Michelle Suzanne Dewald

Hi Mom-
Tomorrow is the last day your journal will be online and I wanted to write one last note to you. This journal has been really nice to have for the past year. It has helped me release a lot of pain, sadness and anger of losing you. I write in my journal at home, but this for some reason, seemed so real. I miss you more and more every day. Your 52nd Birthday is in 8 days! Wow-I sure miss spoiling you rotten. I bet you miss it to you. I miss seeing your face light up when you saw...

Mom:
How I wish I could be talking to you in person or on the phone right now. I can't believe it has been a year already. These months have flown by and it doesn't seem like it's been 12 months since you left this world. I will never forget those last few months of your life with us. I know how hard it was for Juli and I but I can only imagine how hard it was for you to deal with having cancer, knowing you were going to die and then knowing how much pain Juli and I would be in. Your...

Hi Mama-
I cannot even believe that in two days it will be one year since you left this world. How have I even made it through life in the past year without hearing your voice, or seing your smiling face, or hearing your wise advise when it was needed? I guess you raised me so well, that I have just made it through everything on my own. THANK YOU for making me such a strong and independent woman. I remind myself of you! You were such a strong woman-most of the time anyway. I loved when...

Hi Mama-
Have I told you how much I love you lately? I tell you every day-but I just wanted you to see it on paper!! :) I miss you like crazy Mom. I could really use your advise and comforting ways right now. I am struggling with this job and I need to go out and look for a new one. I know you would be there to guide me and give me strength to rise above and find the job of my dreams. This job has been good for me. Gave me experience and my house!!! So please Mom, please talk to the...

To My beautiful Mother:
I just wanted to write to thank you for bringing Juli into my life. For so long I took for granted that I would always have you and Juli in my life until we were all old and gray and barely moving. It is still very "unreal" not to have you physically in our lives. I miss you tremendously. I love and adore my little sister so much and she gives me hope and peace to continue to live my life happily. You would be so very proud of her for what she has accomplished....

Hi Mama!!! Guess what? I no will no longer cry and have a fit on the 22nd of every month in honor of your passing-why you say? I have a reason to CELEBRATE! I just bought my very own FIRST home. Not that you didn't already know that!!! I know you had something to do with all of it-the perfect house I found, the negotiating of it, the perfect Realtor, and the closing date...the 22nd. Thanks, Mom-I couldn't have done it without you! The only regret I have is that you won't be there to help...

My Darling Sister,
I miss talking to you! I miss the sound of your voice! I miss your crazy faces! I want to send you emails I think you might like! I see so much of you in your girls its like your still are here sometimes. Some of the phrases you use or your silly faces are still alive thru them! Mostly it’s your kind wonderful nature they have! I wish you were here to tell your beautiful daughters how proud you are of them! I tell them but I know it’s just not the same! Juli is...

Hi Mama-
7 months already? Geez. It actually feels like over a year. Every day without you is so hard. I miss talking to you. I miss hearing your laugh and just the sound of your sweet voice. I have had so many things happen in the last 7 months that I needed to talk to you about and get your advice on! No one can give me advice like you could. Tam and Dan have been wonderful-but there was NO ONE like you. Non-partial or non-biased-you just told me like it was...kinda like Dr. Phil,...

Mom:
This month marks your 6 month anniversary in heaven. It is not getting any easier without you. Some people tell me it gets easier and some say it only gets more bearable. I beleive the later because our bond was so unbelievably beautiful and you always made my life complete. I look at your beautiful face every day and I am so thankful for everything you have ever taught me, for the love you always gave and the special way you made me feel about myself. You gave me confidence and...