Anthony Francisco Rios

Tony,

Seems like I was breezing along when I was hit with a ton of bricks. I can't stop crying...I'm feeling such a deep, painful ache in my gut. I miss you so much...

My Little T,

I'm thinking of you and listening to the music that Grandma, you and I would listen to while driving you to school in Maryville, MO. I remember I would pull the car over and make you and grandma get out and look out at all the stars and moon! They seemed to shine so much brighter in the country without the interruption of the city lights. Tony, I miss you like crazy and my heartache without you never seems to lighten up. I love you! Always!

Tony,

I want to talk to you so badly. I want to hear the sound of your voice! I need you, my best friend, cause I have so many things I want to share with you and I need your advice. You thought I was crazy sometimes, okay most of the time, but you understood me and loved me anyway! I can be in a room full of people and yet feel so lonely! Mijo, the pain is unbearable...I love you, I love you, I love you and I miss you! I can't catch my breath.

Anthony Franciso Rios (Mi Unico)
Tony, (My one and only!)

We just celebrated the 38th anniversary of your birthday! Dang, it's hard to believe that it's been that long since I cradled you in my arms and sang to you. I used to sing you this lullaby and everytime I did you would start crying. lol Not sure why but I don't think it was my singing. You were such a cute baby but a bald baby for the longest! I was laughing remembering how your dad would get mad at us for eating fresh...

Tony,
Thoughts and memories of you are vivid in my mind. With your and Liv's birthday right around the corner, summertime memories of cookouts in the backyard, dinners at The Jazz, and Cinco De Mayo boxing matches are clear. Today, it was hot and I was picturing you mowing the lawn, jumping in the pool, running inside to change clothes and taking off with the fellas. It doesn't feel like 10 years have gone by, I can hear your voice so clearly as if you're standing right next to me....

Tony,
I got through another day, another year without you. I thought it would get easier but it hasn't.
Today, the sun was shining bright after several days of cold, gloomy weather. I know that was you and Liv smiling down on us. No doubt!!!
I was looking at pictures today, some of which I hadn't seen in a long time. Pics of when you were a little boy with Santa and others of you playing with your cousins. Never thought you wouldn't be here to reminisce with me. I love you and...

Anthony Francisco Rios
Mi Unico

Tony, I miss you so much my hearts aches just as much today as it did the night you were taken from me.
I can still hear your voice...your last words to me...I love you, Mama!
I can still hear your laughter when you would talk to the fellas on Saturday and Sunday mornings, laying in bed and talking on both your cell phone and the house phone at the same time.
I miss you coming in the room and hugging me for no reason!
I...