Nicholas H. Gregory

Stripe or fishing.

My dearest love, it´s been almost a month since you left to rest. I love you so much and I can´t even begin to explain how different life has become without you. You´ll be so proud to know how well the boys have been stepping up, all of your conversations with them about becoming the man they want to be ~ worked even though you didn´t think they heard you, they did. Addie is like a little mother hen. He´s all over me making sure I eat and rest. We did such an amazing job with them. Thank you for your wisdom. You and me geez I don´t even know where to begin. You have been my best friend for so many years but thank you for all of the memories I can sit back and think about.
From the rubber cockroach you glued to my forehead all the way up and included most recently in Market 32 a few months ago me raising my voice ( so everyone would take notice)to stop touching my boobs bc you were my brother!! All the while the cashier was trying to scan our items. I wish I had,had a mirror that I could have shown you the look on your face. You melted into the floor. Then quickly recovered and I think you laughed the hardest. I love to tell the story about the m&m store in Vegas. You nailed that one
Thank you Nico for playing with me and giving me strength to keep going without you. We had such a beautiful life together, it wasn´t always easy but we worked to keep what we had. Remember when I d say I love you and you would say the same to me then I´d saying you don´t get it . I really really love you. You'd get that smile you had. I think you knew exactly what I was trying to express but enjoyed seeing me grasping at straws and stumbling and bumbling over words bc I was at such a loss to be able to express myself. What a rarity for me to be at a loss for words. I missed your service. I´ll regret that for the rest of my life but I dropped a ball on me. I´ve been taking a crash course in how to be you, I spent so much time and energy making sure everyone else was ok I forgot to refill my lyrica. It made me so sick not having it. My heart was crazy - you already know all this, geez who knew what a game changer this medication was for my quality of life, but as good as it is not having is worse. I won´t do that again. I have reminders for to refill everything. That way I won´t forget to take care of me.
Thank you for being so patient and kind to me. You gave me the most perfect life with you. I can´t think of anything that would have made a. difference. My only regret is that we didn´t have more time we had almost two decades and used to feel like a long time but now it feels like a drop in the ocean., but I wouldn´t change a thing despite how much it hurts not having you here physically it´s been worth it. Our love will live on, I´ll always have that to draw strength from. Thank you for being such an amazing person. You are what I call a shiny person - you were so very special and rare thank you for choosing me. I knew during our first date when we ordered three entrees bc I couldn´t make a choice you were the one for me.
I have to go now but I´ll be back.
I love you

You will be greatly missed Nick. I have such fun memories of you. Great camping trips. Such a sweet man. Great friend to Rob.