Brendan Hart Tash

You are so missed by so many...

Dear Brendan, It's my birthday today. I can't believe now I am 41. Time flies. I wonder how things would be if you were still here....I don't think of you every day...I think it's easier to block out painful things...but sometimes I have dreams that you are alive and it feels so real and happy and exciting during the dream....then I wake up and slowly realize I was just dreaming and it's so weird....still can't believe what happened....

For Brendan, How many years since we lost you, precious one? It does not matter, you are indelible in our hearts, thoughts and memories. We will visit, hopefully today - a balmy day, just the opposite of when stood on that bitterly cold, wind-swept day of agony. Always on my mind, Love Dad

Hi B. I just woke up at 0315 am suddenly and felt like I couldn't breathe because I was so happy. I was driving with Keara endlessly throughout all over the east coast because this man told me that you were alive and kept giving us clues to where you were.... (I know, strange) I can't remember now all the middle of the dream details but it was an excitement I've never felt before...trying to find you. We finally found you and Keara pointed you out across the parking lot of this shopping...

Hi B. I just woke up at 0315 am suddenly and felt like I couldn't breathe because I was so happy. I was driving with Keara endlessly throughout all over the east coast because this man told me that you were alive and kept giving us clues to where you were.... (I know, strange) I can't remember now all the middle of the dream details but it was an excitement I've never felt before...trying to find you. We finally found you and Keara pointed you out across the parking lot of this shopping...

Hi B. I just woke up at 0315 am suddenly and felt like I couldn't breathe because I was so happy. I was driving with Keara endlessly throughout all over the east coast because this man told me that you were alive and kept giving us clues to where you were.... (I know, strange) I can't remember now all the middle of the dream details but it was an excitement I've never felt before...trying to find you. We finally found you and Keara pointed you out across the parking lot of this shopping...

Hi B. I just woke up at 0315 am suddenly and felt like I couldn't breathe because I was so happy. I was driving with Keara endlessly throughout all over the east coast because this man told me that you were alive and kept giving us clues to where you were.... (I know, strange) I can't remember now all the middle of the dream details but it was an excitement I've never felt before...trying to find you. We finally found you and Keara pointed you out across the parking lot of this shopping...

Brendan always would put others before himself; I warned him about do so in dangerous situations. I just read that one does not learn most from one's own experiences, but from others' experiences -- would that it would have been so with BHT and me.
I just met yet another person who knew you and was even there that fateful night ~~ a woman named Sarah who commiserated with me, emotionally.
When I think of you my thoughts often go to the time YOU bailed me out as a pre-teen, taking a...

Missing you always ♥ Especially today ... 14 years seems like it was yesterday...