Carly Smith

Do you remember the Christmas you got your first mobile phone. Omg it was a brick. You were over the moon with it. Well now that brick is the open line we use to communicate. You let us know your around. Feathers and strange things keep happening letting us know your near. People ask me how many children I have and I say 2 girls, have you got them home for Christmas? No one lives miles away but she´ll be in touch. The distance is too great otherwise she would as she loved Christmas. I know...

This day is bitter sweet it has beautiful memories of day I gave birth to you, but it´s a sad day that I cannot ring you to wish you Happy Birthday I wish I could hold your hand and make everything alright but I can´t. My birthday wish for you is to tell you your loved more today than you´ll ever know. I may not always look sad but my heart tells a different story. Sending you hugs and kisses and wishing with all my heart I could give you them myself. All my love always Your heartbroken mam...

21st August Happy heavenly birthday Carly No cards or gifts to send you Do you celebrate in heaven I hope so Think of you all the time not just on special occasions Love auntie Heather xxxx xxxxx

11th February Carly another year passes Still full of ifs and buts Wished you had spoken about things more openly However I hope you are at peace now With the only thing R ANFIELD That nobody can take from you RIP Auntie Heather xxxx

The loss of a child is unbearable to live with. The pain never goes away. The loneliness is the hardest, it´s the existing dark cloud that no matter how hard you try to overcome it like a cancer it keeps on growing and growing in your mind. You carry on doing everyday tasks but it creeps in your head and heart. Today that loneliness is overwhelming, for the daughter I´m missing. All the special moments we should have shared got taken away. You were bold enough to listen to your heart and...

Another Christmas without you. It´s been a very busy year as you´ll know. R Archie has come into our life´s and he´s a blessing you´ve sent us. I laugh to myself cause I can hear you say " he´s my favourite rugrat " He´d have loved his favourite auntie Carly. He kisses your photo when he´s here. I´ve bought a pressie from his auntie Carly something he´ll keep as a reminder of you . I´ll never understand the reason why your gone , but I know you´ll never leave us I just have to learn to carry...

Happy heavenly birthday Carly Give anfield a hug from his one and only dog sitter Love auntie Heather xxxx

Today I´m in the delivery suite where 44 years ago I gave birth to my beautiful daughter. It´s 18 minutes past 9 in the evening and I´d just had you . You´ve got the most beautiful face big brown eyes and a tiny little rosebud mouth . I laid awake all night taking in every inch of you and thinking how gorgeous you were and you were mine. But today I´m a different person someone I don´t know. I´m not what I used to be I´m definitely not the same the only thing that hasn´t changed is the...

My darling Carly This has been the hardest 7years of my life. I´ve missed you every day but yet this pain never ceases to ease. Now I´ve always asked you to let me know your around and you send me while feathers but I´ve heard you now say to me Mum I know you´ve struggled and you beat yourself up over I´ve never been a mammy , well now I have. I´ve nursed r Archie´s soul until he came down to earth. I´ve planted an angel kiss on the back of his neck so you know it´s from his auntie Carly,...