Zach J. Pickart

Hi Zach! It's been a long time since I stopped in here. I miss you! So much to say, but I'm not to sure how to say any of it. I love you lots and miss you more! Keep an eye out on us, especially Ma, Pa, and Sammy!

Hey hun, I can't believe how much you not being here still hurts, I thought all of this was supposed to get easier. There are so many things that have happened over the years that I wish I could have shared with you. I'm finally back in school, I'll have my associates in 3 weeks, not celebrating until I get the Bachelors though. I wish you were still here, there are so many unanswered questions. I love you hun!

Happy Birthday Zach : ) Miss you.

Zach,
9 years its hard to believe uve been gone for that long, it seems like every year it gets harder and harder, this year was the worst with losing Mark in that accident out on the ice, ive cried more in the last week and a half than i have in a couple years it just brought back so many bad memories but i kno how much fun u guys are having up there now....
another thing that been hard for me lately is hearing so many stories about u with ur friends dont get me wrong i love hearing stories about u but whats the hardest for me is Im ur sister we should have tons of memories 2gether I remember a couple here n there but there nothing like all the others, it sucks for me that we were family and we fought more than having fun 2gether u were taken b4 we got to start getting along! bute enough of the sad stuff id tell u how much things have changed in the last how many years but u already kno! I just ask u to keep an eye on everyone n no more bad stuff for awhile cuz i cant handle it! I love you brother n miss u more n more everyday!

Hey Zach,
I miss you!! It's been such a long time since I did this. Tomorrow 8 years, seems like yesterday. The weather is a bad reminder, except this year there was a blizzard. Thanks for the dream last week, only the 2nd time since you have been gone that i remembered my dream & of course they involved you & again it felt so real. Why is that? But I'm running with it & hopefully I won't forget again to trust my instincts. Justin turned 21 today & has a baby on the way. Everything that has gone on over the years makes me wonder what your life would be like now if you were still here with us.
I love you & miss you!
Mom

Hey Zach

Dont know why but was thinking of you today. Reading all these messages to you brings back good times. Time that will never be forgotten. I was asked to do a poker run on my BMX bike today and i thought of you. Well we all love you and miss you more then we can show.

Scott Monfils

Hey Zach-
Tomorrow will be 7 years since you were taken from us and I still think about you daily. I figured things would get easier, but it still hurts just as much as the first, second, third..years. Ben and I are still together as you know and are doing wonderful. I just want to thank you for all the wonderful memories you have left me with, as those are all I have of us. You will never be forgotten and will always be loved and missed tremendously.Keep watching out for everybody and keep those who Sturgeon spear safe out there. LOVE YOU and MISS YOU! XOXO

Miss you brother.... Your birthdays on Sunday and its also mothers day so im kinda worrying about mom, and im not really gonna get to spend much time with the family that day cuz i gotta work.... But youll be surprised theres alot goin on now Im looking for a house to buy its been hard ive seen a few i liked and of course somehow it doesnt work so help me find something or do something for me... help me win the lottery or something then i wont have these troubles anymore haha i wish... I still wonder everyday how things would be if u were still here i know life would probably be so different... i miss u big brother... im hoping sunday ill have time to stop out by u!!!

Love you!! Samantha

Zach,
Its been a long time.... Having another death brings back lots of memories, its been hard but say hi to grandpa for me and everyone else, its been a tough few days will you be with everyone and help them through this again especially grandma and dad and aunt lisa.
But onto better things Peanut had a puppy, its pretty exciting seeing him grow and everything... I was shocked mom and dad mainly dad let us breed Peanut ever since i was little you know I always wanted to have puppies....
I love you and miss you!!
Samantha

Hey big brother!
Guess what your little sister is now 18!!!! So mom took me out today and guess what I didnt come home completely drunk and puking unlike someone I know... I was thinkin about you all day and how things would of been different if u were here with us to celebrate... you prob would of made sure I came home puking... haha
But I am beat so Im gonna head to bed!
I love you Zach!! I miss you too!
Love your lil sister!

Samantha

Zach
Guess whos graduating today!! ME Whoop Whoop! Im so excited I am finally done with school! And I know you are so proud of me cuz its the only thing that you didnt accomplish which bring me to my next point I am dedicating my graduation to you, you were getting so close and everything! You wnt believe it dad is takin me out after the ceremony, and moms stuck bartending. You will be in my thoughts while I am up there tonite! I love you big brother!

Samantha

Well yeah i know i missed ur birthday im really sorry... i hope u had a great one darling.. miss you tons....<3 HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY!

Hey big brother!
Happy Birthday!
So yesterday I was sitting in school and all of a sudden I was like holy crap Zach would be turning 24. I couldnt believe it.
So this past weekend was prom. I had so much fun, one of the bests parts about it was having a limo. I went with a group of friends and my boyfriend. It was definitely a nite to remember.
But I gotta get goin I have to finish gettin ready for school!
Oh and guess what Im gonna be graduated in about a month, I cant wait I am so sick of school!

Well Ill talk to you later
Love you
Samantha

Hey Zach i know it has been awhile since i wrote u. there is some info i want to fill u in on, scott has a little boy named Maxwell Arlene Monfils he was born July 8th 2006. I still have no kids :) and scott is also going to to Iraq as I am writing this. he will be there til March of 2008. we are praying and hoping he comes home just fine to his son and family. well i thought i would write u since it has been awhile and i have been thinking about u more then ever.!!!!!!!!.........love u ZACH!

Zach,
It has been a long cold day, kind of fitting considering what happened not to long ago. Everyone wishes you were here instead of just in our thoughts and dreams.
Its about -12 right now outside. I miss you and love you, Mom Samantha and myself think about you every day. Sam is doing great in school and is very independent, I know that your sis is making you smile. Talk to you later......

Hello. I am sorry it has been so long since I have wrote to you. This last year has been kind of crazy, I am not trying to make excuses or anything but it's been rough. I miss you. Tomorrow it will be 4 years since you were taken from us and honestly every year that goes by gets harder and harder to deal with. Today I sat and thought about all of our fun times together. I wish that my kids would have been able to meet you, they would have loved you. I am going to make sure that when they are old enough they will know about you and how great of a person you were. By the way I had a baby boy and in memory of you we named him Cooper Zacheriah. I suppose I can go and stop talking off your ears! Take care up there and try to tell the big guy to make it warm down here, this cold stuff is crazy! Love you bunches.

Happy Thanksgiving Zach!! I miss you!! It seemed weird me mom and dad have thanksgiving dinner at home, and just about the whole time I was thinking about you, and how things would be if you were still here!! Today we spent a lot of the day together at home the three of us which doesnt happen much either mom and dad are at the bar or Im gone doing other stuff.
A lot of things are changing around here!! We added onto the house, we got a hot tub! Dads gonna "retire" from Quad soon so he can spend more time at the bar.
I wish you were still here, I hate it people ask me all the time, are you an only child, and I like never know what to say, sometimes I just really hate to bring u up so i just say yes. Then there are those times when i tell people what happened and then they just wanna know more and talk about it and usually it is so hard.
At this time of year it seems the hardest! Mom isnt really herself, and it is just so hard! We used to love this time of year and now its dreaded.
But I better get going Ill talk to you later!
Love you and Miss you!

Samantha

It was very hard going to grandma's funeral last Saturday, but u know that. Please say hi for us, and give her a kiss. I miss u and love u

Hey Zach,

How has it been going up there? I hope you are doing well! Is it as cold up there as it is down here? I miss you lots, I wanted to stop over by you the other day but things just keep coming up. If its not one thing than its another! A lot has happened in the last few months for me! I am getting married and can you believe I am having another baby! I wish that you were here so that they could meet you and get to know you like I did. I know they would love you just as much as I do. I can't believe 3 years has gone by. I sit and think about you all the time, wondering if you are up there watching over us making sure that we are being good. I wish you were here so bad, I miss you so much. I do have to get going so I will talk to you soon! Send you lots of love up there! Miss you babe.

Zach

Hey Big Brother. Its been 3 years holy crap hard to believe. We miss you so much. Today was so hard I didnt think Id was gonna take it as hard as I did I thought it was gonna be like any other day but it wasnt i thought bout you all day when i saw the snow coming down I got tears in my eyes... wow 3 years later and its still a really hard day. I was gonna come out by u 2day but I didnt have enough time I had to give Jake and Ashley rides to work which really sucked Hopefully I can make it out there 2morrow. But I better get going Ill talk to you later

Love and Miss you

Samantha

Hi,

It has been a very long time since I last wrote to you but it is time. This year has been the hardest to deal with you not being here, and it almost hurts as much as went you were taken from us. People always ask how you are doing,I do not even know how you feel, they are right. There is just a empty feeling in your chest that does not go away, it's like when you hold your breath for a long time and then try to breath but nothing happens, it feels like your chest is not even there, just a empty feeling. The hardest thing is that we were not able to say good bye and tell you we love you. I love you and miss so much!!

Hey hun, I miss you. I have been sittiing here looking at your pics thinking how much I wish you were here. The snow is here! Are you tearing it up up there? Hope so. Remember that time when you took me out on the four wheeler and it was my first time ever being on one and I was so scared! We got stuck it the weeds and yeah we almost tipped it over. Oh the good times!!!! I hope you have a good Christmas and the same to your family! Wish you were here, talk to you soon. Love you bunches! Oh yeah and Zach make sure you are a good boy when it comes to New Years!!!!!!

Hey Zach-

Happy Halloween!! I know I'm a day off, but hey who's keeping track of the days anyways. November has come quick, the days are getting shorter, and the nights are getting longer and Winter is right around the corner! Everything is going really good lately, which is always a good thing. I'll be leaving to go to Texas November 16th, Ben's birthday, he'll be hunting anyways so it's good timing. I'm going to visit Kyra, she's stationed there in the Air Force. I'm really excited, a little nervous to be flying all by myself, but it'll be worth it. I'll be there a week and return the day before Thanksgiving. I miss you and hope you're helping the guys out with some deer this year;) Love you Lots.

WOW! It's been forever since I have been in here! You must be pretty busy up there! When do you go fishing, hunting, or4-wheelin'? So much has changed! I'm in the u.p. now! I think you would have a blast up here! I miss you lots!

Sam.....congrats on your license! Great choice on the car! I have a 2001!!! They are lots of fun! Be careful and dont forget....Never drive faster then your gurdian angel(zach) can fly!!! love ya

Hello! I haven't written in a long time I have been very busy. Jayden and i moved. We have a three bedroom house with a two car garage, two bathrooms and a full basement. It is nice to be out on my own! Jayden is one and a half and is he a big boy! I talk to him about you alot. It is funny because when i say Zacharia he will walk around the house for ever going ria ria. I love him and i love being a mom. We are working on potty time with him and he is catching on really quick for being so young. I miss you alot! I wish that you were here so Jayden could meet you. we know you are watching over us and keeping us safe and he knows who you are. I guess i should go i am supposed to be cleaning but took a minute out to write you. Talk to you later.

Alyssa Schneider

Hey hun, Long time no talk. I miss you. Man it has been so long since the last time that I was able to write, I am really sorry life has been rough for me and a lot has changed. Haylie is getting so big and she is getting into so much. She will be one soon. I can't wait until she is way older so I can tell her all the crazy stories about us! LOL Well I better get going I hear her crying right now. You are doing a good job of watching over us, just make sure you keep those boys in line. I just want to let you know that I think about you all the time and you are in my heart. I luv yah and miss you more than words will ever be able to explain. Talk to you soon.

Hey Zach

Whats been going on?? Not to much here. Guess what big brother your little sis turned 16 on Monday... exciting huh I got myself a car already too 2000 Pontiac Sunfire...me and mom love it dad not so much he was hopin for me to get a piece of crap car at first but u know me and mom we got him to change his mind, what sucks tho is I dont get my license til the 30th but ohh well what can I do about that. Weve been pretty busy around here mom and dad are always at the bar, theyre even havin me clean it which sucks but they pay me for it so I cant really complain. School starts up again in a couple weeks Im gonna be a Junior. But I better get going Ill write in here again soon!! Miss you, Love you, Think about you all the time!!

~Samantha~

Hey Hunny ~

I know I haven't written in a while, you know I miss you. You also know eveything I've been though lately, I'm finally starting to get back on my feet. I'm going back to school in the spring, for what I don't know yet and I'll be in my own place by February, I know it seems far away but it's finally in sight. I can't believe how long it's been, I still close my eyes and see you smiling back at me all the time. Everyone always said it gets easier, I have to disagree. It doesn't get easier, you just go numb, you stop caring about anything. Well i'm trying to start caring again, but that makes everything harder. I love you and miss you baby, I hope I'm not letting you down, I'd give anything to see you again, to feel you, to hug you. Well, I'm babbeling, I guess I'll see you in my dreams, until then, please, keep us all safe, and we all miss and love you very much. Your little girl...

April

Hey Zach. You knew I would write to you some time. Well, here I am! We have a lot of memories together don't we? Hanging out with Elliott, Scott, John, Billy, and the rest of the gang. I'd give you such a hard time sometimes didn't I? It was all in good fun though. You'd give me a hard time right back though. It's so weird that you are gone. I remember when I heard about it. I was laying in bed and saw it on the news. I cried Zach. I did. I couldn't believe it. I still can't believe it. I hope you are doing alright. We all miss you. I think about you a lot. Wondering how you are. Thinking about the past. Take care Zach. I miss you.

Hi Zach-

I haven't written to you in awhile, but that doesn't mean I have forgotten about you, I think about you a lot, at least once a day. I just had a free moment and thought I would drop you a line. I have been really busy with work, I got a new job and it's a pretty good one. I'm really satisfied with where I am at right now. The demos are coming up pretty quick, they're right around the corner. I don't think Ben is going to be in them this year or Lance. They have retired, at least for now. It will still be a good time though I'm sure. I'm planning on moving out of where I live now, with Rob, pretty soon. I'll be living all by myself, which will be nice. My three little kittens will keep me plenty of company. I hope you're keeping busy, and watching out for all of us. I miss you!!



-Holly

Hey Zach,

Im Hannah!You didnt really know me but i really wanted to sign your guest book!!!I just had a friend from Fond Du Lac that collided with a car and died:~( I wish that it never happend!Maybe you guys will meet in Heaven.His name is Jerrad Gregor.Were all going through a rough time with him sorry about your accident ill write again some other time!

Hey Zach Well its Memorial Day been thinking about you alot today Josh & Derek marched in the parade today for scouts it made me very sad and thought about you alot. I didn't get a chance to wish you Happy Birthday it's man how the weeks seem to just fly by. People use to tell me that alot now I know what they mean. Your cousins keep me busy with soccer and after that is baseball. School is almost out for them but before you know it they will be right back in. One of Adam's classmates brother was killed our in the army. I we know how they are feeling right now and it brings back alot of memories, it doesn't matter how it happens it's always hard on everyone. I didn't really know him very well but I know his parents I feel very bad for them. Well just thought I'd let you know that we miss you and your always in our thoughts. ALWAYS MISSED NEVER FORGOTTEN Love Aunt Ruth

Hey Zach! its been 2 years since u been it really doesnt seem that long but it has been! we all miss u so much u have changed all of us so much!! Over the past few months as u probally know my grandpa has passed away and so has my dog!! Now they are up there with u in heaven! u and my grandpa will probally be sturgeon spearing this month along with everyone else! lol well i hope ur doing great!! hugs & kisses!!



love ya always

kaycee

Hey Zach' It's been awhile Thought about you alot. I was having computer problems wanted to wish you a Merry Xmas,but I couldn't get online. We missed you at xmas. This year seemed very hard on your Mom, she didn't say anything but she didn't have to. Things will never be the same with you gone, and it never will it will always just be different. It's hard to believe it's 2 years it seems like yesterday. I'd like to write more often but I'm always busy. Take Care Love Always Aunt Ruth Alway Missed Never Forgotten!

Hey Zach,

Its been two years since u left us!!! Everyone misses you so much! I cant believe its been two years!! But besides that guess what I got my temps yesterday.... yeah I know scary. But I better get going Ill talk to you later!! Love you and Miss you

Samantha

Hey! I thought that i would write to you since Jayden is finally sleeping. Times are getting rough around here. I know that you see all of this so i don't have to go in to great detail for everyone to read.

Jayden's first christmas was great. He got so much. I don't even know what to do with it all. My mom made me put some of it in the basement because he got so much. He is a special little guy. He is my life and has helped me so much. I don't know where i would be with out him. I don't even like to think where i would be with out him. He is big trouble i tell you. He is crawling and will be walking soon no doubt. He likes to pull him self up on everything then of course thinks that he can stand my him self. We have had a few bumps and bruises but i look at it that he is a boy and is going to get them.

I called Holly the other day but her cell phone must of got shut off. I miss talking to her. Having Jayden really changed alot. No one calls or wants to do anything anymore. I mean i change diapers and watch Barney all day how fun could that be for any other 19 year old that wouldn't have to do it anyways. I do like to talk to her though. It reminds me that i am still only 19 and not 35. Trust me having Jayden i definately do not feel like i am 19. I mean it is 11:00 Jayden is sleeping on the couch and i am ready to crash myself. Usually i am in bed around the time that he goes to bed between 9 and 10. He tires me right out i tell you. I love him though and wouldn't trade him for anything.

I suppose i am going to go to bed i hope all is good for you. I hope you had a good christmas and new year.

Alyssa

Hey Zach

Merry Christmas!!! I thought about you alot the past couple days wishing you were here for Christmas. Thanx for visiting me in my dreams last night it was nice seeing you its been awhile but you shouldnt of been tryin to take my stuff outta my room! Anywayz the new year is rite around the corner so have fun partying up there and Ill be thinking about you! But I better get going talk to you later Luv ya

Merry Christmas

Samantha

Zach~

I haven't written in awhile but today seemed like a good day. I have been real busy lately with my grandpa dying and the funeral and all the stuff. Its been really rough lately. I still miss you and Love you a lot. Now you and my grandpa and grandma will have to have some good parties up there make sure you drink a lot! lol. well i better get going I was off school all week so i have lots to catch up on. Ill write more another day! Love and miss you

Krysten

Zach-

It has been a VERY long time since I've wrote to you. I have been busy working at Speedway. It's a fun job, i like it. I start school in January at Moraine Park Tech. Im going for Surgical Technology, no more Mortuary Science, maybe later in my life, but for now Surg Tech is good enough for me. Ben and I are still together, things seem to be pretty good lately, he's the big 21 now, and living it up. Anyways, I just thought i should drop you a line and let you know what's happening in my life. I miss you much, thinking about you a lot during the holidays.

Love,

Holly

Hey Zach babe! its been a while but now we moved to waupun and im goin to high school here its pretty awesome i hope your doin great i miss ya so much! me n my sister have been gettin along great now she has he licence now i know thats crazee lol we just hung out with sammy the other day we went to taco bell! lol well yeah yeah see ya in later dayz love ya hun and miss ya!



~ Kaycee Danyelle Van Egtern~

Zach~

Well I wrote in here a few days ago and obviously it didn't work. Jayden is going to be 6 months old! I can't believe that he is growing o so fast. He is starting baby food, can sit up on his own and he trys to crawl. He likes to say "mama" amd "dada." I can't believe that i am a mom. I know that you know all of this because you are watching over us keeping us safe. This might sound dumb but i tell Jayden about you. I know he doesn't understand but when he does he will know that you were a very special person. I think that it is cool that he was born on your birthday. Maybe it means something! He is a very special little boy. He has changed me so much! I love him. He is my everything.

It has been a while and boy do i miss you. I have been thinking about you alot. I remember the time that you picked me up on Thanksgiving day or the day after and we went out to the park and just talked. Times were rough for me then and you seemed to always help me through what ever it was. You were a great person and that i miss. I miss talking to you late at night when you just got off of work. You helped me through alot. I wish you were here to meet Jayden. I know that you know him, and he knows alot about you even though he has no idea. He will definatly know who you were.

I better go to bed. I know i will have a little boy that is bright eyed and bushy tailed come 7:30 tomarrow morning and let me tell you he doesn't care if i am tired. He will be ready to play!

Alyssa

Hi Zach,

It's been a long time I know but I just now got my computer back. Anywho I thought that I would say hi and that I miss you so much. I was walking through my room the other day and I saw your picture hanging up and it made me sit and think of all our good times. Oh by the way I had the baby. Her name is Haylie Rae, she is so cute. I am sure you know that cause you are looking down and watching over us. I don't get to talk to the guys down at the garage that much anymore so if you would please let them know that I am still here and kicking. Well the little one is calling so I will talk with you soon. Love yah.

Zach~

Well it has been a long time. Alot has happened that i know you know about. My son Jayden Zachariah was born on May 10, 2004. Kind of weird that you two have the same birthday. It means something. Maybe he is going to be as caring and as good of a person as you were. I hope that you are watching down on us and making sure everything turns out for the best. Jayden is very special to me and it means alot to me that he was born on your birthday. I had the same due date that your mom had with you, sam told me, so that makes it all even more special. I have tried to get a hold of Holly and Ben but Holly is never home. And i don't know ben's number. Well i hope everything is good for you. I love you and miss you.

Alyssa

Hey Zach, its been along time even though I didn't send you a message on your Birthday you were on my mind alot that day. It's still different not having you around every time I stop in by your Mom I still wait for that door to open and you on the other side. Last weekend I got to see Brian's little guy at your house he is so cute not that you don't know that. It's nice that your friends still stop in by your Mom & Dad it helps them alot knowing they still care not to many kids have friends like that. Your cousins have kept me very busy, from soccer to baseball to football, and now homework and it still sucks, not only for then but for me too. Trying to keep up with all of it is a full time job. Next weekend your Mom and a bunch of us are going to cranfest in warren. It should be alot of fun we usually do have a good time. Send us some nice weather.Well that's all for now I miss you just as much as ever, and think of you all the time, you are always missed but never forgotten. So fly with Angels until next time Love Aunt Ruth

Hey Zach

How have things been going for you? I havent written in here in a long time!! Todays my birthday the big 15! Its been about a year and a half since u left us!! Its hard to believe its only a year and a half it seems like its been forever! I miss you so much you were the best brother a girl could have even though u know u were always so mean to me but still I loved you so much and I cant believe that your no longer here its just not right. Just wait in a year I'll be driving that a pretty scary thought even for me!!! Well I better get going I love you

Your favorite little sister,

Samantha

Hey zach!its been a while since ive wrote in here im sorry i haven't been on the net much been too busy! but yeah country usa just passed on wed. we had tornado warnings so we left country usa early it was awesome! now sawdust days is here and then the fair so how fun hehe yeah yeah ben asked holly to marry him so lets see how far that goes hehe! well im gonna get goin miss ya bunches bud ! love ya!

Happy Belated Birthday Zach!! I would have done this earlier, BUT my computer got struck by lightening, nice huh? Well we got a new one so I can't complain. This weekend Ben asked me to go up to Black River Falls, it should be fun, im looking forward to it. Im sure your birthday was fun, im sure you were doing the same thing up there as you would have been if you were with us. I miss you and love you lots!! Love always, Holly.

Zach,

guess what alyssa had her baby! She named it Jayden Zacheria! He was born monday nite at 10:54. But i bet u were there with her. I just had a feeling she was gonna have him on you birthday when i found out she was due in may i was just thinking that baby will probably be born on Zachs birthday and how right was I. Monday mom lisa and i came to visit you we were probably for atleast a good hour. and mom thought she lost her lighter and she was blaiming you for stealing it but she found it. Did you get all 21 ballons we send up to you? Well I better get going Love you

Samantha

Hi Zach,

Mommy misses you!!!Happy 21st Birthday!!Been thinking about when you were born.I should have known that first night that was just the beginning of many nights to come of you keeping me up all night!I have also been thinking about when we took you out for your 18th birthday and wish we could do it again today!!I miss you so much.Come visit me in my dreams!!I went to the cemetary yesterday and it's kind of funny that the grass isn't growing evenly over your plot and I thought about all of the times you came home muddy and your truck was always full of mud because of that it's fitting for there to be mud patches.

Well there is going to be another Jayden Zacheria entering this world.Weird how such an uncommon name seems to be popular with your friends.

Happy Birthday baby!!Love you and miss you!!

Mommy

Zach,

hey happy early birthday this year you would have been 21! I still think about you alot, I think about what things would be like if you were still here. I wish I had you here during these years just to talk to you about things going on my life and helping me with things. well I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday! Love you and Miss you



Samantha

Hey Zach~ Thought I forgot about you, didn't ya?! I could never do that. You are unforgetable!! I just wanted to say "HAPPY BIRTHDAY". I know it's early, but I'm sure you don't mind that. Also, on mothers day, will you do me a favor and give your mom a giant hug for me. I understand your not replaceable, but we all love her like our own mom's, even if we don't see her lots, I think about her, sam, and tom alot. I hope they are doing ok. Happy Birthday Zach!!! I love you and miss you. Did You see my car? Look a little familier? If you know who is helping me out up there, will you tell them I say thank you, and if its you (smile) THANK YOU SO MUCH. You know what I mean. Love you,

Jess

p.s. I havent seen you in a while, still soaring with the eagles?

Hey Zach~

I just wanted to write you and say Hi and I miss you a lot. Its really not the same at parties at my house without you. I wish we could just take all this back. Last nite I layed in my bed and cried because I just wanted to see you again. I miss goin to your house and seein you there. But I love to hang out with Samantha! Well I better get back to class before I get in trouble I will write more this weekend when im at your house! I LOVE AND MISS YOU TONZ!

Love Krysten

Hi Zach,

Mommy misses you!!People have told me that with time the hurt,sadness,and the empty spot in my heart will get easier.I know it hasn't been a really long time but it is not getting any easier.At times I still expect you to come barreling through the door or I would want to pick up the phone and call you just to say I miss you.

I love you and miss you!!

Love Mommy

Zach,

Hey there sugar. I just wanted to let you know that I miss you so much. I can't wait until the day that I can see you again.

Love ya

Hi Zach,

Like I told you, it's time 2 get the lines wet.



xxxxooooo



dad

hey bro,

Happy Easter!!! I hope your Easter was good ours was pretty good we spent most of the day with the Boris's. I still am missing you like crazy, still hoping youll come home but knowing that will never happen. I just wanna let you know that I am so happy I had you as a brother even though you werent here long enough for us to accually start to get along!! Well i better go I love you!

Samantha

Hi Zach,

Mommy misses you!!Happy early easter.Another winter has passed,the snow is gone,the ice has melted and the signs of spring are here and the heart ache and the lonelyness of missing you are still here.It's weird see the changes in your friends,the maturity in some,others figuring out which way they want to take their lives to go and others finding out that there are other things to do besides party or actually when to be responsible and when to party,and yet others haven't reached any of those.It makes me happy and sad to see these changes,I will never get to see these changes happen for you,but knowing that some of your friends are able to move forward from the time we lost you makes me happy.I am hoping that those who are still stuck don't take the wrong path until they find their way.You are spoken of often and thought about even more,sometimes with tears but often with smiles and laughter.I miss you so much and I know alot of it is because we won't see your dreams and hopes of what could have been for you.

I love you Zach!!!

Mommy

Hi Zach~

It has been awhile since i have wrote to you. All along though i have been thinking about you everyday.Ben and I are still together, we are doing better now then ever, and I am very happy.I just wanted to let you know that I miss you so much. I would do anything just have you come back, but i know that isn't possible. Things have changed since you've left from here,everything. People's spirits, attitudes,the way lives are lived. You brought out something very special in everyone you talked to and knew. That's why you are so special. You are forever remembered in everyone's hearts. I Miss Ya Tons!

Love,

Holly

Hey Zach!

I haven't wrote you in a very long time. I miss you a lot! I have been thinkin about you an awful lot lately. It has been really hard going to your house and not seeing you there. You are missed by everyone! I love being at your house your parents are like another family to me! Me and Sam have gotten a lot closer and I really like having Sam there to talk to about everything! Sam has a boyfriend now! Hes kind of wierd his name is Jake but they call him Roach lol wierd nickname huh!? Well i just thought i would write you to tell u that i love you and i miss you a lot! I will write soon! Keep an eye on everyone! Keep Brian's baby healthy!!

Love Ya tonz! You'll always be my big brother!! Love Krysten

Hi Zach,

Mommy misses you!!I had alot of emotions to deal with last month.Couldn't do this until now.I never thought any thing could hurt so much emotionally.I miss so many things about you,but most of all when we would talk.The closeness that I felt with you.I cry every day from missing you and I came to the conclusion that I will cry every day for the rest of my life.I love you Zach and I have a whole in my heart that will never close until I am with you again.

I love you!!

Mommy

Zach,

Very interesting dream, it's time for you to visit mom. Do not get me wrong I was so HAPPY to see and talk to you, like I told you call your aunt to.



LOVE YOU,

Dad

Hi Zach,

I've been thinking about you a lot lately, and I miss you more than words can express. Thanks for the fun dreams you have given me over the past few months, they made me think a lot when I woke up, but, I know you granted my wish about the night mares I was having. Thanks!!

I have been taking to your friends a lot more lately and its starting to feel better. I always thought that it was wrong. For me to get close to your friends like we do now.. when I did not understand them before, is kind of confusing, but now it seems through the past dreams you have shown me, it's all right. It seems that you want me to continue to have a son........through your friends(instead of 1, I now have about 12) and help them through this too. I kind of understand but I'm not sure its right. I am starting to understand why Mom does what she does on Wednesday nights, it took a long time for me to figure it out myself, but it is all so very positive, it means so much to ever one to just set aside 1 day to get together and just say hi or whatever.... ZACH...........right now I can't stop crying......... I will have another birthday in a few weeks 39, I had to see my son on a table and you were only 19, it's not right. I know you don't want me to cry about you anymore... but it still hurts soo much. Everyone misses you, so very much. Mom asked me a question a few weeks ago if I still felt your presents in the house, I lied...I do feel you with us, but in a very positive way, I'm not sure if its just wishful thinking or what,..or that I want to know your're still with us or just a small sign you might give for some reasurance things will be ok, but every time during days this past year on nights and I would hear the house make those sounds, it was like, you might be getting out of bed or walking around the house, to me it was like your're telling me I'm still here with you, your're reminder you are still with us and everything will be OK. Thanks. I love and miss you soo very much. Mom and Samantha miss you soo very to.

Talk to you later,

Dad

HEY ZACH Thanks for the snow now all I have to do is find someone to go snowmobiling with and I'll have it made. As you probably know Derek had his first crash with his KITTY KAT that takes care of that hood. Was by mom Wednesday night Ben was pretty quit I'm sure alot had to with you not being here with us, Know matter what you will always be his best friend, and being with you last year is something he'll never forget. Take Care Love You, Always Missed Never Forgotten. Aunt Ruth

Hey Zach,

It has been a year since you have gone. A lot has changed. I am pregnant and expecting in August they tell me twins. We are very excited and just like I promised if it is a boy you already know the name. I miss you lots and think about you everyday.

Love Always and Forever,

Me

Hey Zach well it's a year that you left us, it seems like yesterday. People say that it will get better but I know it never will, it will just be different with you gone. there will always be that empty spot in our hearts. I cann't begin to say all the times we wished you were still here with us. Watch out for your friends its just as hard on them as us because friends are like your other family. And I'm sure they too think every day the if only we would have... But you know we can if only our selfs every day but it won't change anything. No body's perfect. I wanted to call your mom today but I didn't know what to say.Well don't forget to give your mom, dad, and Sam a big hug tonight because I'm sure this is one of them really sad nights for them. Watch out for everyone we all need that extra strenght today. Take Care Love Aunt Ruth Always Missed Never Forgotten!FLY WITH THE ANGELS THEY HAVE ONE OF THE BEST!!

Hey Zach,

Its been a year still missing you like crazy!!! Tonight were gonna go out to the point and put a cross up or something like that!! This has been one tough year for everyone! I can still remember that day as if it was yesterday! Lately I have been thinking about you a lot more!! It is so hard to believe its been a year since you left us! Well im gonna get going! Love you and miss you!!!

Samantha

Hey Zach----

Time has come....the year is here and we are STILL MISSING YOU! Erin and I are gonna come and visit you tonight when I get done with work...cuz I was there the same time the cops,ambuliance,firetrucks, and etc. and I want you to know that i will be thinking about you 24/7 and i am sure scott is thinking about you too and for xmas i gave him a pic of you in a nice frame and you were in your FATMAN costume.....well i am gonna go and i will be out there to talk to you tongiht so i hope you come down and visit me......I LOVE YOU ZACH AND MISS U VERY VERY MUCH.....LOVE MISA

I didn't know Zach like others did, but my sister Mindy did. And I know that it hurts her to know what he is not with us in person today. I also know the guys and I am really good friends with Sam. I love Sam and her family like if they were mine. And I wish them the best. I pray for Zach, his family and friends everynight. And I know that he is watching down on all of us. It is coming close to a year since he left us and I just pray for everyone to stay strong. Cuz I am sure that is what he would want. We love and miss you, Zach. Watch over all of us.

*Ashley*

Hey Zachers. It's been awhile. A lot of things have changed in just a little amount of time, but many things will always be the same. Like when I look at all the boys and I see you and wonder how they're going to make it every new day. Wednesday nights are the nights they go to your parents and eat. Everytime I see their faces when they get back, something is different. There's a lot of pain still, but then there's a new feeling I see in their eyes. Everyone is praying for you everyday. The warrior has been out for you pretty much since ben and the rest of the crew got in back in action. It's something that really connects them to you. I hope you'll always be riding with them, keeping them safe. Summer will soon come and go like everyone before, but it will be another summer where I wont see you, or have to dodge from you and dave trying to smack my butt. Dave sometimes holds down the fort for you, reminding me of you with the smallest gesture. It's sometimes just what I need to put a smile on my face. Nearly a year ago the world lost a beautiful, wonderful man Zach, you. And forever your memory will live on. Luv ya and Miss ya like crazy.

I am sorry about your loss.

Hey Zach~ I just wanted to say hi. I miss you tons. It still seems like yesterday. I think about you lots. There is this guy that comes into work and he looks just like you, but he has super long hair. I told him that he looks like you, and he smiled. It was like looking into your eyes again. I thought I was dreaming. well, I suppose I should let you go back to having fun doing whatever it is you do up there. Keep your eye on everybody here. Give Sam, your mom and dad a big hug for me and let them know they are still in my prayers. Love ya lots. Wishing you were here~ Jess

P.S. Still soaring with the eagles?

Hey Zach its new years eve!! I wanted 2 wish u a happy new years eve and i wanted 2 tell you that ill be thinking about you 2night cuz ill be at mindys house with Ashley and all of our friends I just hope u have fun 2night and please dont be making 2 much trouble!!! I luv ya Happy new year!!

Samantha

Hi Zach,

I did watch some x-mas story but only when Lance and Mikie we at our house. Then Lance was telling us about the time in 6th grade, he stuck his tongue to the pole for $10. That was really funny!!!! Well I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas. I will talk to you soon.

Love,

Dad

Hey Zach Its Aunt Ruthwe missed you yesterday and riverside for xmas there was that empty spot where you should have been. No one said a word but you were missed by everyone there. I know it was very hard on your MOM, DAD & Samantha to be their without you. And I'm sure today is even harder. Miss you more than I can say I hope you and your uncle have a nice christmas together.I hope you liked the wreath that Donnie made for you. Merry Christmas, don't forget to give your Mom & Dad a hug today I'm sure today is one of the many sad days for them. Love you and miss you always missed never forgotten. Love Aunt Ruth. P.S. Send lots of snow down, so we can get them snowmobiles out. Love ya

Hi Zach,

Mommy misses you!!! Merry Christmas little man!It has been hard for me this past week. Didn't want anything to do with this time of year,but had to because of your sister.I had her going and I'm sure you got big kick out of it.You scared the crap out of her yesterday morning when she was putting her makeup on.Your Dad and I laughed.It's getting to be that time of year that your friends will be out on the lake,please watch over them.My heart sinks when they talk about being out there,but I cann't tell them not to talk about that because it's their thing to do during the winter.Ben has your wheeler running,it doesn't seem as loud as it did when you were here.

See you in my dreams. I love and miss you!!!

Mom

Hey Zach

Its Christmas Eve I have been missing you alot lately! Today went better than what I thought it would have gone! We came and visited you at the cemetary and we saw a couple deer there! This morning while I was getting ready to go out to Riverside I was in the bathroom putting on my make-up and all of a sudden my CD started playing it scared the crap out of me I figured it had to be you just wanting to say hi and too scare the crap outta me! Tomorrow me and mom are gonna be staying home watching movies while dad sleeps for work! I just hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I love and miss you!!

Your lil sis,

Samantha

Zach~

I have been thinking about you alot this past week or so. I miss you so much. Hey do you think you could do us all a favor. We need some of that snow and ice to come cause we can't go four wheeling with out it! Tell the man up there to give us some ok. Anywho I hope you have a good Christmas and a happy New Year!

Love you and miss you

Hi Zach,

Mommy misses you!!!Well we are getting closer to Xmas.This is very hard for me.I don't have the tree up yet,I keep thinking about you always helping me bring everything down and putting everthing away when I was done decorating.Then I think about when were little and you would help me put the ornaments on the tree.You would hang your ornaments in the front of the tree in a bunch and after you were sleeping I would space them out.I thought about telling me a few years ago that you were to old for St. Nick and I told you I would never be to old for St. Nick and he would leave you something here every year until the day I died. Amazing how simple words come back to haunt you.Watch over your friends they still need guidence with everything that has been happening.They still miss you so much.

Mommy loves you!!!

Zach,

I miss you. I was just thinking about you last night. I miss our talks and our fun times. I wish you were still here with us. I know you are here in our hearts and our thoughts but I wish that you were still here. Anywho I should update you on a few things huh! Ummm I think that Bryan and I are getting back together. I still thank you to this day for getting us together back then. And I thank you for doing it again! I know you have some part in it. You are always in on everything that has been happening (all the good anyway). Well I must get going now but I will write again soon. Missing you and loving you.

hey hun~

hey babe, i'm missin' u alot right now. i love u babe. i was home for thanksgiving and everytime i entered fdl all i thought of was the time when i was home and u kept rubbing ur aunt for luck during deer hunting. i miss you so much hun and i love you, i can't wait to c u again. i'm doing everything i can to deal with everything, it may not be the best way in the world but i dunno what else to do. i'm so sorry if i'm disappointing you babe. i love you and miss you babe. i hope ur happy up there watching over us, and i hope everyone is making u proud. i love you and miss you.

Your Little Girl

April

Hi Dork,

The past couple of weeks have been very hard for everyone who knew you. I still can not explain to you how not having you with us has created such a empty feeling and the hurt that goes with it at times is over whelming. It is so hard on Mom, when you left us part of Mom left with you and that part will never come back. It hurts knowing that there is nothing I can to make her feel better, the best I can do is just be there when she needs someone to be with her. I try not to show to much emotions around Mom because I do not want to upset her because I'm feeling sad. And then there are other times when I get that tightness around my heart feeling because I'm sad, and maybe that is your way to tell us that you are still with us and your're giving us a huge hug to help us get through the sad period during the day. X-mas is right around the corner and somehow is am going to watch Christmas Story, I will cry a lot but I will also laugh because we like to watch that movie together every year. I've been told that in time it will get easier to deal with this situation, but they are all wrong, today it hurts just as much as the day you were taken from us. But what I have learned is that you have to cry and it is ok to feel really sad at times, because we all miss you so much. But once your're done crying for that given moment, you still have to continue on because many other people are counting on us for support. (Work,school,home,church,ect...)I love and miss you.



Dad

Hi Zach,

Mommy misses you!!!It's the day after Thanksgiving and I cried this morning when I got up at 4:30 to go shopping.Thought about our trade we did last year during deer hunting.We stayed home yesterday by ourselves, which was good for us.Thought about you all day and I could cry when I needed to. Knowing your dad and Samantha would understand without a word being said.We decided that this year we needed to change what we do for holidays.Haven't decided what we will do for Christmas, but it will be what the 3 of us need to do for our hearts and soul to get thru it.The boys have been coming for supper on wednesday nights,which you know, because I don't feel you in the kitchen any more when I'm cooking and I miss your presence.I still need to feel you around me so when your not goofing off with the others come back.

I love you!!!

Mommy

Hey Zach I just wanted 2 wish you a Happy Thanksgiving!

Samantha

Hey Zach... Happy early Thanksgiving! Hope things are good for you. Miss ya lots!

Hi Zach-

I have been thinking about you a lot lately and wanted to say hi. I am leaving today for deer hunting and will never forget when you rubbed me last year for good luck. This year I know you will be right by my side with me, so you can get the big buck this year.

Zach I also would hope that you can send some comfort to the families of the 2 boys that are missing on Lake Winnebago. You know all the pain and sorrow they are going thru, so if you could just send them some of your sunshine and smiles to help them thru their hard times maybe that would help them. Zach we miss you very much and know that you are always with us!!

Now let's go get the big buck together!!

I love you-

Aunt Lisa

ZACH~Hey man missed you out in the park. i miss seeing the ranger crusin around all full of mud. sorry i dint do this sooner. kinda just dint know what to say. i gusse i still dont really know what to say. this is really hard man. Miss u alot. Your never forgoten. peace out. and hey stay off the grass in the park. R.I.P.

Hey Zach it's been awhile Deer Hunting will be starting soon. I thought about you at Halloween from last year the pictures I seen of you and Ben. Uncle John had by pass surgery your mom and I went to see him. It's really weird sometimes when I stop in to visit your mom I sometimes feel like allof a sudden you will walk in and say hey what's up,but it doesn't happen. It really sucks not having you hear. I think about you all the time lately,aand I just cannot stop the tears. I feel like I did in Feb. I guess it's true what they say about you don't realize how much some people mean to you until there not around. I guess we all found that out the had way again. Hope you and your uncle Harvey have fun hunting up there LOVE YOU MISS YOU ALL THE TIME ALWAYS MISSED NEVER FORGOTTEN. LOVE AUNT RUTH

Hey Hun~

I'm just writing to say I Love You and Miss You. I can't wait until I can be in your arms again. I Love You Zach.

Your Little Girl

April

Hey Hun~

How's it goin'? I've been thinking about you and a lot of stuff lately, more than usual. I guess I'm just writing to say I Love You and miss You. I guess I'll never understand why everything happened the way it did. Everyone always tells me that it all happened for a reason, so when am I gonna understand the reason for all of this. I Love You and Miss You Zach, please show me a sign of why everything has happened and that I'm not disappointing you. It tears me up inside everyday trying to understand WHY? and WHAT IF? I Love You and Miss You.

You're Little Girl

April

Hey Zach

Its homecoming weekend and I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I talked to Scotts sis and she said she talked to you on a ouijia board and when she told me that i started cry and she said that you said to tell us u love us. Well Zach I love you too. I hope your gonna be at the dance with me 2nite! Luv ya

Samantha

Zach,

Just needed to tell you that I miss you and I think of you all the time. I know you know that though. Take care of Pat, Matt, Lauren and Emily for me.

Hey Zach

Mom and dad finally got the internet on the computer upstair for me! I miss you so much I miss being able to talk to you and tell you things that I sometimes didnt want to tell anyone else. I miss walkin by the computer and see you playing that dumb army game. I miss fighting over the tv remote with you and I miss waking you up for work or school every morning! Well I better go. Love you!

Samantha

Hey Hun~

How's it goin' up there in heaven?? Causin' lots of trouble?? hehe, I miss you hun, there's not a day that goes by without you in my mind. I'll still stay up late sometimes thinking I have to wait for your phone call, or I would drive through the park looking for your truck, I hate being back at school. I just keep reminding myself that this is what you would have wanted me to do, or at least that's what everyone tells me. It's amazing how everythings changed with everone. Chris finally got his bike, of course you already know that, I'm back at school, as much as I fought that, and I brought Dave up to see you before I left. Everyone really misses you hun, I can't wait til I can see you again, I hope your happy and looking down on us with a big smile on your face, i really miss that smile. I'll talk to you later hun, please look over everyone and keep us all safe, a lot of people need that lately, Luv You Lots Hun.

ur little girl

April

hay cement head this is the first time i have come to legacy to see you. not liking it very much down here wish i could take your place but i cant, its becoming really hard latly i just turned 21 yesterday and when i woke up yesterday i found my self dialing your cell phone number. zach i miss you so very much. it really hasnt sunk in with the guys yet but i think it is finally starting to seep through on me. it sucks why couldnt i have been there why couldnt god cause a miracle instead of causing the miracle no one ever wants to happen. well budy all i have to say right now is that i really miss you and having very hard time dealing so help me out down here tonight ill have a beer for you legally now. ya i ordered 2 beers last night and let one sit and the guy asked why and i told him it was for you so i hope it tasted good cya

trish

Hey,

Today was my first day of High School. It's hard getting use to a new school and that school is so big, but I didnt get lost and I tought I would have maybe I didnt get lost because u helped me find my way around.Thanx for the help 2day will u help me the rest of the year like u did 2day.

Samantha

Hi,

I know that I have'nt written U in a while but, for the past several weeks its beem so hard. Do U know that Mars is the closest it will be in the next 60,000 years. Well of coarse U do but it would be so much better to share it with U like old times. I need your help... I have been having bad dreams for the past several weeks, make them go away please. I saw U the day day God took U from us and that was more than I can deal with. Please make the bad dreams go away. I cry every day and it does not take the hurt away, I need your're help to understand why, U can not be with us today...............

Hey Zach

I went up north with Krysten and the guys and it was so much fun Holly and Ashley are so cool to hang out with and they are so nice. We had so much fun and my new nick-name is Crash because I rolled the 4-wheeler. They all said that I was like another you and to hear that from them it was weird. Linda was up there and she was so drunk it was funny she was doing beer bongs with David. OK well I just wanted to share with you how much fun I had with all of them.

Your loving sister Samantha

Hey Zach~ How's It going up there? I think about you lots. Exspecially when my nephew Zach is around. When he really starts talking I'm gonna get him to say "smashy smashy"!! I miss you lots. Sometimes I think its getting easier, but I have come to the conclusion that it will never get easier. Henry and I finally got jobs. Maybe you had a little something to do with that, so thanks if you did. Watch over everybody, Keep your mommy, daddy, and Sammy safe, and all the guys too. Still soaring with the eagles? Love ya man, see you on the other side, lil' Scheer