James denOuden

Random memory: I Remember as kids, Katie and Els and I, would ask Jimmy to do this werewolf face, that we thot was just the funniest ever! He would show his bottom teeth, and make some scary face. I remember repeatedly asking him to do the werewolf face every time we saw him.

Jim, you and Linda are 2 of the nicest people I never met...personally. We had a lot of fun on-line. I recall you laughing as I tried to get my webcam focused on my dog years ago. I recall a brief conversation when Linda was hospitalized and I called her room and you answered. As I get older, I find that losing cyber-friends hurts as much as my other friends. M'Lord, as with M'Lady, I serve thee.

I can’t believe three years have gone by. Every day I wake up hoping it was all just a bad dream. And every day my heart breaks again. . Sometimes I feel you near me, like a whisper on the wind.

And now Abby is with you. I’m glad you were there to meet her. I told her you would be, and not to be afraid. Knowing she would be with you helped ease the pain of losing her too.

I’m trying baby. It’s not easy living without you. But I’m trying. You rest easy, my love. One day...

I was not graced to know Jim prior to his passing but that is not to say that his life has not left an imprint on me. I met Jim’s beautiful wife, Linda following his passing and deep in her grief we became friendssoul sisters, actually. She has shared so many stories about this wonderful man that I actually feel as though he was an old friend that I knew well. From his kindness to his talents, to the love that he shared with his wife, family and friends it is clear that Jim filled his...

Another holiday without you by my side has passed. 17 months of missing you, wishing I could turn back time and bring you back. But as the song says “I could have missed the pain, but I’d have had to miss, the dance”.

I see the signs you send me. I smile at the memories even as tears flow. I have kept your memory alive. And I hope you’d approve of the life I’m trying to live without you. But I am just counting down the days until we are together again. Until my hand is once again...