Jason E. Siccone

Hey Man,

I think about you all the time. I've never known just what happened to you. We were talking about finding you a gig in the Bay Area, and then I found out you had passed. We had some great memories at LMN. I still laugh about the savory. Jackie, if you read this, you and I never met, but your dad talked about you constantly. He sure loved you.

hey.....i miss you

I've started so many of these entries then stopped. But I'm not sure why. I just want to say again I love you! I still miss you so much. You know I think about you all the time. I know it was you Sunday. You stopped me from going there. Thank you! Please help you know who. She needs it now more than ever! I love you!

Coming up on a year. I can't believe it! It seems like just yesterday. Does this mean I'm not improving? Is it always going to be like this? How am I supposed to be positive when it seems everything around me is negative? How do I keep my head up? Plan for the future when you're not in it? How do I help Jackie? She is the best. So beautiful, so talented! I feel I am running in circles? I can't find the answers anywhere!!!!!! What am I missing?

Hi honey,
There's snow on the ground! And a ton of it! As crazy as it sounds, I miss falling down those icy, broken, no railing, stairs of yours. I miss curling up on the couch with you watching the game or just laughing the night away. What a long cold winter this is going to be without you. How am I going to get through Christmas? Or the rest of my life for that matter. Every time I get sad and/or start to cry, I try to think of happy things. Your smile, your voice, your gorgeous...

hey little bro,
tomorrow is your birthday and mom and i are taking the girls to the beach. i hope it will be soothing to us all. it will be a hard day for us im sure. i cant believe its 6 months already. i still cry almost every day. some days are worse than others. thank god for the kids, they keep me going. i miss you sooo much and cant believe i will never see you again. it feels like youre in california or australia or somewhere else far away but then i remember youre not coming...

It's your birthday! We're supposed to be going out to dinner and then to the jazz festival. Instead, I'm getting in a car and driving 12 hours to Michigan. I will make the best of it like I always do. You'll be on my mind every minute as always. At the very least I'm doing what you said, getting out of this state and seeing what's out there. I wish you were coming with us. I know you'll be with us, but, you know what I mean. I love you and miss you so much! Please show me the way to fix this...

I MISS YOU!!!!

Hey baby,

It's been 3 months and I still can't believe your gone. I stare at your pictures, I listen to my messages over and over again to hear your beautiful voice. I have Ripple on my computer thanks to Bobby and I listen to it all the time. I'm so sorry I wasn't there more for you. I wish I had paid more attention. I guess I thought you'd be here forever and I'd have more time to say to you all the things I wanted say. I am thankful for the past few years. I'm so happy I had...