Tiffany Renee DeSisto

I have tried to write something profound for thirteen years. I just have not been able to get past all the tears. Tiffany I carry you in my heart every second of every day and I will never be whole in this life because you are not here. Me saying that I love you just doesn't express the lost and pain. Your mother,brothers and sisters miss you so much. Forever Dad

12 Years.. Has it Really Been that long?

What Feels like
both a moment ago & an eternity ago..

How Time & words sometimes lose all meaning & yet still mean so much!

12 Years Ago..
It was a Restless Night, That Night, You died.
I could not sleep, as I was in California, staying with our Uncle & Aunt, looking to make a dream come true.
I had a dream a few days prior, I would be forced to go home to Rhode Island.
Yet I had dreamed since I was 8 that I would...

11 years. It doesnt seem to hurt less. I remember the call I received that day. When my world fell absolutely numb, and silent.
Forever grateful you were part of my past. I cherish every memory with you. You taught me a lot without either of us even knowing. Thank you for the laughs, the tears, car rides, trips and late night talks. Thank you for watching out for me. An amazing friend when you were here, and an incredible angel while youre away. It will never be fair, it will never be...

I've been trying to think of the words to write on this page this week and I'm not sure there are any that will make sense or help ease the pain.

I can't believe it's been 10 years 10 long years that I'm sure it still is like yesterday for your family. I remember getting the text message that Tiffany had passed away while at work. I was so overcome with emotion thinking of Tiffany and her family, the tears were just pouring down my face. Every thought in my mind was this incredible...

To My Dear Sister Tiffany,

I originally posted a few days ago, but after carefully re-reading it, after it was approved, asked for it to be deleted. The original post was too long so I decided to write a much shorter one to You & To Everyone who may read this in the future.
Even though, I & all that love you, all of us are finding our way each day to remember you & cherish our memories of you, it does not change the fact We miss you. I do my best to respect all religious &...

I never met you I just felt the need to post. I met your brother awhile back in a FB group. I think you would be amazed at the person he is and how much he has grown. I've seen him struggle but his will to succeed is powerful he finds his way! That's all I really wanted to say and also give my love to you and your family.

Hey Sis, So I am about to undertake another big leap in my life. This one is even bigger than me creating my name: Athan Phynix, for all my public speaking, performing & writing. It is even bigger than my Beard documentary underway or my last trip. Keep an eye on me on this new adventure, just like you did out West. Though at the same time, according to a book I just read, Waiting for Autumn by Scott Blum, you may be too busy, so if that is the case, Do not worry, I love You either Way. Hope...

Hey pooks, it is still an understatement to say that we all miss you. I think some of us are still trying to decided what type of an approach to life we wish to take. I know I struggle with the "do I want to be happy today or do I sunk alone in my thoughts?" It is still just as hard as it was seven years ago, but I will continue to try to push past the hurt and hang onto the good. I love you so much.

Miss you + love you everyday, Tiff. xoxo.