Betty Ann Springer

Happy Mothers Day Mom
I love and miss you
My love always

mom,
your forever in our hearts,we miss you ohh,so much.
until we meet again.
love you mom,
love,
terry

Gram, sorry this is late. Life has been hectic, as I am sure you have seen. Everyone here is good. My car is not working anymore. which is a bit of an obstacle. I made the Deans list for last semester. I don't know if I can do it this semester I am taking 19 credits and it seems like I may have bitten off a bit much. I still will give it my all. I miss you. There are so many things that remind me of you everyday....Savannah has gotten a good report card and still is dancing and singing to anyone that will listen. She still asks about you once in a while. Isn't it funny what some children remember and forget? We love you Gram.

Happy Birthday Mom
My Love Always

mom,
we miss and love you,I know we had you for awhile and now it's time to share you with the rest of the family.I know that you would be so proud of all the family for each of thier triumps,as we all are.jolene and joel's van looks just like nikki's van ,i told joel he needs to put an nyy antena ball on it so we will know the difference.I"m so happy for them.
by the way ,the "donut holes",were not holes ,they were cookies!I guess the sher bear was blinded by her hunger not to notice what they were.lol..
until we meet again,mom,
love,terry

Hi Mom
All is going ok here.Kelly is over and laying on the couch watching the food channel.I called dad to see if Kelly could come over for awhile as dad has been feeling a little under the weather with this upper respratoy infection that keeps going back and forth.and kelly likes to do things on the weekends, even if it is just hanging out with us for for awhile.He is not a bit of a problem.I took Kelly to Hanneford with me.He pushed the cart for me and was a very good helper.He went over and picked up a package of the 100 calorie oreo mini cookies and looked up at me as he held the box.I asked him if he liked and wanted some, as he said yes to both.He put them in the cart and off we went and finished up our shopping.He kept asking about the washing machine so I told him when we get back to my house he could do some laundry I saved for him.He was excited as usual.He watched the laundry until it stopped.he tried out the cookies with a capri sun I am sending home some for his lunch this week.We went to Jackie and Joe for dinner last night as they had my favorite meal.spaghetti and meatballs w/garlic bread and jackie is an awesom cook ,and some apple crisp w/ice cream and mini lemon cheesecakes.Terry made some little some little very good looking rolled like donut holes.I just brang Kelly home for dinner,dad made him lasagna and he made a special surprise which was pudding.He gobbled up the lasagna,I dont know how he had any room for desert,but he was working on it when I left.I started another diet last week.It is the medifast with a lean and grean meal.I have lost 7 pounds this week. I know another year another diet.I hope it workd this time.well mom I had better go getmy dinner going before i get into something i shouldnt as I am starving right now.I will write again soon.
My Love Always.

mom,I miss you oooohhhh sooo much,we have to go on rather we like it or not,we do for the rest of our family but that's the only reason!
We are so proud of dad with kelly,he's doing as you know ,a fantastic job with him. I put savannah's dancing/singing video on the utube.com site under tooweyb because that's what kelly used to call me,some people still call me toowey,like some of mikes family and I think it cute.It's weird that your site here is the legacy.com,your care was a legacy and I see the word"legacy" at different places,it just feels weird to see the word. i want to buy this book when it goes offline to have one.we all miss you so much well, gonna let you go for now.until we meet again,
love,hugs kisses forever.
terry aka toowey

MOM
I miss you so very much.I cant wait to go see John Edward.I hope you will be able to come through for us,but if for some reason you dont I am sure we will understand.I know how much you liked him and he is helping me so much.Lori got me one of his books for my birthday and I plan on reading it this weekend.the holidays went as well as can be expected..iI will write again real soon
My love always

HI MOM,
I HOPE IT'S ALRIGHT TO PUT THE ANGEL ON YOUR URN,IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I CAN SEE YOU BETTER AND OF COURSE IT REPRESENTS YOU AND IT JUST LOOKS SO PEACEFUL AND I FELT BETTER GETTING YOU A CHRISTMAS GIFT.IT'S SUCH A LONELY UNCOMFORTABLE FEELING NOT BUYING YOU SOMETHING FOR CHRISTMAS ESPECIALLY WHEN IT WAS YOU WHOM I COULD FIND THE EASIEST TO BUY FOR BECAUSE BELIEVE IT OR NOT WE DID HAVE ALOT IN COMMON.
TALK TO YOU AGAIN LATER,MOM,
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,
LOVE ,TERRY

mom,
I'M SORRY THAT I HAVEN'T WRITTEN TO YOU IN QUITE AWHILE,AS YOU KNOW I TALK TO YOU PRETTY MUCH EVERY DAY,AND I MISS YOU EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY FOREVER AND I'M THANKFUL FOR JOE AND JACKIE FOR HAVING THIS SITE FOR US TO LET OUT OUR EMOTIONS ON PAPER AND IN THOUGHT TO YOU.WE LOVE AND ETERNAL MISS YOU MOM.
GOD BLESS YOU,AND UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,WE WILL TALK,LOVE LAUGH AND BE TOGETHER AGAIN.
LOVE,
TERRY:)

Well gram it has been quite some time since I have written. I am sorry for that. Life of course, has been so busy. The kids are doing great. Joseph has 2 teeth and eats anything, he had scrambled eggs the other day and he LOVED them, to no surprise!! Moriah is doing wonderful in school and reads at a much higher level than her grade. Mallory has been on some new medication for her ADHD, ODD it seems to working with her quite well. Joel is going to be starting school in a few weeks, we are all cheering him on. I have left Dr.Lowe's and am at Irongate with Nikki and aunt Terr-bear, we always seem to end up working with family one way or another. I love my new job it is great, I like going to work again. All of the Dr.'s seem pretty easy to get along with and just have different preferences. I have received alot of complements from the PA's and Dr's which is nice to hear once in a while. I am sad but happy that this legacy is going to end, I enjoy writing to you and updating you and everyone about what's new in our lives. It feels like we get to let out some of our emotions, it's kind of like therapy for us all. That doesn't mean that we will EVER forget you, we will just have a book to hold and read from time to time when maybe we need a good cry or even a good laugh. We all miss you very much and Mallory continues to ask about you and include you in things like last night when the ball dropped Mallory said "happy new year to Gramma in heaven. We love you so so so much and miss you like you wouldn't believe!!! It has been enjoyable to write to you but it times for this to end and I just wanted one last time to write that I love and Miss you, as we all do. I will continue to talk, think and dream of you. We miss you gram!!! please keep in eye on all of us and the family. although I would like some privacy while in the shower, unless your in need of a good laugh! Ha-ha. love you so much that it hurts!!!!!!!

Gram,

Here’s to your oatmeal,
peanut butter covered ice cream,
and all the scrapes and bruises,
that you could easily heal.

Here’s to being grounded,
and handing me a pencil and paper;
only to display my art on the fridge,
some day later.

Here’s to eagle eyes,
that can easily grab the can in
the far back corner of the cupboard.

Here’s to burning Kelly’s bed,
and learning that lighters aren’t for children.
Or so you said.

Here’s to sugar,
when you bump your head.

Here’s to the neighborhood watch dog,
ever watching,
from dusk till dawn.

Here’s to overnights at your house,
staying up until 3am,
watching Dallas.

Here’s to your humor,
when everyone least expects it.

Here’s to being under 5 feet tall,
and strong as an ox.

Here’s to coffee,
milk, and fake sugar,
any time of the day.

Here’s to your unconditional love,
your encouragement,
your pride.

Here’s to you, Gram,
for all you’ve done,
for all you’ve been,
and for teaching us all,
who we can aspire to be.

I miss you terribly.

Love,
John

MOM,
WE ARE STILL HEALING, BUT SINCE BEING ABLE TO WRITE OUR FEELINGS ON THIS SITE AND TO TALK TO EACH OTHER, IT SEEMS THAT SOMETIMES WE CAN TALK ABOUT YOU THIS YEAR WITHOUT CRYING. WE STILL LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS EVER AND MISS YOU IN OUR LIVES. YOUR LOVE MADE US CARE FOR ONE ANOTHER TO AN EXTENT THAT MOST FAMILIES DO NOT HAVE. I AM SO APPRECIATIVE THAT JOE HAD THE FORESIGHT TO KEEP THIS SIGHT GOING.
AS YOU KNOW, HE HAS BEEN AN INSPIRATION TO ME THROUGHOUT THE YEARS. HE JUST SOMETIMES KNOWS WHAT I NEED.... BEFORE I DO. OUR FAMILY HAS BEEN TRULY BLESSED WITH YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. DAD HAS TRULY STEPPED UP TO THE PLATE AND BEEN WONDERFUL WITH KELLY, AS I'M SURE YOU KNOW. HE LOOKS OUT FOR HIS WELFARE AND TRIES TO KEEP HIM INTERESTED. SO MUCH HAS CHANGED SINCE WE WERE LAST TOGETHER AND I MISS YOU VERY MUCH. I DO UNDERSTAND THAT LIFE HAS TO GO ON EVEN WHEN WE LOSE PEOPLE VERY CLOSE TO US. IT HURTS VERY BAD, BUT WE ALL HAVE TO UNDERSTAND.... THE CIRCLE OF LIFE WILL GO ON WITH OR WITHOUT US. IT HELPS ME TO REMEMBER THAT EVEN THOUGH THE SPRING AND SUMMER FLOWERS ARE BEAUTIFUL, THEY MUST, AT SOME POINT LEAVE US. IT'S THEIR BEAUTY WHILE THEY ARE HERE THAT LEAVES AN IMPRINT ON US.... AS YOU HAVE MOM. I LOVE YOU SOOOO VERY MUCH AND I MISS YOU EVERYDAY. THANK YOU FOR BEING THE BEST M0M EVER!UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...HUGS AND MANY MANY KISSES TO YOU.

Granny, this is not funny by no means,I was trying to be thoughtful and honest. You just through a wrench in it . AS you well know, I sent you a very nice message. As you know I was booted off. But I am still here, so I guess you need to listen. Jackie is calling all to inform them this will be their last chance to tell you everything that they always wanted to tell you.WE LOVE YOU, AND WILL NEVER FORGET YOU. THE FAMILY THAT YOU MADE US,,, LOVE JOE& JACKIE.

Granny, as you know I told you I would write again well, here I am the pain in the neck.The Holidays went very well or as well as they could without you. We all seemed to do O.K. Bob and Kelly did a great job entertaining all of us. We all miss you more than anybody could ever know.I guess it is time to let you FREE and let you and aunt Nancy have a coffee, and please keep a watchful eye over all of us. We love you. GOOD BYE. LOVE JOE.

Granny, can you believe that Christmas is around the corner. WE all miss you very much. I wanted to touch bases with you, to let you know that I wanted to get Bob a.k.a. as your husband the Book. the only problem is we can no longer write to this Guest book. GIVE ME A SIGN:::If I do not feel a sign I will send it on January 1 2009 ,Due to the fact I want it sent so He can enjoy it.But By no means do i want You to think We Will ever forget you....WE will still be here for you. O.K.I got the Sign!!! You Know as we all know things can,,. and will happen. WE love you more than ever. Thanks for you!!! We all will move on and quietly go our own ways, due to the fact that the families are growing each and every year.You would be so proud of the whole family, well no need to tell you, You knew before we did.Again this is only possible because of what you taught each and every one of us.Well goodbye for now I will write again before I order the book. Love you so much. Love Joe.

Mom
I miss you.
My love Always

MOM ,
IT'S LESS THAN TWO WEEKS BEFORE JOHN AND GRACE GET MARRIED. I KNOW YOU WILL BE THERE. I'M BRINGING MY CANDLE OF YOU AND IT WILL GLOW ALL EVENING . DAD IS COMING WITH KELLY. YOU WOULD BE SO VERY PROUD OF HIM...AS I'M SURE YOU ARE. KELLY IS DOING SO GOOD AT CWI AND EVEN HAVING FUN.
DAD HAS DONE A FANTASTIC JOB WITH KELLY...NOT THAT YOU DIDN'T MOM, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
JOE WAS PROMOTED TO HEAD OF THE MAINTENANCE AT THE HIGH SCHOOL...I'M SO PROUD OF HIM.
YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE TO GIVE HIM PRAISE AND BELIEVE IN HIM AS I DO AND HE LOVED YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW.
WE ARE ALL IN LOVE WITH OUR NEW BABIES IN THE FAMILY. THEY ARE ALL SPECIAL IN THEIR OWN WAY AND WE WERE GRATEFUL FOR THE DISTRACTIONS IN THE LAST YEAR THAT KEPT US ALL BUSY.

I STILL MISS YOU SO MUCH. I'M AFRAID TO THINK ABOUT IT MOST OF THE TIME.
I LOVE YOU!
JACKIE

I love you Mom
Kelly had a rough day today.He misses you terribly.He has to express his feelings just like we do.Its hard for to figure out for sure if he is hurting for you or because he is in pain.But dad thinks it is for you today and I have to agree.It is heading into the fall season again and it is the halloween season,he know how you got things ready and it all starts with this time of year.He is such a good boy.we all love him so much.It breaks our hearts to see him this way because we know that we can express ourselves with each other and kelly cant talk about it very well.but we talk to him and let him know that you are an Angel and you are with him,in his heart.he kisses your picture and says .I Love You Mom then has us put your picture back where we got it from.I wish you were still here with us.I miss you.
My love Always

Hi mom
I think about you every day.I stopped in to have a cup of coffee with you. I know you would be so happy to know that we are staying here.Lori and Ryan have moved in with us.You would be very pleased with that.Jolene and Joel just live down the street.Rick is going to Plattsburgh.His very first time away from home.I guess he is doing fine.Jason has gotten a job as a SGF police officer.He is in school training until January.Then he will be keeping the residents of Sgf safe.Michelle is back for another very rigorus year at moreau school.She amazes me with all that she is capable of,She takes it all in stride.The kids jage and K.t. are busy with there sports.Jage is in football again and kt is in soccer .keep an eye over the kids will you mom. as your eyes are alot better than ours. We all miss you so much.Lori had a dream about you the other night teaching Amber how to clean out the fridge.Come to find out Amber when grocery shopping and came home to a fridge cleaned out by nene.(weird mom)did you have anything to do with that?Jack is in kindergarden this year and really likes it.He was nervous the first day(as all kids are)Macey is such a little pumpkin. she is doing well also.she is a very good baby ,No teeth yet but she nibbles on everything she gets her little fingers on.I am fine.Jen is expecting a little one at the end of March.Tripp started big boy school and he likes it.we finally got to see Lance for the first time in years.He is getting big.they are all good grandbabies.I love and enjoy each and everyone of them so much. Nichol came up for a week,It was nice to see her and Lance.All is fine with me.I was so bummed that the insurance company wouldnt approve my surgery.Oh well.I wanted to update you on the happenings in my family.I just hopped on for a minute and have a cup of coffee with you.You kept pushing these garlic pretzel piece at me to try.You know I am weak.they did go very well with the coffee.the only problem is everyone will be trying to get away from my breath tommorrow..I am still waiting for my dream to come true .the one where I can code from home.I think it will happen one day.at least I hope so.today is friday I am out of work what great feeling.It is fall and it is my favorite season.It is a brisk day,the leaves are so beautiful.most of them are still on the trees.Michael is gone bow hunting for the first time this year.He is gone up to hunt at pete the greek.He added on a leanto on the back of the carport last night and he finished it up today.he did a good job.he always does.He makes everything look so easy..well I am going to head out now.hugs and kisses.
My Love Always

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LOVE, MALLORY

hi gram, I know it has been quite some time since i wrote to you, and I am sorry for that. Anyways, things are going well around here, the baby is getting soo big, but he is such a cutie, you would just love his fat little cheecks and thighs, he has so many rolls its not even funny! Mallory has been asking about you a lot lately, asking how you are and if we will ever see u again. I told her when we go to heaven we will bve there greeting us.n Then she proceded to ask how our bodies got up to heaven. I told her that the angels would come down anf get our souls. I think she was content with that answer. Mallory has been having a lot of trouble lately with her behavior. The dr.s think she has some ADD and anxiety issues, they want to put her on some medications to help her, I was very apprehensive about this at first, but I have really tried everything imaginable with the dr.s. And they told me it was time for meds. So I guess we will give that a try. Moriah is in second grade now, she is doing GREAT she loves school and has homework 4-5 nights per week, she is also taking some dance classes at Bolton Dance Academey a pom class and tap class, of course she LOVES it. The teacher said she is a natural. Joel is getting set to start ACC in january for his computer programing courses, he has good days and bad days with his back, but we are looking into some other proceduers for him. I am still working at Dr.Lowes that is a whole other story!! But I will talk to you later, the baby just got up from his nap. Love you lots, Jolene, Joel, Moriah ,Mallory, and Joseph

I miss you Mom.

GRAM;
HI, SORRY IT HAS BEEN AWHILE. THINGS HAVE BEEN QUITE CHAOTIC. THINGS ARE STILL CHAOTIC, (WHY CAN'T MY MOM BE RICH?!) JUST KIDDING. WE ARE RICH IN LOVE, YES? OH WELL, ATLEAST WE HAVE SOMETHING. WITH SCHOOL STARTING FOR BOTH SAVANNAH AND I; THINGS ARE ACTUALLY BECOMING ROUTINE! WHATEVER THAT MEANS, LOL. EVERYTHING IS GOING GREAT. SAVANNAH IS STARTING KINDERGARTEN HER TEACHERS NAME IS MRS. WOLFE. I HAVEN'T MET HER YET, BUT WE LEAVE NOTES IF WE NEED TO DISCUSS ANYTHING ABOUT SAVANNAHS EDUCATION. SHE SEEMS LIKE A NICE TEACHER SO FAR. I AM TAKING CRIMINAL JUSTICE, ETHICS, MATH 108 I HAVE TO GO OFF SUBJECT HERE TO TELL YOU MY MATH TEACHER LOOKS LIKE GRANDPA DID WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. HE ALSO HAS A GREAT PASSION FOR LEARNING AND EXPRESSES THIS IN A WAY THAT IS VERY SIMILAR TO GRANDPAS. I FIND IT FUNNY. SO EVERY TUES/THURS AND FRI I THINK ABOUT GRANDPA, EVEN IF I DON'T GET OVER TO VISIT!
OK BACK TO CLASSES. SOCIOLOGY, AND LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST, THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SUBSTANCE USE AND ABUSE. (SARA BOLSTER IS IN CLASS WITH ME.)
THESE CLASSES SEEM TO GO TOGETHER, SO I THINK IT MAY MAKE IT EASIER, AND I AM REALLY AIMING TO MAKE THE DEAN'S LIST THIS SEMESTER. I WON'T CRY IF I DON'T BUT IT SURE WOULD BE NICE.
I AM DEFINANTLY GOING TO MAKE THE EFFORT, AND I HAVE A BETTER UNDERSTANDING WHAT COLLEGE IS LIKE NOW. OF COURSE, IT'S TOO SOON TO BE SURE, BUT I'M CROSSING MY FINGERS..I'VE GOT SAVANNAH SIGNED UP FOR SOME CLASSES AT THE YMCA. DANCE, GYMMNASTICS, CHEER AND KARATE.
I KNOW IT SOUNDS LIKE ALOT, BUT I FIGURED IF WE TRIED A FEW THINGS, WE COULD FIGURE OUT WHAT SHE LIKES, SO WE COULD FOCUS MORE ON THOSE. I AM NOW LEARNING THAT I MAY BE DOING THE Y THING A LITTLE PREMATURELY AS THE INSTRUCTOR FOR TUMBLING TOLD ME SHE WASN'T QUITE READY. SHE SAID SHE WAS BUILT LIKE A GYMNAST SOLID MUSCLE, BUT HER SKILLS WEREN'T QUITE UP TO THAT OF THE CLASS. WHICH IS FINE. WE WILL JUST GO ON TO A DIFFERENT MORE SUITABLE CLASS. ON THE OTHER HAND ANOTHER MOM WAS TELLING ME THAT THE INSTRUCTOR SAID HER CHILD WASN'T REALLY READY FOR THE GROUP, BECAUSE SHE COULD FOLLOW DIRECTION. I GUESS I WOULD RATHER HAVE SAVANNAH BEHIND ON BACK FLIPS RATHER THAN DIRECTION. SO I AM A FINDING SOME SOLACE IN THAT. I HAVE SIGNED UP TO DO A CLASS CALLED HIP HOP HUSTLE. I WENT MONDAY NIGHT.IT WAS SO MUCH FUN. FREE FOR MEMBERS, AND DIDN'T REALLY FEEL LIKE EXERCISE(UNTILL THE NEXT DAY LOL)
NEXT TIME THOUGH I WILL BE SMART ENOUGH TO BRING WATER. I CHUGGED ABOUT A GALLON WHEN I GOT HOME. THERE WAS SUCH A GREAT MIX OF FITNESS LEVELS, THAT I DIDN'T FEEL BAD OR SELF CONSCIENCE. I WAS THINKING I WOULD TELL JOLENE ABOUT IT. IT'S KIND OF HIP HOP DANCING TO MUSIC WITH AN EXERCISE ROUTINE. LIKE I SAID IT WAS A LOT OF FUN.
WELL I HOPE AND EXPECT THAT YOU ARE WELL AND ASIDE FROM MY DREAMS I WILL BE IN TOUCH SOON.
VIA THIS BOOK.LOVE, LEIGHANN

Hi Mom,
Here it is August 20th and the weather has been slightly cool-as if Fall was already here. We have been up to Alpine Lake again for a few days. We will be going back this weekend and next with Mike and Sherry for the last of the summer vacation. THE KIDS WILL BE RETURNING TO SCHOOL - all of them are getting so big and grown up.
Terry and Candy look fantastic with their new slim and trim figures. Candy is doing one of her home improvement projects before the really cold weather sets in. It looks really nice with her living and dining areas opened up. She really needed to get the walls shaped up and insulated. Bob is still having trouble with his eyes but he switched to a Dr. in Saratoga who says he has a condition called PIC. Don't ask me to pronounce it!! Bobby has to stay away from any contact sports per Dr. Kirkpatrick -- he has to do a series of strengthening exc. for his shoulder in hopes that it will heal without surgery. Otherwise, surgery will require a 6 month recovery period and basketball will be out for this year. We are praying for the best for both of them. Need some help, mom, if you could send an angel or two. Hope you are getting to know my Aunt a little more we sure miss you both. The world seems emptier now. Love you!!!
Peace be with you-Michele,Bob & Bobby

Granny, I will talk to you soon.

Gram,
Hello. It's been awhile. The truth is aside from working and taking care of Savannah there isn't much going on. I have a boring life, but I'm pretty content with it. I tried finding this website with out the normal links, and you would not believe the amount of Springers, let alone Betty's that were listed. It was insane! But after viewing 3 or 4 pages I found it. You know what they say-greatness, always imitated never duplicated. Savannah has been taking dance at the ymca. She gave us this tiny performance it was adorable. Children are so amazing. I can't imagine how you did it with so many. I know I have all these expectations for Savannah.
Of course the biggest hope is for happiness, but the wish for her success seems to be so close to my wish for her happiness. Our family seems to have quite a bit of both, and I am sure you are looking down with pride. We are blessed that we had you in our lives for as long as we did. How lucky for us that you were in our lives long enough to meet your great grandchildren. We'll always wish we had more time, but I am grateful for the time that we did have. It's a priceless treasure, that will always be locked away in my heart along with so many other precious memories. Thanks Gram. I love you.
Always and Forever,
LeighAnn

Granny, its been a while. we all have been very busy, as you would know.The family is doing well. Today is our Anniversary, 29 Years can you believe it?I can remember when you sent me to the garage to tell Bob that I wanted to marry Jackie. I thought it was for a year,or two, you never said to me .it would be this long.But as we all know you was aware what was up. I just wanted to thank you She is the love of my life .I miss you dearly, thanks again.

Hi Mom- Well here we are on the 4th of July- another sad Holiday without you. I sure hope you are enjoying the company of those around you.
You now have my Aunt Joan with you another coffee drinker. I just can't believe it, one moment Bob and me were watching Tiger Woods with her in the hospital and the next morning she was gone. Every time I think of the terrified look on her face I could cry. I am concerned for my Aunt Gloria and my Aunt Sylvia- understandably they are very sad and lonely without their sister. Aunt Sylvia's rehab is going ok, but she still is has some problems communicating. She laughs at herself when she tries to say something and it doesn't come out right. She's one, that no matter what life deals her- she keeps on a smiling and her faith does not waiver. All of my Aunts have been so good to me, it breaks my heart to see them suffer in any way.
Amy, my Uncle Jean and Mike were emotionally wrecked when all this happened, so they took some down time instead of trying to entertain after the funeral. Again-
It certainly brings to light that we are here for a short time and life is a precious gift not to be taken for granted. Peace and Love - Michele,Bob, Bobby

hi Gram, sorry I haven't written to you in a while I have been busy with the new house and don't have internet service there ;yet. The new house has some brick in the kitchen, which reminds me of your old house. Sometimes it feels like you have been gone soo long and sometimes it feels like just yesterday you were here. We all miss you very much, Mallory, Moriah and myself kiss your picture at your house every time we are there. Mallory frequently ask where you are. They love to send you the balloons they get from party's.
Joseph is such a good boy and a big boy, he loves his food. He has been sleeping 8-12 hours through the night. I can't complain. My house is beautiful, my mother, Joel, dad, myself and Joel's mom and grandfather worked very hard to get it all painted and fixed up just the way we wanted it. It looks fantastic, we love it so much and our so very thankful to my mother and father for doing all of this hard work for us. They always bend over backwards to much sure we are safe and comfortable, you raised a mighty good set of children gram. well got to go for now Mallory is spraying herself with the house with all of her clothes on.We love and miss you .love Jolene

mom,

I CAN'T BELIEVE A YEAR HAS PASSED SINCE YOU WERE HERE.I KEPT THINKING TO MYSELF EVERYDAY UNTIL THE YEAR MARK OF YOUR PASSING THAT WE STILL HAD YOU BECAUSE IT WAS LESS THAN THE YEAR AND THAN IT WAS A YEAR I FELT LIKE I COULDN'T DO IT ANYMORE?NEVER MIND,I GUESS I WAS BABBLING.WELL ANYWAYS,I KNOW THAT THE ONLY WAYS WE WERE ABLE NOT TO SNAP AND TO BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH THIS IS BECAUSE GOD AND YOU ARE COMFORTING US WITHOUT US KNOWING IT.SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I COULD OF LOST IT OR WHO KNOWS MAYBE I WILL JUST LOSE IT ONE DAY,IT'S SO HARD TO DEAL WITH IT THAT'S WHY I BLOCK SOME OF THIS OUT WHEN IN REALITY I KNOW BETTER,I GUESS IT'S OUR BEING ABLE TO COPE WITH IT.I MISS YOU SO MUCH I COULD BORE YOU TO TEARS HEARING ME SAY IT ALL THE TIME BUT I CAN'T HELP IT.I ALSO HAVE YOUR PIC ON MY FRIDGE AND KISS AND TRY TO FEEL YOUR HUGS WHICH I DO REMEMBER FEELING YOUR COOL SKIN,AND SOMEWHAT OF A PUFFY LITTLE BELLY HA ,HA,THOUGHT YOU'D GET A SMALL KICK OUT OF THAT.I/WE MISS YOU SO ETERNALLY MUCH AND I DO BELIEVE THAT GOD HAS YOU BY HIS SIDE BECAUSE YOU BELONG NEXT TO ALL HIS CHOSEN ANGELS,TO US YOU WILL ALWAYS BE OUR ANGEL............THANKS FOR BEING OUR MOM..THE ONLY THING I WOULD OF LOVE TO CHANGE IS THAT WE COULD OF UNDERSTOOD AND SHOWED THE UTMOST RESPECT AS KIDS,AND I WOULD OF BEEN A BETTER CHILD BUT I GUESS WE ALL HAVE TO GROW,BUT YOU KNOW MA,I WOULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN,YOU AND DAD MADE US THE PEOPLE WE ARE TODAY AND WE ARE THANKFUL TO YOU BOTH FOR THAT.I'M SORRY FOR NOT GOING OVER TO YOUR HOUSE VERY MUCH I'M HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME DEALING WITH IT AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY,HOPEFULLY IN TIME I WILL BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH THIS BETTER AND MOVE ON.DAD AND KELLY DOING OK,CANDY LOOKS GREAT,KIDS ARE ALL DOING FINE....WELL,GOTTA GO TO PT FOR 4PM SO I GOTTA LET YOUR NOTE GO FOR NOW.
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,
LOVE,
TERRY

Hello Mom,

It's been a difficult year for all of us.
We have missed our conversations on the porch and your food pushing.
You would have thought by now I would have lost weight -- but no I haven't. Candy & Terry are looking quite lovely and I admire their will to get healthy.
Mom, I almost think sometimes that this new little kitty has some of your characteristics-- do you believe in reincarnation? She is very loving but can be very feisty. She is tiny but stands right up to Penny and is not afraid of much. I guess this is just the way we deal with losing someone as wonderful as you--we look for your traits even in our animals. Peace be with you.
Michele, Bob & Bobby

MOM,
I WROTE YOU A LENGTHY LETTER ON JUNE 1ST, BUT AS USUAL I GOT KICKED OFF. PERHAPS I'M BORING TO THIS STUPID COMPUTER THING.
I POUR MY HEART OUT FOR AN HOUR OR TWO, THEN GET BOOTED OFF AND LOSE ALL MY INFO.
SHERRY AND I WERE LAUGHING ABOUT THIS TONIGHT AT YOUR HOUSE. SHE HAS ALSO BEEN KICKED OFF AFTER A LONG LETTER. I HAVE ALMOST RIPPED THE TOP OFF MY COMPUTER AFTER A 2 HOUR LETTER WHEN MY COMPUTER DECIDES.... IT DIDN'T LIKE WHAT I WROTE, THEREFORE IT'S JUST SIMPLY ERASED.
NOT TO MENTION THAT IT'S ALWAYS AFTER WE ARE USUALLY CRYING OUR EYES OUT,
BUGGERS COMING OUT OF OUR NOSE LIKE A CHILD..........THEN SUDDENLY WE ARE LOOKING AT A BLANK SCREEN, JUST LIKE THAT DAY IN MAY OF "07"....WHEN EVERYTHING WENT BLANK IN OUR LIVES.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I LIT MY CANDLE FOR YOU ALL DAY. I TOOK OUT YOUR PIECE OF HAIR CLIPPING I HAVE AND JUST TRIED TO SMELL IT OR FEEL YOU AGAIN. YOU SO LOVED YOUR HAIR TO BE PLAYED WITH. I'M GLAD WE HAD THAT SPECIAL TIME TOGETHER ON TUESDAY'S,WHEN I WOULD COME DOWN AND DO YOUR HAIR.
YOU WOULD ALWAYS TELL ANDREA SHE DID IT BEST, THEN TURN AROUND AND TELL ME THAT I DID IT BEST.
MALLORY ASKS ABOUT YOU A LOT. THE GIRLS SOMETIMES LET HELIUM BALLOONS OFF TO YOU...I HOPE YOU GET THEM.
JOSEPH LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE JOHN AS A BABY, IT'S AMAZING.
SAME CHUBBY CHEEKS, DIMPLES AND MOONEY EYES WHEN HE SMILES. NOT TO MENTION THE AUBURN RED HAIR.
I'M NOT SURE HOW WE ALL MADE IT THROUGH THIS FIRST YEAR. I'M NOT SURE WE COULD HAVE WITHOUT EACH OTHER.
THANK YOU MOM FOR GIVING ME MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS TO LEAN ON FOR SUPPORT THIS YEAR. IT DOES HELP TO KNOW THAT IT'S OK TO STILL BREAK DOWN AND CRY AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.
MORIAH LOST HER FIRST FRONT TOOTH.......ON MY WATCH NO LESS.
SUPPOSEDLY MALLORY KNOCKED IT OUT DURING PLAY ( IMAGINE THAT SURPRISE ). ALSO THE FIRST DAY IN THEIR NEW HOUSE MORIAH FELL OFF HER NEW BED DURING THE NIGHT AND IS NOW IS SPORTING A VERY COLORFUL BLACK EYE. SO, HER FIRST DAY BACK TO SCHOOL AFTER THE WEEKEND, SHE HAS A MISSING FRONT TOOTH AND A BLACK EYE.
GOOD NEWS IS LOGEN AND NOAH ARE ON THE SAME BUS WITH HER.
DAD'S BEEN VERY QUIET FOR THE LAST TWO WEEKS...HE MISES YOU A HUNDRED TIMES MORE THAN US.
I LOVE AND MISS YOU MOM.,
JACKIE

a whole year has past
-since we saw you last
you heard his call
-and couldn't stall
the pain is still here
-even when you're spirit is near
I'm sure you feel pride
-seeing how your family has tried
no one can fill your shoes
-not suprising news
but they all do so well
I'm sure you can tell
I send you my love
up to heaven above
I believe it's true
that God is taking care of you
all my love gram
leighann

Gram,
I am sorry this is the first time that I wrote to you but I have a hard time thinking you're not here. You have made such a lasting impression on my life. I truely believe that you are the reason that Sam and Macey are here with us today. The doctor that delivered him said that someone was there with me. I wish he could have met you. You would just love Kyleigh, boy does she have an attitude, I can just see you laughing at the things she says. I wish you were here with us so badly, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I am so glad that so many of us were at your house to share your last day with you. I don't know what else to write but I just feel like I can't stop typing. I love You so much Gram, you were a second mom to me and the girls. I will never forget all of your meals, rides to practice, gossip, and so many more wonderful memories. To me in my heart and my mind you are still here with all of us. I love You.

Mom
It feels at times that it has been a year since your passing and some times it feels like yesterday. I kiss a picture of you that I keep on my fridge every day, and I have my own little conversation with you. Some how that makes me feel as though I am seeing you every day. Even though it's certainly not like having you here it's how I get through. I believe you are here with each and every one of us when we write or when we talk with you. I do miss your kisses and hearing the words I LOVE YOU back but I know you are saying them to each and everyone of us every night. We weren't sure if we were going to put something in the paper for the today or not. I't just didn't feel like you some how. We know that between writting you on this site and talking to you that you hear us and are there with each and every one of us. And that yu know that it is tough on us still and will be for a very long time. I feel confort in talking with you Mom and I wish you would visit in my dreams some how, even if it is for the hug and kiss that I wish I could feel, for know I will just close my eyes and pretend to feel you. Mom we all love and miss you so very much I surley hope that god has made you a saint some how because you surley were to us. We do feel like we have lost you twice once on May 24 and again on June 1st.
Love you Mom
Can

Mom
It really is hard to belive it has been a whole year.The last week was very sad for us because most of us believe we lost you twice.The first was of course was the night of the accident May 24th.The second time was June 1st.So both of these days are hard for us.We have so many things to be grateful for.We are very grateful for the fact that you came back so we could say goodbye.You made sure that we would be able to have some closure.We dont know how you pulled it off but if anyone could of done it ,it would be you..that is how much you cared about your family and how we would need something like that so we would be able to move on.You were able to stay for one whole week so that each and every one of us were able to be with you and tell you how we were feeling and to make promises to you so that you would be able to leave this earth and go home to heaven.This year has been so empty with your loss but we also have grown in so many ways to love and care about each other more than ever.We talk to you every day. You are in our thoughts every single day.I lit my candle as you know on both dates in honor of my beloved Mom.I love and miss you so much.

Granny, it has been a whole year already we can't believe it. As you know we all miss you very much. All is well with the family. All the little hints that you send are noticed, Ha,Ha, like having coffee with me that was cute. Baby Joseph is great he eats ,sleeps ,and just like you he is very nosey. the girls are good and miss you as well.Tomorrow will be a sad day for all of us. We all miss you some can't write to you but they all send their love . so long for know talk to you soon. Love as always Joe.

HI MOM,
THANKS FOR WATCHING OVER SAVANNAH'S AND MIKES OPERATION EVERYTHING WENT FINE,BOTH PTS ARE DOING FINE AND I BELIEVE YOU AND MIKES G-MA (SANDI'S MOM)WERE WITH THEM AND NOT TO MENTION THE BIG GUY!!!!!!!!! GOD>>>>>>>>>>>
MIKE SPENT THE NIGHT LAST NIGHT AND WOW WHAT A LONG NIGHT,SO GLAD EVERYTHING WENT GREAT FOR THEM AND SAVANNAH IS BACK TO HER USUAL ACTIVITIES AS OF YESTERDAY,SO VERY HAPPY FOR HER KNOWING WHAT A TEST IT WAS FOR LEIGHANN AND CARY TO KEEP HER AS CALM AS POSSIBLE. I JUST GOT KEIRDON'S AND SAVANNAH'S PRE-K- SCHOOL YEAR BOOK,DO YOU BELIEVE IT? I CAN'T.CANDY SPENT THE NIGHT WITH ME LAST NIGHT SO I WOULDN'T BE ALONE(SHE'S SUCH A GREAT SISTER),SHERRY OFFERED ME TO SLEEP AT HER HOUSE(SHE' S ANOTHER GREAT SISTER)THEY ARE ALL GREAT SISTERS AND BROTHERS,EVEN BOBBY BOS(YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.LOL),NOT TO MENTION MICHELE WHO AS WE KNOW YOU ALSO THOUGHT THE WORLD OF OH,BY THE WAY SHE CALLLED AND LEFT A MESSAGE LOOKING FOR TERRY BOSFORD,ISN'T SHE SOMETHING?I TOLD HER SHE WAS ON MY LIST ,SHE JUST LAUGHED.SHE'S SO FUNNY. JACKIE ,JOE,JOLENE ARE DOING A GREAT JOB ON THEIR NEW HOUSE. WHEN I WENT TO SEE IT WITH JACKIE,SHERRY AND CANDY,IT FELT LIKE I/WE INCLUDING YOU WERE THERE AGAIN,JUST LIKE OLD TIMES IN THE OLD HOUSE.I KNOW YOU WERE THERE.I WILL LET YOU GO FOR NOW,UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,I LOVE AND MISS YOU MOM.
LOVE ,
TERRY

MOM,

WOW,WHAT A YUCKY YEAR WITHOUT YOU,IT SEEMS LIKE ETERNITY NOT SEEING HEARING AND FEELING YOUR HUGS,KISSES AND STORIES FROM YOU OR TO EVEN HEAR YOU ASK ME WHATS GOING ON OR HOW IS MIKE OR THE KIDS AND GRANDKIDS DOING OR FEELING AS YOU SO OFTEN DID AND MAYBE YOU EITHER WOULD ASK ME IF I WANT TO GO TO ZACKS WITH YOU AND SO MANY TIMES YOU WOULD GET XTRA SO THERE WOULD BE ENOUGH FOR ME AND CANDY SO WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO EAT ALONE.YOU WERE MORE CARING THAN I EVEN DID NOTICE.WHAT AN UNSEFISH PERSON YOU WERE ,I ALSO REMEMBER THE THURSDAY NIGHT THAT WOULD FOREVER HAD CHANGED OUR LIVES,IT WAS THE MOST HORRIFIC NIGHT BUT I KNOW THAT WE HAVE TO SHARE YOU WITH DANNY,DIANE AND GRAM,GRAMP AND YOUR OTHER SIBLINGS,IT STILL SUCKS NOT HAVING YOU HERE TO LAUGH,CRY SHARE STORIES AND JUST TO TALK TO AND DEFEND US IF NEEDED. KELLY AND DAD ARE DOING GOOD WITH THE PROGRAM ADAPTION. DAD SAYS THE STAFF AT PROGRAM LIKE KELLY AND IT SURE DOES SOUND LIKE IT FROM SOME OF THE STORIES DAD TELLS US.MIKE GOES INTO SURGERY FOR HIS THYROID TOMORROW AM.I FIND OUT AT 1:00PM TODAY WHAT TIME.I'M SURE YOU WILL BE COVERING THE SCENE WITH HIM.THANKS MOM FOR WATCHING OVER US BEING OUR GUARDING ANGEL,I STILL WISH YOU WERE HERE.THE GRANDBABIES ARE ALL DOING FINE.SAVANNAH IF FEELING BETTER,KEIRDON LOST A TOOTH ALREADY AND WE WENT TO KAYDENS PRE-K GRADUATION TO UNIVERSAL PER KINDERKARTEN ,IT WAS SO CUTE,THEY SANG SONGS AND HAD REFRESHMENTS. ALL THE NEWEST GREAT GKIDS ARE ALL GETTING BIG AND ARE BEAUTIFUL.
I WISH WE COULD HAVE A CUP OF COFFEE TOGETHER,BUT I GUESS I HAVE TO WAIT.
I WILL LET THIS GO FOR NOW ,TOO MANY TEARS...............
UTIL WE MEET AGAIN MOM,I LOVE YOU FOREVER.

Mom
Its very hard to believe this past year has gone by.It still seems like it was yesterday.We are reliving that dreadful day you were taken away from us.I see everything over and over again.I see you sitting on Candys swing with Kelly waving away as i was making Michaels dineer on the grill.I see everyone aound having a good time,Jackie and Jolene and the kids even stopped by that day.I wish there was someway I could wake up from this aweful dream I have had and you would be really still here.We are all happy that we had a chance to stop by that day,Even with all of the hectic crazy schedules we all have.We miss you so very much.We all know that you are in a really nice place with the other part of your family that were not as fortunate as us to have you as long as we did.I am grateful for that.I talk to you every single day.I love and miss you mom...

Hi Gram,
Its hard to believe that it was a year ago today that we last spoke. I am so grateful for that day. I can't remember what I did yesterday and I can remember so many things about that day. It was a beautiful day and you and Kelly were walking around Aunt Candy and Moms backyard. Jolene and Aunt Jackie stopped by. Amber and Jenn were there. Later that evening I started walking towards Aunt Candys to visit and she was on her way to your house. She offerred me a glass of lemonade and we walked over to your back porch where you were sitting on your swing. Grandpa had just finished adding on the porch and you joked that you did all the work while he watched. We stayed for a while and watched Jenn play with Kyliegh and Jack in the yard. I remember talking about Memorial day weekend and how busy it would be at work for me. As I was leaving I sent Jack up to give kisses and I remember looking back and seeing him give you a big kiss and a hug and I thought "wow that was a really good kiss" because normally he would give a quick peck and run away. As I walked away you said that you loved me and I said "love you" and I went home. I did not know that was the last time I would hear your voice but I am so lucky that the last words you spoke to me were "I love you". Gram I miss you everday, every hour and every minute. My heart truely aches without you here. I would give anything to watch you clean up coffee off your tablecloth with that handtowel and then have you force feed me cookies and candy. Thanks for all the amazing memories. Love you.

HI MOM,

SAVANNAH HAD HER TONSILS AND ADENOIDS OUT WEDNESDAY AND AS USUAL SHE WAS THE TOUGHEST ONE IN THE POST OP FLOOR.THERE WAS A COUPLE OF OTHER LITTLE BOYS ONE OF THEM THAT I DID NOTICE WAS OLDER THAN HER AND I'M NOT SURE HOW OLD THE OTHER KID WAS BUT THEY OR HE WAS CRYING AND SAVANNAH WAS ON CARY'S LAP JUST LOOKING AROUND WONDERING WHY THEY WERE CRYING.SHE'S SUCH A LITTLE TROOPER.SHE'S DOING GREAT AND HEALING UP FINE.I KNOW YOU WERE THERE WITH HER AT THE TIME ,I HAVE NO DOUBT,THANKS. MY SURGERY WENT GOOD FOR MY CTS ,I HAVE SOME BURNING AND TINGLING STILL THAT BOTHERS ME BUT HOPEFULLY THAT GOES AWAY IN TIME.KELLY SURE DOES LIKE PROGRAM AND DAD IS DOING FINE AS YOU ALREADY KNOW.CANDY LOOKS GREAT. DAD LOOKS GREAT ALSO. EVERYONE LOOKS OK FROM THE OUTSIDE,BUT I KNOW WE HAVE ALWAYS BEEN BLOCKERS WHEN IT CAME TO SHOWING PAIN AND EMOTION SOMETIMES IT'S ALMOST SCAREY TO DEAL WITH THE REAL FEELINGS I JUST DON'T WANT TO FACE REALITY OF YOU BEING GONE AND I GUESS I/WE DISPLACE OUR TRUE FEELINGS.I'M SORRY THAT I HAVEN'T WRITTEN IN A WHILE BUT I HAVE A PROBLEM SOMETIMES DEALING WITH THE PAIN KNOWING THAT THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO FEEL THAT WE ARE TALKING TO YOU. I MISS AND LOVE YOU,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,MOM.
LOVE,
TERRY

MOM, I'M SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG FOR ME TO WRITE FOR MOTHER'S DAY. IT WAS A VERY TOUGH TIME FOR US ALL. I HOPE YOU WILL LIKE THE FLOWERS WE GOT YOU THIS YEAR.
I FOUND SOME BLAZE CLIMBING ROSES THIS YEAR AND I HAD TO BUY EVERY CHEAP ONE.
YOU ALWAYS HAD THE BEST CLIMBERS AROUND.
FUNNY HOW YOU BOUGHT THEM CHEAP AT RITE AID AND JUST STUCK THEM IN THEY GROUND AND THE WOULD GROW.
I HAVE BABIED EVERY BLAZE I'VE BOUGHT AND IT NEVER GROWS BACK.
I FOUND SOME AT PRICE CHOPPER A FEW DAYS AGO AND I PLANTED THEM FOR YOU. PLEASE HELP ME HERE AS YOU KNOW MY PAST WITH ROSES. I ALMOST THOUGHT I LOST YOUR ROSE BUSH FROM YOUR FUNERAL, BUT YOU CAME SHINING THROUGH AND IT'S GOING TO MAKE IT.
AS YOU KNOW WE ARE WORKING VERY HARD ON JOLENE AND JOEL'S NEW HOUSE. I'M SURE YOU HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH THIS GREAT FIND.
THE GIRLS ARE SO EXCITED ABOUT THEIR NEW HOUSE AND BEDROOM.
WE DID JOSEPH'S ROOM LAST NIGHT IN TRUCKS AND CLOUDS; IT TURNED OUT NICE.
WE ARE SO VERY BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH A LARGE FAMILY WITH SO MUCH LOVE AND CARING FOR EACH OTHER. THANK YOU FOR OUR NEW BABIES AND OUR OLDER BABIES MOM AND THANK YOU FOR INSTILLING INTO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US..THE LOVE FOR FAMILY AND EACH OTHER. SOMETIMES THIS LOVE IS THE ONLY THING THAT GETS US THROUGH OUR GRIEF.
I'M GLAD TO BE BUSY RIGHT NOW WITH THE NEW HOME FOR THE KIDS. IT KEEPS MY MIND OCCUPIED. JOSEPH IS DOING WELL AND EATING LIKE A PIG. BUT, HE IS A GOOD BABY AND TRULY A BLESSING FOR US. I WISH YOU COULD HAVE GIVEN OUR BABIES ONE OF YOUR VERY SPECIAL CHEEKY KISSES. I GIVE HIM ONE NOW AND THEN AND I TELL HIM, IT'S FROM YOU.
MORIAH IS GETTING SO GROWN UP NOW YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE IT. MALLORY IS ALSO GETTING TO BE A BIG GIRL. BELIEVE IT OR NOT SHE MAY BE OUR NEXT COOK. SHE LIKES TO WATCH COOKING ON T.V...PROBABLY MUCH TO JOLENE'S CHAGRIN.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM!
WE LOVE YOU,
JACKIE AND JOE

HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS DAY MOM,AS YOU KNOW I SAID IT TO YOU ON MOTHERS DAY ANYWAY BUT NOW ITS IN WRITING.WE ALL MISS YOU AND IT WAS A VERY HARD AND DIFFICULT DAY I FEEL SO UNHAPPY THAT YOUR NOT HERE PHYSICALLY BUT IN SPIRIT I BET YOU ARE.WE WENT TO BREAKFAST WITH NIKKI,TODD,KEIRDON AND SISSY,WE HAD A GREAT BREAKFAST AT FRIENDLY'S BY THE MALL.THE PEOPLE IN A BOOTHE BEHIND US WERE BREAKING IN SILENCE FOR THEIR MOM WHO MUST OF BEEN SPENDING HER MOMS DAY WITH GOD AND HIS ANGELS ALSO AND WE ALSO HAD A QUIET MOMENT FOR YOU.I WOULDN'T HAVE NOTICED UNTIL NIKKI TOLD ME ABOUT IT .SHE LOOKED UPSET AND THEN SHE TOLD ME WHAT THEY WERE DOING AND WE SOOO KNEW HOW AND WHAT THEY WERE FEELING:(.
I GOT A REALLY COOL LARGE MIRROR FOR THE LIVING ROOM FROM NIKK,TODD AND THE KIDS.LEIGH ANN,CARY AND SAVANNAH GAVE ME SOME BEAUTIFUL CLOTHES AND PERFUME AND TOOK ME OUT FOR LUNCH AT MY CHOICE THE NEXT DAY TO CHINA BUFFET.....I'M SURE LUCKY TO HAVE MY FAMILY THAT I WOULDN'T OF HAD WITHOUT YOU AND DAD.IT'S SO LONELY WITHOUT YOU I HOPE YOU LIKED THE FLOWERS WE GOT YOU FOR MOM'S DAY. SANDI HELPED ME HANDLE SOME OF THE PAIN SHARING OUR PAIN FOR MISSING OUR MOMS TOGETHER SHE IS SUCH A GREAT PERSON AND SHE UNDERSTANDS IF ANYONE DOES AND GOD BLESS HER FOR BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL PERSON SHE HAS HELPED ME SO MANY TIMES TO DEAL WITH YOUR LOSS AND I TRULEY THANK HER FOR THAT.....WELL UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.I LOVE AND MISS YOU ETERNALLY.....XOXOXOXOOXOX TERRY

Hi Gram,
Happy Mother's Day! I tried as much as I could to enjoy Mother's Day but there was such an emptiness inside of me. I know that I am very lucky to have my mom and my family around but my heart just aches without you here. I just keep thinking back to last year and how I never thought it would be the last one that we would celebrate with you. I do feel very lucky that I got to see you almost every day when I was living at my moms. Everything happens for a reason I guess. The kids are doing well. I wish you could hold Macey. She is so sweet. I know you brought her to me safely. Jack is still Jack. Very loud...very funny. I miss you so much.
Love you!

Happy Mothers Day, Mom
It has been a solemn day for us all.
It feels like we are just going through the motions and not really living.
Bobby has a little kitty, compliments of his brother. Her name is Brownie and she is wicked fast and so cute. We did not want another cat because Penney is not receptive to other animals;;;;;; that was her stepping on the keyboard. Bobby is still playing basketball. He did hurt his shoulder yesterday and we hope it's not something serious.Dad worked around the yard with the moo doo today.Michael cooked all the mothers a great meal today.He made macaroni salad, hot dogs and hamburgers. It was very good.
Kelly had a beautiful piece of coconut cake and he was very happy with it.We love you mom.
Michele,Bob & Bobby

Happy Mothers Day Mom
I have been remembering back on last Mothers Day.I wish there was someway we could of known it would of been our last.It was the last two weeks we had with you.We all miss you so very much.Today we all tried to make it through this very sad day for all of us.I am sure each and every one of us were re-living last year wishing we could have it back.If we only knew then what we know know.I know that you were here with us today knowing it was a sad day for all of us.I love You Mom.
Happy Mothers Day Mom....From each and every one of your family..
hugs and kisses..to our wonderful wife and Mom...

hey Gram!
I got an 84 on my bio final. i have been testing during the past week it's a bit crazy. next week Savannah goes in for her surgery (tonsillectomy and adenoidectomy) I am dreading it but looking forward to it at the same time! I know that probably sounds strange. The other night we took the kids bowling and then to pizza hut! they had a blast we should get all the kids in the family togather and do it it would be fun!then we went to see the house aunt Jackie bought and i know that between her and jolene it will look great in no time at all. well i should end here I am getting computer head, and my eyes need a rest.
love you. Leigh

Hi Gram, the story of your visit to my father still gives me cold chill just thinking about it. He isn't into all that "hokey-poky" stuff as he would call it, but he feels like this was defiantly a hello from you . Poor Amber and Jeremy have been through soo much the past few months, but they have been dealing with everything so well. the babies are doing great Baby jo-jo is such a little piglet, and gets up every 2 hours to eat.We were all outside the other day at aunt Candy's, nikki myself and all the kids, and grampa and kelly were there and I was thinking how nice it was to have him there, visiting and watching and laughing at the kids. He has come so far with the family and the love for us all. Kelly is doing so great, he looks thin and healthy, gramp has done such a wonderful job with him. The girls are doing great with the baby, they are such good big sisters. They love to feed and hold him, they ask every day after school to hold and kiss him. It's great to be able to go to Aunt Candy's to have coffee and visit with everyone, just like your house. all the kids, jack,keirdon, kaydon, keighlee, moriah, mallory,savanah ,play so great
together it reminds me of us as kids playing kick ball at your house. Well gotta go for now it's getting late. Hugs and kisses
Love ya lots love Jolene

hey gram
i got a 90 on my bio exam, it was on dna and replication. it makes me feel smarter just typing it,lol!!!!I got a 95 on math too. School is winding down now and all the proffessors are trying to catch up. It's insane! I can't believe it has almost been a year, it still feels pretty fresh...savannah will be going to kindergarten in the fall and she is a bit reluctant...but i can't wait...next month on may 12 or 14 what ever day falls on a wednesday savannah will get her tonsils and adenoids removed. I'm a little nervous about that. I heard you visited uncle Joe. you always made your own distict impression. I guess some things never change. There is this show called george lopez, and the grandmother kinda reminds me of a latino you. i have to laugh because it's funny how much it reminds me of you. it is a little exaggerated, but what do you expect from tv? well i have to go to bed it feels pretty late, although it is only 11:40. I'll type again soon gram.
much love.
leighann

HI MOM,
I'M SO PROUD OF LEIGHANN GOING TO COLLEGE AND MOST OF THE LITTLE ONES GOING TO PRESCHOOL AND DOING SO WELL.MIKE AND HIS DAD ARE WORKING ON MY MUFFLER AS I WRITE THIS,NOT TO MENTION MY BLAZER HAS A LEAK COMING FROM THE RADIATOR,THEY PROBABLY WILL CHECK IT OUT.WELL,WE HAVE HAD HAD THE BLAZER AS YOU KNOW FOR QUITE AWHILE NOW AND THATS WHEN IT ALL STARTS TO FALL APART. I DON'T WANT TO GO TO WORK TOMORROW,I'M WORKING WITH THE 2 MAJOR HARD BUTT DRS TO WORK WITH AND IT IS SO DARN TOUGH TO WORK WITH TWO PROVIDERS AT THE SAME TIME ESPECIALLY WITH DOING THE ACUTE CARE WHICH IS SUPER BUSY ALMOST LIKE THE OPENING OF THE GREAT ESCAPE,BUT WORSE.I HOPE IT'S A NICE DAY AND WE WON'T BE SOOO BUSY.I MISS HAVING THESE DISCUSSIONS WITH YOU AND YOU WOULD ACT AS IF YOU WERE INTERESTED EVEN IF I MAY OF BORED YOU,EXCEPT THE TIME DR C SAID,"TWO WORDS AND GET OUT." WHICH YOU LOVED THAT STORY AND I GUESS IT WAS PRETTY FUNNY TO YOU AND BOBBY,BUT TO ME, IT SUCKED AND MADE ME MAD.NOW I THINK BACK ABOUT IT AND I NOW CHUCKLE.
TODAY IS SATURDAY AND SOMEWHAT WARM,I GUESS IT MAY START BEING WARMER OUT SINCE IT'S ALMOST MAY.I MISS YOU MOM AND CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN !!!!!!
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,MOM,I LOVE AND ETERNALLY MISS YOU :)

LOVE,OXOXOXOX
TERRY:)

Hi MOM,
I,ve missed talking to you. it's been a busy few months, but all the babies are here! They are all doing well. Sam and Macey have some reflux and Macey is on a breathing monitor, which I'm sure would have made you panic, but it's OK. They will both do well.
Joseph is a very nice change for Jolene, considering Mallory's personality... she is truly blessed with her third baby so far.
Joe as you probably know is very happy about a male finally, although he says he would have been just as happy with a girl. It's probably true, since he loves his little girls and they love him as well.
He is a great Papa, as I'm sure you know.
He is as good a husband as he is a Papa. I could not have made a better choice as a husband,

Yet you knew that already and often told me so.
I miss you so very much still and
as the time comes close for the year mark, I can't help but feel the loss so very fresh again. I hope we can all get through it.
I'm sure you will help us to try.
Thank you for our distractions this year to help us get through. All the pregnancies helped, as well as trying to get Kelly in CWI and settled.
You would and I'm sure... am very, very proud of Kelly MOM.
Kelly loves CWI and... exercise...as he calls it. Dad has excelled with Kelly.
Both Joe and I miss and love you so very much.
TILL WE MEET AGAIN MOM, WE LOVE YOU.
JOE AND JACKIE

HEY GRAM;
I'M SORRY I KNOW IT'S BEEN AWHILE. OUR PC HAS BEEN DOWN, AND WITH SCHOOL, WORK , BIRTHDAYS, AND SICKNESSES.... WELL YOU KNOW HOW IT HAS BEEN.... I AM ACTUALLY TYPING THIS UP AT SCHOOL, AND EVEN HERE THEY ARE HAVING TROUBLE WITH THE COMPUTERS. MODERN TECHNOLOGY, GOTTA LOVE IT! CARY AND I WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT YOU THE OTHER NIGHT, HOW IT TOOK MOST OF THE FAMILY TO TAKE YOUR PLACE. OF COURSE, THE WORLD ISN'T AS BRIGHT, BUT THEY HAVE MANAGED TO PULL TOGETHER NICELY. I THINK THAT SAYS SOMETHING NICE ABOUT YOUR TIME WITH US HERE. SAVANNAH GOT HER FIRST REPORT CARD AND SCORED THE HIGHEST ON ALL CATAGORIES. THE TEACHER HAS NO DOUBT ABOUT HER CAPABILITIES, AND SENDING HER TO KINDERGARTEN. IT FILLED MY HEART WITH SUCH PRIDE TO HEAR THAT, AND THAT THE TEACHER OFTEN USED SAVANNAH AS A ROLE MODEL OF GOOD BEHAVIOR. I REMEBER I COULD NOT USUALLY WAIT TO SHOW OFF MY REPORT CARD FOR THAT DOLLAR PAY OFF. WELL UNTILL HIGH SCHOOL ANYWAY. I WONDER IF IT WILL BE THAT WAY FOR HER AS WELL. PROBABLY. I AM SAD THAT YOU CAN'T BE HEAR WITH US, BUT I KNOW THAT YOU ARE HERE IN SPIRIT, AND THAT TRULY YOU ARE AWARE EVEN BEFORE I TYPE THIS OF THE GOINGS ON IN OUR LIVES. MY DICTATOR ENGLISH TEACHER GAVE ME AN 86 ON MY LAST TEST. WHICH IS LIKE THE HIGHEST GRADE I HAVE EVER ACHIEVED IN HIS CLASS. BUT I HEAR AMBER AND AUNT JACKIE HAD TROUBLE WITH HIM TOO, SO I FEEL A LITTLE RELIEVED. EVERYONE THAT CAME TO KEIRDONS 5TH B-DAY SEEMED TO HAVE A GREAT TIME. SAVANNAH ACTUALLY FELL ASLEEP AT 9:30 LAST NIGHT, THE PARTY TUCKERED HER RIGHT OUT. ATLEAST YOU DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT CATCHING ALL THE ILLNESS THAT HAS BEEN OUT AND ABOUT LATELY. IT'S HORRIBLE EVERY ONE IS OR HAS BEEN SICK, AND I AM REALLY STARTING TO WONDER IS THIS THE BEGINNING OF THE END? COULD WE BE HITTING THE REVELATION ERA? JuST SO MUCH ILLNESS, AND NEGATIVE THINGS IN SOCIETY. I WONDER HOW LONG BEFORE WE HIT THE CULMINATION? WELL I GUESS I SHOULD END HERE.CARY AND I SHARE LITTLE IN COMMON, BUT AMAZINGLY ENOUGH WE ARE HEADING INTO YEAR SIX. AND WE WOULD LIKE TO GET AWAY FOR A BIT BEFORE SAVANNAH'S SURGERY. SO I AM GOING TO RESEARCH A BIT ON LOCATIONS THAT AREN'T TOO FAR AWAY, SO WE CAN GET AWAY. IT MAY BE JUST WHAT WE NEED TO ENABLE US TO GET TO YEAR SEVEN!
WELL I LOVE YOU GRAM AND I WILL BE IN TOUCH AGAIN SOON.LOVE, LEIGHANN

HI MOM,
WELL, ANOTHER HOLIDAY WITHOUT YOU:(,JUST SEEMED LIKE IT TOOK FOREVER,FINALLY PASSED BY AND ANOTHER SAD HUMP TO TRY TO DEAL WITH,BUT FOR KELLY AND DADS' SAKE WE GOT THROUGH IT. DAD DID SUCH A NICE JOB TO MAKE KELLY HAPPY FOR EASTER ,I BET YOU WERE IMPRESSED.... WE ALL WENT OVER TO SPEND TIME WITH THEM.KELLY WAS IN A GOOD MOOD AND IT WAS NICE TO SEE THEM.WE HAD EASTER OVER TO TODD AND NIKKI'S ,WITH LEIGHANN ,SAVANNAH AND TODDS GRAM AS USUAL TODD AND NIKKI DID A GREAT JOB WITH THE CULINARY EXPERIENCE SO DID LEIGHANN AND MYSELF. THE KIDS WERE GREAT ENJOYING THE EASTER HOLIDAY.WELL, WE ARE HAVING KEIRDONS 5TH BIRTHDAY TOMORROW AT THEIR HOUSE IN THE GARAGE,TODD ORDERED A BOUNCEY HOUSE AND A BUNCH OF PEOPLE COMING OVER DUE TO IT BEING THE BIG # 5 B-DAY. WE PUT A LITTLE THING IN THE POST STAR WITH KEIRDON'S PIC IN IT .WE ARE HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME TRYING TO DEAL WITH LIFE WITHOUT SEEING YOU AND BOY IT SURE IS DIFFICULT..I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN WRITING YOU BUT THAN AGAIN, IT'S PROBABLY MY WAY OF NOT FACING THIS TORMENT OF OUR LOSS.I SOOOOOOOOO MISS YOU AND I KNOW I CAN SPEAK FOR THE REST OF OUR FAMILY,WE MISS AND LOVE YOU OOOOOOOOOHH SOOOO MUCH .I WILL LET YOU GO FOR NOW ,UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.........
XOXOXO LOVE,TERRY

Granny, As you are aware, the Easter Bunny filled in this weekend for the stork. The stork was on a long weekend due to the holiday. So instead of candy and eggs we received baby Joseph Anthony Davis.We all think he looks just like Maggie, did when she was a baby. The girls are like little moms its going to be great.John and Grace were down also i think they may have the itch for a baby soon they looked like they were enjoying the baby.I am sure they will wait until after October.Well I better let you go due to fact you are at a table having coffee and talking about one of us, with a new friend or Bat-Boy.Love and miss you very, very much.

Hi Mom, Happy Easter!
It's been awhile but we haven't forgot about you. We think of you every day with fondness and love.All the kids are growing up too fast. For Easter dinner I made a turkey dinner at home for Colin,Jodi and the kids. We invited Dad and Kelly, but I think he was happier working on his truck. You know how noisy these little ones can get. Bob still drifts off sometimes and I know he longs for
that cup of coffee with you. No one can fill that void. We love going to Candy's & Sherry's so new traditions are starting. We have been busy on weekends with Bobby and Basketball.
He is playing on a travel team and AAU and it goes through the end of June. Then he has the summer program at ACC. We got our camper
and the dealer is supposed to bring it to the campground in May.Sherry & Mike (who is counting the days) will be right next to us. I envision just good times with family and friends enjoying nature and having lots of laughs. You will be there too!!
Well, Bob has shaved his head and he still looks good--he and Timmy are off to Myrtle Beach at the end of the month to play golf. Bobby
and I will be lost without him. You know how he hates the winter and someday wants to live in the warmer weather. Our kitchen has taken on a new look-- we hired a guy to strip the wallpaper and paint the walls. The color is called Balsom Fir it's a bluish green and we love it. He has done a beautiful job! I want to paint all my rooms now and get my spring cleaning done early. Sometimes I think I am manic!! Had to bring Penney to the vets today she's been off a little but Dr. Glendenning thinks its the disruption in our routine with the painter and kids visiting. Our family sure has a lot of anxiety, even our pets, for petes sake! Bob wants to know if you shut our TV off the other night when Little Bobby was down in the basement playing a game? It's getting late and I should go to bed. Talk to you soon. We Love You Mom. Michele, Bob, & Bobby XOXOXO

Happy Easter Mom
We all Love and miss you
I am sure every single one of us had you on our minds today as we do every day.I am sure you are with us all.Each and everyone of us has our own little message from you.
Till we meet again
all my love.

HI MOM,

WELL,KELLY'S 40TH BIRTHDAY WAS NICE AND KELFRED WAS HAPPY TO SEE ALL THE PRESENTS AS WE KNEW HE WOULD!
I FELT AS THOUGH YOU WERE THERE AS I KNEW YOU WOULDN'T OF BEEN ANYWHERE ELSE ON YOUR BUD'S BIG 4-0. I HAD TO WORK AS YOU KNOW BUT I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING DAD AND KELFRED. DAD WAS KIND OF QUIET AND I KNOW BECAUSE HE WAS MISSING YOU AS WE ALL DO ,EVER SO MUCH,THERE ISN'T A DAY THAT GOES BY WHERE WE DON'T HAVE YOU ON OUR MINDS NOR WILL THERE EVER BE UNLESS WE GET SOME KIND OF ALZHEIMERS.. IT'S SO HARD TO PRETEND,THE HEARTACHE IS SO TERMINAL AND HARD TO UNDERSTAND EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT .I FEEL SUCH A VOID IN MY LIFE WITH YOU BEING GONE AND SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE I'M JUST LOST IN YOUR LOSS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH IT.I ONLY DO BECAUSE I HAVE THE REST OF THE FAMILY WHOM I ALSO LOVE VERY DEARLY AND I DON'T MEAN ANYTHING TOWARD THEM THAT I FEEL SO LONELY WITHOUT YOU,BUT I HOPE THAT IF THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING ,IS THAT I LOST MY DEAREST BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD THAT I'M HAVING A HARD TIME DEALING WITH,AND I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT HOW MUCH I WOULD MISS YOU AND NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD EVER COME AND ITS A HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE WHERE IN MY HEART AND SOUL ,I CAN'T WAKE UP. I WISH I COULD AND START ALL OVER AGAIN BUT REALISTICALLY I KNOW WE CAN'T....A HUGE THANK YOU TO JACKIE AND JOE FOR THIS SITE,WE LOVE YOU...
UNITL WE MEET AGAIN....
I LOVE AND MISS YOU ,OXOXOX ME

Hi Gram, haven't chatted in a while, it's amazing how the time has zipped by. I am still pregnant, keeping baby Joseph in as long as I can, 35 weeks pregnant already, baby is doing well, and at my last appointment I was 1cm dilated. We had a great time at Kell-dell's birthday party, he was sooo excited, sneaking a peek every now and again into the gift bags, I would say to him " what do you think your doing!!!" and he would just laugh that laugh of his knowing he had been caught but just too excitied to hold back. Mallory kept asking we you were and I was telling her that you were still in heaven watching over all of us. The girls had intended on sending you up a balloon each, from the party, the next day after school, but the balloons had deflated overnight, so they are sending their love. We miss you much Gram.
Love, Jolene

Hi Mom
Can you believe it today is Kelly's 40thbirthday.He is all excited about getting a bib big present.He was at Candys for a little bit then I had him come visit me for a little bit.Mo was bringing him a present at noontime.Candy walked him back to Dads.We are all going over tonight to celebrte his big day.Andrea and David is making his 40th birthday cake.Bobby and Michele are making chili and Jackie and Joe are bringing chili also.Candy is making the Jonny cake.Terry and mike are bring the soda.Terry is working all day.I will be bring a vareity of Ice cream.Lori wants to decorate.Candy and I will get balloons.he will have a great birthday.Dad has been searching the house for Kellys you are my sunshine flower.I hope he finds it.Our newest additions Macey and Sam will meet the members of the family that they havent met yet.we miss you so much mom.I am sure you know that.On that note i will say.Until we meet again. I Love You Alawys...

Granny, it is 2/01/08 already, can you believe this, I guess you already know the girls are gone wild with the baby thing.Lori started it, now Amber and Jolene is the next in line to give us all another. What will we all do with all these babies? I guess Dad and Kelly will be good baby sitters. this would be good payback for both of them. We all miss, and Love, you very much talk to you at a later time, Love Ya, Joe.

HI MOM,
IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I LAST WROTE YOU AS YOU KNOW I DO TALK TO YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE AND I DO HAVE A TOUGH TIME SOMETIMES,WE'LL AS YOU KNOW LORI HAD A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE LADY NAMED,MACIE ANN.SHE IS GORGEOUS AS WE KNEW SHE WOULD BE,AND SHE HAS YOUR MIDDLE NAME AND THAT'S PROBABLY WHY SHE WAS BORN TOO EARLY.SHE AS WE KNOW IS ALREADY IMPATIENT SINCE SHE WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE BORN UNTIL MARCH AROUND THE 15TH.MACIE WEIGHED IN AT 4LBS 15 OZS JANUARY 31,08. SHE LOOKS ALMOST AS IF SHE WAS FULL TERM ,THANK GOD MACIE ANN AND LORI ARE DOING FINE.MACIE HAS TO STAY IN THE GFH X 1 WEEK .WE ARE SO EXCITED FOR LORI,RYAN JACK AND MACIE. JACK SAID,MACIE LOOKS LIKE KYLEIGH,I GUESS BECAUSE MACIE HAS DARK HAIR.
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT AMBER IS BACK IN THE SNUGGERY TO BE INDUCED AGAIN,THE SAME DAY THAT MACIE WAS BORN,WHAT A CRAZY DAY! ! NOW WE ARE WAITING FOR AMBER,I THINK TOMORROW WILL BE THE DAY (SATURDAY FEB 2,08). WE GOT A NEW COMPUTER,NOW I WILL BE ON MORE OFTEN.DAD AND KELLY ARE DOING FINE,DADS DOING PRETTY GOOD AFTER HIS SURGERY AND KELLY HAS BEEN HAVING A GOOD TIME GOING FROM HOUSE TO HOUSE JUST SPENDIDNG SOME TIME WITH EACH OF US AND WE ENJOYING HIM ALSO.. I MISS YOU TO PIECES MOM. EVERYONE DOES AND WILL ALWAYS WILL UNTIL WE SEE YOU AGAIN...I LOVE AND MISS YOU.
LOVE,
TERRY

Hi Gram,
Just wanted to let you know that Mom is fulfilling her promise that she made to you before you passed. She mas been there for Gramp everyday, whether it be a phone call or stopping by to visit, picking something up at the store, shoveling, cleaning or taking Kelly so that Gramp can run some errands. Aunt Candy has been there everyday too. They both make me so proud because they are living their lives making sure that they have no regrets...which is something neither of them did before. You have brought out so many good qualities in people. I hope that I have that sort of impact on someone in my lifetime.
Miss you bunches
Love ya

Good morning Mom
Dad is doing real well from his surgery.We put him on our family plan cell phone and he got a new cell phone and he really seems to be getting all of the things it can do down real fast.It is a better phone than mine.It can take picures and do videos.Jage won his wrestling match Sat in scotia.He had 3 of them all in one day.(he won them all.)Michele and Bobby were also in Scotia at the same time at the same school for little Bobby,s basketball game (which he also won)Michele got to see jage wrestle,Bobby went for coffee and missed it.then my Michelle went to watch little Bobby play.She called and said Mom he is very good.Amber came home No new baby yet.The baby had other plans and made sure it wasn't about to be born yet.So I guess you could say this little one already has a mind of its own.Kelly has benn making the rounds since dads surgery.I had him friday.Candy (as busy as she has been with Amber) stayed friday night.Terry took him to her house Saturday.Jackie took him to her house Sunday,Andrea is taking him to her house today and Michele and Bobby are taking him to thier house tommorrow.It gives dad a chance to rest when he need it and not have to woory about kell.Although Kelly is no problem.We all figured it was nice for kelly to go visit his family.We all miss you so very much mom..Not one day goes buy without us feeling our loss.I have to get ready for work now so I will have to say.I love and miss you.
hugs and kisses

Hi Mom,
Sorry I haven't written in a long time. We had some trouble with our computer and to be quite honest the days have just gotten away from us. Happy Belated Birthday. On your birthday I was awake just after midnight and thought of how Bob & I would call and sing to you because, we wanted to be the first ones to bring you best wishes. The same with New Years Eve. We did call dad & Kelly but Sherry beat us to it. That's okay. It's so lonesome without you and there isn't a day that goes by that you are not thought of in one way or another. Just last night we were talking about how people's taste buds change every so often.Little Bobby was taken back by his father because, he said"he never used to like grandmas sauce until the last few years" Bobby said his father was nuts because "grams sauce was the best and he always loved it" Oh, what we wouldn't do to have some of that sauce right now!!!!!!!
If you can believe it, Bobby got his High School Course selection guide today. Baby Bobby will be going into 9th grade this year. Today they decided to hurry Amber along with the baby because of her BP and we pray everyone will be okay. Dad came through with flying colors with his hernia operation today. The nurse said he was her best and easiest patient of the day.In recovery he looked great. Candy commented on his legs and we laughed hysterically thinking of you and your comments about his bird legs.He was resting comfortably tonite in front of the tv-- Kelly, too.Well, must sign off for now it's about 1:45am and we have to get up early for Bobby's game in Scotia. Love from all of us.Michele, Bob & Bobby

MOM,
ALOT GOING ON HERE. DAD HAD HIS SURGERY AND IS DOING WELL. AMBER IS GETTING INDUCED TOMORROW. IT'S ALL HAPPENING SO VERY FAST. SHE IS NOT DUE FOR ANOTHER 4 WEEKS. THE LITTLE ONE IS A ONLY A MERE FOUR AND A HALF POUNDS. WE ARE ALL EXCITED......ESPECIALLY SINCE WE DON,T KNOW THE SEX YET ( ALTHOUGH YOU KNOW DON'T YOU ). WE ARE ALSO WORRIED ABOUT HER. BE WITH HER AND KEEP HER AND THE LITTLE ONE SAFE FOR US MOM. I KNOW IT'S NOT ALWAYS IN YOUR POWER. CANDY HAS BEEN A REAL ANGEL FOR DAD, MOM. SHE HAS BEEN THERE EVERYDAY FOR DAD AND KELLY.

JOLENE WAS TAKEN OUT OF WORK AND STILL HAS THE SAME OLD LUCK THAT SHE ALWAYS DOES, BUT SHE WILL MANAGE THROUGH IT ALL.
JOE WAS OFFERED A JOB WITH ZEP. HE IS GOING TO EXCEPT IT I THINK. I'M SURE YOUR VERY HAPPY ABOUT THAT.
LOVE AND MISS YOU MOM,
LOVE JACKIE AND JOE

MOM ,
I'M SORRY, I TRIED TO WRITE YOU YESTERDAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY, BUT I ...ONCE AGAIN GOT KICKED OFF.
I MISS YOU VERY MUCH AND THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY DAY. SHERRY MADE ME SING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU WITH HER YESTERDAY.
IT WAS VERY SAD FOR BOTH OF US. I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW I MADE IT THROUGH THE WHOLE SONG WITHOUT BREAKING DOWN.
WE ALL THOUGHT ABOUT YOU AND MANY TIMES THROUGH THE DAY, WHENEVER I HAD TO WRITE THE DATE...WHICH IS VERY OFTEN, I THOUGHT OF YOU.
WE ALL MISS YOU SOOO VERY VERY MUCH.
IT'S HARD TO GET THROUGH SOME DAYS.
I LOVE YOU AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY.

LOVE JACKIE AND JOE

Happy birthday gram, sorry a day late as always I am a day late or dollar short, thats just how things go for me. Anyways love you lots and miss you much.The girls and Joel say happy birthday also. Love you!!!
love Jolene

Granny, Happy Birthday.I know how much you love everybody knowing it is your Birthday, and how old or was it young you are. Hope your day is good. Love you, Your best son inlaw or as you told all of us the same thing.Love Joe..

Happy Birthday Gram!!!!
I remember last year we were picking the edible (or not so edible) flowers off the beautiful birthday cake Aunt Andrea made for you. You had a housefull. Mom took so many pictures, as she always does. I am so glad that she did. Jack asked me if God was having a birthday party for you today....I said "Of Course he is!!". I miss you so much Gram. Today will be a hard day for the family but we will get through it thanks to all the wonderful memories we have.
Love you

"Happy Birthday Mom"
I wish you were here so we could all take our turns to call and sing to you.I have all of the memories and pictures of last years birthday,If there was someway we could of known it would of been the last one we would of spent with you.there probably really wasnt much more we could of done except hold on to your thank you hug a little longer.We are so thankful that we had you as long as we did.We all thought we would have you another 20 -25 years.We never dreamed that as healthy as you were that anything else would ever happen.So now we struggle thu each day especially every first holiday.Tonight we will all be with you in our thought as all will be saying Happy Birthday to our Mom that we all love and miss so very much no matter where we are or what we are doing I know Dad,Bobby & Michele,Michael & I,Jackie & Joe,Terry & mike,Candy,Andrea & David,Kelly and every one of your grandchildren and great granchildren will be with you,wishing ann singing you their own very special Happy Birthday.
Happy Birthday To our Very Special Lady "Our Mom" "Grandmother" and "Great Grandmother"
We all love and Miss you so very much as I am sure you know.
I Love You:
"Hugs and Kisses"
"Happy Birthday"

GRAM;
I HAVE HAD A BUSY WEEK THIS WEEK AND I AM TIRED. DR. HUGHES WOULD LIKE TO REMOVE SAVANNAH'S TONSILS AND ADENOIDS. IT'S SUCH A SIMPLE THING I FEEL SO SILLY FOR BEING OVERWHELMED AT MAKING THIS DECISION. CARY DOESN'T AGREE WITH ANY DOCTOR SO OF COURSE HE ISN'T REALLY SUPPORTIVE OF THIS. I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHAT WE WILL DO....COLLEGE STARTS UP ON JAN. 22, AND I ALREADY FEEL LIKE I'M IN CLASSES WITH THE REGISTRATION, FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE AND LOAN APPLICATION PROCESSES NOT TO MENTION THE LONG LIST OF NECCASARY PAPERWORK. I'M TAKING 5 CLASSES THIS SEMESTER. MATH(EUYUCK!),ENGLISH BIOLOGY AND PSYCHOLOGY. I KNOW THAT EQUALS FOUR CLASSES BUT ONE CLASS(BIOLOGY) HAS AN EXTRA CLASS OF LABS, AND WELL SINCE I NEED BRAIN POWER TO PASS IT I COUNT IT AS A CLASS. THERE HAS BEEN ALOT OF RESPIRATORY ISSUES AT WORK PATIENT WISE AND I HAVE BEEN CALLED IN DAILY SO I FEEL LIKE A LIMP RAG. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE EASIER IF I WAS IN BETTER SHAPE; BUT AS ALWAYS I AM WORKING ON THAT. I WAS BRIEFLY DISCUSSING YOU WITH A NURSE I WORK WITH AND HOW STRONG THE GRIEF STILL FELT AND SHE JUST SAID THAT AS AMERICANS WE EXPECT EVERYTHING INSTANTLY AND AREN'T ALLOWED THE PROPER AMOUNT OF TIME TO GRIEVE. I KNOW THIS IS TRUE OF MY MOM. I SEE HER SILENT MOMENTS AND SOME BLEAKNESS IN HER EYES. I KNOW THAT THERE ISN'T ANYTHING I CAN SAY TO MAKE IT BETTER BUT I WISH I COULD. I COULD NOT IMAGINE LOSING HER AND KNOW THAT I WOULD NEVER GET OVER IT, IN THAT RESPECT I GUESS I CAN GUESS AT HER FEELINGS, BUT I KNOW THAT IT ISN'T REALLY TRULY THE SAME. I KNOW THAT MY INPUT INTO THIS IS CATHARTIC AND I THINK IT HELPS EVERYONE UNLOAD SOME GRIEF, LETTER BY LETTER.IN A WAY YOU ARE STILL THE WAY TO GET THE GOSSIP. I DIDN'T HEAR ABOUT JOHN AND GRACES ENGAGEMENT UNTILL I READ IT HERE. IN YOUR BOOK. HOW IRONIC IS THAT? I'M SURE YOU ARE SMILING AT THE THOUGHT. ALL MY LOVE FOREVER,
LEIGHANN

Happy new year gram,
We missed you so much over the holidays, but managed to put on our smiling faces.
All is going fairly well here, Joel is taking some computer classes and working with aunt Alice at ACC. Moriah is doing great in school and is reading at a much higer level than her grade, Mallory is a little "tyrant" who has a "sick" sense of humor that you would find entertaining, I believe she is actually aunt Terry's long lost child as she is much like her, with her unlucky and misfortune yet happy and funny personality. I am again out of work on bed rest, which brings back a lot of memories of when I was out with Mallorys pregnancy and would go to your house weekly to get my fill of gossip and more junk food than I could possibly stand. This is why I partially blamed you for those 60lbs I put on. Ha-Ha!!! Talk to you soon, we all miss you very much gram.

Love always, Jolene, Joel, Moriah, Mallory and baby Joseph Anthony.

MO9M,
HAPPY NEW YEAR,MOM,
WE ALL LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH.
FROM YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR INLAWS, YOU HAVE MADE SUCH AN IMPRESSION ON ALL OF US, THAT WE FEEL WE CAN'T KEEP UP WITH YOU.

WHAT A WOMAN YOU WERE..... WE ALL MODEL OURSELVES AFTER YOU. IT WILL NOT BE EASY TO KEEP UP.... TO LOVE SOMEONE, SO VERY UNCONDITIONAL IS SCARY....IT GIVES A LOT OF POWER TO THE PEOPLE WE LOVE.
I GUESS IT'S OK TO LET SOMEONE ELSE HAVE SOME POWER. YOU ALWAYS HAD THE POWER TO LET US KNOW YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

IS WAS A VERY SPECIAL GIFT FROM YOU MOM AND WE AL APPRECIATE IT.

WE ARE ALL LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEW YEAR AND ARE ALL HOPING IT WILL BE BETTER THAN THE LAST YEAR.
WE HAVE SO MUCH TO LOOK FORWARD TO, WEDDINGS COMING AND OUR NEW BABIES.
WE LOOK THROUGH IT ALL WITH THE FORESIGHT THAT ALL WILL BE WELL.
I HOPE THAT ITS TRUE.

WE ALL LOVE YOU MOM,
JACKIE AND JOE

Granny, its Joe as if you did not know.We all miss you dearly, I think everything is going as you would like. We all have our ups and downs, The big thing is we all go back to what you taught us all, this keeps us all moving forward thank YOU.As you are aware a lot of things are happining this year all the babbies john and Graces Wedding .Kelly going to class, he will love this as he is a people person and loves all the attention that he will receive at this place. I just made meatloaf not my own but as I was told it was yours.Kelly and Dad will enjoy it as we hope. Tomorrow is our night at your house , trying to fill your shoes, as you know we will never come close but, We all give our best as you would expect nothing less we all miss you . We will meet again.Love You and miss you dearly. Joe

Happy New Years Mom
I love and miss you so much.

GRAM;
THE NIGHT BEFORE LAST I HAD A DREAM OF YOU. IT WAS VERY STRANGE AS I HAVE BEEN WORKING MORE AND HAVEN'T REALLY THOUGHT MUCH OF ELSE. I DREAMT THAT SCIENCE AND MEDICINE HAD FOUND A WAY TO BRING YOU BACK TO US. I WANTED TO BRING SAVANNAH TO SEE YOU I WAS AFRAID SHE WOULDN'T GET A CHANCE BEFORE THIS CHANCE WAS OVER. YOU COULDN'T STAY THOUGH, YOU HAD TO GET TO KELLY. I DISTINCTLY REMEMBER HOW IMPORTANT SEEING KELLY WAS TO YOU. IT WASN'T LONG AFTER THAT I WOKE UP. I KNOW THAT ALTHOUGH I WASN'T THINKING OF YOU THAT THERE ARE STILL THOUGHTS IN THE BACK OF MY MIND, STILL I LIKE TO BELIEVE THAT YOU WERE JUST DROPPING A HELLO TO ME. OUT OF THE BLUE THE WAY I DID WITH YOU. I'M SORRY THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN OVER TO SEE GRANDPA, AND KELLY. I KNOW THAT I SHOULD, AND THERE AREN'T ANY GOOD EXCUSES IT'S JUST THAT WHEN I SEE YOUR HOUSE IT HURTS ALL OVER AGAIN. I HAVE A HARD TIME LOOKING AT IT. WHEN I DO LOOK AT IT I DON'T THINK ABOUT HOW YOU AREN'T THERE. I GUESS DEEP DOWN I KNOW IF I DO GO I HAVE TO ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE NOT THERE.THAT IS SOMETHING THAT IS HARD FOR ME TO COME TO TERMS WITH DESPITE HOW SPORADICALLY I VISITED. I WILL TRY HARDER GRAM. I KNOW YOULD WANT ME TO GO SEE GRAMP AND KELLY. CARY IS ALWAYS SAYING I SHOULD SEE GRAMP WHILE I STILL CAN. I JUST DON'T LIKE TO THINK OF IT THAT WAY. YOU KNOW HE MEANS WELL. I THINK I'M MORE LIKE AN OSTRICH AND I JUST WANT TO BURY MY HEAD IN SAND TO AVOID ALL THE UNPLEASANT THINGS IN LIFE. I HOPE TO SOMEDAY GAIN THE FORTITUDE THAT YOU HAD WHILE YOU WERE HERE. PERHAPS YOU COULD SPRINKLE SOME DOWN HERE FOR ME LIKE PIXIE DUST, SO I COULD BE A MORE SOCIAL AND LESS FEARFUL PERSON. AND BOOM JUST LIKE A NEWLY METAMORPHOSED CATERPILLAR I WOULD COME FLYING OUT AND MY BRIGHT BEAUTIFUL COLORS WOULD GIVE OUR FAMILY ATLEAST A SMALL SMILE. I KNOW THAT THEY ALL NEED IT. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART GRAM.
UNTILL NEXT TIME,
LOVE ETERNALLY,
LEIGHANN,CARY AND SAVANNAH NICOLE.

MOM,
IT WAS A BATTLE TO GET TROUGH CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR. I, MYSELF, KEPT MY SANITY BY THINKING YOU WERE JUST IN ANOTHER ROOM AND WOULD COME OUT AT ANY TIME WITH A FRESH CUP OF COFFEE, ASKING IF ANYONE WANTED A CUP. "ITS A FRESH POT YOU WOULD SAY".
JENNI-BELL MADE HER MOM A VERY SPECIAL GIFT THIS YEAR, WHICH I'M SURE TOOK A VERY LONG TIME TO CREATE. IT MADE ALL OF US CRY, IN A GOOD WAY. WE HAVE DONE SO MUCH CRYING THIS YEAR. WE HAVE CRIED FOR SO MANY REASONS, SOME WITH TENDER MEMORIES, SOME WITH THE PAIN OF LOSING AND SOMETIMES FROM THE LOVING MEMORIES OF GOOD TIMES. I'M SURE THAT TEARS ARE SOMETIMES A GOOD WAY TO EXPRESS OUR FEELINGS TO OURSELVES, ABOUT HOW WE ALL FEEL THAT WE SHOULD HAVE DONE MORE FOR YOU.
YOU HAVE MADE YOUR MARK ON EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US IN OUR OWN WAY. WE WERE ALL MADE TO FEEL SPECIAL ( EVEN OUR SPOUSES FELT SPECIAL). I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU DID IT, WITH SO MANY OF US TO PLEASE. YET WE ALL ( SPOUSES INCLUDED ) MISS YOUR SPECIAL ATTENTION TO US, THAT MADE US FEEL THAT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT US AND WORRIED ABOUT US EVERY DAY.
JOE REMEMBERS THAT YOU WOULD CALL HIM AT TIMES TO WARN HIM OF IMPENDING BAD WEATHER AND TO BE CAREFUL GOING HOME.
MOM, I,M SURE JOHN MISSED YOUR SENDING HIM HOME WITH A CHEESECAKE THIS YEAR. JOLENE WILL MISS YOUR HUG AND KISS, AS I DID....AND ALL OF YOUR CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN WILL.
DAD WAS GREAT. HE DID HIS BEST. I'M SOOO SURE THAT YOU WOULD BE VERY PROUD OF HIM. WE WILL HAVE TO GET USED TO A DIFFERENT KIND OF HOLIDAY'S NOW. I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT, BUT SOMEHOW I KNOW THAT YOU HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE FACT THAT WE ALL HAVE SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO THE NEW YEAR FOR... . PERHAPS IT,S A NEW BABY OR A WEDDING. LIFE DOES GO ON. I KNOW THIS, BUT I WANT TO LIVE IN THE PAST SOMETIMES WITH YOU.
I MISS YOU MOM AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, SOMEHOW I THINK YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT.
MERRY CHRISTMAS MOM.
I LOVE YOU

Hi Mom well it's gone know,I think each of us are saddened and releived that it is over. If it were not for Kelly and Dad I think each one of us would have rathered charged a plane ticket to where ever we could just get away and not even think about Christmas, not that the original meaning of Christmas isn't important to us but rather how you are the one that has shown to us that we all needed to be together for the holidays and that the family is so close with out one of us not showing just didn't feel the same. We needed to make sure that family was important to stay together not to loose sight of that without you there we just didn't feel whole. It ment so much to us to make sure that we got to spend time with you before and during the holiday making sure that you were all set with the presents and that your dinner was organized and that you were happy having all of us together. The holidays that you have taught us to love and enjoy the best time of the year. The house had to be at it's very best, the floors had to shine so the reflection of the Christmas tree lights would shine on the floor. Making sure that we did our very best to get our loved one the presents that they wanted and the one's that would surprise them. You always made our Christmas so very special to use young and old. Thank you Mom for that and the wonderful memories of shopping together and singing songs in the car, Christmas music playing since Thanksgiving night all those things that I mentioned are carried on through us because of you. You made us from very young want to make our Christmas for our families as best that you gave us. This year our first without you, is why we just couldn't bare to go through it. We all made sure that Kelly had so many presents that he actualy was tearing off the wrapping paper only half way through the presents. Just how you would want it to be. Dad just got through like the rest of us. The house was full of family which helped very much to keep your mind busy. Andrea made a wonderful Prime rib dinner. Michele and Bobby brought down a cooked Turkey breast you would have loved it nice and juicey. It was a big boneless one. Jackie had me try a piece and it was wonderful. They had mashed potatoes,corn and rolls. Lots of deserts. Everyone was taking pictures I think we are so afraid of loosing another family member that we needed to make sure that we snapped shots of everyone especaily dad, so we can hold on tight to what we have.
Jackie bought us each a guardian angel clip for our visors in our car. I can only imagine that when she found them that she was thinking of you and what happened and that she couldn't bare to loose any one of us again the way you left. The prayer on the clip goes Protect me my passengers,My family those who drive and those who stand hold them safely in your hands.
(Bless each and every one of them Mom) and thank you Jackie for them I am sure that everyone will be placing them in their cars as soon as they open them I know I did. Mom I got alot of nice things for Christmas everything ment so much but there is an album that Jen put together for me this year that has alot of our family pictures in it that just made me break. There is a particular saying in there that I would like to share with you that is so true and that I just couldn't have said it better my self and that it is so very much what I and each one of us is feeling!!! Here it is
You never said "I'm leaving" You never said goodbye You were gone before I knew it and only GOD knew why. A million times I needed you, million times I cried. If LOVE alone could've saved you. You never would have died. In life I loved you dearly, In death I love you. Still in my heart you hold a place that no one could ever fill. It broke my heart to loose you, but you didn't go alone. For part of me went with you, the day GOD took you home.
Mom how true that is for each of us. It broke my heart to read it and it were if some one was reading my mind. It will never be the same for us you ment so much and have touched our lives more than you would ever have known, more than we known until know. I hope you hear us Mom and are with each of us as we are writting you these letters because it sure feels good to say the things we need to say and to some how feel as though we are talking to you.
Mom we are sending you kisses from
Dad, Kelly
Bobby, Michele, Bobby
Colin, Jody, Logan, Noah, Alisa
Sherry,Mike
Michelle, Jason, JJ, Katie
Lori, Ryan, Jack (new baby too)
Ricky
Jennifer, Arnie, Trip
Nichole, Lance
Jackie, Joe
John, Grace
Jolene, Joel, Moriah, Mallorie (new baby too)
Terry, Mike
Leighann, Carey, Savannah
Nikki, Todd, Keirdon, Kayden
Me
Amber, Jeremy, Kyleigh (new baby too)
Britany, Alex
Jennifer
Andrea, David, David, Lance, Danny
Your great big family sends you kisses and hugs always.
Love You Merry Christmas MOM
C

Hi Mom I wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas we missed you so much. We all gathered together so we could be near you somehow today. We miss you more and more each day. I will tell you about the day later I wanted to make it in time to tell you Merry Christmas and that we love and miss you very much.............
Love
C

Merry Christmas Mom
It is Christmas Day Mom.
One of the days we are all dreading.It is 10:12pm and it has been a long hard struggle.We all went through the motions.We are all so sad that you are not here with us.We know that if there was a way you could be you certainly would have been.
Kelly was so excited last night.He was patiently waiting for Santa to come.his arms were flying when we drove up.He was so filled with excitment (as he usually is).Santa was very good to him and Dad.
Dad reminded me of you when he said you all shouldn't have.It was so you..Everything went fine.Candy had a photo album(Jenn made for her for Christmas) with a verse that touched each on of us girls.We were in your room going down memory lane.Jenn did a great job on that album.It was beautiful and of course Candy absolutely loved it.Andrea,Michele & Bobby made a beautiful Christmas Supper for Dad and Kelly.
Everyone brought pies,cookies,fruit platters and an endless supply of goodies.It is so beautiful that we have such a wonderful family.Jolene & Moriah,Nikki.David Jr,Lance,Danny,Amber,Jeremy,Kyleigh,Little Bobby,Colin,Jody.Logan,Noah,Alysa,
J.J and Katie even Ray and Lee stopped in.When I see other families that dont bother with their siblings I realise how lucky we are .We love and admire each other for who we are a(FAMILY)thats sticks together through everything.You did a great job Mom.
You and Dad should be very Proud.
Merry Christmas Mom
I Love and Miss you so very much

Hi gram and merry Christmas, I have had a few dreams of you, in both dreams I knew that you had passed and we were in the bathroom on Helen street and just you and me were there in the bathroom together and you told me that you came back "just for me!" so I could hug and kiss you. You made me feel like I was so special just like you did when you were here, making the person with you at that moment feel like they were the "one". In my dream I could feel your warm skin and you were wearing that lilac colored button up short sleeve shirt that you wear in all of my dreams. I could feel you and I knew that I only had a few seconds to hold you and kiss you . I wish I had done more of that when you were here. But we all have our regrets and are slowly getting to understand them. The girls miss you and ask frequently about you. When we have helium balloons the girls take them outside and let them go sending them up to you. We hope that you are getting them. Love and miss you sooo much.
Love always, Jolene

Mom
It is getting close to christmas.This is the only time in my entire life that i have no interest in the holidays.We all are feeling the same way.We all miss you so very much.It is such a horrible feeling.It feels as part of me is lost.There is such an emptiness.I had my surgery on the 19th.Yep Happy Birthday to me.You were celebrating Diane's Birthday fot the first time in a lot of years.It was finally her turn.I had your picture (Terry let me borrow Leighanns picture of you)I know you were there with me,but if anything should of went wrong it would of been fine with me. I guess my job is not done here.I have always believed that we are here for a lesson of some kind.The holidays are going to be tough and we will get through them because we have to.It doesnt stop us from missing you and wishing you were here with us.You will be helping us to get thru the rough times.Dad decorated the hous.It looks awesome,He did inside and out.lots of hugs and kisses are sent to you.
i love ,and miss you bunches

MOM,
I DO TRY TO WRITE A LOT BUT I SOMEHOW KEEP GETTING KICKED OFF. I'M STARTING TO GET A COMPLEX HERE.
WE ARE ALL STRUGGLING TO GET THROUGH THIS HOLIDAY. NO ONE IS IN THE SPIRIT BUT WE WILL TRY FOR YOU, KELLY, DAD AND OUR FAMILIES. JUST AS YOU DID FOR US WHEN YOUR MOM PASSED. IF ONLY WE HAD KNOWN YOUR PAIN THEN. I CAN ASSURE YOU THAT WE NOW KNOW THAT PAIN.
JOLENE HAD SOME PRE-TERM LABOR FOR OUR LITTLE JOSEPH ANTHONY, BUT WE ALL HOPE AND PRAY FOR HIM. HE IS ONE OF OUR JOY'S NOW FOR THE NEW YEAR. WE HAVE JOHN AND GRACE GETTING MARRIED IN OCT. MANY OF US HAVE BABIES OR A MARRIAGE COMING FOR THE NEW YEAR, WHICH GIVE US HOPE FOR THE FUTURE. PERHAPS IT'S YOUR WAY OF CHANGING THE SUBJECT, WHICH YOU WERE SOOO VERY GOOD AT.
I FEEL THAT THE TORCH HAS BEEN PASSED TO ME TO BE THE MOTHER THAT YOU WERE AND I KNOW THAT I CAN NOT FILL YOUR SHOES. OUR CHILDREN WILL LOVE US... FOR EVEN TRYING. HOPEFULLY THEY WILL CARRY ON THE TRADITION OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE THAT YOU GAVE US.
KELLY WILL HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS MOM, JUST AS YOU WOULD HAVE WISHED. AS MUCH AS I WOULD LIKE TO DO THE SAME FOR DAD...HIS ONLY WISH IS TO BE WITH YOU AND MAKE YOU HAPPY.
HE PROBABLY DOESN'T KNOW THAT HE HAS MADE YOU HAPPY... BY TAKING SUCH GOOD CARE OF KELLY AND DOING WHATS BEST FOR HIM IN THE LONG RUN.
I JUST WANT TO GET THROUGH THIS YEAR AND I HOPE THE NEW YEAR BRINGS BETTER TIMES FOR US ALL,
I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ALL OF ....I CAN FEEL YOU HERE SOMETIMES, GUIDING US.
I ONLY WISH I COULD SEE AND HUG YOU ONE MORE TIME.

I LOVE YOU AND MY FAMILY VERY MUCH,
JACKIE AND JOE

Gram;
Happy holidays I'm sure Christmas must be a big party up there. I have registered at the college, I will be meeting with a counselor to discuss classes sometime this week. Savannah is going to see Dr. Hughes for her adenoids. The doctor had them x rayed and they were moderately enlarged. Actually Nikki was the one that urged me to check into her loud snoring, i guess i never gave it much thought. Cary is totally against surgery, but i just want her to have whatever is going to benefit her most. I got your sign. i know you were with me the 2 times i went to acc. I'm really leaning towards substance abuse counseling. I'm not really all sure though. lots of thoughts about you. Savannah still talks of you alot. It's funny i kinda thought at her young age she would easily forget, if she had i would never let her forget you, but i haven't said anything about you in front of her and she still brings you up. She will say out of the blue I am sad and i will say why? and she will say because grams in heaven and not here. I hug her and tell her that you are happy and safe. I know that this Christmas is going to be hard, but we have some of you in us and we are tough, we will go on as we have to....we love and miss you everyday,
leighann,cary and savannah

Hi Mom,
Today we are getting a Noreaster and it's Candy's Birthday. We did absolutely nothing today but veg in front of the TV. I don't know what it is but I am not feeling the Christmas spirit even with all the snow.I feel like I am so tired and just going through the motions. For Bob's birthday I made him a boston cream pie. Silly me- to make the filling I poured in a box of banana pudding instead of vanilla. It wasn't too bad.
Qby won their game against Scotia on Sat. Bobby had 6 rebounds and two assists. He is doing great!
He was hand picked to play on a travel team after the regular season and he is road ready.
We think of you all the time,mom.
Love,
Michele, Bob & Bobby

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey (author)
©Copyright 1998-2007

HI MOM,
TODAY IS AS YOU KNOW CANDY'S BIRTHDAY AND I KNOW THAT THOUGH BOBBY AND MICHELE'S BIRHTDAY HAVE GONE BY,AND I KNOW THAT EACH AND EVERYONE OF US WHO HAS HAD THEIR BIRTHDAY WITHOUT YOU IS OR FEELS SOO LOST INSIDE WITHOUT YOU,I KNOW. I DID/DO, FOREVER.
I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET IN THE CHRISTMAS SPRIRIT..IT JUST FEELS LIKE ITS A WASTE OF TIME AND I JUST WANT TO SEE IT OVER WITH,EXCEPT FOR KELLY AND THE KIDS.WE MISS YOU OHHH SOOOOOO MUCHHHHH........THERE CAN'T BE A DAY I DON'T THINK OF HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND WISH THAT I COULD OF DONE SO MUCH FOR YOU.I'M SO SORRY FOR THAT:(
IT'S SO HARD TO ACT NORMAL,I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M BEING CONSUMED BY SADNESS,LONELINESS, AND GUILT. I KNOW YOU WOULDN'T LIKE THAT BUT I CAN'T HELP MISSING YOU. I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU WERE INTERESTED IN HOW MY DAY WENT UNTIL THE OTHER DAY WHEN MIKE'S MOM WAS ASKING HER KIDS HOW THINGS ARE AND NOW I JUST SIT ON THE SIDELINES OF LISTENING TO THEM TALK AND IT FEELS LIKE I'M ALL BY MYSELF AND I THINK HOW YOU WOULD OF LIKED TO HEAR WHAT I HAD TO TALK ABOUT AND NOW ITS SO GONE,I GUESS I JUST TOOK YOU FOR GRANTED,AND FOR THAT,I SOOOOOOOO SORRRRY. YOU ARE AND WILL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND,I WISH I COULD OF TOLD YOU THAT WHEN I HAD THE CHANCE. I WOULD OF NEVER THAT THAT THIS WOULD OF HAPPEND ALREADY. I MISS AND LOVE YOU FOREVER..
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...LOVE ,OXOXOX
TERRY

Gram,
I had a dream about you last night. I have had several dreams about you but this was the first one where you were not alive. Only I could see you. You were standing next to Grandpa and I was trying to convince him that you were there. The dream was very long and detailed but the only thing you said is "tell Bobby I am ok". The saddest thing about the dream was waking up and not seeing you. I miss you Gram and wanted you to know that you can visit me in my dreams any night.
Love you.

Mom
The poem below could have been written from you.It says it all if you were able to say it.
I love and miss you so very much

Hi Mom & Grandma,
We made it through Thanksgiving somehow and with only one pumpkin pie. There were lots of other kinds of pie like berry, lemon and cream. In the midst of all our planning we neglected the pumpkin pie. If I recall you always made a couple.It was quite funny that Terry made a pineapple cream and it was great! I also made one but didn't realize you used the regular pudding instead of sugar free, so it was not so hot. Candy did a great job on hers, too. Well we made the best of the situation and Bobby made a toast to you on the porch.He doesn't say much but he misses you dearly.
Just this past week I glanced at the school calendar and saw the announcement for the Grandparents Day Breakfast. Remember how you would get only two hours sleep then get up in the freezing cold and go for those little quarter sized cold pancakes . We appreciate your doing that, it meant a lot to him.
Today he had his first basketball game in Broadalbin. QBY lost but Bobby scored 7 points and really was a great team player. He often gets excited and wants to tell you about his accomplishments in basketball because you always took such an interest. Tonite we have Logan,Noah & Alyssa spending the night while their mom does some christmas shopping. Wowie, they wouldn't settle down until after midnight-- I had to resort to the ole Santa's going to put you on the naughty list routine- I got the phone and dialed it and spoke to Santa that seemed to put the fear of God into them. Bob has been drifting in thought the last few days and when I mentioned it to him he said he had been thinking about you a lot. He was remembering your car/truck game from on the mountain. I can see how he misses you so. Oh, today we were at this place for lunch and I happened to be seated in front of this beautiful fiber optic angel that was about 3 ft tall. I said to Bob & Bobby that you were behind me and Bob said sure it could be because it was the same size as you. We all laughed lovingly, of course. Talk to you later, Mom - Peace be with you.
Love, Michele,Bob& Bobby

Hi Gram,
I missed you so much on Thanksgiving. Michelle and I went over to visit with Gramp early in the day so that he didn't have too many kids running around to stress him out. It was very nice. It was so funny, Aunt Andrea had a very detailed list of what to cook and what time to cook it(sweep potatoes were peeled at 2:45pm). Gramp was in charge of watching the giblets and turning on the oven. I am sure you were very proud of them both. I drove by your house around 8pm and everyone was still there. I think everyone wanted to be were you would have been. Miss you bunches.
Love Lori

HI MOM,
WELL,THANKSGIVING HAS COME AND LEFT AND SO HAS OUR HEARTS TRYING TO DEAL WITH ANOTHER HOLIDAY AND CONSTANT REMINDER THAT YOU ARE NOT PHYSICALLY HERE AND IT'S SO HARD TRYING TO DEAL WITH SUCH A HEART FELT SADNESS,I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO FEEL LIKE MYSELF ANYMORE EVEN THOUGH I TRY,YOUR LOSS IS SO EVERLASTING AND IT'S SO HARD TO COPE WITH,I KNOW WE HAVE TO GO ON BUT IT'S SO DARN HARD TO TRY TO ACCPT OR IF WE CAN EVEN ACCEPT IT. I KNOW YOU WERE AT THANKSGIVING IN SPIRIT AND IT WAS SO NICE TO HAVE OUR FAMILY THERE,NOT EVERYONE BUT I'M SO GLAD ANDREA ,BOBBY AND MICHELE WERE AT THE HOUSE TO MAKE THANKSGIVING FOR THE BUD AND DAD.WE ARE SO HAPPY FOR THAT AND NOT TO MENTION OUR FAMILY.IT SO SUCKS WITHOUT YOU,THERE WAS SOMETHING FUNNY,IT WAS I MADE MICHELE PINEAPPLE CRM PIE,SHE MADE ONE FOR ME AND CANDY MADE A PINEAPPLE CRM PIE FOR THE BOTH OF US,THAT WAS PRETTY FUNNY WASN'T IT?IT WAS NICE TO SEE JOHN AND GRACE ALSO,I MISS THEM.I CAN'T SEEM TO TALK MUCH ABOUT THANKSGIVING PROBABLY BECAUSE I WANTED YOU TO BE THERE I GUESS I'M JUST GREEDY TO SEE AND BE WITH YOU AGAIN.BY THE WAY TODAY WAS MIKES LAST DAY AS WATER GUY HE IS ON VACATION UNTIL TUESDAY OR WED,THEN HE'S NOT SURE WHERE IN THE COMPANY HE'S GOING TO BE,BUT THAN YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS.MOM,CAN YOU PLEASE VISIT ME IF NOT,CAN YOU COME TO ME IN MY DREAMS TO JUST LET ME KNOW HOW YOU ARE????????????
I LOVE AND MISS YOU OH SOOOOOOO MUCH,UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,
LOVE,
TERRY