Nicholas Ryan Schmutte

Not a day goes by Nick that I don’t miss and think about you... I try to explain to Paige bc she asks to see you.. we are taking good care Of Bella for you... no matter how much time goes by the pain will never go away ... I am learning to live with it but it’s so hard knowing you should be here still today seeing all this and all the kids and changes life has brought to us... it’s been hard but we are making it and miss you more than you know ... I love you ❤

Well here it is almost 2 years later and it hasn't gotten any easier.... I still miss you more and more each day. May used to be my favorite month because we would always make sure to share our birthdays when you were here. Now, I look that I will be turning 33, the age you were when you were taken from us and that's hard for me. We drove by your house tonight and I just cried. I miss you so much and not a day goes by that I don't think or talk about you. I know you are with me everyday. We...

Happy Father's Day in Heaven! You were an amazing father and always making sure your precious kids felt special, taking them on all kinds of adventures, and everything else you did with them! Claire will grow up knowing how amazing you were and your memory will live on in our hearts forever and always!! Not a day goes by that I don't think of you.... Gone but NEVER forgotten. I love you Nicholas Ryan Schmutte!

Well, today marks one year since you have been gone & I honestly thought I would be able to handle it better than what I did. I couldn't stop crying, missing you, wishing you were here... I wish you were still here experiencing everything with us and watching these aweomse kids grow up. I know you are watching down, smiling, and proud of them all. I wish so much you could be here today and life would still be the same... Maybe next year will be better.... I know this pain will NEVER go...