Benjamin Jason Lopez

May you be laughing and praying up in heaven Missing you here ,,,

Missing and thinking of you Chin Chin ,, 3 more days till your birthday .. its kind of weird but your lil sissy sometimes acts so much like you it makes me wonder how you both would have been together .. probably partners thru n thru .. we all miss you .. Isaiah says he has conversations with you all the time ,,Zeiky and Miguel & Chela & Matthew and Tina your partner in crime ,, and Adam and Eli will always know who you are and any future cousins and family members well your memory will be kept alive by the memories you left us. your lil sissy Ariel well I think a lot of you is what she will always have.. your toys they are put away in my room but your cousins see them but no longer want to play with them.. I try and try not to hurt anymore but the pain never eases it seems to get harder its like I cannot accept that you are no longer here , in my life I have had to deal with many deaths,, we are all living on borrowed time ,, life is too short ,, we have to move on I just feel as though I am dragging my feet along.. Hopefully I can have some pep on them when I go visit your final resting place ,, We will be taking you cupcakes ,, I miss you very much as my heart continues breaking . Rest In Paradise

I try not to think about you but then out of the blue everyday without fail a memory of you pops in my head,, I can be at work, driving home, wherever and there you are,, as your birthday get nearer i start feeling that pain in my heart getting stronger.. I miss your laughter I miss your travesuras I wish I could be me again but the pain of your loss seems to overcome all the time

Ben Ben .. the other day we had a little get together for Ariel it was her first birthday .. you were missed that day. Big Brother not around .. hopefully you are watching from above today I clicked on a video of you and my sadness and pain was relived .. i miss you so much my ChinCHin how I wish you were here ,, Rest In Paradise

Its been a little over 2 months since you have been gone.. and about 6 weeks since we said our last goodbyes.. I still cannot listen to music . I want to look in the back seat to see you banging your head to the music,, you were universal you would head beat to anything ,, hip hop, spanish , country I assume its that combo mexi thai in you,, Always in My Heart forever missed

This is more and more depressing .. I see all your cousins and can not stop thinking how you are missing,, keep wondering what you would have been doing with then .. most likely fighting over some toy or another,, Every Day all day I think about you.. many may not understand some will ,, you may not have been my son but you are my GRANDSON and Nana misses you each and everyday ..May I make it to when we will see each other again in the meantime RIP My Lil Chin Chin

I have no words only emotions,, but I feel as if I am breaking each day little by little,,, tiny pieces every day .. when I have reached the limit to the pieces that can be broken what happens then .. The pain although not physical hurts to no end ,, I cannot even enjoy a family party,, I cannot go out anywhere really sometimes I just want to get away from here,, but most of the time I just wish you were here... Rest IN Paradise 8/03/2011-4/11/2015

I miss you mucho My Little Chin Chin.. MY heart aches my eyes cry I will always feel as if tho something is missing inside of me,, Always in Nana's Heart

Emotions are really running today . I have so much pain its the worse pain ever ,, I know the cause I just can never find the cure as the only cure would be having you back giving me hugs and kisses and saying Love you to me,, TBH I have no idea how much more I can take.. REST IN PARADISE ,, MY #7 Grandchild..

I miss you each and everyday... oh how I hated when you got on maynard and rode around the house,,, how I wish I could hear you on that Dang Maynard
again.. MY heart does not feel the same.. my days do not feel like days.. I cannot make myself go where we buried you it would be like facing reality
makin this nightmare real.. I wish you were here.. how I wish you were here I feel like i am going to explode I don;t know if I am angry or just really sad
all I know for sure is Nana misses you

As each day passes the pain seems greater and greater I feel as though I am going to explode.. wish you were here I just want to see you running around .. getting into stuff.. getting into my stuff riding your maynard tow truck up and down the hallway missing you more and more

My Chin Chin .. Nana's heart breaks everyday.. I just wanna hear you say no.. or love you .. or one more hug.. one more kiss .. I know you are doing good.. I love you and miss you more and more each day