Benjamin D'Meza

Hey Dad, I´m missing you so much right now. Father´s Day is coming up and you know they´re always hard. At least I still have your pictures. Just as an update, I graduate college next year. It has been a rough journey with the pandemic, but mom and I made it happen. We thank you for being with us and helping in spirit, I know you´re rooting for us up there. I got to listen to your music for the first time but I wish I could have a copy so I can hear your voice whenever I miss you like this. Rest In Peace and power dad. Love you.

I miss you so much :(

I love and miss you every day....

It would have been our 6yr Wedding Anniversary today and I still remember that day like it was yesterday. Half of my heart went with you the day you passed away and it will never be the same. I miss you everyday. I love you

Happy Birthday my love! Not a day goes by that we dont miss you. We love you forever and always!

Happy Anniversary my love! Not a minute, hour, or day goes by that I don't think of you. I miss you so, so much. I love you always and forever.

Rest In Peace Benny

Happy Father's Day my love!

4 years, I can't believe it's been 4 years. So many things have came and went and changed but at the same time it feels like my life has stood still. The pain that I have felt is a pain I can't explain and so many people have said with time it gets easier. I guess it has but when the pain is there it feels like the 1st day. Our son is growing up to be such an amazing little human being. He is your clone 100% from his nervous laugh, to ALWAYS having a smile on his face no matter what. He is you and I thank god everyday for leaving me with that. He doesn't have a mean bone in his body and wants to help everyone he can, even if they don't deserve it. He is my light at the end of the tunnel. I miss you, we miss you more than I could ever put into words. Not a single day goes by that We don't think of you. I love you in this lifetime and the next. 💔❤️

Happy Birthday my angel. I love and miss you more than I could ever put into words.

Happy Anniversary my love! Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and I miss you more than I could ever put into words. I love you in this lifetime and the next.

I love you, yesterday, today and the day after that. Not a moment goes by where I don't think of you. I miss you more than I could ever put into words. I love you in this lifetime and the next.

3 years ago today I lost my other half, the father of my son, my best friend, and my rock. 3 years ago today my whole world as I knew it came crashing down. We had that once in a lifetime kind of love and I will be forever grateful for it bc some go their whole lives never having what we had. Not a day goes by that I don't miss you terribly and I wish I could see you 1 last time I would have held on a little longer and told you how much I love you...one day.....

I love and miss you so much it hurts.

Happy Birthday my angel not a day goes by that I don't miss you and I don't think an hour goes by that I don't think of you. No1 has said things gets easier but that it just gets more manageable and I think that pretty much sums it up. You are forever a part of our daily routine and we talk about you often. We miss you so, so much. Happy Birthday to the most amazing husband and daddy that we could have ever dreamed of. We love you to the moon and back....

I think about you before I open my eyes in the morning and you are the last thing I think about when I close them at night. Words will never express how much I miss you and how much my heart hurts. Another Christmas without you, and I don't think it will ever get easier but I just manage. I manage for our baby bc I don't want him to see me cry. I love you to the moon and back and nothing will ever change that. Merry Christmas my love.

Happy 3rd wedding Anniversay my love. Im missing you more today then usual and I didn't even think that was possible. Thank you for loving me just as I am my faults, my flaws, my insecurities, all of it. You made me a better person and that is something I will carry with me for the rest of my life. No one will ever replace that, our son is constant reminder of the kind of love we had, that once in a lifetime kinda love. I love you in this lifetime and the next. Rest in peace my baby

Happy Thanksgiving my love, we love and miss you so much! Holidays will never be the same without you, I get thru them for Niko. I miss cooking at our house and our friends and family coming over, that was supposed to be our forever tradition and now I can't imagine doing it without you. I love you baby and I hope you are still looking out for us!

Time has passed, but u are still in my heart and we miss the fact that u are no longer with us physically. U feel like family to my girls & I because of the grade school history we all shared. Great memories of fun & laughter, school trips and birthday parties . You were always there with Tiffany and Jenae' and their Dad or my self. Because we ALWAYS went on the Class trips for extra PARENT supervision. So thus, our history. Ur like my own. And that's why i'm gonna always be here in this guestbook, singing ur praises. R I H P. my sweety darling. Amen

Hey daddy, it's your oldest Alanah. I just started High school and i'm getting gpod grades. This school, I know, will help me become successful while doing something I love. I know that's all you wished for me, I wish everyday that you were here to see. Everyone misses you and sometimes its hard to believe you're gone. I hope you're at peace where you are. Know that you will always live in our memories.

I miss you everyday and not an hour goes by that I don't think of you. Sometimes I feel like this isn't real and u will walk in the door at any moment but when you don't that's when it becomes my reality. I love you so very much and can't even put into words how much I miss you.

I miss you, I miss you a lot. Our baby starts the 2nd grade tomorrow and u would be so proud of him. We love you to the moon and back.

2 yrs ago today I lost my best friend, my better half, my soul mate and the father to our son. 2 years ago today my life as I knew it would never be the same again. Ben was the most amazing person and not an hour goes by that I don't think of him one way or another. When I met him my life had changed for the better. He was 22 and I was 23, we were kids and and basically grew up together. We went thru trials and tribulations as any relationship does but as the years went by we had grown so much as a couple and then became parents. I remember the day we had Niko and it was the 2nd best day of my life with the 1st being the day I meant Ben. He changed my life for the better. I miss him more today then I did that 1st day and my heart is still in a million pieces, I will never know the reason as to why he was taken away from us but I am forever thankful for the amazing 10 yrs that I got and I wouldn't trade it for anything. Ben I will always love you with all that I got and all that I ever will be. Rip my baby ❤

Rest in peace BENJAMINF

20 months, I can't believe its been 20 months. I look back and it seems like my life has stood still but yet so many things have happened in that time. I miss you so much and the pain is something that hasn't gone away. I guess it just gets more manageable if that's even possible. Our son is growing up so fast I just want to press pause. When I talk to him it's like talking to you, he is all of you and I wouldn't change that for the world. I love you babe in this lifetime and the next.

My love I didn't forget 19 months nor did I forget your birthday, I have just have been at a loss for words. I miss you so much i can't even put it into words. You are the 1st thing on my mind when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep. People keep telling me it gets better with time but I beg to differ. It's harder and becomes much more real and our reality. I love you more then anyone could imagine, you were my everything, my forever. I love you in this lifetime and the next. Happy Birthday, rest in peace my baby.

Merry Christmas my love, we miss you desperately and things just aren't the same. We love you to the moon and back.

18 months and I'm a total loss. Lately I have felt like I did the first few weeks after we lost you. I cry every day and would do anything to have u back. The holidays aren't the holidays anymore without you. I do it for our son who keeps me going every day. He's the most amazing little boy and I am truly blessed you left me with the most amazing gift. If it wasn't for him I don't think I would have made it this far. He's so smart, crazy smart actually and he has all A's in school. I always tell everyone he is a total mix of the 2 of us and every time I look at him I see you and I love it. Words will never be able to describe the pain I'm feeling, it's gut wrenching. I miss you babe, so much. I didnt forget our anniversary I just couldn't bring myself to write anything. I love you to the moon and back.

Today is 17 months and it feels like every month goes by so much quicker then the last :( now the holidays are coming up and it sucks. I used to love Christmas and now I just don't have that feeling anymore without you, but I do it for our baby. I remember how annoyed you would get every year bc I always wanted a bigger tree then the last lol but once it was done you loved it and were like a little kid. I miss that, but I miss you more then you can ever imagine. My days aren't the same anymore and I still feel lost at times and not sure what to do from 1 minute to the next. Sometimes I question my own decisions or if I'm raising our son the same way we would be doing it together but what I can tell you is he is the most amazing, smart, crazy intelligent, and handsome little man you could ever imagine. He is your clone and everytime I look at that little face I see you. He is hands down 100% your clone. I love you more today then I did yesterday.

R I P......Benjamin. from the Bailey family. Gone to soon!????

16 Month's its been and I feel like im back at square one. So many decisions I have to make on my own when I always had u by my side to help me and give me your opinion or tell me I was crazy and what the right thing to do is. I don't have that anymore and I hate it. I have always said they don't make them like u anymore and they don't. You were and always will be the love of my life. I miss you more today then yesterday and a part of me still wont let myself believe that this is my reality now :( I love you babe, to the moon, the stars and the whole world. Please continue to look out for us which I know u are bc I feel u around all the time. I love you

15 months and it feels like yesterday. I miss you more then anyone could ever imagine and my heart breaks all over again every morning when I open my eyes and realize this is our reality not a bad dream. I love u with all that I am and all that I got.

Im missing you so much I cant explain. So many things have changed in the last 14 months. Our baby is about to start 1st grade, he's growing up so fast and is crazy smart. We miss and love u more today then yesterday.

13 month's and I still miss u the same if not more. We love u babe, to the moon the stars and the whole world.

I just wanted you to know how much I miss you and love you. Niko and I have made some big changes and its just not the same without you. I would do anything to see you, touch you, and kiss u 1 more time. My heart is broken in a million pieces but everytime I see our little boy smile its like looking at you. I love you to the moon and back.

Thinking about you on this day. Last time we spoke was father's day last year. You seemed so healthy and happy. Alanah misses you so much. I hope you can see this. Rest in peace Benny. I truly am so thankful for a friend like you. I will make sure Alanah knows how great her dad is.

Not a day goes by that I don't miss you, or a second that I don't think about you. I cant believe its been a year already. Some days it feels like yesterday and others like it was years ago. There aren't any words to explain the type of pain I feel everyday. You were and always be my soul mate. Our son is growing up so fast and is such an amazing little boy, I know u would be proud. I love you babe with all that I am and we miss you so much.

He is with you every day watching over you and Niko. He is in your heart. Keep the most wonderful memories of him alive.
May you find peace in knowing that you will see each other again someday.

It's now been 11 month's today and I still feel the same way I did on the 1st day. Not a minute goes by where I don't think about you. I miss u more today then I did yesterday and I wish this was all a bad dream. I love you with all that I have and always will.

10 month's and I still feel the same pain since the 1st day. I love you babe with all I am.

I love and miss u so much it hurts.

Babe I miss you more then I can ever explain. Its a feeling thats not getting any better. What I would do to have you back. When u left half of me went with you and I just feel so lost without you. I love you in this lifetime and the next.

omg i am stunned i cant believe it. im at a sad loss of words, heartbreaking...i always wondered about him and what had been of him. this is a terrible way to finally have heard abt him. God rest your soul Benjamin and my deepest sympathies to your family and friends on such an unbeliebable loss. _erika M from ps 95

My heart is so broken over the sad news of benjimins passing...he & my daughter tiffany bailey..queens n.y. were in the same class at P.S.95. in the 4 or 5 grades. Class trips,, birthday partys etc. Our hearts hurt with the Passing of his brother yrs ago...so sad...now this ..my deepest condolence & prayers are with his wife & son,mom & dad and extended familey.The last time we all saw him and his mom was when they moved away to florida...its been yrs.. we lived near MAYS dept store 169st & 90 Ave.(corner building). R.I.P. Benjamin O:-)

I just want our old life back.

I love and miss you so much babe. What I would do to have our old life back.

Another month has went by and I still can't believe it. I miss you my love. So, so much!

Happy Valentine's my love. This year was horrible bc I didn't have you to spend it with like all the years prior. I miss you more then You could ever imagine. I love you with all my heart

Miss you SON. All that I can say.

I'm so upset, hurt, angry and just all over the place that u left us. I can't even express how much I miss and love you and I always will. Till the end of time.

I miss you so much my love. I have been back to a total loss lately. I love you with all I that I've got left.

The first Birthday without you was HARDER than I thought it would be.
I Love Son & Thank you
PS. It is not getting any easier

You were the first thing on my mind this morning when I woke up, just like every other day. I love and miss you so much.

Happy Birthday Babe! We love you to the moon the stars and the whole world. Missing you like crazy.

It's 7 months today and I feel like time has just stood still. We miss you so much and the pain hasn't subsided. I love you babe and always will.

I love you

Happy New Years baby. 2013 has been the worst year of our lives and we miss you like crazy. Look out for us in 2014. We love you to the moon and back.

I miss you so much and it's not getting any easier. All my love

Merry Christmas my love, I miss you more then words can describe. This Christmas doesn't even feel like Christmas without you but I did for our son and can't wait to see his little face when he wakes up. I'm sure you will see it too ;) I love you.

It's been 6 months since you went away and I still can't grasp it. I feel like time has stood still and the only thing that is changing is our son is getting bigger. I miss you more today then I did yesterday and I still feel empty. I love you babe and always will until I take my last breath.

Today is 3 yrs that we moved into our "forever" home but within minutes it went from a home to a house. I'm not happy here anymore, it feels so empty with just the 2 of us, but yet you and I built all of this together and I don't want to ever lose that. I don't want to take niko away from his home. I miss you so much babe. I don't feel like a minute goes by that I don't think about you. The holidays suck but I keep going for our son. I love you

I think of you constantly, your the 1st thing on my mind when I wake up in the morning and the last when I go to sleep at night. What I would do to be able to see you and hold you one more time. It wasnt supposed to be like this, I always said I wanted to go 1st because I never wanted to go a day without you and here I am. I just hope and pray you know how much I have always loved you and will continue to. I knew from the very 1st time I saw you there was something so special and amazing about you and I was right. You are irreplaceable. You were my soulmate, my forever and now I lost you and dont know what to do. Some days I feel so lost but I keep going for our son. Hes turning into the most amazing little boy but you already know that :) Hes so much of you and I love that. Babe I miss you so much I cant take it. Never in a million years did I ever think this would happen to us. I love you to the moon and back and the whole world. Please just keep looking out for us, its scary being a single parent and I just want to be the best mom I can be but its hard playing both roles.

Today would have been our 1 year wedding anniversary. I still can't believe you are gone. I'm completely heartbroken and miss you so much. I love you with all that I am. Happy Anniversary babe!

Happy Thanksgiving my love, it's not the same without you and I'm only cooking bc I know that's what you would want me to do. I miss you so much words can't even explain. We love you with all that we have!

I love you

WOW 5 months and 2 weeks from now since the special magical day of your Wedding,time is flying but my missing you stand still
RIP.my Benji,I can only hope to see you again.
DAD

Grief can be so hard, but our special memories help us cope. Remembering you and your loved one today and always.

It's 5 months today since you have been gone and not a min goes by that I don't miss you and think about you. I would give anything to have you back. We love you to the moon, the stars and the whole world.

It's been a crappy day and I'm missing you more then I can even explain. I love you

I can't take the pain I feel anymore. I would do anything in this world to have you back. I feel so lost and incomplete without you. You were my better half, my partner, my husband and the most amazing father to our son. I always had you to lean on for support, to guide me in the right direction and to tell me babe things will be ok. Why you were taken from us I don't know but it's so unfair. I miss you more then words can explain and I need you now more then ever :( babe I'm so broken and I just want you back. I love you

Ben I just found out of ur passing and am in total shock. We had so many laughs together and that smile could light up the world!!! I know u r watching over all those u love and are missed so very much! Definitely gone way too soon! Love ya bro!!

I miss you more today then I did yesterday. Our son is growing so fast and he is so much of you. He even has that goofy laugh for no reason just like you! I love you, he loves you! Just keep lookin out for us babe like I know you have been.

I miss you babe and love you so very much!

Your Wife is right I miss you son, I am so glad that I told you on 12/1/12 that you were a gift & I LOVE YOU. RIP

It's been 4 months since you left us, 120 days. I don't think a minute goes by that I don't think of you or our son does something that is totally you and I'm taken back for a minute. I miss you more then I can even express. Your the 1st thing on my mind when I wake up and the last before I go to sleep. People keep telling me with time it will get better, I don't feel that. I feel like it's getting worse. I would do anything to have you back and I can't wait until the day I see you again bc this pain is unbearable. I love you with every ounce of my being.

I miss you so much I can't stand it anymore :(

I love you, in this lifetime and the next.

You were in my dreams last night and it was the 1st time since that horrible night on June 17th. All I remember from it is I was so excited to see you and I couldn't stop kissing you and then I woke up and all I kept trying to do was go back to sleep so I could see you again and I couldn't :( I can't even explain the pain that I have felt today since that dream. I miss you so much and just want you back. I love you with all my heart and soul and I forever will.

I miss you so much I can't take it. I need you here, we need you here. Why did this happen to us.

Missing you so much! I love you.....

I remember 90 days ago I was waiting for my Happy Father day call, but now I would of done anything to talk, Hug, & Kiss you. One of my best memory is that you were never to old to kiss me LOVE YOU SON

Its been 3 months babe and at times it feels like it was just yesterday and other days like it was moons ago. I love you more today then I did yesterday. My heart is broken into a million pieces and some days I cant function but I know you have my back and are beside me through everything our son and I do. We miss you more then words can say and we love you to the moon and back. You are and always will be my soulmate, In this life and the next. What we had is something no1 could ever take away from us. I love you babe!

It's a shame that we had to lose you so soon but you will always remain in my heart and I hope you find peace and happiness up there. Your spirit will live on in your wonderful children 0:)

Say hello to my Titi. You both were taken before your time & both so suddenly which will never make sense to any of us that cared for you. May you rest in peace

You are truly missed and loved Ben say hello to Alain for we miss both of you.

We love you to the moon and back and the whole world.

Miss my Son Lord, The second time is harder than the first, Who Knew?.Love you
Binou

Babe I miss you so much I can't take it. The pain I feel is something I have never felt before. It's not supposed to be like this! I need my husband and your kids need their dad! I love you...

Just wanted to say thank you Benny.

Your truly missed Ben

I miss the last 16 years spending time with you, but now I will spend the rest of my life thinking about you. Miss you.

Thank you Steph for keeping the book open

The more time that goes by the more my heart hurts and I miss you terribly. I love you babe

I miss you so much babe.

It's been 2 months today but yet seems like an eternity since I have seen you. The days go by slower everyday. I love you and miss you every second of everyday.

I miss you more today then yesterday. I love you with all my heart babe!

Forever in our hearts you will stay until we meet again

Missing you so much, my birthday was non existent bc you weren't with me. Our baby turns 5 tomorrow and I can't believe you aren't with us for any of this. We love you!

I miss you more then yesterday. Love you