Susan Michelle Lockhart

Well this is the last time that I can write in this book. I guess this is the final chapter and time to say goodbye forever and that is sometime that I have be trying really hard not to do.I never thought that I would be sitting here writing in my big sister's guess book,but here I am. You know I was always there for her, everytime she was sick in the hospital.I stayed with her until she got out.I was there when they close the lid on her and I tried to be there when they lowered my hero in the ground,because I never wanted her to be alone. And now today it is all over never again to open this book on line to look at her smile in the picture or too read all the nice things that people have wrote in here.This has been so hard. and now to say goodbye to the one person that I have looked up too my whole life it is impossible to say goodbye.But I have too. So this is to my hero my big sister my mentor that I love with all my heart and Sue will live in my heart forever and I will always think of her.And thank you Sue for always being there for me my whole life.And I love you more today then I ever.

My darling Susie mom carried you for nine months. I kept you warm and safe while I carried you. When you was born god gave me the most wonderful gift a mother could have a beautiful baby girl. As you grow mom loved you more everyday. As you grew into a teenager I did my best to teach wrong from right,baby I know mom done just that because you grew into a great wife,mother and grandmother.Susie you are the greatest person anybody could ever know.I love you so much.But mom's heart is so broken only god knows.God is the only one who can give me the strenght to go on with life.Susie you would come in my bedroom at nights and lay down beside me kiss and hug me and tell mom how much you loved her. Then you would tell me that you hoped that you would go before mom because you wasn't that strong. We my loving Susie mom isn't that strong either. Susie it isn't suppose to be like this, your picture is beside my bed every night mom talks to you and kisses your picture and tell youhow much I love you. Mom hold your picture in my arms and cry myself to sleep.Then I wake up and it all starts over again.Susie mom waits for your good night call every night,but it doesn't come anymore. Sometime I pick up the phone to call you Susie but then I remember that my Susie isn't there anymore.Susie the night gook took you.alls mom wanted to do is go in your bedroom and lay down beside you and hold you in my arms and kiss you and tell you how much mom loves you,but they wouldn't even let me do that.They promised me that I could see you,but they lied to mom. they kept me in another room,they didn't even tell mom that they had taken you away from me.Alls' mom wanted was to tell you goodbye while I was holding you close too me. I didn't care how you looked,I just wanted to hold to hold you,but they wosuldn't let me do that.Susie I think if mom could have done that then I could have handled it better.But now I will never know.Mom can't turn back time or erase my mind.If mom could then you would be here with us. they say life goes on but Susie I don't know about that,how does life go on,with God's help,and with the family who loves you very much. Susie mom know what you would tell mom right now is to be happy because you are happy in Gods home. We will see each other one day so take care and go one with your life.Until that day comes for each one of us we all will meet again in heaven (God's Home )Susie please come and talek to me when I go to sleep so I can see you again. Good night my darling Susie.

Love you forever Mom

Well it is Easter Sunday and we all had dinner together but is wasn't the same without Sue there. And taken pictures wasn't the same either. We didn't have her there with us with her big beautiful smile and her humor to make really laugh. I watched her family and they don't seem to be the same,I know that they miss her so much that it killing them. I watched her grandbabies run around and have fun, And I was thinking to myself that they will never know the love that their meme has for them. They can only be told stories of her.And they will be great stories too. I don't know why Sue was taken from us or will I understand. I have heard that some people know what happened to her, but if we don't know then how do they. I know that Sue was sick and didn't feel good but with nothing that would have taken her from us so soon.
We was suppose to grow old together and we was cheated out of that and that's not fair, but then again I found out that life is fair and can change on you before you know it. They say here today gone tomorrow, but I have found out that it goes here today gone today. I knew that I love Sue with all my heart and soul and that I cry for her just about every day and think of her all day everyday. I always was there for her like she was for me. Every time she went in the hospital I was there until she came home, I was there when they close the lid on her and I tried to be there when they but my hero in the ground, but they wouldn't let me do that one. I know she would have done that for me. She wouldn't have left me. I never thought i would be setting here writing in my sister's guess book ,but here I am doing that. And it is so hard to do, it's not suppose to end like this. We were to grow old together, but this is our final chapter together. Once this book is closed that is it. I don't want to say goodbye forever. Not know not ever. I love you with all my heart and soul.

I know this is the last time I will be able to write anything here for my beautiful sister, who I miss more then words can say. I feel the same hurt heartache and sadness as the day I found that you had past away, or in my heart the day Sue was take from me. or the day that I realized that I would never be able to hear her laugh or to tell me something or just to call to say I love you. This isn't easy to have someone so great and important to you just taken from you with no warning. It isn't fair. I know that someone I love is gone and there is nothing I can do about it and that is a hard one. Sue is the one who makes things better and fixes everything to make you feel better and holds you in her arms until you feel better about what is bothering you . And now she can't fix this pain that everyone is feeling. I know that it isn't her felt and she didn't want to leave her family but she had no choose. I keep hearing our last talk She had me laughing and I told her how much I loved her and that was the last time I got to hear her voice and to hug her.I'm not ready for goodbye I don't think I ever will be. I just wish I could be half the woman she is, with her strengh and humor.I know that I cry ever time I think of you and how I can't be with you anymore. They say I will see you again one day, but how do I know that I will. We was cheated out of alot now we can't grow old together or watch our grandbabies grow up to make fun of us, like mom's grandkids do her. I can tell by setting here typing this that I have alot of issues with you leaving and me not being able to say goodbye too. I know that I was there with you everytime you got sick or went into the hospital and I was there to watch them close the lid on you and I tried to be there when they put you in the ground ,but they wouldn't let me I wanted to be there until the very end, well here we go the very end is here and I don't want it to end yet I'm not ready. But I guess I don't have a choose in this I have to say it I love you with all my broken heart

Sue as I sit here and think of all the times I shared with you I regret that I don't have any that were more recent - Most are from my childhood (Pizza Hut & Kings Dominion). One thing I know and will never forget alot of people have already mentioned is how sweet, loving, kind and generous of a person you were! Your big brown eyes and beautiful smile could brighten any day! I wish I would have spent more time with you as I got older. You always had the ability to cheer someone up when they were down! I want you to know that you are Loved and Missed So Much! I know you're an Angel watching over our family! Theres not a day that goes by that I don't think of you! I know I'll see you again one day. Until then I want you to know that I Love and Miss You Dearly!!

MY BIG SISTER LEFT ME.AND THE WORDS CAN NOT COME OUT SO EASY.I DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE REASON WHY SHE HAD TO GO.SHE WAS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.IT IS HARD TO SET HERE AND WRITE A LETTER TO MY BIG SISTER THAT WAS MY HERO. SHE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEEED HER. I WAS BLESSED TO HAVE HER AS MY BIG SISTER. I MISS HER SO MUCH KNOW ONE WILL EVER KNOW THE PAIN IN MY HERAT.I CAN NEVER CALL HER AGAIN TO HEAR HER VOICE OR SEE HER BIG BROWN EYES AND SMILE. TO TELL ME THAT EVERTHING IS ALRIGHT AND HOW MUCH SHE LOVED ME. I KNOW HOW MUCH SHE LOVED ME BUT I DON'T KNOW IF SHE KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVE HER AND ADMIRED HER.SHE WAS MY SISTER AND I CAN'T SAY GOODBYE TO HER IT'S TO HARD. I NEED HER TO BE WITH TO GO THOUGH LIFE WITH ME TO HOLD MY HAND.MY LIFE WILL CHANGE FOR EVER.
I'M SO HURT ,ANGRY,SAD,LOST AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE HAD TO GO SO SOON.WE STILL HAD SO MUCH TO DO TOGETHER.
I HAVE MY FAIMLY WHO I LOVE SO MUCH I LOVE THEM MORE TODAY THEN YESTERDAY AND EVEN MORE TOMMORROW. I'M VERY LUCK TO HAVE THEM. GOD BLESSED WITH MY FAMILY. WITH ALL MY LOVE YOUR LITTLE SISTER.(STINKER)

Theres nothing that I can say that hasnt already been said. Everyone knew Aunt Sue was a big part of my life. She never tried to change me if anything she showed me that it doesnt matter what you look like of who you are it matters what you think of yourself. As long as your happy you can respect yourself and everyone will still love you just the same. I love you Aunt Sue. I'll be by to see you just like every saturday. Im gratful for the things you taught me and i will never forget who i am because of you. i think about you everyday, I think about coming over and laying in bed with you, then reality sets in and i dont understand why your gone. Nobody does. but I can promise you that you wont ever be forgotten and there wont ever be a day when nobody thinks about you. :) i love you

Once again the family circle has been broken and our hearts have been ripped apart. I feel as though I need to be strong because you were just my “Sister-n-Law” but at the same time you were so much more. I didn’t wait till the last minute to sign this book for you because once again I was late for something, I'm just struggling to find the words to honor you as you deserve to be. You were wonderful, special and loving and nothing meant more to you than your family and I hope you know you meant everything to your family. You made me feel welcome into the family; you gave me a chance before anyone else would that is one of the many things that made you the special person that you were, you always had a warm open heart. For someone to say that they knew you was a blessing even if they didn’t realize it. You were a beautiful person on the inside and out. I keep telling myself your no longer in pain and you’re finally getting to meet your dad, I know how important that was to you, but at the same time selfishly I’d rather have you here. Please Sue watch over our family, they need you now more than ever. I love you

It has been 4 weeks today that my sister was taken from us. It hasn't been an easy one to deal with and I don't see it getting any easier on anyone. I know that people say it gets easier and you have to deal with it, well it is really hard to deal with when you love someone so much. We was left with the biggest hole in our hearts and soul. Sue was my big sister my hero. She was always there no matter what. Her love was strong and true. I will never hear her voice again to say I love u with all my heart and I can't never tell her that again and that is a tough one to live with. Sue was a wonderful woman, and I don't need to set here and tell anyone that, because everyone knows this. I don't know why she was taken from me or will I understand. I just know that family is everything and now a big part is gone and I can't get it back. They say she is with her loved ones that went before her, how do I know that I Don't KNOW THAT! I know that she should be here with us where she is loved and wanted & needed. No one should ever know the pain of what my family has been though for the last few months. And I hope that that don't.

My heart goes out to the Loss of Sue, I just found out this past week. Sue you were so helpful with me when I first had my son 25 years ago, and I looked up to you so much and you always made me smile I can still see you smiling now.. I will miss you, To the family, I haven't seen anybody in such a long time,but you will always be my family and I love each and everyone of you no matter if I don't get to see you'll all the time.. Bonnie, My Buddie, I know that you are empty, but I want you'll to know I'm here for any of you that needs shoulder.. Barbara, I Love you and may God wrap angels around you and give you and your family peace. Love John and Missie Jenkins

There isn't enough words to begin to say how big of an impression you have left in our of our lives. You had the biggest most kindest heart and would do anything for anyone. You could light up a room with your smile, bright eyes and personality. I like to consider myself a lot like you and thats something I'm very proud of. You will forever be in my heart and thoughts and I'll always be sure to spend at least 15 mins on my mascara to make my eyelashes long, thick and beautiful just like yours. With love forever and always

We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.

Each morning when we awake,
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still,

There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.

If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.

We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.

Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again. god bless all

Happy Birthday Aunt Sue! I'll be up to see you soon as i get off work! I LOVE YOU<3

Sue words could never describe how special you were and are to me and what a big part you were, are and always will be in my life.We weren't just cousins. We were sisters,best friends co- conspirters and much more. We were two peas in a pod and as we grew older we grew apart but never in oue hearts!!! I now live with regrets, should have done, should have changed or done diffrently. I can't change that. I know you knew how special you were to me and I have so many good memories of us and I have secrets that I've held for years and will continue to I have letters,picturesand a voice mail. I just don't have you. I'm just missing you and would give anything to have you here. But I know you're in a better place and you're with Mom looking over all of us crazy people. We know you two have your hands full. I want to wish you a Happy Birthday and let you know there's not a passing hour that I don't think about you. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH! I know we'll see each other again so until then you and Mom help keep us safe.

Happy Birthday, I love you :)

Happy Birthday my sweet angel! I will come visit you today. I wish you were here so I could call you this morning, you know the usual :) Wake you up and tell you how old you are getting. I still feel like a piece of me is missing and everything reminds me of you. I love you!

Happy Birthday I love you

My aunt Sue was a beautiful woman, inside & out. I just want everyone to remember her from her big heart, down to her beautiful big eyelashes she spent hours a day on. My aunt Sue did everything I asked her to do, with no questions asked. I know she loved me, she loved me more than i ever knew. I'm going to leave this world knowing that, & i just wish that i had that opportunity to let her know that i feel the same way, I love her more than words could ever say. There is absolutely nothing greater than the love of your family, of our family. No amount of words that are spoken, or hugs that are given will be able to ease the pain my family feels. We can only dream that the angels that came & took my aunt are watching over us, making sure that this tragedy doesn't strike us yet again. It's times like this i thank God to have those people in my life, but why does he have to take them away in such a manner? I love you Aunt Sue, from the bottom of my heart, i love you. & i'm going to miss you until the day i see you again<3

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you can find comfort in knowing how much Sue loved you all and how much you all loved her. She was beautiful, funny, smart, and above all a wonderful person. I feel so lucky that Sue was a part of my life. I love you guys so much and if there is ever anything I can do for any of you, just let me know. Love, Tammy

Barbara Iam so sorry to hear about your lost i know what you are going threw, I lost my son Chuck so i know the pain and the lost you are feeling. I remberm Susie when she was just a baby I though she look like a little doll baby she was so pretty. Again I am so sorry. Love Eddie & Barbara Brinklow. Clemmons Nc

Our thoughts are with you at this difficult time, we were very saddened to hear about Dear Sue. We will miss her.
Michelle Crump and Joe Capone

Barbara and Charley, we are sorry to hear about the untimely death of your daughter Susan. We did not know Susan, but the condolances says a lot about her. We hope the loving memory of her gives you peace until you meet again.
Caring Neighbors

Our deepest sympathy.
Sincerely,

Barbara, may you find comfort in the many words written in this book by friends and family. I do not know why, but I do know that Susan is in a much better place where there is no pain and suffering. May God give you and your family peace and know that you are loved and missed.

There is not much I can say about my sister Sue that people who loves her don’t already know. However, I do not want to type it on her, I do not want to tell someone. I want to talk to Sue, I want to remind her how great she was, how much she meant to me, how much I love her and remind her always how grateful I am to have such a wonderful sister who cared so much. Sue taught me love and see in the beauty in all things, no matter what size, shape or color. She was a very strong and determined woman who embraced life and defined happiness. I miss Sue so much I feel lost, as if I am walking around in circles. I never imagined I would lose a sister, it feels like a piece of me has been taken away. I just pray I could have one more day with her that is all I ask. With me forever I will keep her! I love you tremendously Sue!
Love, Melody

with the deepest condolences, and sympathy to the family and all who knew and loved her. she will be sadly missed and always loved.

My thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of grief. May your memories bring you comfort.

BARBARA,
I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS
MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN THIS TIME OF SORROW.
OUR PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU.
LOVE, AUNT SADIE

Sue had a smile that would light up any room. Your family will be in my prayers.

Our thoughts are with you and your family.

Polly and Glen Brown

David and Linda York

I did not know her personaly, but I was a good friend of her father, Virgil in high school. I remember very vividly the day he was killed. May God be with you at this sad time.

I am so sorry and shocked about Susan's passing. I have such great memories of her. She was so sweet and caring. She will be missed by all who knew her. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

May the love of friends and family carry you through your grief.

In My Pocket

I have memories in my pocket.
They rattle among the change.

My memories of you are treasures I carry wherever I go.

They are stored in bits and pieces, parts of a beautiful whole
They give me comfort when I think I am alone.

Yes, I have memories in my pocket, like so much other stuff I keep there.

But of all the treasures I have, it’s the memories of you that are the most precious.

My deepest sympathies go out to this wonderful family for whom I have know for many years. May God be with you and help you through this very difficult time.

May God bless you and your family in this time of sorrow.

Mel and family~ Your in our thoughts and prayers during this difficult time!
Josh & Julie Grove

Dear Cousin Barbara,
Yet another Angel has been taken home to be with our Lord and Savior. My heart aches for you and the loss of your precious daughter Susan. I pray the Lord and his Angels will comfort you during your sorrow. I share your sadness and tears.
Love from your cousin, Phyllis.

May God bless you and your family in this time of sorrow.

Gods blessings with you and yours....our hearts mourn for you.
Love Robert & Barbara Athey

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey (author)
©Copyright 1998-2009

May God bless you and your family in this time of sorrow.

Our deepest sympathy goes out to the family at this most difficult time .

May all of your happy memories shine through during this difficult time. Love to all of you!

Alan and Family.
We are so sorry for your loss.
May god be with you.

Our hearts and prayers are with you , Sue will be missed by all.