Antonia "Toni" Apodaca-Lopez

Hi Toni,
Every year I ride the fence between a day that supposed to be a celebration and the remembrance that you are no longer here.
New Years Day and today are the 2 of the toughest days of the year.
I remind myself that I should be happy and thankful that I was blessed for a lot of years to have your sweet friendship in my life. There are NO bad or sad memories of you that are stronger than the blessed assurance of having known you. Thank you for that, and for the example...

Hey Ninaa Toni,
Just stopping by to talk to you. I miss you SO much and your goofy little comments you would make. Wow.. I can't believe it has already been two years since your passing.. I've been thinking of you everyday since the first of 2009. And those thoughts just continue to just get stronger as time proceeds. and I replay all the times we shared together in my mind. There are still times where I pick up the phone to call you and ask you how you are feeling.. And I remember that...

hi mommy,
I just wanted to stop by to say helloooo!!! i know its way passed my bed time =) i was thinking about you too much right now and most of all i miss you so much!!! youve been on my mind lately. i was thinking back on all my memories of us together and with the family as well. the other day vanessa was calling my nina from the top of her bunk bed and it reminded me of the times right before i would go to sleep. I would yell "MOM!!!" so many times from my bunk bed, til you would...

ohh and one more thing mommy!! a friend sent me this quote last year, and it reminded me of you!!

"I notcied how beautiful the sky was the other day; & then i realized...its because your up there"

r.i.p. mommy

HAPPY NEW YEAR MOMMY!!!! how i wish to celebrate it with you! but i know you were =) A year ago today you peacefully passed and continued eternal life with our LORD, without the pain and suffering. I will always you remember you mom, you will never be forgotten. You have changed so many lives by your warm heart filled smile, contagious laugh, and all around beauty! Your faith in the Lord has taught me to trust in him as well. He gave you five extra years with the family and for that I am...

MERRY CHRISTMAS MOMMY!! I woke up today thinking about u more than ever. I kept picturing all our past christmas' togerther. All the funny memories we have while opening our gifts and being thankful for eachother, like you taught us. I also pictured how you would have been video taping us for the memories =)You loves watching everyone opening their gifts, its your favorite tine of the year. I miss you soooooo much mommy,everyone does. It really insnt the same without you. Just because you...

12/24/09
Toni,
Hello my beautiful angel from above. I just want you to know my love that as New Year’s Day approaches that you are constantly on my mind and in my heart. As I write you I wish I could tell you that everything is good with me. The truth is that I miss you tremendously. I miss everything about you; the great mother you were to our children, the great wife you were to me, the way you lit up a room by your electric smile, your contagious laugh, how you kept me...

Heyy there mommy. =D
I just wntd to stop by and say hello...ive been thinking about u so much today.it's getting closer to a year and I just can't believe it.I miss you so much!!!!!reddys birthday past and I know you were sending all ur hugs and kisses his way...that's what I told him you were doing:) he misses u so much too mommy but we know that u are in a much better place without any pain.We had a party for h and he invited his friends for a 49er victory :) it was funn but of course...

Hello mommy!! Happy thanksgiving!!!! Muah I love you so much. I miss u so much.it felt weird looking around the dinner table and not seeing ur smiling face ready to eat and give thanks :) I know you were there today though like always:) I felt Ur presence and felt a sense of peace :'( these months are gna be the hardest for all of is but we are always there for eachother like always. I love love love love you mommy and I send hugs n kisses straight to you !! Continue to pray for the family...