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Danielle
June 9, 2023
And even in the roughest times, once in a while, we find a blessing. Your spirit lives on and we feel you with us in everything we do. In life you blessed me with having you as a brother and in your passing I am blessed to share this day with you....forever.
Miss you!
Danielle
June 9, 2022
So it's 13 years today. Hard to believe that much time has gone by. Maybe because we feel your presence in everything we do & talk about you as if you were still here. The feeling of wishing you could physically be here doesn't go away. Noodle has moved mountains...how proud you must be! She has so much of you in who she is....she's the perfect mix of the two of you. Thank you for sharing this day with me....it means so much. There is no one else I'd want to share this day with- it's a true honor. Rest east and know we are always thinking of you. Love you Carm.
Carmine & James
danielle unger
June 8, 2019
Daddy and his Angel
danielle unger
June 8, 2019
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danielle unger
June 8, 2019
UPS!
danielle unger
June 8, 2019
danielle unger
June 8, 2019
Hi Carm,
So it's the eve of the 10 year anniversary of the worst day in our lives. To say you're missed would be an understatement. The feelings are as strong today as they were that day, and in the days, weeks and years that have followed. Not sure how you keep up with all of us talking to you daily, but somehow you do. We'll get together tomorrow and everyone will pretend to be happy and celebrate your life and my birthday at the same time... but truthfully, without you at the table, its just not something I can get used to. I would give just about anything to have that phone ring tomorrow and it be you on the other end, like it was for 21 years of my life. But here we are & the best I can do now is thank you for allowing me to share June 9th with you. It will forever be our day and it's an absolute honor to share the day with the greatest man I have ever known. You've left an incredible mark in this world and on our family .... we love you and we miss you.
Armand Gerardi
June 7, 2019
Ten years. Hard to believe. I think of him often lately. I lost my only sister when she was 43 when I was 45. Now that I am much older, I reflect on those that have passed more and more. I have been blessed being close to these people. Carmine is one of those people. He was like one of my brothers. He will always be remembered and talked about in my life then, now and always. Miss you buddy .
November 18, 2016
Carmine Mattioli. One of the greatest men I have ever had the honor to call my friend..Loyal to everyone and a true family man. Attributes rarely found in people today. A great human being that I had the honor to call friend. I have and will continue to miss you, buddy. In the words of Billy Joel; Only the good die young. See you again one day.
November 17, 2016
Happy 55th Birthday Dad. I miss you so much. I always wondered what you would look like with age.. I think about you often and what words of advice you would have for me if we could speak. But your love keeps me going.. I never pictured life without you, but here I am. When people who knew you speak of you I listen, in hopes that the memories will ease my mind. But honestly it's never easy. It almost feels like it gets harder as the years go on. I never took you for granted but I always thought we had more time. I thought you were going to come home. But I guess you are home, in my heart. I love you.. Happy Birthday
November 17, 2016
Happy 55th Birthday Day. I miss you so much. I always wondered what you would look like with age.. I think about you often and what words of advice you would have for me if we could speak. But your love keeps me going.. I never pictured life without you, but here I am. When people who knew you speak of you I listen, in hopes that the memories will ease my mind. But honestly it's never easy. It almost feels like it gets harder as the years go on. I never took you for granted but I always thought we had more time. I thought you were going to come home. But I guess you are home, in my heart. I love you.. Happy Birthday
October 19, 2016
Hi Carm,
I know it's been some time since I wrote here, but not since I've spoken to you! I am confident you're always around and that you hear everything we say to you. It never gets easier, but I think we are managing to get by and hopefully making the decisions you'd make and making you proud. Not a day has gone by in the 7+ years that you are not on my mind....and you're always in my heart. You're up there with Aunt Jo, Junior & Toto haha.....and we know you're watching.
Miss you and love you!
Adrianna Mattioli
October 17, 2016
Hey Dad ,
It's been awhile I'm sorry... I just got back from Orlando, one of our favorite places to go together. I rode the Hulk for the first time since they redid it, I thought about you the entire time, you would have loved it. I miss you so much...
September 19, 2016
So much time continues to pass and yet stands still at the same time. As a family I think we will always be stuck in "that" moment that forever changed our lives. As a mother, i can never help but wonder how her life would've been different with her father still here. Some days it's a struggle to be the only parent and you're so tired you think you can't do it anymore. and other days it's what drives you to make the right choices and do the right things and make the right sacrifices. 50 years of my life have come and gone and i still wonder what the future will bring. It's about that time for you to look down and intervene in the little ways you still do. I truly hope there is another life. I look forward to seeing you guys again one day.
February 22, 2015
Hey carm, It's been awhile I know. Life always seems to get in the way. I watched a movie tonight that reminded me of you. Not just because it was about cancer but because it was about people with cancer that had dignity and patience and strength and selflessness in the wake of their own tragedy. I can't remember a time you complained or had a conversation about what YOU were going through. I can't help but wonder how life would be if you were here. Not for me, but for Adrianna. It's always been about Adrianna. She's become a pretty amazing young lady. Not without her faults but she has a kindness and simplicity and strength that is such a reflection of you. As for me, because of what you went through, I'm a better mother, daughter, sister, friend and partner. Go figure. I am grateful to you for that and so many other things. I'll never think it's fair. I'll never think it makes sense. But I will think that somehow you gave yourself so that we would all be better, closer, stronger. Miss you, but I will see you again.
Car,
Danielle Unger
December 25, 2014
Merry christmas in heaven! Miss you each day and wish you were here. Sitting at the table on Christmas Eve without you is always tough. Will never forget how you'd deliver all day and then rush to be with us for christmas eve dinner. No matter how many years pass, no one can ever come close to being the brother, friend and father that you were. You will be forever missed. Please know that your memory lives on in your beautiful little girl and we thank you for being a part of our lives!
Love n miss you always!
May 30, 2014
Hey Carm, Was flipping through some pictures on the computer so I thought I'd visit for a minute and say hello. I know it's been awhile but you know how life always has a habit of getting in the way of the things we should do. It never ceases to amaze me how fast the years past and how none of it gets any easier. I read Adrianna's last entry and it only reassures me that no matter how hard I try to be "enough", I can never begin to fill the void she's been left with since you've been gone. It hurts me so that our little girl has had to grow up without her father, especially a father like you were. As close as her and I are and as much as I love her, I just don't possess the stability and strength you had to give her some of the most important tools she needs as she's growing up. I can teach her how to excel academically, I can teach her work ethic but without her father her personal life has met some struggles. (We already know I'm no good at teaching her finances LOL) Please watch over her. Give her some guidance, let her know once and a awhile you're still here and things are going to be ok. Remind her how amazing she is and how much she is worth. I want her to have a better personal life then the one I created because I didn't know better. Funny how you always found the good in me even when it wasn't very obvious. I hope I was able to give back some of the same support and strength you needed those last couple of years. Our friendship was certainly stronger then any relationship could be. Adrianna is an amazing reminder of you, all the way down to the clothes turned inside out and the crumbs wherever she's been eating. LOL I'll never understand why this happened but I'll always be grateful for who and how you were and what you brought to everyone's life. I hope wherever "the other side" may be, you are happy, healthy and peaceful. Keep looking down, I know we keep looking up!
January 14, 2014
Hi carmine i know we never got a chance to meet but i feel as if ive known you for ever. all i ever hear about you is that how amazinggggg you are! that just lets me know why ur beautiful daughter is sooo amazinggggg well love you man peace
June 9, 2013
Hi Carm,
Hard to imagine that four years has passed already. Time flies, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with you being gone. I know you're watching over Noodle & Lee and the family thanks you for that. Noodle is doing good- still manages to be stronger than the adults when it comes to you not being here. I can only hope that you're happy and worry free and enjoying a peaceful life on the other side. Not a day goes by that we don't think of you and miss you. We would give anything to have you here. As always, I thank you for sharing this day with me; a day that will forever be ours! It means the world to me....it's not just MY birthday, it's OUR birthday!
Love you Carm.
Adrianna Mattioli
June 8, 2013
Hey dad sorry it's been awhile, this isn't my favorite place to visit no offense. Tomorrow, 4 years ago was probably the most drastic change I've ever had to endure in my life, sometimes I ask myself how I got through it . Probably because of you . I sure as hell don't miss you any less. You send me little signs to know you're around, at least i like to think they are from you. There's so many things we still had to experience together, and why you're gone doesn't completely make sense to me yet. My heart is broken dad. I just hope June 9,2009 isn't the last time ill ever get to speak to you, I've been waiting, on a dream, on anything. You taught me a lot about life, even after you were gone, & I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for you. I just wish you could see me for the woman I've become instead of the little 14 year old girl you left here. But one thing I was blessed with was one of the greatest dads & guardian angels anyone could ever ask for . Miss you & love you . -your daughter <3
June 7, 2013
hey carm, i hadnt realized just how much time has passed since i last visited. another year has come and gone and as always its never been the same. so many things come up, some silly, some important, but i still wish u were here to experience them. adrianna is growing up so fast that its hard to believe how old that makes me! lol i think overall you'd be proud with the outcome. it hasnt always been easy, but its always been worth it. i try and love her enough for both of us and although i know nothing can ever replace you in her life, i do what i can to find some balance. ( and we all know " balance" isnt one of my fortes" lol) well ill be back again. ur always on our minds and in our hearts. keep an eye out. and i could really use thise lotto #s if u have a hook up. haha love ya
November 17, 2012
Happy Birthday Carm! Wish you were here to celebrate it. Time sure has flown by but I can't say it's made it any easier. It's hard to do this parenting thing on your own sometimes. Even the good times would be better if you were here to enjoy them too. You'd be proud of her. She's got a good mix of both of us. I know she misses you so much and it breaks my heart more then anyone knows. Watch over her please. It's a rough world out there and everyone can use an angel. Talk to you soon.
September 13, 2012
Hey Carm, Well I guess you've been keeping an eye on the house since we've been gone. lol It's nice to know it's still there and God knows that having someone else to take care of it sure has made my life alittle easier. I finally got you some new grass! Not sure how long that will last given the grass track record but I know you always liked having green grass around the house. It looks brand new since they moved in, with all the painting and everything. You would've like the wooden floors I bet. Having the dogs at my house has been a challenge, especially since luigi is as bad as ever. I'm getting a patio built for the mick mouse because somehow I know have managed to get 2 dogs, a cat and horse to take care of. Amazing isn't it?! Would've never happened to you........you were way too practical for all that. Adrianna started college at FAU. Looks like I'll be getting a 4 yr degree all over again! lol. Well I just wanted to stop in and visit for a minute. Miss you as always. Keep looking out for everyone....but keep the sliding glass door shut will ya?
July 20, 2012
Anyway, like I was getting to before this piece of garbage work laptop exited me............ I wish there was another way to do this because I hate change. Mentally it just doesn't work for me with how my mind operates. If there's another way please show it to me. If not, know I've done what I could for the past 3 yrs. Running a "circus" is a lot of work alone lol!!
Talk to you soon. Keep everyone safe and look out for us. You were always good at that.
Noodle's Graduation
June 9, 2012
Good morning Carmine!
Well, it's June 9 again- already. Time sure does go by fast. Three years ago I could never have imagined I would be writing to you on this website. Still think of you each day. Miss hearing your voice & seeing your smile. And your laugh, that laugh was contagious. There's no doubt that you are so proud of Noodle for all that she has accomplished. The great Father that you were to her & the great Mother that Lee is has made all the difference. She has so much of both of you, it's scary at times. I know that she misses you so much, so please continue to watch over her & be there for her. Guide her into this next chapter in her life....it's still amazing what a great team you & my sister were. Our time with you changed all of us for the better- knowing you made us better people.
I will forever treasure you & the times that we shared. I will forever celebrate you on this day & am more honored with each passing year that I get to share my birthday with you. I thank you for being you- there is & never will be anyone that compares. You are always in my heart & I love you!
D
May 16, 2012
I have no doubt you're as proud as I am by what she's accomplished. I know this is a bitter sweet time for her without you here. Please let her know you're watching. She misses you so much, everyone does. 3 yrs sometimes feels like yesterday and at other times a lifetime. I want her to have a good life, a happy life, a safe life. She means everything to me and I know she always meant everything to you. Thanks for being such a great father, it helped me be a better mother.
Talk to you soon.
Me
April 17, 2012
Hey Carm,
Over a month has gone by already since the last time I wrote. Amazing how fast the time goes by. Before you know it, it'll be 3 yrs since you've been gone. And still, there remains a void in everyone life. A little over a month and our little girl will be graduating and on her way to college! She's turning out quite amazing. She's talented and smart and finally she's getting our "work out" bug so she's going to the gym too. I thought you'd appreciate that :). We have our trials and tribulations but for the most part her and I are as close as any
mother and daughter can get. We've done a pretty good job if I must say so myself. I still can't help but be saddened that you're not here to share her life with her. No matter how much I love her, it'll never make up for dad. I have a hard time accepting that as a mother because I want her to be happy ALL the time and I know that's not possible because they're certain things that all the fun and gifts in the world cannot replace. You were one of a kind. No argument there from anyone you ask. I can only hope you find a way to continue to have an influence on her life. (Cause my influence isn't always so good lol)
Talk to you soon.
Love ya
March 3, 2012
Hey Carm,
Just sitting around thinking about"stuff" so I thought I'd stop in and write. It's a fun filled weekend of cheerleading competition! I hate to admit it but she's pretty good at it and I'm starting to enjoy watching them do so well. Scary, huh?!? I'm glad she found something she really enjoys. She's growing up so fast. I can't believe she's graduating already. Please continue to watch over her. I can't do it all the time. Besides my parenting skills "slack off" now and then. LOL You were always the conservative, practical one. She's got alot of both us so I think she'll be alright. I know she's gotta miss you. I hate that you're here. No matter how much time goes by. Adrianna met an old frien of yours by chance the other day. The whole thing was a fluke so I think that was just a sign from you letting her know you're still looking out for her. I'm sure she knows that in her heart. You were an awesome father and friend. You don't get too many of those in a lifetime so we were lucky to have you.
I'm so sorry Carm that this happened. If there was anything else I could've done besides pray and hope and believe I would've done it. I hope you never felt let down or alone, ever.
Talk to you soon.
Love me
January 22, 2012
Hi Carm,
A New Year with the same old, same old going on. Seems like I get busier and busier with a whole lot of nothing. Got rid of my mercedes yesterday and got a Sierra truck lol. I know you love a truck so you'd appreciate that one. You know me, just cleaning up my messes after the fact like usual. Adrianna is doing good. It's hard to believe she's graduating this year. seems like just the other day I was cleaning up after her and doing everything for her. OH YEAH, that was just yesterday because she's a slob like you were. haha Everyone still misses you sooooo much. I know you'er still around but somehow it still doesn't seem to be enough to take away that heartache that comes ith the rality that you're still gone. I always wonder what goes through Adrianna head if we feel the way we do about the whole things. I'm not sure we'll ever know. She's got that knack like you did for not talking about "things" like that. We'll I wanted to take a few minutes to write before I go about my normal day of obsessing over working out, laying in the sun, etc. Some things never change!!:) Take to you soon.
Love Me
danielle
November 17, 2011
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARMINE!
Today we celebrate you & all that you stood for. The man that you were when you were here on earth & the man that you continue to be in the lives of those that knew you. 29 months since you passed & it's still a daily struggle to understand why. We were all supposed to grow old together; there are a lot of things left to do & left for us to share. I can only ask for your guidance as we work together to turn things around. LeeAnn can't do it all by herself...raising a teenager is not something that was meant to be done alone....not to mention, those who know me know that I am no where near a patient as you!
We know you're around, we feel it. I know when I see a UPS truck at the exact moment something is happening that it's you letting us know it will be ok. I miss you so much & wish I could pick up the phone to wish you a happy birthday today. What I wouldn't give to buy you a Walmart gift card or some crazy camping equipment!
Please continue to stay a strong force in our lives- you will ALWAYS be in our hearts.....thank you for always staying true to who you were. That's what made you so special. Your ability to do the right thing no matter what the circumstance or who disagreed with you. There will always be only one Carmine- we could only try to be half the person you were. Thank you for being a part of my life & allowing me to share special times with you and learn from you.
Love you Carm.....
November 2, 2011
Hey Carm, I guess my last note didn't post for some reason. There's alot to tell you, but I'm sure most you know since I know you never stop looking down on everyone. The years seem to be picking up speed and I all of a sudden feel like I haven't been able to keep up the way I should've. All this time I thought I was honoring what you wanted but realize that in the scheme of things, I missed by a long shot. I'm sorry about that. You know me, always the best intentions but the worst decisions. Times like these I wish more then usual, if that's possile, that you were still here. I'm sure if you were plenty of things would've gone differently. Knowing you, you're probably not upset at me. You're probably saying, "That wasn't the best idea, but I thank you for trying". Even after being divorced forever we managed to raise this amazing daughter. Sweet, smart, loving, giving, beautiful, funny..... and happy. Now I struggle because I can't seem to find the balance to keep that closeness her and I always had, especially since you left, and still make sure I'm leading her down the right path. I have tried so hard to love her enough for both of us maybe I love her to a fault. I just want a great life for her, a happy one ya know. She's so not a little girl anymore yet I still worry as if she were a baby. Your house is still holding up, aging, in need of some cosmetic surgery, like me :). The dog is still just cute and bad at the same time and the family has just enough dysfunction to make it "normal". I think of you often and still can't grasp how or why things happened the way they did. Please manage to somehow stay a part of Adrianna's lfe so she'll have the strength and know all to make better decisions like you always did. You always managed to never care what anyone thought as long as you thought you were doing the right thing. And you always managed to be genuinely good to the core. Talk to you soon.
Love me
Angelo Fernandez
October 1, 2011
I still think of you from time to time.
Jo Ann Signorelli
June 10, 2011
Hi,
Two years.. it doesn't seem possible. Maybe because i didn't see you on a daily basis so sometimes I just think you are still waiting for us in Florida. You know and when we come you will be there telling us to come over for BBQ. You always took care of us!! You are missed. Bianca pulled out pictures of when she and A were babies with you!! I know how you touched our lives and how loved you are!! Continue to watch over everyone, espeically your precious angel Adrianna and LeeAnn. You made us all better people and you continue to live on within us and everyday that we treat others with love we do so in your memory!! We love you!! Love Jo Ann and Bianca!!!
Helena K
June 9, 2011
Well Carm...2 years today. It seems like only yesterday I saw your smiling face. A lot has happened even since the last time I wrote here. Big changes! But all for the better. We'll celebrate you and Danielle today like we'll do every year...I'm sure people will stare when we cry but we can't help it!! Help everyone through the day Carm, I'm sure your presence will be known :) love you!!! <3
Helena K
June 9, 2011
Love u Carm! Thinking of you today and always!!
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danielle unger
June 8, 2011
Hi Carm,
On the eve of the 2 year mark, I sit down to write to you & am still at a loss. I am so fortunate to share my birthday with you tomorrow- forever, yet I am so sad that you're not physically here. There is a hole in my heart & the heart of everyone that had the great fortune of knowing you. It's a sinking feeling to not be able to talk to you (face to face, that is), to hear your awesome laugh & just spend time with you. I remember all of our Disney trips together when you would do your best to convince me to camp out with you in the 5 room tent...never did work though & I thank you for always showing up the next morning to pick me up at the fancy hotel! What I wouldn't give to camp out with you in your 5 room tent now. I can only hope that although I don't write as much, you hear me
day in & day out. You left a very empty space here. One that no one, no matter how they try, can fill. Two years & there is still no one that comes close, even scratches the surface of being the man you were- and still are to so many.
We all miss you & it kills us each day to be without you. Until me meet again, please know that you are still a huge part of my life. I am priveliged to have gotten the chance to share so much with you...to have the friendship we had, to have the family bond we had...and to now always have June 9. I thank you...although I didn't want you to ever take your last breath, I thank you for choosing my birthday...I will forever dedicate that day to you.
Continue to watch over all of us. We could really use it. LeeAnn & Noodle are doing their best to make you proud down here, so don't forget to stop in and let them know you see their efforts.
I love you & miss you buddy.
Joe B
June 1, 2011
My buddy, It seems like forever yet it seems like just yesterday since I was able to talk to you and see you. Although I may not write often I am sure you are hearing all my prayers for you. I miss you and just hanging out at the house. One day we will be together again. It will be beautiful. I'm taking the family on a week cruise in 9 days. I will think of you often knowing how much fun we had on them and how much you enjoyed them. You may be gone for 2 years but you will always be in my heart and my prayers forever. Take care my Brother and watch over all of us down here!
Your Buddy,
May 30, 2011
Hey Carm,
Well the 2 year mark is just around the corner yet there are days I feel like we went through all this just yesterday and others when it seems like a lifetime since I saw you or spoke to you. 2 years to try and make sense of all of this. 2 years with no better understanding then I had when you first got sick. 2 years of wondering if there was anything different that could've been, of second guessing the "other" options. Life certainly hasn't slowed down. I keep waiting to "exhale" but there never seems to be any time for that. I'm trying hard to balance both houses although there are times I question how long I can do it. It's amazing I even manage sometimes. I want Adrianna to have this house. I know it's what you wanted. Eventhough I know you'd have sold my house in about 2 minutes.lol. Bet you're glad I'm not so practical afterall huh. You were always better at making the practical decisions. I just wing it. Keeps life exciting. I'm gonna have the house painted. It's long over due. And the fred flinstone furniture is on it's way out! It's like a 90's flashback in this place sometimes.
Well, I'm gonna go and check in with your daughter. Yeah, she forgets I'm the parent every now and then.
Talk to you soon. Miss ya.
May 12, 2011
Hi Carm, Just wanted to stop in and say hi and let you know you were on my mind. I was thinking todat about Adrianna graduating next year and how fast the years are going and how I'm still so angry you're not here for all this. She's turning out to be quite a great young lady even with that attitude she has sometimes. I wish you could see her compete. She's something else on stage considering how shy she is otherwise. And even though cheerleading isn't my favorite sport, I do enjoy watching her and being a part of it. I'm doing the best I know how down here so if you could keep looking out for us while you;re up there, I'd appreciate it. Everyone misses you so much. It's been such a tremendous loss to everyone. I certainly hope I have that affect on people someday. To know you can ouch so many lives by simply just existing is quite an accomplishment. Well, it's late and tomorrow comes and goes in the blink of an eye so I'll say good night and talk to you soon. Love ya
March 26, 2011
Hey Carm, Can't believe it's been so long since I've written. I guess the every day craziness consumes you sometimes and you don't even realize how much time has passed. We still think about you every day and all the time. Adrianna is growning up so fast, probably faster then you would've liked but she's turning out okay all the way around. Despite the challenges she means everything to me and I know not a day goes by that she doesn't miss you. I'm doing the best I can by myself and although I don't always get it right, I'm keep trying. The dog is still just............ bad. I really don't know what else to say except that he is possessed but so cute it's hard to hate him. (once he stops barking of course). I wish I could just talk to you, even if it was only a few minutes. 2 years is a long time. Did I mention how much fun keeping up 2 houses is? :) So far the garbage disposal died, the closet door feel off, the light switch blew for I think is going to require an electrician, the screens are definitely 21 yrs old, but the landscape in the front looks nice!!
Well I just wanted to say hello. I'll talk to you soon.
Love me
December 25, 2010
Merry Christmas Carm! How I wish I could say that to you face and hear you say it back. We still open presents at the house and eat pancakes and the dog steps all over everything and although it feels like you're there somehow, it stinks that you're not. I know how much you love Adrianna and your house and the dog and the cat and as much as I try to love enough for both of us, I know I can't. Our daughter is the love of my life and it hurts me so that you're not here to experience her growing up. (And experience the heavy breathing, eyerolling, head bobbing attitude thing too! haha) She got her belly button pierced. Doubt you'd have gone for that one but it looks cute on her. I know this wasn't your favorite time of year because you worked so hard and so late, but it's that "family" time of year and the family's just not the same without you. Please watch over everyone. Know we're all thinking about you and miss you. Funny, no matter how many times I write, I can't seem to say anything else because whether it be 18 months or 18 years, I'm sad you're not here with us.
Good night Carm.
Me
adrianna
December 16, 2010
hey daddy sorry i havent been on here in a while ,but you know im always thinking about you! it's still not easy coming home to an empty house. it'd be nice to here your voice again... well i love you and i remember around this time of the year you'd come home late and be exhausted. i miss you and wish you were here to enjoy every holiday with you. i love you. good night dad <3
December 13, 2010
HI Carmine,
Just thinking of you this holiday season and wanted to tell you how much you are missed and thought of throughout the year. This year bianca and i decorated a street lamp in our town and we put a sign on it and it says "dedicated to carmine!!" because we love you!!! Keep watching over everyone!!! Love; Jo Ann
December 11, 2010
Hi Carm,
I stopped in to write to Aunt Jo & thought I would say hello...well, that & as always, tell you how much we miss you & how much this stinks! To think, it's been 7 years since Aunt Jo was taken & 18 months since we lost you. Time goes by so fast, but nothing seems to change the sadness that comes with you being gone.
Miss you each day & wish you were here!
Loce you Carm!
December 11, 2010
Hi
Its been a while since ive been on here but its hard to read. I went to halloween horror nights this year. The first one i went with you and adrianna. You both laughed at me for only going in one house this year i went in four. i still drive by too look at the house and expect to see your truck now i looke for adriannas car. you were always myy uncle carmine! reading what everyone says there right it is still hard and i know your looking over everyone. i love you and i miss you,
Gina T
December 9, 2010
And so another holiday without 2 special people, you and aunt jo. Since you've left, there's been so many other people I know that have had to endure the same sadness of either watching someone they car about suffer with this horrible disease or die from it. And with all the technology and modern science and improved..everything..people still have to go through this. Maybe instead of inventing another electric, wireless, 2,3,4G network or energy efficient something, this should be the focus so people wouldn't have to go through this.
Ok, well, just wanted to vent to someone who never gets tired of hearing my mouth :)
Made some good pizza!! You'd appreciate it.
Talk to you soon.
November 19, 2010
Love u Carm!!
November 17, 2010
Happy Birthday Carm. I couldn't begin to say anything different then I have every other time I log in here to talk to you. The disbelief never leaves me, the anger only seems to get worse as time goes by. Time doesn't really heal, it just gives you no other option then to accept the reality and keep living because the world doesn't stop, or even slow down for that matter. I know everyone visits the cemetary, but Adrianna and I just feel better being in the house surrounded by your spirit I guess. We miss you always and you are always in our thoughts, conversations, etc. We're all getting together on Sunday to celebrate you. We will do that always.
Love me
November 17, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARMINE!
WE LOVE & MISS YOU!
November 17, 2010
Happy Birthday Carm!
No matter how many of these pass, we will never be able to accept you not being here. I miss your laugh, your smile, your easy going ways...I miss just knowing you were here with us. Still wish I could call you to wish you a happy birthday & to find out if you'd prefer a walmart giftcard or a brandsmart gift card!!! Although as LeeAnn said, the house is the same- nothing else is. Life isn't going back to normal (I use the word normal lightly in this family). Somehow each morning is still filled with what happened & the fact that you're gone. I'm still sorry you had to endure what you did & can only have faith that you are truly in a better place. We brought Elton to the cemetary last week to visit. I thought that would lighten the mood...needless to say, going there for you is never what I imagined when I thought about the future & about all of us growing old together. Noodle has decided to get all of us together on Sunday for pizza & chicken wings- at least we can honor you through food ;-)
Well Carm, what can I say!? You're the best & I miss you tons. However you celebrate in Heaven, I hope you know that down here on earth we celebrate you too!
Love you Carm!
October 15, 2010
Hey carm,
I know it's been a while but that doesn't mean you haven't been on my mind. I wish I could say that it's gotten easier as the time has passed but I'd be lying. I'm sure I'll spend the rest of my life trying to make sense of this somehow to no avail. I watch Adrianna growing up and I'm so angry you're not here to see it and share it............and suffer through it sometimes might I add :). I'm doing my best to keep the house because I know that you'd want her to have it. You loved that house so as hard as it is sometimes I can't let it go because of that. I know she wants it too and I'm doing what I can to bring her the happiness she's missing without you around. It wasn't suppose to be like this. This was never suppose to happen. There's just this, I guess sadness that lingers. My mom, my sister, your sisters, everyone misses your kid like,simple, genuine, honest ways. You truly appreciated the little things in life, which makes the hole thing even harder to accept. Even the dog is different, and he was no peach when you were here. He's evil but still so adorable. The house is the same...........and I mean that literally. The cat, well you knwo i hate a cat but Mickey is sweet. Adrianna's doing a great job driving. But coming from me I'm not sure how big of a compliment that is :). Work is work and I'm going to win the lotto someday and take care of everyone. Being able to do that will be the one thing that would bring me happiness. Well, Carm, I've got a crossword to do. I still "cheat" as you called it, but not as much. Talk to you soon. Visit sometime.
Love me
August 21, 2010
Sweet sixteen is an odd description for a teenager now that I'm a parent. The word "sweet" is not the adjective I'd have gone with. :). Well your daughter is driving..all by herself. I can't accept that you're not here to see this and experience it but there's a whole lot I can't accept anymore. She's doing great though, really becoming quite a young adult. Her cheerleading coach couldn't speak more highly of her. That's nice to know that she carries herself that way when we're not around to watch over her. I'm doing my best to keep life as "normal" as possible. If there even is a "normal". Having family over for her bday. Wish you were here. Watch over her when I can't.....you have that "inside" advantage now.
Love ya
August 18, 2010
Hi Carm....Happy Sweet 16 to your beautiful baby girl! Wish you were here.
Love, US!?
August 9, 2010
Well you had to know if the decision was up to me, she was getting a new car:) I know you were there. Watch over her and let's hope she inherited your driving skills, the insurance is high enough with my lousy driving record! She's a great kid Carm. We couldn't have done better. The teenage years are trying but I'm handling it in my usual calm and collective way. ha ha ha. My poor family......... Wish you were here.
Talk to you soon. Me.
Armando Gerardi
August 6, 2010
Hi Buddy. Joe & I went to the bank Atlantic center last week and we had VIP parking under the ASrena. The first thing we thought of was you when we all went to the Panthers game and you thought the parking was the best part of the evening! We both laughed then and now. Your were Best!
August 5, 2010
Always in our Hearts...we miss you Carm
Love, Geoff, Danielle & Elton
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danielle
August 5, 2010
Hi Carm,
I'm stopping in to say hi & remind you that I still think of you & miss you every single day. Today was bittersweet. Seeing Noodle experience a milestone in her life without you physically being here was tough. It was a good day, but tough. I know you're looking down, smiling & watching over her. It's probably the rest of us that need you're Angel powers now to get through these things. I know you're proud. And you should be. I thank you for the hard work & dedication you & Lee put into Noodle to make sure she reached these milestones & phases of her life with as much ease as possible. What you guys did together is amazing & she is living proof of that. No matter what anyone ever said about you guys, you raised a better daughter than most. She looks like you, walks like you, acts like you & eats like you. Now, let's just hope she drives like you!!! All your years of "Safe Driver" at UPS better rub off on her :-) Please keep an eye on her & keep her safe in this next chapter of her life. I know you would have given anything to be here today & she would give anything to have you here...you're with all of us each day in our hearts.
As always, I thank you for being you. For being the greatest man & the greatest Father...no one comes close!
Love you Carm. Miss you buddy.
July 30, 2010
Hey Carm, Thinking about you. Seems like a million things have happened since you've been gone and yet Adrianna's mile stones are just beginning. I know you're looking down sharing every minute.
It's still wierd. Guess it always be.
Talk to you soon.
Me
adrianna
July 9, 2010
hey dad just stopping in to say i love you . dont want you to think i forgot about you. it'd be nice if you'd come back now <3 i love you muah!
July 9, 2010
hey carm,
today was a "bad day". miss u.....still
love me
June 20, 2010
Happy Father's day Carm. Adrianna and I got a big father's day chocolate chip cookie in your honor. Figured you always appreciated a "food" gift the most anyway! ha,ha
Me
June 9, 2010
I sit here, not only still in disbelief that you're gone, but more amazed that a year has gone by. A year, gone in what seems like the blink of an eye, and yet every detail of those last few days as vivd as if it happened yesterday. I wait for time to heal but I believe that there isn't any healing for an emptiness like this. I thought seeing the wedding video tonight was going to be emotionally overwhelming, but instead I can truly say it was so nice to see you, just be you. Through all the treatment and ups and downs, it was nice to see you for that brief moment in time, smile, and laugh and dance and really enjoy yourself, almost forgetting what was really happening in your life. I struggle with what you went through. The decisions you were asked to make, the reality you were asked to accept. I have a million questions for you. A million thank yous. A million admirations for the person you were. People struggle to do the right thing, to Be good people, be unselfish, be genuine, be honest... It came naturally to you. That's why you were who you were. That's why in the wake of you being gone, there is sorrow for those who are left behind and an emptiness that can't be filled. I'm angriest for Adrianna. That our daughter has to experience things without you. That the good times are a little less happier and the bad times a little more difficult. She loves you so. I'm angry you both got cheated. I know you watch over her. I know you are her guardian angel and I know that you loved enough to last her entire lifetime. And I guess that's a blessing she can keep with her every day for the rest of her life. And as long as I'm on this earth, there will never be a day that you aren't part of her life in some way, shape or form. Watch over everyone. And if you can find a way to bring everyone some peace, please share it because there are alot of broken hearts you left behind. Good by for now.
Me
June 9, 2010
Carmine;
God's blessings come in many different ways! You were definitely His best!! I cannot beleive a year has passed. I wished I could have made things easier but my prayers are all I could have offered and now that is still at times all I can offer Adrianna and LeeAnn!! When I am at your house I too still wait for you to call and say hey come over for a BBQ.. I can't imagine how everyone else is feeling if I am feeling empty today. You have a beautiful daughter as you know and as I watch her grow you must be so proud but continue to let her know you are there she needs your guidance as does Lee!! I know in my heart you are not in any pain and for that I am grateful. You are Loved and Missed!! Forever in my thoughts prayers and heart, Jo Ann and Bianca
danielle
June 9, 2010
I sit here, ready to write to you with such a hole in my heart- it's as if this nightmare just happened. Knowing it has been one year since we spoke, since I had the opportunity to thank you, in person for being the greatest person- the greatest friend. The greatest Father the Noodle. The greatest "son" to my Mom. The greatest "brother" to me. A year since I was able to tell you that I love you- face to face. I have been going over every detail of the last week of your life, wondering if there was something we missed. It's true that only the good die young, but is this what this was really about? Did they really need another angel in heaven? Cause I can tell you that you are definitely needed here on earth! It's sureal that you're not here. That you won't call me today to wish me a Happy Birthday- like you did for almost 20 years on this day.
We miss you Carm. All of us. Nothing seems to be getting easier- not yet anyway. It's amazing how much life changed when you took your last breath. You have a beautiful daughter that is working so hard to make you proud...I know you are looking down on her with a huge smile on your face. She is so much like you- it almost makes it harder sometimes.
So many unanswered questions- did you know? Were you ok with it? Did you know for sure how much you meant to us?
Thank you for being you. For being so special & for always doing the right thing. No one can ever take your place, Noodle is right about that. Most don't even come close.
Before I go, I want to also tell you how much it means to me & thank you again for 2 of the greatest honors you have given me. Walking me down the aisle last year and sharing this day with me. Forever. Although this wasn't what I had in mind at 12:01 AM on June 9, 2009- when I whispered on your ear "Ok Carm, it's officially my birthday. Give me the greatest gift of all & get better." I'm glad your suffering ended and am so glad we were able to be with you until the end, but the end of your life here on earth changed the lives of many.
I love you with all my heart! Please continue to watch over Noodle & LeeAnn, your sisters & Mom & the rest of us here.
Miss you buddy.
Love you.
adrianna mattioli
June 8, 2010
who would of know that one this day last year would have been the last words we exchanged. " hey dad, i'm gona see you when you get better ok? , i love you. "i love you too"....i dont know how to feel really. i think it sucks that every great experience in life is based on the sad fact you aren't here. i can tell you one thing , i'm not gona watch that wedding video to make myself miserable for 3 hrs. ha. well i dont want tomorrow to come because now i won't be able to say, "this time last year, i heard his voice, or huged him." times passing , too fast. i hope you didnt know and you werent scared because that bothers me more the the fact that i miss you. life's deffinetly different. where's the happiness in life if everyone you love leaves? it's crazy you're gone. sometimes, i think about it and STILL can't believe it. in reality, everyone misses you but you were still my dad, something no one has two of and someone who can't take that place. not that i would want anyone to, im just saying. i love you and i miss you and you watching over us isn't good enough because i want you here. every bad thing in life is made harder. im sorry you went what you went through and got no relief. or did you? i'm sorry theres not a phone # for heaven to here you're voice and find unanswered questions. and when i don't cry it's not cause im not sad bacause you are on my mind 24/7, i just keep busy. i love you and miss you <3 xoxoxo
May 27, 2010
I find it amazing every time I have to come to this "place", to the obituary section, to drop you a note. Let me start by saying how after almost 1 year of you being gone, it's not 1 minute easier for anyone. So much for that "time heals all wounds" thing I guess. I know how proud you must be of Adrianna. Everytime I look at her I think what a good job we did. How no matter what happened, we managed to make a strong, intelligent, caring, sweet, funny person......the slob part's all you though ha,ha She's determined to honor your memory by being the best she can be at everything she does and although I know it's frustrating for her sometimes because of the load she carries, she manages.....the bad attitude is all me. It's her and I now, we know that (and Luigi, mick mouse and Radar:))but we like to keep you involved. I try not to rehash the last few days before you passed but I can't help it. It all happened so fast. There were a million things we should've talked about but there never seemed to be enough time to think about anything else but how you could be ok. I mean what was there to talk about? Talking about what you wanted after you were gone was like admitting you weren't going to be ok and that was never an option to us no matter what the doctors said. The whole thing really makes you question your faith boy. Hey, on another note my dad has gastric bypass surgery.........stop laughing:)I cancelled Scott's lawn service, they're useless. I had the driveway resealed. The dog is just ........bad. No surgery for me yet because I hate that stuff. The other thing was definitely a bad idea like you said it'd be but my intentions were good. Ok, my hairs gray, probably grayer this past year so I need to move on that. Talk to you soon.
Love me
danielle
May 24, 2010
Miss you Carm!
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Daddy & Noodle in Disney World!
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danielle unger
May 24, 2010
Hi Carm,
Well, once again I had to start over. I must have been rambling on, so you cut me off!!
It's hard to believe that the one year mark is almost here. One year since the terrible news- one year since you were taken from us...too soon.
And, even after almost a year, not a day goes by that I don't think of you, talk about you, talk TO you or cry. Ever since we got the puppy (Elton- I know you're laughing at his name !)we feel you around even more. Many nights he jumps up out of his sleep and goes over to your picture on the wall...looks up at you and at times, he even barks. It's as if you were there, talking to him. I know you're here- I know you watch over us- especially Noodle. And you must be so proud. She is amazing & doing so well in school...it means the world to her to make both you and LeeAnn proud.
I can say that although I am at peace that you are no longer suffering and the pain has been taken away, the pain of you not physically being here is torture. There are so many things that have a different meaning- less of an importance, without you. Geoff & I talk about you all the time. We go over the last few years, those last months, weeks and days...and the days that followed. Probably not a good thing to do, but it't hard to wrap our heads around the thought of you not being here. We talk about all the great things you did for those in your life. We miss you. It's that simple.
I want you to know that it means the world to me to share my birthday with you- the first day of your new life. Your pain-free life. Can't say I would feel that way about most people we know (haha), but you- there is no better person I would want to share that with. I promise to celebrate you each year...there are so many things about you to celebrate.
I thank you for being the person that you are. I thank you for being part of this family & bringing such joy to our lives. You are truly an angel and I miss you more today than ever.
Love you Carm.
adrianna
May 2, 2010
i love you dad <3
April 20, 2010
Hi Carm,
It's been a minute since I visited but that's not to say you're not on our minds every day. As new things come up, it still seems amazing that you're not here to talk to them about or share them with. It's the first thing I thought of when Adrianna was trying on prom dresses. How many more days like this you won't be here for. i know you're watching, I know you're proud but there's no substitution for having you here. Found out I need carpal tunnel surgery in both hands. Yeah, you know how I feel about all that. Handling it like I would any major medical ting that involves an IV and a pointy object. Remember the whole wisdom teeth thing?? Yeah, I feel the same way about the hands. Thing is you can't do both hands at once like all 4 wisdom teeth. I try and pacify myself by reminding me of how much you endured and how's this is "nothing" compared to that. Unfortunately it's not motivating me to rush out and get it done. But I'll keep working on it.
Everything is else is ok I guess. Dog is bad. That's all i can actually say about that. Cute, but bad.
Danielle and Geoff got a dog,yorkie named Elton. They act stupid too, don't worry.ha,ha
Well I'll be back to visit soon.
Love me
March 15, 2010
i just miss you. i just hate you're not here. Adrianna amd I were talking about you the other day. We both miss you being here. It hurts me even more for her. She loves you and misses you so much. It's true, it's not getting any easier as time goes on. I think it gets harder because it just makes it longer that we haven't talked to you or seen you or heard your voice. I'm soooo sorry you had to go through all you did. I wish there was something I could've done to make the outcome better. I tried everything I knew. No matter how hard O search my soul, I can'tseem to find any peace in any of this. I'm even more angry that Adrianna has to deal with this. We did such a great job raising her. She's amazing. I know you're proud. I know how much you loved her. She was lucky to have such a great dad. It's really made a difference in the person she's growing up to be. Keep watching over her. Visit sometimes. I can't do this all by myself. I hope you're glad we still have the house. It's pretty much just ike you left it, just a little cleaner and maybe organized:)You can feel that you're still there. That's why no matter how difficult it is sometimes and how much I complain sometimes, it's hard to imagine not beign able to go there ya know?. Well passed my bedtime. Talk to you soon Carm. Love me
danielle unger
February 8, 2010
Hi Carm,
I know I haven't stopped in to write in a while. I think i'm in the "angry" phase right now, so they would likely not have posted what I had to say!!! Time is flying by and tomorrow will be 8 months since you were taken from us. I do feel you here, often. I know for a fact that the little "signs" are you sending a message and I believe you are watching over all of us...especially Noodle. We are all managing to get by, but life is really different. I knew when we left the hospital for the last time that night that it would be forever changed, but I'm not sure any of us could imagine just how difficult it would be to go through the motions knowing you were gone- physically. Our Anniversary is coming up next week and I seem to keep going over those few minutes right before you walked me down the aisle. I can't say it enough- that it was one of the best decisions I ever made in my life. There could have been no better man to hand me over to Geoff. I thank you for that honor. For giving everyone the opportunity to see you do that once. It's a memory that could never be erased. I hope you know how truly missed you are. The ache is not going away. Many days I feel it getting a bit worse. As time goes on the realization that I haven't seen or hugged you in 8 months is overwhelming...There isn't a day that goes by that I am not thinking of you, talking to you and missing you. Take care of your little girl & help us out down here with the life you helped LeeAnn make. It's not easy for her...she's getting it done, but a little help would be nice ;-)
I'm glad I finally calmed down enough to write and hope you know that we all love and miss you so very much.
Thank you for being you. There will never be another Carm! It is truly a blessing to have you in my life...keep the "signs" coming.
Love you & miss you buddy.
Danielle
adrianna
February 7, 2010
Daddy’s Little Girl
Brown haired, brown-eyed angel
That’s Daddy’s little girl
He quickly held her close to him
When she came into this world
With loving hands and a gentle heart
He taught her right from wrong
However, before she knew it
Her Daddy would be gone
For her Daddy was very sick
Even though it was hard to understand
Until that dreadful day in June
When God took him by the hand
Now her Daddy’s gone from Earth
And when she calls his name
He doesn’t come running to her anymore
Yet she loves him just the same
I’ll always be your little girl
My love for you will never part
For you reside with Jesus now
And forever in my heart
adrianna mattioli
February 7, 2010
hey dad,
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
We would walk right up to heaven
To bring you down again.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say good-bye.
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God knows why.
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow,
What it meant to lose you,
No one will ever know.
When we are sad and lonely,
And everything goes wrong,
We seem to hear you whisper
"Cheer up and carry on."
Each time we look at your pictures,
You seem to smile and say,
"Don't cry, I'm only sleeping,
We'll meet again someday."
.............................
i love you dad and i miss you terribly. thank you for visiting on aunt donna's birthday! and it's hard to be around the family when everyones parents are there but mine, like at grandmas house, i hate that. i just really want you physically here. i can't wrap my head around the fact that it will be years until i get to see or speak to you again. i can share memories with you but not experience them with you. softball is starting, thank you for teaching me everything you knew about it, but i wish you'd come to my games. everytime i go to the movies i pass the clevland clinic and i clintch my hands together, close my eyes and wait until that disgusting horrible place is out of my sight. anyway, i might do dual enrollment, but im not sure is i should. can you help me? and im 27 out of 588 kids in the 10th grade. isnt that good? im trying for you, and myself of corse. who knows , maybe one day i'll find a way to sure your type of cancer. it's funny how medicine is only a practice eventhough it's so critical to life. i need you <3. i'm breaking down, slowly. sorry i havent started up youre mini bikes, i dont really know how. and im going to photoshop you in my wedding when that day comes. i hope you're proud of all that i've done. i love you and i miss you. see you soon <3
love always,
your sweat pea/
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