John Henry Davis Jr.

Jay here we are in August 2019 and I just have to write in words whats happening in my life. I am here in my house now 4 months. We are doing okay. I still think about you everyday. I miss you so much. I know you are well. I cant wait until we are together again. I love you. God help me, keep me in perfect peace. Jay take care and remember me your loving wife.

Jay it is now June 2019. I don't know what to say anymore. Repeating my love for you and how much I miss you doesn't matter anymore. I never stopped either of those things but it just doesn't do anything in helping me deal with my emotional state. This pain is never going to stop, its been 3 years and I still hurt for you. I keep repeating the verse "the dead knows nothing". You don't even know you are dead. I am keeping my relationship with GOD ongoing. I need him so much more now. ...

Jay its now May 2019. I have been in the house for a month and a half. Its nice but its empty without you. Mothers Day came and went. It was quiet and comfortable for the most part. I miss you Jay. I miss my friend and husband. I miss you making me mad, happy and making me laugh. I think about you so much, I guess being together for almost 40 years you store a lot of memories. I pray constantly for our children and grandchildren. I pray for myself a lot too. I don't ask God why but...

Jay I have great news. I bought a house. With the blessing of GOD, I was able to fulfill one of our dreams. I am so humbled and anxious about this purchase but I know GOD has my back. Oh Babe I miss you so much. I wish you were here to live in this beautiful house GOD has blessed me with. So much is wrong with the world, I have been thinking about how bless you really are not being here among this crazy world. I love you so much Jay. I think about you everyday, I know you are doing...

Jay were are in March 2019. God truly has kept his promise to us. I want for nothing, he protects us from all things. Looking at that you would think my life was great. It would have been if you was still here. We truly was one when decided to get married. Our love we had for each was rare. I miss you so very much. Your laughter, your serious face, you being silly. All that is gone, all I have now is silence. I know you are resting and we will see each other again but until then...

Hello Jay, It is now February 2019 and my life is mostly the same. I am looking for God to help me make some major changes in my life. You would be proud of me Jay. I miss you so much, it still hurts. I wish you were still here with me. I love you still and I have been faithful even with your death. There is no one I want to share my life with. I pray you don't forget me and the love we share. Put in a good word for me with God. Take care Jay.

Hello Jay, We just celebrated Thanksgiving and to say it was happy would be lying. I miss you so much Babe. I don't think that will ever change. It's been two years since you took your last breath and I am still heart broken and sad. I still think of you and yes I still cry not fully accepting why you had to go. I wish that I did not love you so much then I could move on but I do love you too much and life is moving on but I am still stuck. I don't have much to say now. I just wait to...

Hi Babe, It almost November 2018. In another month you would be gone 2 years. My heart is still heavy from missing you. I wont lie Jay, I hate my life now. I am lonely, bored and fed up. I try very hard to be positive and keep the faith but its hard sometimes. Decisions are hard to make, I second guess myself a lot. I want to badly to see and talk with you. I don't know what to say anymore. Just keep a watch over me Jay, if you can. I love you so very much, that will never change. ...

Hello Jay, were into August now. Shaking my head as I write to you. This is like therapy for me. Tears are fewer but the ache in my heart is still there. There is not a day that come and go that I don't think about you. Never know when your time is up. We both were shocked. All I have are lots of memories to comfort me but sometimes they make really sad. To state that I am lonely is a understatement. I now know what my mother meant when she kept saying she was lonely. You can be in...