Ricky Markiese Parham

Years have passed but the pain from missing you still hits hard. At times, I go into your room and sit while thinking of the times we shared. On occasion, I see movement from the corner of my eyes but when I turn no one is there. I smile and think it's you dropping by to check on us. Oh how I wish you were still here with us making us laugh with your sense of humor. I still chuckle when I think of some of the conversations we shared. Your memory lives in my heart/mind and I speak your name...

10 long years today. It doesn´t get easier. You will always be remembered for the amazing friend and person that you were. Sending prayers and tons of love to your family today. We miss you so much down here!

Happy Birthday Ricky It´s still unimaginable that it´s been 10 years ago since we laughed, joked, and shared workday stories. You always knew how to bring laughter to my fast paced busy days. Guess what? Nobody can fill your shoes. You were one of a kind I miss you everyday Rest easy king Ricky

Happy Bday!!! Never forgotten

I remember being told that time heals all wounds, but those who have felt the pain of losing a child knows that doesn´t apply. I miss being able to cook with you, letting you beat me on the PS, and generally talking to you about life. I still have the last message you sent me. You voice is still on the answering machine. Often I wonder how many kids you would be letting me spoil; yes I remember telling you that I was going to do just that. Thinking about the silly things you would do or say...

I think about you every year, but this year I´m thinking even more. Usually I´d have some shots for you and think about the memories at Vandenberg. I stopped drinking last year right before Memorial Day though and couldn´t do that. I ended up just trying to honor you the best I could. This year, still no alcohol, but the memories are still there and I still thought of you all day today. Wish you were still here man.

This year hits a little different Ching, my Ricky P my heartaches knowing that you´re never coming back. I´ve accepted it years ago but the pain stings, the emptiness I can never fill. I watch videos of you to hear your voice, search Facebook for all your crazy comments and reread our messages just to feel some sort of comfort. It´s like a wound that never heals no matter how much you patch it up, no matter how you stitch it, you can even gorilla glue my heart together and it´ll still bleed...

This time of the year is not like it used to be. We used to start getting ready to enter the holiday season, but now we´re not so enthusiastic about it anymore. I will never find the words to describe the feeling of losing you. Often I smile while remembering the goofy things you would do or say, but there are times when I´m an emotional wreck. I talk about you to keep your memory alive. It helps dull the pain but only for short periods. Your friends still miss you which is a testament of the...

It doesn’t get easier. Thinking of you today. I literally found some old emails and started to cry. I really miss you, I miss talking to you everyday. But, God needed you more. You’re never forgotten.