Barbara F. Fuchsberger

Dear Barb,

This Guest Book is such a wonderful way for all of us to "reach out" to convey the feelings and emotions we have to deal with our loss of you. Thank you so much, David and Cindy for the upkeep of it. It's a loving memorial to Barb.

I'm a little late in my message this year. I have been working two jobs for the last 4 weeks and I'm wondering what ever made me think I could do this at 62 years of age! Exhaustion seems to be more than an occassional word...

Oh Barb,
Three years ago I walked around with an air of disbelief wrapped around me when your leaving us became such a sharp reality. It's still hard to believe, even though I experience such a vacuum when I'm aware of the empty place where you used to be. We're all facing our mortality now, more than ever, yet I still find myself wishing that it weren't the hard fact of Life that it is. I think of you so often, especially at family gatherings and can still hear that distinctive voice...

January 12th, 2010
Hi Honey,
My thought of you and the family have been so close to the nerve as your third year of passing has come. Carrie has become so much of a woman to love that I know she was sent to me by you. The two puppies I know you would have been crazy over to love them like you loved Spaetze. It is so hard to feel your loss. To realize that I have lived three years beyond you is such a weird feeling. I can only try and understand what your pain was and your...

Dear Barbara,
I never got to meet you, but I'm sure I would have liked you a lot. But right now I just want to thank you for the incredible gift you have given me, your beloved Frank. I know you had a hand in our meeting from there in heaven, and probably my mom got in the act, too. He still loves you, you know. I know part of him will always be yours and only yours and I honor him for this. I will do my best to take care of him and love him and keep him happy for whatever time God...

Well here it is year two. On this anniversary of you going to heaven and being with Christ may his many blessings be comfort as you are with all of our relatives gone before you.
I miss you and I hope you get the chance to visit with your mom as much as possible. Who knows maybe you have Spaetze on your lap right now. Why certain things happen only the good Lord knows but how all of things went down is really a question. Both doctors come on Christmas Eve of '06. Their next words are...

Hi Barb,
I can't believe it's another year. Time just eludes me any more. My mother always said: time goes by quickly, and the older one gets, the faster it goes. I used to roll my eyes and shake my head when I was young and had my whole life ahead of me. Isn't it funny....all the "proverbial" sayings our mothers showered us with have come back to haunt us?

I think of you so often. I have a picture of you and Frank on my refrigerator door, along with Amy, Frank, Lindsay and...

With Barb's one year anniversary of her death, I have fought day in and day out the lonelyness of her loss. Many people have walked before me in this life with a loss such as mine and I didn't think that some day it would come to me oh so sharply. Those twenty four hours a day can only be filled so much with prayer or memories and it gets down to talking in the dark and no answer comes back. For some reason our human frailtys are such that hide us from the true facts that you don't know...

Dear Frank & Amy~
All of us adults, including your father, have been communicating our pain over losing your Mom, and I want you to know that I've been praying for the two of you, also. Our grief is only a fraction of what yours must be. She was such a powerful force in your lives. My hope is that you accept the utter necessity to allow grief to flow when it visits you. I'd be honored if there's any way I can be of comfort to you. Most of the time, I just pray because I don't want to...

Oh, Barb! How can it be a year already? I thought of you all day today, remembering that day you left the Earth and all of us. I still pray for you and I always will, as I promised. We're all doing the best we can for your beloved husband who has been so devastated. He's showing the same courage learning how to live life without you as you showed facing death.
YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD OF HIM! Even though he's, of course, been filled with incredible grief and missing you just as he would...