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Memories and Condolences
for Chad Ayers
September 20, 2009
My most beloved Grandson, I love you and miss you with all of my heart and think of you eveyday. Yesterday was a year since you were taken from us..your mom had a rememberance get to gether for you. Everyone that came had wonderful memories of you and sorrow that you are not here with us...that was the only thing wrong with the party....you were not there with us. You will always be in our hearts and will be remembered with the greatest love of all...you were the most
precious person in your Moms' and your Grandmommies' hearts and always will be, we will love and think about you all the days of our lives.
Your most loving,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
September 9, 2009
My Chaddy, I miss you so much, I think of you everyday and always will. You were our most tresured person in the world to us...God!!! I miss you and will all the days of my life. It is almost a year since you were here with us, in a way it seems like yesterday, and in another way it seems like it has been forever since we looked at you and talked to you and put our arms around you...I pray I get to see my most beloved boy again.....time does not heal all wounds..time just takes a little bit of the edge off. We will never forget you sweetheart or miss seeing you.
I will love you always Chaddy boy.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
August 24, 2009
My beautiful brown eyed boy, I miss you with every beat of my heart and I always will.
Loving you forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
August 19, 2009
My sweet boy, today is 11 months since the day you were taken from us, 11 months of pure heartbreak, I do not know how we have made it this far. I see a young man and I think of you, I hear a certain song and I think of you. I see all of the years you were with us and everyday that you have been gone. I have a big hole in my heart and in know way has it begun to heal. I am trying to fuction and live my life but I am so sad. You were such a beautiful loving Grandson, you were and always will be my baby....I remember when you looked at me with a big smile on your face and said " Ha! I am still the baby" I will never forget those words....
Loving you always,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
August 10, 2009
Chaddy boy,my special special boy, I am so broken hearted that you are not on this earth with us, I will love and miss you forever. I will always see your smile, hear your voice, remember your beautiful face and the wonderful eccence of you...you my beloved Grandson.
Your Loving Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXO
August 2, 2009
My Sweet Boy, yesterday was a hard day for me, it was my birthday. It is not fair that I have a birthday and you don't...me so old and you so young. I should have been an old memory by the time you quit celebrating your birthday. I love you Haddy and you know Grandmommie would have took your place if I could have. I will miss you and love you all of my life.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
July 31, 2009
Chaddy boy, I love you and miss you every day...your Mom and I are living with a big hole in our hearts, and the hole will never heal, never. We know that we have to go on with our lives without you, but Buddy that is last thing we thought we would ever have to do. Your Mother tried to do everything she could to protect you and always did until the theif in the night stole you and then all we could do was cry, we have not stopped crying from the moment we found out we had lost you and we never will. Our love for you is forever. For a long time after you were gone I kept thinking there is a way to bargain you back to us...but there isn't, I kept thinking I would wake up and none of it be true, but it is...my beautiful baby boy how I wish you were here with us...even though I know you are not coming back I still want you to and I always will.
My only beloved Grandson, I love you with all of my being.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
July 26, 2009
My Baby, I miss you so much I can hardly stand it....I am so heartbroken I do not know what to do, my sweet boy, I keep asking why??????..that night did not help anybody..why??? I will never know, never.
All of my love forever Chaddy,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
July 22, 2009
Chaddy boy, I love you and miss you every day. I just had to tell you.
All my love,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
July 19, 2009
My beloved Chad, today is 10 months since you were lost to us, I have been thinking of you all day and about the day we found out you were gone from us..God in Heaven...the day we will always remember. Chaddy I have such wonderful memories of you that they just overwhelm me with joy and sorrow, God! I will always wish you were here with us...you had so much light around you...you my shining star and your shining big smile and your sparkling eyes, your love and kindness..Buddy you were the greatest in your Grandmommies heart and always will be.
See ya when the time is right..I pray.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
July 18, 2009
chad today has been a little hard, but everyday is struggle to do anything, Im tring to do better, I still wait for u to come home. And then in a couple of days i would say dawn Chad needs to come home to eat and take a shower, and then i seem to wake up and just cry... I miss u everyday even thougth i dont rite everyday. I Miss u So Much,,, Mom Loves u so much
July 17, 2009
Chaddy boy, I love and miss you everyday of my life...the pain does not go away with time, time only confirms that we have lost you, you our beloved child, our beautiful brown eyed boy, we will love you all of our lives and we will keep asking why? Why was our boy taken from us? We love him so much. I never let myself even go there about losing my beloved Grandson, and then one bad night we lost you and we have and been crying everyday since. The only joy we have found in life now is beautiful little Chyna girl. I put my arms around her sweet baby self and feel easing of my pain for you and I feel blessed. Nothing or nobody will ever take your place but we feel very blessed to be able to share in the love of Chyna girl. I know you would have loved Chyna, you would have decked her out with the best of everything because that is how you were....so loving and caring...nothing mean on your mind. You had all of the love anyone could ever hope for that is why you were so loving. We packed a lifetime of love into you baby boy and we are so thankful we got you to love and take care of for the time God let us have you...I pray God has his loving hand on you....I know he will take care of you until we get there....God please lay your hand on my little girl, she is grieving for her son so bad she can barely function....I know you have already touched her by letting her share in the love of Chyna girl...without that touch you gave her I really do not believe she could have survived the loss of her son. I can only pray I get to be with my baby boy again someday.
Loving you forever Chaddy boy,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
July 11, 2009
Chaddy boy, I love and miss you very much and always will.
Love forever.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
GINGER GARCIA
July 2, 2009
chad its mommy and i sorry for not riting for a while i have been so out of it, since i came home from Fla. I thank god for Pooh Pooh Platter, if she was not around i think i would be rite with u. I miss u so much, more then words can say. R headstone is at your gravesite and its very nice and the pic is nice to. Think some times i really dont want to be here on Earth, i want to be with u. and only u. You are my sunshine and my thunderstorm, I wish i couild see u one more time and just hung u and kiss u and tell u how much i love u, which u know who much i love u becuz i would tell u all the time. Everyday i would tell u. I miss u so much, I just dont understand Why? I might be smileing but inside im Crying, Im going to Fla. in Sept. for a couple of wks or a month. but whatever i do i think of u 24-7 and that will never change. It seems i like a dream and sleep and wake up and i looking for u and then im like danm his not here and just break down. i have short fuse and i think i need to let it loose and go from there. im short with everyone, China, i wiah u could of seen her growing she is 1 now and she is so loving and pretty, So is all of the other kids. Jess is doing ok and kids r doing really good. Nek is working 2jobs as u know. MOMMY LOVES SO MUCH AND I WILL SEE U SOON MY LOVING SON CHAD AYERS, PLEASE LOOK OVER ME. MUCH LOVE TO U OXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO HUGS YOUR LOVING MOTHER GINGER
kim grennell
June 28, 2009
Oh, Ginger and Pam--I would give anything to take this constant pain away from you! I try not to read these entries, but I can't turn my back on the agony you are felling, and I cry with you, and for you! I want to tell you the hurt will go away, but my Lisa has been gone for 27 years, and I feel the great gaping hole her loss left in my soul every day, so I can't tell you the pain will go away--it will deaden into a numbness someday, but the would will NEVER heal! All you can do is talk to God, ask Him to direct you in what He wants you to do. Be an Angel for Him on earth-give what you can to another brown-eyeed child who does not have anyone to love him the way you did Chad. Nurturing always helps me-weather it be helping a stray kitten, or giving a homeless person a dollar. Ginger, I am here for you-I can listen and cry with you. Your Chad is okay-I promise you he is with Jesus now, and in time Chad will be able to send you signs-now it may too soon, so do not fret-your boy is with you every day, watching you and feeling your pain he cannot take away. He has not left you! He just got home before you did! Ginger-you have to find some happiness-whatever it is-find it, so your boy can see you laughing again-he needs that, too! We know it will not mean you have forgotten your pain, just that you can put it down for a while. Chad has work to do in Heaven-beleive that one of the first souls up there to welcome him and teach him was Lisa's-he is in good hands! I love you, and I cannot find the right words to comfort you, and I just want you to know that Chad is okay! Now YOU have to be okay! -----kim grennell
June 26, 2009
Chaddy boy, just so you know, we all love and miss you with all of our hearts...God, I have wished a million times that terrible night did not happen, all I can do is cry. I know that all of the crying and wishing and praying will not bring you back, but I still want you back. I will never forget you Buddy and I will love you the rest of my life and more if there is more. God in Heaven please let Chad be alright, that is my main concern. If I just knew he was ok I would be ok, but I know in this life time I will just have to hope my boy is alright and you are looking out for him since we can not.
My beautiful brown eyed boy.
Loving you with all of my heart,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
June 23, 2009
Hadda Wadda, I just had to tell you I love you and miss you so much. I think of you before I close my eyes at night and when I open my eyes in the morning. I miss you so much I can hardly make it through the days, you are on my mind all of my waking hours. You were my main love, you were a double blessing, you were born on top of my beloved daughter. When I had my children all my love was concentrated on them and I thought I would never experience a greater love than what I had for them and then you came along...
my beloved baby boy. All I had to do with you was love you, your Mom was the one that went through all of the trials of rearing you...I had the icing on the cake and the ice cream too......Oh Chaddy I am grieving so much for you, but, you are worth every tear and more.
I will love you all the days of my life and pray I get to see my big brown eyed boy again someday.
Love Forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
June 18, 2009
Chaddy boy, Your Grandmommie misses you every day of my life and always will. I will never get over the loss of you, my only beloved Grandchild. You were such a joy to me, evry time I thought of you it would bring joy to my heart. Today is the anniversary of the last full day you were on this earth with us 9 months ago.....every day is so hurtful but the dates of everything that happened to you is 10 times more crushing to live through. Thursdays and Fridays will always be the most hurtful for me. God how I would love to put my arms around you and see your smile and hear "I love you Grandmommie" Chaddy, I could never have had a better Grandson than you, I loved you with all my heart and will for the rest of my life. I will always see your smile and remember your voice and see the sparkle in your eyes...I miss you so much Buddy. You were a wonderful gift from my daughter and God. You will be in my heart forever and I will think of you with love forever...I miss my baby boy so much. I have asked why ? so many times and I still do not have an answer..all I hear was God had a reason for taking you, it does not ease my pain. I pray that someday all will be revealed to me and I get to hold you again.
I love you Chaddy and hope I am with you again someday.
Love Forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
June 11, 2009
chad u can see that im in Fla, I miss u so much. Im going to move to fla. and i have no one here and i cant stand to be in columbus. Life will never been the same and i know that and i cant change that, thats so messed up. Everyone will pay for there sins. Yes im going to miss u so much, going to buy a house or a trailer i really dont know. My life has been tried up and down and there is no were to go. what can i do? Please let me know. Yes i tlk to your friends and they are ok. But Mommie is not. Thing r to fuzzy for me and i miss u so much.I love u chad Ayers oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Your loving Mother
May 31, 2009
Hey Chaddy, I love you and miss you very much, I sent you a shout out...but I guess it was too loud. We went on a march through your Hood on Saturday to support the youth in your Hood to put down their guns....there was alot of loving people there to support this cause. The children from a school, I can not remember what the name was...you would know, they made up posters with the names of people that have been lost,your name was on 3 that I saw. I pray that some of the boys who saw everyone out walking the streets concerned about them will take notice and walk the high road. God, I miss you Haddy boy and will forever...I pray you are alright and I get to see you again someday.
All of my love forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
May 28, 2009
chsd, to day is a long day me and grandmommie are going to fla for a couple of weeks. maybe that will help. i found that gift card that i was looking for, and i sd show me a sign and u did and now i know u r ok. i looked for that gift card for a yr. and i found it. Or maybe C-Low had it and put it on his dresser? I dont know but i found it.... I love u chad and i never forge u.
ginger ayers
May 24, 2009
chad my loving son, Saturday your peps had a big cook out for u and they cooked and everyone had a good time me i just could not get in to it, My god i miss u so much. Im going to our grave site, I need to cry and let it out. Your head stone will be there as soon as our pics are ready. This Summmer is going to be so bad.. I miss u so much. I was asking C-Low why did they take u from us? I just cant belive that u r not here, Im still waiting on call or u walking in the door. I miss doing your laundry, your clothes are still been unwashed, I just cant do that. I miss u everyday and every waking day moring noon night. im just not happy any more, yeh i put on a happy face but im not alive anymore, they toke that away from me. My life has changed so much, I want to sit in a closet and just stay until i die. My heart is not pushing good its pushing sadness and anger, No one can help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.Chad i wish u would come and tell me that u are ok. or show me a sign. its only been 8months, but it seems like the day it happen....I know if u were here u would love poo-poo planter, I think she really save me for a couple of days, then i go back to deep deneil. Ive been crying all day. Im going to our grave site on monday. Moon and jaun are deeply missing u. i can see it in ther eyes and voices. I love you Son, Your loving Mother oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo I hope God is looking out for my boy, you were only 21
May 21, 2009
Hey Chaddy boy, your Grandmommie loves and misses you very much..a lot of sad things has happened in the family since you were taken from us, but nothing compares to the lose of you. You were the biggest star in the heavens to me and always will be. Time does not heal the wounds..it only dulls the ache a little.God...please help us, I miss him so much and I can see how dull the light in my Baby Girls eyes are, please, please help her a little more. Now I want to thank you God for giving us Chad to love for a little over 21 years, he was such a blessing to us and will always be our special boy. I want to thank you for giving us Chyna, also known in our world as Poo-Poo, and Asia for loving her child enough to share her with us and Chad for bringing them into our world. I really believe little Chyna Doll has helped keep my daughter going since she lost her beloved son. When I see Chyna I hold her and kiss her and just soak up the love of her which I know is the love of God. Thank you and please bless all of us.
I love you Chaddy boy and will forever.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
May 17, 2009
chad hi just going to write a couple of lines. Just to tell u that i love you very much Love mom
May 11, 2009
Chaddy boy, yesterday was Mothers day, your poor Mother was like a zombie, just going through the motions of life because you are not here with her. We love and miss you so much my sweet baby boy, our lives are changed forever. I remember when I was so scaird that I was sick, the reason I was so scaird was because I did not want to leave my beloved Grandson...now my beloved Grandson is the one that is gone....if I had only known what was in the future I would have begged God to take me and leave you for a long life.I did not want to leave you and then...you were taken from us by a theif in the night. Now we are just making it through each day, loving, missing and crying for our baby.
Chaddy boy now that you are gone, I have no fear of death because now I feel in death I will get to see you again. I know I have to live the life that was planned for me, I do not want to interfere with Gods' plans and I can only pray that God has it all setup for us to be together again someday. There is like a big sad blanket been thrown over us and we can not get it off...the sad blanket is the lose of you. We planted flowers yesterday, but nobodys heart was into it, life just ain't the same without you Buddy and never will be. It has been almost 8 months since you were taken from us and the pain just keeps getting stronger. We have some BAD bridges we are going to have to cross, and I will be there with your Mom every step of the way....if God lets me. Seeing the hurt on your Mothers face could almost make the thief in the night stop for a moment to see the pain he had caused. No matter what happens after we cross all of the bridges that are set up for us, nothing will ever stop the hurt in our hearts over losing you. We are still living and breathing and going through all of the motions of life with broken hearts. Oh Chaddy, I wish we could flip flop our places...it just ain't right for a Grandmother to outlive her Granchild...I should have just been a long ago memory by the time for you to go. I would give anything to turn back time...to see your beautiful smile and the joyful smile on your Mothers face as she looked at you. You were one special person Chaddy and many, many people love and miss you very much. Our lives have changed forever, and not for the good. We will miss you all the days of our lives and pray to God we get to hook up again someday.
Loving you always,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
May 8, 2009
chad thIS is your mom and im sorry for not writing u in a couple of days, ive been on whole another level. The pics well be done in about 4wks, pic on the headstone, its really nice, damn boy i miss u so much. This summer is going to be so hard. Here lately its been raining and cloudy. Going to your Grandmommies house and plant flowers that WE us was surpose to do. Life so lonely without u. Everything has changed and i dont like it, U are surpose to be here with us and do right.... LOVE U CHAD AYERS, MY SON LOVE MOM
May 4, 2009
My sweet baby boy, I miss you so bad I can hardly stand it, I can't think. I know people are getting upset with me because I ask the same questions over and over and I still don't get it...my mind just drifts off thinking about the BAD night....God, I have been begging for your help for me and my little girl, please, please help us, I know You can see and feel the pain we are in...I know You are busy. There are so many people hurt everyday just like us...I ask You to wave your hand over all of us who are broken hearted and give us some relief.
Someday I will know the secret...whatever it may be.
Chaddy boy, my seet baby, your Grandmommie thinks about you with love and a brokenheart everyday and always will, I pray I get to see you again someday.
Forever your,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
April 30, 2009
chaddy whaddy this your mom, thing are not going good for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im going to see a father from Holy Name Church, and talk to him and see if he can put some light on this. Becoz i really dont know whats going on. My mine is running 24-7 and it does not stop. I miss u so much and i really cant stand being here. This world is not a nice place to be. Life has changed so much, and its not fair. Im sorry that i havent rote to u, ive been in the dumps, I got a mothers ring w\ your stone, i having it made and well not take off, just like the other one, dang chad why???????/???. this summer is going to hard, i dont go to the hood. I hate the hood. Becuz your not there, im Used to seeing u there and u r not there, The hood has changed alot. Its so lonely and sad. I love u son always and forever and that will never change. I think of u in the moring and the time i go to bed. God i miss u so much. WHAT IS IM GOING TO DO WITH OUT U?????????????????????????????///// WHAT? One day well be together and well laugh and tell joke and hung eachother and U well give your mommy a Kiss, U always did even in front of your friends and did not care Cus your Loved me..... Chad Love you and you be good boy and i will see ya soon Love Mom
April 29, 2009
My special baby boy, I miss you every day and wish and wish that terrible night never happened, but every morning when I wake up it rushes back on me and the awful truth of you not being here with us anymore,not able to look at your beautiful smiling face and hearing your sweet voice. My only Grandson, I will never forget you or all of the wonderful times we had together, nothing can ever take my memories of you away from me, God took you for a reson that will never be revealed to me but he let me keep the memories. I love you Haddy, no amount of time will ever erase the loving feelings I have had for you since the day you were born. I have been a very lucky woman to have a child on top of a child and even though you are gone I have had the experience of a lifetime because I got you. I believe your spirit is with me all of the time, you are a part of me...I just wish you were here with us to touch, to hold, to smell, to talk to. Chaddy you always have been and always will be our baby.
All my love forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
April 27, 2009
My Chaddy boy, I love and miss you so much, how I wish everyday that you were here with us....all I can do is cry, my heart is broken.
Love always,
Your Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
April 24, 2009
Hey my sweet baby boy, your Grandmommie misses you so much, I can hardly wait to hold you again sometime...please God let it be true, let me see my boy again. Chaddy I am trying to live Gods' will, whatever it may be...but I miss you so bad. I do know that we have to live the life we are given and cross the bridges that God has setup for us, it is said he does not give us more than we can bear...I am still alive and crying everyday...this is part of Gods' will for me...it hurts so bad. Please, please help me and my beautiful little girl, she has been so hurt, her only beloved son that she took such good care of from the moment he was born. Dear God please put your arms around us and help us, please give us some comfort, we miss our Chaddy boy 24-7. We know we will never get over the lose of Chad but we would be so grateful if you would help us...all we need is just a little of your great power to help ease our pain.
I love you Haddy Waddy and will for all of my life.
Forever yours,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
April 22, 2009
chaddy 2today is my 3yrs annv. w\C-Low and its not the same, u would be going out to dinner w\us and now your not. I miss u so much. I went and got some plants for C-Low,some veggie plants, u know he likes to plant his veggies. I was looking for a ring and nothing spoke to me. Jelly is laying in your bed. God i miss u so much. Wish u were here. Love u so much mom oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxx
April 22, 2009
Chaddy boy, I love you and miss you so much. Yesterday I went to your Moms house and I saw the picture she is going to have put on your headstone and I have been crying every since... it is such a beautiful picture of you and very recent. The picture of you was taken sometime after your 21th birthday, just a very few months before you were taken from us. The clothes you had on was the outfit you and I shopped for, for your birthday. God! that was such a wonderful day. We went out to eat and then we went to Devores to get you a new outfit. You were hooked up from the top of your head to the bottom of your feet and you were just a smilin all day..you know how much your Grandmommie loved you...I never hid my feelings for you,you did not hide yours for me. The picture captured your beautiful brown eyes and your big beautiful smile, it is the perfect picture of how handsome you were. I never dreamed the day we were picking out your outfit that it would end up on your headstone, I am so heartbroken I just do not know what to do. I keep calling out to God to please help me,please and I think some days he does help me and then at other times I feel so alone that all I can do is cry. So young and full of life, and then one ugly night you are taken from us...we were taken that night to cry the rest of our lives over the lose of you. I will never ever forget my sweet baby boy and I pray with all of my heart that you are ok and I get to see you again someday.
Love Forever,
Your Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
April 18, 2009
hey haddy whaddy this your mother and i was going to rite u few lines and to tell u that i love every much. Today i is warm day, but i just stayed in the bed and watched t.v. and thats about it. Its going to rain for the next couple of days. That sucks.. Imiss u chad so much, and wish u were here.Im tring to deal with this but its so hard. Some days are better then others. Well my wonderfull son I Love You With All Of Heart and Soul. Love Mom
April 18, 2009
Chaddy boy, today is the 18th of the month, the last full day of your life, it always kills me. I called you that day and left a message and told you I love you and call me back when you got the chance...Thursday, your last full day of life, Friday the day we find out you have been taken from us and Wednesday the day we laid you to rest and then the other 4 days of the week are more crying days because you are not with us anymore. God, please help us,we are suffering so bad not having Chaddy boy with us..please please help us. Everyday I think of you as soon as I open my eyes...I cry my heart out and I am so sad I can barely make it through the day...I miss my baby boy. My life has changed so much, I can hardly find any joy in living, I just want my boy here to hold and love. Tomorrow is 7 months since that horrible night the thief in the night took our baby boy, it will always be a date I will always remember with hurt in my heart.
I love you and miss you with all my heart Chaddy boy and I always will.
Forever your,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
April 16, 2009
Chaddy boy,I miss you so much, I can not quit crying, I think of you all of my waking hours...I love you, I want you here where you belong. Why are we born, just to die????? It makes no sense. Chaddy boy I would do anything in my power to bring you back or better yet, that night never to have happened...but I can do nothing but cry. I have no power. I always tried to fix things as they got in the way of one of my children, but Buddy, your Grandmommie can not help you, I am so sorry. I can only pray that you are somewhere and I get to see you again, I miss you so much.
I pray that God helps your Mom, she is so sad, and I am afraid. God, please please help my little girl, please put your arms around her and set her mind at ease, I am really afraid for her. Please let her know in someway that her Son is alright. I know you sent her poo-poo, but her little feet do not fit Chads shoes. Please, please help our family.
My baby boy, I will always love you...you my only blessed Grandchild, my little girls only child.
I will always love and miss you Chaddy boy.
Forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
April 14, 2009
chaddy, 2day its raining and its a sad day, I wish the sun was out but its just clouds. People dont understand what i been though, they think well just get over it and i cant just get over it, you were my vein to happyness, my life line to be happy and now im not happy, that vein has broken and i lost u. I love u chad and that well never change. together 4ever, love mom
April 13, 2009
Chaddy boy, I miss you and love you and cry everyday for what happened to you...so young and beautiful with a whole lifetime to love and live and make so many people happy. I can't function, I walk around the house and start to do something then I lose my focus, I look outside and all I can do is look for you and say why? Chaddy what a blessing we got when we got you, but losing you hurts almost more than we can bear. The way we lost you is a nightmare that will go on and on, it could be 2 or 3 years before anything is resolved and still it won't bring you back to us, nothing ever will, and that is why we can not quit crying...if crying and pleading and promising would bring you back you would be with us now. Everytime I picture your face, I see your sparking brown eyes and your big beautiful loving smile. God, you were just packed full of love, life was such a lark for you, nothing and nobody could take the joy you had for life. I miss you so much Sweetheart and I always will, you are and always will be my beautiful Haddy Waddy. God I hope you are ok, I worry and wonder all of the time if you are alright, if I just knew that you were ok then I would be ok. My life feels so empty,I feel like I am losing my lifeforce, I am trying to find joy in my life and I am hopeing in time I can accept your passing and move on to the day I get to see you again if that is the way it is supposed to be.
Thinking and loving you every moment of the day.
Forever your,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
April 12, 2009
chad today is bunny day and i miss u so much. i would be cooken and waiting for u to come home to eat. nek nek is comin over to show me annabannas new outfit and take some pictures of her. Shes growing so fast and jess kids to. God do i miss u. We are going to cindys house to eat dinner. and then go home and go to bed. Life reallys sucks that u are not here, I miss You Son Love mom
April 11, 2009
Chaddy boy, just wanted to let you know "you'll always be my baby"
Love forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
April 10, 2009
Chad this mom and i crying for u all day. 2day was a bad one, My thoughts kepts running throw about you and the thing we all done. I seem like i have no get up and go feeling. Its like looking out the window and there nothing. Chad i tring to move on but i cant and i know i have to. It was to soon for my son to go. I had to rite or i was going to scream. I miss u Chad, its not fair, not fair.there some things i understand and this is one of them that i dont understand. It well all work out.......... Love You Chad MOM
April 9, 2009
My sweet Chaddy boy, yesterday was a very hard day for me and your Mom. We went and picked out a headstone for you....man!!!! it really brought it home to us again the reality of not seeing you anymore here on earth. Your Mom is having a picture made of you two together to put on your stone as she will be on your gravesite with you when her time of passing comes. I feel so much better that you are buried where you are and that your Mother will be there too, just as she has always been with you. You are so missed....you are in your Grandmommies' thoughts and in my heart every moment of the day as you have been from the moment I laid eyes on you. You are a part of me my sweet baby boy. I told your Mom after we left from hooking up your stone, that we will have many more bridges to cross before our nightmare will begin to heal a little. I hope I get to see my big brown eyed boy again someday...big sparkling eyes and a beautiful smile on your face and a great big hug from the most wonderful Grandson anyone could ever hope to have.
Your Grandmommie loves and misses you with all of my heart and would give anything in the world to be with you again.
Love forever, XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
April 8, 2009
Chaddy boy, I miss you so much my sweet wonderful boy. Your Mom and I are working on a plan so we can all rest together for eternity. I told you that you were buried in a nest of family members, we are working on a plan so your Mom can rest on you and I will rest on my Dad...I have not talked to your uncle Donnie yet but I am working on a spot for him if he wants it, I hope he does, it will really make me feel better to know my children are close to me. My beautiful baby boy, I have prayed and prayed for God to take back that night and just make it all a bad dream, but I keep waking up every morning and know that it was all true...I love you my sweet boy and still am praying to hold you again someday.
Love forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
April 7, 2009
Chad,there are so many days I come here just to be close to you. Your mom and grandmommie love you so much. You were taken away too soon. I know I did not keep in touch as I should have and you do not know the guilt I feel for not being there as I said I always would. I hope you do not find it disrespectful of me to write to you now but I do not know what else to do. I think of you every day and realize how fortunate I am to be. I am finding it hard to even except any of this. I love you and my heart is hurting man. I can not stop the tears and I feel like some days what right do I have, but man, I love you, I love you, I love you! Watch over your peeps because you were loved more then you could ever imagine. I will come see you when I am in town, that is a promise!
Love Felicia
ginger sanchez
April 7, 2009
Chad riting to tell You that I Love You, and i miss you so madly. I think im going to go to bed. today has been a long one, I miss you son, loveing you 24hrs a day. Love Mom oxoxoxoxoxo
April 7, 2009
Chaddy boy, your Grandmommie loves you and misses you with all my heart and soul, I pray I get to hold and hug you again someday.
All my love always,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
April 6, 2009
Chad this your mom and i was thing about u, well i think of you everyday and night, i just put dinner in the oven, I wear your ring everyday and i dont take it off only to clean it, I Love Son. Im going Weds to pay for your head stone, hopefully it will be there before May or on May.I miss u so bad. It just seems so differnet that u not here. It seems like a bad dream, and u r going to walk in the door and say whats for dinner.My heart aches for u. Soon i will be with u and are soul will be together again, just like the rest of the family and friends that we have. Jaun came by the house yesterday to check on me.I feel so alone,Its not the same, and guess it will never be. C-Low has been my rock, becuz ive been manic and he seems to take it and understand, Thank God. Asia has a tattoo on her wraist with your name and heart. I just started to cry, all your friends have tattoo with your name on them and so do I, and going to get one more with your name and maybe grandmommie will to. I Miss u Son. Mom Loves U so much oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxo
April 6, 2009
Chaddy boy, I love you,and I agree with your Mom.....it still seems like we just lost you, I cry everyday. I know crying won't bring you back but I still want you back. From so many things I have seen since you died it takes 2 or 3 years for things to go to court and I can see why......time will give family members more time to get used to their loved one not being here on earth anymore. I will miss you everyday of my life my sweet baby boy....I still don't understand why God would give you someone to dearly love and then let them be taken from you...it does not make any since to me how this could be the love of God....unless there really is a Heaven.
Aways your loving,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
April 3, 2009
haddy i was telling u about the new head stone and i can be with u when i die too we can be togther 4ever. and maybe r souls will come together again. I miss u so much.The POMC's say u never get over your LOVED one, but time will heal a bit,Its only been 7months, and its seems like it happen today, i missing u so much. Jess found a new place to live on 17th. Nek is doing good so got a job and going to school, she called me this moring, I had to raise some cane becuz i havent seen or heard from her since your b-day, I told to bring over my anna bannana. I cleaned the front of the house with all the leaves and u can see new flowers comin up and new tulips that are bloomin. your room is still the same with your fav blanket on it and your pillows, and some of my stuff to. Life is so short and i see that now and im going to live it to the max. I told u send me sign on what color u want your room, you havent so any color? I Love You SON MY HADDY WHADDY. LOVE MOM OXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
ginger sanchez
April 2, 2009
chad we picked out a sharp head stone for u. It should be there by May.
With your picture and everything, its black and gray. Well son i just wanted to let u know. mom loves u so much oxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo4ever
April 2, 2009
My Chaddy boy, Grandmommie here to let you know you are very much loved and missed by all who knew you. I am sliding by to see you today and have a little chat with you. I do not know what it is like where you are but I sure hope it is like Heaven....I pray it is true. Loving you as always,
Your Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
March 31, 2009
Chaddy boy, you will always be my baby, I miss you with all of my heart. It has been over 6 months since that terrible night you were taken from us, I really do not know how we have lived through the loss of our baby boy, our precious Chaddy boy. I know I will never see you again on this earth, but I still want to more than anything on this earth. I pray that God will give your Mother some relief from the pain she is in every second of the day, she is shrinking away and scares me to death....God, if you had taken me my sweet children would be here enjoying their lives. You have given me many great years, but taking my boy has cut me to the heart, and my poor baby girl is so broken she will never mend again. I know people say "don't question God" we are His to do with us as he sees the need...but God it hurts so bad. Please, please give us some relief from the pain we are in and I know you are taking good care of our boy. He was a gift from you that you let us love and care for, we are so sorry we did not get to keep him for our lifetime.
Oh how I wish we could turn back the hand of time so we could have saved our boy from that terrible night. Your Grandmommie would have stood tall with arms wide open and said thank you for taking me instead of my sweet baby boy. You were always a good, sweet loving child, I will remember you with love for the rest of my life and after if after comes down.
Loving and thinking of you everyday,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
March 29, 2009
chad its mommy and i just woke up and i was thinking about u. U are always on my mind, they toke u away from me. I know life has to go on but its so hard, I just want to stay home and thats it. I dont want to nothing. My mind and body is shouting down. I miss u so badly. Im going to get your head stone this week, will pick it out, i know u like black and gray. so thats what its going to be. I always hear from your friends, they call and to make sure that im ok, i say its ok , but really its not. I told u to send me a sign about what color u want for your room, so whats up? Chad i love u and always will that will never change never.. Mom loves you so deeply.oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Felicia Brooks
March 28, 2009
Chad,
I am so sorry I was not able to see you more. I just talked to your mom and all I can say is even though I am far away I will always keep your mom in my thoughts and heart. You too Chad I miss you and have always thought of you often even though I did not see you. All of your family because they always welcomed me and treated me as part of the family. I wish I could be there for your mom and granny but I will defintely keep everyone in my prayers. I was just looking at the Pittsburgh Steelers Ball cap you had made for me for my Birthday...it has always been very special to me and will always remain. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life I miss you man! Love you forever Chad!
Felicia
March 27, 2009
Chaddy boy, another day of missing you. I have tried to ask God WHY????? He hasn't told me, I hope he has told you and you are at peace. I wish he would help me and your Mother. Losing you seems to have taken all the joy out of my life, but I do know there is still alot of joy left...I thankfully still have two healthy children that love me very much, I have a good healthy Husband and so far I have my health...I know Chaddy boy that you always wanted the best for all of us, just as we did for you. I have had people say to me "have you had any closure?" Closure is not part of the formula, that will never happen. Pain?, yes, I cry my heart out every day but slowly I am starting to accept not seeing you again on this earth, but am praying I get to see you some day when it is my turn to go. I will always love you and miss you my wonderful brown eyed boy.
Forever your,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
March 27, 2009
chaddy i up late i cant sleep.All i do is think about u. Im washing clothes and carlos is IN THE bed. I miss u so much, I just dont understand, about alot of stuff, but light well shine and let me know, Im going to paint your room and maybe u can send me sign on what color u would like.Its pretty late and better hit the hay, I LOVE U CHAD ALEXENDER AYERS oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo LOVE MOM
March 25, 2009
My baby boy, I love you and miss you so much, not a single day gos by without me thinking and missing you. Oh my sweet boy you had many many years you could have lived and made so many people happy. You were our future, we planned on getting some more love out of you with the children you may have had one day. I thank God for such a wonderful Grandson, you treated me like I was made of gold, always loving and smiling at me, we never had any harsh words to each other.....if I thought things were going wrong I would tell you about it...but I told you about it with love in my voice and heart. I will love you and be thinking about you all of my life and pray I get to put my arms around you again some day.
All of my love forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
March 24, 2009
hi chaddy i jusr got back from fla. and had a great time was drinking Patron,even yur grandmommie was to, Lisa loves the stuff.your cuz. i love u my sweet boy, i rite later oxoxoxoxoxoxlove momoxoxoxoxoxo
ginger ayers
March 11, 2009
Hi chaddy mommy going to fla 2morrow, i wish u was going to it would be so nice, i feel that im leaving u behind and i dont feel right, but i know that you would tell me to go and have a good time. I Love Chad Ayers with all my heart and soul. U are inside of me and well never go away. i have to pack some clothes,and go to moms house in the moring. I will rite u from fla... on someones computer...... i love u so much chaddy so much love mom oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoforever
March 11, 2009
Chaddy boy, I miss you so much...my joy is gone. Another day without you, it is absolutely breaking my heart..I love you Buddy. The loss of you has taken all of our joy out of life, so we just get up another day and cry all day over missing you and the horrible way you were taken from us. It just isn't right to lose a Son and Grandson.....we should all be long gone and waiting for you to join us. You were maturing into such a fine young man, we can only speculate what you would have done with your life. You had the best leadership a boy could get, you had your Grandfather, Sonny Washington to help guide and love you, you were his very special boy. I will always love Sonny for looking out for you and I know he is looking out for you today. I keep crying and worrying about you because I miss you so much and the unfairness of you not getting the chance to live a long full life. If there is some kind of life after death I know you are in the best of care. You are buried in a nest of family members and have many dear family members that went before you and I know if there is a place we go to you are just as well loved where you are as you were here on earth.....God in Heaven please let Chaddy boy be ok and please please help us deal with our sadness and pain. Chaddy, it will be awhile before I can write you again but you can believe I will be thinking of you everyday and loving you with all of my being.
Love Forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
March 9, 2009
chad my love of my life.We partyed this weekend for your b-day and i smiled so much it was so great, becoz i havent smiled in months, I Love U Chad. I have all the flowers that your peps left at your grave on your b-day day. and it is on your bed. Chad i have pictures of all of your friends and mines too, alll of my boys were there at jeffsWe had foood and drinks, i love u so much. i miss u so much, it was always you and me all the time and now its just me. i look outside and its getting warm and your not here, i just sleep alot, i trying to get up and move around and do things, but cant......Chad you have some Good Friends baby boy, I Love You Son love mommy
March 9, 2009
My most beloved Grandbaby boy, your Grandmommie misses you with all my heart, time is not helping me heal over the loss of you. I am so sad and broken hearted that you are not here enjoying the life you were given. You were so cruelly taken from us......the thief in the night. My sweet baby boy,every time I thought about you during your life it always brought a warm wonderful feeling over me, now all I can do is cry cry cry.You were such a joy to me, you were so good to me, with your big smile and sparking brown eyes. Everyday since you were born I would say how is my boy? As long as I could hear that you were ok then I was ok......I will never be ok again, at least not on this earth. I can only pray to see you again when I die, which I pray to God comes true. A Grandchild is a special blessing from God which I am very very thankful for and I must have faith that the most powerful has a reason for taking our boy from us.
I love you Chaddy boy and will miss you for the rest of my life.
Love Forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
March 4, 2009
Chaddy boy, I miss you.....I love you so much, I just want to hold you and smell you and kiss you and let you know you will always be my boy. You were the only grandchild I was blessed with and I cherished the blessing I was given. Nothing that happens later down the road will make up for or relieve the pain of not having my beloved baby boy here on this earth with us. I miss you Haddy. Yesterday was your birthday, the first birthday that you were not here with us. I saw some of your friends yesterday at the cemetary, more were coming later, they are having a party this weekend to celebrate your life. All of them that I talked to love and miss you very much and want the same thing as I do.......that you were not where you were on that horrible night..God! I wish I could change things, but I can't, I have to live the rest of my life without you. I pray you are alright...that is what is doing me in....I do not know if you are ok. I do know that someday I will find out what happened to you, all will be revealed when the time is right, until I get to see you again remember how much your Grandmommie loves you.
Forever XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
C-LOW sanchez
March 3, 2009
HI CHAD HAPPY BIRTHDAY FROM C-LOW WHO MISSES U TO MUCH. THIS IS THE FIRST BIRTHDAY THAT YOUR NOT HERE IN LIFE, YOUR ON MY MIND ALL THE TIME.MY FAMILY WISHES YOU WELL FROM MEXICO AND LOVES U TO EVEN THOUGHT THEY HAVENT MEET U.
ginger ayers
March 3, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SON..... I rember when u was born and your granndmomie was there when u came out of me it was so great feeling and a over joy when you were born, u was so beutiful and had a head full of black hair and such a goood boy when you was a baby. Today is the worst becuz today is your birth, this a special day, but a sad one, i love chad so very much it hurts my heart and soul that u are not here w\ us I LOVE U CHAD AYERS 4EVER LOVE MOMMY
March 3, 2009
My baby boy, today is your 22nd birthday...we had 21 wonderful years with you. Words can not express the deep love I have for you and how I wish that night did not happen...I have replayed it so many times and I still can play it differently each time...because I do not know what happened, all I do know is you are gone and we miss you with all of our hearts. We will never forget you Buddy, you have always been the sun in the morning and the stars at night for us. God really made you special for us, he knew how much we loved and cared for you and we always will. I pray I see my most special baby boy again someday.
Love Forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXO
takeziana calhoun
March 3, 2009
Happy Best Day CHAD Im still upset although they say God doesnt make any mistakes.We all miss u and I come read ur book everyday and your Mom and Grandma Love you sooooooooo much.None of us can miss u the way they do.U were suposed to buy me my 1st drink since you were slightly older than me,well I dedicated my drink 2 u.Ms ginger and grandma Yall are in my prayers and I pray for the day things get easier for you both..Love always!!!!
ginger ayers
March 2, 2009
chad 2morrow is your b-day and im not looking forward to that at all.My God i miss u so much its killing me inside of me... love u forever
March 2, 2009
My Chaddy boy, I love you and I and miss you so much that all I can do is cry...that about says it all.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXO
March 1, 2009
My chaddy boy, I love you and miss you sooo much. Your birthday is coming up,such a blessed day. The day you were born changed all of our lives for the good, we had us a sweet baby boy to love and take care of. You were our main focus, every move we made was to insure that all was ok for our Haddy boy. You were and are very much loved, you had a short life but it was so packed full of love that it will last us a lifetime. Your friends plan to celebrate your birthday, they all love and miss you very much, you will never be forgotten. My big beautiful brown eyed boy, always a smile on your face, God in Heaven I miss you.
Life was a lark to you, you had such a sunny personality and never worried about anything bad could or would happen to you. I remember the day you were born, I was standing by the doctor when your Mom was giving birth to you and I saw all of that black hair and a couple of seconds later we found out we had a precious baby boy. You have a wonderful Mother, when you were born your Mom totally changed and was totally devoted to you, her beloved Son. Your Mom watched you like a Hawk, that is why I did not worry about you because you had her looking out for you...she was all over her boy and you know better than anyone what I am talking about. I know it bugged you sometimes that your Mom was "over-protective" of you, but you see your Mommie knew of the dangers on the street.
I love you baby and pray I get to be with you again someday.
Love forever,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
February 26, 2009
HI CHAD ITS GOING TO BE YOUR B-DAY IS COMING SOON AND IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT AT ALL. MOMMY LOVES U SO MUCH.
ginger sanchez
February 23, 2009
My beloved son, Mommy well never forget u never. I life has changed so much its unreal, I miss u everyday and not day goes bye that i dont think about u. I life is upside down wondering about u and if u are ok. Im going to cook dinner for C-Low and he misses u so much. He sd it does it seem rite that u are not here at the house or me calling u 24-7. Going to pomc, i cant stop crying for u. Mommy LOVES YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. OXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
February 23, 2009
Chaddy boy, I love you.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
February 20, 2009
Chaddy, I wrote you yesterday, but they did not print it, I guess it was another message that was for your ears only...I love you and miss you so much, everyday is just as bad as the day before. It is like a nightmare that I can not wake up from, cause when I am awake it still feels like a nightmare. Why were you taken from us???Why???? Your Grandmommie would give anything for you to be safe and at home with your Mom. You did not lack for love in your life. we told you everyday and in every way how wonderful we thought you were. I miss you so bad my sweet boy, life is not, and never will be the same. I have cried everyday since I heard the terrible words on 9/18/08, your Mothers voice on the phone telling me you were gone. God in Heaven how I wanted to and did deny what I heard, not my beloved Chaddy boy, please please no. But every day seals the deal, we know you are gone but we still keep trying to bargain and plead to have you back with us. Today is Friday, the day we found out about you, every Friday is an even deeper black cloud that hangs over me. Chaddy, if I could have done anything to save you I would have, but I did not get the chance, it was all a done deal before I even knew about it. My boy was just a happy go lucky boy, not afraid of anything or anybody, never even giving a thought that anything for real would happen to you and in happening to you happened to all that loved you. We were worried about you because you were so trusting, always telling us "ahh, I'm alright"
I love my sweet boy and always will.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
February 19, 2009
Chad to day was sad, i went to grave and to tell u that i loved u. and put your wreath, flowersup the wind blew them down. Im just sitting here thinking about u, well thats all the time, I LOVE U SON MOMMY OXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXO9-19-08
February 16, 2009
Haddy boy, I know you have heard it a million tmes....I love you with all of my heart and always will. As much as we want you back we also know it will never happen, we don't even know if we will get to see you again some day....but there is one thing I do know, is that I will never give up the hope of seeing you again....what I see is you walking to me with your arms wide open and a big smile on your face and you saying " Ahh Grandmommie, everything is alright".
I keep telling myself that it ain't over, there has to be more....too much effort was put into all of us and everything...it is a secret that is revealed to all after our spirit leaves its earthly form, until then we can each only speculate. I know that love is the best emotional feeling we experience and I am counting on that tie of love that holds our family together to help us all and for all of us to stay together forever no matter where we are. I love you my special boy and always will.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
February 13, 2009
I ran out of space to tell u that i love you very much MOMXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
February 13, 2009
Chaddy boy, I miss you so bad it takes my breathe away, I love you. Nobody knows the depth of pain at the loss of a child until it happens to them, I knew it had to be terrible so I never let myself go there....TERRRIBLE...does not cover it, everyday seems worse than the hell I went through the day before, I miss my Chaddy boy, life will never be the same. One thing about your death that has changed me, is that I am not afraid to die now. My most loved Grandbaby boy faced it, I can do it too no matter how it comes. My most precious boy was taken from us, stolen in the middle of the night. Don looked at me last night and said...Pam are you hurting? you are sitting there rocking back and forth...I said yes, every part of me is hurting over losing my boy. Sometimes I forget for a minute that you are gone and then it alllllll comes rushing back on me like an avalanche.
I feel so much pressure on my heart that I really believe it is breaking, and do not care if it is. I just want my baby back. I know I am asking for the unattainable...it just ain't gonna happen...but I do not know, that you may be sitting right here beside me now trying to give me comfort.
You are and always will be my boy.
Love Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
February 11, 2009
chad itS mommie and i wrote u earlier andTHE comptuer crashed. i know u loved your mother, jes gave me a CD and u listened to it all the time, Chad u know we always told each other that we loved each other all the time and i always kissed u when ever u left me....Its hard...... i miss u everyday and night, my heart is so black that i have no feeling for no one, my mind is with u all the time, i wish u would come in my dreams and tell me that u are ok...... Mommy is going to rite and rite until my finger Go numb.... your are my wonderfull little boy and always will be...I know life has to go on but how? soME days are better then others.God just seen me a sign, for my boy...MOMMY LOVES U WITH ALL HER HEART AND SOUL........OXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO LOVE U CHAD AYERS,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
February 11, 2009
Chaddy I just got up a little while ago and you have been on my mind as you have been everyday since 3/3/87, the day you were born...I love you my sweet boy and miss you so much. I hold pictures of you and talk to you,I cry, I kiss your sweet face, I will never never forget you...sooooo, where ever you are, just remember your Grandmommie loves you with every part of my being and pray for the day I get to see you again. I know you will give me a big hug, a kiss and a big beautiful smile and your big brown eyes will just be sparkling. I love you baby boy.
Always Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXO
February 9, 2009
My sweet loving Grandson, I miss you so much and I agree with your Mother, time is not healing the wound of losing you, Everyday I wake up I think about you and it about takes my breath away....it can not be true, but it is. The wonderful joy of birth, and the terrible anguish of death, my God how are we supposed to handle it? Why?????? There is no relief from the horror of your passing, I imagine it is even worse about you because you were so young and healthy and you did not leave us because you wanted to. We have a court case coming up...I do not want to go, but I will, your family will be there every time to represent you and to let all know that you are very much loved and missed. We really got blessed when we got you, I was so happy and proud to have you as my Grandson. I have thought about you everyday since you were born and will for the rest of my life, I want you back, I love you so much. God I wish you were here, my sweet baby boy.
With the greatest love always,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
February 6, 2009
hubba bubba yeah that was one of your nicknames, from locia and family. Chad i miss u so much time is not healing nothing, in fact its just as hard as it was when u pasted..Today its cold.. i talk to your buds all the time..Chad u were truly loved, truly truly loved, god has good plans for u, i hope i see them in my dreams and in real life. It seems like the time is standing still and But everyone is moving on. Me i cant move on, its seems like im standing still in the wind and everyone is moving. I know thing are not going to be the same, but i wish it was i wish i had i gennie in the bottle, and they would say u have 3wishes. 1 would be u come home.but all that is a dream. I can dream cant i. Mommy love so very much and i know u know that, We always told eachother that we loved each other all the time, in fact everyday, even if u made me mad or i made u mad. It didnt matter what,my love for you was forever and ever I love you son oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxooxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxooooooxxxxxoooxoxoxo your loving mother
ginger sanchez
February 3, 2009
my beloved son chad ayers. mommy is sitting here riting u and to tell u that i love u so much. Jess was here the other night and she was missing u so bad. Everyone is still wishing u were here. I was thinking chad what do i do now that u are gone from me. uknow i love so very much. your B-day is coming soon and i know how much u loved that. born 3-3-87 and pasted 9-18-08 21 years early for me......oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox I love u chad ayers,, Love Mommy
February 2, 2009
Chaddy boy, my pride and my joy...I love you and miss you so much. I think of you everyday and cry and smile and am sooo thankful I got to be your Grandmommie. God made you extra special, he knew you were the only one we were going to get and he was not going to leave you with us for as long as we wanted....
We packed alot of love into you for 21 years, not near enough time for us but we loved every moment we got and we feel so honored and blessed for the time we had and will relive the joy of you for the rest of our lives.
Your loving Grandmommie XOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
January 30, 2009
chad its your mom again and writin to tell u that i love and miss u. I just found your colonge that your grandmommy bought you and i put it on your dresser, just like everything else. We go to court again soon....Mommy Loves YOU
ginger ayers
January 29, 2009
ARON THANK YOU FOR YOUR SIGNING THE IN AND LETTIN ME KNOW THAT U STILL CARE ABOUT CHAD.... THANK YOU SO MUCH MS GINGER
January 29, 2009
Chaddy boy, I miss you so much. I have been pleading and screamimg and praying to God to flip flop us, you here and me there. But God don't play!!! Once you are with him he does not let go...I have replayed your last night so many times in my mind...today is Thursday, the last day of your life. I would be ok if I knew you were ok, but I will never know...that is what's driving me crazy. I want to put my arms around you, let you know how much you are loved, just soak you up so I will always have some of you with me all of the time. But I know you are with me all of the time, you were and are my flesh and blood, as long as I breathe, you breathe. as long as I live, you live. After I am gone you will still be alive in all of your blood family, we will alwyas love you. We loved you before you were born and we were so excited about you from the moment we laid eyes on you, all that black hair and beautiful brown skin....what a blessing for our family. We all loved you and was always concerned for your safety, you were taken from us by a thief in the night. I love you Haddy Waddy and will for all of my days.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
January 28, 2009
Chad today its snowing really hard, Mommy miss u everyday and night, I cant stop thinking about u,Life will never be the same and i dont know if i can i can deal with that.... My loving son. I wish u were here with me and thing would be normal... But there not, and i have to live with that... I love You Chad Ayers
January 26, 2009
My Chaddy boy, I love and miss you so much...they won't publish some of my entrys for you, I guess they are for your ears only. I love you so much, I never let myself to even think about life without you, my one and only precious grandchild. I have had the best that life has to offer, I have had my beautiful boy from my most beloved daughter.....I have had the greastest gift of all. I think of you the first in the morning and the last at night. We will love and miss you all of our days on earth with the hope of seeing my big brown eyed boy again. Soooo, don't go thinkin anybody has forgotten about you, that will never happen. You will always be alive in our hearts and mind and spirits.
Love to you forever Haddy,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
January 22, 2009
chad ive been riting u and they will not put any thing bad, but u now what yes im anger anger anger mad sad just tell u i love u and miss u so much, it hurts. i dont care what people say about anything, all i do is think about u 24-7, love u kissing u all the time your clothes i smell them and i can smell u. and i just cry, all your clothes and some of your hats are here at home, Were u should be.........oxoxoxoxoxoxo
January 20, 2009
Chaddy, I was thinking of you and wanted to let you know I love you.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
January 19, 2009
Chad i forgot to give u kiss oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooooooxxxxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Love mommy and I LOVE U
January 16, 2009
Chaddy boy, I miss you sooooo much I can hardly stand it, my heart is broken, all I can do is cry and scream WHY,WHY.WHY??? No begging, no promising, no nothing can bring you back, I miss my baby boy so much. I think of you as soon as I wake up in the morning until I close my eyes at night. I am now starting to have dreams, sometimes they wake me up and I have a heavy feeling of dread, , like you know, I do not want to remember what I dreamed because I am not going to like it. I did not see you everyday like I did when I lived in Columbus, which was one of the reasons I did not want to live out here, but I was ok as long as I knew you were ok....I will never be ok on this earth again because you are not here. Remember I hugged you and told you, "what happens to you, happens to me"?...all I can do is cry.They took my soul that night they took you from us, my beautiful loving Grandson, my life will never be the same.
I pray I get to be with you again someday.
Love all my life and after,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXO
ginger sanchez
January 14, 2009
Chad today its snowing alot maybe a little, Son u are on my mind 24-7,My head is like its going to brust from thinking of u and everything that is going on. Thank You Aron, I do think of the good times and i do smile. I think about all of us going swiming and you guys having sleep overs at your house and mine. Hubba Bubba was something, I mis u chad ayers oxoxoxoxoxoooxoxo Mommy. Mommy loves very much, and give me a kiss tonight becuse i give to u every night... Love you
Aron Bell
January 13, 2009
Chad you are truly missed although you were known to me as hubba bubba but you are truly missed each and everyday and i just want to let you know Ms.Ginger just think about the positives and what he did that made you smile and things may not be the same but they will be a whole lot better . much love i miss you hubba bubba
January 13, 2009
Chaddy, I feel so blessed that you were in my life for 21 years...you have brought me the greatest joy I ever experienced on this earth....my 1 and only most beloved grandson. Me as your Grandmother knows the deep love I had for you, you the only son of my most beloved only daughter. I am so thankful we had you, we cry for the love and loss of you. Nothing can ever take your memory from me, your pictures are all over the house as they were when you were alive. Every time I look at your face I send the power of love to you. You had a very loved life, many people will always remember you with a smile on their faces...I guess that sums up the effect you had on people on this earth...please to God someday I get to see you again.
Love all my life
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXO
January 11, 2009
Chaddy, just had to say I love you, I have been thinking of you since I got up this morning....as I do every morning...I love you.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXO
January 10, 2009
Chad, your Grandmomie is thinking of you and sending all the love in my power to you.
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXO
ginger ayers
January 9, 2009
Chad i wrote to u on 010609 and thy did not put it up, i miss u so much it hurts just like it happend today. The pain i have is over whemling, i cant sleep at night> I get early moring calls and im thinking its u and its not. Sometime i cant come in to your room cuz it hurts so bad, i have to look at the good time and not the bad one cuz the bad one count out to be the only good. I love you my beloved son,, Love mom oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox
January 1, 2009
Chaddy boy, today is the 1st day of the new year, the first year we will have to start without you. We will not see you this year but you will be in our hearts and our thoughts every moment of our lives, we will never forget you or anyone else ever take your place...there was only one Chad,special in every way.
Always your loving,
Grandmommie XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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