Bhisham "Dave" Ragbir

April 4th, 1982, our wedding day. I remember you telling me how nervous you got when you arrived and there were so many people there. Later that evening our future was sealed.... you and I against the world with only my family to support us. That never changed never wavered they are still here holding me up. ..... and you still have Pa and Ma up there with you. I have been through some dark times lately but I wasn't afraid . I miss you more than ever and long to be with you. I'm just tired...

Dave.... It was you will always be you ...I always though that I could survive anything, work through any issue , suffer through the loss of my parents ... anything really because you were always there. Now I'm just broken without you and I can't seems to fix me.... help me out please ...

The price of having you in my life, of loving you and the gift of you loving me is grief ....

March 11th!! It's our 38th anniversary Dave. It's the day we got married , the day we signed the marriage certificate in a little ceremony at home committing our lives to each other. 36 of those years are filled with memories, images, great and difficult times and love.... always love the one thing that never changed the one thing that held us together . We built a family, a home far away from home .Almost 2 of those years are filled with just grief longing and a great emptiness. We married...

... I'm so angry Dave... you left me here alone

What cannot be said will be wept
21 months everyday of 21 months and 10 days I have wept for you. Today is Maha Shivariti I have asked Lord Shiva for one wish, I hope he grants it....

I miss you so much, Dad.