EUGENE "GENE" KAMINSKI

On this day ten years ago, we set you free. Thinking of you on your release day and our anniversary. I remembered what today was before dinner - do I still get props for that? I did send you a message on your birthday. Hope you saw it. Miss you much!!

Ten years.....Words are just not coming to me today. I try not to be angry all the time. Most times I am successful. On this day, I miss you just a tad bit more. I woke up a few minutes earlier than usual this morning thinking of you. I was replaying some of your last minutes, shedding a few tears. Time doesn't really heal all wounds. You just learn a different normal. Miss you much!!

Today my heart hurts a little more than usual. It's been a long 9 years without you. Some days I'm still so very angry. Our life together wasn't perfect but I despise this never ending loneliness. Miss you much!!

Eight long years..... So many tests in the time you've been gone. Not sure I believe anymore the whole idea of you being close and always with me. I may still be carrying more anger than I should after all this time. I do hope wherever you may be that it's absolutely spectacular.

My heart broke a bit today. Went to go listen to a new voicemail that came through. When I was done, I deleted it and realized your last voicemail was no longer there. Somehow, some way in the past couple of days I deleted it. So many calls this week about the debacle that is my dad's care and me being exhausted and weary, I didn't realize what I was doing. Though it has been a bit since I listened to it, it brought me reassurance knowing it was there. I no longer have anything reminding me...

Missing you just a tad bit extra. Are you watching over my dad as he fights for his life? Please help him along so he can stay with us. Just not ready to go through the pain of losing someone else. I truly hope wherever you may be is amazing! Sending so much love!!

I know it has been way too long since I have left you a message. Hard to believe it is almost seven years since you left us behind and moved on to a better place. Got a reminder email that your anniversary was coming up like I could forget that you are no longer here. Maybe it´s because I haven´t sent you a message in so many years. I talk to you on a regular basis but haven´t known how to put my thoughts and feelings into words. Even now I struggle with what to say. I started to read some of...

Hi Euge. Boy, do I miss you. Lately, you have been on my mind. I was just wondering if the 4 of you are at peace and together. Too much has been going on here in this crazy world. So much so that sometimes being there with you sounds like a good idea. The saying is, "GOD only gives you what you can handle." I'm just not sure if that means physically or mentally. I just wish You, Mommy, Daddy, or Margie could send me a sign that you're with me. I think of you guys all the time. You are still...

Wow, over a year since I have felt the need to write to you. I have done most of my talking through my heart. However, I question if you have heard me. I tried that whole moving on with a relationship thing. Boy, what an epic failure that was. I think I would rather remain alone than deal with the nightmare I encountered with my selection. I am hoping you did not have anything to do with putting this person in my path. Was there some sort of lesson I was supposed to learn? The only...