Marni Mae Lawson

I still remember...and still miss her...

OK, this is for all of you who remember (or remembered) my sister in the years since she died. I spent about half an hour writing a long memorial of my own, then lost it in a stupid mix-up between different browser windows. So suffice it to say, I still miss her too, especially since our mother died the following year and our brother the year after that. Your ideas about Marni painting the sunsets are a beautiful and poetic thought. Her paintings are indeed lovely, and the few I have still...

I remember Marni...I never will forget.
It seems so long that she's been gone....a long, long time, and yet...
It seems like only yesterday---we'd paddle for a while...
Or ride our bikes or get out paints--I still can see her smile!
And when I think of color, something bright and lots of fun--
I always thing of Marni---because she was someone
Someone who saw the beauty, saw the art...used paint and pen
To share the 'where' with other folks who...

Once, in college, in the middle of a thunderstorm, Marni and I had to get from one part of campus to another. We had no umbrella between us and knew we were gong to get drenched. Rather than try to run madly through the raindrops, we decided to take it slow. We held hands, took a deep breath and skipped together down the sidewalk, swinging our arms, laughing, and savoring the spring wetness. I still miss her.

I miss her every time I “play with art”. And lots of other times, too!

I still miss her.

I still miss her so much. It seems as though I should be able to drive over to see her...and I am so sorry that I did not do more of that when I actually could! Her talent in so many areas was amazing...but one of the best was her talent for friendship and loving. Paint me a sunset, Marni!

Yeah. I've kept her emails. Every so often, I'll go back to one and read what she'd said. There is often a joke somewhere in there that she'd shared, for a laugh. I'll see her with that sparkle in her eye and that mischievous smile she had. I miss her too.

I still miss her horribly and have trouble realizing that she is gone from us. I will see a face in a rock or a scene in clouds and think "Marni would love that...". Sometimes there is a painting technique that I can't quite remember and want to ask her about...and then I realize I can't. I'm sure she is still creating though...just look at the sunsets or reflections in the water!