Matthew James Llewellyn

My Dear Son - Matt, it's been 16 years, and I miss you more and more with each breath that I take. For some reason, it has been difficult writing to you this year. I don't know why - maybe because this long hot summer has been breaking records with no end in sight right now and it's getting to me. Or maybe it's just because your mama is getting old! This has been a quiet day at home filled with memories of you swirling around in my head and tears cleansing my soul. I love you so much and...

September 5, 2023 Dearest Matt - I write to you every year, so I can't begin to tell you how upset I was when I discovered my 2022 letter didn't get posted. I don't know what happened and sure hope it doesn't happen again. This morning we went to the cemetery to visit you and bring flowers to celebrate your birthday. And, of course, we sang Happy Birthday to you. It's always bittersweet because it is also the anniversary of you leaving this world fifteen years ago. It's hard to...

September 5, 2021 To My Sweet Little Boy - Yes, in my heart you will always be my little boy. You brought such joy into my life for 40 years. And I never doubted your love for me. As you grew up, and in your adult years, you always showed concern for me and was always eager to help me. I miss that. As we always do each year on this day, we went to the cemetery to spend time with you. Do you like the flowers we brought you? We looked at family pictures and shared precious memories of...

My Dearest Matt -

Another year has passed since you left this world and entered the Kingdom of Heaven. It is by God's grace that the ache in my heart has softened over the last 12 years with the hope and promise of seeing you again. I'm so thankful for that.

We brought flowers to you today and sang Happy Birthday. It warms my heart when the family comes together to celebrate your life and remember how you personally impacted each of our lives with your love and...

My Dear, Sweet Matt -

Oh, how I wish I could wrap my arms around you and give you a big hug! For the past 11 years I've only been able to do that in my mind and in my heart.

I have your picture on my nightstand, and every morning I start the day saying "Good Morning" to you. And end the day saying "Goodnight." I feel the nearness of you when I hug your picture close to my heart. I miss you so much.

Life goes on here on earth, but God comforts me everyday and fills me...

So many years Panda. They say Life moves on. It does Matti. Love? no Panda , It doesn't. Till I see you soon. Eternally.

My Dear Precious Matt -

I can't believe it's been ten years since you went home to be with the Lord. I've missed you every single day and hold you so very close in my heart.

Today is your 50th birthday and I sometimes wonder what your life would have been like if you were here now. You loved helping people and you always loved children (and they loved you). I have no doubt you would have been an awesome dad. I know this to be true because you were an awesome uncle. Time...

My Dearest Matt -

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. And not a night goes by that I don't kiss your picture on my nightstand when I go to bed. I love you so much.

Sometimes it seems like it was just yesterday that you went home to be with the Lord, but it's been nine years. My life changed forever that day. By God's grace, I can feel you close in my heart and see you in my dreams. I love that God has given us the gift of memories. I have so many wonderful...