Victor "Jay" Torson

Hey dad... it's been a long time...I still miss you every day. You were my sole anchor, keeping my feet on the ground. I don't know if you know or not by I ask you for advice almost on the daily. Especially when it comes to handling your grandkids... I wanna tell you about a dream I had. You'd have loved it. We were playing capture the flag, medieval style. You were red team captain and I was blue team captain. In my dream I didn't care about getting your flag, I only cared about seeing...

For Jay's Birthday August 28, 2020:

Jay...

August 28, 2020, the anniversary of your birthday.

You flash into my mind so often, It seems as though I haven't or can't accept your absence. I hope I made it clear that I loved you and always, always looked up to you... my brother.

I often respond to those flashes speaking your name aloud. Softly, sadly, in wonderment, and even angrily...
jay (As a tear falls.),
Jay (As I miss you.),
JAY...

Jay...My brother.

Still missing you. Still trying to comprehend life and death. Still misleading myself that you are happily biding your time in St. George.

You would have been 68 years old today. You don't answer your phone so, obviously we won't be having our traditional 'aging' conversation today, no strolling down memory lane as usual on this day, and you won't get to tease me that I'm "an old man" just like you.

I never in my life stopped to think how...

Memorial Day 2019

I REMEMBER.
I will always remember.

It has been 5 months since you left me. I have chosen to believe you are in St. George while I'm in Salt Lake and we just haven't connected for a while.

It makes me to sad to believe the truth... That you aren't ever going to connect with me again.

The truth is... I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT BREAKS MY HEART TO KNOW YOU ARE GONE.

I was lucky to be your little brother... I love you.

So sorry for your loss.
Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace constantly in every way. May the Lord be with all of you.
~2 Thessalonians 3:16

I dont even know where to begin...my dad was the most amazing man. There was not a mean bone in his body,his heart was pure gold, and even with his brain needing repairs it was full of amazing memories and stories. He was always happy to listen and talk to anyone, he never judged and always laughed. I will miss everything about him and will try to share as many of his stories as I can. I love you dad! Xoxoxo

Jay was an amazing man! He will be missed. I will always remember his kindness and awesome jokes!

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