Irma Menchaca

Not a day goes by that i don't think of you and my grandpa i love and miss you both dearly my sunshines forever be with me - Nena

hi grandma , its lucy . Im 14 now I turn 15 on June 11th . I miss you so much I try and try everyday to remember memories I had with you . But i was a baby so I dont remember . All I see is pictures of you holding me when I was a baby . I miss you and I love you so much . You and Grandpa are in a better place now . You guys are finally together again ❤. You guys are in a better place called heaven . I miss you and grandpa so much . I wish you guys were still both here . Everybody need you guys the most right now . Especially my mom we just being going thru so much we need the both of you a lot . Well grandma I just wanna tell you I love you and I miss you and I think about you a lot . Grandpa I miss you and I love you also .

Hi again. Here is another picture of our son. Three months old.

Happy Birthday mom. Today would have been another year with us, but he decided it was time for you to rest and be at peace. We all wish you were here with us today. We all miss you still very much. I always carry you in my heart. Sara and I wish you were here to see our son, Christopher Naason Menchaca. We both know you would be very happy to see him. But that's ok, grandpa is here to take care of him. He is growing very fast. Everyone is very happy to have him in the family, and to see our first child. But man, does he cry a lot! That's ok, we love him. well ill write again soon. Love you mom.

Doña Irma, solo pasaba para saludarla y desearle un muy Feliz Cumpleaños dónde quiera que se encuentre. Ya que no puede estar aquí para compartir con nosotros, le voy a llevar un pastelito a Max para que se lo disfrute en su honor. Sabe, el la extraña un monton. Es rara la conversación que tenemos dónde no hablemos de usted. Siempre me platica de usted y tantas memorias lindas que tiene de ambos. Me hubiese encantado haberla conocido y Max dice lo mismo. Sabe, en estos días el sufre mucho con el recuerdo de que usted ya no está aqui. La quiere y la extraña muchisimo. Y ahorita el está pasando por unos momentos y decisiones dificiles, como usted ya debe de saber. Ayudelo porfavor, como cuando el era joven que le compartía sus problemas y angustias y usted le ayudaba a resolverlos.
Bueno, me dio mucho gusto saludarla y es un honor el que mi Max me platique de usted. Espero y tenga un muy bonito cumpleaños y donde quiera que se encuentre me siga cuidando a ese niño pelirojo tan hermoso que crío con tan grande corazon! ♡ Gracias por darle vida a semejante hombre tan lindo y cariñoso como lo es el. ;-) Cuidese mucho, y después platicamos mas. 50538~Rose

Hi mom.... I miss you so much. I need you so much, to talk to ,listen to me like you used to. I just feel so lost sometimes and you were always there to say something that would set me straight. I really miss that. Me and the kids were talking in the car a lil while ago about pics on my computer, and I told then there was only a few that I have left cuz I don't know what happened to the ready if them. My last moments with you were on video and I can't even find those. It made me really sad to know that I can't find that video. That was the last time we smiled together and laughed. I miss you so dam much mom. Its,times like this that I wish I really had you around to hear me out . Just to be in your presence was enough to calm me down. I still have anger and resentment towards him up there for taking such a wonderful beautiful woman. I don't think I could ever again believe in someone that is,supposed to be our savior yet he takes the best people away from us. I guess I just need you here with us. Id give anything to have you here again. Id sacrifice myself for one more day with you. I love you mom! I miss you.

Mom, its been 7 years on this day June 6th since you have left us. But you're not forgotten. I think about you all the time. Today is a very hard day for all of us. I still remember this day 7 years ago. It was very heart broken day. I miss you so much and still there's alot of things that reminds me of you day after day. Just wanted to say i was thinking about you. And miss u very much. Love you always.

Hi grama it is me lucy miss u lots and I am 9 now I grew grew and grew I guess wanted to tell u I luv u a lot I am so mad that u are gone my grampa really misses u I cryed for u before because I miss u well bye grama

Mom, wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday. Its still hard to believe that you are not here to celebrate this day. But we don't forget about this special day. That's why I sent you flowers with candy. I still remember when you used to sneak candy to eat. Im always thinking about you. I even sometimes imagine you still sitting on the couch waiting until you saw that I got home from work when I worked late. Wish you were still here with us. It still has not and will never be the same without you. Well let you go for now, always thinking about you. We all love you and miss you very much.

Mom I just wanted to wish an early birthday.even though its tomorrow.but I can't get you off my mind.Days like these are still hard for me to deal with but most of all harder for my dad.he loves and misses you so much too.Its been awhile since I wrote you but there's not a day that goes by that I dont think of you.I wear the ring that has your name engraved on it.remember the silver one.Dad gave it to me.and I promised him I'd never take it off.and I dont.unless it needs to be cleaned or my hands are a little bit swollen.lol!;) but otherwise I can't go any where comfortable with your ring on my finger.It makes me feel like your right there next to me all the time ... Well momma I'm goin to cut this short and I'll be back later on to wish you a Happy Birthday Mom...I LOVE YOU! WE LOVE & MISS YOU VERY MUCH.....

Hi mom, wanted to say happy birthday. Have not forgot about you, your always thought of every day. I know you would like to have some cake and ice cream and sneak some candies to chew on. Well everything is fine here at home but we all miss you very much and wish you were here with us. Sent you a picture. Hope you like it. Love you lots.

hi mom. its been a while since i have writen to you. we are all good. the kids are so big now. but im sure you are watching over them, so u already know how big they are . we think about you and miss you alot. maria just recently lost her dad francisco, and shes having a tuff time trying to stay strong. it brought back all my feeling of so much hurt, so much anger because u were taken from us. and it wasnt fair to anyone. i still have dreams that im going next door to get u to go to the store or to walmart. and it makes me feel really sad. i wish u could see little sofi. she is so beautiful. all the girls are. im still trying to deal with some emotions this week because of marias dad passing. im trying to be there for her in every way thst i can, because i know how she is feeling. the same way i felt when u were taken from us. im just so happy that i have a ton of great memories with u mom. i loved our time that we had together. i miss u so much mom. i love u . love you always

Happy Mothers Day Mom!!!!!
I cant believe how long its been since you left. almost 5 years now. and not a day goes by that i dont give a thought of you or something that you would say. we miss you so much. we know you are watching over us and keeping a good eye on us all. its times like these holidays that i wish you were here with us just to hang out and relax with you. even if we dont do anything , just for you to be here with us is all we need. we love and miss you so much. again let me say Happy Mothers Day, and we love and miss you dearly.
love you always: max,maria,isabella,anabella,sofi

Happy New Year mom. Miss you lots. Love always forever Chris and Sara

Hi mom. Merry Christmas. we all still miss you very much. And will forever miss you. Again it is still not the same without here. Everyone is doing good. Everyday I think about you and will always have you in my heart. Hi merry Christmas con amor para usted ,la queremos mucho,un osculo de amor besos para usted:-*<3<3... Love always Chris and sara

Merry Christmas Momhello mom. its max, just wanted to wish you a merry christmas. we miss you so much. we All want you here with us to celebrate. things will never be the same without you here. everyone is fine. maria is good and the kids are so big and beautiful, just like grandma. liz and the kids are good. chris and sara are good , martin and laurie are good and DAD is good. we just miss you sooooo much everyday and around the holidays. i know i do miss you very much, especially when i see an old christmas movie on tv that reminds me of u and ones that we used to watch together. i would like to say Thankyou very much Mom for always watching over us and making sure we are ok . we Love and Cherrish you very much. I Love You Mom. Merry Christmas! love you always max,maria,bella,anita,sofi

Happy Birthday mom. The thing I remember when you were here with us, was on your birthday how happy you were when you opened the gifts we gave you and when you used to sneak in on eating the cake. I really wish you were here with us. I always think about you and carry you in my heart. You will always be missed. Love always Chris and Sara

Happy Birthday Mom!!
i cant believe how long its been since u had to leave. we all think about you and mention you everyday. we love and miss you very much mom. we ALL wish u could be here with us to celebrate your special day with us. its just not the same anymore without u here. i wish u could be here. the kids are growing up so fast. Sofi is crawling all over and i think she will be walking by nect month. i really would have loved for u to meet her. but i know u are watching over all 3 of the girls. well mom its getting late. Happy Birthday . i love you mom.

I miss you very mutch everyday.Me and Anisa where laughing our butts off taday.

hey mom .... its max. i know it has been a while since ive writen to you, but i think about you everyday. little things throughout my day remind me of things that you used to say or we used to do. i know that you already know about uncle sammy, i know your watching over him up there with grandma. for me it was the same kinda pain all over againtrying to deal with all the emotions and all the hurt that i feel from when we lost you. thy had a great service for uncle sammy and a slide show of pics of him and a couple with you two in them. it made me feel even worse when i saw those pics cuz it brought back all the hurt and pain. i know you anduncle and grandma wouldnt want me to feel bad but its hard sometimes. i know that you and uncle sammy and grandma are watching over the family. and we are greatful for that. i love all of you guys. everyone in the fam. is doing good. all the girls are getting so big. bella and anita are turing into beautiful little people. and sofi is one pretty baby. i wish u were able to be here with us to watch them grow up. they miss you very much. we all do.. well mom i would love to tell you that we miss you and love you very much. say goodnight to uncle sammy and grandma for me. love you guys. goodnight mom. love you.

Hi grandma its me anisa i miss u and the rest do to uncle sammy left us on steptember 27 2012 in the morning and alot of us were so sad to hear that well we love u we will never forget about you i love and miss u if you were still alive i would be by your side and take care of you and make you feel better its been a hard time for me with out you here i always think of you i saty with grandpa and take care of him every night i think of you i would be so happy if you were here with us rite now well i love u and miss R.I.P GRANDMA IRMA

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

Hi mom. i really wish you were here to celebrate this special day with us. i miss you very much. im always thinking about you and its still hard for me to even have the thought of you not here with us. we bought you some flowers and put them by your pictures. hope you like them, sara also says hi and happy mothers day. we will talk to you later. love and miss you very much.

MERRY CHRISTMAS MOM!

Hi mom, writting to tell you merry christmas, wish you were here with us. i know you would very happy to have all those gifts to open, and sneaking all those candies to eat. miss you very much. i sent you a picture of a christmas tree. hope you like it. talk to you later. love you lots.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM !

Hi mom, its chris, im writting you to tell you happy birthday. i wish you were here to celebrate. well as you know i miss you very much, yesterday on your birthday was hard for me because i remember before i used to buy you a card some flowers and a gift. i remember the smile you always had on your birthday, waitting for eveyone to bring you gifts and CAKE TOO. me and sara bought you some flowers and a card just like alaways. we put it by all of your pictures. hope you like it. as you saw sara is here with me in the u.s at home now. no more trips to tijuana. i know your. really happy for me. and im glad to. well talk to you later. k love you lots

hola muchas felicidades
le deseo en su cumpleanos,quisas no la conoci y me hubiera gustado conocerla para hacer una fiesta en su dia pero dios no lo quizo asi solo dios sabe porque hace las cosas quiero decirle que ya estoy aqui en su casa con chris y que me hubiera gustado estar viviendo aqui con usted pero dios no lo permitio pero le quiero decir feliz dia y aunque no esta con nosotros siempre la recordares yo quizas viendo su foto porque no la conoci pero chris siempre la recuerda en su pensamiento y en su corazon y nunca la olvidaremos la queremos mucho sara chris.

hey mom, it max. couldnt sleep tonight so i wanted to write to you to say hello. and i love and miss you very much. the girls miss you also. i have some good news for you ,im sure you already know but maria is 5 months pregnant. she finds out what shes having sometime next month. im hoping for a boy ,but a healthy baby is all im worried about. we are so excited , and also sad that you wont be able to meet the baby. i wish you were here to meet our new baby .but i know your watching over him or her even now that it is in the belly still. we really havent picked a name yet but we have a few girl names in mind. well mom im going to try and get some sleep its really late and i have to wake up early for work. love you lots mom. goodnight ...

love you, and in our hearts and thoughts always.

Hi mom. today june 6th is 3 years since you left from our sides. i really miss you alot. i think alot about you every day. today it hurts the most because i remember everything that happened that day. me and sara were looking at some photos that i have of you. she really wishes that you were here to meet her. she said that she always wanted to have a mother n law. but its ok because you will always be in our hearts. love you lots.

hola chris me dijo que hoy hace 3 anos que ya no esta con ellos pero chris siempre se a cuerda de usted porque usted es alguien muy especial para el y si yo la hubiera conocido tambien lo fuera para mi pero dios no lo quizo asi pero siempre la recordares y la llevaremos en nuetro pensamiento y en nuestro corazon la queremos mucho sus hijos chris y sara DLB y LG.

hi mom. its been too long since i havent wrote to you. i cant believe that its been 3 years since you left us. everyone is doing fine but i know that you know that cuz your our gaurdian angle. the girls are getting so big and they are turning into some pretty neat little people. i really wish that you were here to see them grow. they mention you all the time especially bell, she always tells me about all the things that you guys used to do. and anita is a little to young to understand that your gone but she askes about you alot. we all love and miss you very much mom.now maria wants to write something.

Irma, we miss you, Bella ask about you and misses you too, anabella sont remember much but she always ask about u and mises you. we have some pictures of you and they look at them anabella gets on the computer n see all the pictures of you and her. Whe have some videos too, anabella plays them over and over. Isabella wants to tell you that we have a new dog her name is tinker bell. We will always have you in our thougts, i really enjoyed the little time we had and i wish i could have more time to spend and get to know you, and also the kids for you to see them grow and change but im sure you are watching them just dont pull my ears at night ok if u see that i spank them ok.

we love and miss you very much........
love always max,maria,isabella,anabella.

hi mom i found this web site on my phone. so now i think i can write to you and send you pictures from my phone. i'm going to try it let me know if you get it. love and miss you lots.

Hi mom Happy Mothers Day from me and sara. I bought some flowers and put it by your pictures. did you see it? Hope you like them. well talk to you later.
Hola quiero decirle unas palabras feliz dia de las madres donde quiera que este le deseo lo mejor muchas felicidades la queremos mucho sara y chris dios la bendiga. miss you lots

Hi mom, me and sara wanted to hi. Miss you very much and always thinking about you. wanted to send you a picture. Hope you get it. Love you lots.

Hi mom me and sara wanted say Happy Valentines Day! we were was going to write you when i was in mexico but the computer lab was closed. we bought a little bear for you, and i put it next to your pictures. Like it. well talk to you later mom, love you and miss you very much

Hi mom just wanted to say Merry Christmas from me and Sara. Its just not the same for me and all of us without you here on the holidays. I miss you very much and i really wish you were here to join us. I think about you every day of my life. Well talk to you later. Love and miss you very much.

Hola soy sara. Quiero decirle Feliz cumpleanos. Ya no estas con nosotros pero quisiera que estuviera aqui para hacer una fiesta con mucho comida para usted, y pasar un dia juntos y felices. Pero le deseo lo mejor de mundo. Feliz Dia. Dios le bendiga

Hi mom. Happy Birthday! I wish you were here to celebrate your day with us. So you can eat some cake and ice cream. I bought you a card and put it over there by your stuff. I think about you all the time. and miss you very much. til this day its still hard to belive your not here. we are all hanging in there. well talk to you later mom. love you lots and Happy Birthday

Hi mom its been 2 years yesterday since you left us. i really miss you and wish you were here with us. well as you can tell im doing fine. and every one else too. i have alot lot to say. the main thing is that i want to say is that i miss and love you very much. sara is here to and is going write too.


Hola yo solo quiero decirle unas palabra yo no la conoci pero chris me dijo que el seis de junio hizo dos anos que usted ya no esta con su familia toda su familia la extranan mucho y la quieren mucho bueno yo no conozco a su familia pero creo que es asi porque tener una mama es lo mas valioso que hay en el mundo pero usted no esta aqui es porque dios quiso asi pero chris la quiere mucho y siempre se acuerda de usted porque me platica de usted me hubiera gustado conocerla pero dios no lo permitio bueno la queremos mucho y que dlb.

Hi mom. Just wanted to say Happy Mothers Day. me and sara bought you a glass rose and an elephant. did you see it. I was going to write yesterday but the place was closed. I really miss you alot and think about you each day of my life. When i come home from work i still see you sitting there on the couch watching tv and waiting for me to come home from work. i really miss you alot. me and sara are doing fine. shes here with me right now too. she wants to write you something. well talk to you later. love you always.


Hola. feliz dia le quiero decir que la queremos mucho y aunque no la conoci me hubiera gustado pasar un 10 de mayo juntos todos le quiero agradecer por haber tenido un hijo el cual lo amo con todo mi corazon y los dos hubieramos querido pasar este dia con usted la amamos mucho y muchas felicidades en este dia la queremos mucho y siempre la recordaremos chris y yo y la llevamos siempre en nuestra mente que dios la bendiga

hi mom. well im writting you cause i wanted to tell you HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. i know its one day late. did you see the bear and rose that me and sara bought for you. and the coffe cup with candy sara bought for dad? i also sent you some pictures a little bit ago. did you see them yet? i really miss you alot and wish you were here with all of us. sara is here with me and wants to write to you to. talk to you later.

Hola quiero decirle que muchas felicidades tenga usted en este dia aunque no la tengamos aqui con nosotros le deseo lo mejor me hubiera encantado conocerla y pasar muchos 14 de febrero juntas pero aunque dios no lo quiso asi le deseo mucha felicidad le damos un osculo de amor chris y yo le decimos FELIZ DIA DE SAN VALENTIN QUE DIOS LA BENDIGA HOY Y SIEMPRE.

hi mom. sorry i havent wrote to you in a while. i know a couple of holidays have passed and i know should have wrote to you but i just couldnt i still cant get over the fact that your not here with us anymore it still hurts to think that your gone and no one understands me so i dont really show that much emotion twords it but inside im really angry and sad that you cant be here for all the holidays all the birthdays and all the other thigs that you need to be here for us. i know people say that the lord took you from us for a reason but he wasnt thinking about all the people that needed you here. we all need you mom. we all miss you so much its just so difficult to understand its been almost 2 years and i still wish that you were next door ready to go to walmart or to go to sears with us. all the times i needed you to talk to all the problems that you helped me out with cause you always had the right answer. all the times dad needed you. he misses you so much mom. i know tommorow is valentines day so i want to say HAPPY VALENTINES DAY MOM. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU. i dont mean to be selfish when i say that i need you here with us. im just speaking for everyone in the family and everyone who knew you. we all miss you. well mom again let me say that you dont know how much you mean to me and thankyou for being our angel and watching over the entire MENCHACA FAMILY. we love you. goodnight mom love you.

Hi mom. how are you just wanted to say
merry christmas and happy new year. i bought you some pointsettas, did you see them? i think about you all the time, and miss you very much. well i guess you see what i am doing each day, i wish you were her to share some moments with me and sara. i know that you know that i am very happy with her. i am here right now with her writting cause she said that she wanted to write to you. with me everything is going alright with me so far, but i know that you and dad are helping me as i go along. well talk to you later. sara wants to write to you now, love you always and thinking about you each day.

Hola feliz ano nuevo. quiero decirle que nos gustaria que estuviera con nosotros. este ano nuevo que empezamos pero donde quiera que usted. esta la recordamos siempre me hubiera gustado mucho compartir este ano con usted. conocerla pero dios no lo quiso asi. pero donde quiera que este estamos unidos siempre. espero que nos acompane en este ano. y que siempre este con nosotros. la amamos mucho y que dios la bendiga. hoy siempre con todo carino para usted.
sara y chris;
feliz ano 2010.

hi grandma,i miss you so very much that if you were alive i will never leave your side.even if your dead. we have alot of pictures of you when you were young and old.I Miss You. I Love You Always BELLA

Hi Irma,wishing you a Happy Thanksgiving.I miss you so much.I wish you were here.Just thinking of you makes me cry.I just wanted to let you know that i don't have Thanksgiving and Christmas at our house anymore.It's not the without you being here.I don't put up anything for the holidays anymore,but I think you know that.Just want to let you know we have Thanksgiving and Christmas at Max's house,everybody was there.Martin and Laurie and Emma.Liz and the kids, Max and Maria,Bella&Anita.Everybody misses you.Maria has turned into a wonderful cook.I was so proud of her that she prepared all the food cooked the turkey and everything almost as good as you.But you know Irma there is only one you.we dont get along very well but thats ok.someday we will,the more she dislikes me the more i like her.Irma its time to say goodnight.I love you always and forever. Your Guy, Fernie(POR VIDA) FERNIE & IRMA 1963-2008

hey mom its me max.
sorry i didnt get a chance to write to you on your birthday but we left you a card a home. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM I LOVE AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH. wish you were here to celebrate. thankyou for watching over me maria and the girls we really appreciate it . we love and miss you.

My Dearest Irma
Its been over a year since you left me. I feel so lonely without you. Everytime i think about you i cry. i think about you all the time but now its time i told you something: Irma, i never met a women like you in my life which i will always remember. Irma there will never be another girl like you no one will ever replace you. you were one of a kind. Irma you lied to me you told me you would never leave me and every day& night im all alone by myself hoping that you would come back to me. im sitting here alone in my room thinking about your pretty face and your pretty smile and all the memories we had together i think about you every day and every minute of the day Irma if i could turn back the hands of time i would surely bring you back to me. Irma this is not the way we planned it we were supposed to grow old together watch our grandkids grow walk around the block every evening. we were supposed to do what old people do and that is grow old together but i guess that cant happen now. Irma i am very sorry this happened to you maybe it was for the best or maybe it wasnt. i hated to see you in so much pain i remember you telling me to let you go but i couldny i did not want to let you go but you were in so much pain that God made the decission for me.

p.s.Irma i will never forget you and the memories we had together. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS & FOREVER
Your Guy Fernie - Por Vida

October 23, 2009

hey mom it's me chris. First i wanted to say Happy Birthday! i know you know but i love you and miss you very much. So how did you like the wedding? i know you liked, i know you were there at the wedding with us, cuz i felt your presence, did you get to eat all you wanted and even cake? cuz i know you snuck a little something to eat. thats alright. i just wished you were there to see it. it's just not the same any more with out you. but i know your watching over me and see that i am very happy now with my wife. well sara's here with me and wants to write a little something to you. talk to you later. love you always and im always thinking of you.

Hola, soy sara. yo se que no la conoci pero quiero decirle que muchas felicidades. y aunque no la tengamos con nosotros la amamos muchisimo y siempre la recordaremos y la llevamos en nuestro corazon y en nuestro pensamiento. y quiero decirle que le doy gracias a usted por tener un hijo maravilloso que me ama y yo lo amo tambien aunque nuestra felicidad completa seria tenerla con nosotros pero donde quiera que este estamos con usted que dios la bendiga por siempre. CON TODO CARINO PARA USTED LA AMAMOS CHRIS Y SARA.

hey mom its me max. i know its been a while since i wrote to you , its just that i couldnt face the fact that when a year passed in june it was so hard for me. i didnt know what to do that day. i felt like my whole day was just empty. i know your always watching over me maria and the girls. and we thankyou for being our angel. every time bella sees the brightest star in the sky she says look daddy it granma irma. its so hard for me not to cry when she says that but i have to stay strong for her and anita. the kids are good bella is in 1st grade now and anita might start preschool this year. i wish you were here to see them. maria is doing good shes still working at mulvanys. well mom goodnight. i love you.

MOM,
WELL IT HAS BEEN A YEAR SINCE YOU LEFT US,I MISS YOU AND THINK OF YOU EVERY DAY AS DO LAURIE AND EMMA.I KNOW THAT YOU ARE ALAWAYS WATCHING OVER US.

WE LOVE YOU ALAWAYS
MARTIN,LAURIE AND EMMA

hey mom its me max. well tomarrow is mothers day and i just wanted to let you know that i am always thinking about you. and i wanted to say happy mothers day mom. i love you. it has been hard on me this past 10 months. its hard for me to understand that your not here with us. every holiday has been really different without you. its just not the same anymore. the other day bella gave maris a mothers day card like the one i used to give to you from school and i started crying cause i remembered when i used to give you those. i miss you so much mom. i wish you could just come back home i really miss you and need to see you. it sgoing to almost be a year since you had to go. and i dont know how i am going to feel or act on that day. i am really scared cause i dont want to remember that day. i still think about it sometimes. i wish i could have just been there with you so could be able to save you like you used to save me from my problems. and if i couldnt then to be able to say goodbye to you the way i wanted to. i just wish things were different so you could be here. happy mothers day mom. i love you.

Hey mom. its max. i just wanted to let you know that im thinking of you always. i miss you. love you mom.

hey mom. its me max. ijust wanted to say hi. i was thinking about you alot. i wish you were here with me mom. i really need you here. i need someone to talk to. i have so much stuff in my mind that i need to get ouy but no one can understand me like you could. you would always listen to me and then give me an answer for whatever the problem was at the time. but this time its not problems its just that it is so hard for me to think that your not here. i know it has been a while but it feels like yesterday that all of this happend. i miss you so much. i just wish you were here to say that you are ok . i know you are but it isnt the same. hey guess what? i got a new position at work. you probably already know that, i dont work at night anymore. thats great for me cuz i get to see the kids and maria more. and i get to see dad alot more. me and dad have grown really really close since everything happend. and i love it. i just wish you could be with us to do it. we do alot of things together now. ok mom i will talk to you tomarrow k. i love and miss you. hi grandma. its isabella i love you.

Happy Valentines Day Mom! Igot you some flowers and a balloon. i hope you like them. I thimk about you every day. i miss you so much. i wish you were with us. loved and missed always and forever. i love you mom.

hey mom,well today is christmas.Merry Christmas.I Love You and miss you so much.I really wish you were here right now.It would make everything so much better.but i know everythings going to be ok.and that is because you are here with us still....maybe not in body but in soul and spirit.and you are and will be our gaurdian angel watching over us today,tomorrow and forever.I Love You and we all miss you dearly.Merry Christmas....Mama.

HEY MOM ITS MAX. MERRY CHRISTMAS MOM. I REALLY WISH THAT YOU COULD BE HERE WITH US TO CELEBRATE. ITS JUST NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU HERE. I HELLA MISS YOU .I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU. HOPEFULLY THIS WILL BE AN OK CHRISTMAS. I KNOW IT IS NOT BECAUSE YOUR NOT HERE. MAN. IF I HAD ONE PRESENT TO ASK SANTA FOR IT WOULD BE FOR YOU TO BE HERE WITH US. WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH. IT JUST DOESNT FEEL RIGHT WITHOUT YOU. TONIGHT I WILL SAY A PRAYER FOR YOU. AND I WILL MY BEST TODAY TO MAKE EVERYONE HAVE A GOOD DAY. THE OTHER DAY ME AND MARIA AND DAD WENT TO THE AUCTION AND WE SEEN A BIG ELEPHANT THAT YOU WOULD HAVE LOVED. I HELLA STARTED CRYING WHEN I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING THROUGH RITE NOW I CANT SLEEP RIGHT AND IT IS HARD FOR ME. I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT YOU. I MISS YOU MOM. I LOVE YOU. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

hey mom its max. man mom its been 6 months since you left. i still find myself going over to the house to go and visit or just sit down and talk about things that are going on, its so hard for me to think that your gone because i still dont believe it. but i know your with GOD now and that he has great plans for you in heaven. i just wish it could have been later on in life. you dont know what i would give just to see you again and give you a big hug and kiss. i miss you so dam much. lately i havent been able to sleep right because i keep thinking about you and what we are gunna do now for all the holidays coming up. cause we were so used to going over to your house and now i think things are going to change. but i dont want them to. MOM, can i ask you something? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE US? WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH. I WANT YOU BACK SO BAD I CANT HELP IT ANYMORE. I FEEL MYSELF MORE AND MORE DEPRESSED NOW . AND I REALLY DONT HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT BECAUSE I DONT WANT ANYONE TO WORRY ABOUT ME. I USED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT EVERYTHING. WELL MOM GOOD NIGHT. I LOVE YOU.

hey mom its me max. just wanted to say happy thanksgiving. i wish you were here with us to sit down and eat. man it just isnt the same without you here. i hella miss you. love you much mom.

hey mom its me max. mom i hella miss u, and today is my birthday and i felt myself waiting for your phone call to tell me happy birthday, cuz you were the first one to call me and tell me. i had a dream about it last night and when i woke up this morning i had a message on my phone that i could not open. it was weird but i have a feeling i know what the message is. its you telling me happy birth day. i just started crying when i seen the message and it wouldnt erase. thankyou . i love you mom.

she was a great grandma to all the grandchildren and to me

Mom,it's me Liz,well as you probably know I and the kids and DAD of course!Chris,Max and the gils MISS YOU OH SO VERY MUCH!I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING FOR YOU TO BE HERE WITH US RIGHT NOW.Today makes 3months since you left us.but I know in my heart that your not suffering anymore and your at peace resting with Grandma and everyone else I MYSELF carry and will always care for and treasure deep inside my heart FOREVER!My wost fear having to the one who would be there with you the day you passed became MY BIGGEST REALITY.But,I TRUELY FEEL IN MY HEART AND SOUL THAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THAT WAY,BECAUSE THAT IS HOW GOD WANTED IT TO BE AND HOW YOU WANTED IT TO BE.Honestly,I thought I was going to go crazy!My main worries were DAD,CHRIS,MAX and how was I going to explain that Grandma left this world to become a BRIGHT BIG BEAUTIFUL SHINING STAR IN THE SKY?because that was how I thought it was best to explain it to the kids.My kids & Max's.But when we were there that day at dialysis,my WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE,from when I was a little girl until that very moment flashed before my eyes.All I know is Im so glad I actually got to tell you to in person and to DAD HOW VERY GREATFUL I WAS AND STILL ARE FOR HAVING YOU BOTH IN MY LIFE!there is no regets or remorse there.but I am very SORRY for all the trouble pains and dissapointments I put you through.I know you will or have forgiven me for them,because you are kind hearted.MOM,I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH,IT HURTS SO BAD.I hurts me so much to see DAD so lost,alone and hurt.He lost his first,one&only LOVE OF HIS LIFE!i'm putting together photo albums for Dad.All the pictures there is so many of them!Now,all there is left is BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES TO CHARISH FOREVER!MOMMY,I LOVE VERY MUCH AND ALWAYS WILL!IM NEVER EVER GOING TO FORGET YOU! until next time we talk.... Your one & only DAUGHTER,Elizabeth

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, ""I welcome you.""

It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......""My day was not in vain.""
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey (author)
©Copyright 1998-2008

hey mom. its me again max. well as you already know that i started my new job with dad a couple of weeks ago. i like it. it is fun for me. yea im glad to have got away from l&l. i didnt like it to much there anymore. yea so now i get to see dad at work and at home.man mom i hella miss you. sometimes its hard for me to sleep, cause i have been having dreams about you. sometimes i see your face when i close my eyes at night and i cant go to sleep. i still dont think its fair. you should be here with us . everyone says its going to take some time for me to get better but they dont feel the way i do inside. you were the only one wh0 was able to calm me down and now i feel like ive lost that and i cant deel with it sometimes. i get so angry and sad all mixed in at the same time.well its getting late . I LOVE YOU MOM! GOOD NIGHT.

hi mom. i was just stoping in to say hello n i love you. i was hella thinking about you 2day. i hella miss you. 2day bella made me very sad, she said to me daddy i miss grandma irma. n i just started crying cuz i didnt know what to tell her. the girls realy miss you. i know you are watching over them 4 me. i just feel realy empty inside and i dont know what to do sometimes. and dad, i dont know . hes not dad anymore. its like hes lost and i hate to see him like this. i try my best to do whatever i can do 4 him. i have been taking him out to shop or to get whatever he needs 4 house but its not the same without you. we all really miss you mom and i just wish that you could be here with us.i need you so much rite now mom. im going crazy inside and i dont know what to do. i miss you so much. goodnight mom. i love you.

Mom, its been a month now and still a day doesnt go by that i dont think about you. i miss you so much mom. i wish that this was all a dream. i wish i could just walk next door and get you to go to walmart with me. i miss all of our great times together. i want to thank you for all the things that you have taught me in life: to make the right decissions, to do what was right no matter what happens. i think all of what you taught me has made me a better person in life and i just want to say thankyou. i love you mom. and you are greatly missed. i know your looking down on us, making sure we are ok. like you always did. i love you mom.