Devin O. Howard

YO DEVIN IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND 5 DAYS SINCE YOU LEFT US AND I STILL FEEL AS IF YOU'RE HERE WITH ME STILL, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW MENTALLY YOU'RE NOT. BUT LIFE IS GOOD RIGHT NOW BUT EVEN BETTER IF I HAD THE GUIDANCE AND ENCOURAGEMENT FROM YOU TO KEEP PUSHING HARDER AND HARDER. I LOVE YOU MAN AS WELL AS YOUR MOM AND DAD AND OTHERS THAT I KNOW. DEVIN YOU ARE AND WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF MY HEART , I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU AND I STILL VISIT MOMS AND POPS IN ACCAISIONS JUST TO SEE HOW THEY'RE HOLDING UP....

Devin, I wonted your dad to sign but he would not he has a hard time even reading this book.he loves you so very much and most of the time finds it hard to talk about you. he needs to have a dream so he can see for his self that you are okay he knows it but he needs you to tell him like you told me in the wonderful dream I had. This is still so hard to believe You really don't know the IMPACT you left on this side of heaven we will see you again all our love mom and dad

Devin…it’s been so long man, a whole year. I’m having a hard time believing I’ve come this far with out you. I don’t have anything really fancy to say. I just want to talk to you. I miss your physical presence. I say that because I know you are still here in spirit.
I never thought in a million years I would be writing a letter to my brother from the other side. It saddens me and I guess its only natural that it would…You meant so much to me.
You have no idea. We were complete...

So i sat down and started to type on tuesday but i couldnt quite bring myself to do it. The past week or 2 thinking about april 4th coming up has been hard. I miss you entirely too much devin, sometimes i feel like you would be the only one to understand what is going on in my life right now and be able to give me some of that good advice. I still cant believe a whole year has gone by, we're almost done with our first year of college! Once again I want you to know that even though its been...

Its been a year and I still cant believe it but im coping and waiting for the day God grants me the oppurtunity to see you again. Missing and loving you forever and always. Never forgetting you. Forever Love.

Good Morning Devin,

Today is April 5,2006. A year ago today I was facing the hardest day of my life. The day after finding out about your leaving us. I can not start to tell you how devastating it was for me.The drive to school that morning was so long. Usually there was a lot of noise with Napoleon,Josh and Rankin in the car, the radio and just the normal sounds of traveling to school, on that day all was silent.Later that day we visited with your family and feeling the hurt ...

Hey honey!!! I miss you soooooo much. Just know that i think about u everyday. As I learned of your death only a year ago i hoped that i could get over it.. but now i see it is one of the best things to hold on to. I thought it would be impossible to think about u everyday but it comes so natural, so easy and it helps to ease the pain. We did a little something up here in Greensboro. Me, Lonica, Skylar,Leyaunna, Erica, and some of the boys joked by saying that u would think that we were...

Wat'z up kid? I can't believe that it has been a year already. Just the other day I was thinking about you and the last thing we were talking about. You already know that we all love you and we miss you, but you know that we won't forget about you cuz you're too special to us. I can't say that there hasn't been a day that I wish that you were still here. I can't cry anymore cuz I know that I'll see you again.

What up bruh? I'm just sitting in my room thinking about what happen to you a year ago on this date. I'm at ECU playing spring football right now. Its so much stuff that has happen since you left bruh but i don have enough space to write about it so I will tell you all about it when i get up there with you. We miss you alot and we will never forget you. We love you.
"Dominique Lindsay"