Gabriel Ernesto Ray Hernandez

My Love, September 27th, 2022 was the 15 yr anniversary of your passing. My Lil Man, you are truly missed and will Forever be in our hearts.

My love.. your 15th birthday passed and I failed to post you a happy birthday. 14 years ago Sept 27th you entered Heavens Gates. You are always with us. We love and miss you very much My Lil Man

My love...i cant believe i havent signed in to tell you how much i miss you and love you. Mommas Lil Man...

Oct 5th, 2017

10 years ago today my love we laid you to rest. I love you my lil man and we miss you dearly. My love continue to watch over us and protect us. I hope you enjoyed the lil memorial I did for you with your brother and sisters..mima...your tink and belle...momma and dada...all for you my love.

9 years ago today we laid you to rest my precious baby boy. I love you and miss you very much! You are always with us papa...My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil man man man man man man... Papa, a lil papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel a Papa <3 We love you too much!!!!!!!

Momma's Lil Man...you are forever in my Heart and you are soo missed. I know you are watching over us. I know you are our Guardian Angel. My baby...momma's baby boy <3 my heart. I love you Papa!

My Love....Sept 27th, 2016. 9 years that you have entered Heavens Gates...I drove up to take you flowers...and I made it in time. I love you my love...and I miss you soo very much!

My Love...its been soo long since I've written to you. Happy 10th Birthday my love!!!! I know you are looking down upon us and watching over us to keep us safe. I love you and miss you soo very much my love. Momma's Lil Man...<3

?????? Dec 25th 2014 10:50pm..Merry Christmas Mommas Lil Man... I love you and miss you soo much. I know you are watching over us from Heaven and we will see you again.?? I thank God for all my babies I just pray I can be the best mom I can for your sisters. You know what momma has been going thru... I will continue to pray for Peace, Reatoration, Healing, but most of all that God will be the center of our lives. We love and miss you Papa... My Lil Man. Forever in my ???? Gabriel .... Our Guardian Angel ??????

7 years ago today you returned to Heaven to our Creator. I love you my little man. Today 09/27/14 your sisters. And I Celebrated your Life. You are Always missed and loved my Baby . Momma misses you soo much. But I Thank God for Blessing me with you All. Until we see each other again... Forever my Baby... Mommas lil man??????????

My love...
Today marks 74 months that you entered Heavens Gates and are with our Heavenly Father. I love you my love and we miss you everyday. We know we will see you again and when that day comes...we will be together forever in the GOD's Kingdom. Your sisters and I are Happy and have been Blessed. We thank the Lord everyday for our Blessings and continue to Love and serve our GOD. Continue to watch over us, protect us, and guide us....we love you papa! Remember...only you and momma know. XOXOXOXO's Momma's Lil Man <3

Momma's Lil man, today Oct 5th marks 6 years that we laid you to rest. You are soo loved my baby and missed. But I know you are with our Heavenly Father and we shall see each other again and have eternal life. I pray my baby that your sisters Marlissa & Gabriele will love and serve our GOD and to become warrior Princesses. Always protect us, watch over us for I know you see the struggles I have been facing. I know papa I need to take better care of myself so that way I can take care of your sisters. I will papa....I need to be here for them. We love you My Lil Man....you will ALWAYS be in our Hearts! XOXOXOXO'S Momma's baby....I love you Papa!

6 years ago today, Dadda and Momma made the hardest decision in our lives! To let you go and return to our Heavenly Father. Momma's Lil Man....it was soo hard to do, but when I held you in my arms, kissing you, holding you close...I said from my heart, go my love, go back to Heaven with GOD. I love you and you will always be in My Heart! Yes the tears I have now are of sadness, but also of Great Joy for I was Blessed with you my love....My Lil Man, My Papa, My Nini, My Gabriel <3. I now, WE now live a life to serve our GOD, My Love, Momma is doing her best, I want to reach out to others and share my testimony about how Wonderful and Great is our GOD. He has given me strength when I thought it was over and done, but I pray to our Father and he gives me the courage and strength to press forward. I love you my love, you will Forever be in our Hearts! Until we meet again my love....My Lil Man...My Lil Man...My Lil Man Man Man Man Man.....Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel a Papa <3 Remember...only you and I know! XOXOXOXO's

My Love,
Today 05/06/13 you would've turned 80 months, my precious baby boy. Momma loves you and misses you! I know you are in a better place, you are with our Creator....Our Father! I know you are watching over us and loving us. My emotions take over me at times and I miss having you here with me. Miss not seeing you here playing with your sisters...teasing them, laughing with them, hearing you love them. In our hearts we know your love is with us...Yesterday 05/05/13 marked 79 months that we laid you to rest. Until we see eachother again my love....We all miss you Momma's Lil Man...XOXOXO'S

My Baby! Today it has been 66 months that you have entered Heaven's Gates. You are with Our Lord, Our Father! I love you baby....and miss you dearly! I know you are watching over your sisters and I. My Love, I miss hearing your laugh, your giggle, seeing your smile, the look in your eyes when I would hold you in my arms! I know you are ALWAYS with me and your sisters. I know you will be awaiting us when our time comes...I love you Papa! FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS!!!!!! XOXOXOXO'S Momma's Lil Man <3

Momma's Lil Man, tonight is 03/06/13...I know I'm soo behind writing to you. Today you would have been 78 months old. My Lil Man...I miss you soo much my Love! You're always with me and your sisters....We Love you Papa! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man....<3<3<3 I am doing my best Papa. I know you are watching over me and your sisters. Forever in our hearts you'll be :)XOXOXO'S

My Love today is 02/06/13, you would've been 77 months old today. My precious baby boy. Momma loves you soo very much and I soo need to catch up on my anniversary dates with you. Yesterday 02/5/13 it has been 64 months that we laid you to rest my love. I AWLAYS have you in my heart baby...and I miss you soo very much! I know we will see eachother again my love...My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Mannnn...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! MUAH! I know you can see what's going on in Mommas life...I know you're watching over me my love. You know whats good for Momma...show me a sign...Until I catch you up baby....I love you!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXO'S

Merry Christmas My Love....I signed earlier this month somewhat catching up to date...but I guess it didnt take :(. We Love you baby...and miss you very much! I know you are watching and protecting us everywhere we go. My Lil Man...My Lil Man...My Lil Man Man Man Man Mannnn....Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! XOXOXO'S we love you tooo much!

My Love....today Nov 5th marks 61 months that we laid you to rest...I need to catch up. I have fallen behind with my updates with you. But you are ALWAYS with me Papa! Momma's Lil Man....You are truly missed and forever in our hearts! If I could just hold you just one more time....to see your lil face...hear your laugh....tickle you...kiss you....I will see you again my Love...yes I will....XOXOXO'S We love you papa...

09/27/2012,

Today marks 5 yrs that you entered Heavens Gates. You are one of GOD's lil brave strong Angels...Momma's Lil Man, Forever in our Hearts you will ALWAYS BE! GOD Blessed me with all 3 of you! He needed you back...I love you! We all LOVE you...One day my love...we will reunite again. Good Night my Precious Baby Boy....My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Mannnn, My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Mannnn... Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, A Gabriel, A Papa....a song we would always sing to him...

I love you baby....ALWAYS!!!!!!

Well My Love...here I am 2-3 days late to post for your Birthday. My Love, 6 yrs old you would've turned. Momma's Lil Man....We took your sister out, she wanted Denny's, she got chocolate ice-cream and shared with your sister Marlissa. I went and bought a lil cake and put Gabriele's name and your name on it. We sang to both of you...I added a picture for you. Tomorrow is the Day of Remembrance, we were unable to attend this year because Momma's car isnt up to par and probably would break down on this long trip. We will be thinking of you and we will be praying for you tomorrow when we go to church. I love you baby...and Miss you! But I know I will see you again, we all will....My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! Momma LOVES YOU TOO MUCH!!!! Remember...only and me you know!!!!!!! XOXOXO'S Happy Birthday My Lil Man....We Love you!

Hi my Love....its me Momma! Well its getting close to my birthday. Your sister Marlissa's birthday just passed on the 11th, planning a party for her this Sunday with your twin Gabriele. Momma's birthday is the 22nd. I would always go to your grave to celelbrate our birthdays with you. But I know that you are with me all the time! I love you Papa...Momma's Lil Man! I need to catch up with my dates with you. I'm hanging in there baby...I'm doing my best. Continue to watch over us, and protect us. We love you and miss you soo very much Papa! Forever in my Heart! XOXOXO'S

Aug 6th, 2012 11:49 pm

My love, I have soo many days to catch up to you. Momma Loves you very much, and is looking forward to the day I get to see you again. My precious baby boy...my lil angel. You know what's been going on here and you know where my heart is at. I continue to remain strong and trying my best to stay positive. Inspiring words were told to me this evening and I need to follow thru with them. I love you Papa...Momma's Lil Man. Today you would have turned 71 months....your birthday is a month away baby....I will be up there for your birthday weekend papa....we will. It's a celebration of your Death in Palo Alto and we've been going every year. Momma misses you, but knows you are in a better place with our GOD. Love you my baby....<3

My Love! It's me Momma! My Lil Man, well Momma is up and connected and now I will be able to sit and write to you like I did before. I'm still trying to do my best for your sisters and me. We love you soo very much and miss you soo very much! I will catch up and bring you up to date. I love you my baby...Momma's Lil Man.... XOXOXOXO'S
Only me and you know...remember....

Happy New Year My Love!

Yesterday was Jan 5th...it has been 51 months that we laid you to rest...and today Jan 6th you would've turned 64 months....Momma is behind with writting you. I will make up the days soon my love. But you know how I'm feeling and I know you can see how our lives are. Meaning me & your sisters...Merry Christmas Papa! Me love you too much! You are ALWAYS part of our lives...because you are a part of us. I LOVE YOU MOMMAS LIL MAN! XOXOXO's

Merry Christmas momma's Lil Man! I love u with all my heart!

I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU MY BABY! XOXOXO'S

Good Morning My Love,

Today we are going to the Day of Remembrance in Stanford. I love and miss you sooo much Papa! I know you are watching over us. I always feel your love. Momma's Lil Man. XOXOXO'S

Momma's Lil Man...

Today 4 years ago today, your daddaa and I had to make the hardest decision in our lives. Letting you go to join our Lord was soo difficult. It was a decision I wouldn't wish upon any parent. We knew that you couldn't live your life off a machine and holding you in my arms as you took your last breaths was so hard for me. I wanted to hold you longer but it was so hard to let you go. I know it was the right thing to do, yet it was the hardest thing in my entire life that I ever done. My heart aches for you all the time, but I know you are watching over me and your sisters. Watching over the ones that love you and who miss you. Today we will be there to celebrate your life. I LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS BABY BOY! Forever you will be in our hearts. XOXOXOXO'S
My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man Mannnn, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! Noddy Noddy he toots his horn to say..."BEEP BEEP BEEP" Noddy Noddy come on out and play..."BEEP BEEP BEEP" Noddy Noddy shout a big HORRAY! His bell is ringing, we're singing its a Happy Day...Noddy's here "BEEP BEEP BEEP" Make Way!

My Love!!!!!!!
July 5th, 6th, 27th, August 5th, 6th, 27th and Sept 5th and 6th.

Momma's Lil Man...July 5th, Aug 5th and Sept 5th, marks month 45, 46 and 47 that we laid you to rest. July 6th-58, Aug 6th-59 and Sept 6th, My Baby's Birthday. Happy 5th Birthday my love! We celebrated you and your sisters' birthday. You will ALWAYS be remembered and celebrated. You may not be here physically....but you will always be in our hearts! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man Man....Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! Momma loves you and misses you sooo very much! I know it's been a very long time since Momma has written to you, but that doesn't mean that I don't love you or that I don't think of you. On the contrary, you are always a part of my life. Momma is doing the best she can to be healthy for your sisters. I know you would want that. I love you Papa! We all love and miss you soo very much. I will write to you tomorrow....it's been a long day today. I was soo happy that you were the 1st place we went to when we came back to Stockton. My Lil Man! XOXOXO'S I know you have been watching over us, I know you have been protecting us and taking care of us. Love you my only baby boy....FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS! Tomorrow we will be with you....a day with my baby boy...your sisters are looking forward to it.

My Love, I know I'm a day early, but I don't know if I will be able to write to you tomorrow. I know you can see all that is going on and see the struggle your momma is going through. I love you with all my heart and you know I miss you dearly. I want soo much to take you with me but I don't think your dada is going to let me. We Love you and Miss you soo very much Papa! I'm doing the best I can for your sisters and they Love you and keep your memory alive. They are soo silly, I'm sure you see us when they are playing. Especially when Chunka takes her doll "papa" out with her to ride her bike, walk w/the umbrella or ride the little car w/papa by her side. Tomorrow the 27th marks 45 months that you entered Heavens Gates and became our Guardian Angel. Continue to watch over us, protect us and see us through what comes our way. Forever you will be in our hearts my love! XOXOXOXO'S Remember only me and you know Papa!

My Love.. May 27th came and passed and I did not write to you on that day. That was a Friday and Momma had a lot going on. That day marked 44 months that you entered Heaven's Gates and became Momma's Guardian Angel. Thank you for watching over me and your sisters and keeping us safe from harm. I know you see all that we especially me (your Momma is going through) but I'm going to do my best to take care of your sisters Papa. I know that's what you want for us. On the 28th, a dear friend of mine passed too papa and is there with you. Another Angel above that will watch over us. You both have BEAUTIFUL smiles that will always be remembered. Today is the 5th, 44 months that we laid you to rest. My precious baby boy... Oh how much I miss you!!!!!! I miss holding you, tickling you, loving you and kissing you! Momma's Lil Man! Forever in my heart you will always be! Tomorrow is the 6th and you would've turned 57 months. Gabriele is looking more like you every time I look at her. I love you baby....and hold you in my heart! Continue to watch over us, protect us, and guide us to happiness. Forever you will be in our Hearts! Remember only you and me know!!! XOXOXOXO'S We love you Papa!

My Love,
I don't know what happened...but I signed your guest book on Mother's Day May 8th and it was not posted. I didn't receive any notification why it did not post. Mother's Day came and it was hard for me not having you here with us. I know every year its going to be like that...but believe me I'm better now. It just still hurts. May 5th passed and that was the anniversary date of 43 months that we laid you to rest and on May 6th you would've turned 56 months. Momma's Lil Man! My Lil Superman! Indeed you were...nothing kept you down after you had your surgery. You were a strong fighter and overcame whatever came your way...Your loving smile and laughter I will ALWAYS CHERISH IN MY HEART! I'm going to take your sisters out today and enjoy it with them. Hopefully we will go and see you. I love you Papa! FOREVER YOU BE IN OUR HEARTS!! XOXOXO'S

My Love,
Today is the 27th and it marks 43 months that you entered Heaven's Gates. As you already know...there is another Angel among you...Jacob. Heaven has another precious Superman to watch over us. I know you will play with him and protect us. You both had to deal with your precious heart and now you are with God. You both are in a better place, for you both do not have to suffer any more. My Love, You are ALWAYS ON MY MIND AND IN MY HEART! I pray that Jacobs family the strength through this time. I know how it feels, its better when you have the support of family and friends. Even to this day it's still very hard knowing you are not here Papa...Momma is doing her best to take care of your sisters and herself. I love you Papa! Momma's Lil Man, Momma's Lil Superman! XOXOXOXO'S Remember only me and you kno....FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS!

Happy Easter My Love!
Today, April 24th is Easter my love. Momma had a late start today but we were still able to go see you and spend time with you. We hid eggs and confetti eggs w/you at the cemetery and had your sisters look for them. They loved breaking the confetti eggs on their heads and having all the confetti go all over the place. They also sprinkled it over you Papa! We enjoyed spending our time there with you My Love. Your sisters were soo happy playing and twirling in their dresses and singing to you. Mima was there and got you a lamb, she loves you and misses you soo very much too Papa. Your Dada was there too, he went and got cleaner to clean your marker. It looked beautiful after he cleaned it. Momma has been soo busy doing things that I forgot to write to you on the 5th and 6th. The 5th would've marked 42 months that we laid you to rest and the 6th you would've been 55 months old. Mommas Lil Man. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man Man...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa..Momma is doing her best to make a better life for me and your sisters. You are always on my mind and whenever things seem to go wrong I continue to pray and keep you close and know that you are watching over me and making sure that things fall into place so that way we'll be ok. Forever will you be in my heart! ALWAYS! Your sisters always Love you and keep you in their hearts as well. XOXOXOXOXO'S, remember, Only me and you know! Momma's Lil Man! Papa..also watch over Lil Jacob, he has had multiple surgeries and we are all praying for him so that he can be ok. I know that you are protecting us from harm, protect him, talk to him, he is a fighter too. You're my hero my LOVE so let him know he will be strong and beat this! I Love you Papa!!

Momma's Lil Man,

Today is March 27th, 2011, 42 months ago today you entered Heaven's Gates. You are our precious Guardian Angel. Momma Loves you soo very much and needs you so much right now! I know you were here with us last night I felt your presence. I heard Marlissa laughing in her dreams, so I felt it was you playing with her or tickling her in her dreams. I felt your warmth and love. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Momma has said soo many times that I have to get better for your sisters because they need me and I haven't. So tomorrow is a new day for me and your sisters, Marlissa & Gabriele. We love you and miss you with all our hearts! Momma is wanting for us to be happy, healthy and hopeful for a better rest of the year. I know you'll watch over us and protect us from all harm. Noddy, Noddy he toots his horn to say "beep beep beep" Make way for Noddy Noddy, come all out and play "beep beep beep" Make way for Noddy Noddy, shout a big Hooray, his bell is ringing, we're singing it's a happy day, Noddy's Here "beep beep beep" Make Way! Momma's Lil Man.....remember..only me and you know! XOXOXOXOXO'S Forever in our Hearts!

My Love, I had left your page up on the 5th because I had the intentions to sign your Guest Book. Here we are on the 10th and I'm soo sorry my Love! The 5th would've marked 41 months that we laid you to rest and on the 6th you would have turned 54 months old. My Lil Man, sooo you have been playing with your lil cousin in Heaven huh? Your Nina and Nino are blessed to be having a lil boy. Overjoyed! I know they are! My love, it would've been soo great if you were still here with us so that way baby Orozco wouldn't be the only boy when all the girls are around. I have a feeling that Gabriele will be close to him or Marlissa. They love their Lil Brother, you my love and they will love their lil cousin. Momma loves you and misses you soo very much. Give Momma the strength I need to get me through this time. Momma needs her health better for your sisters because they need their Momma! I love you baby! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man! XOXOXOXO'S Forever you will be in our hearts!

Feb 27th my love came and passed, I apologize for not signing your Guest Book. My Love, Sunday the 27th of Feb was 42 months that you entered Heaven's Gates. Did I mess up your months in Jan? I might have. My love, Momma just misses you soo much, and I need you soo much right now! I need your strength and protection to watch over me and your sisters. Momma Loves you sooo very much! Your sisters too love you soo very much! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man Man! Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! The day's are getting nicer, can't wait to go and spend time visiting w/you w/your sisters.XOXOXOXO'S I love you PAPA! Remember only me and you know!

Happy Valentines Day My Love!
Me and your sisters went to go and see you today. Momma got you some Nerds and a Balloon and Dada got you some chocolates. We love and miss you soo very much! We will always love you! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man....Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! I love you baby!! FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS YOU WILL BE!!!!XOXOXOXO'S

February 6th, 2011

My Lil Man,
Today Feb 6th, you would've turned 52 months. Momma's Lil Man, I miss you soo much. Your twin Gabriele is sicky :( she doesn't feel good. Marlissa too is a lil sick but I think she'll be better tomorrow. My love, You are always on my mind and will be Forever In My Heart. All of our hearts! Your sisters keep you alive and include you in everything we do. They know you're an Angel in Heaven watching over us and protecting us from harm. I love you Papa...we'll go see you on Tuesday ok? I love you! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. Did you hear the music off the CD I bought your sisters? They love it! I played it loud for you when we went to the cemetery on Saturday. Love you papa! I'll write to you again soon. Remember only me and you know...XOXOXOXO'S

My Lil Man....My Lil Man...My Lil Man Man Man Man Mannnn.
Papa, January 27th came and went, I did not forget about you. That day marked 39 months that you entered Heaven's Gates. Momma's Lil Man. Today is the 5th of Feb and today marks 39 months that we laid you to rest. Last month I was wrong it marked 28 months. Momma just has a lot on her mind. I love and miss you my LOVE! Tomorrow you would have turned 52 months. Time has sure gone by. Your sisters are growing so much. Gabriele your twin is talking a lot more. I think she looks more like you now. My Chunka Munka. Marlissa too is talking too much! Talk to her my love because she's being a bad =( We love and miss you soo very much Papa. This year is going somewhat fast, excited to take your sisters to Disneyland this year. Not sure when though yet. But I give you my word, I am taking them! We love you and miss you soo very much! MOMMA'S HEART! Forever you will be in my heart, you know that Papa. We took you your superman today and we sang to you. Your sisters were being silly and I told them that you don't like when they act that way. Remember only me and you know.XOXOXOXOXO'S

My Love,
I know I'm late again, I've been tired working Overtime trying to get bills paid. Trying to spend more time with your sisters. Jan 5th and 6th passed and you were on my mind. Yes, the 5th marked 39 months that we laid you to rest and on the 6th you would've turned 52 months. My baby, Momma misses you soo very much! I'm trying my BEST AND I MEAN MY VERY BEST to keep afloat for me and your sisters. This year is ok so far, I guess. Momma has to think of something to make it better this year for us. Momma is Happy but things are still not right. You know what I mean because I know you see my pain and hear my tears and feel my sorrow when I am sad. My baby boy....Momma misses you soo very much. How I long to just see you one last time and hold you in my arms. My Lil Man, just to see your precious face, see those eyes that showed how much love you had within you and your beautiful smile who brighten my day. Forever in our hearts you will be. Momma's Lil Man......XOXOXOXOXO'S

MY Love!
Happy New Year!
I know Momma is a day or two late, but I know you were with me and your sisters that evening when I sat on the couch watching your sisters sleep as the New Year came. I cried, as always, another year w/out you. But Momma is getting stronger and this Year is going to be better for me and your sisters. I can feel it! I love you with all my heart, we went to go see you. It was really cold and windy out but no matter what we were there. Your sisters sang to you as always, Momma too. You are FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS! Momma's Lil Man! I'll be there this Tuesday to pick up your stuff so that way they wont throw it away. 2011..a New Year, New Beginning and New Life for me and your sisters. We Love and Miss you Papa! Remember only me and you know!XOXOXOXOXOXO'S

December 27th, 2010
My Love I know I'm late writing to you but you are never forgotten. The 27th marked 39 months that you entered Heaven's Gates and became a BEAUTIFUL PRECIOUS ANGEL! My Love you are always in my Heart. You are always in mine and your sisters hearts. Things look like they are getting better for me and your sisters and hoping and praying that next year will be a better year for all of us! You know what our hearts need and know that Momma needs to be healthy to take care of your sisters for you! They are My Life..and you know that. I Love you Papa! Momma's Lil Man. Forever you will be my heart! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! The thought of you brings such a smile to my face and fills my heart with soo much joy! Nothing can beat your smile! My baby..I always remember coming home to see your precious smile and eyes light up when I would come through the front door. Momma's Lil Man! Forever in my heart you will be! XOXOXOXOXOXO'S

You are my guiding light My Love. I believe that I will have a better life next year with your sisters. My heart tells me so. I love you my baby! Forever in Momma's Heart.

My Love, Merry Christmas!
I know Momma is a day late writing to you, I'm sorry. Did you see the toy that I left you when we went to go see you yesterday? Did you like the Christmas Tree that your sisters and I decorated for you? Momma, Marlissa and Gabriele decorated it for you. You are soo missed Papa. I said rain or shine we are going to see my baby and we did =). Another Christmas has passed, your sisters sing to you daily, and we Love and Miss you with all our Hearts! 2011 is coming and its going to be a better year for Momma and your sisters. I'm going to do my best for them, because they deserve it. I know you would want us to be happy and I'm doing my best that I can to make that happen. I love you and Miss you with every bit of my heart! Forever you will be in our Hearts! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man! Continue to watch over us, protect us from ANY harm that we may encounter. You are God's little angel to watch over us. Love you! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S

My Love,
Today you would've have turned 51 months. Momma's Lil Man, how I miss you Papa. Today Momma worked and was feeling tired and sick. My Love the Holidays are still hard for me because it's not the same. I do my best for your sisters. I'm trying my best for you my baby so that way you can be proud of your Momma. Gabriele is something else, she has SUCH a tempter. I don't know where she got that from. Marlissa is loving but DOES NOT listen. Talk to her....I know you'll let her know. I'm going to do sleep over w/your sisters in your room tonight. Your silly sisters. We love and miss you soo very much Papa! Forever in our hearts! XOXOXOXOXO'S

My Love,
Today marks 38 months that we layed you to rest. Momma's Lil Man, how much I love you and miss you. I went to go see you today after work and sang to you as I always do. Momma has to work this week. Hopefully on Wednesday I can get the house decorated for your sisters. I might take them to Stacy's after they get out of school. Not sure yet. Momma's Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. I got you your Christmas gift already my love, just have to get you a few more things. Momma is going to have a better year. I can feel it! Momma and your sisters are going to be happy....I just know we are. I know you want that for us. You want us to be happy and live a Happy Life. We will my Love, we will....I give you my word! Love you with all my Heart! XOXOXOXO'S

MY LOVE,
I can not believe I failed to sign your book on the 5th and 6th. This month has been very difficult and hard for me baby. Momma loves you soo very much! I miss you with all my heart too! The 5th of this month was 37 months that we laid you to rest. The 6th of this month you would've turned 50 months. And today is 38 months that you have entered Heaven's Gates. My love, these next few days and months are going to be VERY HARD! Please give Momma strength to get through these times. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man... Papa a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, A Gabriel, A Papa! My trip with your sisters went very well. Your sisters LOVED going to go see your Mima and your Grandpa Ray and your Nino and Nina. My Love, you will FOREVER BE IN MY HEART! You will always be my son! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART BABY! Remember only you and I know.....XOXOXOXOXOXO'S

My Papa, you know what I noticed? On 10/6/10 I didn't state that you would've turned 49 months! Geesh...My Love, you know you are ALWAYS in my heart, your sisters are my LIFE now. I live for them. I'm doing what I can to make it for me and your sisters. Momma Loves you with all her heart! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. Today it's Halloween and I'm dressing your sisters up as a Flapper (Marlissa) and Raggedy Ann (Gabriele). I'm going to go see you to take you some candy, Ok Papa? I love you baby! Momma's Lil Man, continue to watch over us and protect us, especially during these upcoming months. It's going to be a struggle, but Momma can do it! Looking forward to a better New Year! Remember, only me and you know! Forever in my heart! XOXOXOXOXOXO'S We love and miss you Papa!

October 5th, 2010

My baby, today marks 36 months that we laid you to rest. 3 years my love it has been soo hard and I'm doing all I can to do my best for your sisters and for me. This year is almost over and this is going to be a memorable one. The new year is going to be a BETTER and HAPPIER New Year for me and your sisters. My Love, I know you want your Momma to be happy because I need to take care of your sisters. You are ALWAYS with me, and I always carry you within my heart and soul. My Lil Man, Just to see you smile....Just to hold you in my arms....One day we will be reunited and we will be together again. Until then, continue to watch and protect me your sisters. Give Momma the strength she needs to get through to the end of this year to have a successful New Year. You know what I have in my heart....Remember "Only me and you know" Forever in my Heart! XOXOXOXO'S My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man..Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man a Gabriel a Papa. We love you baby!!!!!!!

For September 27th,
My Love, 3 yrs ago on this day you entered Heaven's Gates. It has been a very long and stressful time for me. I've been doing my best to keep sane and healthy for your sisters. Momma is going to make changes for herself and your sisters. God willing it will be for the better. Momma misses you with all her heart and so do your sisters. They always say, "I love you and miss you papa". Gabriele always says "Gabriel my brother, me miss him, me love him momma" She's always kissing your pic and saying how much she loves you. Marlissa on the other hand is always protecting you no matter what. To her you will always be her papa, to all of us you will always be our papa. NO ONE is ever going to change that. She was hurt the other day about that but I told her that you're always going to be her (our) papa. Momma's Lil Man! I was listening to a song and it made me cry and smile because I thought of you. These arms of mine are longing to hold you...yes you my LOVE. I miss you soo much Papa! Momma's Lil Man. I'm going to take your sisters to play today because it's hot. We're going with Marlissa's pre-school friend to get wet at the Park. I know you'll be watching over us. Protecting us from any harm.. We love you! XOXOXO'S

September 6, 2010

My Lil Man....Happy Birthday! Today you would've been 4 yrs old. Oh how much Momma misses you. Today myself, Gabriele, Marlissa, Dada, your Nino, Nina and Mima went to go see you. We sang to you, gave you chocolate cake, a Lil Firetruck, Butterfly Balloon, a Superman figure and a stuffed Superman doll. I kept it in the plastic because I'm going to bring it home until I can find you another one to leave w/you. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. My love I did not forget today was your birthday. All day was yours and Gabriele's day! We took her to go eat Pizza and play games at the Mouse House. I told your sister that I was going to take her, she was soo happy! I took pictures of her and there is soo much of a resemblance of you in her. Why wouldn't there be, she's your twin. You were born 4 mins after her. You are my baby. Momma's Lil Man! We all Love you Papa, today even Dada got teary eyed thinking of you. You know your Dada doesn't show his emotions but today while eating we were talking about you and how you would separate your carrots and peas into two separate piles. Yes it brought tears to my eyes because we do not have our precious baby boy to watch grow up. But we will see each other again my love...yes we will!! XOXOXOXOXO'S Momma Loves you with ALL HER HEART!!!!!!!

Aug 27, 2010
My Love, today marks 2 yrs 11 months that you entered Heaven's Gates. My Precious Baby Boy! Momma Loves you soo very much and misses you with all her Heart! Gabriele started school on the 18th, you would've been starting with her. She keeps to herself, she plays w/the boys and she loves to do activities. I watched her put a train set together, she enjoys her puzzles, and loves to paint. She's loving and caring just like you my love. Marlissa started Kinder and she's loving it. I know she will do well. She's a strong and quick learner. I'm doing what I can to survive. I'm doing my best for my health so that way I can be here for your sisters. I Love you Papa! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man..Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. Forever you will be in Momma's Heart! All my love to you..remember only me and you know!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S

Hello my Love,
Today is Aug 5th, today is your Mima's Birthday. Today also marks 34 months that we laid you to rest. My Lil Man, ohh how I miss you soo much! Your sisters and I are going to San Diego to celebrate our birthdays. I know you will be watching over us and celebrating with us in spirit. My precious baby boy. I love you! I would love to hold you in my arms, to hear your laugh, see your smile, kiss you all over and kiss your scar as I always did b4 you went to bed at night (after your surgery). I feel my heart aching so much that I pray that it gets better. I need to be here for your sisters because we got to be strong for us 3. I Love You my Papa.. forever you will be in Momma's Heart! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. XOXOXOXOXO'S All our love always to you Papa!

My Love,

Today marks 34 months that you entered Heaven's Gates. I'm soo sorry I failed to sign your book on the 5th and 6th, however I did sign on the 4th didn't I? On the 5th of July marked 33 months that we laid you to rest and the 6th would've marked your 46th month. It's still hard not to have you here w/us. I miss you my love....with all my heart. Your sisters too miss you and Love you soo very much. They keep your spirit alive and I'm soo BLESSED TO HAVE THEM. One day we all will be reunited and have eternal life w/you. All our love to you Papa...Momma's Lil Man! XOXOXOXOXO'S

Happy Fourth of July my Love!

It's a hot day today and I'm getting your sisters ready so we can go see you. Spend a little time w/you then come home, eat and light small fireworks then go see them at the Delta. My Love, Momma never took you to go see the fireworks and I regret that. Chunka is not too excited about them and I know why. My Love, I love you soo much and it still hurts that you're gone. I know I will see you again but until that day comes, I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF FOR YOUR SISTERS. They need me NOW! Give me strength papa. My Lil Man! You will forever be in Momma's Heart! Only me and you know!!!!! (Remember) Again my Love....Happy 4th of July! All our Love to you!!!!

June 27th, 2010
My Love, today marks 33 months that we you entered Heaven's Gates. Today also marks the last day Noddy aired on TV. Our (your) favorite show is no more on. Our routine of watching it at 4:02, 7:02, and 10:02 is no more. We would sing, watch and laugh at little Noddy and all the Characters. My Love, Momma's Lil Man, these times are going to be weird now not seeing your show on TV. But no matter what...we keep the song alive and see your little dance whenever we hear the song. I love you my baby...and you will be forever be in my heart. My precious baby boy...Marlissa asked me the other day to have another baby. She misses you dearly but wanted for me to have another baby. All I did was look at her and cry. She wants to give a baby a bath, feed and cloth the baby. I told her, momma can't answer that question for her, but in my heart I too would love to have another. Not to replace you, but to love with your sisters. You are Momma's and your sisters' Guardian Angel and you will forever protect us from harm. We Love you Papa,Gabriel Ernesto Ray Hernandez. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man, Man Man Man Man, Papa a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. XOXOXOXOXOXO'S
Remember only me and you know.....

My Love.......
I can't believe Me your MOMMA did not write to you on your anniversary day, on Mother's Day or any other day. My Love you have always been on my mind. Your sisters keep you in their hearts and in their prayers. April 27th marked 31 months that you have entered Heaven's Gates and joined God. May 5th had been 31 months that we laid you to rest. May 6th you would've turned 44 months. Your twin (Gabriele) is such a handful! She's talking soo much more and is soo excited about going to school starting in August. My papa...momma Loves you and Misses you soo very much! Mother's Day came and I went to the cemetery to spend time w/you and your sisters. I know you're everywhere but we wanted to be there w/you and share a beautiful day w/you. May 27th came and that marked 32 months that you joined all the angels above. June 5th marked 33 months that we laid you to rest and June 6th you would've turned 45 months old. I could imagine seeing you running around playing w/your sisters and laughing w/them, teasing them and all of you just telling eachother I Love You! My babies.... Father's Day is Sunday and I know you'll be shinning down on us and smiling big, just as you always did! I love you my baby! My Lil Superman!!!!!! Momma's Lil Man!! XOXOXOXOXOXO'S FOREVER AND ALWAYS in Momma's Heart!

My Lil Man,
My Lil Man,
My Lil Man Man Man Man Man,
Papa, a Lil Papa,
Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel a Papa.
I love you my love. I know I didn't sign on your anniversary date on April 5th. 30 months that we laid you to rest and on the 6th you would've turned 43 months. Momma's baby boy. Your sisters today kept playing around and Marlissa was running around and Gabriele was being her shy self. I know you were watching over us, just as you always do. I love you with all my heart my love. Remember only me and you know. XOXOXOXOXO'S All my love to you.

Happy Easter Papa!!!!!!!

Love Marlissa Rose(your big sister) and Gabriele Carrin Renay (your twin)

Happy Easter My Love,

Today is your Tia's Bday today as well. I know you're in a better place my love, and I know that one day we will all be together again. Then momma will be able to hold you in her arms once again and see your BEAUTIFUL SMILE and PRECIOUS EYES. My Lil Man......I went to go see you today. I stood out in the rain, took your windmill so you would'nt lose it. Your sisters stayed in the car cuz it was cold outside and raining. I love you my love......Forever you will be in Mommas Heart! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man....XOXOXOXOXO'S!!!!! We love you and miss you very much!!

March 27th,

My love, it has been very difficult trying to sign your guestbook. Momma had problems but it was taken care of. I didn't forget about you! I just could'nt sign your book. My Love, the 27th marked 30 months that you entered Heaven's Gates. Momma's Lil Man, oh how much I miss you! I keep you always in my heart, I feel your strength within me. Momma is trying her very best to be healthy. Mima is here and she loves you with all her heart as much as we do. We're going to go see you today. I love you my love! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa! XOXOXOXOXO'S Remember only me and you know!!!!!!! Forever in My Heart!

March 5th, 2010 11:42 pm pst,

My Love,

Today marks 29 months that we laid you to rest. My precious baby boy, Momma's Lil Man. Tomorrow you would've turned 42 months (3 1/2 yrs old) My Lil Papa. Dadda told me today that Marlissa was sitting on his lap the other day and said, "Daddy take off your glasses, then she said, "(chuckle)Daddy you look like Papa w/out your glasses!" Then she would put on and take off daddy's glasses and say "Daddy / Papa, Daddy / Papa". Oh how that touched my heart! I knew you looked just like your daddy when he was baby. Papa's Lil Man. My Precious Guardian Angel. I Miss you with all my heart my Love! Forever in Momma's heart you'll be. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Mannnn....Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. You spoke to me the other night didn't you? I was falling asleep on the recliner and I barely opened my eyes and I saw you walking towards the hallway from the living room/dining room area and you were swinging your arms and you looked back at me..picked up your right arm waved at me and said "Hi Momma!" and gave me the biggest smile. It appeared that you were going to see what your sisters were doing in their room. My Baby...I didn't want to close my eyes or wake up from my vision because I wanted to see more of you. I was blessed just for those seconds to see you happy and able to hear your voice...soo clearly did I hear you say "Hi Momma". I Love you Papa! Forever you will be in Momma's Heart! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXO'S

My Baby, Feb 5th passed and so did the 6th. I did not forget what those days were... The 5th stood for 28 months that we laid you to rest and the 6th would've been the day you would have turned 41 months old. Mommas's Lil Man, I sure miss you. Today when I was coming home, the sun peeked through the clouds and I felt your presence. I knew in my heart that you are happy and safe. My Lil Angel...Oh how much I miss you! I love you with all my heart Papa! We'll come and visit you on Thursday OK baby? My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Mannn...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man a Gabriel a Papa! Mommas Heart...that's where you will ALWAYS BE! All our love to you ALWAYS! XOXOXOXOXO'S

Jan 27, 2010

Papa...today marks 28 months that you entered Heavens Gates. Oh how I miss you...Momma thought this year was going to be a better one, but it hasn't. Maybe it is I just don't see it yet. There will be changes soon...I can feel it. Hopefully it will be for the best. Your sisters love and keep your spirit alive! So do I. Yesterday I was coming home from work and as I looked over towards the horizon, I saw the sunset. It brought back memories of when we flew over to Stanford on Sept 18th. What a beautiful sight it was...I guess I was given the blessing to see what you were going to be seeing once you were in Heaven. God's precious visions. Serenity, peace and happiness. I love you papa! Momma's Lil Man. Forever you will be in My Heart, remember you're Momma's Heart! All my LOVE to you ALWAYS!!! XOXOXOXO'S

Hello My Love,

Today marks 27 months that we laid you to rest. My Precious Baby Boy...I miss you Papa! Tomorrow you would've been 39 months, Momma's Lil Man. My heart longs for you. But I cherish your memory in my heart always! You will forever be in my heart! I'm taking care of my self and doing all I can to take care of your sisters, but most of all I'm doing my best to take care of my self. I love you baby. FOREVER IN MOMMA'S HEART! My Lil Man! Noddy, Noddy he toots his horn to say! Beep Beep Beep....Noddy's here beep beep beep, Make Way! XOXOXO'S

Happy New Year My Love, 01/01/2010

2010...I can't believe another year has passed. Momma got to go see you yesterday the 31st at the cemetery. I planned on visiting you before the end of the year. My love I won't be able to go see you until Tuesday, Momma will be working all through Wednesday. But Tuesday I will get off at 4pm so I'll go see you then. Momma's Lil Man...my precious baby boy. I love you and miss you with all my heart...XOXOXOXOXOXO'S Always in Mommas heart.

Merry Christmas My Love,

I know I'm late...but we did go see you. I told you we would go. When I say I'm going to do it, I do all I can for you. I hope you like the toys we got you. Momma is still looking for the Superman Truck to get you. I love you Papa..Momma's Lil Man. Today is the 27th, 2 yrs 3 months you entered Heaven's Gates. My Precious baby boy, I miss you soo much around this time, seeing your sisters laughing running around and not seeing you here with them makes me cry. I still imagine what would our lives be like if you were still here with us. Maybe I would'nt be soo sad or lonely. Yes I do have your sisters..and I love them with all my heart. But its just the love of a son that I miss. I kiss your sisters everyday and love them with all my heart. We always sing to you, pray to you and remember you in our hearts. You will always be forever in Momma's Heart. Always my Love!!!!! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Papa a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. Remember only me and you know....

Hi papa! Christmas time is coming. I wish you were here papa. I love you Gabriel. Merry Christmas!!! Dont worry, i'll go see you before xmas. I love you.

For November 27th,

My Love, I know its been a long time since I've written to you. But Momma has been going through a lot of stress. I know you have been watching over me to help me get through this. November 27th marked 26 months that you entered Heavens Gates. Momma's Lil Man. You are my one baby boy. I miss you soo much! I did not forget you on the 27th, just been soo wrapped up with everything going on here. I love you!!!! My Lil Man!!!!! My precious baby boy...... XOXOXOXOXOXO's

Nov 5th,
My love....it's been 25 months that we laid you to rest. Momma misses you with all her heart. My heart aches for you...and I try my best to be the best momma I can be to your sisters. I'm trying to get my health better, Momma hasn't been feeling too well. Headaches and blurriness, we know what that is. So I'm taking better of my self. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. I didn't forget what today was, dada took me and your sisters to take your toys and pumpkins to you this evening. I love you baby....and momma miss you soo very much! Forever in my heart.....remember only me and you know! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S

October 27th,

Today it has been 25 months that you entered Heaven's Gates. I know you are in a better place. My heart misses you soo much! I try my best to live each day to its fullest, but Papa...it's soo hard right now for Momma. I need to get myself together for your sisters so I can be here for them. I need to be strong for them. I love you baby...I miss you DEARLY! My Lil Man, your precious smile, your loving eyes and I miss Holding your hands, Holding you in my arms Kissing your scar on your chest to make it feel better and Thanking God for blessing me with you and your sisters. Greatful that your surgery went well when you had it that's why I always kissed your chest. Because you are Momma's Heart! We will be together again one day Papa, but until that day..I will do my best to take care of your sisters and me. XOXOXOXOXO'S FOREVER IN MOMMA'S HEART!I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

October 5th,

Was 2 yrs that we laid my baby to rest. Momma misses you so very much! Today Oct 6th you would've turned 37 months. Today I was holding your picture while I was at the dentist and they asked me."oh you have a son?" I nodded yes and pointed up to Heaven..I said that you were my Guardian Angel. That I was blessed to have you in my life for 1 yr and 3 wks. My Precious Baby Boy...I'm getting better. Yes it hurts that your gone..it really does. But I know in my heart that we will be together again. I know that you are watching over me and your sisters because I really need strength to get through this. We don't have my family here near us so it's just your sisters and me. Daddy is here loving us. But you see and know how I'm feeling. My heart aches for you and miss you dearly. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. XOXOXOXOXOXO'S...I LOVE YOU MY BABY!

Sept 27th,
Today my love we went to the Santa Cruz Boardwalk. We took your sisters and they LOVED IT! Marlissa said "Momma I had a wonderful time, thank you soo much!" It made me happy inside to see your sisters laugh and smile and enjoy the day. We kept you in our hearts all day..sharing our laughter and joy. Dada took me to go see you after we came back from Santa Cruz, no matter what time it was I was going to go to your grave and take you what I bought you. Momma got you a pinwheel and a squeeky toy seal. We'll go see you tomorrow my love. You are forever in Momma's Heart! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...This time 2 yrs ago, I held you in my arms as you entered Heavens Gates. I love you papa.....and miss you dearly! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S

My Precious Gift from God,
My Precious Baby Boy,
Momma's Lil Man...

Today the 27th marks the two year anniversary of your passing. I can't believe it's already been 2 yrs! Momma loves you and misses you soo much! I'm trying to do my best my Love, truly I am. I know you see all that I'm going through and I'm keeping (trying) to be strong! Your sisters need me....as much as I need them. Today we'll go see you...take you some flowers then I'm going to take your sisters out to celebrate your life! I know you are always with us in spirit and you protect us everyday. I feel your presence with us because I know and sense you. My heart fills with soo much joy and love that's when I know you're there! You're always in my heart, you know that! I love you My Lil Man! My Noddy! My Papa! Momma's Heart!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXO'S "Remember only me and you know!!!"

12:30 am Sept 18th

My love 2 yrs ago today around this time, your daddy and I were at the hospital w/you because you couldn't sleep. We stayed till 5:30 am then came home so you could rest..later on that day you were fine. Until Noddy time....My love all of our lives changed after that moment. You are soo missed by the ones who hold you close in heart. Especially me and your mima. You will forever be in Momma's heart! I love you papa! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man....My Precious Baby Boy, Gabriel Ernesto Ray...Momma's lil Superman! I want to take your sisters out during my vacation to celebrate your life because I know thats what you would want me to do. You are always with us in spirit and protecting us. I love you Papa! Remember only me and you know!!!!! XOXOXOXOXO'S All my love to you alawys!!!!!!!!

My Love,
Happy Birthday! Today you would have turned 3 yrs old. Yesterday has been 23 months that we laid you to rest. My precious baby boy. How Momma loves and misses you soo very much! Today we will go and see you. I got you Superman Papa....we're going to have a Superman jumper today too! Thank you for earlier today at the store...I knew you had something to do with what I found. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. You will forever be in Momma's heart! My precious baby boy! We will be together again one day...I believe in my heart we will. XOXOXOXOXO'S Happy 3rd Birthday My Love! With all our love to you!

Aug 27, 09

My Love,

Today 23 months ago you entered Heaven's Gates. My precious baby boy. Momma misses you and LOVES you soo very much! I think about you everyday, I kiss your picture everyday before I leave to work and every night before I go to bed. I'm doing my best to get healthy to take care of your sisters. Momma is going to be strong for you! I know you would want that! My baby, momma turned 40 yrs old and was able to go and see you on her bday. We took you cake and spent some time with you. Marlissa has started school and is loving every day of it! I hope she continues to love and enjoy school through out the rest of her school years. Gabriele misses her when she's gone but she is looking forward to going to school as well. We love you Papa! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man....Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. XOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S Remember only me and you know!!!!! All my love to you my baby boy! Forever in my heart!

My love,

Today you would've been 35 months and yesterday was 22 months that we laid you to rest. My precious baby boy, oh how I love you and miss you with all my heart! You are my papa, my lil papa, you make me happy.....Mima's coming...we'll stop by and see you when we're driving back ok? I know she's going to want to stop and see you. It's going to be your sisters 4th birthday papa. We'll bring you some cake on Monday ok? I love you papa! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man.....Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. Forever in my heart you will always be. My baby...Aunt Toni is with you now, she's able to play with my little angel and see my precious love. I love you!!!!!!My heart still aches for you papa....... remember only me and you know.... XOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S

July 27,

My Love,
Today it has been 1 yr and 10 months that you entered Heavens Gates. My precious baby boy....Momma LOVES YOU and MISSES YOU SOO VERY MUCH!!! The days have gotten a little better, they are not the greatest. But I am trying my very best to be the best momma I can be to your sisters. But sometimes, they are just too much! My health is ok, I think. I need to get more motivated so that way I can be here for a long time for your sisters. They need me as much as I need them. I love you papa...you're always in mommas heart, forever in my heart! I love you baby! My Lil Man, May Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. Noddy, Noddy, he toots his horn to say, Make way for Noddy, Noddy, come on out and play. My lil Noddy! =0) I love you papa! Remember only you and I know!!!!! XOXOXOXOXO'S

My Lil Man,
Today you would've been 34 months. My precious Angel. Momma misses you soo much! We're here in San Diego spending time w/your Mima, your Nina/Nino and Grandpa. We took your sisters to the zoo yesterday and going to try to go to Mission Beach tomorrow and God willing go to Sea World on Wednesday. The weather is a little cold but warms up during the day. We miss you soo very much! Momma is trying to feel better, we'll see when we go back home. I'm going to come and see you when we get home. Momma bought you something from the zoo, nothing big, just a little toy. I love you ! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. xoxoxoxo's! Remember only me and you know!!!!!!! All my love to you always forever in my heart!

June 27th,
My love.........today it has been 21 months since you entered Heavens Gates and reunited with God. My precious baby boy.....I miss you soo very much. Momma is soo excited that we are going to go see our family and friends. I'll have another reason to smile. Momma hasn't been too happy, just been sad and depressed. Missing friendship, someone to talk to, laugh with and enjoy someones company. Your sisters, well they entertain me but sometimes they just don't listen. You need to let them know that they need to listen to momma and cooperate with me. LOL. My baby...I love you! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, my Lil Papa, Papa, My Lil Man, A Gabriel, A Papa. XOXOXOXO'S All my love to you my precious baby boy. Forever in momma's heart....remember only me and you know!

Rosie,

A year and a half after your son's passing and I'm barely reading this memorial to him. I've seen the photos of little Gabriel and I can't even imagine your pain. He was a beautiful child and obviously would've grown into a fine young man. I don't even know what to say...I'm sure there are no words to console a mother who's lost a child. A wound like that has to cut deep into the heart. I can only pray that time will make your son's loss easier to bear. He was a beautiful boy. God gave him to you for a short while. Be grateful to Him that he chose YOU as his mother.

Thank you for sharing his life and all these pictures of his precious face to people who knew him and even those who didn't. From Heaven, Gabriel's teaching people to love their own children even more.

Keep in touch, Rose. It's been 20 yrs since we graduated from Sweetwater High. One day when you're in San Diego, we have to get together and catch up on old times...and be assured that tonight (and many nights hereafter) I will say a prayer not only for my son, but also for yours.

My Baby Boy,
Today would've been 33 months. You would've been running around and playing here with your sisters. Yesterday the 5th was 20 months that we laid you to rest. My Lil Man, Momma misses you soo very much! I still cry but not as much as I used to. My health is improving some. I'm trying Papa, really I am. I love my baby boy and miss him soo very much! I know we'll see eachother again my love, we'll be reunited in Heaven. I'm going to try to go and see you today. I love you Papa, My Lil Man, My Lil Man My Lil Man Man Man Man Man...Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa..we love and miss you very much! YOU ARE FOREVER IN MY HEART!XOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S

My Love,
Today is May 27th, it has been 20 months that you entered Heavens Gates above. My precious baby boy....Momma loves you and misses you very much. Today your big sister Vanessa graduated from high school. Then we went to go get your stuff. Momma got off to get your stuff because it was late. Your sisters stayed in the car with your dada. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. I love you my love, you are always in momma's heart! Forever in Momma's heart. Remember Only me and you know! XOXOXOXOXOXO'S

My Love, May 6th you would've turned 33 months old. My precious baby boy...Momma misses you soo much! The other day, I closed my eyes and I saw your precious face looking at me as you were playing in a field of grass. I got to see you run holding a ball in your hands. My precious baby boy....when you were here on earth you never got to take your 1st steps on your own. Only with me holding you that you walked. I would love to hold you just for a moment and tell you how much I love you! I miss your eyes, your laugh, your funny faces, your hands, your feet, your nose, EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU! I miss my baby boy....I love you! We all love you and miss you! Chunka looks like she might be going potty by herself now. I caught her changing her pull up on her own. It's time to use the potty now! Marlissa is being stubborn and hard headed as usual, I need to take deep breaths with her because she just doesnt listen. Then I think of how they are blessings to me and treasure my time with them. As much as I can! I love you My Lil Man. Momma's heart! XOXOXOXOXOXO'S

My Love,
I know I forgot to write you on the 27th of April. But that doesn't mean I didn't forget what that day was. 19 months since you entered Heavens Gates. My precious baby boy........Momma misses you soo much. I love you Papa, your sisters love and miss you too very much! I thought life would get better but I'm still having difficulty coping with you gone. I know you're in a better place. It's just I miss you soo much and it hurts. I'm trying Papa, really I am. I need to pray more and keep the faith that we will see you again and that you are watching over us. Protecting us and making sure we are fine. Continue to take care of us and to give Momma the strength I need to be strong...I know I have to do it too but I know you want me to be healthy and strong for your sisters. I love you My Lil Man! My Lil Man, My Precious Baby Boy....Noddy, Noddy he toots his horn to say...toot toot toot!
XOXOXOXO'S We love and miss you Papa!

Hello my love,
Today is Easter, I was hoping for it to be a pleasant day today but unfortunately it's not. It's very awkward and uncomfortable. Momma misses you soo very much and my nightmare is coming true. Today should be a blessed day, a day to rejoice and praise Jesus Christ for arising again. My love, I need strength today, to go on. Momma needs you to help lift the pain and weight I have on my shoulders. You are my heart, you and your sisters Marlissa and Gabriele are my LIFE! Always will be forever in my heart...ALL 3 OF MY BABIES! We're going to go see you Papa later ok? Take you stuff ok? My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man! XOXOXOXOXO'S
We love and miss you Papa! Momma's Heart!

Hello My Love, Today you would've turned 31 months. My precious baby boy. Yesterday it has been 18 months that we laid you to rest. Momma is getting under the weather again, these sinuses are really bugging me! My nose, my head and throat hurt a lot. Today my heart has felt saddness, hurt and pain. Things going on here on earth bringing such pain and tears to people. Momma feels it too today. Momma really feels alone with no one to talk to laugh with or just enjoy a pleasant day. Your sisters keep me going especially now it makes it worse when I don't feel good. Papa, I'll see you tomorrow to get your things ok? Momma misses you with all her heart. Papa you're mommas heart remember???? My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man Man, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa, a Lil Man, a Gabriel a Papa....We love and miss you with all our hearts my love! XOXOXOXO'S Momma's heart!

My Love, March 27th,
My precious baby boy, it had been 18 months that we laid you to rest. Momma's precious Angel. I love you soo very much and miss you. Momma is doing her best to keep herself healthy for your sisters. I know you would want that for them and for me too. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man, Papa a Lil Papa, Papa a Lil Man, A Gabriel, A Papa....we love and miss you soo very much. Momma's Heart, remember only me and you know! XOXOXOXO'S

Hi papa! It's your big sister. sorry it's been a while since i went out there and visited. i promise im going to be out there on easter. it's been a very long time since i went to visit you or pa. I've just been busy with softball. I miss you papa. so very much. I might be busy, but don't think i've forgotten about you because i will never forget you. I love you Gabriel. I'll see you soon papa! LOVE,
YOUR SISTER VANESSA

My Love,
Today you would've turned 30 months. My Precious Baby Boy, My Lil Man, Momma's Heart! We miss you with all our hearts. We keep you in our thoughts everyday and sing to you and talk to you. I look at your sisters and imagine you there in between them. I would LOVE to go back in time just to hold you! Hold you close to my heart to tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. Now I can only pray and treasure all the memories I have of you. Today Gabriele giggled and the look on her face looked like yours. Her looks are beginning to look like you. Obviously they would because you are her twin. We love you Papa...My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man Man. Momma will go see you again on Tuesday ok baby? I love you! We all do!! XOXOXOXOXO'S. Momma's Heart!

My Love,
Feb 27th, it has been 17 months that you entered Heavens Gates. Momma's Lil Man, how I miss you soo. My precious baby boy...you are my heart. My one and only son, I have your sisters and they too mean the world to me. I just longed for a son, I was blessed to have you for 1 yr and 3 wks. I should've held you more papa...should've played with you more. I would love to go back in time just so that I could see you again. Hear your laugh, see your funny faces and hear you call out for momma and dadda. I wouldn't even mind smelling your stinky poopoo's from your formula. LOL. Man I always knew who did a stinky by the smell. Yours my love was the worst! LOL. I love you baby...I miss you papa. SOO MUCH! I'm trying my best to be better for your sisters. I need to be here for them. They need me! My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Man....Papa, a lil Papa, Papa, a lil man, a Gabriel, a Papa. I love you my precious angel....Momma's Heart! XOXOXOXOXO'S.

MY LOVE,
Today is Valentines Day and momma's heart aches soo much for you. Momma's Lil Man, I miss you with all my heart. We're going to go see you later today and take you what I got you. I'm doing better with my health...I'm trying. I look at your sisters and I tell myself they need me just as much as I need them. We love you and miss you soo very much! I LOVE YOU PAPA! Please watch over us and protect us. XOXOXOXOXO'S

Feb 6th,
My love today you would've turned 29 months. You are my love and today I began to cry because of that last day I saw you...sitting in your chair going to eat lunch with Gabriele and Mima. I should'nt have left you guys. I should have stayed with you or at least taken you all with me. If I could go back to that day...to have you in my arms. To have taken you to the doctors for your cold. But instead we went a different way for different reasons. I love you my baby and Momma misses you so much! You are forever in my heart. Marlissa asked me tonight if you were going mimis too when I gave her your pic to kiss before she went to bed. They kiss you everynight and Marlissa keeps you in prayer. We love you My Lil Man! ALWAYS! My precious baby boy....XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO'S. Momma's Heart! I LOVE YOU!

My Lil Man,
Today it has been 16 months that we laid you to rest. My Love and tomorrow you would've been 29 months. Momma's Lil Man..how I miss you so, We all do! How do you like your new wind chime? Your Tia Maria got it for you, I hope no one takes this one. This is the 2nd time we had to replace it. Momma is trying to do better and trying to keep herself healthy. I need to be here for your sisters. Continue to watch over us and protect us and make sure we are ok. My Lil Man, My Lil Man, My Lil Man Man Man Man Mannnn, Papa, a Lil Papa, Papa a My Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. I sing Noddy to you as much as I can my love because I know how much you enjoyed dancing in your walker to his tune. Papa your sisters and I went to go see your tia, tio and cousins in Texas. I knew you were with us along the whole trip. Everywhere we were there was someone or something to remind us of you. Like on the plane there was a little boy 2 yrs old named Gabriel, your tia's neighbor's little boy was named Gabriel. There was something to let us know that you are everywhere we are. And it felt good inside. We miss your cousins, it was soo good to see them. Your sisters LOVED playing with them. We can't wait to see them again. I love you my Angel! My precious baby boy, you will forever be in Momma's Heart! Only me and you know!!!! XOXOXOXOXO'S

Hi papa. I'm in class thinking of you. Thinking of the times i went to dads and played with you. I changed your stinky diaper once. It was kind of gross. I always played with you. I gave more attention to you instead of gabby and marlissa, even though i shouldnt have. You were and still are my little baby brother! I tried to make you smile and keep you happy as much as i could. And i hope i succeeded at it. I was so scared to carry you. I was afraid to hurt your fragile heart. And after your surgery, i was even more nervous and hesitant to carry you. At the end while you were sick in the hospaital, i wanted to be there with you papa. I sware i did, but dad didnt want us to see you like that. I really wanted to be there with you. I wasnt able to say goodbye to you, and thats what still bothers me. I know it was hard for dad and your mom to say goodbye, but i wanted to be able to say goodbye also. Im trying to accept the fact that you're gone, and you are never coming back. It's just so hard. Although im trying to accept that you're gone, please dont think that im trying to forget about you because that will never happen papa. I love you so much and you will forever be in my heart.

My love,
Today Jan 27, it has been 16 months since we laid you to rest. Momma went to go see you today after work. I didn't get to take your sisters because it was too cold and plus I went after work. We'll stop and see you before we leave on Thursday, I give you my word. You watch over me and your sisters while we go on our trip. You will be the one we'll keep in our hearts and to keep us safe. Papa, I love you with all my heart, and you know how much I'm hurting. I'm trying, really I am. I just need to get my life going on the right track. I need to be here for your sisters because they need me. I love you my love...Momma's Lil Man! My Lil Superman (baby). My precious Angel...Momma loves you! Papa, a lil papa, papa a Lil Man, a Gabriel, a Papa. XOXOXO'S I love you!