Christopher Nicoll

I wish Heaven had a phone, so I could hear your voice again. I thought of you today, but that was nothing new. I thought about you yesterday & days before that too. I think of you in silence, and often speak your name. All I have are memories and your picture in a frame

Husband:
I don't know that I have ever missed anyone so much in my life as I do right now for you. No one has ever or will ever meet the high standards you set. I miss my family so much. My two favorite men in the world are missing from my life. I know you are at peace now, however that doesn't diminish the feeling of loss my heart feels and the loneliness. No one can fill the void. I've tried to fill it, but nothing seems to work. I just want to talk to you or see you in my dreams. I...

Hello Senator. I cannot believe it has been a year since your departure on your voyage to the far shores. I had a boat ticket to Avalon to come visit you on January 6th; however, dad ended up in the hospital at 4 AM that morning so the rest of the day was taken up. Once of these days I will make it over for one of your anniversaries. My son asks when you are coming to play with him. He remembers the model airplane you gave him for his birthday and you climbing the tree to retrieve it in the...

My dearest Husband: It has been one year since you left my side. I can honestly say it has been a tragedy for me and all who knew you. I am not sure what the future holds for me, but my world was a much better place with you in it. I am sorry to say goodbye, but it appears to be time. As I write this I am full of tears and sadness. Mourning is a lonely place. I will always miss and need your presence in my life. I realize all my dreams will never be complete. My dreams always included you....

Hello my love: Its coming to the end of the year which marks your one year anniversary on Jan 6. On christmas eve you gave me a beautiful gift via a dream. In the dream you gifted me my one and only wish in the world. My world was complete. You said to me, "See honey I told you I would always give you your dreams." Even though it was in a dream You always kept your word and I thank you. I don't know how to move on, but I am trying to resocialize myself. In the month of December I actually...

07/03/2009
My Dearest Husband:

Happy 50th Birthday. Happy Anniversary. I never new I would be telling you this in a letter. Let alone laid on your grave. You were too young to go to the heavens. I hope and pray you are happier and healthier than you were on earth. I know I have never been happier than with you in my life. I am not sure what the future holds for me but I know the ultimate happiness I have shared with you will no longer exist. I love you forever my sweet...

Dear Chris:
Your birthday is in a month and I am going over to the island for the night. The spencers are also going. I finally got the marker completed and ordered. It better be installed. It took a long time and much thought for me to do this because it is your legacy. I wonder what you would have done for me. I chose a poem you wrote to me when my mother passed and added a color picture of you to it. It is very simple and elegant. It doesn't have any frilly stuff around. It is...

Dear Chris:
It's been a while since I have written, I'm sorry about that. We cooked chili on saturday. WE WON RED CHILI 1st place. What a shock. I didn't like our chili at all. It was a real hard day for me without you. I miss you so much at these events. It had become some a large part of our lives while taking care of dad. I have anxiety attacks the night before and especially on the drive out to the events. I cry all the way to the site. every time. I really miss you at them....

My love:
I am so lost with out you. When I'm at your house it feels so wrong. This house is you. This was your home. I see you every where. I haven't sat in your chair yet. Your picture is there in place of where you sit. I'm trying to take care of your business stuff. It is so overwhelming. But it is a job that eventually needs to be done. My life will never be the same without you in it. So I just continue doing what I always have done. Some days are so hard and others a...