Jason Todd DeLeon

Jason, my boys still miss you a lot everytime I see them and we visit they talk about how they had a dream about you or they remember a funny story about you. You made them laugh and they learned from you. Where has the time gone, does not matter, people who knew you are still missing you and ache at your absence. I have read all the entries and it is so clear that the world needs more people like you. Since my father's passing I can now understand the grief and sadness of losing someone...

To Jason:

I can't call you on your birthday and wish you 'Happy Birthday J'!
I can't buy you a gift.
I can't give you a birthday hug and kiss.
I can't buy you your birthday dinner and have you argue with me and try to give me money to help pay for it.
I can't celebrate with you.
I can't hear your voice or your laughter.
I can visit you at the cemetery, but it is too hard still to think of you there.
I can hurt and long that you were still with us.
I can and do...

To my daddy:

A little girl needs Daddy
For many, many things:
Like holding her high off the ground
Where the sunlight sings!
Like being the deep music
That tells her all is right
When she awakens frantic with
The terrors of the night.

Like being the great mountain
That rises in her heart
And shows her how she might get home
When all else falls apart.

Like giving her the love
That is her sea and...

Kristol, I just heard about what happened. I wanted you to know I'm praying for you and Kyra. This has to be the most painful thing ever. I know I haven't seen you or Jason since high school but I'll never forget the memories. He was such a wonderful person, you are truly lucky to have him in your life and your heart. My heart breaks when I think about this. If you need someone to talk to, I would love to talk.

HI J
I MISS YOU BRO I LOVE YOU, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY. THIS HURTS SO BAD. IT DOESNT SEEM FAIR AT ALL. BUT IM SOOOO HAPPY THAT GOD BROUGHT YOU INTO MY LIFE. I CANT WAIT FOR ALL OF US TO BE TOGETHER AGAIN. IN THE MEAN TIME I PROMISE I WILL DO MY BEST TOO LIVE A GOOD HAPPY LIFE. I KNOW THATS IMPORTANT TOO YOU. GOD WILLING LUPI AND I WILL BE ABLE TOO TAKE KRYA AND KRISTOL TOO DISNEYLAND AND OTHER STUFF. DEPENDING ON KRYAS AGE N STUFF,IM SURE THE BROTHERS WILL BE THEIR TOO I SWEAR TOO YOU...

WELL THIS HAS BEEN THE FIRST VALENTINES DAY THAT WE HAVE SPENT WITH OUT YOU IN A LONG TIME. EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE GONE YOU WILL ALWAYS BE OUR #1 VALENTINE.
WE MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU!
XOXOXO
LOVE YOU, KRISTOL AND KY BUG

On Jan.18th I woke up in tears. on this my birhtday I knew I wouldnt be recieving the one phone call I'd become accustomed to getting, the one from my dog J.I always knew that shortly after he called, Bobby and Raul would follow. I am convinced that J would have to remind them because this year it took a week to hear from Raul. I love J as one of my own, his compassion, honesty, wisdom and love for his girls always left Irene and me in awe.
It is said that a person dies three...

Well it has been one month since I got the worst news in my life.I have been thinking about you every day since then. Having someone like you in my life for all those years has truly been a blessing, but something I took for granted and I am sorry for that.I miss you so much bro.I love you and I will see you again.

Dear Jason,
Hello my love. Well I don't know how me and Ky have made it a whole month. When I get so dark and down something inside of me makes me push through that. I know that it's you looking down on your girls. Just wanted to let you know that not a minute goes by when I don't think about you.
Today we brought you flowers and a little puppy. I know they are so trivial because you are in a better place. Kyra also let go of a red heart balloon. She watched for awhile until she...