PAUL PROSS

I LOVE YOU DADDY!!!! IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY AND MEMORIES A LANE, I'D WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN!!!!!!

Today is one year since you passed. The hardest day of my life!! I thought about keeping this page open so I could keep talking to you but I realize I talk to you everyday anyway and don't need to write it down. I love you daddy. You were my rock, the one I looked up to, the one I went to when I needed advice, and the one I wanted every man to be just like. As the song goes "you were the wind beneath my wings." Forever in my heart!! LOVE YOU, DADDY!! I hope you're no longer in pain and at peace!

In two days it will be one year since you passed. My heart aches every day missing you. I feel like I let you down, didn't push hard enough with the doctors or make you have the open heart surgery and not wait to get the experimental one. I know there is nothing that I can do to bring you back cause if heartache could do it, you would have been back by now. This guest book closes in a couple of days. I've never shared it's location with anyone, it was my place to write to you alone. On New Years Eve, the day we lost you, will be my last message. I will talk to you in my dreams, Daddy. I love you with all my heart!

As I suspected, Christmas wasn't the same without you. Mom got me a wonderful necklace with your photo engraved from the picture with Karen, Margaret, Mom, and you around your birthday last year. I will keep it close to my heart always. I miss you, daddy. My heart aches, the tears flow all the time when I think of how I miss you.

If I had one wish, one dream that could come true, I would wish with all my heart and soul for yesterday with you!!! I miss you, daddy. Christmas just won't be the same without you here!!

Christmas is almost upon us and not having you here to share it with us is heart wrenching. Thanksgiving was really tough. We went to someplace other than the beach, I couldn't bring myself to be there without you. Couldn't bring myself to make new memories yet. I could only remember that Thanksgiving was the last holiday we shared as a family. I love you daddy! Miss you with all my heart!!!!!

I'm not looking forward to Thanksgiving. It just won't be the same without you there or us going to the Ocean. I told mom I simply couldn't go this year, it is too soon and too much for me to try and handle this year. I miss you and love you so much, daddy!!!

Hi, daddy! I miss you more than words can explain. The last 10 months have been the hardest 10 months of my life. I'm having such a hard time dealing with your passing! I don't want to go anywhere or do anything that we used to do as a family because I'll miss you not being there to share in the fun. Part of me thinks you would want us to go to the beach this year for Thanksgiving. I just don't know. Could you give me some kind of sign that we should? I love you!!! Miss you tons!!!!!!!!!!!

I was on the train today and going through voicemails. With the iPhone (I know you don't know about how they work :-) )it shows who left a message. I clicked on one left from your house phone to see what the message said and the first thing I heard was "Hi, Laura, it's your dad." I started crying. I've missed your voice soooo much. It was a bittersweet moment. I went through some of the others and found one from the last Christmas we all had together. I will keep them forever. I miss you, daddy!!! Love you so much!!!

Hi, daddy. When I left mom's the other day, it was the most beautiful sunset. I took it as you were saying hi to me from the sky. I miss you and love you so much!

I feel like I let you down... When you were taken to the operating room, I told you everything was going to be OK and you would be home soon. I never dreamed you would have to have 4 surgeries in a 12 hour time frame - I know you probably don't know that happened. There's so much I would I would have said before you went back. I didn't know you would only be awake for 2 days and in such pain you couldn't talk. I wish I wouldn't have let you down. I wish you were here. I really need you, daddy!!! My heart is breaking still. I love you so much!! We all miss you dearly!!

Father's Day is approaching and I'm sadden I won't be able to take you out to dinner. You are my hero and I miss you dearly!! Life will never be the same without you! Keep watching over mom. She keeps bear by her side each night. Love you!

The amount of sadness I feel with your passing is immeasurable. I've never felt such an emptiness and loss until you left us.

The sorrow I feel not having you here with us in indescribable. I'm at a loss without you here. Did you hear me tell you I love you before you passed? Did you hear me tell you I would take care of mom for you? I promise I will - always and forever!! LOVE YOU!! MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!

Easter wasn't the same without you. Being at the house isn't the same without you! It's starting to get warm outside. I bet you would be getting your tiller ready to till the garden about now. We are going to have to get the Topsy Turvy thing going for mom this year so she can have her tomatoes. Love you, Daddy! Miss you tons!

Hi, Daddy! It's now been two months since you went on to be pain free. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss you dearly!! I told mom I found this site but haven't given her or anyone else the link. For now, I want it to be where I can come and write to you - even though I know you're not really reading it. I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!

There isn't an hour that goes by that I don't miss you, Daddy. I try to take comfort in knowing that your aren't in pain anymore. But, I selfishly wish you were still here so I could ask your advice when I don't know what to do. They say time will help with the pain but right now I just don't see the pain ever going away. I love and miss you so much daddy!!!!!!!!! Please watch over mom and your grandkids. They miss you dearly too.