Judith Castaldo

Its me again mom. Thanks-giving just passed. I am sitting her listening to Christmas music. Its so pretty. This was always my favorite time of year. But the past couple of years not so much. I'm trying, but without the family its been even harder. I'm thinking of leaving. I just don't know if I can stay here anymore. I don't know if I can leave my baby girls. I just know I cant stay here anymore. I just don't know where I would go or even how to start. So if I do go its going to be a while...

Hi, Mom! It's me again! I donated to the children's cancer fund today for you. I know that you liked to donate so now your name is hanging up in the store. I thought in time it would get easier but it's not. I guess its because so much is going on. Just to much for me to handle. Your not here to hear your voice or to see your face or to play yatzee with. All that always made me feel better. I never felt so alone. I wish I had one person to talk to. I guess I keep writing in here because in...

Hi Mom! It's me. I had to renew the guest book. I just cant let go. I need you more than ever. I never thought the day would come that I would have to say good buy. Its been over a year now. Its been the worst time of my life. Another birthday went buy without a phone call saying "Happy Birthday! So many years ago at this time I was holding you in my arms for the first time." How am I going to get through all this without my best friend. I know some day, things will get better, Its just right...

Hi mom! How I wish you were here. I need you so much. You were all I had. When I moved back here, It felt so good to have you in my everyday life again. wish we could be playing playing yahtzee. I don't know how Im going to go on with out you. Its been a year now and its been the worst year of my life. when you left us, I lost all hope. That was the one thing in life that kept me going, was hope and family. It wasn't your time yet mom, it wasn't your time yet. I'm just glad you're not...

The holidays are here Mom and I don't know how I'm going to do them without you. I remember as a little girl, the three of us kids would go running and jumping on your and Dad's bed screaming, Santa came, over and over again. We were allowed to open our stocking gifts while the coffee was brewing and then you and Dad would join us. I remember standing on the stool and baking Christmas cookies with you and you would let me put the green and red food coloring in them. I remember sitting at the...

I think about you all the time Aunt Judy. You always believed in me and encouraged me to follow my dreams. Thank you and I miss you so much.

love pauly.

Do not Stand at My Grave and Weep
By Mary Elizabeth Frye

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did...

dear Judith I did not know you very long but in that time and in that time I saw a loving kind person and because of you I know your wonderderful daughter tammy I promised you I would take care of her so you can rest easy and enjoy the after life love Ronnie

hi my nana. I wish you could be here to watch me grow, to share my firsts, and to love me more than i'll know. to pretend and play, to snuggle and cuddle, to praise and help guide my way. I finally learned to sing our song: I love coffee, I love tea, I love Nana, and she loves me. I miss you. Your Great-Granddaughter, Maliya