MARY ELLEN REEN

Dearest Mary Ellen: It is Sunday December 24th, 2017 Christmas Eve, As I wright this message to you I am sitting in the den off of the kitchen, using the Apple computer, it is not the original Apple computer that you remember but a new computer that I bought last September, it is absolutely beautiful and I am enjoying it so very much, I also bought a new laptop, an Apple MacBook Pro with all the extras. I
injured my arm last March, I tore my RotatorCuff it was a nasty tear, a big one...

Dearest Mary Ellen it is Saturday October 21,2017 the fourth anniversary of our having been parted, the weather is so beautiful sunny and warm just like the day that God called you home, I am having your anniversary mass said today at 4 o'clock, I find this day hard to bear, but not because it reminds me of you, that is something I do daily, it just brings back all the details of the events of the so very sad day that you left me. I pray so very often to our Lord and his dear Mother Mary to...

My Dearest Mary Ellen; It is October 23,2016, It doesn't seem possible that it is three years that you have been gone from me, yet I just had your Third Anniversary Mass yesterday. Friday was a very hard day for me remembering all that happened on that day October 21, just three years ago, it all seems so very vivid and close, and at other time's it seam's all so very long ago - as if you were never here, and that is because life has and will never be the same for me, being here without...

My Dearest Mary Ellen it is Sunday of Memorial Day weekend May 29,2016 and I have just been to Saint Mary's and to our grave, I brought some flowers, just as you and I and Mom did for all the years dad has been gone, then it was you and I going to Mom and Dad's grave and now it is I who must stand and grieve all alone for you as well as Mom and Dad. Oh Mary Ellen the grief is just a permanent guest in my heart for Mom and Dad just as it was in your heart for them, but it was not suppose to be...

My Dearest Mary Ellen, it is Easter Sunday March 27, 2016, it seems impossible that another Easter without you is here already, I was just in the hospital with pneumonia, I don't know how this happened as I had the pneumonia shot, but it did, well I am doing much better, and am going back to work tomorrow, it isn't easy to be here without you having no one to look to for comfort and support, but I am just feeling sorry for myself, God is always here with me, so I am never alone, but it is at...

My Dearest Love Mary Ellen, it is your birthday once again, our third apart, the time seems to pass so very quickly and at the same time so very slowly, yet the ache in my heart for you remains as fresh now as it was when you left me, I know that the longing to have you here with me will be there for ever, and so I pray to our Blessed Mother, to be able to deal with your absence, and to be able to move forward and to find some peace and some measure of contentment. I apologize constantly to...

My Dearest Mary Ellen: It is Christmas Morning 2015, our third apart, the house is so very lonely without you, I am going to Carol's house for dinner, she has been such a good friend to me, she invited me for Thanksgiving and I didn't have a gift, and you know what Mom always told us when you went to someone's home for the first time, always bring a gift, well this time I am bring Carol a set of Waterford Iced Beverage Glasses, in ruby red, Mary Ellen I am so lonely without you and miss...

My dearest Mary Ellen I just returned from Easter Services, 4/5/15 and I must tell you that even thought we have been parted all these long months, the ache in my heart for you is as strong as it ever was, I miss you so very much and can not find any happiness at all with life, but I know that you completely understand how alone and lonely I truly feel, as you would feel the same with out me, it is on days like this when we were all together as a family that I truly find it the hardest, being...

Dearest Mary Ellen, Tomorrow is your birthday, I can't believe that it is the second birthday that we are apart, the time moves on so very quickly, yet it seems to have stood still for me, I still miss you as much today as I did the day that you left me, I guess that my life and all that mattered to me will forever be frozen in that time and place, how can I move on with my life when you are not here with me, my life is filled with all the trivial things that one must do, yet I find no...