Frederick C. Ayers

Still missing you as it was yesterday.. so much has changed, so many new additions to our family how I wish you could hold and kiss them all! But I know you see them I know you´re there... miss you still love you forever Dad! Mindy

One whole year has passed and the empty spot is still there , the pain from your loss is NO less, the reality is larger than life, and the tears still flow everyday. I wish we could just....

Why lie, it's not just 1 thing we wish for. We want it all, not just a moment, not just a glance , not just a smile or hug. We want it all, we want you Dad. Words can never and will never explain what we lost .....

I kept thinking to myself yesterday how I much I wanted to call you and wish you a happy birthday. How I wish I could hear your voice. I can still hear it in my mind. I miss you so much.

I miss you dad

Christmas has come and gone. It wasn't the same without you sitting at the head of the table. I miss you everyday, You're birthday is in acouple days, and then 25 days after that it will have been a year. One whole year without you, it doesn't seem real. It seems like you never actually left us, I thought you were ganna walk through that front door on christmas eve and tell us it was all a big joke, cause really...how can it be christmas without you? Nothing seems completely real anymore...I...

Dad, i cant belive that its been 11 months today! I'v turned 35 and it just felt like another day! christmas has come and gone and again it just felt like another day. I wonder if it will allways feel this way. Will we ever appriciate another holiday,birthday or milestone without you? I find it hard that we will.it still doesnt seem real but it is. The problum with life going on is that it goes on with pain, saddness and lonllieness with out you. You were such a big part of our lives that we...

I didn't get my wake up call today. This next month will be the hardest, the reality. I still cry every day, to think your not hear. I always took for granted you were just a phone call away, and you would always be there . My Sammie asks everytime we go to the house can we go fishing.I felt bad that day getting you up to take us fishing and now I am so glad we did.He will always remember and so will I. Those memories are priceless to me!I have lots , Vegas,Thousand Islands, Road trips...

DAD;
I FIND THAT THE DAYS JUST TEND TO SLIP BY. SOME TIMES I DONT KNOW EVEN WHAT DAY IT IS, BUT THERE IS ONE THING I DO KNOW... YOUR NOT COMMING HOME. I LAY AWAKE SOME NIGHTS HOPEING TO HERE THE DOOR OPEN AND SEE YOU. OR MAYBE YOU MOWING THE LAW OR, JUST WATCHING TV. I KNOW IT IS WHAT EVERY PERSON SAYS WHEN THEY LOOSE SOMEONE IN THERE LIVES, BUT ITS TRUE. "WHAT I WOULD DO FOR ONE MORE MOMENT"!! ONE MORE LAUGH, ONE MORE DINNER, ONE MORE HUG OR MAY BE JUST ONE LAST I LOVE YOU. GOD HOW I WISH...

On this Thanksgiving day, my thoughts are with you. I am thankful for the years that I was blessed to have had with you.
All my love.