Colin Wesley Ferguson

On my birthday a photo of you popped up on my phone. It was the first time the photo has cycled up on my phone as it was taken on your sisters graduation from Cal Lutheran May 16; 2009 It made me smile because it felt like you were telling me happy birthday mom. I wish so much that you could be here, but I can still hear your voice!

Happy 36th birthday Colin! Gone but never ever forgotten.

I miss you so much, each and every day. It´s almost impossible to put into words. Happy 36th birthday Colin. My unicorn baby!

Hey, Darla. Are you okay? I wanted to check in.

Thank you Colin for your service. Your bravery and kindness are inspiring. You are and alwvays will be my Hero! Love you forever!

Thinking of your family today. You were so deeply loved and still incredibly missed. I think of the quote... missing someone is sadness wrapped in the blessing of having known them. Anyone who met you was blessed and that is carried with your loved ones today and always

What is there to say after twelve years, some days are still hard, a few are easier. It seems like it was yesterday I was hugging you goodbye at the airport, more military guys were showing up for your flight and I sensed you were getting embarrassed so I let go sooner than I wanted to, and now it is one of my biggest regrets of my life. I still drive the car we spent so much time together in, and the passenger seat is stuck in the farthest positivo because you always put your feet up on...

This will mark the twelfth Christmas without you. This one seems harder in that it will be my first Christmas without my beloved sister Debi. She was by my side at your services, and when we returned home to go through your belongings that had shipped back from Hawaii. Debi was able to go through most everything carefully hanging up all your uniforms, but when it came to your boots, she had to stop put them on your bed and had a cry, she was thinking of you wearing them in Afghanistan. You...

Colin woul have turned 35 on the Fourth of July. His passing was the most devastating day of my life, his birth and that of his sister and brother are the most joyful. I still cry when I think of Colin, but I force myself to think of the many times he made me smile. One of the best two weeks in my life were spent on Oahu with colin before he was deployed to Afghanistan. All the adventures we had. I still miss you Colin every minute of every day.