Adam Matthew Baruch

Thinking about you !

Adam, I think of you all the time. i still have your picture up on my wall and it will stay there forever. You were an amazing friend. i miss our long talks, thank you for coming into my life. you made a huge difference. Many, Many, Memories. Im happy youre at peace, but damn, time here has never been the same since you left. I wish i could pick up the phone and have one last phone call. The things i never got the chance to say, still haunt me. in due time i suppose. until we meet again. And Kerra, if you ever have the time, i would love to see the photos or video that you have. it would be wonderful to see him again the way he used to be. it would mean the world to not only myself, but all of who still visit this page from time to time. I hope you and your family are doing well. Thank you for keeping this site up for him. its nice to read the messages to him over all this time. I know hes proud that we keep him in all of our thoughts and prayers still.

Hey Brother! Man, I miss you so much. There is so much damn time we could have been spending together over this time you have been gone. Wish I could hang out with you one more time.

Thinking of you and missing you.

Love, Jason

I will always love you and miss you like none other

Hey Lil brother,
It is coming up on us that it's been almost 10 years since you left us all. And things haven't been the same since that day that I found out you had passed away. We all think about you, and we miss you like none other. I found myself picking up my phone to call you, so that one I could hear your voice and voice of reason. But I was wanting to share with you on some of the things that have changed in my life,basically for us to catch up. I was able to reconnect with your sister Jenn and Kerra as well. Kerra and I talk a lot through text and Snapchat mainly. I miss you every single day, there isn't a time of day that you are never far from my thoughts. I actually found all of the pictures from our graduation from Two Rivers, and I realized that almost every picture it was you and I. Like I said I love and miss you like crazy every single day since that dreadful day.
It's not the same without you, none of us are the same either. The day that you left was a day that we all lost a part of who we are. I have two girls that I am help raising like they are my own, and myself and my little sister tell them about who you are and how amazing uncle Adam was.
I will always love you lil brother and I will always miss you like none other. Until we meet again lil brother
Xoxo

Hey bubba,
Its one of those days that I could really use one of your amazing hugs. I miss you like crazy. Its so not the same without you. We all are feeling that way.I also wanted to let you know that I was able to get in touch with your sister Kerra. We text and snap chat and I have her on facebook too. I wanted to stop by and say I miss you and I love you...

Hey bubba
Stopping by to say hi and that I miss you like crazy. I also wanted to tell you that I am getting married on October 8th. And that I am thinking and wishing you were there with me to celebrate. But I know deep down that you are always with me and everyone else. I love and miss you lil brother

Dear bubba(Adam)
It has been almost nine years since you left us all. So much has changed since you been gone. I find myself wanting to pick up the phone and call you, just to be able to hear your voice and help me be the voice of reason in a lot of my decisions. Because you know me I am the type to react first then later on ask questions. Things haven't been the same since the day you went away. I feel like I lost a piece of myself when you passed away. Everyday I feel like I have a hole in my heart, like I lost a piece of myself. I miss you so much, and I wish I could hear your voice at least one more time.
I am not sure if you were a where of it or not but having you and your sister growing up was amazing. I remember a lot of our adventures together, our talks, and so much more. I remember the long talks we would have and when it came to us graduating when we did, you were one of my rocks long with my parents and my lil sister and few others.
Since the day that you left, things have changed, I look at the world differently now. And I want you to know that I miss you a lot and so does your sisters and brother too. And I know the rest of our friends miss you as much as I do.
We love you always and forever.

Hey bubba,
First of all I wanted to say happy birthday my friend. I miss you like none other. It has been close to 9 years since you went away. I think about you all the time, along with the good times and our rough times grow in g up. There has been so much that has go e on. That I really really wish you were here to help. I thought today about when we first met in 6th grade for home room and language arts. We started out as friends and you was and are now and ever my brother. I love you lil brother

Hey my friend,
Its been almost 9 years since the last time I got to see you let alone hear your voice. There hasn't been one day, week, month, or year that I don't ever think of you. And I think about the things we talked about. The way you were there for me and helped me when ever you could. I really wish that you were here now, just to hear your voice. It would make things so much more bariable. We all miss and love you so much. We have never been the same since that day. I just wish that I was around more, just maybe things would be different now. I love you and miss you like crazy. And some day we will see each other again.
Love always

Dear Friends and Family,

I want to say ... well I am not sure how to even word this.. so hang in there with me....

I put together this memorial for Adam for several reasons....
1. Because I love him dearly. The friends of Adam's that read this, you barely know me or maybe you dont know me at all. For Family and my friends who visit this site, you know.. you know all of it.
2. Because even 9 years later I still cant believe hes gone. I still look in crowds for him, I still miss him terribly.
3. I thought this was a way to keep his memory alive. Sometimes I feel like it was all a bad dream and he was never here and I just imagined him or something. Thank goodness for pictures. Those are my bad days.

I thought no one ever looked at this site. I thought people forgot him. I am so overwhelmed with relief and happiness to know people have not forgotten him. His death was senseless and tragic. I had a lot of rude awakenings around it and the more I dug the uglier it got. But I couldn't give up. I had to understand what happened. In my journey to make peace, try to understand the reality of what was going on that I lost a lot of friends, and burned a lot of bridges.

I have hours and hours of home videos of Adam. I have not watched them since he passed away. Adam and I use to watch them all the time. If this is something you feel you would like to see, please let me know. I will get them posted on here in the near future.

Thank you for loving my baby brother and thank you for not forgetting about him. I will post more pictures of him now that I know that I am not the only one who visits his site.

With Love,
Kerra Baruch

Love and miss you like none other brother. See again

Hey bubba,
I can't believe its been almost 9 years since you went away from all of us. I think about you everyday and I wish I could hear your voice again. I have found myself picking up my phone to call you just to hear your voice, or ask for advise on something. There isn't a time of day that you haven't been on my mind. I love you bro,

I visit this page often yet never quite know the words to say. You always knew what to say when we were kids, i miss you terribly and even though it's been almost 9 years since you left, the loss still rings as if it happened yesterday. And just like you never forgot me, i will never forget you.

Hey baby bro. Just sitting here and thinking of you. I moved out to California and would love to talk to you and tell you all about it. Have you come and visit. I think about you often. You are loved and missed.

-Jason

Happy birthday Adam! Miss your face! Wish I could hear your laugh again!

Hey bro. Miss ya. It seems just like we kick it a few days ago. Wow how the time have flew by. See ya on the flip side . Your good friend Aaron Yates .

Adam-It makes me so sad to know that the youngest of us isn't here enjoying all that life has to offer. I will always cherish the memories I have of you being a little booger, an imp with a devilish grin. You are missed. Love, Heather

Dear Addie boy,
Hard to believe it has almost been another year! Rest in peace! We all miss you very much! Lots of love, Dad & Wanda

Lighting a candle to help your family, especially your big sister, find a way to heal. I didn't know you, but your sister will always hold a special place in my heart & I think of her often. I know how much you meant to her. Please watch over her, guide her and protect her.

Hey Bubba, Happy Birthday. I am always thinking about you. I love you so much. Always Jenn

Adam:
Tomorrow is your Birthday and we will be thinking of you. It's been almost two years and still think of you daily. I know that you and Grandpa came and brought your mom to heaven, she had a heavy heart since you left us. I know that your mom is now with you and Grandpa and that gives me some peace. Always in my heart.
Love CeCe

Hey Bubba, Wow, so much has changed since you went to Jesus. I can't believe how much. Just wanted to let you know that I miss my eating partner. I am prego again, but this is so different from when I was pregnant with Skyler. You were always there. Now Skyler and Jason are. I am so grateful for them, but I totally miss you. I miss all the fun times we shared. I feel so hold. Like you will forever be 22 and I keep on getting older. My life keeps moving forward and yours is frozen it time. Somedays I just want to go back, back to the time when our biggest worries were running from cops on the dirt bikes, or not getting caught doing something stupid. I just want you to know that I will always love you and miss you. I am always thinking about you... Always Your Sister - Jenn

Hey Bubba, I am totally missing you. I miss being your big sister. I miss you calling me, asking for advise. I remember teaching you how to drive at night. You asked me, how do I see the road with oncoming traffic?, I told you to look at the white lines on the side of the road! I miss giving you advise on life, or just listening to you about your day, your life. You are always in my thoughts. I talked about you to a patient, and I swear it felt like you were right there giving me the words of advice for her. You were always amazing at helping others, and knowing just what to say.
Skyler is going to be five. Five years ago you were my eating partner, going with me to lamaze classes, helping me when I was in the hospital. Five years ago bubba, and it feel like a life time. You were so good to us. You are truly missed. I love you

Hey Bubba, I am coming home for Moms 50th Birthday. I am going to do my best to make it an amazing day for her. I wish I had your help...
Do you remember how we tried to plan a suprise birthday party for her. It was me, you, and Tanya. It was snowing, and no one wanted to come out in it. I think that a few of Moms friends came.
Or remember the time, that you and I drove to Issaquah to buy her a vaccum for her birthday, and well we were in a car accident. We decided to give her the vaccum that night in hopes that we wouldn't get into a lot of trouble.
You were always decorating the house for her. Giving her tons of gifts, making sure that her day was well all about her.
I am never going to be able to do what you did for her, but I am going to try...
You were such a Mamma's boy. I will do my best to spoil her like you would have done. I love you and miss you so much. The days seem harder and longer without you.. Love Always Jenn

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey (author)
©Copyright 1998-2008

Adam-
There Isnt a day that doesnt go by that I dont think of you. I miss you so much, Life feels so different without you. So much has changed. Some good some not so good. I am told all the time you would want me to be happy. I am having so much trouble with that. I cant explain it. It just seems so unbelieveable. When I recieved that call from Mom that ugly day .. my heart dropped. I kept praying you would be okay. I kept making deals with God please,,, please.. he took things into his own hands and we lost you. I know noone can hurt you there. I know you are looking down on us.. but I am sorry for being selfish.. just one more hug.. just one more Bear... I cant even see you in my dreams,,, I love you and I miss you more and more. love u- Bear

Adam,
You are the only uncle who is close to my age! And because of that we always had fun doing things. We climbed a mountain together and you dragged me along when I was complaining 20mins into it that I couldn’t do it! And I ended up having a great time! Even though I was sore when we finally came down 8hrs later. I remember when you took me for a ride on your dirt bike. I was scared but you reassured me you wouldn’t let me fall off... thanks for that :) we would play basketball into the late night till we couldn’t see anything anymore. I watched you walk the stage at your graduation and that was exciting for me. I’ll never forget when we all got lost while at Snoqualmie Falls...and you kept telling us “it’s just around the corner..." funny. And also the time you and I climbed into the tubes at that McDonalds even though the sign said "no one older than 10" ... ha. That was fun. All those times at the beach were awesome! I remember getting the rental car stuck in the sand, you and dad had to shovel it out... so funny!
I always had so much fun with you, there was never a dull moment! You thought of everyone, never a selfish thought ever came to your mind. I want to thank you for everything you have given to me... whether it is a laugh, a hug or a great adventure. You will always have a part of my heart... thank you for being in my life and accepting me into yours. I love you and I know I will see you again.

Bubba, wow I am a married woman now. How scary is that. I didn't have a memorial for you at the wedding, and I know that you wouldn't have wanted one.
Do you remember when we had a high school reunion? I was alreaydy living here in San Antonio Texas, so you being the sweet brother that always suprised me, decided to go to the reunion, You went to that reunion, for yourself, and for me... You have all of my friends and teachers gather together in a room, and you called me. You put me on speaker phone, so that we could all talk to each other. You are amazing, Never selfish. Always putting others first, and that was just a more recent memory.
Do you remember that while I was pregnant with Skyler, you were still in high school? Even though you worked and went to school full time, you still put others before you. You took me to work when I was way to pregnant to drive, you were my eating partner lol, and you took me to lamaze classes. You also missed school to stay in the hospital with me cause you knew that I was scared to stay there alone.
I can go on and on about how wonderful you are, and another day I promise I will.
I know that you were watching me get married, and that you were watching every second of our special day. I love you

Okay Bubba, how about the time that you, me, val, and brandon climbed onto the elementrys roof cause we thought we were so cool. We had fun sittin up there, talking, laughing, trying to get back down. Then a couple of days later you, rachel, and some other chick climbed the roof. Man the girls thought you were so brave and cool. Minutes later you became even cooler, when the police took you all to a holding cell at the police station until all the parents picked you all up. Man you were so cool. That still makes me smile. You were eleven and the girls were like thirteen if not older.
Do you remember the time that you me and val slept in the schools newspaper recycling pin. Wow that was so much fun. Kinda scary at the same time, but we had a lot of fun. Man to think of us all sleeping in there cracks me up.

Bubba, You were and are my best friend. I enjoyed growing up with you. We had a lot of fun times together, man we got into trouble. I laugh just thinking about some of the things that we did...
I bet that you remember the time when we got all of our friends together and jumped off the roof into the back yard. Newland fell instead of jumping and broke his leg, and he told his parents that he fell from a tree. That still makes me laugh!
Or the time you, me, and Tia decided to ride the big wheel at the same time and I fell between the seat and the tire. Ouch, but that was funny.
Or how about the time that you, me, Brandon, and Tia decided to race each other on the motorcycles to see who could get the muddiest. You and Tia won, but we were all covered in mud...
Or how about the time that I was driving m GMC Jimmy with you, Val, and Brandon, and I backed up into the river. I got the vechicle stuck, so you and Brandon hicked like a mile or more to the nearest house to call Mom. While you and Brandon were gone, Val and I stayed in the car praying. When you all came back we stood in a circle in the woods listening to the wolfs howl until Mom, Will, and the tow truck driver came. Man that was funny. We were so scared. And the house that you all went to thought you all were lying to them when you asked to use there phone. You were like fourteen, joy riding with your sister and friends. I still laugh out loud when I think of all the fun times that we had. I am grateful for them, and all of the others that we had. I am sure you already know how wonderful you are, and how much everyone misses you, just don't let your ego get to big, save some room for us in heaven.
Skyler misses you so much. He asks about you daily, and OMG he looks like you and Mom. I am in for it. Just kidding. We have decided together that you are GOD's angel and that you are playing a purple gutair in heaven for GOD. Skler picked purple, he must know that it is Wills favorite color. I do know that yours is blue. I am so happy, I wish that you were here with me. I am finally getting married, in like eighteen days. Wow, time flys. I love you, and wiil write more stories bout you later. Love Always Fer-Fer

Adam, Your life was too short. You were one whom loved to laugh. You were able to put a smile on my face when I was down. You were funny, loveable, and very likeable. You deserved the best. we wanted so much for you, everyone loved you. My heart is so empty without you. You gave the best hugs. You always were watching out for everyone. You brought so much happiness to my life. You were special and desevered the best. We love you! Love, Mom and Will

Hey Addie boy! It's so hard to believe you have been gone a year now. I bet you're up there chasing Angels and giving god a hard time but he probably is just as crazy about you as we were! You always be with us in our hearts, love, DAD

I love stories that capture a precious moment in someones life:
While spending a few days on the Oregon Coast with the children we found a Fish shack near the beach and Adam, then barely four, decided he wanted clams. He'd never eaten clams but was ADAMent he wanted a whole bucket of clams. Evan & I shared a little smile and some cocked eyebrows and I thought this will be worth it.
We were not disappointed...hovering as nonchalantly as possible we watched him as he dug out a slippery clam with his little fingers and squished it sloppily into his mouth....his eyes lit up with profound joy! He ate every single one and wanted to drink the juice!
Ah, how I can see him in Heaven exploring every nook and garden with joy and a sprinkling of mischief in his eyes.
You all must know Heaven missed him and is celebrating his return.
Loving you sweet Adam. Wanda

Adam - we sure miss you. This has been a very hard year for everyone without you. The girls talk alot about their "Angel" Adam. I hope that you knew how much you were loved. You are always in our hearts, we love you. CeCe, Bill, Mandy and Brandi

Adam,
I’ll never forget all the fun we had, all the amazing sites you showed me there in WA and all the crazy things we did. The time we climbed Little Si, all the times we almost got those rentals cars stuck on the trails, to all the times we would just hang out in the garage and talk. You really touched my life as you did everyone that was fortunate enough to have met you. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life. I really miss you bud, you will always be in my heart and in my memories. As you would end every phone call we ever had “love you man”, love you too man.

Adam, Even though you are not with us, your pressance is always felt. We will always love you, and are always thinking about you. You are in my heart. I'm so sorry that this has happened to you. I'v cried so many tears, they never seem to stop. You have made so many people happy in your life. I'm so proud of you.
Love,
Mom and Will.

My deepest sympathies to your family. Adam went to daycare with my sister and I for years, back in the 90's. Much love and comfort~

I'm sorry that I didn't get to know you when you were a grown man I only remember the young boy I used to see running around the neighborhood with his sister by his side. RIP ADAM You will be missed by everyone!

Adam
I love you and miss you and will always keep you in my heart! You were a sweet soul that touched everyone you met. Rest in Peace!
Love, DAD

Adam-
I love you so much. You will always be in my heart. We had alot of really great times together. I will miss you so much.
I love you - Kerra