Jonathan Scott Train

February 3, 2025 My dearest son, Jonathan, Another year ... February 3, 2008 sometimes seems like it was weeks ago and sometimes, we realize it was a while ago. I feel like we just spoke on the phone. Your last words to me were, "I need to go to my haircut appointment. Love you Mom." I am so grateful that your voice is clear in my head and I can hear those words. I can hear your laughter as if you were here with me. As you must know, Matthew is madly in love with Carla. He has a...

February 3, 2024 Dearest Jonathan, Another year has passed to remember our tragic loss. I still keep saying, how did this happen? Why did this happen? When you passed you were treasured as a remarkable individual who was loved dearly by your family and friends. Your infectious positive attitude influenced all those around you. You were a lively character, always one to tell a good story, and you truly lived for the moment each and every day of your life. With so much to offer, I keep...

April 16, 2022 Dearest Jonathan, Today would have been your 47th birthday. It still seems impossible that we won´t be able to celebrate together. The years fly past - sometimes the pain seems to subside and sometimes it is as raw as ever. We try our best to live our lives as we believe you would want us to do. But sometimes I just need to mask the pain and carry on. As always, you will be remembered on this day with lots of love. Matthew took me to lunch on Friday. It always is a...

My dearest son Jonathan, February 3, 2022 Can it be possible that another year has passed since we lost you? It feels like it was just yesterday. We carry on our lives as I know you would want us to do - to enjoy life and not live in grief. I try to focus on the beautiful memories that you gave to us. Yet, the pain of losing you is still so sharp - so tremendously painful - that there are no words to describe how much it hurts. I miss you more than words...

Dear Jon. It's Tuesday June 2nd, 2021. I'm thinking of you as I go about my work day. Stepped outside for a breath of fresh air and you immediately came to my mind. How I wish you were still here my dear friend. I know that you would be proud of me. I've been running my own business for 10 years now...something we talked quite a bit about doing back in the day. To think, we might have been business partners! 50 percent cold calling and 50 percent happy hours. Keep watching over us...

Dearest Jonathan,April 16, 2020

Your 45th birthday is here. Another year milestone to be reminded how much we miss you. I miss your laughter, sense of humor, enthusiasm, exuberance, energy and wonderful positive attitude. I miss hearing you say, I love you Mom. Your 32nd birthday was the last one we celebrated with you. We are grateful for all of the years we were together and it is tremendously painful not to have been able to continue.

What a mess the world is in....

February 3, 2020

My dear, dear son, Jonathan,

The past weeks have been particularly emotional for me. I have cried myself to sleep several nights with the pain from losing you. Its 12 years since your death and the horror is still so devastating. Most of the time I function normally but some of the time I feel like I cant bear the burden. I never know when those emotions will manifest. On days like February 3 or on your birthday, they are bound to happen. The pain of...