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Thinking of you. xo Terry
Debi
April 22, 2005
Terry, Danny and Kelly,
I knew Howard very well. He was my best friend. In fact we use to talk almost every day. He would brag constantly about his family. He loved all of you very much. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I still cry alot. I know my pain is no where near what your loss is. Even though we are still hurting, no that Howard is happy now, he has no pain, no sorrow, no sadness. Selfishly we want him back. I know I do to. But I need to look beyond my needs an think of his happiness, something he truly deserves. If you every need to talk please email. I would be glad to chat with you. Sometimes it just feels good to talk about the good memories.
debbie z
Terry
April 19, 2005
Hey How, I bet you're laughing at us from above. What a crew we are working on the basement. We are doing it all for you. We know how much you wanted a nice finished basement for the kids to hang out in. Dave and Jess worked hard this weekend,so did Danny's friends Mike and Clay. I ordered the carpet thinking we work better under pressure,NOT, my nerves are fried. I think we are going to pull it off though. The carpet is coming Thursday,I hope you like it. Did you get a good laugh when I fell off the bucket? I'm sure you were jsut shaking your head, thank goodness there is plenty of cushion down there. Give us the strength to finish this for you. Danny's 18 bday part is Sat, Please keep the kids safe. It's going to be hard going back to the same hall that we celebrated yours in but in a way, it will be comforting because I will have good memories of your party and how much fun you had that night. I love you with all my heart, Each day just seems to get harder, please help me. I know you dont want to see me this way. I love you and miss you. Terry xoxox
April 9, 2005
Terry
I pray that the hand Of Our Father in heaven gives you peace to go on .
Howard will always be in your heart no one can ever take that away from you ,
Oh Lord Jesus look after Terry and her Children ,give them peace and hope for tomorrow. Help Terry cope with her grief . Give Blessings to Terry and Bless your angel Howard riding his bike through heavens clouds .
may the Lord be with you allways
Peace be with you
Terry
April 2, 2005
Grief Is - Author Unknown
Grief is more than just a constellation of feelings in
response to a loss.
Grief does not fade with the passage of time. We do
not realize our losses in an instant; we realize them
over years. We do not get over it, but instead go
through it, not just once, but as many times as we do.
Through grief we honor our losses and weave them into
tapestries of our lives so we can stay connected with
all we have loved and still continue to live on at the
same time. We do not honor the dead with funerals
alone; we honor them with our lives. Like love, grief
is timeless. Like love, you cannot predict exactly how
and when grief will manifest.
Grief changes form and eludes definition.
Grief is physical.
Grief sits on your chest, punches you in the gut,
squeezes your throat, winds everything up
breaking-point tight, and sucks the energy out of you.
Grief is holding your breath, or breathing fast and
shallow like a scared rabbit.
Grief is lazy and lethargic.
Grief is exhaustion that cannot sleep, hunger that
cannot eat, and tears that will not dry.
Grief makes you feel weak, hollow, and threadbare.
Grief is clenching your teeth until you have a
headache that will not go away.
Grief is feeling rundown and getting sick over and
over again.
Grief is feeling so lousy all the time that you cannot
tell whether you are sick or depressed.
Grief is a field of fog and distance where we wander
lost and aimless.
Grief is unexpected composure, lucidness, and
productivity that seem out of place.
Grief is rejecting the notion that someone is dead.
Grief is a calm sullen silence, a vacuum into which we
withdraw.
Grief is forgetting and then remembering again that
someone is really dead.
Grief is not being able to think about anything else.
Grief is dreaming about your loved one.
Grief is feeling their presence, seeing their face,
hearing their voice-even though they are dead-or being
frustrated because we cannot.
Grief is a protest, a temper tantrum, a refusal to
give up without a fight over something that is already
gone.
Grief is an intense negotiation over events that have
already happened, a barrage of what-if's and
if-only's.
Grief is a hope turned backwards in time.
Grief is yelling at the beautiful sunrise because it
means time is abandoning your loved one.
Grief is a plea to undo what cannot be undone.
Grief is rejected offerings and ungranted prayers.
Grief is retracing the steps that led our loved one
from this world.
Grief is wanting to bear witness to and comfort the
pain and suffering they experienced.
Grief is feeling guilty because we did not stop death,
could not revert death, and cannot change death.
Grief is an accountability session.
Grief is damage control.
Grief is knowing we do not deserve to be alive any
more than our loved one deserves to be dead. Grief is
wondering why fate chose them and not us.
Grief is feeling guilty for moving on, guilty for
living, and guilty for enjoying life without them. Is
it irreverent to savor the foods they are no longer
here to enjoy? Is it disrespectful to have a good
belly laugh while mourning?
Grief is a sigh-a reluctant surrender to powers
greater than ours.
Grief is a radical depletion of will and inspiration.
Grief is throwing your hands up into the air and
collapsing onto the floor into despair.
Grief is unabashedly wailing and drowning in your own
snot and tears.
Grief is an inventory of what has been lost.
Grief is a dim spotlight that illuminates the void
where a life once was.
Grief is a fear that life is all there is and it is
not enough.
Grief is fear of living with the loss and losing more.
Grief clings to what we love as if every good-bye is
the last. The imagination has a field day turning
every early morning or late night phone call into a
death notice and every rush-hour delay into a fatal
accident.
Grief is examining every relationship, turning it
upside down, considering its loss, and mourning it,
before we venture to engage more deeply.
Grief is choosing to endure loneliness and despair
over facing the fear of further loss.
Grief is coming to terms with the fact that we will
all die someday whether we share life or experience it
alone.
Grief is the identity crisis that ensues when we lose
those who help define who we are, how we live, and how
we relate to one another. And now that they are gone,
are we still the person they helped define? How do we
live? How do we relate? Certainly not the same. How
can I be a best friend if my best friend is dead? How
can I be a big sister if my little brother is dead?
How can I be a mother if I have no children left? How
can I be a son after my father dies? What am I to be
instead? Grief is an influx of freedom to re-create
the self as old expectations of who we once were fade.
Grief is sometimes a vow to fulfill wishes of the
dead.
Grief is panning through memories over and over
searching for jewels.
Grief is believing every pebble is a gem. Grief is
celebration.
Grief is saying thank you.
Grief is admitting that there was no gold in the pan.
Grief is a confession of regrets.
Grief is saying you are forgiven or forgive me.
Grief is saying God forgive you because I can't.
Grief is saying screw you for leaving me.
Grief is turning ordinary objects-a hairbrush, a note,
a pin- into Sacred vestiges.
Grief is a moment frozen in time-a dead child's
bedroom that will never be cleaned, a shirt that will
never be washed, or a message on the answering machine
that will never be erased.
Grief is talking about your loved one again and again
and choosing to ignore those that roll their eyes.
Grief is avoiding the reminders and trying to forget.
Grief is clinging to the reminders and trying to
remember more.
Grief is recalling special moments and crying.
Grief is being able to remember the special moments
and smile instead of crying.
Grief is having a friend of your loved one pay a visit
and realizing after they leave that there was more to
your loved one than you ever knew.
Grief is being inspired to carry out the acts of
beauty and kindness that your loved one is no longer
here to deliver.
Grief is buying lunch for the homeless man you
normally ignore and sitting with him to eat because
you know it is something your loved one would have
done.
Grief is understanding your loved one more by being
more like them.
Grief is understanding that you can still get to know
someone even after they are dead.
Grief is wondering where your loved one really is and
if they can see you, hear you, or read your mind.
Grief is waving or calling to them just in case.
Grief is forging signs and symbols to replace the
words you can no longer share.
Grief is knowing the rainbow that should now
scientifically exist on a Cloudy day is a message to
you saying "I exist."
Grief is hearing that special song on the radio and
knowing your loved one is with you.
Grief is sitting in bed crying in the middle of the
night saying God I miss you. Please, if you are there,
give me a sign and hearing a bird sing a happy tune in
the darkness and knowing that song was your answer.
Grief is discovering pieces of what was lost in places
you do not expect.
Grief is looking at the sunset and knowing it is extra
beautiful because your loved one is a part of it and a
part of Creation than the scope of your contemplation.
Grief is grasping opportunities to connect, to share,
and to care that you might have otherwise left for
tomorrow because you are ever mindful now that there
may be no tomorrow.
Grief is being able to distinguish better what is
really important and meaningful after all is said and
done and choosing to do more of it.
Grief is the yearning, the reaching, and the
unrequited love that hides behind our losses.
Grief is a tribute to the depth of your love.
Grief is my life.
March 29, 2005
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinkig about you and miss you. Please keep us safe. Love ya, Terry
Terry
March 27, 2005
Happy Easter Howard,
Bless us and keep us safe. We miss you. Life isn't the same. It's so empty and blue without you. I went to the store tonight and there sitting on the end of the isle was a box of Whoppers, I almost picked them up and put them in my cart for you, Old habits are hard to break. I still can't believe you are gone. Help us down here. I miss you, Love, Terry xoxo
Terry
March 21, 2005
Today's the day. It's been one year without you. Last night a year ago was our last night together.We were at the track, we ate our last meal together at Berts, We both ordered hot beef with fries. Then back to the track. We spent our last night together in the new camper. Remember how you were going to sleep on the table bed so Kelly could have a night in a real bed instead of the sofa she had been sleeping on at Mom's. I made you sleep in the bed because you deserved a good night sleep too, Remember how we hated that bed at Mom's? I remember holding you that night and having to go to the bathroom but didn't want to crawl over you and wake you up, you were snoring so loud that I couldn't sleep. Tonight a year ago was the first night without you. Everything in between is like a bad dream. I played the events of that Sunday over and over in my head all day.It was terrible. When my alarm went off this afternoon at 2:46, I got goosebumps, for that was the time they declared you gone to a better place. I spent the day with the kids,On the way to see you we heard the most beautiful songs on the radio, they fit the occasion, I'm sure you had something to do with that. It was special when we all wrote a message to you on our ballons and then let them go, at first Danny was winning but then Kelly took a shortcut and beat us all.Your grave marker should be here any day, I hope you like it and it isn't messed up again. I wish it could have been here for today. It is so hard here without you. I'm not kidding when I say I need strength,it's getting harder and harder. I miss you more and more each day.I would do anything to have you back with us,if we only would have gotten the chance to say goodbye. I remember holding you and then feeling you gone.We were looking into each others eyes when it happened. I am so glad God had me there to hold you tight.I ramble when I write to you,the thoughts just keep popping in my mind. Bless us and keep us safe. I'll love you forever, Terry xoxo
kelly jones
March 21, 2005
hey dad...i miss you so much, theres not a day go by that i dont think of you, and this day a year ago u were still here. I had my 16th birthday party and i wish u could have been there it was really nice and mommy put it together in only a couple days, but i still cant pass my stupid learners u gotta help me i suck so bad n i dont wanna go back cuz im scared im gonna fail again and i know if u were here id probably be getting my liscnce soon cuz u even let me drive when i was little behing mars in dundalk, me and chad still go out its been a year i guess n i went to doublin gap this past weekend and its so weird to be at the track not with our family and going up to watch ur motos or dannys and in the 125a class there was a 92 on a yamaha and i didnt know what to think i hated it at first and chad was like no u should be rooting him on...mommy, jess,aunt dawn,amanda, and me all signed up for golds gym they made a new one in dundalk, n mommy said we might have to sell my car cuz it has a lot of problems and she said u wouldnt keep it if u thought it wasnt safe but i dont wanna get rid of it cuz u bought it and i know u like it and the next car i get u might not like, today we went to the cemetary and i had a pink balloon danny had a blue and mommy had a red heart and we all wrote on them and let them go and we tried to watch them as far as we could but there were lil stars or something cuz the sun but mine disappeared first and went off to the right so i said it took a short cut cuz the right ways always the way to go hehe...neway its been a long day...goodnight i love you~*kelly
Robin, Frank and Anthony
March 21, 2005
Howard,
One year today. I can't believe it it seems like yesterday we talked and than again it seems like a life time ago. We are so glad we had the chance to become so close to you. We went to kelly's party and had a great time. Kelly reminded me that I am to take her out on her 21st birthday and I can't wait we are going to have a ball, but don't worry I will keep her safe. I could not find it in me to dance at her party I just was not the same without you up there dancing too. I felt bad to see that it upset Terry but only in time I hope to be able to get up there and dance. We went to our first race this past sunday and everyone was talking about you telling Howard stories It made me feel good to see how you touched so many people. A couple people came up to Frank and asked him if he was trying to be like you, because last season he said he was not coming back to MAMA but first race we were there with a new funmover. Jeff Corran said every year Howard would sell everything say he was done but be back the next season with all new stuff ready to go again. Everyone misses you so much around the track when I walked around everyone asked how your family was doing and if anyone needed anything. Howard we miss you so much and you will stay in our hearts forever.
Amanda
March 21, 2005
Hey buddy we miss you, it is one year to date that you were here and just like that you were gone. God we miss you so much, it is so weird going in your house and not having you there. I am sitting in Multimedia class acting like im listening, but really i am reading all of the guestbook entrys that people have wrote in the past year. Its so hard to keep back the tears. Can you believe it has been a year. It seems like just yesterday that you were here, and how can one event be so clear in my mine? I can recall everything that has happen that day, the day you were taken away from us. Our family is going to try to celebrate Easter again this year. last year was so hard because no one wanted to be happy. Sitting at the dinner table and there was still your boots near the door, it was not a happy holiday. God i hope this year is going to be better for all of us. Can you believe i have been driving for a year, i wish you were here. keep my bug safe and running! Hey i tryed the tanning bed out for the first time, your right its so cool. I told Aunt Terry that I almost feel alsleep. Can you believe me and danny will be graduating this year. Wow that crazy, the big day is June 3rd! Were goin to the Ocean, keep us safe down there, you know there are crazy people down there. I hope this year will be better for all of us, i dunno if anyone can take anymore. We stoped to see you the other day, they were all out of "UNCLE" so we had to get you just flowers. Kellly, my mom, jess, aunt terry and I have joined the gym... its are beginning to get healthy. Its going to be fun!! Keep an eye on all of us and keep us in good health. We all miss you so much and i still can not believe it has been a year. I saw ladder 49 the other day and at the end of the movie they had the funeral for the fallen hero, they said " instead of mouring over teh death of a loved one, stand up and celebrate that we got the chance to know such a wonderful person!"
Miss you soooo much
-amanda
Terry
March 18, 2005
Hello How, Tomorrow is the anniversay of Ashley's death. Remember how you used to walk into the computer room to see me on this site crying my eyes as I read through her entries and couldn't explain why I was drawn to this site. I never thought I'd be writing to you on here. Karen said they are having a memorial service tomorrow night, hold back the rain,please. Jess, dragged me to the gyn tonight, what a wreck I was. I was so scared without you. I did ten minutes on this machine and thought I would pass out, it hurt so much. I kept thinking of the pain you must have been in and yet you kept going. I found the will to keep going, for you. I went 30 min. on the bike and 30 in the treadmill. As I was walking I kept thinking about our walked and how you used to wait at the top of the hill for me with words of encourgement to me to get up there with you. God, how I miss you. I went to the doctors yesterday and back today for blood work, I talked to a couple who were 80 and 82 years old I told them about you. I tell everyone about you. I am so proud to have been your wife. I found a site for people who lost a loved one. I've posted my thoughts and read others. It's amazing how everyone grieves differently yet in the end we are all the same. I've received lots of encouraging thoughts from wives who are in my shoes, Everyone says, be strong for you. So, I'm trying but I know come Monday I'm going to need a little extra help. Well, I have to go and pick up Kelly, watch over us, Keep the kids safe. I love and miss you, Terry xoxo
March 18, 2005
BRAVO TERRY!!!!
Terry
March 17, 2005
Today's St Patrick's Day and I thought what kind of luck do I have? Then I thought I'm one of the luckiest. I was honored to have your unconditional love for the last 20 yrs. You've given me two wonderful kids and a great life. I never wanted for anything, you were always there. Happy St Patricks Day. I love you, Terry xoxo
Terry
March 11, 2005
Hey Charlie,Boy do I miss calling you that. I miss everything about you. I am sitting here alone on a Friday night and I can't stop thinking of what could have been, what should have been. God, how you were cheated. I am trying so hard to live up to the name and the life that you created for us. I gave Kelly her Sweet 16 party as we planned, it was nice but not the same without you. It broke me heart not to see Robin dancing. She always made you smile, goofy as all heck. I wish you could have seen been there holding Kelly's cake as she blew out her candles, just as she did for you. Life just isn't the same.I got her pictures developed today, and you weren't there,this just can't be happening. Will the days get any better? Please help my get through this until we meet again. I can't wait for you to hold me, the nights are so cold. The kids went to Monica Sweet 16 Party tonight.Keep them safe. I love you and miss you. Terry xoxo
Terry
March 3, 2005
Well, today's my birthday. Oh, how I was dreading today and how I miss you. I kept thinking of the last 20 years and you walking in the door at 6:30 with flowers and balloons. I miss you. The girls at work made me a cake and decorated my office, they have been so good to me. Danny and Kelly made dinner and decorated the house, we had Elmo plates, party hats, crazy straws and a pinata. It was really nice. I love you so much, I wish you weren't taken away. I know you are with me, I feel you with me. Thanks for sharing my birthday with me. I love and miss you with all my heart. Love forever, Terry xoxo
February 28, 2005
Remember, I will still be here as long as you hold me, in your memory.
Remember, when your dreams have ended, Time can be transcended, just remember me.
I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly. It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun. I'm with you whenever you tell my story. Remember, I will still be here, As long as you hold me, in your memory.
Remember me, I am the one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky...
Remember, I'll never leave you if you will only Remember me,
Remember me...
February 23, 2005
If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.
Terry
February 20, 2005
Tomorrow is the 21st- 11 months since you've been taken from us. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think of you.I still can't believe you're gone. This week was so hard. They're all hard without you. Please help us make it through this month, for in my mind I keep thinking of this time next month you'll be gone for one year, One year without you, I'm dreading the day as I do most, please watch over us and keep us safe. I love you and miss you. Forever yours, Terry xoxo
Howard w/ the kids at the end of the night
February 17, 2005
Kelly holding Howard's cake as he makes a wish
February 17, 2005
Howard playing the drums at his 40th B-Day Party
Terry
February 17, 2005
Dear Howard, What can I say?,where do I start?.This week for the last 20yrs was always my best,now all I have is memories and it's so hard, the fun is gone.The 14th,Valentines, you were my one and only.The 16th, our Anniversay, it would have been 20yrs. We were to celebrate it in Las Vegas.Today the 17th, your Birthday. Danny set his alarm this morning to go to see you. He wanted to be the first there on your special day.I hope you liked your special gift.He wanted to take you something,I hope you liked it. I cried myself to sleep last night as his words ran through my head. He misses you so much and talks about you daily. Kelly the same. Her Sweet 16 is coming. I wish you were here to celebrate it with her. Remember how she used to plan going out with you when she got old enough?.18 to party-21 to drink. You were such a good Dad to them. Remember the Cabbage Patch dance you used to do with the kids and always stop when I walked into the room?Those were the good times. I got our taxes done Monday, what a Valentines treat. I sat there and cried like a baby. I had your picture on Charlottes desk. She was very upset to hear of your passing. She said you were a big teddy bear.She discounted my bill. I'm still amazed at the good things people are still doing for us and have done already. All in your honor, You should feel so blessed that you were loved by so many. Dee, gave me flowers yesterday for my Anniversary, She said she knew it was going to be a hard day for me and she wanted something to let me know I wasn't alone.Robin stopped by the cemetary, and signed this guestbook. I hope she knows how much you enjoyed her company. She's going out this weekend and writes she's having a dance for you. I just can't believe that you were taken from me,from us. You didn't want to die, you tried to find out what was wrong.I saw Manny yesterday, Monica had car problems and I knew I could trust him. He told me about the time you helped him with a clutch that took him all day and still wasn't done and you came to his rescue. He also told me about Joppa Rd closing. I guess the "curse" made full circle . Amazing how that happens? I placed some pictures on this site from your party last year. You were so happy to have celebrated your 40th with your friends and family.The kids had a ball and you were right in there with them. What a happy memory you left us of your last birthday. I reordered your stone. I am so sorry it's taken so long. Hopefully, this time they'll get it right. Keep your fingers crossed. I don't know how much more I can take. Take care of us, help me get through life. I miss you so much. I'll love you forever, Terry xoxox
Robin N Frank Barbagallo
February 17, 2005
Howard,
We just wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! It still hurts just as bad as it did that sad day in March. We are going out this weekend to see your band that played at your 40th I just wish you could be with us to go out on your 41st. We miss you a lot and think about you everyday. We will have a dance for you. Happy Birthday
Robin, Frank and Anthony
Carol Black
February 17, 2005
Hey Howard you should be celebrating your 41st birthday today. I still can't believe you are gone. We were born exactly 1 year and 9 months apart. I was 41 when you passed away. I think of you often and miss you.I wish we would have seen each other more, but the phone calls were good. May you rest in peace.
Your sister Carol
Terry
January 23, 2005
Ten months without you and life is so lonely. Our first big snowstorm,boy do we miss you. Did you see Danny and I trying to get the tractor started? Nothing like waiting until the last minute, hours later and I knew you would help him. He put on the new chains and plowed the driveway. I was so proud of him. Kelly comes home from Florida tomorrow.She's called a few times and sounds like she is enjoying the nice warm weather. I was sitting here today thinking about you and what we would be doing.We were always together and life is just so hard without you.It was so windy this morning I have to admit I was a little scared laying in bed by myself. I closed my eyes and imagined you holding me.I can't stop asking God why? I can't wait to be with you again. I love you,take care of us,Watch over Kelly's flight tomorrow.I'm sure she'll be thinking about you the same as I was coming home from Texas as I looked out the window and saw the clouds, it was the closest I'd been to you.I love you and miss you.Love forever,Terry xoxo
Terry Jones
January 10, 2005
Well How, Tomorrow is the big day, I'm a little scared. As you know, I'm flying to Houston for work and I have this great fear of something happening and the kids becoming orphans. I know my chances are a million times greater driving in my car that something could happen but the thought is still there. Watch over me and keep me safe, keep an eye on the kids,I'll remind them that you are watching. Pop said he would come and stay with them and I had the thought of Grandmom staying home with us ;) and said "they'll be ok" Danny is taking me to the airport, God, how I wish it was you. Remember 20 years ago when you went to Texas for your work and I got my license while you were gone? Well, I gotta run and pay the bills before I leave. I love you, Terry
Terry
January 2, 2005
Well, what can I say? We made it through another year. What was supposed to be our best turned out to be the worse. Christmas wasn't the same as you can imagine without you. The kids slept in and after they opened their gifts it was just like another day. Everyone came here this year since we had more room.I crashed on the sofa when Jess and Owen were still here. New Years Eve was just as lonely. Again, everyone came here including the kids, I can't believe they stayed around. We ate and played games,and watched the ball drop on the neighbors house with the projector. We were very loud, no doubt around here what time it was. Ricky brought up fireworks. I'm sure you saw and heard us, and I know you were here with us in spirit. I got a Christmas card from David and Eileen. I started to write to them and before I was done the whole letter was about death, You, your brother and your Mom. It was so hard to write to them about you, I still can't believe you're gone. My New Years resolution was going to be to start walking each night but I just don't think I can. Remember how we would walk up the hill and I was huffing and puffing and you would be at the top waiting for me? I don't know how you did what you did. It's been so hard just trying to do some of the stuff. You did it all and never complained. I see that Robin wrote on the guestbook,she said she misses her dance partner. You always liked hanging with her, never a dull moment.I miss the life we had, I don't know what I am going to do. With each passing day, I'm one closer to you.Keep watching over us and keep the kids safe and on the right path.I know they miss you terribly, they talk about you each day, there is always a memory to talk about. We miss you so much. Love forever, Terry xoxo.
Robin, Frank & Anthony Barbagallo
December 31, 2004
Howard,
We just wanted to let you know how much you are missed. I can't believe it is already 2005 and over 9 months since you have been gone. You should be very proud of your family they have done a great job with the house doing everything they knew you wanted. Terry told me that she finally got a real job I know you are very proud of her you have told me many times when we would talk how proud you are of Terry and how well she is doing with her job. Every time we see Danny he looks more and more like you which is a good thing. He is doing a great job being the man of the house and I know you are very proud of him, again you have told me this many times. And what can I say about Kelly she is growing up to be a beautiful young lady you alway told me you would have to watch he around the guys because of how beautiful she is well you are right again. I miss going out dancing with you. Frank and I haven't been out since the last time we went out with you and Terry. Well I just want say I MISS YOU and I hope you're family was able to have the best Christmas possilbe I know it must have been really hard without the life of the party there and I know they all miss you very much you made a big impact on everyones life you touched. I want you to make sure that if Terry, Danny or Kelly ever need anything that all they have to do is call us and we will be there for them. And make sure Kelly knows how that I miss her being around, she has your personality and is just like her DAD. Happy New Year Howard and the Jones Family We Miss you all!!!!!
Kelly Jones
December 24, 2004
hey daddy its kelly...its 12:30 am on christmas eve, i woke up and knew we werent going to do anything in school so i asked mommy if i could stay home like always and she told me if i cleaned so i had to clean dannys room(i know its a first)then i made sugar cookies from a pack that already had the mix made but we didnt have a cookie sheet so i used the bottom half of cupcake tins but i put too much dough in so now we have sugar cookie cakes n their not that bad if u dont think of them as a stale cupcake-school has been really boring and i honestly dont think im learning anything this year i hate it-things have been kinda hard lately and who knows when im gonna get my learners but "thats our kelly" n now i have to get a job and i really dont want to cuz i feel like i dont have enough time to do the things i normally do...like...watch tv-gwen stefani just came out with a new cd haha u would like it-chad got a long haired chiwawa n its sooooo cute and they havnt really named it ms debbie just calls it a new name every day but i call it elle cuz it sounds like my name and for christmas i got it a pink satin doggie bed with white fur trim that has silver sparkles in it and a matching pink satin bow hehe-i cant believe its been 9 months...in some ways it feels like yesterday cuz i remember everything so perfectly but i wish i only had to remember the times when i was little like going to disney world or going to the track not just a normal day with u which i find myself thinking about all the time...how i wouldnt get in trouble as much and everything would be dannys fault besides my whinning...its just so quiet without you there was always some kind of dancing or singing or laughing about something stupid cuz we were always doing stupid things-everything with u was just so laid back if i wanted to go shopping u would just stand outside the store and give me money and the best nights was when it was just me and u and we had to go somewhere most the time petes or the mall to get mommy something and we would get something to eat and listen to rap in the truck-i miss our old house and waking up to the motorhome backing up in the drive way then either u getting home and then we would all go out to dinner or we would sit down and eat which sucks now so we dont even do it-but i know ur still with me and no one could ever replace you and i think how special u are to me everyday- o yea i got my hair dyed the other night and its brown kinda weird i feel older and now were working on getting all my split ends back to normal but i told her its just the type of hair i have cuz my dad had an afro too and who knows whats on ur side of the family lol n mommy got her hair cut real short and i liked how ms connie did it but she doesnt like her ears cut out but u wouldnt care so tell her to stop worrying-but i have to go to bed now-love you daddy! goodnight & merry christmas~love *kelly
Terry Jones
December 24, 2004
Dear Howard, it's been 9 months and it just keeps getting harder and harder. Christmas is almost here and I miss you so much. Shopping without you just isnt the same, I've just started to wrap my gifts and tomorrow is Christmas Eve, It's almost like I was waiting for you to help me. I hope you like the lights out front and how we decorated your staircase. I remember how excited you were when you picked out this home because you loved the staircase. The tree turned out great this year, your ornaments are all over it. I know you can see it all from heaven I just wish you were here on earth to share it with us. I saw Fran tonight in the store, she gave me a hug I could have cried right there. Karen emailed me to let me know she was thinking about us. Steph signed your book, she said how fast time is going by and how thoughts of you pop into her head. I can relate, I didn't even send out cards this year. It just isnt the same. Danny had his knee surgery as you know on the 8th, he's going real good.Kelly's been trying hard "get along" with Danny and I. She really misses you too. I can't remember what I wrote last but as you know I got a promotion at work, keep your fingers crossed all stays on track and the new company doesnt move the department. I might be able to keep the house with my new raise. It's so hard, you did so much for us. I found someone to buy the camper, I hate to sell it, I remember how happy you were when you found it in such short notice, We haven't used it but three times and it's just sitting down Robins house, I'm putting the money away for Danny's college fees. He decided to go to Essex, he'll be close to home for another two years. I'm glad I'm not ready to loose him too. He's been such a big help around here, you would be so proud of us.I jsut heard a sone on the tv, did you hear it? "I love it when you call me big papa" Remember how you used to sing and dance to it? The kids loved when you would do your "cabbage patch dance" So many memories, The kids and I rode around to look at lights this year, We sure did miss you.Remember how we would ride and ride for hours? Well, I'll see you tomorrow, Kelly and I are bringing your tree and we'll be back Christmas morning. Love forever, Terry. xoxox
Karen & Tom Horseman
December 23, 2004
Hi Howard,
Just wanted to take a moment to say Merry Christmas to you. We miss you. You & your family are always in our thoughts.
Stephanie Horseman
December 20, 2004
5 days until Christmas, It's hard to believe. I'm constantly catching myself talking about you. It sorta came out of no wheres, I'll be in a conversationg and some memory of you would pop up, like your birthday party, a day at the track or when we all went to see I think it was Burn in concert. So i figured, beings I have yet to write to you, I'd write now. You're missed so much and not only by your family, but by everyone you knew, you were and are a really great person. Its werid cause now I don't talk to kelly or danny or even ms terry anymore. I'll see ms terry in target or something and say Hi but I want to be able to come over, and visit for a while but im always working or never get the chance to just pick up the phone and the timing is horrible. But Im hoping to stop by after christmas and start making visits a regular thing. I miss Kelly and Ms Terry and believe it or not, danny too. I just hope they have a good christmas and keep their heads high, we all know you'd want them too. Well... time for work.
Merry Christmas HoJo
*Stephanie
Terry
November 22, 2004
8 months since you've been gone, it seems like just yesterday we were planning the rest of our day and the ride home from the track. Why? I ask this everday, I'll never know but one thing is for sure- I loved you with all my heart and soul, you took a part of me with you when you were called home, one day the two shall become one. I love and miss you very much.-Terry xoxox
barbara miller
November 17, 2004
Mrs Terry, Kelly, Danny,
Hi you guys. Its barbara. I wanted to let you know that your in my prayers. You guys are great people. I remember Mr.Howard walking me home on nights when id leave in the middle of the night. And i remember him walking to pick kelly up from my house and him and my mom talking for a long time. All the times i went out ot dinner with you guys...he was a great person. And is dearly missed. I miss you guys too..give me a call sometime if you need anything 4106683374. Much love. Stay strong.
Barbara
Terry Jones
November 16, 2004
Well, What did you think? Wasn't the banquet really nice? You made the front cover of the book, plus many pages.The trophies all had your name and the Senior ones had your picture on them,the favor trophies had your picture,they had note pads and Christmas ornaments made with your picture and number. I was so proud to be your wife. Bob Lewis said grace and his voice broke when he mentioned your name. Mike Price talked at length with me and he was choked up as well. Oh, what did you think about the Howard E Jones Memorial Award? Wasn't that nice, now you'll always be remembered, they'll always know what kind of special person you were. It was harder than I thought going there without you, especially standing in line without you, and then sitting at the table by myself. We made room for another family with us and the guy was the other number 92 on opening day, that's why you placed the x on your bike and he rides with Michael M. He ask Danny to ride with them one day. The evening was very special. I know you were pleased. I'm still fighting with the builder to get this house right, help me I'm going to need it. We worked too hard not to have it right. Well, I'm going to go, take care of us. I love you and miss you dearly. xoxo,Terry
Terry
November 11, 2004
Oh,how I miss you. Each days seems to get harder and harder. We had the kids pictures taken at the mall. I'm glad we decided to only include the grandchildren because I wouldn't have been able to stand there alone without you. This Saturday is the MAMA banquet. They are doing something special in your honor, I'm not sure exactly what yet but I ask you to help me get through the night. I don't want to cry and ruin everyone's joyful mood as they celebrate another season so hold me tight and let me get through the evening. This will be the first banquet without you, it's going to feel so strange and lonely. The first year also without a table full of trophies. I can't believe you are gone, they say time heals but it's not. It's only getting worse.The holidays are getting closer and you aren't here to share our first Christmaas in our new home. It jsut isn't fair. I don't know why this happened to our family. I need some help with the kids as well. Danny needs a push with his school work and Kelly with her attitude. Help me with them please.What do you think about those lights? I know you helped Danny get them installed. He knew how much you wanted them so he gave it his all. Boy was he proud. We are still working as you can see but we want to get it finished as you dreamed of. I hope you like it when we are done. The kids picked out the bathroom stuff, Did you see them shopping?,they had a ball.Good night for now. I love and miss you very much. xoxo-Terry
Terry Jones
October 21, 2004
It's hard to believe today is 7 months since you were taken from us. It seems like forever since you've been with us, yet in my mind that day seems as though it was yesterday. Every detail plays in my head. I can still remember the feeling when you were called home. I can't believe you went in my arms. How thankful I am that I was there and we were truly together until death do us part. I shared 25 wonderful years of your unconditional love.You were my soul mate and I miss you with all my heart. I wanted to call you so bad today, Paul called from Houston and told me that I was going to be the department supervisor. I'm not sure of all the details yet, he'll let me know next week when he visits. I thought of you when I hung up the phone. I finally got a real job! Remember how you used to tell me that all the time? I know you would be proud,to come so far in three years. The kids are doing ok. We all have our moments and we never stop talking about you,You can't imagine the impact you left on them.You would be proud. Give Danny a little talk about homework, he doesn't want to do it. I know he's tired but give him a push.He always listened to you. Kelly's getting excited about driving, finally she'll get to drive the car you bought her. Give me stength for that journey. I'll need a double dose. I used to fear death and dying but now I'm awaiting to be with you again. Keep me and the kids safe until it's our turn and be there to greet us when we arrive. The chain has been broken but one day it will be one again. I'll love you forever, -Terry xoxo
Lori Wilkes
October 7, 2004
On August 21st which would have been 5 monthes - we were at Seaford and a thunderstorm blew in so fast and furious it flooded everything and when it was over all the kids were out playing on the track sliding down the sides of the jumps.
I know Howard was there because I remember when it had happened before and Howard was like the biggest kid out there. Terry stood on the hill under an umbrella but Howard was out there having a blast.
I think he just wanted to let us all know he was still there with all of us. I told everyone I saw that it happened for a reason that day. Howard wanted us to have fun.
Rest in Peace #92 - we all miss you.
This years banquet will be in your honor and your family's.
Kelly Jones
September 22, 2004
Six months have past by and it seems like yesterday we were laughing and everything was normal...dad i wish u were here so bad i hate everything without you i hate being sad because it makes me see that nothing will be the same, i hate being happy because i have no reason to be, i hate going to school because i should be coming home to you and then going out to eat, i had a dream the other night and we were living in our old house and everything was normal and then i woke up to a life so different, mommy has let me drive through some parking lots late at night and through the cemetary...i wanted u to teach me so bad because im so horrible and i know u would laugh and wouldnt yell im doing ok in school despite the fact of not even wanting to be there...mommmy just got off the computer and she left a poem on the desk, theres a part that says: He loved to tell me stories; he taught me how to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me how to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone...i started crying because we have done all those things together, you did everything with me and now its like i dont want to do anything, everybody says life goes on and things get better but its so hard...i went to six flags the week before school with stephanie, justin, amanda, jeremy, and jessica and even though im older now and i guess im not going to fall out of any rides i missed you being next to me making sure i wasnt gonna go anywhere, i really miss you dad and i still need u in my life so please watch over me and protect me and one day were going to be together again so if u ever get lonely and need someone to talk to im always going to be listening~i love you with all my heart!
Terry
September 21, 2004
My Dearest Howard, I can hardly write because I am crying so hard. I can't believe it's been 6 months without you. I logged on to write and see that Karen and Amanda wrote to you, they remembered the day. Ralph stopped by the house tonight also but I missed his visit, Danny was here. Today was hard. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning but I heard and felt you push me, I know how you were about working, never a day off to play. I cried all day, with each picture I looked at, each song I heard, each time I wrote the date, each man I saw driving, everything reminds me of you. Kelly and I went to the gravesite and I still can't believe you are there. I long to feel your skin, listen to your heartbeat, touch you ever soft hair. Danny came home tonight, and said it was scary at the grave in the dark, I know you were with him, remember how he would ask us to watch him take out the trash because he was so scared. I feel as though I know now what it feels like to be dead. I feel as though I am looking in and not actually here. I know the meaning of a dead soul walking. I feel terrible inside. I want you back. I wonder what God was thinking to do this to us.I just don't understand. RuthAnn from the track has sent me some really nice emails. She said she thinks about you all the time, she said the track isnt the same without you walking around. I advertised the camper,your midas touch didn't rub off on me. I do have someone who wants to buy it, funny thing is I really dont want to sell it because I know how hard you looked to find it and how excited you were but I know it can't stay at Robins. I'm sure you've noticed what is sitting in the back yard, yes it's a hot tub. I know you promised the kids one so I got them one, I am taking the camper money to pay for it. I hope you arent mad, and you'll see their smiles as they enjoy it and find comfort in knowing that they are safe at home. Did you see Danny and I work on the concrete patio?, wasn't that a site.? You did so much it is so hard to fill your shoes.I don't know how you did what you did, worked 49 hours every week, gone from 6:30-6:30 and ran all night long. Remember the drives at night to the new house, now I hate the drive? I want you back besides me. Please hold me tight tonight and everynight. The days are getting harder and harder. I love you and miss you so much. Remember our joke" you're gonna miss me when I'm gone" Lord do I. I'll love you forever, Terry xoxo
Tom & Karen Horseman
September 21, 2004
Howard... It has been 6 months since that tragic day at Budds. You are in our thoughts all the time. We remember your laughter, your stories and all the great times we shared with you and your family. We're hoping to plan another skiing trip to Deep Creek again in February.... and our thoughts go back to the last ski trip our families shared together. We share our stories of you.. of the fun we all had despite a major snow storm! For someone who didn't like being cold or liking snow, you smiled through it all. We will treasure those memories forever. You were a wonderful man and a great father and husband and friend. We will never forget you...and will always miss you. Rest in Peace friend.
Amanda Zacharko
September 21, 2004
Its now been a long 6 months and it seems like yesterday that you were here and having fun. Only if you were here now and see all the great things that have happen. Kelly needs help driving just a little bit, so try to guide her better. Owen has gotton so big... can you belive unlce dave is a father its kinda hard to picture! Nan and Pop are the same! Not much there! The other night i began to cry and i didn't know why... untill i thought about the date... it was almost 6 months! In art tech class i did a multimedia picture of you and your dirt bike pictures. I had to do an emotion and i did "sad" we all miss you! I can see it in Aunt Terrys eyes that she misses you soooo much... and the house is different with out you! You would love the house... we are up there every weekend to help or check up. Well we miss you sooo much!
Good Night!
Love Amanda
Terry
September 1, 2004
How, How'd you like Kelly driving? Yes, we are cheating letting her drive before her learners but we need all the help we can get. We drove through the cemetary same as you did for Danny. We knew you would keep us safe. I received an email from Hank,that was nice that he thought of us. God, how I miss you. Please help me give me another sign, help me stay strong. Love you forever, Terry xoxox
Terry
August 29, 2004
Well, Tomorrow's the big day- back to school for the kids. Summer was fast, we kept busy working on the house. We've landscaped,painted,built a deck, and still working on finishing the basement and patio. Boy how we all miss you. It's gonna be real hard getting the kids off in the morning. That was always your job. You were so sweet to me and let me sleep for the extra hour. The kids finished their school shopping. As we left each store I reminded them that they can thank their dad,. You are still providing for us with our monthly check. I never thought I'd be waiting for a check to arrive once a month. I still can't believe you are gone. Steph and Justin stopped in Saturday. THey took Kelly and Amanda to Six Flags with them. Justin, Steph and I talked a long time about you. Steph said she thinks about you when she's driving and holding the sterring wheel. She said she remembers how large the muscle was between your thumb and pointer. She remembers alot,you and your green bill book, she even remembers the family meetings and how I would be laughing and you would get mad a me. I miss those family meetings.-to laugh again. Speaking of laughing I'm sure you got a kick out of Kelly driving the other night in the parkng lot. She did pretty good. Amanda was in the back seat holding on for dear life. I never imagined I'd be the one teaching her to drive. Remember how you used to say to me, "I raised Danny, you've got Kelly:" You gave me the hard one. Even though you can't physically be here we feel you with us all the time. Hold us tight, keep us on the right path, Make sure I get the kids up in the morning. I love you dear and miss everything about you. Love forever, Terry xoxo
Amanda Zacharko
August 20, 2004
"Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance"
Garth Brooks> "The Dance"
Terry
August 4, 2004
I miss you How. Last night I went to listen to Erika sing. I couldn't stop thinking about you. You loved to listen to her sing. She sang Black Velvet.I know how much you liked when she sang that one, she sings it so well. Danny, Dave and Rick started the footers for the deck as you can see. We are going to work on it Sat.The wood is coming tomorrow.I hope you'll like it whenit''s done.It's for you, it's all for you.We are trying to fulfill all of your wishes.Danny has been working on the sheetrock in the basement.It's starting to look like a real room. His drive is knowing how bad you wanted a nice finished basement. We are doing it for you. Well, I've gotta run and feed Kelly some dinner and cut the grass. I love and miss you so very much. xoxo- Terry
Terry
July 29, 2004
I heard this song on the way home tonight and it made me think of you, us, and what's left of me. It was by Richard Marx called When you're gone."Who's gonna dry my tears when I'm crying? Who's gonna hold my hand when I'm dying? Who's gonna set me right when everything is wrong "Who's gonna love me when you're gone? I miss you so much and would do anything to have you here with me. I ask each day for a sign from you. Today I got one. Thank you. I love you. xoxo- Terry
Terry
July 26, 2004
It's me How. I miss you so much. I finally went out with John and Kandi this weekend, it wasn't the same. It took everything I had to hold back the tears. We listened to Johns favorite band 7-14. John says they always play different songs, Well, that night they placed two RUSH songs. I knew in my heart they were playing them for you, you were there in my heart. Danny and Kelly went to the Ocean with Erika and Monica, it's been quiet here. I washed & waxed the Mazda and Murano today and cut the grass just trying to pass the time away. God, I wish you were here. When I am in my lowest moment something happens to make me feel better. Tonight I was feeling pretty lonely and I logged on to my email account and there were two emails. One from Frankie and one from little Marty. It is so sweet to think that two teenage boys would take the time to write to me. Marty says his Dads talks about racing with you and that #92 will never be forgotten. I went to the Horsemans today for Jeremy's graduation, and seeing the stickers on the windows of the cars and trucks made me feel so happy, you touched alot of people. I love you,please watch over me extra special this week while I'm be myself. xoxo Good night.
Terry
July 14, 2004
Dear Howard, As you know last night was the toughest night for me, I couldn't sleep. I kept dreaming, I didnt want to wake because I was talking to you and it seemed so real, every hour on the hour I woke to find myself in our bed alone. It gets harder every day. I miss you with all my heart. Forever yours, xoxo
kelly
July 13, 2004
My Dad
I met him several years ago
The first face I ever knew
A bond was formed right there and then
Our love was new and true
He taught me how to ride my bike
He taught me how to play
But best of all he taught me how
To love him every day
His face is warm and gentle
His eyes are sad and blue
His heart is full of kindness
The kindest man I ever knew
He has his little sayings
That will make you laugh and smile
He picks you up when you are down
And makes troubles fade a while
He helped me when I needed him
When the whole world turned away
He gave me strength to face the world
And fight another day
I love him now as ever
I love him deep and true
He makes me feel so special
He makes every day feel new
He has left us now and it’s hard
To face, gets harder every day
I need him now it hurts so much
I begged God to let him stay
He’s strong and brave
He’s wise and calm
No better man could fall
He shows us how to keep our faith
An inspiration to us all
If you met him you loved him
If you knew him you are blessed
If he loved you, you are honored
Cause you’re loved by the very best
July 13, 2004
i put away the groceries
And I take my daily bread
I dream of your arms around me
As I tuck the kids in bed
I don't know what you're doin
And I don't know where you are
But I look up at that great big sky
And I hope you're wishin on that same bright star
I wonder, I pray
[Chorus:]
And I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it's so hard livin' here on my own
So please, come home soon
(Come home soon)
I know that we're together
Even though we're far apart
And I'll wear our lucky penny 'round my neck
Pressed to my heart
I wonder, I pray
[Repeat Chorus]
[Bridge:]
I still imagine your touch
It's beautiful missing something that much
But sometimes love needs a fighting chance
So I'll wait my turn until it's our turn to dance
I wonder, I pray
[Second Chorus:]
I sleep alone
I cry alone
Without you this house is not a home
So please, come home soon
[Third Chorus:]
I walk alone
I try alone
I'll wait for you, don't want to die alone
So please, come home soon
Come home soon
Come home soon
Terry
July 11, 2004
Dear Howard, I miss you so much, the tears have been flowing more and more frequently. Why and how could this have happened to you? You tried so hard to find out what was wrong and take care of yourself.I know how bad you wanted to live. All the plans you had for us, your mind never stopped. Danny went riding the other day with Billy and said it just isnt any more fun. We miss you so much. I find Kelly looking through the pictures, all I can do is cry. I try to hold back the tears so she wont see me but I can't. I keep reliving that Sunday you left us, you left in my arms. Baby, I am so glad I was there to hold you and you didn't go alone.I know you are with us because we've made it this far.I read a poem about a broken chain, and how much it reminded me of our family. I remember watching you change the chain on Dannys dirtbike and remember you saying something about a master link, you are and were our master link. You are holding us together through this terrible time in our lives. I pray for the day our chain will be one again and I can see you.Pray for us, let us live a happy life in your memory and honor, You loved life so much and wanted to do it all. Please guide us, keep your arms around me tight, it's soo hard. As you know we sold Dannys truck, it was so hard to see it go, Danny has been driving your truck. I believe he finds comfort there knowing it was yours. I am taking the money from Dannys truck and paying off Kellys car. You spoiled her rotten. I hope you are ok with the decisions we've made so far, they've been so hard. Bless us and keep us safe. Good night,I love you xoxo
Carol Black
July 9, 2004
Howard,
I still can't believe you're gone. I miss your wonderful laugh. I wish we would have talked more and spent more time together. I think about you all the time, and how hard this must be for Terry and the children.
Carol (your sister)
Terry
July 4, 2004
Howard,
It's the first 4 of July without you in 20 yrs. I miss you so much. It's not the same. I love you dearly and always will. Watch over us. Love you, Terry xoxox
frank
June 14, 2004
Dear mrs terry hope all is well there please tell danny and kelly i am thinking of them hope all is well there. always remember to call every now and then. frank
Terry `
June 13, 2004
Dear Howard, In a few hours it will be Sunday,and the 12th week since you've been gone.It feels like a lifetime. It's not getting any easier. I finally got the cemetary to agree to refund me for your stone(remember the ugly green one they installed instead of gray) I have been looking for another one to order. Kelly wants to be a part of it this time. Bob's son Frankie called me the other day to check in,it was so sweet to have a him think of me.He later emailed me after reading this site.He painted a picture in my mind of you riding in the sky, no where to fall and get hurt. I hope you are resting happily.Eric came over today to see if Danny wanted to ride the trails. Danny's bike is still down Franks, we need to get it soon. Danny has been so busy and "bossy" with Kelly. It is sweet to see him step up to the plate. He has some tough shoes to fill but he is trying. Remember how you used to say to me. "Danny's all mine, you have Kelly to raise". Give me the tough one. Well, I am trying and so far so good, but please help me get through this. This is harder than anything I've ever had to do.God,how I want you back. I'm here alone tonight, physically that is. I know you are always with me. Kelly went to Chads and Danny is down Erikas. Just me and Scruffy. He keeps wanting to sleep on your side of the bed but I won't let him. He keeps picking up your scent as we bring boxes of your stuff home. He's been so lost without you, as we all have.I went to Dee's daughter, Deanna wedding today, it was tough. She decicated a song in church to her dad who passed away. Kelly and I say there crying, thinking one day it will be us.Dee looked great and danced as usual at the reception. She looked so happy.Well, I'm going to go for now. I love you and miss you so much. I can't wait to see you again,to have your arms around me tight,and hear you whisper everythings gonna be alright. God how I melted and felt so good when you used to say that to me when I was having a bad day. You were always there for me and the kids. We miss you. Love forever, Terry
Terry ``
June 7, 2004
My Dear Howard, Today was a happy yet sad. Dave and Jess had their baby boy today, a happy new beginning,yet a sad day because you aren't here to share in the joy. Dave never got a chance to ask you to be the Godfather, he has ask Danny to take your place. They named the baby Owen Daniel. He's so cute. I can tell Dave really misses you. You were like a big brother to him. Do you realize he was only 7 when you first came around. Time just goes too fast. I miss you so much. Each day seems to get harder, whomever said time will heal never had the joy of experiencing the love that we shared. I long for the day we get to hold each other again and to hear you whisper "everythings gonna be alright" Watch over Charlene and Timmy. Timmy had some test done and they're waiting for the results. I don't want to see any of my friends go through the pain I am feeling. I miss you so much. It's been 11 weeks and it seems like an eternity. I want you back so bad, the tears just won't stop. Please help me stay strong. I'll love you forever, Goodnight my love. xoxo
Carol Black
May 28, 2004
Dear Terry, Danny, Kelly and Howard Jr.
I am so sorry to hear about Howard. I didn't get a chance to spend alot of time with him, but through the phone conversations we had I know how much you all meant to him. Howard was the type of person to know what he wanted and he would work for it until he got it. I was always so impressed with his outlook on life and the things that made him happy, like his family and the times you all did things together. Danny,Kelly and Howatd Jr. he always told me how proud he was of all of you. You are all in my thoughts and prayers and may God help you to be strong, and be there for each other.
Carol (Howard's sister)
Daddy's Girl, I love you, -Kelly xoxo
May 22, 2004
Terry
May 22, 2004
To Karen, I know what you mean about Anita taking Howard out of line. I thanked her for she unknowingly gave me those few extra hours. I miss him so much. It is so hard. Everything keeps going wrong in my life. I written on here twice and neither one has showed up. I proof read and submit and then it doesnt appear. On top of the builder problems, I went to the grave today and they cant even get Howard's stone right. It was supposed to be gray and it's a bright aqua. It is so ugly, now they need to reorder another one. I just can't win, Danny came home with his yearbook and they left his picture out of it. I just keep thinking can it get any worse? and then it does. I wonder why I am being punished. What did I/ We do that was so bad to be punished this way. Every breath hurts. I want him back so bad. I thank you for writing on here, you are so sweet. Howard really enjoyed yours and Toms friendship. Never a bad word. Tom reminded Howard alot of himself. "Mr Do it all" always on the go and working, either at home or on the job, providing for his family. We are both so lucky to have found them. My advise and I can see you and Tom already do it, is to live for today, enjoy life, have lots of toys, do things together, never say later because later might not come. My only regret is that it all ended too soon. I would do anything to have him back. Take care and stop by anytime you are out. - Terry
Karen
May 21, 2004
It's hard to believe how one moment a simple number can be so insignificant and then in an instant, alter our lives forever. The 13th, 19th and now the 21st are embedded in my mind. We miss ya Howard. I keep thinking back on Saturday, March 20th during sign-up. You were just a few people in front of me. We waited hours... they were so slow! Then Anita Logan came up to you and you talked with her a minute and she pulled you up to the window to put you thru. I just smiled... I thought, it was cool. I listened to a few people grumble. I figured there was a good reason for it... which you explained to me that evening! You & Terry came over to the camper before going out to dinner and you actually apologized to ME for MY standing in line 2 hours longer than you! We talked & laughed and you know I didn't care. You were such a great person and friend. I look back now and I thank god that she took you out of that line. She actually unknowingly gave you a couple more precious hours that you were able to spend with your family. It's these moments we learn to never take for granted.
Rest In Peace Howard. Tom misses his visits to you at the CarDoc. We all miss you.
Ms Karen
May 11, 2004
For Danny & Kelly,
A father tries to provide his children with insight into the important things in life in order to make their life as happy and fulfilling as possible.
A father tries to teach his children to be good, always helpful to other people.
To be fair; always treating others equally,
To have a positive attitude at all times,
To always make things right when they are wrong,
To know themselves well, to know what their talents are and, to set goals for themselves and not be afraid of working too hard to reach their goals.
A father tries to teach his children to have many interests to pursue,
To laugh and have fun every day,
To appreciate the beauty of nature,
To enter into friendships with good people, to honor their friendships and always be a true friend.
To appreciate the importance of the family and to particularly respect and love your elder members.
To use their intelligence at all times, to listen to their emotions, to adhere to their values.
A father tries to teach his children to not be afraid to stick to their beliefs,
To not follow the majority when the majority is wrong,
To carefully plan a life for themselves,
To vigorously follow their chosen path,
To enter into a relationship with someone worthy of themselves, to love this person unconditionally and to share all that they have learned in life with this person.
Knowing the both of you, I truly believe that your dad provided you with an insight into most of these things, and I know he felt he succeeded as a father in what he hoped to accomplish in raising you.
One thing I am sure of, your daddy taught you to be proud of the fact that you are equal to all men & women and that he loved you every second of your life. He supported you at all times as a father, as a person and as your friend. I hope you know in your hearts how proud he was of the both of you and that he will always continue to cherish and love everything about the both of you.
I'm always here for both of you... anytime you need someone to talk to or just a place to go, my door is always open. I love and care about you both.
Terry
May 9, 2004
Hello Howard, Wow, Todays been 7 weeks. I wrote in here last week but it never showed up. So much has happened since I last wrote to you. First, as you can see I went to settlement on the house. It's gonna be tough but I'm going to do what it takes to make your dream work.I never thought I'd be sitting at the settlement table alone. It was real tough. Danny had his Jr Prom, another tough one. Him and Erika looked so good. It was another difficult time,it brought back the memories of my Jr Prom when you and I went. All the kids met at Tony and Val's house. It was real hard for me seeing everyone parents together and then there was Danny and I. Kelly's hanging in there. Each morning I find the pile of tissues stuffed under her pillow. We all miss you so much. Danny has really grown up. He installed the ceiling fans in his and Kellys room. I was so surprised that he did it. Fran and Els came by and helped us hook up the dryer and put together Kellys bed. Tom is going to get the 220 line hooked up for the tanning bed. My Grandmom died two weeks ago, she fell and went to the hospital and they found cancer. After the funeral we went to your work and gave them back the keys. It was hard seeing your tool box in a different spot. We bought some oil and Eric changed the Murano for me. Everything's been a challange, you did so much for us. Ralph's been checking on us. He brought your tool box home this week. Danny was so relieved. He even showed Danny how to use your scanner. The shed came on Friday. It looks great. Again, you picked out the perfect colors. Afterwards Danny and I primed and painted the inside just as you wanted. Today Dawn helped me put down the checkered flag floor tiles. It looks good, you'd be happy. We are trying so hard to completed all of your wishes I just wish you could be here to enjoy them. I know you are with me because I wouldn't have made it this far. Old Scruffy is hanging in there. He hurt his leg on Monday jumping off Mom's steps. I took him to the vet to get his nails trimmed and shots and she found a tumor and said we should get it taken off. I am so afraid of more bad news. All of your friends have been checking up on us. You were so lucky to have so many of them. Beth really misses you, she goes to the cemetary and talks to you. I can only imagine what she is telling you. Keep and eye out for her. Our MAMA family has been great.They have helped us out so much. My co-workers have been great also. It's so hard going to lunch.I miss our calls. I want you back so bad. Shania Twain sings a song that says "it only hurts when I breath" I could have wrote that song. It is so true. I don't think people realize how deep the hurt is. Each night the bed gets bigger. I want you back. God, how I love and miss you. Kelly went to the track with Robin and Frank. Chad's first race back today. Danny and Buddy went to ride go carts. Danny got your old dirtbike running and took it out in the field. He misses you so much. You would be proud of how much he really paid attention to you. Well, I hate to stop writing but I have to go to Moms for Mothers day. We are having a cook out. I love you and miss you so much. Take care of us as you always did and yourself. I'll love you forever. Terry xoxo
kelly jones
May 5, 2004
hey daddy,
Wow dad its been soooo hard without u i could always be myself near u,whenever i made up a stupid new dance u would do it with me and whenever i love it when u call me big papa came on u would wave your hands in the air...lol but dont let mommy see u its like i wanna go tell u something but i cant,but danny and i just got back from young life its really fun we played a lot of games and then they talked about the bible and such then everyone went back to mcdonalds lol and guess who goes there...gordon shh and then bpbby from my school let us ride the go karts,mommy went to wal mart of course but i know u wouldnt be very happy but im not doing that well in biology or algebra but i got make up work and ive been doing my homework its just been so hard to concentrate and nobody knows what its like i guess everyone thinks ive forgotten about it or something, me and chad have been going out for 2 months and 2 days hes been great hehe remember when u told me when me and him break up ill be so upset ull have to send me on a cruise...i miss talking to u so much and i know beth does dad (or ad she would say papa howard)lol we all know she told you everything n ill never forget our trip to ocean city for my birthday this year n we had to speed down coastal highway so me and mo could go to the bathroom lol...i have your pictures in my room and on my binder and i just look and i wanna talk to u and give u a hug and tell u the sound of your heartbeat and sing i believe in a thing called love to you and make race tracks on your back and i want you to teach me how to drive so when i make a mistake u laugh i want u to walk me down the aisle but most of all i just want u to come back...me mommy and scruffy went to ur grave and i didnt wanna leave so when i can drive im gonna come everyday so i can talk to u...i just dont understand why this had to happen to us we were so happy u made me the happiest kid in the world n now i feel like i have nothing and ive been so mean to everyone n im trying not to be but people dont understand...o yea me and danny wanna get tattoos and i think u would be cool with it if i talked u into it long enough but its gonna say daddys girl on it but im not sure how i want it to look with the cross...dad look out for beth shes having a hard time she just lost another friend from school...o yea danny took out ur guys old dirt bike and i got on the back and he road me down allender road n everytime i see a harley i think of how u took me everywhere with u and i dont wanna go to any amusement parks this summer cuz i dont wanna ever ride with anyone but u...gosh i have so much to tell u and i dont wanna go do my homework and go to bed cuz i dont wanna go to bed without u there u would love my new room i got pink curtains and pink pillows and a pink chair mommy got me a futon and ms fran and mr els help us put my bed together...i think some people might think im not taking things hard enough and i always thought how did steph never look like she was crying but when it happens i never wanna believe it so i dont n nothing feels real but i have to go now mommy will be home soon and o yea im not to fight with her anymore when we go shopping but that hasnt been too much but i guess ill ttyl i love you dad...how could god have done this i wanna believe hes a good person but this really isnt good...goodnight dad i love you today...always...and forever!i miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!love always~*kelly
Amanda Zacharko
April 27, 2004
Wow its been the longest month ever and still i sleep and can replay everything that happen that sunday. I was driving home with my dad and we got a phone call that uncle howard passed out... and i got soo scared, kelly,danny and aunt terry was down there all by their selves and so far away. we were driving back from Burger king for my brother and the phone ring again. When my dad screamed and said no way , it can't be my tears poured out. I could not think about anything only why? why did he have to go? we all jumped in the car and drove as fast as we can to the hospital for aunt terry and the kids. I got there and our grand mother was holding his clothes and hes gone.im still in shock and i miss him around the holidays and his new house... its so pretty.That sunday when we all got back to our grandparnets it was like a nightmare and i couldn't wake up... As the day got better when unlce dave helped cheer up the moment but still hes gone. i knows hes in a better place but he loved his family and loved life. i never been in a funeral and who would have thought it would be my uncle. i miss him even know he knocked out my tooth on easter on time trying to get an egg. He was the best godfather and uncle ever and he knew that. I know when its my time he will be waited for me and his family and he will smiling like he always did. He told me he would take me for a ride in his mazda when it got nicer out... speedy! It took me so long to write in the guest book because i didn't know what to say. To uncle howard we are all taking care of aunt terry, danny and kelly , oh yeah and the dog, they will be fine! Danny had his prom and him and erica looked great and kelly is the same old kelly. Her bedroom stuff looks good in the room. oh course i know u heard us saying we didn't like those lamps but yeah they are growing on us. i would write all night if i was not so tired but i know u hear everything i say and you know the whole family loves you! i be around your grave every chance ill get and now i have my license and soo... ill be there... we love you and miss you!
-amanda
p.s - u never smelled!
Karen & Tom Horseman
April 22, 2004
We miss you Howard... It's already been a month since that tragic day at Budds... seems like yesterday.
Your always in our thoughts...
Terry
April 22, 2004
My Dearest Love,
What can I say? I never thought after a year of reading Ashley's guestbook and crying that I would be sitting here writing to you. Today has been one month since you left us. I know you didn't want to go, we had too many plans, you loved life and tried so hard to take care of yourself. I am going to try my hardest to complete our dreams. Tonight is the first night we are sleeping in our new home.Me,the kids and of course, Scruffy the dog. He's so scared to walk across the hard wood floor. I guess that trip in the camper really gave him a scare. Work has been hard but the girls have been great. You would be so proud of your friends, everyone has been so willing to help. Fran has been driving the camper to the track since I wasn't ready but she says it's easy so I might try it next time.Frank has been taking care of the camper and Danny's bike.Dave can't believe you're gone. I talk to him and he says he wants to call you. We are all in such shock. Danny has grown up so fast. You would be so proud of him.He installed the ceiling fans all by himself. Kelly has been quiet. I think she still thinks it's all a bad dream. Please help us get through this. I heard a song on the radio, it said "it only hurts when I breathe" I couldn't have said it any better. Every breathe hurts more than the last. I miss you so much. Please help me, I keep waiting to hear what you always used to tell me, Do you remember? "it will be ok, I'm here" God, how I long to hear you say those words again. I miss your touch, your kisses,your family meetings, (even though I was always the one who would laugh) your heartbeat next to mine. I would say please call me home with you because I am so ready but my job isn't done here yet. I have the kids that need me. Please know I am with you and will always be,A part of me left with you the day God called you home. It's getting late and I need to get the kids tucked in (that was another thing you always did each night)I could write to you all night because I miss you so much.I have so much to tell you. You would be so proud of me. I have had to make so many decisions this past month. I know you've been with me through them all. I love you. xoxo- Terry
Terry Jones
April 6, 2004
I would like to say thank you to everyone for your kind words, support and prayers. Howard suffered a heart attack while at the motocross track with our family.He just celebrated his 40th birthday with a large party which he truly enjoyed. We were near completion of our new home which has kept us busy for the past year. Howard was so proud of his accomplishments. Remember to live each day to the fullest.Howard was always doing something he enjoyed, from racing cars to fixing them, riding his dirtbike or watching his son, Danny race, watching his little girl, Kelly turn into a beautiful teen and teasing her about boys. Life will no longer be the same but Howard has instilled his strength in all of us so we will continue to grow as a family in his honor. Remember the happy times and God Bless. Love, Terry
Susan Harnett
April 4, 2004
I would like to send my condolences to Howard's family. I went to Overlea High School with Howard, and still live in the neighborhood. I saw his death notice on the sign at the old Triangle store on Kenwood ave. I have fond memories of Howard, and I am sad to hear of his death.
Susan (Mangano) Harnett
Donna, Barbara & Elliott Miller
March 28, 2004
Terry, Danny, Kelly (& Scruffy) - Our thoughts and prayers are with you during this time of great sorrow. Tragedies like this make us realize how fragile life is and how we should appreciate and cherish each moment we have.
Diane Baird
March 27, 2004
Dear Terry, Danny, Kelly and Family,
I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers,and that if you need anything I am here for you.
all of my love.
Diane
Robert and Tina Armijo
March 26, 2004
Dear Terry, Danny,Kelly and Family,
We were so sorry to hear of the loss of Howard. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your children.
God Bless
Monica Alston
March 25, 2004
To Terry, Danny, Kelly, and Family
You're all in my thoughts and prayers and remember that if there's anything I can do, please don't hesitate to call.
Nichole Roth
March 25, 2004
Terry, Kelly & Danny,
I am very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and my prayers.
John & Julie Strebe & Family
March 25, 2004
Please accept our deepest sympathies of the sudden loss of Howard. Don't hesitate to let us know if there is anything we can do for you all. We will keep all of you in our thoughts and prayers.
Susan Sweeney
March 25, 2004
Dear Terry, Danny & Kelly,
We are so sorry to hear about your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Howard was a wonderful person and a good friend, everyone will miss him. We feel lucky to have known him. If there is anything that we can do for you just let us know.
Howard,
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you didn't go alone
For part of us went with you the day God called you home
The Sweeney Family
JOHN KNOERLEIN
March 24, 2004
MY WIFE & I OFFER OUR DEEPEST SYMPATHY. HOWARD WAS A CO. WORKER & A FRIEND. FOR AWHILE HOWARD & I BECAME CLOSE SHARING THE SAME TASTE IN MUSIC & CARS. I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR OF HIS PASSING. OUR PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU - JOHN (THE NORT) KNOERLEIN.
Tammy Hammacher
March 23, 2004
Terry,
I am so sad for you Danny and Kelly. Please know that I'm thinking of you. You know my# and where I live so please don't hesitate to stop by on a whim or call no matter what the time when you just need someone to talk to. I can't even begin to imagine what you must be feeling....I am so sorry for your loss.
Ritch & Tammy Newbold
March 23, 2004
Dear Terry, Danny, Kelly, & Family --
You have our deepest sympathy and remain in our thoughts and prayers.
Kevin,Travers,Reagan O'Leary
March 23, 2004
To the Jones'....We mourn your loss of Howard and pray that you and your family will be taken care of...God Bless!
Tom & Karen Horseman & Family
March 23, 2004
Terry, Danny & Kelly,
Words cannot begin to express how deeply sadden we are at the sudden loss of Howard. He was such a wonderful person & friend and we will miss him very much. We have such great memories of him and all of you...
Always know that we are here for each one of you. Whatever we can do, or if you just need a friend to talk to... don't hesitate to call us.
Howard... You were such a great person, father and husband and we were blessed to call you friend. You will forever live on in our hearts and memories. Rest in Peace Big Guy... we're gonna miss you.
Dianne Sheckells-Dotter
March 23, 2004
I worked with Howard years ago at Precision Tune and he was so fun to work with, he would have me laughing the whole day! My heart goes out to his wife and children, family and friends, my deepest sympathy to you all.
James Stein
March 23, 2004
I just wanted you to know how much I really appreciated the person Howard was. Howard really helped me get through the questions and answers of being a motocross father. He was a wonderful person and will be missed very much by my son #177, and myself.
Hank Green
March 23, 2004
Wow, what can I say. I was totally shocked to hear of Howard's death. Howard and I were VERY close in the 80s, introduced him to his wonderful wife Terry and shared may hours working on cars and motorcycles. Though the years had drawn us apart, I always looked back at that time very fondly. I sit here now thinking of those times, a smile comes to my face then tears knowing Howard is gone.
Terry I'm very sorry for your loss and deeply saddened that I can not be there in this most grievous time for you and your family.
Love
Hank and Carolyn Green
Sebastian, FL
Catrina Miller
March 23, 2004
Dear Mrs Jones and Family
My husband and I wanted to send our prayers to your family.We only met your family a few times , but I felt as if I knew you very well after all
your kindness during the move. If there is anything we can do please let us know.
Bryan and Catrina Miller
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