and one day at the water park, but financially, not sure if we can pull that off. The cost for the five of us would be close to $1,000.00 and it was tax month, so taxes won of course! Aren't you proud of your parents, we are so responsible, hehehe.
Well my darling, I have to go and write a Newsletter for The Barnaba Institute, a "yea ole...please donate" type letter. Actually we have more and more girls and boys on the street, no place to live and so YOUNG! So, I am still trying to get that house built and in the meantime, get them a meal or two.
Have a wonderful day my precious baby girl, always know that you are the love of my life, I am who I am because of you. I shall love you with all of my heart, eternally!
All my love, hugs and kisses - forever Mommy
July 25, 2012
Hey Baby,
I have been thinking about you a lot, you know, more than usual. I just can't get past the pain of missing you. I told Daddy today that I keep thinking that if I pray hard enough you will come back.
I received a really neat phone call today from Kimberly Wheway telling me about your visit to her. The same day, Cassidy told me she felt you here in the house during her vocal lesson. She said you visit her a lot as well. She said that she hoped it didn't upset me. Of course I said "NO", I love to hear where my babys is. She said that ever since her Grandma died, she can feel people, you being one of the Angels she feels quite a bit. I love it, that others feel you the way I do. I just wish I could hold you and kiss that beautiful face of yours.
I know you know it's your baby's birthday, but, did you know that she wants to go to Great Adventure for her birthday? She probably told you, didn't she? Ring any bells?
She recently insisted on getting her hair cut, and she insisted on donating it to Love for Locks. She now looks exactly like you when you cut all of your locks off! Her legs have gotten so long, she has your legs, and your hands. Actually, she is all you. It's a blessing and it rips my heart out at the same time.
Come visit me more baby girl, I love to feel you here and close to me.
You will always be the love of my life, the only reason I have accomplished what I have in my life is due to you. You have always completed me! I shall love you unconditionally for all eternity my Princess Chee Chee Bean!
Love, hugs and kisses forever - Mommy
Grandma
June 7, 2012
Hello to the most beautiful star in the heavens. I tried to write to you yesterday, but as you know, I am not that great with my computer. Yesterday, June 5, will always be a very special day for Pop & me. Nothing before or after your birth will ever mean as much to us as that does. And, our happiness was added to by all you ever did. Silly things like the sand castle that angered you when the tide floated it away, the shadows we shared on the staircase landings, the trips to the zoo, lunches at Chuckie Cheese,your very 1st day at school, teachers comments, high school graduation, our conversation about love and lifetime commitment, you in your bridal gown, you a mom! Everything
you have done . I'm sure that you are much busier now having to watch over and take care of all of us, we are a trip aren't we! Jonna is so you and boy oh boy is she smart. I know that you are at her side constantly and you must be so very proud of her. Did you tell her to buy the flowers, I'm sure you did. Gosh baby, we miss you so very much because you are so far away, but I feel your warmth & when I close my eyes I see your smile so I suppose that will have to do until we are together again. Pop sends you all of his love and many hugs & kisses. Make room on that beautiful face for mine too. Happy Birthday Cass. Love Grams
June 5, 2012
Happy Birthday to You! Happy Birthday to You! Happy Birthday to you! I love you so much my darling baby girl, I hope you love your flowers.
I can remember the day I gave birth to you. I was in labor starting on Friday and you were not born until early, early Monday morning. Aunt Mimi actually stayed with me until you were born and then she had to jump on a plane to Greece. Grams and Poppie never left our side. Then every birthday was always memorable. You love your rollercoasters and every year we have always found a new one!
My darling I will always love you unconditionally and forever and ever. I hope you are having a woonderful day and know that as always you are forever on my mind.
Hugs and kisses forever - Mommy
May 21, 2012
Good Morning Princess,
How is my most beautiful baby girl this dreary morning? Did you enjoy your Mother's Day flowers? I was so happy to find you the purple orchids, the color was so deep, wasn't it? I felt you at Dolphins Cove, was such a beautiful day wasn't it?
JonnaMonet went on her field trip this morning to the Beardsly Zoo. Remember all the times we took her there for our walks? You love walking around the Zoo. I finally got gluten free bread that she really likes, so I made her a bologna and am. cheese sandwich w/chips, 2 gluten free choco. chip cookies and 3 black dogs licorice. She wanted to have a fruit punch or soda, but I reminded her she had the cookies and she happily took her bottle of Poland Springs w/fluoride. Tastes a bit strange, but its healthier!
Can you believe that Mitchie is graduating from Hillcrest this year? He was going to go to St. Joe's like his big sis, but he pointed out that they have a better track team at Trumbull High, and how all of his friends are going there, and how he is on the 504 plan, and it will be better for him at Trumbull High, blah, blah, blah. So...we are giving him one year to see how he does, and if he does really well in such a large school, so be it, if not, off to St. Joes next year.
JoJo is so excited that she will be turning 18 this year. We just ordered her a new bed and are moving her old bed downstairs (it's actually only 3 years old, but Daddy wanted her to have a new bed)because we need one down there for guests.
We are suppose to be accompanying Daddy and Mitch on a family camping trip. You should join us! We are going in June for 7 days to Cape Cod. JoJo doesn't want to go. Let me rephrase that, JoJo wants to go to Cape Cod, however, she wants JonnaMonet and I to get a hotel room with her, then Daddy and Mitch camp on their own. She definitely isn't the camping kind of girl. I think it is so funny. I remember you always say, "I am not sleeping outside with bugs!" But, you loved camping, so I am hoping she will too. I guess only time will tell. I told Daddy that perhaps we should take separate cars in case she really hates it. What do you think?
I think the bed men are here. I better go, I love you my darling with all of my heart.
Forever all of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses
Mommy
April 23, 2012
Good Morning Sunshine!
Even though it is such a dreary day, thinking of you the sun is shining in my heart.
When I put on your black p-coat/rain coat I could see you as clear as day. You are wearing it and your hair is wet, not because of rain, but because you have just gotten out of the shower. As usual, you have that amazing smile of your beaming. I miss that smile so much. You have always been my strength, my love, my patience, my empathy. Without you I sometimes feel like this empty shell walking around.
My darling daughter, come visit me/us, JoJo, JonnaMonet, Mitch, Daddy and I would love to see you.
I will come and see you later today.
All my unconditional love, hugs and kisses to you my baby for ever and ever.
March 6, 2012
Hey baby girl,
Well although it is cold out, the sun is shining. I took Ember out for a very long walk, and now she is sleeping in her crate. The babes are all at school and I am waiting to hear from TeeTah regarding luncheon. She wants to take me to Sassafrass in Huntington Center for lunch.
Earlier I had to take the three babes to Dr. Hen today for asthma check ups. Mitch is doing so well that now he only has to see Dr. Kass for his sleep apnea, he has been released from Dr. Hen, Yippee! Unfortunately Johanna and JonnaMonet still have to use inhalers and be watched rather closely because their asthma is much harder to control at a healthy level.
Johanna has rehearsal for the school play today after school, then we have to zip her over to the dance studio for two classes, HipHop and Jazz, she had Lyrical last night. I do believe she is getting a solo again in Lyrical, so she needs to be there more. JonnaMonet has HipHop on Thursday nights and Tap/Ballet on Saturdays. I think they will probably start riding again. I always stop their lessons when the weather gets cold, hopefully in another couple of weeks it will be warm enough for them to start again.
I am still loving my new car. I was always a be American, buy American, however, the Honda Pilot rocks! You would really love to drive this car. My favorite part about this car besides it being crazy safe is.....the leather heated seats!
The phone just rang, it was TeeTah, she is ready for me to pick her up. So...I will sign off for now, or better yet, join us for lunch, I will know if you are there!
All my unconditional love, hugs and kisses, Forever - Mommy
February 14, 2012
Happy Valentines Day Princess,
My darling baby girl, Happy Happy Valentines Day. I miss you so very much! I know you love Valentines Day, especially getting dressed up, going out for dinner. We always exchange the most fabulous Valentines and the chocolate, wow....the chocolates. Please join us for dinner tonight, where ever we are.
JonnaMonet went to school today with a folder full of Valentines for her classmates. She opened her card and chocolates this morning, and it was hard for her not to eat them. Johanna was very excited with her gift, the latest sequel to the vampire series she watches. It was released in time for Valentines Day, and of course, Daddy made sure it was here for her. Mitch is awaiting the big gift. A puppy dog, we are waiting to pick him up, his name is General; Cool huh?
Daddy just walked in and I have an appointment at 9:30, so I guess I had better sign off for now.
Always remember how much I love and adore you, always remember!
Have a wonderful day, I love you unconditionally with all of my heart.
Love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
January 23, 2012
Always and forever in my heart beautiful. Aunt Alicia
January 22, 2012
Hi My Beauty,
Well here it is January 22nd 2012, five years later. I tried to write to you at 11:30 last night, that was the time you actually left us on the 21st, do you remember that? Do you know what time it was? I remember getting the phone call and being so sleepy. It all seemed so surreal; I should have prayed like crazy that night. I was just so tired....I live with that every day, the fact that I didn't pray. If I had prayed, you would still be here. I remember the hospital working on you until about 2am, and that is why they have it that you left us on the 22nd not the 21st.
Yesterday was a complete blur, as every year, I relive that day over and over. Our... you, Me and JonnaMonet's brunch at Vazzy's. You had the chicken, and two cups of coffee remember? You kept telling me that your hands and feet felt tingly, I begged you to let me take you to the hospital and you insisted that it could wait until the next day which would have been Monday, the 22nd. I should have insisted, I should have insisted that you come back to the house right then and there, instead of you going to see a movie with your friends. I am so sorry baby, I miss you and should have been a better mommy to you.
JoJo and I watched Armageddon last night, it was your favorite movie in 2007, or one of your favorites. You loved that song, "I Don't Want to Miss a Thing." I couldn't sleep last night and JoJo was up as well (at 2:30am), so, I took her with me into the living room and we watched it together snuggling on the couch.
We are leaving in a bit to come and see you, we got you two bouquets of flowers, one with a single red rose for love, and the rest is all yellow for missing you, and the other is all purple for thinking of you. Not a day goes by I don't think of you and what you are doing.
I miss you with all of my heart and I keep asking for you to come here so I can see you and hold you. Yesterday morning Mitch told me that he heard footsteps in the house during the night. That he thought it was you, was it? He came downstairs and know one was here. I feel you here at times and I can smell you, but I want to be able to hold you in my arms and step back in time, way back. I want to be able to change our lives, we never would have moved here to CT. I would have never let other people get into our lives, all those other children we tried to help, all those other people we tried to help. I would have been more selfish and kept us all to ourselves. If we hadn't moved here, there wouldn't have been an accident. If we were stupid enough to move here again, this time I would know to insist you go to the hospital after the accident, I would insist you come home so I could keep an eye on you.
My darling, always know that you are my love of my life, my inspiration for all I do, my courage to go on every day. All I am and all I wish to be are from you. I shall love you unconditionally forever and ever with all of my heart.
Zillion of kisses and hugs baby girl - Love Mommy
January 17, 2012
My Darling Princess,
I was a bit saddened because your Christmas entry, as well as another written in Dec., were never posted, but I guess it's a busy time for all concerned. Just to let you know, we made JonnaMonet's Christmas this year very special for her. She received everything on her list and then some. We were home on Christmas day, in our jammies almost the entire day; very laid back, you would have loved it. The Christmas Day you always treasured.
Daddy and I just took down the tree yesterday, there most have been 3000 needles on the floor. JonnaMonet was trying so hard to help clean up, she was in charge -- for awhile, not too long -- of the Shop-vac. She is so cute, she loves to help. Although the tree, which JonnaMonet, Mitch, JoJo, Daddy and I all went, picked out and cut down (see we are keeping your tradition alive as well)was as large as always, it was narrower than usual, so we didn't have to cut it up to get it out the door.
JonnaMonet had three play dates this past weekend. I am happy she is socializing so much and enjoying peers. She was invited to a birthday party next month as well; it's at the Cookie workshop!?
Baby girl I miss you...always. I cry constantly, I am just so sad that you are not here. I keep asking to have you back, even if it's for just a moment, to hold you. My precious baby girl, love of my life, forever!
I wonder sometimes....is it cold in Heaven, it sure is cold here. Does it rain or snow in Heaven? So many questions and no answers. I guess I have to wait to get there for my answers huh?!?
It snowed last night, now it is slush and it's going to freeze over for sure. I just heard a horn and ran outside to see if it was JoJo's bus; I think it's too early for her. Did I tell you that JoJo is playing a munchkin in Trumbull High's "The Wiz" this year? She is so excited. She, of course, is still dancing (3 classes, Jazz, HipHop and Lyrical), on the Olympic Swim team and Bowling. Mitch is still riding, doing Boy Scouts, running and playing guitar. JonnaMonet is dancing (Hip Hop, Ballet and Tap) and riding. Busy babes, huh!?!
Well my Princess Chee Chee Bean, I guess I better go and get something done today, as it's almost time for the babes to be home. I will be up to see you later this week. Oh yeah, did you like the flowers, I know your not that crazed about roses, but, weren't they pretty? Just thought you should have them.
I love you baby girl, visit when you can, know that I shall love you unconditionally forever and ever. All my hugs and kisses x infinity squared!
xxoo Mommy
January 1, 2012
Happy New Year My Darling,
My Princess, all I have been able to think about is our last New Years together. Actually I also remember the one of 2000, when we were out doing a gig. You, Karen, her boyfriend, Donald, Sandy and Mark came to where Daddy and I were playing. I have been looking at the picture taken of us that night alot lately. You were radiant.
Honey I miss you so much. I keep asking that God bring you back, even if it's not for long; just to hold you one more time.
Daddy is as usual working on paperwork, JoJo is presently sitting on the couch with her tiara from last night still on her head, Mitch is showering, Aunt Marilyn is showering and Eric is playing some combat game on the XBOX 360 kenix upstairs.
I am making an early dinner tonight (4pm) so that Aunt Marilyn can get out of here early enough for work tomorrow.
Last night Garry, Sandy, Aunt Marilyn, Janet and I were at the Country Club for a party, it was nice, Butch Taylor and his band were performing. I don't miss those gigs! I do miss singing with you though. I miss working on tunes with you, writing with you, I miss everything about you. I can see your hands right now, your delicate arms, that amazing angelic face of yours. Today is really hard...can you tell?
Please come and visit me often my darling, I love you, unconditionally, always and forever.
Daddy and I will be by to see you really soon.
Much love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
November 17, 2011
Good Morning Sunshine!
I know it's not sunny out today, as a matter of fact, it's pretty gloomy outside. It reminds me of us cuddling and movies and breakfast in bed. Well, this morning I got up earlier than usual, your brother,sister and daughter were still asleep and I made them homemade, gluten/wheat free banana chocolate chip muffins to go with their breakfast. Today was cheesey scrambled eggs with sausage, juice and hot cocoa. I fed each of them in bed; amazing what that does for attitude. Each of them left in the greatest mood for school.
Then I went down stairs to fold laundry and talk to Sully about how much I miss you. He was always a great friend, but after you had to go, he became a best friend, trying to pick up the slack and help me through missing you. I told him that when I get to come with you guys, he better be hanging out with you so I can be with you both - forever!
We are doing your favorite thing for Thanksgiving.....staying home! Everyone is coming here, Grams, Poppie, Nonnie, Gui, Teetah and Pomi (a friend of Grams and Poppie); I am not sure about Uncle Jon and his family. Unfortunately Aunt Marilyn has to work the next day, so she is staying home. You will be here, won't you? I have already purchased a fresh natural (they didn't have organic) turkey, and I am making everything different! I am so sick of the typical dishes, so we are going a bit southern this year. Sweet Potato Pie, Beet/Carrot/Apple Salad, Roasted Veggies with Chick Peas, Molasses-Bourbon Pecan Pie, , Chocolate Fudge Cake, Coconut Custard Pie and of course I have to make pasta to satisfy Nonnie and your Dad! I have asked the babes to help me decorate the table with pine cones and whatever they would like to draw!
I miss you so much my darling baby girl, more than ever on holidays and cuddle days. Then of course there is the Spring mornings and rainy days, the really cold walk in the snow days, your birthday, mothers day, JonnaMonet's Birthday, JoJo's birthday, Mitchie's birthday, Father's Day, my birthday.... damn I guess it's everyday! Baby my heart is just so sad without you...ALWAYS!
Well my darling, I guess I better get my day started, please visit me as much as you can. Know that you are my forever best friend, love of my life. I will love you unconditionally and forever and ever through out eternity my Princess.
Have a great day darling, all my love, hugs and kisses forever and ever - Mommy
October 19, 2011
Hey Baby Girl,
Well, the Gala is finally over (Breaking Bread with the Hampton's Top Chefs), my life was nothing but Gala for months, especially as it got closer to the event – October 15, 2011. I have to say it went well; I took a ton of pictures. We had Giancarlo Esposito sing, give out awards, make speeches, and Cathy Moriarity was there to help him. I made wonderful new friends, friends who have vowed to help me with this cause; A cause that I am fighting for you my darling baby girl. Uncle Jon and his friends (total of 6 Chefs) did all of the cooking, and it was amazing. Brian Keane and Tony Aiardo (Grammy winners) played incredible music for everyone and my new great friend, Lanka Dupont took care of all of the decorating. We had a live auction, a silent auction, a Chinese auction, door prizes, and a video -- which played your song, "Fragile Child" -- that made people pay attention and cry. It was a great success and I was very proud of what we accomplished, however, as I said before, I am glad it is over. But, guess what....Cathy Moriarity is joining my Board of Directors. I think Giancarlo is also going to join; Lanka Dupont is joining too! They were all so wonderful and all told me that, "we got your back".
During all of this commotion, all I could think about was you, how much I know this means to you, how much you are pushing me to do this. I miss you so much, and you are with me all the time. I pray that you know that.
Yesterday I was hired to act, It was actually like a mini video, anyway, I had to play a sister of someone that had a heart attack and died. When the director said, "Okay Kimberly, cry please", I was able to do it. All the other actors were like, "wow you are really good, your an amazing actress". No, that's not it I thought, I just thought of how I feel with you gone, and it was easy. Anyway, I made a lot of money for my 20 minutes of fame (I got to ad-lib a lot of my lines), and I know that the Producers liked my acting because they said I made them cry.
Mitch is at Boy Scouts right now, practicing making knots, JoJo and JonnaMonet are playing in JoJo's room, Daddy is on location somewhere filming for the next two days; they are finishing up the video I was in yesterday.
I finally cleaned the house today, I had been neglecting it a bit due to the Gala, but, now is time to chill a bit before I start planning next years Gala. I think it should be a Masquerade Party, after all it's in October, works don't you think?
So my darling daughter, enough about us, how are you? I know you were here quite a bit this past month,– thank you – and I smelled your scent this morning. Did you see all that rain this morning? Did you see JonnaMonet and I slept in? We pulled a Cas/Mom day didn't we? We even went to lunch and then shopping, hehehe, sound familiar?
Please visit me often, always remember how much I love you and that you shall always be what defines me. Forever my darling, all of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses!
Sweet Dreams my darling Princess - Mommy
September 19, 2011
Good Afternoon My Princess:
I am looking for pictures of you for an upcoming article in Millennium Magazine. They are doing a feature on just you my Princess.
I felt you with me Sunday night, you were hugging me so close. Then you took Sully with you, didn't you. Tomorrow is his wake, and Wednesday is the funeral. Patty has asked me, as his best friend, to speak. You know me, I hate public speaking, but, it's Sul, so, I will, of course do it.
I miss you my darling, baby girl, I will chat with you longer tomorrow, right now I have to find a photo of you to scan and send to the magazine. The problem is....there are so many beautiful photo's of you, I can't decide which one.
Visit me again soon my darling baby girl, and remember always....all my unconditional love forever and ever - Mommy
September 8, 2011
Good Morning My Princess!
Hey Baby, Long time no chat, I'm sorry. I know we chat on a daily basis, but I haven't written to you in quite some time.
Lets see, all of August was so busy with rubbish, then there was the Hurricane at the end of the month. Did you see it? I'll bet it looked amazing to you looking down on it huh!?! Well, we lost power for two and a half days, that was interesting. We had candles burning. We had the gas grill in the house and used the side burner to cook on. We were able to keep the babes DVD player semi charged because I could plug it into my car. Mitch didn't mind because he could read as much as he wanted. JoJo and JonnaMonet were the board game/DVD watchers. It gave us some great quiet time together. Then as I was packing the last of the freezer/frig items into a cooler, the lights came back on. However, due to damage, (we lost two big trees, roots and all, but no structural damage to the house) school did not open until after Labor Day this year. Personally, it's a waste of time to open before anyway.
School opened on September 5th, and JonnaMonet started 1st Grade, Mitch is in 8th Grade and JoJo is in 10th, crazy huh? We had to do the school supplies list (Mitch and JoJo alone $300.00) -- I actually did their's the day prior to the hurricane --. JonnaMonet's supplies were done by the PTA, cost $24.00, which is terrific and will last the entire school year. I was doing clothing shopping all through the summer, but then Mitch had a huge growth spurt, 6.5 inches and his foot went up 2.5 sizes. Well, this meant I had to go out and shop... again for him; everything I purchased in June no longer fit him, the legs were 5 inches too short!
Mitch had a race Labor Day weekend, the New Haven Road Race. Out of 3210 people running in the 5K, Mitch came in 328th. His running time was 22.49, 5 minutes faster than last year. For 13 year olds, he came in 4th place. His coaches and I were blown away. After the race they have this festival type atmosphere, with "Jump-a-leans" and such, so JonnaMonet had a blast. Mitch's next race is the Bigelow Tea race in about three weeks.
JoJo and JonnaMonet are each still dancing; this year JonnaMonet is taking Ballet, Tap and HipHop, and JoJo is taking HipHop, Lyrical and Jazz. JoJo will be auditioning for the school play and doing Special Olympics Swimming and Bowling. JonnaMonet is continuing with Horseback riding and in the Spring wants to start Gymnastics. Mitch is continuing to ride/jump (9 years now) horses. Of course he will continue his track running and in the Spring he is going to tryout for Basketball, as well as continue with Boy Scouts. All of these activities not to mention each of them see's their counselors and Special Education classes that are outside the school.
This year we are trying something different, Mitch is being classified "501 Plan" instead of Special Education; reason being, he just really needs modifications and extra help. He works each day with a Special Ed teacher for Math, Social Studies, Science and English/Reading, in conjunction with going to a Resource room every other day for his last class. The Special Education teacher in that class goes over everything he learned that day, works on problems he may have with a particular class, and makes sure he has everything he needs for homework. JoJo is in almost all Special Ed contained classes now, which works better for her and the typical students; now her classes are more defined to her needs. JonnaMonet has a Special Ed teacher in her classroom with her with pull-outs for additional help one on one, the way JoJo and Mitch did in earlier years.
Me, what am I doing!?! Well, first thing, did you know I had a stroke? Minor, but, it really caused permanent issues; caused my already inflamed Lupus to go totally crazy. I have to now wear prism glasses because I constantly see double, I see shadows, which is very annoying and I have a huge lack of balance, things always look lopsided or like they are falling down. Then besides playing taxi driver, laundry lady, house cleaner, chef, Executive Director of the Barnaba Institute,(big title no salary) -- so much paperwork!!! --. I have been busting my butt planning a Gala/Fund Raiser for the Institute. It is so much work, but, hopefully it will raise enough money to a. keep the Institute going, and b. build a house for those in need. Our mission is too continue to fight against drug and human trafficking and to get the children, women and men off the streets, educated and into better situations. I still go to schools and lecture as much as needed, it is amazing the stories I hear from the students. At the present time we have over 6 cases in CT, girls from nice homes, like ours who have been mislead into using drugs and then forced to prostitute, I pray our Gala raises more awareness and people open their hearts to those in need. The Gala is October 15th, and your Uncle Jon is helping me so much. It was his idea to have it in the Hamptons and he got all of the food donated. He and three of his other Chef friends (FYI: Your Uncle Jon is now a celebrity Chef - Executive Master Chef of the stars!)are doing all of the cooking, we are having a live and silent auction. We have gotten the most amazing gifts... concert tickets, sports and movie items. In addition, we have a lovely handful of celebrity's coming. Please show up, this type of thing is right up your alley! I think I am going to rent a dress, there is this thing on line called, "Rent the Runaway", so cool! Designer dresses you can rent from $50 - to ???. They mail them to you, you wear it, return it, that's it!
Daddy is working so hard as usual, he recently was offered a new job with Andy. He is seriously considering it, he says his eyes are starting to go, and when you are filming, that can be a serious issue, so.. I think this new job would be a bit more money, but it would also be 40 hours a week, which means he would have to give up all the other Engineering jobs he does, so he's thinking hard!
Grams and Poppie are moving East, they move up to New Jersey at the end of the month. They are, of course, going to come and visit us too. But, they are moving in with Nonnie for awhile until they make their move to St. Lucia.
Well my darling, I think I caught you up on what happened in the past month. So, how are you? What's happening in your life? Mitch want's to thank you for answering his prayer he said! Thank you for popping in all the time; what's with the cricket? I miss you so much, you are forever on my mind. Sometimes I get so frustrated that you are gone I get angry and it stays with me for days. Other days I am just so sad you are gone that I feel weak and tired. I do love your visits and hearing you in my head. Please continue to visit me as much as you can. I shall love you forever my darling Princess Chee Chee Bean.
All my unconditional love forever and ever through eternity - love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
July 30, 2011
Good Morning Sunshine!
Just think, at 4:15 this morning you gave birth to JonnaMonet 6 years ago. I remember being there watching her be born. You were so excited. Remember, she popped right out, it was amazing. You were in labor for about 3 hours, hard labor for about 20 minutes. I was so proud of you. My darling, you are the absolute best Mommy in the world. Happy Birthday to you and your beautiful baby girl.
We are having a small party here today, her Godparents, Nina and Guillermo will be here. Aunt Marilyn, Rebecca, Eric, Kimmy, Marissa, Evan will also be here. On Wednesday, she is following in your footsteps, we are going to her first big amusement park, Six Flags. It was her and your Dads request. I think he will probably want to take her to a different one each year, as he did with you.
JonnaMonet is so like you, she has no fear. She has been on all of the crazy rides at Universal, Disney, Lake Compound and now her first "all ride, serious ride park". She is always willing to try anything....so like you.
Please nudge me when you get here today, I know you wouldn't miss this party for anything. I love you my darling Princess. Again, happy birthday day to you. I have always felt that the Mommy should be celebrated on their childrens' birthday because they brought them into this world.
Remember my precious baby girl, I love you unconditionally, with all of my heart forever and ever! I miss you!!!
Love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
July 26, 2011
Good morning Princess!
I miss you so much, I have been thinking about you a lot and I guess that is what makes me miss you even more than usual. I met a girl, who is attending Hart School of Music, she was so much like you it was spooky. I gave her my card, and told her she could use the studio free of charge any time. She has a voice very similar to yours as well.
Mitch is away again this week at NCC. He is really loving it and when I spoke to him last night, he had already finished his assignment of this week, designing a game in 3D. He said that so far nobody in his group/dorm has been able to beat it.
JonnaMonet is still loving her camp, this week they are going to Lake Compound, she is so excited. She has definitely your love of rollercoasters and loves to be frightened. Crazy, huh?!? We are taking her for her birthday to Six Flags. Like Mother like daughter. As you know, Saturday is her actual birthday, so, we are just going to have a party here at the house. Then on Wednesday, when it will be less crowded, we hope, we will go to Six Flags. Can you believe that she is going to be six years old?
JoJo is still very moody, when I ask what is wrong, she always bursts into tears and tells me that she misses you. It breaks my heart, but I understand, I just hide it better.
Yikes my love, I have to go and get JoJo to Darien and JonnaMonet off to camp. Always, always remember, you are my first born Princess, my love for you is forever unconditional and eternal.
Love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
July 12, 2011
Hey Baby Girl,
It's 11:13pm the evening of my birthday. I have to admit, it was very sad for me, you weren't here....again. You always made my birthday and Mother's day very special for me, with my best friend gone, it just plain stinks!
I actually gave a lecture today, and I have another one tomorrow. Frank asked me if I wanted him to cancel today, but, Daddy was working, JoJo had school, Jonna was in camp and Mitch is away at Boy Scout camp, so, I decided to work. When I got home, Rebecca, Eric, Nikki Lynn and Brian were here with Daddy and the girls. They had pizza and a canoli pie with candles in it for me. We each had a glass of wine, now that everyone has gone to bed, it is quiet again and I am realizing how tired I am too!
But, before I went to bed, I just wanted to let you know that I miss you so very, very much, and it is so hard dealing with day to day stuff, never mind my birthday without you. Way too hard!!!
I will write to you again tomorrow, after I get back from my lecture. Remember my darling baby girl, my love for you is unconditional and forever and ever.
All My Love, Hugs and Kisses - Mommy
June 21, 2011
Good Morning My Darling!
I hope you enjoyed your birthday party at Tuscany. Was your wine yummy? I really must thank them over and over, they, Tuscany, go out of their way on your birthday. Did you like your birthday flowers and balloon? I am sorry I haven't written since your birthday, as you know, it has been crazy here. Between B'nai Mitzvah's, birthday parties, Special Olympics, Dance Recitals, JonnaMonet's and Mitch's PPT's, it's been a real zoo. However, today is JonnaMonet's last day of school, tomorrow is Mitch's last day and JoJo finished yesterday. Of course, Mitch had that last minute Health project he forgot about, so I had to do the Mommy thing and help him pull it together. Today, I am reading for JonnaMonet's class, and guess what book was requested.....you guessed it, Mitch's Amazing Adventures.
I have been missing you so much, I think sometimes my head is going to explode due to misery and loss. At times I am so angry that I have to hide in my bathroom to escape being with anyone else so that I don't take my anger out on them. Crazy right?!?
I am in the planning stages for the, "A Night In the Hampton's With the Three Chef's party. It is so much work. I have to get out, "save the date" cards in two weeks. I am a bit nervous, because Uncle Jon is the main chef and he hasn't called me back in two weeks...yikes!
Please look out for Rebecca, I don't want her following in Tori's footsteps. I told Aunt Marilyn to let her come here for the summer, I think Eric is coming up next week for the summer. He will actually have to do a few back and forth ferry trips because of dr. appts. and football tryouts for high school. Yes, I said High School, can you believe it? Eric is in High School?!?
Please visit me often baby girl, I so love to feel you, to smell you and to see you so clearly; it makes my heart more at ease. I constantly think of whet if....then I cry. Every time I look at your daughter, I see you and remember things you did at her age. Remember the kittens under the beach house? I remember you breaking your arm jumping off the swings. Actually that was my fault, if I hadn't yelled, "no, don't jump", you probably would have been fine, but, I yelled and you tried to stop midstream and bam, you broke your arm. I remember crying as hard as you were, my poor baby. Remember walking to school in Stamford? Your graduation from Kindergarten? Oh, baby, I miss you so much. I look at your pictures that surround me all over the house, sometimes I smile and feel comfort, but, most of the time, I look at your beautiful face, smile and then get very, very sad, I think of how wonderful you are and how much I miss and need you here with me. I know that sounds so selfish, but, I can't help it, you will always be the love of my life, my best friend, the reason I thought God put me here.
Always remember my darling Princess, I shall love you unconditionally, forever and ever!
Until we are together again, all my love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
June 4, 2011
Cass, Tomorrow is your birthday and I hope you know that I will always cherish the birthdays I was lucky enough to spend with you growing up. My favorite was the year we went to Six Flags. That was so much fun. Love always to you and your Mom...Aunt Alicia
June 3, 2011
Good Morning Princess!
I know it has been a bit since I have written to you, I am so sorry. This house has been a bit crazy, so much going on as you well know.
Mitch has been having a series of medical issues which of course roll over into school issues. Then we have been crazed getting his medical information to his summer camps. He is going to Boy Scout Sleep-Away camp for one week and then immediately after he is going to National Computer Camp as a resident for two weeks at Fairfield University. He will be studying gaming 2D and 3D and writing programs for Andriods. Pretty neat huh?
JoJo and JonnaMonet have the recital coming up, which, I'm sure you remember takes up so much time. JoJo is in three dances and the opening number. JonnaMonet is in the opening number and a Hip Hop dance.
I have two more PPT's for this year, JonnaMonet's is on the 16th of June and I am waiting for them to give me a date for Mitch's. JoJo already had hers and she is going into the 2nd year of High School. She is taking math, english, reading, biology, life skills, work, art and special ed gym next year. She is very excited about taking art for the entire year and not just for a quarter.
Daddy is going away again this week coming, and I have to give a lecture up at Deep River High School. We have Mitch's friend's B'nah Mitzvah this weekend, and I mean this weekend, Saturday and Sunday, not to mention the girls have "picture day" for the recital, that is almost an all day thing.
Oh wait....the most important thing this weekend........isn't it.....yes, I think so....it's....YOUR BIRTHDAY!! HEHEHE, did you actually think I could forget that??? My darling Princess Chee Chee Bean, love of my life, you are turning 28 years old. WOW, where shall we meet this year. I was thinking Tuscany, how about you?? Last year we went to your favorite French Bistro, well, this is your all time favorite Italian! So, let me know. Should we bring the babes, or just you, daddy and I? Remember it was just you Karen and I for two years, then last year, Daddy came with me, and he promised to come every year from now on. I guess at first he thought I was a bit crazy, but, he now realizes that it's how I deal...you know what I mean. I sure wish I could see Aunt Ali, it would be awesome to have her join us.
So my Darling, how are you doing? What's going on? I know it's been crazy around here, but, don't let that stop you from visiting, PLEASE! I love when I can smell you here, and it's even cooler when I can feel you here. I will be bringing you flowers and balloons for your birthday, should I bring the Godiva again? Last time JonnaMonet said we should eat it for you, I thought that was so funny of her. Sometimes I think she looks at me like I'm nuts too! That's alright, aren't we all just a bit loopy!
Princess, I love you with all of my heart, and I am just filled with so much sorrow that you aren't here with me, I know it's been 4 years, but it seems to get worse for me as time goes by. I am forever questioning whether I was a good mommy to you, did I make you happy all the time? I hope so, I'm sure I made mistakes, you didn't come with a rule book, and being my first and wanting to do it right, I know I was a bit overprotective, but only because I love you so much. Always remember how much I love you, totally, with all of my heart and soul, completely unconditionally, forever and ever my darling baby girl.
Forever....Mommy
HAPPY ALMOST BIRTHDAY!
May 2, 2011
Hey Beautiful!
It's almost 9pm, Daddy is sitting here with JonnaMonet finishing a puzzle - the Disney Princesses. JoJo has gone off to bed and Mitch is up on his computer. You would never know that it is a Monday night. JoJo and I have our appointment with Dr. Sullivan tomorrow. I think JonnaMonet is going to have to come with us tomorrow because then I have an additional appointment after Dr. Sullivan and I wouldn't make it back to the house to get her off the bus in time. I was suppose to have her PPT tomorrow, but, at the last minute that was canceled.
The weather, as I am sure you know, has been a bit cool for this time of year. I can't believe that the girls have their recital in another month. The year has flown by. This weekend is Mother's Day, I always remember the year you took me to the Oxford house and bought me the thumb rings. I still wear them, always. Remember, we went to see the Dogwoods in bloom and then lunch? You always made every holiday for me special. You always thought of me, always! I have so many wonderful treasures from you. Remember the beautiful bowl with the hand painted flowers you made me? So many wonderful gifts you made for me, you are so talented, amazingly talented!
Baby girl, I miss you so much, please visit me more often. I realize that you are so busy, but, see what you can do to come by. I need you. The pain is getting worse, not better.
As you know I have been lecturing at the colleges, it's a bit therapeutic, but, some times it's really difficult and I just want to walk away. On May 9th and 10th I have four classes each day in Old Lyme. It will be, as usual informative and profitable on my behalf, but, it will be a long day. Then on the evening of the 10th into the 11th I have a sleep study with Mitch. I have to find a good book to read that night. Personally, I don't get to sleep at all during the studies, I sit up and watch the babes (went through this with JonnaMonet already and we have to repeat hers) sleep!?!
Uncle Jon is setting up a meeting with B.J. and I. They are great friends and he comes in Uncle Jon's restaurant all the time. They live two houses away from each other in the Hampton's. Well, I am looking for him to be the spokesperson for the B.I. I think we are meeting at Uncle Jon's restaurant next week. You should come by and meet him. He has retired from singing; did you know? I don't believe that he has made a public announcement as of yet, but, he told Uncle Jon he was done. I had wanted him to do a benefit for me, and that is when Uncle Jon told me he had already asked him and he said that B.J. stated, "look at my face, I look like the guy who should deliver pizza, I'm done, I don't need the money, I had a great run," So...if I can talk him into being the spokesperson, it would be great. His name on my pledge letters would make a world of difference for the girls!
Well my darling, I guess I better get to bed, I've been under the weather, so to speak, Lupus season as you know. Come snuggle if you can, that would be nice. Always remember you are my first born Princess, the love of my life, I shall love you unconditionally forever and ever.
All my love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
April 27, 2011
Good Morning My Beauty!
Today is Wednesday, I am so tired, I can't wait for the weekend. Did you enjoy the flowers we brought to you yesterday? I really thought the yellow cow-a-lilies were beautiful. JoJo, JonnaMonet and I had a "Cas/Mom day yesterday. After JoJo and I went to see Dr. Sullivan, we decided it was too late to take her to school, so..... we picked up JonnaMonet and headed off to Outriggers for lunch. It was such a beautiful, warm day. I just couldn't resist. This is the type of thing you and I would always do; and because I spent the entire morning discussing you, I thought it only appropriate. We sat in the sunshine, eating lunch and gazing at the water. We talked about you quite a bit, how different hehehe.
I got a call from Sandy on the way home, and it seems she had tickets for JoJo and I to join she and Jen in NYC today (Wednesday) to see Wicked. I had already seen it with Jen about 3-4 years ago. JoJo and Sandy haven't seen it, so, we are off to the theater and lunch today.
It days like this that make me think of you more and more. We always spent our days like this, lunching outdoors, going to the city, shopping. I miss you more and more each day. A long time ago, someone told me that it would get easier as time went by, but, they lied, it seems to get harder! Well my darling, I had better sign off and go get ready, we are leaving in about 15 minutes.
I love you unconditionally my Princess with all of my heart and soul forever and ever. Stay well, think of us often, as we will be forever thinking of you. Visit me often and always, always remember my love for you!
All of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
April 22, 2011
Good Morning Angel,
Yesterday was the official first day of Spring. This has been, as I am sure you know, a very busy three weeks. Tomorrow we leave for New Jersey to be with Nonnie for Easter. She has been extremely emotional because of PopPop's anniversary. I told her she was very lucky, she had PopPop until his age of 99. They got to do and see more than a typical life time together. I wish I had gotten more time with you to do/see more of "life" together!
Did you enjoy your very large bouquet of Orchids and white roses? I thought they were beautiful, and that you would enjoy them.
Eric is here for a few days; Mitch, JonnaMonet, Johanna and Eric are off for the Spring vacation. They all love being together. Aunt Marilyn and Rebecca are going to meet us in New Jersey tomorrow. I think it will be adult night out after the babes are all asleep.
I think Gui and Nina are also joining us for Easter, but I haven't heard as of yet. Aunt Donna Marie is coming by today to give me the last of the pictures for the "Mitchie's Amazing Adventures: Good Bye to Pluto" book II. I saw some of them, and they are fantastic. I'm sure you would approve.
I miss you my darling, and thank you for visiting me. I love spending moments with you; you looked beautiful in the "pompom updo" yesterday. I love you with all my heart, and I just feel so fantastic when I get to see you. Please continue to visit me when you can.
Have a wonderful Spring day my darling Princess Chee Chee Bean and always remember that Mommy loves you unconditionally and forever and ever, my darling Angel.
All my love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
March 18, 2011
Good Morning My Princess,
It is a beautiful sunny day, it's about 58 degrees and supposedly going up to 70 degrees today. It's your kind of day. I can remember going to the Zoo with you on days like this. We did go to the Zoo a lot didn't we? Afterwards you always wanted to eat at that little Italian restaurant on Arthur Avenue. Remember the yummy artichokes and the pastas?
Tonight is Pizza night, and JoJo is all ready for it. She really looks forward to Friday nights, pizza and movies. This week she has dance, I'm not sure why, I think it's catch-up time for the recital or something. I think JoJo has Respite next week too! I have to call to confirm that.
JonnaMonet is looking forward to start riding again; and, Kimmy called today and wants JonnaMonet to do PomPom girls with Marissa this summer. I think that would be great for her, don't you? I am coming to bring you new flowers this weekend.
Mitch will be going to Boy Scout camp again, and he is so excited. He really had a great time last year.
Uncle Jon was here last week, and he even cooked one of his amazing dinners for us. First he made a quick sauce w/pasta for an appetizer, then baby lamb chops with a wine reduction, roasted potatoes w/basil and spinach. He chose a very nice wine to have with dinner and we had pastry for dessert. It was amazing, you would have loved it! He promised to be back soon. He, Daddy and Uncle Mike went out one night while he was here.
My darling baby girl, I miss you so much. Every time I do something or think about doing some thing, I think of you and how you would handle it. I miss kissing your beautiful face as you sleep, tickling your back when your not well, snuggling with you on cold, rainy days. Come visit with me as soon as you can, I miss you!
All of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses forever and ever - Mommy
March 9, 2011
Good Morning Angel,
The sun is shining, but it's still a bit cold, although the snow is almost all gone.
All the babes are in school, and it's CMT testing again. I don't really understand the CMT's, even the teachers hate the time taken away from "real teaching" to conduct the tests. Evidently, that is how the schools get Federally funded. Go figure! JonnaMonet has been working with ICAPS at home twice a week; I still can't tell if she is really learning anything or not. Time will tell it guess!?! Johanna is getting all excited because she has a Respite coming up in March. Mitch has been having fun with his XBOX 360 Kinex LIVE and running will start soon. So, all the babes are looking forward to Spring!
Daddy is away in Texas on a shoot with Mary regarding the "Time for Lyme" video. He won't be back for a few days, U.R. is hanging out as usual doing his computer thing.
I think about you every day, but, yesterday as I was driving, Johanna grabbed my hand and all I could think of was how you used to hold my hand. Holding her had, I felt a comfort to her, but, when you held my hand, I felt you comforting me all the time. You were always the one to calm me, make me feel at peace. I loved holding your hand, You shall always be my hero, the love of my life and my Princess Chee Chee Bean.
Please visit me when you have the time, and hold me close. Forever, remember, I love you unconditionally and forever and ever - Mommy
February 26, 2011
Good Morning Beautiful,
Although the day is cold, the sun is shining! Are you smiling down on us? We are celebrating Mitch's birthday today, or I should say his party is today. We are going to Daddy's Extreme Sports. You would love this....Lazar tag, Paintball, Go Karts, batting cages and an Arcade. We are having pizza and a giant eclair! Mitch has invited 17 friends, however, we don't know the final head count!?!?! Eric, Rebecca and Aunt Marilyn are here,and will be staying over. Unfortunately Ali, Max and Adam couldn't make it, Mitch was pretty upset, this is the first time his bestfriend is missing his birthday.
JonnaMonet is excited because she is getting to play in the Arcade with me all day. JoJo is excited because she has never played Lazar tag before.
U.R. unfortunately can't make it, but he will be with us in spirit. He has stuff to do, but he won't be alone, his girlfriend, Julie will be with him.
I miss you my darling baby girl. I am a bit nervous about PPT's (3 coming up) and doctors reports, please stick close to me, I need you even more than usual this coming week!
Remember my darling, I shall love you unconditionally and forever.
Love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
February 10, 2011
Hi Princess CheeChee Bean,
How are you on this bright sunny, but cold day?? At this present moment, JonnaMonet is asleep on the couch with the Little Princess movie playing on the television. You always loved that movie. JoJo has come into the room, eating an apple and joining her on the couch. I do believe that Mitch is coming straight home after school today. At 2:45 I have to take JoJo the the Montano Center for class. Daddy is due home early because I have to give a speech tonight in front of 200 people. You know me, I can sing in front of 1 - 25,000 people, but talking, that's another story. I'm a bit nervous, but I'm sure it will be fine. I had to set the DVR to record tonight's shows on CBS. I love to watch the Big Bang Theory and all of the other shows right through the night to The Mentalist. U.R. is cooking tonight. He is making roast pork if you are interested.
I am waiting for the other three entries to be posted to your Guest Book, I had to omit feelings/thoughts that I was relaying to you in order to make some unknown individual who might be reading your page happy!?!?! Go figure!?!?
So beautiful, are you looking forward to Spring, I know you love that season. You will have to join me for our typical trip to the Bronx Zoo.
My darling I miss you so very much and hope you visit me soon!
All of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses - Kimberly
Missing you and looking up at you with unconditional love!
Mommy
February 7, 2011
JonnaMonet smiling up at you 2010
February 7, 2011
Looking up at you in your Heaven!
February 7, 2011
Good Morning Darling,
I was thinking about you, as always, and thought I would send you a note. The sun is shining today, although, they are calling for more snow. Can you believe it? I told you that we had 71.5 inches of snow for the month of January. Crazy, right?
I walked Mitch and JoJo down to the bus stop as usual, except we had to be overly cautious due to the lovely ice from the snow starting to melt, then freezing over on the driveway, again. The driveway was clear, but, the snow that is off to the sides, melts and causes the problems. AHH Spring, where are you?
I am suppose to go and pick up UR today, hopefully, although, I haven't heard yet. Waiting....always waiting for something, right!?!
E. called last night, she sounded shaky. She told me that K.L. had called her to say she and your ex were engaged to be married. UGH!! E. is suppose to come and visit this week, I hope so, the babes miss her.
Daddy and I are going out to dinner with Sandy and Garry for Valentines. UR will be here with his honey watching the babes. Jonna and I have to fill out her Valentines for school this week. She is so excited. Today we have to do her "All About Me" board, and then we can relax.
HEY...did I tell you Green Bay won the Superbowl? Daddy was rooting for PA but, I was am a Packer fan, and I was hooting and carrying on. The commercials were fantastic too, however, the Black Eyed Peas were awful. It was the worst half time performance I have ever seen. The sound issues were obviously not there fault, but it shook them up, and there was all kinds of vocal flaws. They didn't do anything memorable except drop down from the ceiling of the Arena, but, that's been done at all of the Award shows for the past year. I felt bad for Fergie. I was talking to Daddy about it, and he agreed that any, and I mean any time I have performed live, I was always prepared for sound screw-ups! I think it's because I'm so used to having or thinking I am going to have bad sound that I always make sure I am prepared for the worst. This way if you have to do it "on your own" you still sound great! The Black Eyed Peas were relying too much on others to make sure they sounded great. Bummer huh?!?
Baby girl, I miss you, please come and visit me. I miss everything about you and need a visit. Have an awesome day in your Heaven!
All of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses forever and ever - Mommy
February 1, 2011
Hey Baby! I don't know what happened to my entree from last week? I wrote to you for your anniversary.
Well my baby, I know that I had told you about the Archangels visiting. That I could actually feel them swirling around me and then you were here too. I was an awesome 5 days, and I never felt so calm, it was amazing!
It has been snowing every week, sometimes twice a week for this entire month. It is snowing again today. It's suppose to be a real killer of a snow storm, as it was last week, and the week prior. We have had a total of 71.5 inches for the month of January, can you imagine? I tend to think it is you cleansing the earth. You left me on January 21st at 11:30pm, although the Doctor in the Emergency room, claimed it was 2:15am on the 22nd. But, I was there, I know, you had given up. It makes me so sad, and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. Although, the week of the Archangels, I was truly at peace for the first time since you have been gone. However, you and the Archangels left, so did my being a peace.
Did you enjoy your New Years flowers and your Anniversary flowers? I see that Michelle has been by almost every week to see you, that makes me smile.
Your baby girl JonnaMonet has a cold again. I just gave her some medication and told her she had to stay in bed today. Her first question, "does that mean I get breakfast in bed?" I laughed and told her, "yes"; she is so like you, breakfast in bed and television.
Mitch is still asleep and JoJo is playing on the Wii, Hannah Montana of course. Daddy has gone to the store for milk, eggs, vitamins. I can't believe that he is going into work today. He isn't suppose to go in until 3pm for a meeting, but that is when the ice storm is suppose to hit after snowing all day. I told him it's going to be to dangerous, but, you know your Dad. Please watch out for him and keep him safe for me. U.R. is needing you too, please look after him. Hopefully he will be home soon.
E.S. came over last week, we exchanged Christmas presents and she was suppose to be back on Friday to do her laundry, but I haven't heard from her; I think she is in a bad place, again. Please help her too.
I know I ask you to do so much, but you are in a position to help all of us, as always! I have always depended on you haven't I?? You are my Princess Chee Chee Bean, my strength, my love, my life. I will always need you and love you unconditionally. What bothers me is not being able to physically hold, kiss and talk to you. I mean, as you know. I talk to you all the time, at times I hear you in my head with responses, you know, it's not the same. In the shower the other day, I could see your face, your pale skin, even your tattoo's, it made me cry. All the times either you or I would be in the shower and the other would sit on the floor or whatever and we would chat. I miss that, I miss every moment we would spend together. How many times were we at the mall and you would grab my hand and we would walk from store to store? How many times I would be driving and you would grab hold of my hand? I miss every single moment we had together. My darling Cas, will this pain ever go away? Will the hole in my heart ever heal?
Please visit me soon, come and hug and hold me. I love you unconditionally with all of my heart and soul. You are forever my first born baby girl, my Princess, my love of my life. Sweet day my darling.
Forever all my love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
January 21, 2011
Hey Baby,
I have been watching the clock all day long today. It is now 1:22pm on the 21st of January. We have finished brunch and you and I are having a chat in front of the "safe house". Some safe house that proved to be huh!?!?
I keep wishing that I could step back in time to this exact time four years ago. I would have insisted you come home with me. We could have watched that movie here at home. I would have made us a lovely dinner, you would have been playing with JonnaMonet. When you started to react from the clot, I would have known what was wrong and gotten you to the hospital on time. My baby girl, I miss you so much. It will be your four year anniversary of leaving us at 11:45 tonight, although, the hospital clocked it as 2:15am on the 22nd.
JoJo is at respite again. I dropped her off yesterday, but, this time I prepared all of her meals so she doesn't overeat or eat the wrong types of food.
Mitch is sick with strep throat and JonnaMonet has a bit of a cold. They didn't have school today because of snow. They have missed about 5-6 days now due to snow. Crazy amounts of snow. I think we have close to 4 feet of snow here.
I haven't felt you since the Archangels came for their visit on the 3rd of January. I know you were here that week, I could feel you so clearly. I guess you have been busy in your Heaven.
Please come and visit me more often baby girl. I want you to always remember that I love you unconditionally with all of my heart and soul. You are my first born Princess, and nobody will ever take your place. Yes, I am sitting here crying. I love you my darling, I can see your soft beautiful face, your creamy skin and your lovely hands. I wish I could hold your hand right now. We were always holding hands, that was kind of our thing ever since you were a little baby. Please come and visit me tonight and every night.
All my unconditional love, hugs and kisses to you my Darling Princess Chee Chee Bean.
xxoo Mommy
December 31, 2010
Hello My Darling Princess,
It's almost New Year's, another year gone by. Thank you for being with me at Nonnie's at Christmas. I know that I asked you to be with me for the holidays, but, I wasn't sure you could make it. Then, there we were, in the kitchen, and I could smell you. I remember thinking, did anyone make popcorn, and I knew they hadn't. That is when I knew it was you, your signature smell! Thank you for being there baby girl. Tonight Mitch is with his friend Henry for a sleep-over. I will miss being able to kiss him at midnight, but your words of, "don't crowd them too much Mom", popped into my head. So, he won't be home when the ball drops. I hope you will be here. I asked Daddy to pick up food from a French Restaurant, actually I asked for LUCS, but, as he explained that was across the state from where he is. I know you would have said, "so, after work, go and pick it up please!" And you know what, I would have, but, we both know Daddy doesn't think like we do does he?!
E. called me a few days ago, she got a new job and is very excited. But she is still struggling with the "D's", help her to be strong.
We were suppose to be sharing this evening with Nonnie, but, unfortunately I am sick. JoJo was ill yesterday, Mitch the day prior, I guess it was just a matter of time. So....tonight will be very boring. I am bummed, see if you can come, please!?!
It will be the year 2011 tomorrow, doesn't that sound strange? All the technology, sometimes I hate it. I wish that 5 years ago we had moved away to N.C., like we both wanted to. You would probably still be with me today. Instead we stayed here for Daddy's job, damn, we should have moved.
Did you enjoy your Christmas flowers? They were different, but, I thought they were almost as beautiful as you.
I miss you my darling baby girl. There isn't a moment in a day that I don't wish you were here with me, with JonnaMonet, JoJo and Mitch. We really could use all of your wisdom, love, compassion, loyalty and most important your patience! My Princess Chee Chee Bean, I shall love you unconditionally with all of my heart and soul from now through all eternity. Have a wonderful New Years Eve in your Heaven.
All my Love, Hugs and Kisses forever and ever - Mommy
December 21, 2010
Hello My Darling,
It is so cold. I do believe that it is the coldest day of the year. Poor JoJo is home coughing, with a fever. She is even doing that vomit thing that gives me the yickies! I feel so bad for her, she needs your loving arms around her.
Did you see the Lunar eclipse last night? I wanted to, but I feel asleep, I kept waking up, but not enough to even get out of bed. So....I missed it. I guess I will catch it in another...what...500 years?
U.R. is out and about with his girlfriend Julie, Daddy is on his way home with a battery for my car. Mitch is in school, as is JonnaMonet. She is very excited about Christmas, and the fact that she is having a party at school tomorrow. She has to supply the chips and salsa. Poor JoJo missed her party today due to her illness.
I'm not even half way through shopping, and it's making me very nervous. I did just do a PeaPod order.
My darling girl, I don't have to tell you how terribly hard holidays are for me, or how much my heart aches for you. I miss everything about you. Each and every moment of every day I think of you and how you would either handle something, change another, or how you would like or dislike something. I know you know that I love you with all of my heart and soul, unconditionally, and I pray when I get to heaven, you will indeed be waiting for me. In the meantime, please visit me as much as possible, hold me and let me take in your smell. You are my life, my love, my first born Princess.
All of my unconditional love, hugs and kisses forever and ever - Mommy
December 15, 2010
Hey Baby Doll!
It is so cold outside. Each time I take one of the babes to the bus, I feel like my face is going to fall off. But, now I am nice and warm and in the house. U.R. is asleep on the couch, snoring away, Daddy is at work. I have a pretty crazy day, but, not until later.
This morning, JoJo and I were talking about how much we missed you. Instead of it getting better, I just feel more lonely. JoJo seems so depressed, almost as much as me. The holidays seem to make it worse, but I guess that is the way it is with everyone.
Would you believe, I haven't done a bit of shopping yet!?!? Each time I go to go to the mall, I cringe because of the crowds of people, and I just can't go. I made Daddy promise me that we will go this weekend, just the two of us and get it done. The kids seem to be wanting more and more electronics, pushing the price up. JonnaMonet even is into the electronics.
My darling daughter, I love you so much and please promise me that you will be here for Christmas, we will be HOME, yeah. I told Nonnie that we would come on Christmas Eve for dinner, (actually I am going there with the babes on the 23rd, because I am cooking) but we have to leave that night to be home to do Christmas morning at home. So.....please come and be with me on Christmas Eve at home. I really could use one of your hugs and I need to smell you in the house. My darling baby, I shall always love you unconditionally and with every fiber of my heart. Forever and ever my baby girl, love hugs and kisses - Mommy
December 1, 2010
Good Morning My Darling,
The sky is gray, the wind is blowing, it's raining and cold out. Sounds like a snuggle day, doesn't it? I love our snuggle days. JonnaMonet is in JoJo's bed, she is still sleeping. She and JoJo decided to have a girly night and it was JoJo's room where they slept last night. Actually, it's always JoJo's room, never JonnaMonet's; I guess that is because JoJo has the queen sized bed. JonnaMonet also loves all of JoJo's stuff!
I can't believe that today is December 1st. Only 24 days until Christmas. I think I have purchased 3 gifts so far.
Well, Florida was terrific. Mitch did incredibly well in his race. He was interviewed by Ragnar and two newspapers. Then we went to Disney, JonnaMonet's eyes were practically popping out of her head; she was so excited. I thought I felt you with us, were you there? I especially felt you in the condo! Then we went to Universal, the Harry Potter exhibits/rides were amazing. JonnaMonet is just like you, she loves the thrill of the roller coasters and everything scary. We ended the trip going straight to Nonnie's house for Thanksgiving. I had to cook, so we literally got off the plane and went directly to her house. Unfortunately Daddy and U.R were unable to come with us, they dropped us off, then Daddy went home to shoot a football game. Unfortunately after the game, he felt ill so he spent Thanksgiving home with U.R. They came an picked us up on Sunday.
Aunt Ronni is coming in tomorrow from California. I am meeting her in NYC on Tuesday for her 50th Birthday. She wants to walk our old neighborhoods. Sounds like fun! Aunt Mimi and Aunt Terry are coming up from Florida for Christmas, however, I'm not sure if Grams and Poppie are coming. We shall see. Poppie is still recovering from his knee operation.
I have a terrible earache and head ache today. I need a Cas/Mommy day. Come and visit me. I think a fire, snuggling, food delivery and a movie is in order. Sound familiar??
My darling baby girl, another day, week, month, year, holiday without you. I hate it. I miss you so very much. As I think of you, I can see you as clear as day. Your beautiful face, your amazing smile. I see you smiling right now. Your hair is down, you are so beautiful. I can see you - those pale long fingers on your very soft hands, your long slender neck. You have on a blue stripped shirt with short sleeves. A pair of old jeans that are a bit baggy. Hug me baby, keep me warm.
I guess that I should get me act together and start my day. There is always something to clean, laundry to do. Frank is coming over today, we have work to do. Holiday letters to mail out etc. Daddy left this morning for a shoot with HB, and won't be back for a day or so. U.R. is asleep on the couch. Such is life.
Never, ever forget that you are my darling baby girl. My first born, I shall love you for all eternity, unconditionally, with all of my heart. I miss you my baby, visit me as often as you can. All my love, hugs and kisses - Forever - Mommy
November 8, 2010
Hey Baby Doll!
Are you watching this? Snow, ice, frozen rain? What is going on??? It's a bit early, don't you think?
Well, Mitch did fantastically at his race in Washington, DC. He came in 900 something out of 40,000 people. He won the gold for CT in the unified division, and he also won the gold for the U.S. in the unified division. He came in 7th for his age group. Pretty amazing huh?!?
JonnaMonet didn't want to get out of bed this morning. Then she saw the snow on the ground, and she couldn't wait to get out there. Unfortunately, she slipped and got her skirt a bit wet. I called the school to see if it dried on the bus, or if it required me bringing her a change of clothes.
JoJo leaves on the 11th for her "respite week". She is so excited; I'm a bit nervous, it's her first time away from us. She is all packed and is really looking forward to it.
Mitch is still prepping for the Florida race (202 mile relay race). Did I tell you that he is running three legs of the race, including being the runner to cross over the finish line!?!
E called me over the weekend, and I tried to call back, but no answer. I'm worried about E, look in on her for me, alright.
U.R. is looking to move home, we are awaiting the arrival, hope it's soon.
Did you see JonnaMonet trick or treating with Daddy. She loved it, of course, candy, her favorite subject. Where does she get that from, hummmm! Mitch went with Paul and the boys, they had a blast, JoJo decided to skip it this year, she and I stayed home and watched the original, Rocky Horror Picture Show. She was so into the Glee version, then she saw the original, and agreed, it was way better.
My darling Princess, I miss you so very much. There isn't a moment in a day that I don't think of you and wonder what you are doing. I often wonder if it is like the way Heaven is described in, "The Lovely Bones". I hope so. I always ask others, including religious people, and nobody can give me an answer. So, I pray it's as it is depicted in the book. Stay close to me always my darling, and wait for me. I love you so very much, forever unconditionally, and I know you know that to be true. However, it doesn't stop me from crying and missing you. I do get some comfort when I think of you in Heaven, but, I want proof you are happy and at peace. The only answer I get, you have to have faith. I do have faith, but, does that make it so???
Have a wonderful day my darling baby girl, stay warm, it's freezing here! I shall love you unconditionally for all eternity. All my love, hugs and kisses - Mommy
October 26, 2010
Good Morning Love,
Thank you for the lovely visit this morning. I know your still here, I can feel you and I love it!
Did you hear my conversation with E.? I want to help her. I learned a lot from you and I want to apply it and help her. Is that alright with you? Please let me know, I think you would want me to do this.
It is an unusually warm day today, almost Spring like. Did you request this weather because you were coming to visit? hehehe!
JonnaMonet didn't want to go to school the last couple of days. I keep telling her that if she doesn't go, the school is going to give us a hard time regarding our trip to Florida. She will be missing 5 days of school. Mitch and JonnaMonet's clothes are already stacked and ready to go into the suitcase. This is going to be a much needed vacation and a great race for Mitch.
Did I tell you the doctor determined that JoJo and JonnaMonet do indeed have acute asthma. I already knew that they had asthma and they were receiving meds for it, however, he changed their meds and gave them additional ones. Mitch has a conditional called vocal chord Dysfunction. His vocal chords swell up and he can't breathe. It mimics asthma, and a lot of times goes treated as asthma. After all the tests, that is what he has. Evidently serious runners and swimmers (A type personalities) have this conditional according to Dr. Hen. It is harder to control than asthma, but we are working on it.
Daddy leaves again this week for Atlanta, but he will be back for Mitch's race in Washington DC. I told you, he is racing in the Marine Corp Marathon on the 31st. On Halloween, can you imagine. Daddy has promised the babes that we will make it home to trick-or-treat. I don't know how, but, I believe him.
JonnaMonet had me go out and purchase all the clothing to be a witch for Halloween, now she wants to be a ballet dancer. So, today I have to go out and get a tutu, stocking, etc for her costume. Her school party is on Friday. I want to leave for Washington right after school.
Baby, do you hear me every time I talk to you. I know I was doing a lot of chatting with you this morning. I'm sorry I kept crying; I know you don't like when I cry, but, I miss you so much. I pray all the time that you are at peace and that you are happy. I just miss you so much, it makes me angry and sad at the same time. When I can feel you, I am at peace, is that weird?
Please visit me again, real soon. Better yet, come to Washington with us, that would be awesome! Never, ever, ever forget that you are the light of my life, my love for you will always be unconditional and forever and ever.
All my love, hugs and kisses forever baby girl - Mommy
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