Brad Heward

Jan 20th.
Hi Honey, You would have been 46 today. It is hard to know what to say. It just stinks that you aren't here to celebrate your birthday.
Would you like to hear something odd? We are surrounded with people in this family whose birthdays are Jan 20th husband. Your niece, Vicky is 25 today (born 4 days after we met), Cousin Lisa's daughter (right next door) Sierra Sunshine is 22, Jen's boyfriend Zack is 23 today, and Shawn Kirby (he helped brother Kirk build our house and they are...

1/16/08
Hi sweetheart,
Guess what today is. I know you know, we met this (Sunday then) morning. You ran past my north window around the corner past the east window to check out the mallards in the Quailbrook apartment complex pond. You caught my eye...through both windows. I thought to myself, "he looks interesting". Then as we headed out to the Lark sanddunes, jeeping, I caught your eye. I fell in love with you pretty quickly, you were just crazy enough to fall for me just as quickly....

Brad - Here it is New Years Eve, it is hard for me to believe that it has been two years since we lost you. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you wish that I could just see you again, hug you and take all of your pain away. The memory of you is so imprinted on my life, I see you as my little boy, so cute and always smiling, so good natured. Everyone loved you that knew you. You grew into this special young man, one that I am still so very proud of. Brad when you...

11p.m. Dec. 22nd. Before I go to bed tonight Honey, I want you to know that this day 2 years ago my heart was broken. No one can know the pain I feel. I can't express the heartache I have. My best friend, Jen, Brad, and Katie's Dad, and the love of my life (my soul mate), it's hard to think of living the rest of this life without you. I believe God when He says that I can only do it one day at a time and He gives me just enough for that. I am so grateful for the life we shared. We may have...

December 22nd
Dad, before I go to bed I have some things I want to say.........

Has it really been two years?
Has this time really passed this fast?
Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
Ever Since you've been gone
There’s not a tear that's rolled off my cheek that I wasn't thinking of you being gone
Only because It's not fair to me
losing you at the age of 15
You alone are the most amazing man I've ever known, my hero my dad
Although I know...

Well my good friend, I can't believe you've been gone 2 years already. There's not a day that passes when I don't think about you. Everytime I drive to work, or just in the Salt Lake valley, I can see where Lark used to be and this gets me thinking of the wild and crazy times we had growing up. I'm sure if there's such a thing as a free-spirited angel, you're definitely one of them! Though not brothers by blood, I always saw you as my brother and loved you as one also. Till we meet again...

Brad, it is getting close to two years since we lost you. I still hurt inside every day and miss you so very very much. Sometimes it is so hard to fathom the thought that you are gone and that I will never be able to see or hug you and tell you how much I love you. I never though in my whole life that grief could run so deep and for so long. I pray each and every day that God is surrounding you with his love and comfort and keeping you in his care. Brad we will never ever forget you,...

June 17th. It's Fathers Day Honey. It has been a particularly difficult day today.It didn't seem to get much better as the day progressed. One of those times I struggled to not cry all day.
Vicky and Guy got married yesterday at Margie and Tim's the wedding was really nice. Katie and I sang our song "When You Say Nothing At All" it sounded really good. Our voices blend really well. Remember how we would sing that song over and over again together for each other? I like remembering how we...

Hello My Valentine!! Big kisses and hugs for you from me. I love you Brad. I miss you so much. I thought about you all day Valentines Day. I even bought some New York Steaks thinking of you; they look really yummy. And I'm sure there will be enough left over for lunch material. I'm also sure Bradley will eat enough for both of you, and I'll enjoy one for you too.
Wish I could have gotten this to you on the 14th, I couldn't get to a computer; you're here in my heart, honey. I made copies...