Jody Lynn McFARLAND

Hi momma,
I’m getting married in 4 days!! As excited as I am I’m so heartbroken too. It’s times and moments like this that kill me that your not here. Doing and planning everything without you was rough. Making decisions about things without you was Brutal. There’s a physical pain in my heart that won’t go away, I ask more and more lately why! Why did this have to happen to you, why did you have to go so soon, whyyyyyyy!!!! I miss you so much momma!!! Please show me a sign that...

Hi Momma,
I'm sorry it's been a while since I wrote. Well the kids are starting school in 2 days and I'm having a hard time. Another reminder that you and dad aren't here with me. Joshua is going into 11th grade, 11th grade mom I can't believe it, I just wish you and dad were here to see him. I know you would be so proud of him!! Ava is going into 3rd grade already, she is so smart you would be proud of her too. Ariana is going into 2nd grade and Grace is going into 1st grade...

Happy Easter momma, another holiday has came and went without you and dad, and it's still not any easier. We went to church this morning and it was absolutely beautiful. I try and find peace knowing your with dad and can only imagine the amazing celebration your having Jesus. I love and miss you always!!!

Oh momma, it's been 2 years you went to be with Jesus, and it still as painful as the day you left. I have such pain in my heart without you and dad. My world is so lost without you. I keep going back and forth in my head if i would have done things differently if it would have helped. I hope you knew how much I LOVED you and how truly grateful I was for everything you did for me. There are no words to describe how much I love and miss you!! Love you more ALWAYS AND FOREVER ❤

Oh momma!! Living life without you and dad is absolute hell. Everyday is a struggle!! I keep asking why did this happen!! It's not fair. The kids are starting a new school year and your not here to see the milestones and accomplishments. Joshua is gonna be a sophomore already and Ava is gonna be in 2nd grade!! I wish you were here to cheer them on like you always did!!! I love and miss you more than words can say!!! LOVE YOU MORE MOMMA

Oh momma, so much has happened and I need you so much!! A whole year since you have been gone, another birthday, Easter, without you!!! I hate this so much!! I'm having surgery Wednesday and I need u so much!! I can't take this feeling of emptiness!!! I love and miss you so much, it kills me more and more each day without you!!!

Well mom a year ago today u went to be with Jesus. I still can't believe it. I try and find peace knowing your not suffering and in pain anymore but it still hurts so bad. I need u more and more every day. I needed u so bad yesterday when I had that scare with Joshua, just to hear your voice and to tell me everything would be OK. I love you momma and miss you more and more.

One year ago today we heard those horrible words that turned our world upside down! Those disgusting words will haunt me the rest of my life!! My life has never been the same nor will it ever be the same again!! There's not a minute that goes by that I don't think of you!!! I wish I had a quarter of your strength. I love you so much momma!!! Always always on my mind and in my heart!!!

Oh momma, happy belated thanksgiving!! It was so hard without you this year!!! Christmas is in a few weeks and I am sooo miserable mom. I just wanna sleep the day away!!! I can't listen to Christmas songs cuz I just cry. I don't know about going to Christmas eve service this year. All I do is cry, it's gonna be 9 months u left us and it still seems like yesterday!! This is NEVER gonna get easier, I have a huge whole in my heart that will never be filled again. I'm trying to make Christmas...