Carmen Borrego

TWENTY YEAR ANNIVERSARY CARMEN BORREGO DECEMBER 2, 1996 If tears could build a stairway and thoughts a memory lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home to ease the pain. When you departed no words were spoken, I wasn't ready to say good-bye, you were gone before I knew it, only God knows why. But all my prayers would not be heard, if only I could have kept you here, away from the voices of those who passed before, calling you to come to that distant shore. I find it so very hard to believe that you have gone and I must grieve. I call out your name, you answer not, I still see you in every familiar spot. Where is that beautiful face of affection? Where is the loving care when I was sick or sad? Where is the generous soul for which I was glad? Where is the forgiving and understanding heart? Where are the bonds that were there from the start? I miss all the little ways you showed you cared, for there were so many good moments we shared. Looking back on my life's assorted scenes, I realized you taught me what love truly means. You were my trusted confidante and best friend, on whose loving support I could always depend. I see your smiling face in all I do and memories flood my mind from the happy times you and I had, but now these bring tears and make me sad. For the time together went by in a wink, life was not as long as we'd like to think. Sometimes memories bring comfort and make me smile, but there are times when grief takes over for a while. Friends offer gentle words and prayers to console, and tell me what has happened to your loving soul. Can it be true what they say of time healing grief, is it enough when they say death has given you relief? Can we believe what others say of a better place, where our beloved ones rest in God's warm embrace? I should be happy you're free of pain and sorrow, and rejoice that you'll always have tomorrow. How can I then be so heartbroken and selfishly cry, return here from that peaceful place where you lie! Now I look down at your name on a cold hard stone that says little of the loving light you have shone, it tells nothing of the wonderful person you were, and only serves to remind me of the painful loss I endure. But I know your kind soul wants no tears or pain, instead you'd want warm memories and love to remain. Although I cry and stand grief-stricken by your grave, I promise not to forget the loving memories you gave. But still I miss you so very much my sister dear, and your caring words I once again long to hear. My greatest desire is that you have witnessed the events that have happened here, oh how I wish you could have stayed, with your wisdom and kindness we would have never been betrayed. For now there is much life to live here, my conscience is clear, when my time comes i will go with no fear. My heart's only solace is one day I will see you as before, beckoning me to come join you on that white distant shore. Your Loving Brother Edward