Elizabeth Anne Hartman

Hartman! Just wanted to stop by and say that I love you and still miss you very much.

-Jay

Hartman! Just wanted to stop by and say that I love you and still miss you very much.

-Jay

Hey Boo, happy 36th birthday. We had your annual birthday/4th of July party today and most of the family and friends were here. Everybody had a good time and we talked about you and how much you enjoyed these parties. We all miss you so very much. Aidan and Julia talk about Aunt Beth often. Julia had a shirt on today that said "Cutie" on it and I thought of the first time you held her as a newborn and how you called her Cutie. I told Julia about it and she smiled. I know you would just love her and Aidan so much. Matt does a great job as a dad and always tries to make sure they know everything they can about Aunt Beth. I know he misses you a lot sweetie, and I know he would like nothing more than to have one more of those brother-sister chats with you. We all miss you Beth and everyday we feel your presence with us. As much as I wish I could see you and talk to you and hug you, I know you are in your "happy place" and that your are free from all the troubles of this world. Though it still hurts sometimes to think of you, more and more that feeling of hurt is turning to a silly smile or grin whenever I feel you near. Thank you for still being there for Mom and Matt and I when we need you. Just knowing that we will be together again someday keeps me going. I love and miss you baby doll very much. Enjoy your happy place. I will talk to you again soon. Love Pops

Merry Christmas, Bella. Hasn't felt much like Christmas since you left us. I know it's your favorite time of year so I have no doubt you are celebrating with your family today and watching Julia & Aidan opening their gifts.
I love and miss you so much. Keep schmilin down from heaven...
Ti amo
Always, ME
XOXO

Hey Boo Boo, it's dad. Merry Christmas sweetie. I know this is your favorite time of year. Matt and mom and I miss your beautiful smiling face,especially this time of year. I miss the excitement in your eyes when you talked about what presents you were going to give, and how you always made a big fuss over each and every gift you received. You always made the person you were with feel special. I read Jay's note to you and it still amazes me how much of an impact you had on the lives of so many, especially your students and players. I went over to Matt's tonight to help wrap presents and we were talking about how Christmas just doesn't seem to be the same since you left. He misses you an awful lot. He doesn't have his little sis to discuss things with, and I know he misses that. Julia and Aidan are growing up so fast, and Matt has made sure they know everything about their Aunt Beth. He has been "smitten" with the parent bug. He loves the kids deeply and is a great dad. Mom and I went to see you today and brought your favorite roses. Aunt Mare and Uncle Rick brought you the decorated Christmas tree as always and even Mom-Mom Cressey stopped by with a tree to make sure your Christmas was nice. There were several other things there from family and friends, all of whom love and miss you very much. Though it has been six years since you had to leave us, it is still very difficult to accept as real. I sometimes think back on those last few months and feel like it could not have happened. I find myself hoping its a dream that I will wake up from. Even though I know you are in a better place and happier than you have ever been, I still miss my little girl so much. I also know I am an extremely fortunate man to have you and Matt and Mom in my life. God has blessed me so much, and for that I am forever grateful. I wanted to also thank you sweetie for giving me 29 years of joy and love that any father would envy. I love you Baby Doll....Be happy and enjoy your "happy place". Merry Christmas Boo and I hope you get lots of presents that make you smile. Tell Jesus, Happy Birthday for me. LUV U
Pops

Coach Hartman! Its been 6 years since you went home but there hasnt been a day where you haven't crossed my mind. When I am down, I just think of all the little talks we had about you telling me to keep my head up. You are and forever will be my biggest hero. I love you Coach Hartman and I always will. I know I will see you again! And im going to figure out a way to smuggle some cans of Coke past the gates of heaven just for you :)! Merry Christmas to you and your beautiful family!

Love,

Jay

Hey Boo, its dad. I can't believe its been six years since you had to leave us. I really miss you sweetie. Whoever said it gets easier as time passes just couldn't have gone through losing their little girl. I know God wouldn't give us more than he knows we can handle, but he sure is testing my limits. I know I have so much to be thankful for, but at the risk of seeming ungrateful, I really wish I could just give you one more big hug.
Some days, it seems like just yesterday that you left us, and others it seems so very long ago. Some days I feel guilty for not being sad, others I cry to relieve the pain. I don't believe that it gets easier, I just think I become familiar with the feelings of pain and loss. I do know that God, with the help of Mom, Matt and the kids will get me through it.
Mom, Matt, Julia, and Aidan are doing fine, but mom and Matt miss you so very much. Matt has become a wonderful dad and he talks about you to the kids quite often. He wants them to know everything he can tell them about Aunt Beth, and how much you loved all of us. Julia even asks me about you and whether you are in heaven... how old you are now?.... she even asks what you would do or say in given situations. For sure, both Julia and Aidan know about their Aunt Beth, and they love you too.
We all love and miss you. We miss that beautiful smile of yours and how you always made everyone with you feel so very special. I know you are very happy in your "Happy Place" and for that I am glad, but I miss my little girl.
Be happy my love and give Grandpop H a big hug for me.
Love you Boo Boo!
Pops

Love you and miss you so much sweet Bella... see you at the cliffs. Ti amo xoxo

Amazing day today, Bella. History has been made!!!! I so wish you were here to see it and celebrate. Love and miss you every single day... Ti amo. Always ME xoxo

HART.. We miss you so much. Rest easy, I love you.

Bella,
You're playing DJ today... killing me. I secretly love it because I know it's you.
Thinking of you, as I do everyday... but overwhelmed today in every aspect of life. Loving and missing you... and hoping for more guidance from above. I love when I feel you around so please don't ever stop showing yourself. I will always need you.
I hope you will show up on July 22nd when I go to talk to you. Really need you. The days just seem to be flying by since you left and I've got myself stuck in another situation career wise you'd be very upset with... you had me promise you I wouldn't do what I had done to myself in the past... here I am doing it again. I think of your words everyday and yet I can't get myself out of the hamster wheel. I'm hoping you'll help me figure it out sooner, rather than later. My physical and mental health can't take much more...
Life is not the same without you.
I miss you so much every day and I will love you forever.
I'll see you when I get there.
Remember, this is not goodbye.
Ti amo. Always
ME
xoxoxoxo

Hey Boo Boo,
Merry Christmas my love. I know this is your favorite time of year, and for Mom and Matt and I, this is the time we miss you most. We can't help but feel the void created when you had to leave us. We miss the way you always took great effort to choose just the right gift for everyone on your list...the way you took such pleasure in watching us open our gifts from you...the way you always made such a fuss over even the simplest of gifts you received from us, knowing your reaction would make us happy. I still remember how when you were little how you were always the first one up on Christmas morning, waking everyone up and saying "get up...it's Christmas".
Though I still do not understand why God chose to take you from us so soon, I thank God every day for giving us you and Matt, and now for giving us Julia and Aidan. Somehow I still believe that they were sent to help us cope with losing you.
Matt still misses his little sister a lot and especially misses you during the holiday seasons. He is working really hard at being the best father he can be, and I think he is doing a really good job. He also is making sure Julia and Aidan know their Aunt Beth and appreciate how special a person you are. Keep an eye on your big brother and his family and let him know you are with him if you can.
I fell in love with you and Matt the moment I set eyes on you two the days you were born. You and Matt are the greatest achievements of my life and for that I will always be grateful to God. God also chose to take you away from me much to soon, and I do not truely understand why. But again, I am thankful for every moment that I have had with you and Matt and mom,and I will always try to be deserving of this blessing.
We all miss you very,very much baby doll, but we know that you are happy and enjoying your reward for being such an amazing person to all of us. We love and miss you very much. Be happy sweetie...enjoy your "Happy Place".
Love you always
Pops

Happy Thanksgiving Bella!
Miss you.
Ti amo.
Always,
ME
xoxo

Bella,
I can't believe it's been 5yrs. Seems like forever since I've seen your beautiful face and smile... and yet it's days like today where memories flood my mind so vividly.
There's not a day that goes by I don't think of you. There are signs of you all around, songs everyday and memories in my mind and heart to get me through til we see each other again.
I miss you so much and I know I always will.
Not sure what I'll do today besides go talk to you at the Cliffs... I promise to stay strong and continue to celebrate your life.
Be well sweetie.
You are loved and missed. Everyday. Forever.
Ti amo,
ME
xoxoxoxo

Hey Boo Boo,
Its Dad. Been a while since I wrote to you, but I really felt like I needed to talk to my little girl. Mom and I have been talking about you a lot lately and thats probably because we miss you so much. You know that Ruben passed away a few weeks ago, but I'm sure you know that now since he is probably there with you enjoying your company along with Danielle's Leo. Buster seems a little lost without his brother, but still sleeps and eats all the time, getting fatter every day. Matt and the kids are doing well. They seem to be spending alot of time together, and I think Matt is becoming a great father. I can see the love he has for them in his eyes and I know they just adore him. They come over a couple times a week and visit and have dinner with mom and I, and we really enjoy that time with the three of them. Aidan and Julia are real sweethearts and a lot of fun to be around. Matt got promoted to Lieutenant on the P'ville PD and we are really proud of him and what he has accomplished, especially with the turmoil in his personal life right now. But he's getting through it and with your help and an occassional pat on the back from you, he will find the strength to Live, Love and Laugh.
Mom is now back to work in her new library and seems to be settling in to another school year. I have been keeping busy with the house and yard, but think I am going to do a part time gig at ACIT. It'll give me something to do with myself.
Uncle Bill seems to be doing well after his bout with C, and I know you were there with him all the way. Thanks.
Saturday it will be five years since you had to leave us for your happy place. Like Lori and Jane said, somedays it seems like yesterday, other days it seems so long ago.
Currie and Rory got engaged and bought a house and Saturday they are having an engagement/house warming party. I thought you would like the idea of a party then seeing how much of a party girl you were. I'm sure we will tip a few for you kido.
Last week we went to watch Julia do her cheerleader thing, and she was adorable. I stood there watching her and couldn't help but to flash back to your days with the blue devils. She reminds me so much of you and probably always will. I can't help but believe that God sent her to soften the blow of taking you away from me.
I love and miss you very,very much sweetie and look forward to the day when we can be together again. Be good and BE HAPPY.
PS Give Grandpop a hug for me.
LUV YOU ALWAYS
Pops

Elizabetty,
Janey and I were just talking about you and how some days it seems like we saw you just yesterday and other days it seems like its been forever :( We miss and love you!!
Lori

Happy Anniversary, Bella. It's been a rough month... had to let Leo go on my birthday and I've been pretty heartbroken over it. I know it's the best for him and now he's running free with you in heaven. I miss you both so much. It's been a struggle down here, but know you're still with me and in my heart everyday. I'm surrounded by an amazing family and friends who keep me going.
I look forward to seeing you again... until then, keep showing your face and allow me to feel your presence.
Ti amo molto, Bella.
xoxoxoo
ME

Hey Boo,
Happy Birthday sweetie. I could feel you there at the annual barbecue yesterday. We celebrated your birthday as we ussually do and this year you got to share your day with your big brother Matt celebrating his promotion to Lieutenant of the Pleasantville Police Department. I know you are as proud of him as mom and I are. You probably know that he dedicated his promotion to you, which really shows how much he misses and loves you.
Baby Doll, I know that it has been over four years since you had to leave us, but I am still waiting for it to stop hurting. I know your suffering is over a that you are in your "Happy Place" but I still miss you so very, very much. Jane, Lori, Karen, Tiff,Aunt Mare and Uncle Rick, Matt Mom and I all visited you on your birthday and we went to dinner together to celebrate "Bethy's Birthday Dinner" as Jane called it. We had a really nice time and talked about you all night. I know you were there with us. They all love and miss you very much.
Well baby doll, I guess I will close for now. I love you Boo Boo, but I gues you know that. Please keep an eye on Matt and help him through the times ahead.
Be happy my love and keep those little signs coming to help us know you are watching over us.
Love forever and ever.
POPS

Somedays I just miss you more than others... to the point of overwhelming. I am confident with everyday that passes that YOU are in a much better place than we are here.
It's ALWAYS something... been talking to you a lot lately and need your help to give me strength with Leo. I'm heartbroken and just need more time with him. If you've got any connections up there, please help me. I love and miss you everyday and wish that you were here.
I know we'll see eachother again soon.
Until then...
Ti Amo molto, Bella
ME
xoxo

Merry Christmas Bella.
Thinking of you today and always.
Miss you so much.
Been a rough few months, but I know you're looking out for me.
Think of you everyday and miss you always.
Doin my best...
Keep schmilin....
Ti Amo molto,
ME
xoxo

Beautiful sunrise... beautiful rainbow... thank you. My soul really needed that ...and you.
Ti amo,
xoxo
ME

Hey Boo,
It’s Pops. It’s been a while since I've written to you. I miss you baby doll....very, very much. It seems like yesterday that we were working on our "New York" puzzles together and chatting about life. The family and all your friends miss you too.
Matt and Alma and Julia and Aidan are doing well. I know Matt misses you a lot and he too has his good days and Bad. The kids are getting big, and everybody always comments on how much Julia reminds them of you. Dani stays in touch with us and I think she is doing her best to find happiness.
I know you communicate with mom and I in your special ways, and that always brings a smile and sometime a tear. We truly miss your beautiful smile and your "life is a ball" attitude. Some days it seems like yesterday when you left us, and other days like today it seems you have been gone so long. I still haven't figured out why God chose to take you from us, but I try to reconcile it with the fact that I know you are truly in you "Happy Place". Keep an eye on us fools down here and kick us when you think we need it.
BE HAPPY my beautiful little girl. Lord knows you've earned it. Put a good word in for me with God.....I'm sure I will need it.
I love and miss you Boo Boo.
Love Pops

Not a day goes by that I don't miss you. I don't know what else to say. It still hurts all these years later.

Little Sister,
Four years have gone by but if feels like yesterday.....time they say heals all things.....what I haven't heard is when that is supposed to start....we miss you more everyday. Seems that this year even divine help from you couldn't help the Bombers.....as always I ask that you and Grandpop continue to look after all of us especially Julia and Aidan......u are loved and terribly missed!
Matthew

Bethy,
I know it's been a long time since I wrote to you... I still think about you everyday. We have lots of pictures and articles about you hanging up in our office!! We miss you so much!! It never gets easier... I know you are cheering up there for the Yankees!! How about giving the Phillies some help?! Lol.. I think they forgot how to hit!! Anyway, just wanted you to know we are all thinking about you today and every other day!! We miss you and we love you!

Love,
Tiffy and Karen

Bella,
I was texting with Matt lastnight... we are pretty sure you were the Yanks "angel in the outfield" especially on those 2 Granderson plays! :)
As always, they are definitely keeping it interesting... you would be yelling at the TV along with us.
Yankees baseball is not the same without you. Nothing is...
I love and miss you so much.
Ti amo,
ME
xoxoxo

miss u :(

Miss you Bella... everyday.
Somedays are just worse than others.
Hope you're doing well in your happy place.
We sure do miss you down here.
Love you so much and miss your beautiful, smiling face.
Ti amo,
ME
xoxoxo

Happy birthday

Hi Bella... it's your birthday week! I've been thinking about you and missing you so much!
We talk daily, but it doesn't take the place of having you here.
You are loved and missed beyond words. Everyday.

Sorry I wasn't able to go to your benefit, but I started a new job (a good one, finally... thank you very much :) and it's going to be awhile before I can travel back east. I was there in spirit though, as I know you were BIG TIME.

I hope you're partying it up in heaven with some of your favorite people. Don't forget about us down here because we certainly haven't forgotten about you. An angel like you will live on in our minds and hearts forever.

I'll be sending you something special from the cliffs...

Happy Birthday Bella... #33...
Keep schmilin'
Ti amo,
ME
xoxoxo

Hey Little Sister,

Been awhile, though I talk to you everyday, and I miss you more each day. I know this goes without saying but please continue to look down upon all of us (especially Julia and Aidan)and take care of Grandpop. Smile relax and rest as you so deserve!! P.S. Big birthday party coming up!!

Love your Big Brother

Missing you :(

Lori

Hey Boo, its pops.
Well, another Christmas has come and gone. Everything was nice and all the little ones had a great time. Mom made her usual spectacular Christmas turkey dinner and Matt, Alma and the kids were here with us to enjoy it. Grandmom and Grandpop Holt also came to dinner and that made it even better, especially for your mom. Granpop Holt led us as we all joined hands and said grace, and that was especially for me. Aunt Mare, Uncle Rick, Duke, Uncle Pat, and Uncle Bill also stopped by for desert, so we had most of the family here to enjoy. It was very nice, but I still can't help but feel sad because you aren't here with us. This year seemed to be even tougher because grandpop Hartman is with you now.
This is my fourth Christmas without you and my first without granpop. Just isn't the same without you two. I know in my heart that you two are happy and together, but the selfish side of me wants you both back.
We went to Aunt Jeannne's for the annual Pollyanna, inspite of a snow blizzard. As Kim said, it was a bit of a Griswalds Christmas and we were saying how you were probably laughing at us as you watched over us.
One of your basketball players was telling me how she acts like a little kid and gets really excited about Christmas, and all I could think of was you. I always loved to watch your face light up as you opened each and every present.....it didn't matter how big or small or special or ordinary the gifts were...you always loved each and every one. You are what Christmas should be. I also remember the excitement in your face as mom or I or Matt opened our presents from you. You worked so hard to find just the right gift for everyone, always putting your love into each one. I truely miss that.
I do not know if God will ever let me truely understand why you had to go through what you did, but just like you, I will never stop trying and I will, never give up. You accomplished so much while you were here with us, and I am convinced that you continue to have a profound influence on all of us who knew and loved you. You will always be "my heart".
Please continue to watch over mom and Matt and Alma and the kids and most of all BE HAPPY and SMILE. We love and miss you baby doll and always,always will. Give Grandpop a big hug and a kiss for me.
All my love forever.
Pops

Hi Bella,

Just wanted to stop by and tell you that I love you and miss you so much.

One of your favorite holidays is coming and my thoughts are filled with images of you.

I wish you were here so much...
I continue to go on thankful for the love and laughter you brought to my life and grateful for what you continue to give me from heaven.

You are an amazing gift and guiding force in my life. Thank you for looking out for me from afar.

I celebrate you.

I love you.
Always,
ME
xoxo

HARTMAN!!!

I love you & miss you terribly but your always in my heart. Thank you for your guidance & know that you will never be forgotten!!

P.S. Remember what we talked about ?? I'm learning slowly but surely, just taking it one day at a time again.

Save a place for me up there & please continue to watch over me, your guidance is forever needed and appreciated =)

Love,
~ Tiny

Hey Boo Boo,
It’s dad. It’s been three years since you went to your “happy place”. Sometimes it seems like a life time ago…..today it feels like yesterday. I think about you and miss you every single day. Even though I know you are very happy (especially now that Grand pop is with you), I still can’t help but be selfish and want you back here with me. I just miss my little girl. Family dinners at our house just aren’t the same without you…. and now especially without you and Grandpop. Life will never be the same.
Uncle Bill has been “fighting the fight” and I am sure you would be very proud of him. He’s had a rough time, but seems to be doing alright. I’ve been taking him to treatment a couple days a week, and I think that helps me in some strange way.

Mom misses you too sweetie. Though our good days about equal the bad, life is definitely a chore some days. Matt and Alma and the kids are fine. Julia and Aidan are lots of fun, and bring their much-needed smiles to the house. You would have loved to play with them so much. Maybe God did send them to help soften the blow of losing you.
Well sweetie, I’m babbling again, so I will close for now. BE HAPPY baby doll, and give Grandpop and Grandmom a big hug for me.
Love
Pops

Hey Bethie!! So much to catch you up on... Think about you every single day! Still wear the necklace that we all got in honor of you! Feel lost without it. I love being reminded of you everyday. We were of course talking about you tonight. What a great person you were Bethie. Anyone and everyone I talk to about you wishes they knew you. Whenever people ask me about my Bethie tattoo I tell stories about what a great person you were!! They all wish they met you. Im just glad I am one of the many people whose lives you changed. You touched so many lives and I am so glad I was one of them. Think about you often and miss you!!! We hung out with your parents in Rehoboth this summer. They are the greatest people in the world!! I so see why you were great! You got it from them!! Wish I saw them more then I do but cherish the time I do get with them...
Soooo... just went to Temole on Thursday!! Back on my meds!!! So cranky, thought I beat this stupid disease!! But I know with you watching over me I will be ok! So thank you for that! I love you now and forever Bethie!!!
Love,
Tiffy

Dear Bethie-Poo
Just want to get you caught up with the family . Travis is playing football(do you believe it?) and Samantha is a cheerleader for the Blue Devils. Emma and Lily are going to kindergarten and riding the school bus. Kim got a new job and life is hectic. Uncle Jerry is very busy opening casinos in PA. We also met Kim Marie's kids at your parents house and they came to their Labor Day party.They are your first cousins. They are both nice kids .I don't think you ever met Kim Marie...nobody has heard from her in three years. Julia and Aiden are getting big ...Julia is such a sweetheart!
I hope you and grandpop are taking care of each other.Just wanted to write to you because I have been thinking about you.
We are probably going to sell Potter County. So many memories! You and Kim always had such fun.
I guess I'll go for now. Miss you alot Aunt Jeanne

Dear Bethie-Poo
I know its been awhile since I wrote to you. Just want to keep you up on all of us. Believe it or not, Emma and Lily are graduating from nursery school next week May 24! Do you believe it? Kindergarten next year. We have been visiting Friendly's lately with the kids and having a good time. Will continues his little traumas,,,burned his fingers on the treadmill, , broke his teeth at Travis game(fell off the bench head first) etc. Kim calls him the "Master of Disaster" Samantha is taller then Glen ,believe it or not and Travis is a busy person playing baseball . Even though I know you are looking after everyone as well as Grandpop. We miss you so much lately and talk about you all the time. I hope you and Grandpop are having a good time together... he missed you so much after you were gone, I'm sure happy you are together again. Julia and Aiden are the cutest , and i know you watch over them as well
Well , that's all for now .next time I won't wait so long to talk to you Love and miss you Aunt Jeanne

Hey Hartman, I miss you terribly! So much has changed, and much more I need to tell you so I'm headed down to see you now. Ugh, this may be harder than I thought but your the only one I still can go to and hopefully you can set me straight again as always. I love you Hartman!

<3 Tiny

Checking in to make sure you and Grandpop are behaving yourselves- I hope not! Love & Miss you G

Hey rubes, it's been a while. Life is its usual crazy self... you've been on my mind so I wanted to say hey! One night chris and I were laying there watching tv and they talked about the coaches against cancer and gave a shout out to you- We all miss you so very much! Look in on Sambo tomorrow- she turns 13!!! OMG - love you G

Hey Boo Boo, Hows my girl? Feelin a little down today, so I thought I'd write to you. Things are really busy for Mom and Matt, and I am playing Mr Mom. I have been helping Karen with bball and that helps fill the day. The girls are funny and it helps me feel connected to you.
I miss you sweetie. I thought time would heal the pain but it seems just the opposite. It hurts as much now as it did the day you had to leave us...maybe more. We all miss you so much. I know you are very, very happy now and that thought alone gets me through some days. I also believe that if God feels we should be together again someday, we will. I look forward to that day, Boo.
Until then, baby doll, be happy ....Enjoy your "Happy Place".

As always

LUV YOU

Pops

Hey Boo,
Merry Christmas baby doll...We had a nice day today with Mom, Matt, Alma, Julia and Aidan. Went over to their house this morning and watched the kids open their presents. We went out to dinner this afternoon and it was nice. I know we wouldn't have gotten away with going out to dinner if you were here. Sometimes I can't help remembering how you used to you direct the opening of presents on Christmas morning. I miss that sweetie and I miss you..... so very, very much. Keep an eye on us, Boo Boo, and help us through the holidays. We all love and miss you so so much. Be happy Beth, and enjoy your "happy place".
See you in my dreams honey.
Luv you

Hey Boo Boo,
Happy Thanksgiving sweetie. I really missed you at dinner tonight. Matt, Alma and the kids were here along with grandpop. It was nice. Mom outdid herself with a really nice spread with all your favorites.....even brocoli. Everybody is ok, but grandpop is having a tough time. Ask God to keep an eye on him for me ? ok?
We still miss your smilin face at dinner, baby doll. No one enjoyed the holidays like you. Take care my love.

I love and miss you more each day.
Love Pops

Bethie Poo-
Sorry I haven't written to you lately. I just want to let you know that I see you everyday in the picture I have of all of you on the table.
I really miss you . We talk about you all the time . Kim has a great picture of you two at the wedding Emma, Lily and Will know a lot about you as Kim talks to them about you all the time
Julia and Aiden are adorable You will have to watch over them as they grow up hopefully with your presence
So-long for now. Hope you are happy with all the other angels

Hey, Sweetie Pie! Well were all back to school and back to the routine. We just had Matt and Aidan's birthday and Halloween. We decorated as usual and I had a great time with Julia and Aidan. Julia is so sweet and is probably going to be a pretty good athlete-she throws, hits and catches pretty damn good for a 2 1/2 yr old. Reminds me of you! Batting away with her shades on and never missing the ball. She's riot. Aidan is one now and is starting to walk and learning to defend himself from others. Beautiful boy with lady killer eyes!
The Yankees and playing to win the World Series so I know you would be glued to the TV with Steph and Dani-or at the games-and Playing Philly so you and Kim could have some good fights.
You would have loved this Series. Jorge and Jeter and gang doing very well. One game away from champs. Steph is praying you'll help them win, of course! Can you hear her? Just wanted to let you know I miss being able to kiss your beautiful face and hearing your jokes and belly laughs. the world has lost its shine as a "happy" place, but we try to keep things normal for the kids-and thank God for them!!
I miss you every hour of every day and I am trying to not be a "downer" because I know you would HATE THAT.
Lori is having a new baby, and Tina, too-and Janie got married-these are things we need to be happy about, right! Kellie's still here-OMG!
So kiss everyone we know there and I'll kiss everyone we know here! Love you and miss you more than you'll every know.
Mom

Hey Boo......I can't believe it has been two years since you left us. Some days it seems like yesterday....other days it seems like a lifetime away. I still can't get used to a world without my little girl. I never will.

Every day I wake up with a glimmer of hope that it's all just a bad dream and that you will text me with one of your famous "Hi Pops" messages, but then reality sets in and my heart breaks a little more. Seems futile, but I just want hold my baby once more.

I know you are happy and truly in a better place. I miss you sweetie...and so does mom and Matt and Alma. We are all going to make sure that the young ones like Julia, Aidan, Lily, Emma and Will all know who their Aunt Beth is and how much she loves them. I only hope that they all "inherit" your love for life and your heartwarming smile.

Be happy baby doll, be happy.

LUV U

Pops

Well Little Sister Monday was your birthday....the big 31. Like Dad said we had your party and everyone enjoyed themselves though it just will not be the same without you...As I watch Julia running around the old home court chasing the basketball I so wish you could be there to show her how to hit the foul shots (98 out of 100 you cost me some cash on that one!) and bury the three as only you could. They say with each passing day it gets easier....I don't see it....I miss you now more than ever and still can't believe your not here Beth. Please continue to watch over us from among the angels....Happy Birthday Little Sister....

I Love You and miss you terribly,
Your Big Brother

happy bday, beth. love you!

Rubes- Happy Bird- day sweet and funny girl! Love and miss you always xox glen

Happy Birthday (week), Bella.
I have to say that I’m really not convinced by the ‘time heals all wounds’ saying… this year is no less painful than last year and each day without you continues to feel like an eternity. I am so grateful that you are in a better place, but I’m still feeling very selfish because I miss you so badly and want you HERE. :(
I continue to look to you for strength and guidance through all of this… (I know you are guiding many so I appreciate the signs that I do get from you.)
Thank you for continuing to be a strong presence in my life. I felt a kick in the butt recently and I know it was from you. Point taken! My new journey begins soon and like your Dad told me…you’ll always be with me no matter where I am…
I know that, but sometimes I get so lost I just need to hear it again.

You will be happy to know that your boy Jorge won the game for you yesterday! I think you’re giving the Yanks a kick in the butt too because they are finally starting to play like a TEAM. We’ll see how long this lasts… (I won’t hold my breath on that one)
You would be very disappointed with the new stadium… it’s not our stadium, babe. Luckily, we had many fun memories there that I will never ever forget. That will always be OUR Yankee stadium.
Anyway sweetie, I’m rambling...
I just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy. I hope you’re ‘schmiling’ everyday in heaven. God knows we all miss that beautiful ‘schmile’ down here… Julia and Aidan’s adorable faces remind me so much of you. There’s not one day that goes by where I’m not reminded of you, even as I’m already thinking about you. I had a dream last night that you came back to us… needless to say I didn’t want to wake up.
I’ll come down to visit you in the afternoon…
I love you and miss you more than you could ever imagine.
Always & Forever
Me
xoxoxoxo

Hey Boo Boo.....Happy Birthday my love. We had our 4th of July annual barbecue today and you were sorely missed by all. Kim and her beautiful family were there and we laughed about the pillowcase "hallway games " you guys played when you were kids. Your friends from work/school were there with their families and just talking to them and everybody else and spending time with everybody helps mom and I feel closer to you. Lori was funny and she said she wants to have another bachelorette party because she doesn't remember too much about the first one. We really missed having you there. Matt and Alma were here with the Julia and Aidan and I couldn't help but think how much you would enjoy spoiling your neice and nephew. Though we all continue on with our live without you here, we sometimes wonder how it would be if you were still here with us. I often think about how you would react or what you would say in a given situation. We miss you dearly baby doll. The month of July will never be the same.

I miss you Boo and my heart still aches for you. Be happy my love.........Enjoy your happy place.

Pops

Hey Boo,
It's been a long time since I've written to you on your Guestbook. I know we talk every day, but here I get to dig down deep and really chat with you, like we used to do.
We are very busy as you know with getting ready for your Relay. It's still growing sweetie, and you should be so proud of what you have started. You continue to teach your students, family and friends the real meaning of love. They saw your strength and selflessness and emulate your actions by taking up the cause of Relay. They too want to do everything they can to prevent anyone else from going thru what you went through. Even as some of their own family members begin their own journeys with cancer, they still work ever so hard to raise money for this cause. You’ve taught us well and made the world a better place. Thanks honey.
Mom and I went to Long Island this weekend to attend the 2nd Annual Tribute to Beth Hartman organized by some of your college friends. It was held at your favorite watering hole…..The Tidewater Inn……better known as “THE STILL”. We had a really good time, had some of their famous wings and yea….we had more than a few beers. I had forgotten how close you ladies are and just how much they love and miss you. We exchanged stories about you and laughed a lot. It was really nice and I am sure you were there with us, sippin on a cold one. Oh yea….. Sorry about the sissy shot…..I told Dani that next years “toast to Beth” has to be with So Co, and not with some Peppermint stuff.
Well Boo Boo, I ‘m beginning to ramble a bit, so I better say goodnight.
I really miss you baby doll…It doesn’t seem to be getting any better…but I guess I’ll just have to deal with it….Just like you did.

Luv you Beautiful



Pops

Rubes: I need a major shot of courage right now as Kitten prepares to undergo chemo- can you do it?? Try as I might I had a hard time holding it together in her drs appt yesterday. How the frig do you sit there and listen to all of the side effects of the chemo and not think are you sure this is a good thing?? It was definitely overwhelming and I was so pissed off in the beginning that I never really cried until after her surgery and it was like running into a brick wall yesterday hearing about the next phase so I thank you for being such a wonderful example of strength in the face of adversity. I will work hard to emulate that same spirit as we rally around her :-) I was driving last week and could have sworn I was coming up on the black beauty parked infront of your parents house :-) that would have been awesome. Trav has been talking about you alot. We stopped by to chat with you on the way home from baseball practice last week but it was so windy we didnt' stay long. He says he remembers playing basketball with you and also laughed out loud when you found us with his bike broken down walking home. He doesn't want Kitten to loose her hair he says that scares him and doesn't want her to go away like Beth :( So keep holding us up- we love and miss you so, Glen

Hey Beth,

I think of you often and I come to your page quite frequently and read all the wonderful things that everyone has to say about you, especially your father.

My thoughts and prayers are with your family everyday. i just wanted you and your family to know how often I think of you and them.

Love Always,
Kelly

Hey Elizabeth Anne, so I know you are trying to help me feel better. It comes in waves and you can see I have been having a really hard time lately. You not being my sounding board for all of my issues, is kind of annoying, thanks dorko! Aren't you supposed to be relaxing up there though?! I can tell you are really trying to take care of us, and let us know you are okay. And I try and be strong and talk to you everyday and be happy thinking of the times we had, but sometimes i just break down and miss you so much it is all encompassing and overwhelming, as it was the other night:) Thanks for looking out for me. I will never understand this at all, never get over it, and never ever forget our bond. Somebody told me today that it was like we were twins growing up, always together. I thought that was cute. And it was def true. Jake said that it was time that I come and see you, after the other night. Your dad's party is this weekend, it should be fun, but def not the same if you aren't there, but we know you will be there in spirit. Oh, William is one, we had his party a few weeks ago. you should see how cute he is. I am sure you are watching over him. Maybe I will see you this weekend my dear. I love you so much. Come back:) bers

thinking of you...

Hey Boo Boo,
Merry Christmas. We went to Matt and Alma's this morning for breakfast and to watch Julia opening her presents. "Cutie" had a great time. Lots of toys and things. We had a nice breakfast and visited with Alma's family , which was very nice. Grandpop came with us and he had a nice time too. Afterwards we went to visit with you and make sure your Christmas tree was still there. I love going to visit you, but I hate the feeling I get when I have to leave there without you. We all miss you so much.

We went to mass last night with Uncle Rick and Aunt Mare...it was nice and it gave me some time to talk to you and God a little bit.

We all know how much you love Christmas (your second favorite time behind your b-day week). Knowing that makes it harder for some of us because you always had that big beautiful smile and made such a fuss over the gifts you received, no matter how simple they were. I also remember how much you enjoyed giving gifts to others and how you just loved to watch people open them. You always loved to make people happy... and you always did such a good job of it.

None of us have gotten over losing you baby doll, and in some ways it seems to be getting harder. Your girls on the b-ball team are all still thinking of you alot. Several have your picture on their phones and we talk about you quite often. I can see that many of them still miss "Hartman".

Matt and Alma and the kids are coming over for dinner tonight and to exchange gifts. Aunt Mare and Uncle Rick will probably also stop by too. Wish you were coming too. Oh yea, I guess you know your old man is now officially retired. It feels good. I know you are happy for me, but I wish you were here to share it with me.

Well baby doll, I have to help mom get the turkey dinner (your favorite)ready so I must say goodnight to you. I will talk to you tomorrow Boo Boo.
LUV YOU
Pops

Hey girl,
Yesterday was my 30th bday! Can you believe it?! I had a party at my place, and your parents were here. It was so nice to spend time with them, but I kept thinking the whole night how much I wished you were there with all of us to celebrate! Parties just aren't the same without you! Your parents gave me a Christmas tree ornament with a picture of you on it; I will forever treasure it.

I miss you so much. I just started crying today thinking about how much I miss laughing with you. I miss my best friend. It's just not fair. I'll never understand why God took you; I just can't rationalize it. Anyone who says that time heals all wounds never lost someone that they truly love. Rest in peace and give my nani a big hug and kiss for me! Love you!
Jackie

Hey Rubes, well I am at work and not wanting to be here today. Just thinking about you a lot lately, not like I ever stopped, but I think you are trying to contact me again...you are so busy up there trying to take care of us, that I know you have to choose each one of us that you are trying to contact from time to time. I have heard some GNR and some Smashing Pumpkins, the cd we played when my mom and dad were at the legion and I had parties...that has been on the radio a lot lately. It makes me smile to think of all the times we had, and I miss you so much. Jake and I were in the mall yesterday and I started crying telling him that I missed going to the mall with you. Remember, we would be like, "Ewe, I hate her!" And when I bought my shoes during 06 Christmas and I left them and we had to drive all the way back...you were so happy with me! So, Christmas Eve is coming up and I am staying at home this year so the kids can wake up in their house on Christmas morning. But I will miss everyone on Christmas Eve, your dad, most of all...And you, we had some good times on Christmas Eve at my house. I am surprised we remember any of them.
I am constantly reminded that time heals all wounds, however, it is not healing the loss of you and how much you are missed. I am on facebook meeting up with all of our old friends from high school and it is fun, but I miss you there. You were always with me...so many people have said that to me. Beth was just always with you. I loved it! And I know you are always with me now and you are trying to let me know that things will be okay. I know they will, it just stinks, and it isn't even remotely the same. I actually am really sad, I tell Jake, I have no best friend anymore. He tries, but he just doesn't get it, I mean, he didn't even see Tommy Boy for christ's sake! "Fat guy in a little coat" Well, i wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, maybe I will come and see you soon at your grave, I still haven't done that, I just can't, I don't know why. I just believe that it isn't you in there. That you are with me everywhere I go. Thanks again for the music at the church when I went to CVS yesterday with Emma...same church as my birthday too:) I love you so much and I wish I could see you on Christmas Eve this year. Bye Bye my bestest friend. I will talk to you soon. Love Kim-bar-ley

Hey Rubes, it has been awhile since I have written to you. So many things have been going on but I know you know about all that. Aidan has arrived and just like Julia if we are able to raise them to be a fraction of the person you are we will have been successful as parents and grandparents. I assure you Aidan will know all about his Aunt Beth and though you were not here on Earth to greet him, as Dad said I am sure you were there to send him off on his journey to us. Some say time heals all things but I am not sure if I believe that yet in that I miss you more and feel the pain of your absence every day. I am doing my best to move forward because that is what I know you would want me and the rest of us to do. Things are just not the same without you. My beautiful family is a source of strength for me which helps me carry on each day though I still cannot grasp the concept of you being away from us! You are in our hearts and minds today and always and please continue to guide and watch over us!

Love Matthew, Alma, Julia, Aidan and Thor

My dearest Bethy,
It has taken me awhile to write to you. Words cannot explain how much you are missed. The holidays are coming and you will have to celebrate with all the other angels.
You will be in our hearts everyday I am so glad you are with us.
As your Dad mentioned there are two angels in our family Julia and Aiden who will be joining us this Thanksgiving. I give thanks you are no longer in pain . However the price we paid by losing you still hurts.
I'm sure you are playing basketball with the angels .You are pain free ...that is all that counts. We think about you every day and how lucky we have been to have you for 29 years. We want all the kids to know you and remember you , your smile , your laugh , your personality.
Have fun playing basketball with the angels. We are watching you score your three pointers . You will be in our hearts. this Thanksgiving and Christmas.
I'll talk to you soon. Luv you

Hey Boo,
It's Pops again. Well ,we have another "Cutie" in the Hartman family. Aidan William Hartman...8 lbs, 14oz...21 inches. He's healthy and beautiful.....but you already know that. Though he won't get to spend time with his aunt Beth here on earth, I'm sure you gave him a hug and sent him on his way to Matt and Alma with a smile. God and now you have been busy doing your best to help us go on with life without you. First God sent Julia to us on my birthday, and now I can't help but think you may have had something to do with Aidan being born on Matt's birthday. Thank both of you for that.
It's been a year and 21 days since you had to leave us. I love the fact that your pain and suffering are over and that you are now in your happy place, but I still miss my baby doll deeply. I miss seeing you walk in the door with that beautiful smile....I miss your daily text messages that always started out with HI POPS and ended with LUV YOU.... I miss our chats about everything from B-ball to Lacey to family stuff.... I miss you at family get togethers, especially holidays that you loved so much. I just miss my little girl so much.
Well Boo Boo... It time for Pops to go for now. Be happy doll baby..Be happy..
LUV YOU
POPS

Hey Ruby;
I love my quiet moments while driving and thinking of you. Of course it is always music that seems to connect me with you. I try not to cry but it seems like just yesterday that you left us. No matter how hard we all tried to prepare ourselves I'm sure everyone would agree with me that losing you still seemed to be sudden and shocking... as if unexpected. I guess our minds and hearts couldn't accept that we'd be losing one of the nicest, kindest, most fun loving, funny, pretty, and intelligent people we'd ever know. And, with an incredible smile and unique laugh too. Of all people,you were the most undeserving person on earth made to suffer the way you did. But as always,you took it in stride, never complained, made the best of the situation and taught us all the true meaning of the words "brave" and courageous". I'll always admire your bravery and courage as the most significant display of both that I have ever witnessed in my entire life. Continue to watch over all of us... especially your parents. Send a little extra angel dust to the family this month when your nephew Aidan is born. Who knows maybe we'll get lucky and he'll inherit your signature smile! Wouldn't that be great?! Til next time....

"Our eyes still cry,
Our hearts do too.
Words really can't express
How much we love and miss you!"

All our love
Aunt Mare and Uncle Rick

Hey Beth- Thanks for smiling up at me today when I was reading the paper. Your parents put in the most beautiful tribute which was a perfect description of you!! Loving and missing you so, Glen

Through the tears I just had a flashback of you trying to tan you BUTT before my wedding - when I woke you up on the beach you were laying in a pile of drool- priceless Rubes. The biggest hugs to you as you remind me to enjoy every second!

Hi Fuzz,
I am writing a little bit early because I know it takes a little while for my posting to show up. I can't believe it has been a year already since you left us... Part of me feels like I just saw you and part of me feels like a lifetime has passed. I know your spirit is still here and lives within all of us. I can feel your presence so often. I love when you visit me in my dreams. You look like your old self, with that big bright smile and I am glad my memory keeps that vision of you. I hated seeing what you were going through and all the suffering you had to endure. That is what lets me make peace is that you are in a better place... I think of you everyday so many times. I think of us as kids and crack up at some of the funny things we used to do. The other night you showed up in my dream talking in your KIM voice. I woke up laughing. I find pictures of us that I didn't even know I had. I just always knew you as being THERE. And I know you still are watching over all of those who loved you so dearly. I am so lucky that you were a part of my life and that I knew you and had you for so many years. I cherish all of those times we shared. Well it is time for me to stop writing before I lose it... I love you and miss you soooooooo much.

Til next time,

XOXO
Steph

Dear Beth,
Hey girly. I can't believe that it has been one year since you left us. It still completely boggles my mind.

The other day in my English class we were going over proverbs and anecdotes, and the kids were having a hard time understanding the idea, so I used "absence makes the heart grow fonder" as an example. I talked about losing you last year, and how I thought that with each passing day, I would be able to cope a little bit better. That just never happened; in fact, the converse happened. I miss you more and more with each minute that passes. It never gets easier. When will it?

I too keep getting what I think are little signs from you that you are with me. The other day I saw a black Honda Civic (just like black beauty), and as soon as I saw it, Sarah McLachlan came on the radio. It seriously gave me the chills. During the summer I was on the beach, and I saw this girl who looked exactly like you...it really freaked me out; I had to do a double take. What I wouldn't have given to have it actually be you....

I know I have said this before, but there is truly not one day that goes by where I don't think of you in some way, shape or form. I miss laughing with you; the last time I saw you, I remember making you laugh right before I left you. I treasure that moment because my last memory of you is that smile! You could light up a room like no other....all the angels in heaven are so lucky to be near you. I know that we are all very jealous down here.

I miss you...I love you....Keep looking after all of us! Rest in peace, PG.

Jackie

Hi baby, (“baby baaaaaaaby….”)
I miss you. I miss you so much everyday. As I read all the love everyone leaves you here… I cry and realize that I may not be able to articulate the way I feel as well as others, but I will speak from my heart and tell you that not a second of my day goes by that I don’t think of you, miss you and wish that you were here. It’s been 52 weeks… 52 Saturdays since you left. 523,893 minutes. Almost a full year. Although the calendar year has flown by, the pain is as fresh as the day you left. I can’t believe a year has gone by so fast. I can’t wrap my head around it still… so fast on the calendar, but so slow in my mind and in my heart. The days creep by so slowly without you. You have touched my life so deeply and you own my heart forever.
I try to keep the good memories in the front of my mind, but most days the unnecessary pain and suffering I witnessed you go through brings me to my knees. It’s not fair and you did not deserve any of it. You were so brave and so strong ALWAYS. I wish I had half of your strength and courage. I’m so glad that you are not in pain anymore, Bella… I just miss you so much in my daily life. (I’m selfish like that.)
This past year has been so hard. The few things I’ve done that made me somewhat happy are not the same without you. You should’ve been at the last Yankees game, babe! We had so many awesome memories at that stadium. Remember driving up on a whim only for it to wind up pouring rain while we were tailgating with Gina and Sal?! Priceless. We made our own fun tho! Always did! I know you were at the last game in spirit because Steph and I got some signs, loud and clear! :) I appreciate your signs so much; I just wish I could’ve seen your big, beautiful smile. It was a bittersweet night, but definitely not the same without you. Nothing is…
RB is not the same without you either. We had the most memories there and never quite got that house we wanted, but not without trying to talk our parents into it! Ma and I were talking recently about Mother’s Day a few years back… how much fun we had with you and your Mom and how we talked about doing it again, but it never worked out. That was before the days of cell phone cameras and the instant gratification of documenting everything that we did… that was a fun weekend! Shopping, eating and mini-golf with our Mom’s! We will always remember it fondly and feel so blessed we had the chance to share it with you both.
It seems like you play DJ a lot (with all of us)… so many songs remind me of you. I love it and I know it means you’re around. Your timing is impeccable… just when I need you most, there you are! And speaking of timing…the clock… the signs… keep ‘em coming! I will always need to know you are around me. Always.
I still go through my nightly ritual of writing you, looking through photos and listening to the last voicemail you left me that I will treasure always… these are the things that get me through these long, lonely days… and the hope that I will see you again soon.
I know you are busy up in heaven. You have a lot of people down here who love you, miss you and need you. Please continue to watch over all of us.
You are loved and missed more than words can say, Beth. This is not original, but I miss the little things, I miss the simple things, I miss EVERYTHING about you.
Sleep well, Bella… be happy always and please help guide this lost soul.
“I love you… Jeter just struck out… GOODBYE”
Ti amo mi amore.
Always and Forever,
ME
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Hi Bethy!!! Its oct.3rd, and I'm staring at your picture on my wall!!! Just can't believe it will be a year on monday!!!! It feels like yesteday. The pain syill is there and wont go away. Saw your parents at lori's 30th last weekend. They are truely the most amazing people on earth. We were all doing jello shots!!! It was alot of fun!!! Wish our Bethy was there. Sometimes when I think of where this disease is taking me, I think about being with my Bethy and laughing my butt off... Then I'm not so scared. I miss you so much each ans everyday it hurts. I know its selfish but I want you here with us! This week sucks, I'm sure for eveyone!!! We all love and miss you Bethy. I hope you are watching over all of us ans smiling. I'm not scared because I know I have you watching over me. I LOVE YOU bETHY!!! I will see you on monday...

Love,
Tiffy

Hey Bethy,

I can't believe its almost one year. I miss you so much. I hope you enjoyed the visit from Jane and I on Monday :) I know you were listening, watching and laughing. We had a ton of gossip to catch you up on! Hope you dont mind that we now come to you to confess everything...lol! I had my 30th birthday party last weekend. Your mom, dad, matt, alma, julia and aiden were there! Julia is sooo adorable...she was rockin out on the dance floor!! You have the most amazing family in the world. We all keep in touch which makes it feel like I still have a piece of you with me. It's the only thing that gets me through. I keep thinking about what you were going through this time last year - I hate those memories. I dont understand why such horrible things happen to such wonderful people. It's going to be a rough week so I hope you're ready for lots of visits from me! LOVE YOU!!

Hi Beth, It's Kris. Well can't believe it's almost been a year without you. Today is Jeff and I's anniversary and it's so hard to be happy when all I can do is think about how much I miss you and our friendship. Of course I've been crying like a baby about you but I know your in a better place now. Speaking of, when are you going to help me out in that department? Sort of gave up trying for the time being it was wearing me down emotionally. I felt like I was turning in the Incredible Hulk! I guess when and if its meant to be it will happen. Anyway, Alma seems like she's ready to bring your nephew out into this crazy world can't wait to meet him. I saw some pictures of Julia the other day and she looks exactly like you. She is so beautiful! You were always so proud of her showing me all your videos of her on your phone. This is really hard to even write to you without pouring my eyes out! I just wanted to let you know how much I truly appreciated our friendship and everything we shared together. From all our sleepovers, Ben Franklin, recycling center, forts, kickball, basketball, camps and all our crazy hidden secrets that I won't share. You are truly an amazing person and I will miss and think about you everyday!!
Love You Beth!!xoxo

Hey Rubes,

So, as you have been watching, you are seeing how incredibly insane I am! I feel like the Griswolds half the time. And seriously, I do cherish every second I have with my three monkeys and Jake, and I think of you often in that respect. I for one and struggling with not seeing you and hearing you. There have been about 100 times that i have gone to pick up the phone and thought, oh yeah. Most to share a "remember when" or a "hello, mcfly, can you believe this?!" But all in all, all of my thoughts about you being gone are great ones, because it would be selfish to have you around. I think about last summer over and over and seeing you suffer, and never giving up. It has been almost a year, and I can't believe it. Last night Lily woke up becuase there was thunder and lightening, she came downstairs at like 10:30 and we had a talk, i said, don't you remember what i told you thunder was, and she said it is Ruby bowling, and I said yep, throwing strikes and knocking all of the pins down. (i just typed pinis instead of pins..hee hee). We both smiled and then I let her lay in bed with mommy and daddy and fall asleep. We talk about you all the time,and Emma asks me what died is, and i tell her that you are in heaven, she asked me if I was in heaven, because i went home last week and dind't come home after work...she is so cute. Will is darting up the stairs and is all over the place, I think you and him would be fast friends, he loves to give hugs, and boy is he handsome, I don't even want to get him near girls when he gets older! He is saying ma, ma, ma, ma. And he can't wait for Aiden to get here, now Trav will have two boys in the family to play with. It's about time! And now the Fartman name will live on:) I was thinking the other day, do you remember the time we sat and looked at my brothers yearbook from like 1987 HSHS and we laughed so hard at some of the dorks in there. And the time we were drinking in my room and we both peed our pants because of "Si voy a pederte". I swear these are the things that get me through the day. I totally had a Beth day yesterday, I can tell you were reaching out to me, I heard like 3 songs at work and then I got up to go outside and there was this girl that was sitting in the chair by the door, just the way you used to sit, with her hair down and wet from the shower, same color, same length,when you finally cut it short, and from the side, exactly like you. I love it when you do that to me, It has happened more than once, and the birds, I know they are you too. So many memories that are yours and mine only and I know, no matter what, you and I will be together again. I have lots of work to do down here with this crazy life of mine. But i know you are here with us all of the time. And you are helping me find my fit, it has been tough trying to work it out, but I think I am getting close to finding out the answer.
Oh, and the dude from Joe and Johns, he owns this new place Calabria, awesome. if you were here, we would be eating fries and pizza there together.
Alright dorko, I will talk to you again soon. I still haven't come to see you at your grave, I will though, it is just going to have to be the right time for me. Oh, and Jake and I will be married for 5 years on Friday, can you believe that?! I can still hear you saying "babe", babe". you are a dork! we watch the wedding video all of the time with the girls, it is fun to see you the way that I remember you, singing along to Garth Brooks!
Take Care Missy, I miss you so much it isn't even explainable and i truly can not put it into words. And as we always said getting off the phone or before we left. i love you, i love you too. Love Kimbers

Beth: We went to Sugarland last night- me, Jill and Michele with 5th row seats center stage- it was awesome! When they sang BabyGirl i thought of you - thanks for both Sugarland CD's (ok they were supposed to be for Sam) but of course they are in my car - so I enjoy them too!!! You are missed so!! I can hardly believe how quickly the days have passed. I can hear your laughter in my head and it makes me miss you more. I had all the kids in the car one day last month and we came to visit you. Emma and Lily were screaming RUBY- RUBY- RUBY!!! ANd Emma in her sweet as you kind of way said my mommy cries because she misses Ruby. You are missed and we were all blessed to have shared in your wonderul spirit. Thanks for being you!!!

Have you been watchin' Trav - did you see him pitch? He loves it! and Sam with her size 11 shoes- we'll find a sport for her yet!!! Think crew :-) So much love and hugs Rubes! xoxoxo Glen

Hey Boo,
Its been 357 days since you had to leave us. I can't believe you've been gone for almost a year. Some days it seems like you just left, other days the memories of April thru October consume my thoughts. There is a huge hole in my heart that I can't seem to fill. Mom, Matt Alma, Julia (and soon Aiden) are helping to fill some of that void.

Seeing Uncle Rick, Aunt Mare, Currie and Duke regularly also is a big help. Duke is doing well and will be graduating from ACCC soon. He is looking at going away to college. Currie followed in your footsteps and is teaching in Port. She just gave up her Miss Absecon crown. You would have been extremely proud of her that night when she gave her farewell speech. She thanked everyone and said she dedicated her year as Miss Absecon in memory of "her cousin Beth". Every time I see her I think of you. But that is a good thing.

Matt and Alma are getting settled at Pennsylvania Avenue. We get to see them and Julia alot more now. Julia is my new "baby doll". Again, seeing her also makes me think of you, my first baby doll. I still believe that God sent her to all of us because he knew he was going to call you home to be with him. Thank him for me. OK?
Well Boo Boo, I got go for now. We all love and miss you dearly, especially Pops. Be Happy my love!
LUV YOU
Pops

Hey Boo Boo,
It's Pops. I'm sorry that I haven't written to you in a while. I've been having a tough time sorting through the good and bad memories. I know the good memories far outweigh the bad, but the images of you during those last days are still so, so vivid in my mind. I try to block them out, but sometimes I just can't. Thats when it hurts the most. I often wish that I could go back and trade places with you and take away your misery. I'm so sorry!

The thing that helps me the most to deal with losing you is my belief that such a beautiful, loving spirit like yours is much too significant to cease to exist with a final breath. I know your spirit lives on thru the impact you have had and continue to have on your family, friends and especially your students. I keep having to remind myself that you are now in "your happy place". I know that you are happier now than I could ever imagine...and that too helps me cope. That is truely all that I have ever wanted for you and Matt and Mom. Even though losing you has been devastating, I still thank God every day for blessing mom and I with you and Matt. We are so very, very proud of the two of you, and as I have said before, God owes me nothing. I am still the luckiest father in the world.

Well, your dad is starting to ramble so I'll say good night my love. I look forward to being with you again some day. Say hi to Aiden.........

LUV U
Pops

PS: Matt and Alma are wonderful parents. Julia (Cutie) is a doll and she is already showing an interest in the "round ball".

Hey Bethy,

Just want to let you know that I miss you so much! The kids and I went to visit you the other day - i'm sure you know your little boyfriend gave you a piece of candy but ended up eating it before we left...lol He said Aunt Bethy gave it back to him :) I can't believe its been almost a year since you left us. Sometimes I remember getting the text from you asking us to come over so you could tell us the bad news like it was yesterday and other times if seems like it's been forever since i've gotten to see or talk to you. Keep watching over us but do me a favor...please don't give the candy back to Logan anymore. You know that kid does not need the sugar! I miss and love you Elizabetty Hartmean!!

Hi Beth. I tried to write you a couple of days after your birthday but my entry never went through. Just to fill you in I miss you incredibly! Times are definately tough right now and I really miss our long talks and your understanding of different situations. You were the only one!I know your with all of us but it is so hard to understand why your in heaven right now. My mom was over today and we were talking about you and my dad, how great people are taken from us way too early and how it is completely unfair.
I guess we'll never know. On a brighter note, Alex decided to ditch wrestling and move on B-Ball! How awesome is that? Watch out
Poconos! Hopefully he'll kick major butt like we did. I miss and Love you lots! Love, Kris xoxo

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey (author)
©Copyright 1998-2008



sheri &michael mcqueen (Sicklerville)

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey (author)
©Copyright 1998-2008



sheri &michael mcqueen (Sicklerville)

Bethy,
So the big 3-0!!! Wow, it sucks huh??!! You get used to it!!! Anyway, your wonderful parents invited us to the big birthday bash but unfortunately, we couldn't make it due to this lung thing I'm going thru.... Wish we could have been there to celebrate your special day with everyone!!!! So I am in one of your favorite places, Rehoboth, trying to get better. Every place we go to I think of you. We talk and laugh about the great times we shared down here. Dani and friends came down last week and we celebrated your bday together!!!! Dani also showed me the bricks put in with your name on them. Of course, I took a picture of them and look at it everyday!!! We miss you so much still everyday!!!! I pray and talk to you often, especially when I get discouraged about this disease. Knowing you are with me hleps alot. So thank you for that!!! I love you Bethy!!!

Love,
Tiffy

Elizabeth Anne: July 6, 1978 you were born, a princess in a family of princes. We were at the JC's summer fair with Matt when you decided to make your entrance. I think your Grandmom Hartman was the most excited to welcome this
precious little girl. I was glad I wore pink undies to the hospital-in those days each baby was surprise. You were so small and quiet, with tiny dimples and big, blue eyes. Since your arrival was a little scary, I immediately felt like I always had to protect you from the world. Even though we worked hard at that, it seems "the world" won out in the end. On the bright side, we were so happy and your Grandparents were thrilled with this new little girl. Grandmom Hartman went out and bought you your first pink dress. I found your dress the other day and it's still a cherished memory of you.
I, of course, dreamed of ribbons and bows and party dresses-yeah, well we tried that for a while but a dress was never your favorite thing...! So we gave into sweats and bball and were glad you loved doing your what you loved. In the meantime, you grew into a loving, happy, smiling young woman who took life as it came and loved her friends and family and a good party too. So, we had your party; left you some roses and a day at the beach. I think most of us wander around sort of in a daze, trying to understand not seeing you again in this life and wondering if your content in your new life.
Well, I cry because I miss you and want to hold you still. I find Julia a comfort-she has your barney rubble feet and the same stork bite mark on her neck. She loves to play with her Daddy and trusts him completly when he takes her in the pool. So I guess its true that God giveth and He taketh away. I hope you had a good birthday party with your Grandmom's, Louie, CW, and Aunt Barb.
We love you and miss you terribly but I'll try to remember your right here in my heart.
Loveya.
Mom

My dearest Bethie-poo. Happy Birthday!All your family and friends came to the birthday party/4th of July Barbecue.It was very nice. We all missed you so much. As soon as we went into the back yard I saw the basketball net and you throwing three point shots . Your were in everyone's thoughts . All the food was delicious ....the baked beans reminded me of you. The party was a huge success. Your dad put two banners up on the fence ...one was the Relay for Life and the other was for team Rubytunes. You were with us in spirit
Kim had her hands full with the three babies. We all went to the beach on Thursday . Will is now an official Brigantine Beach fan...he got sand in his diaper.!He had a swim suit with a matching hat and jacket on looked adorable. We stayed all day . Tomorrow is Travis' birthday . Frinny and the Stoll's are going for pizza in Brigantine Uncle Jerry is opening a new casino in Pennsylvania. I just wanted to get you up to date We know you are looking after all of us and smiling . I think about you every day . I would assume you are the best basketball player among all the angels! With all my love

Happy 3-0, Old Lady! I miss you so much and think of you every day. I know you're having a big bash in heaven! Thinking of you always....

Jackie

Hey Fuzz,

I know I definately don't write enough but I do think about you everyday!! I know today is a special day for you. #30!! I hope you are in heaven having a good old time. We wish you were here with us to celebrate but I know you are in all of our hearts watching down on us! I saw pictures your dad sent out from the Relay. Julia looks just like you!!! I know you would be proud that my lazy did my first Relay. I don't think I have been in a tent since the time we pitched one in the Costabiles back yard. You were too chicken to stay overnight with us. I couldn't make the Relay at E.H.T so I did the one out here in San Diego. All of my roommates did it too. It was amazing to see how many people are troubled by this horrible disease. Total Strangers! But everyone came together to support each other. It was really nice and I am so glad you were such a big part of making that happen back home. You should be very proud of your dad because I heard what a wonderful job he did organizing this years event. We know so many people suffering and the only comfort now is that you are not in pain anymore!! I was talking to my mom yesterday about you. She said she was sitting in the window and a girl drove by on her bike. She thought it was you for a second. I often think the same thing when I am back home.... Seeing these kids ride around reminds me of our typical days of fitting 5 people on 1 bike. haha. Going to Joe & Johns, Ben Franklin, DQ, etc. Pizza & Fries everyday! I tell so many of our stories that my friends here think they know everyone in Absecon. haha. All of the funny things we used to do. Anyway I could go on forever about them all but know that all those memories will be with me forever.. I am so glad that you were a part of my life and you are MISSED soooooooo much everyday!

Happy Birfday!!!!

Love ya,
Steph

PS WHAT IS UP WITH OUR YANKEES??

Hello Little Sister and Welcome to the 30 and Over Club! As you well know we had your party last night and judging by the sudden beneficial change in weather I gathered that you approved....It is very hard to celebrate without you but on the other hand we all know you are always with us. We miss you so much and want every moment to have you back...
Happy Birthday Litle Sister...
We Love and Miss you now more than ever..Continue to shine your light upon and guide us as you have.
Your Big Brother

Happy Birthday, Bella!
I hope you’ve enjoyed your birthday week in heaven. I know there are just as many people up there who adore you and will spoil you… as there are down here.
Yesterday I went by your parents’ house for their annual 4th of July BBQ. It was nice to see everyone and visit with your family and friends. Your beauty and smiling face was definitely missing. It was hard being there without you…but I know you were there in spirit with us all.

We all miss you so much.

Beth, you don’t leave my thoughts for a second. Everyday I try to remember what we were doing this time last year or in years past. I wonder what it would be like if you were still here… how happy we’d be… how much fun we’d be having. You truly are my sunshine. My world has been gray since you left.

Today, I celebrate YOU and your amazing life. I am so grateful to God for sending me His greatest gift. I am blessed to have had you in my life and I know this. There’s nothing else in the world I need now… just to be able to see you again. I know we’ll be reunited soon. 9 months ago today when I let you go… it was not ‘goodbye’… it was ‘see you soon baby’.

Thank you for being in my life, thank you for showing me signs you’re around me everyday and thank you for loving me.

Happy Birthday sweet angel.
I miss you.
Riposarsi nella Pace il mia bell'amore.
Ti amo.
Always and Forever,
ME
xoxoxoxo

Happy Birthday Sweet Girl- 30! Oh My- I told your Dad it would have been a long night that's for sure!!! Your parents threw you a great party yesterday- but the laughter wasn't as loud and the sun didn't shine as brightly without you there. You are missed terribly! I came to visit you last week and when I pulled up there was Bob O'Hara sitting in his beach chair talking to his wife it was the sweetest site of unconditional love that I have witnessed recently- that's how everyone loves you too! Even when it started to rain he put away his beach chair and then got back out of his car to cut the grass with a pair of scissors. so i just sat in my car and told you how much we all miss you and asked you to keep an eye over the whole crazy lot of us- Have fun today- eat baked beans and strawberry shortcake and be happy and free- Happy Bird-day Rubes! All my love Glen

Happy Birthday Boo Boo. Well, we had our Fourth of July Barbecue like we always do, and it was real nice. There was lots of food and drink and I think everyone had a good time. There were lots of kids playing in the pool and Grandpop was there sampling all the food and deserts. I think he enjoyed himself too. Dani came and we had a nice visit. I was real glad to see her again. As we all expected, your help with the weather made it a beautiful day.

Emma and Lily sang happy birthday to you. They were really cute. You would really enjoy them now.

BUT.......It just wasn't the same without you there cutting up with Kim, Dani, and Kristen and your friends. Your mom and I really miss you baby doll, and we hope that some day the pain of losing you will lessen. It hurts as much now as it did that Saturday morning , 9 months ago. Every time I start feeling this way, I remind myself of what you went through those last few months. I think how amazing you were and the true inspiration you are to all of us. Mom and I are so very proud and know how blessed we have been as parents to have two amazing children like you and Matt. God owes us nothing.

Happy 30th birthday my angel. I'm sure someone is giving you a huge birthday party in heaven. Your love still surrounds us all. Enjoy your "Happy Place". Be happy my love.

Pops

Hey Beth (Bettle) it's Kris. So sorry it took so long for me to write to you but just as well as everyone else, I've been having a tough time dealing with your passing. I think back to all of our childhood memories good and bad. Remember the Burger King trip and the mishap at the recycling center we tried to hide? Didn't go over so well with big Har but we still thought we were slick as ever. I miss sneaking out of my window (guys my mom is going to think we're sneaking in boys) or our late trips to the Sampsons left over bug beer in the middle of the night gross! Ben Franklin was a must and riding on the pegs of Frankie and C.W. everyday. How bad I miss those days but am so thankful we had them to spend together.

Alex is getting so big and he ran 12 miles at your relay for life the other day. He's so competitive you would be proud, he's just like us. He even ditched a B-day party just to stay at the relay. We often talk about you and sometimes he gets upset because he misses you and remembers the times you spent together playing. He also used the ITunes card your parents found that you were going to give him one Christmas. Now the boys are taking over our Woodland Posse. Michael, Travis and the exception of (EHT) Alex play together. It's so cute. Jeff and I are trying to have a baby. I pray to you and my dad every night to sprinkle your magic touches for a NBA player to grow in my belly. Maybe one day it will happen. I'll keep on trying, your my inspiration to never give up hope.

Well, Beth I miss you so much everyday. You are and will always be my bestest friend in the entire world. Thank god for your Dad and Mom (sorry but I have to claim them as my parents as well) they help me keep my sanity. I don't know what I would do without their help and continuing support and guidance. Go figure how you turned out so wonderful.

Beth,please keep your Angel eyes over everyone and know we LOVE YOU FOREVER! p.s. try to keep out of trouble with my dad and of course my Aunt Barb. Bet your tired of hearing sucky thumb! Love and Miss you! xoxo Your Best Friend Kris

Dear Beth,
I am so sorry that I did not get to know you better. I do remember that conversation we had at the pool and I thought after how lucky your parents were to have a special girl like you. I so enjoyed your outlook on life for a girl your age.
Beth you were an inspiration to me that day and always will be.

BethyBoo:
The Relay for Life was last week and once again all of your kids from school and your family and friends outdid themselves to make it a success. Your Dad didnt rest very well for about 2 months trying to make it perfect because it ment so much to you. Well, we raised over $100,000.00 this year and about 1,000 people were there! I couldn't help remembering the first one where there was only about 20 of us- so you should be so proud of "your kids". There was one little boy named Logan (about 6 yrs old) doing the Survivors lap and I thought about how adorable you would have thought he was. It's absolutely not fair that someone so young would have to deal with this horrid disease.
One of your student's-John-sang "You raise me up" beautifully and dedicated it to you during the Luminaria lap. Travis counted 58 luminarias dedicated to you.
Gina gave us a beautiful CD with a lot of pictures from your college days with your best buds and it makes us cry like babies and laugh outloud. She's so sweet. Philip was the creative force behind it. You were so lucky to have such loving friends.
Kim had great pictures made from past Relays that just took our hearts away.
Your birthday is next week-July 6th. The summer days seem empty without being able to look forward to celebrating one of the most special days in our lives-the day God lent our beautiful, special gift to us. I cry every day because I can't hold you in my arms and make it better. The loss of your cheery self and crazy jokes makes each day duller. I keep wanting the front door to open and for you to be
bebopping in the front door. Your friend Tiff isn't feeling very well right now so please keep her in your prayers. As you may know, Matt and Alma are going to have a little boy in October, so give him a hug before he arrives. Julia is growing like a weed and seems to like to play ball. Maybe someday she'll follow in your footsteps on the bball court. We gave 3 scholarships to your "girls" and hope they aspire to do great things in college. Kim told Emma and Lily that thunder and lightning is you "bowling". Their eyes get wide and they say "There's Ruby". Emma wanted to know when they should pick you up from "bowling". They and Will are the cutest things ever. Lily can be devilish and Emma is the sweetest! They called Daddy on Father's Day and sang "Take me out to the ballgame" to him. Well, that's some of what's going on. We're bbqing on your Birthday just because. I'll make some baked beans!
Well, kiddo-
Most days my heart feels empty-I can only hope no one can hurt you anymore and that you have found joy and peace. You certainly deserved it!
I try not to be so sad because I know you wouldn't want that, but I miss you and love you forever. I'll try to smile!
Love ya-
Mom

Dear Beth. The Relay for Life was a tremendous success !We hope we made you proud. Your Dad worked relentlessly and Uncle Rick helped him
You were with us the whole time Kim made a collage of the last years relay and and put you on an easel under our tent
From what I hear, the relay made $65,000.!!!!more than last year.
I just wanted to say hello and tell you how much we all miss your beautiful smile .I keep you in my soul and think of you everywhere I go

6 months, 6 days, 6 hours, 6 minutes.... not a second goes by that your not thought of and missed in some way by so many.
So much has happened in 6 months, yet the news of your passing is still so fresh and painful and nothing is really as important.
So much that is now lost to you, so many things you had yet to achieve... So unfair......

I have the picture of you and Dani from Houston on my mantle, next to the guitar playing frog you gave me ;) ... every day I see your face and am reminded to enjoy every waking moment.
I hope you have found peace Slim.
Love, Sal

Hey Little Sister,
It has been one year since the second worst day of my life and the beginning of your ever so trying battle. I will never forget the disgust and pain I felt at the fact that you were going to have fight this affliction again but your spirit and determination was clear to all in that you picked up and continued on to Florida to see your beloved Yankees. I was more than sure you were gonna beat this thing, if anyone could have done it it would be you. I thank God for every minute we had with you but wish for millions more! You are an inspiration to us all and we will continue to honor your memory every day of our lives. Rest now Little Sister as we continue the fight on your behalf!
Love and Miss You!
Your Big Brother

Hey Little Sister! I thought that time would make things better but I am beginning to think that that is not the case. Though I know you are with us every moment, I still want so damn much for you to be here to see everything that Julia does in person. I see so much of you in her; her wonderful smile, her constant good nature, and that bit of fire that comes along when she sets her mind on something. I know I haven't written in a while, but we have had more conversations than I can keep track of. I hope you like the angel we brought to you. I know you will watch over us as she does you! Well, the river has begun and I don't want to short out the keyboard so I must go for now. WE LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!
Your Big Brother

Hey BooBoo,
Its been 132 days since you had to leave us, and I miss you now as much as the day you left. I know that you are in your "happy place" and watching over us, but I can't help being selfish and wanting you here with me. I miss the look you always got on your face when you knew you were going to "go out" and win the card game. I miss the hours spent trying to put together the puzzles of the New York City skyline. I miss the sound of the basketball bouncing in the back yard.I miss getting the daily text message you used to send,sometimes just to say hi. I just miss my little girl.
Mom, Aunt Jeannne, Aunt Mary Pat, Glen, Alma, Kim, Currie and Sam all went to NY today to see a show and have dinner. Oh how you loved those crazy trips with the girls. I'm sure they will have fun but I'm also sure it won't be the same for them without you. They'll probably raise their glasses in your honor a few times today. Oh I wish you were with them right now.
But I know you are. In fact, you better keep an eye on them while they are up there to make sure they stay out of trouble.
Your big brother again did you proud on Valentine's day. He gave your mom and I a beautiful card with a very special note written inside of it, much like you always did. Matt misses you very much, so keep an eye on him too and help him get through this. You once said having Matt with you made you feel safe, well now its your turn to watch over him and keep him safe. Matt and Alma are wonderful parents and Julia is growing and becoming more beautiful everyday, both inside and out. She is a true charmer and the nickname you gave her (Cutie) is quite appropriate. I'm sure that Matt already understands the father-daughter relationship we have, because I can see it in his eyes every time he looks at his "little girl".
Your mom also misses you so much. She too misses her baby girl and would give anything to have you back with us. Sometimes I think she is being strong for me and Matt, so watch over her too and let her know that you are OK. Kim's little boy is a handsome young man and Trav finally has a guy to play ball with. He has no idea about the family he was born in to.
Well baby doll, I have to go...
I will talk to you in a while. I love you Boo...Be happy in your happy place
LUV

Hey Purdy-
Today I popped in a college tape of us playing at Dowling my "super senior" year (and no, I don't do it often...it must have been a sign from above) and as soon as I turned it on, there you were checking into the game. It first brought tears to my eyes, but then I laughed thinking of some memorable moments...like when we used to play one-on-one and do sprints before games to get warmed up, the North Dakota trip, when Gina fell at the Still but saved the wings, Gina's softball game on St. Patrick's Day (actually that one is still a blur), buying out the Andre's champagne at the liquor store on SpringFest, "Move over!", and of course, Bad Van.

And you probably wouldn't remember this, but the first time we scrimmaged amongst ourselves in the pre-season during your freshman year, I was guarding you and you lit me up. I never forgot it either, because I told myself I wouldn't let you do it again - although I'm sure you did :)

You are missed and thought of every day by all of us. Please give my mom a hug for me. Miss you.
Kara

Bethy,

Well I'm finally getting the courage up to write on here. I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY! Each day seems to be getting harder. I still can't believe that you're not here. I'm glad that you're not in pain anymore - i'm trying to stop being selfish but I really want you back! Your parents are the greatest people in the world - sooo strong (now I know where you got your strength from) Matt and Alma are also amazing and Julia is beautiful. I know you are watching down on them and please continue to do so. We all need you to look after us! I love and miss you - I think about you every day. Rest in peace sweetie.