James Emanuel Smith IV

Well,JES, this will probably be my last writing or visiting on your Guest Book which is about to expire. I know you can't read this but it is my way of communicating with you. In the future, I will visit your little Spot in Madison and sit on your bench and talk with you for a while.

I still miss you as though you just left us. Nothing will ever be the same and we will never understand why you are not with us today. I pray that you are happy with the Lord and doing whatever it...

JES - Yesterday Bu and I stopped by your Little Spot and visited for a while. I talked to you some and I cried some. I know you are in a better place but for me, things are sad around here, especially today. Two years ago today you left us and it has been a rough two years for all of us. We all miss you as if you had just left yesterday. Sometimes, I think that maybe you will just come back as quickly as you left but of course, I know that is impossible. Someone had cleaned your bench...

mrs anne, just want you to know that i'm still praying because i know it's not getting easier for you guys and i'm so sorry you're having to go thru all this! i love you guys so much and jes too and just praying for healing and comfort the way only God can give it! just wanted you to know i think of ya'll often and pray often!

JES - I have been wanting to write for a long time but have been too sad to do it. Your birthday came and went and it was a very hard day for all of us. I visited with Gina the day after and she told me that you would be on your way to Nebraska for the Academic Decathlon event. I know all the kids on the plane missed you keeping them laughing all the way.

Meg has a new beau. He is a bit older and I wish you were here to scope him out. A guy knows about these things.

JES - I am so aggravated. I can't seem to edit my mail to you. I can't find my messages. I guess they went through, mistakes and all. Ma

JES - I have been wanting to write for some time but I get so sad that you are not here that it makes me cry and cry. I love you so much and there are no words to say how much. When I visit your little "Spot", I just want you to jump up and say, "I'm back, Ma, I was just away for a while. You know I would not purposely leave you and my other family that I love so much." There is so much that you need to be here doing right now, like graduating and all the other honors that I know you...

JES - Today your Guest Book will close. I don't believe this will be printed but I want to say goodnight and that I will always love you so very, very much. You will be close to me in my heart for as long as I live. You gave me a world of great memories. You were the happiest, sweetest, most delightful child ever. When you grew to a young man, I was amazed at everything that you had accomplished and were involved in. It was unreal that a 16 year old could be as special and as talented...

Gina, my sister, Jimmy and Meg, I have tried to do this before and could not. I understand this means of communication ends tomorrow, so wanted to tell you I love you all and try to say a few things. You began sharing your children with us when Meggie was born and even invited me to be in the delivery room when JES was born. What a day that was! I could not love them more if they were my own. JES was affectionate, always polite, always funny, always willing to help and always ready to eat! I...